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what actually happened at dashcon to make it so awful? ive seen lots of stuff making fun of it and complaining, but nothing explaining why

It is one of the biggest errors in world history and here’s why:

Although starting in the middle of summer with a few small battles, it eventually dragged on for almost six more months into a brutal winter

The Russians’ scorched earth policy surprised the French and made the French’s advances much more treacherous and costly

Napoleon’s thirst for a full victory were impossible to satisfy because the Russians refused to engage in any prolonged battles, instead wisely choosing to use guerrilla tactics to decimate an already broken, famished, and sickened French Army.

Over 17,000 French troops lost their lives each month during the disastrous campaign

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You know, I used to think I hated poetry, sometimes I still have the feeling maybe I do? But then I realize I like it

I started hating poetry when I was a kid, I remember going thru my mom's huge collection of books and finding a really small book with a pale blue cover that caught my attention, I asked my mom if I could read it (there was adult books in her collection so I always asked) and she took it from my hands and laughed saying I wouldn't understand a poetry book, I was too young and it was way too complex for me, even adults can't understand it properly! I've always been a very spiteful person at my core, so that type of attitude just made me so mad I didn't want to touch the book anymore lmao

I encountered that gatekeeping time and time again relating to poetry, people talked about it like it was something beyond "the average person" like you had to have some sort of special understanding to "truly get it" and it just made me think "If I'm not good enough for poetry, poetry is not good enough for me"

After that whenever I encountered a poem that truly touched me I would pretend it was an exception, "surely poems cannot be good, they're made confusing on purpose to keep people out" I would think "This one is easy to understand it's not like 'those' poems" (don't even know which poems 'those' were)

Anyway it took a LONG time and encountering many types of poems written by many different people about many subjects until I realized, poems are in fact nor good or bad by nature, it's like any form of art, and it kinda made me mad at people who made me think it was something "only some" can understand and appreciate cause it kept me off from it for a long time.

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『25 Lives』 by Tongari (ಌ)

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I know I’m being an insufferable worldbuilding nerd here, but my basic metric for evaluating media with very inhuman protagonists is “how easily can one offer a complete and coherent account of this media’s plot without ever mentioning the fact that the protagonist is, for example, a talking car?”. The harder it is, the higher it scores.

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would you still love me if i was a worm?

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me holding a gun to a mushroom: tell me the name of god you fungal piece of shit

mushroom: can you feel your heart burning? can you feel the struggle within? the fear within me is beyond anything your soul can make. you cannot kill me in a way that matters

me cocking the gun, tears streaming down my face: I’M NOT FUCKING SCARED OF YOU

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i'm literally the priest's favorite sacrificial lamb because i am so docile and sweet and i hold very still when they put the rope around my neck and i trot along so happily while they lead me to the altar and they do not even have to tie me down because i lie so very still and only bleat once or twice in my lovely lamb voice and when the knife comes down it cuts through me like butter and i offer no resistance and i bleed so prettily all over my new white wool and my guts all unspool like the most beautiful shining yarn and my eyes are animal and dumb and hold no accusation and every time i die i come right back as another little lamb because the priest loves me so so much and he always chooses me for the sacrifice every time and he always places one hand on my small and twitching nose to calm me while he lifts the knife and he doesn't do it for the other lambs only me because i'm his favorite

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gambling with angels is easy. they can't lie but they have addictive personalities; it's easy to clean them out then make them divulge secrets about the business of heaven to call your bets. my dad used to say "hey, watch this" and summon angels to play poker with him with a sort of bone flute he inherited from his grandpa, and they'd be holding horseshit and still want to call him. i'm talking "raise on a two pair" level bad at it, but they couldn't stop trying to win. my dad taught me all the secret names of God before i was out of grade school and i would use them to curse my enemies so they came down with leprosy. you can cure leprosy these days but it still sucks, especially for a child. but they had it coming for pissing me off

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My conduct this year landed me on Santa Claus's fabled and controversial "Kill-at-all-Costs" List. Turns out the reason the big man and his people don't exercise that option more often is that they really aren't good at following through on it. Well outside their core competency. He's delegated to the elves, and they've got this ingrained assembly-line mindset that doesn't translate at all to the adaptable and fluid mindset needed for siege breaking. They just haven't adjusted their playbook at all from when they're doing rote deliveries. Armed Elves have been rappelling down my chimney one at a time into the roaring fire I've kept going nonstop for the last week. They haven't even thought to try my front door yet. Whole house smells like peppermint, which it turns out is what burnt elf meat smells like. Thought I was being super clever putting cyanide-laced almond milk out with the cookies as a last line of defense, but none of them have made it even the scant few feet to the side table where that's sitting. At the rate things are going the real danger is that I'm gonna forget what I did with that and accidentally drink it myself while I'm watching the show

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Cat ppl will be like "There's no love like a cat's love" and dog ppl will be like "there is no love like a dog's love" and they are both correct.

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Another color palette challenge!

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Rereading 📖

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Speaking of manhwa now I remembered Cheese in the Trap (which is not a yaoi) that's def one of my favorites ever. Gotta be one of the few stories with a "yandere" type character that I actually enjoy, I've reread it a couple of times but now I kinda want to reread it again.

It's so long tho and there's several "sagas" which is usually a turn off for me but I love the mc so much, she deserved better.

The dynamic of Seol wanting to believe in the current Jung that treats her well while having this deeply seethed paranoia due to past experiences with him is so good! The fact you're not sure if her memories of their past is reliable since there's nothing concrete and there's always the benefit of the doubt to how Jung acted towards her so both the reader and Seol cannot be sure if she's misjudging him. The gaslight is so nice 👌

I think if Seol was another type of mc the story wouldn't have been as satisfying as it is. They try to redeem Jung at the end and they stay together and I'm still unsure about it but the whole thing before the ending is so interesting to me I kinda just ignore that part

And yeah my taste is a pendulum rapidly swinging between "oh that's so sweet I love it" and "oh that's so fucked up I love it"

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I'm always reading yaoi to pass the time (since it's usually simpler stories that are easy to read when I'm too tired to concentrate) so I've read A BUNCH but there's some I'm always coming back to because I cannot find anything else that scratches the same itch.

One of those is "Define the relationship" which is an alpha x alpha omegaverse manhwa that is SO SWEET IT HURTS. I'm a sucker for a type of dynamic I'm not sure how to describe and this one is like, SO GOOD at it. I thought I could find something similar in other alpha x alpha but no luck so far 😔

It's when one character thinks they aren't deserving of tenderness and another character gives it to them, I die. The association with the weight of expected gender performance while failing at that gender performance also gets me.

Define the relationship as a romance story is pretty average tho, there's some tropes in it that I dislike (like easily solvable misunderstandings as conflict) but the characters are just so sweet it's worth it for me.

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that one dialogue abt sholmes crossdressing

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this is a drawing about how i love my cat