#i overcome my social anxiety

[cosmictap]

Little story from today:

So I went to the library for the first time since like 2019 and i needed to get a new library card since mine was very much out of date, so i (after a LOT of convincing myself) walked up to the receptionist and VERY nervously asked about a new library card, gave him my old one and i’m so sure he could see exactly how much i was shitting myself because my hands were shaking so much 😭 anyway, he asks me how old i am, to confirm my address all that stuff, i’ve calmed down a little since i’m like ‘oh okay maybe i won’t get outcasted for trying to get a new card’, he asks if my first and last name was still good.

Instead of backing up like i usually do and saying it was fine, i asked if it would be possible to change my first name!!!!!! Anyway the point of this was: Peter (i think that was his name i was genuinely terrified the whole conversation though) thank you idk what you did but i didn’t start crying so you did something right

And now I have a library card with my chosen name on it :D

[cyanrendipity]

Bocchi the Rock is unironically the most accurate representation of how growing up with severe social anxiety felt like to me, even with all the usual anime exaggerations the core of it is WAY TOO ACCURATE (honestly even the exaggerations are)

I should rewatch cause my memory is choppy (or maybe I should finally read the manga) but man I remember my heart literally pounding cause the exact way I've felt and had never seen expressed was right in front of me (The whole show made my heart pound tbh, it's VERY good)

[mumintroll]

giving up drinking is hard bc at uni almost all of my social life is going to the pub or going out. i caved last night and had some drinks at the pub but im going to try and not have any for the rest of the month. idk i wish it was like school when hanging out meant loitering in a park for 5 hours and then going to someones house and having their mother make dinner for u all and playing viddy games until u get kicked out

[jan-aki]

I love watching other people play Keep Talking and Nobody Explodes, especially the symbols module

When you play with the same people all of the time, you (sometimes subconsciously) build up a system, and when you watch other people play you see them build their own system, and when group a plays with group b, you end up with a combination of group a and group b's system

Anyways, great team building game 100% recommend

[olteacup]

hehe, made a friend and we actually talk?? like i was expecting just to be mutuals but we actually had a conversation and it was so nice (i was a bit scared at first but shh)

big shoutout and a big hug to all the new friends I’ve made!! srsly the amount of friends i gained this year was shocker (it’s a lot to me!)

[spicyliumang]

I feel so offputting to the general public and have no idea how to fix it KDKDKDK

[spec-squared]

gosh, this musician i like just wore a pirate costume with fucking Black Tights and his legs are gonna be the death of me

[the-kipsabian]

i got so excited about getting an email that my stamps have shipped

is this what being an adult is like?

[pxrplepolkadots]

🤗

[aquareegia]

i would love to have a conversation with Vessel, he seems like a super interesting person and honestly i just really wanna know how his mind works!!!

[chasingstardustandmoonbeams]

I’ve been having a bit of a nervous breakdown due to an incident at work a few weeks back (a parent got through security and tried to break into my room TWICE). Plus, you know, still grieving my mom from her passing in May.

Started seeing a therapist and hoping I can get some more time off work. I’ll find out tomorrow 🤞🏽

This is a long winded way of saying there will be no writing for a while. No matter how much I love writing I really (finally) need to put myself and my needs first.

[axolozzy]

I LOVE MUSICALSSSS

[deliciousmicroplastics]

working on a sticker design

[lisxdumbr]

I feel so abandoned lately.. it's like I'm a little girl and today is my first day of school and I know no one once again. sigh

[astrxealis]

honestly i should interact w my moots more w/o fear. just come into your askboxes asking you to please see ffxiv zero and dod zero and etc

[zerokcalsugar]

heading out to the pride event now, will do an interval run + some abs once i get back