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Who in enha mtl enjoy giving head/who you think would be the best at eating š±
ngl this one was kinda hard cs i feel like all of them would rlly enjoy giving/receiving head but i (tried) my best nonnie !! >_<
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f!reader | warnings: smut, oral (f. rec), d/s dynamics, fingering, overstim, edging.. i mightāve missed smth but its 2 am and iām hella sleepy soooo
eating you out is heeseungās favorite pastime. that boy practically lives between your legs in his free time. he could be having a bad day and he swears that giving you head is the remedy to cure everything. i think sometimes, heād bring you to his studio and ask to eat you out when heās having trouble with his creative flow/when he needs some motivation, idk heās just kinda silly like that lol. plus heād look all cute while heās begging to and looking up at you with the most precious doe eyes, asking for one (1) single orgasm to get his brain going. just really loves knowing that he can always please you with his mouth, often getting hard to the thought of the view youāll bless him with while heās down there. proudly obsessed with your pussy and would do anything to get to taste you on his tongue <3
jake is theee pleasure dom. eating your pussy just makes him feel good along with you, getting a sense of accomplishment after making you cum a few times with his tongue only. often has wet dreams of like.. just eating you out. wakes up and makes it his mission to make you cum as many times as he can using his mouth. i think heād be very strategic (?) with how he eats you out, wanting to figure out a way to make you feel the best you can which leads to many sessions of him just experimenting and observing the way you react to him ?? results in jake āaccidentallyā teasing and edging you for what feels like hours, feeling mean when you whimper and deciding to reward you with anything you ask for. youāll have to speak up though or heāll just continue his teasing ! ><
jay is just very sexy idk, i feel like heād love giving you head a lot. the feeling of being sandwiched between your plushy thighs turns him on badly, loving all the praise he gets while he licks and sucks you to your liking. i think heād also very much love when you use his mouth to get off.. like hips pushed up against his face when you get whiny and desperate. or maybe heās in a different mood and would lightly tap your clit with three fingers when you squirm below him as a warningā it depends tbh. i put him here because i think heād like using his cock the most to pleasure you, often getting up from your cunt to fuck you because heās also very desperateā¦.. T-T
sunghoon mainly uses his hands to get you off. prefers being hands on with you. like he loves to taste you but i think heād definitely also enjoy fingering you more because itās more intimate in a way (?) like he gets to kiss you and feel your hands all over him while you moan into his mouth.. itās heaven for him he thinks. he just loves how you feel cumming around his fingers, kissing the temple of your head when you cum for the nth time that night despite you constantly begging for his cock thatās pressed painfully against your side. he gets you to quiet down with his other hand, covering your mouth because only heās allowed to hear you like this. sunghoonās main goal is to make you squirt with his fingers so heās determinedā¦
jungwonās the type to get pussy drunk, then would try to manipulate you into believing youāre the one whoās needy when heās literally the one acting like a starved man. his tongue lapping at your pussy and moaning into you with his arms locked around your thighs to keep you in place. i think that eating pussy isnāt something he does as often because of the way he loses self control, which is why i put him here on the list. but even when heās pussy drunk, jungwon is pushing your limits by making you cum over and over despite your pleas to get him off your overstimulated clit.
sunoo will give you anything you want. i can picture him with a very spoiled, bratty sub, whining about wanting to be eaten out and complaining when he gets up from being buried in between your legs after generously giving you orgasm after orgasm. heās always eager to please and doesnāt waste a second to give his princess whatever she wants !! like he wouldnāt even punish you for being super bratty, just listening to what you ask of him and allowing your hand to push him into his place <33
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i have a lot asks like these in my inbox so iām gonna try n get thru them all as quickly as i can + i like doing short stuff like this to help me ease back into writing again ! also, if you wanna send me a short request like this feel free to ^_^
#enhypen smut#enha smut#heeseung smut#jay smut#jake smut#sunghoon smut#sunoo smut#jungwon smut#enhypen hard thoughts#enhypen hard hours#enhypen scenarios#enhypen imagines
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heyyy hii !! do you have any recs on jimin focus fic blogs & any recent jimin fics? thank you in advance š
Hi sweet anon! š«
I do! And sorry for taking so long to get back to you, I know itās only been like a day, but it took some time to compile this for you, anywayāonto the list and my recs for you! āØ
Jimin focused fic blogs:
@writtenwhalien - just *chefās kiss* pure talent (she also writes for other than Jimin, but she has a lot of Jimin fics). Link to her masterlist [here] + more of her Jimin fics [here].
@chimmy-licious - reads and reblogs a lot of Jimin fics!
@moonchild1 - not really Jimin focused, but I mention them because they have a vast library for all the members, but hereās their Jimin Library.
