#i overcome my social anxiety

[cosmictap]

Little story from today:

So I went to the library for the first time since like 2019 and i needed to get a new library card since mine was very much out of date, so i (after a LOT of convincing myself) walked up to the receptionist and VERY nervously asked about a new library card, gave him my old one and i’m so sure he could see exactly how much i was shitting myself because my hands were shaking so much 😭 anyway, he asks me how old i am, to confirm my address all that stuff, i’ve calmed down a little since i’m like ‘oh okay maybe i won’t get outcasted for trying to get a new card’, he asks if my first and last name was still good.

Instead of backing up like i usually do and saying it was fine, i asked if it would be possible to change my first name!!!!!! Anyway the point of this was: Peter (i think that was his name i was genuinely terrified the whole conversation though) thank you idk what you did but i didn’t start crying so you did something right

And now I have a library card with my chosen name on it :D

[mumintroll]

giving up drinking is hard bc at uni almost all of my social life is going to the pub or going out. i caved last night and had some drinks at the pub but im going to try and not have any for the rest of the month. idk i wish it was like school when hanging out meant loitering in a park for 5 hours and then going to someones house and having their mother make dinner for u all and playing viddy games until u get kicked out

[spicyliumang]

I feel so offputting to the general public and have no idea how to fix it KDKDKDK

[audiovisualrecall]

This is a start, anyway. Lots of research and work ahead.

[spec-squared]

gosh, this musician i like just wore a pirate costume with fucking Black Tights and his legs are gonna be the death of me

[machinedramon]

it's cool seeing ppl reminisce abt stuff but then it just kinda feels like i'm intruding and maybe don't belong since everyone else has so much history :/

[pesikoshka]

Once you get this, you have to say five things you like about yourself, publicly. Then you send this to ten of your favorite followers (positivity is cool!!)🌈🌈

i'm screaming you're so sweet omg ;;__;; thank you aaaa <33333

uhhh i think i'm good at writing?

I Have Good Takes And Am So Right About Everything <3

i'm really good at statistics and database management ajsdfghrerfhg

oh god what else is there lmao uh i have pretty hair i guess i am the borderline blonde rep after all

asdfgfrjedfgh ;;__;;

[the-kipsabian]

i got so excited about getting an email that my stamps have shipped

is this what being an adult is like?

[pxrplepolkadots]

🤗

[aquareegia]

i would love to have a conversation with Vessel, he seems like a super interesting person and honestly i just really wanna know how his mind works!!!

[chasingstardustandmoonbeams]

I’ve been having a bit of a nervous breakdown due to an incident at work a few weeks back (a parent got through security and tried to break into my room TWICE). Plus, you know, still grieving my mom from her passing in May.

Started seeing a therapist and hoping I can get some more time off work. I’ll find out tomorrow 🤞🏽

This is a long winded way of saying there will be no writing for a while. No matter how much I love writing I really (finally) need to put myself and my needs first.

[axolozzy]

I LOVE MUSICALSSSS

[olibavee]

sometimes it really is just me and video game soundtracks against the world.

[deliciousmicroplastics]

working on a sticker design

[itsadragonaesthetic]

Some parents are so fucking mean and rotten to you because "the real world is a terrible place, get used to it" and then you go into the real world and it's actually better than dealing with them.

[zakizendetandi]

me before i lock myself into a night of socialising: just breathe okay, you’ve done this before and you can do this again. you can survive this. it is nothing really, you are stronger than whatever hardships you will face. trust yourself and your instincts. you can do this. you will improvise, adapt, overcome. you are strong and normal and fine and you will survive this night.

me before i do something actually dangerous: woohoo let’s goooooooo!!!!!!