#i overeacted

[pinkniz]

Sometimes I wish I never complained about the amount of Freddy nsfw content bc ever since I did it I get called homophobic now and then and that i hate gay men because I said hes bi because he likes Heng Yue and Yun chuan in a NONcanon segment

Like

All I said was that i thought him getting lewd so much was becoming annoying

Im sorry, idk, it genuinely makes me sad sometimes because I know that mlm content is very limited and queer men have few safespaces and sometimes I feel like Im invading those safespaces and I really dont wanna upset anyone, Im a neodivergent bisexual woman, i know how much it sucks to have your safe space invaded and disrespected.

To be honest I think Im so defensive of Freddy for the same reason, I was SA and hes a character that brings me a lot of comfort and safety, he makes me feel stronger, hes my safespace. But I understand I must've overreacted, I never meaned to make everyone uncomfortable or to upset anyone and Im really sorry if I did

[loadingbnha]

the one downside of Stain's quirk... can't kiss All Might without paralyizing him :\

[zatdummesmadchen]

TW// VENT // MENTAL HEALTH

Okay, genuinely asking

What does dissociating feel like??

Because I think I have been dissociating a lot recently and it feels like everything is on autopilot. I feel so empty, lost, heavy, and tired. I have been spending a lot of time on my phone lately, listening to music and wanting to be alone. I feel so alone and have no one to talk to. The thing is, I don't want to talk or interact with people sometimes, yet I feel like I want to, but I can't talk to anyone. I don't have anyone. I feel paranoid and anxious about a lot of things, including my studies, because I feel like I know nothing at all and have been procrastinating a lot. Oh I can't even sleep properly. I keep waking up and feel so shitty. My mood shifts extremely at times, with feelings of strong numbness or giddiness, especially when daydreaming. It's like daydreaming feels so hazy, and dreams seem to mix with reality. I have been dissociating, at least I think so. I don't know, guys. I haven't properly talked to my online friends, not even opened TikTok except Tumblr, and I have been consuming fanfics a lot.

I manage to repress my outbursts, but I get easily irritated, frustrated, restless, and annoyed. I feel aggressive at times and very anxious. I feel irritated, overwhelmed, and frustrated so easily too. Like, oof, I feel the need to be very perfect but often feel lazy, tired, and procrastinate a lot. I wish I had somebody. I used to be overly dependent, clingy, and obsessive with friends, wanting to gain their approval and bending over for them. My relationships feel intense or cold and unstable from my side. I frequently experience rapid changes in feelings towards people, alternating between idealization and devaluation.

My negative nightmares cause me to wake up feeling numb, frustrated, distressed, or afraid. My daydreams are silly and normal.

Is it BPD?? ADHD??? I TEND TO FIND DIFFICULT CONCENTRATING AND STAYING PUT....

Genuinely need some advice !!!

Like I would love to hear that I am just overreacting but I can't ignore this anymore..... I don't want to have anything like bpd I am lready so uhh

[beebopurr]

hey jessie hey jessie it feels like a party everyday hey jessie

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[ableedingpromise]

God I'm so fucking annoyed how come she gets to treat me however she likes and then gets to say she didn't mean it?????

[lostsoulau-ask]

I waited for an entire month and finaly, he arrived !!

LOOK AT HIM!

my boy had arrived !

[live-at-fortune-city]

Look through my past and you'll see All the lies I've lied And why I'm justified

[thexie-and-stars]

i might have a stress fracture lol

[mrblazeflappybird]

Hmm do I pretend its all fine to them or do I tell them whats up even though I don't completely know whats up in the first place

[flunkett]

parents are confusing. sure she'd tell me i was hysterical and dramatic when crying and screaming, she'd tell me to get it over with when id threaten to kms. but shes told me she loves me, buys me snacks and calls me pet names. shes said im worthless, never indulged with me or played with me as a kid, said im "really annoying, you know that?" when i asked how to clean the dishes. but she spent so much money on my braces and on therapy. she would be cruel to my brother for years and call me a lazy bitch when i cant leave my bed but so what? she drives me when the walks too long and gives me money when i havent earned it?? complains i dont do chores despite never teaching nor letting me but she works so hard to take care of us as an elderly single mother. she'd touch and hold me when i said i dont want it but atleast shes hugging me? its so confusing.

[thedndgoblinwholivesinyourwalls]

today has been a mix of ‘life is shit’ and ‘life is ok we got this’

[threehours-aday]

so i opened x and meta platforms to a shit tonne of 'rdj racist' posts, and it's actually quite hard to keep my cool but after rewatching the damn moment for the umpteenth time, i have a few points to make:

firstly, as a fellow vietnamese, i feel bad for quan kế huy and was understandably angry at how he was ignored (you can't convince me he wasn't overlooked in that one second—the camera gave a good angle on that). it was sad and it was disappointing, to be so enthusiastic then given the cold shoulder; it's almost heartbreaking to watch.

secondly, as an rdj fan and mcu supporter in general, i believe in rob, still. i find this to be a common occurrence, no matter how much time you have spent in the spotlight, you get overwhelmed sometimes. that's normal. you forget things and you be rude because your mind is in overload, and i reckon getting your first oscars must be an appropriate time to get emotional—when else if not then?

so, in short: i think this has nothing to do with racism. being impolite is not equal to being racist. there were six people on the stage, excluding rdj himself, and in a rush of emotions he simply could not hug and shake hands with all of them, that's very, very ordinary. it doesn't justify him not greeting quan kế huy properly, though; that's basic manner when someone presents you an award. you do need to acknowledge and thank them for giving it to you (even if they aren't the ones who decide whether you get the award or not). he was being rude, and i, as a fan, am disappointed at his lack of manner.

rdj rude, yes. rdj racist? nope.

[wholegrainporkndbeans]

Ever since I started posting psychonauts content on TikTok all my vids have been flopping rly hard and it's starting to make me genuinely sad

[umilily]

missed a call from my friend and now i’m panicking that something happened

[fluffypichu876]

ah, the dark souls experience of feeling absolute joy when recovering your beloved fourty thousand souls

only to immediately feel dread because now there are fifty thousand souls at stake.

[corujalesbica]

Okay, smt happened, and I need yalls opinions to see if I'm making shit up. So. I've always hated physical education, ever since I was a kid. Sometimes, I had a bit of disliking of the teachers, even. But this guy. My high school pe teacher is the absolute worst pe teacher I've had. The first time we met, idk, his vibes were just off. Our private school is known for being good at sports and winning the town's schools competition every year, the hs pe teacher is ofc, head of that, and he has this Winning Is All That Matters mentality that he openly talks about that I think is kind of a red flag.

Suffice to say I disliked him from the beggining.

Then, one time we were at class and he made a Homophobic Joke (tm). We were doing this activity and he went like "Get a partner. Oh, no, *laugh * Partners a faggot thing *laughs* *cis boys laugh *

I was really mad but I didn't say anything.

And THEN (and this is the part I want yalls opinions about) some time after that, last year, he slapped my ass with a racket, which, to me, was sa. So I told the school counselor and she talked to the staff who told me they were gonna talk to him. Never mentioned it again with me.

As I said, that was last year and this is my senior year aka last year having to deal with this man for 50 minutes a week. Thing is, I'm really uncomfortable in his class, minutes feel like hours and even though I'm on meds I get so anxious I feel like throwing up. He's been paying more attention to me, approaching because he knows I don't like his class and he wants me to apply myself more. He puts a hand on my arm or shoulder to show me the right moves from my side and it's culturally common here, I have many male teachers who do soft touches like that and I don't mind, thing is, when is him, it feels like my skin is dirty where he touched, like it's about to burn, I wanna burn it.

I feel like that but at the same time I feel like it wasn't real sa, and most people I talk to act like it's normal and some defend him. I want to talk directly to the school staff and see if I can get rid of pe maybe, specially because I do martial twice a week so I'm good on exercises, but maybe I'm just making this up and it was nothing.