@chim-chimmie - writes for all the members, but has a long list of Jimin fics, and alsoāthe writing is just *chefās kiss*. Hereās a link to Krisā masterlist [here].
@luaspersona - mentioning Lua because she has a big library (Jimin specific here), she also writes and her masterlist is [here] Her writing is also super amazing and just UGH LOVE (she has one of my favorite Joonie fics!!!).
@jiminniethemarshmallow - I cannot forget my girl Mae!!! Seriously, I think she was one of the first Jimin blogs I discovered back in the day. Amazing. Just, another *chefās kiss* and the link to her masterlist is [here].
@jimilter - writes for all the members, but their Jimin section is MASSIVE and the writing is another *chefās kiss*. Link to their masterlist [here].
I think thatās all. At least from the top of my head. Iām so sorry if I forgot someone (please forgive me) š
Recent Jimin fics that I havenāt read yet, but I know are great because they are written by amazing authors:
A Loverās Redemption @writtenwhalien; I still havenāt read it, but BOY do I want to! Also, itās an ongoing series āØ
If Only It Was You @oddinary4bts; wah, still havenāt read it, but anything my queen Ella writes is just GOLD.
Almost Romantic @kookiewithluv; canāt wait to read!
Shit Happens @smoljimjim ; I know this has a named reader, but please give it a chance! I havenāt read this one yet, but everything else from this lovely author is just so good!!!
Recent Jimin fics from authors Iāve never read from before (I did a search YAY), but the plot seems interesting:
Innocent @anotherbtsffwriter; the plot seems really interesting and Iāve added this one to my trl!
Foreign @anotherbtsffwriter; again, cool sounding plotāso added to my trl.
If Snow Decides to Fall (series) @pjmmania; HELLO?????! Why have I never seen this one before??? LIKE. I donāt understand? It seems really good, so itās added to my list and itās a Christmas story too, I think???
The Only Exception (series) @heartforbangtan; again, I must be living under a rock because I havenāt seen this beforeābut Iāve seen the author! Sounds amazing and is added to my list.
And just because I just released a Jimin fic of my own, Iām dropping it here. So if you havenāt read it yet, and fantasy is your thing, I have a merman story with Jimin [here] š
I hope thereās something for you on here to dig into, anon š«¶
Happy reading š
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Hi Liv, I loved the hidden gem list that you did in the past. I discovered so many new authors thanks to you. I love going back to my all time favourite authors but I also love discovering new ones. Would you or any of your followers have any hidden gems recs ? Could be long or short fics. Thank youuuu
Iām so happy to hear that! The hidden gems series is very dear to my heart and probably my favorite project. I started a s2 back in 2022 and have a few lists saved in my drafts, maybe I will revisit them in the new yearā¦ weāll see! I found some additional rec posts that might interest you here, here and here. I havenāt read much this year, but if youāre looking for new-ish works Iād highly recommend the fics below, and also my reclist for the h/c fest. Iām sure my followers have more recs. Enjoy! š
Train Song by @fw00shy (T, 1.2k)
"Imagine: An extended summer vacation," Ginny said when she first pitched the trip to the group. "Fine," Hermione said after only a moment's hesitation, to which everyone cheered, because everyone knew she was the only one who could figure out how to make the Hogwarts Express fly.
All I Think About by @skeptiquewrites (T, 4.5k)
Sometimes all it takes is one perfect late summer night in June.
mind the gap by @cavendishbutterfly (E, 5k) - MCD
The first time Draco died was by far the worst. Once Potter started living with him, it got better.
everything you should say by icarusinflight (E, 7.5k)
They're not friends. But when Draco offers help, Harry takes it.
Tarry, Tarry, Wait For Me by @toomuchplor (E, 8.5k)
"I can't ask it of you," Draco says, quick and awkward, "I just thought you should know, I thought you needed to know, but none of this is your fault."
Seasons by @greattemptation (E, 9k)
Seconds pass, and itās like he can see Draco worrying the sliver of glass in his heart, looking for a way to press it out, to expose the wound to the sun. Itās life; Harry can be patient.
Necro-romance by @thehoneybeet (E, 9k)
The first time Draco kills Potter, it's by accident.
like a scratch on the roof of your mouth by @eleadore (E, 9k)
Two weeks into the new year, Draco Malfoy saves Ron's life in a spectacular fashion.
coyote ugly by @garagepaperback (E, 10k)
One night, every month, Harry is a coyote. Malfoy has a silver tooth. Sometimes, he cuts Harryās hair.
draco malfoy's substitute murder service by @oknowkiss (E, 10k)
When Harry joins the Curse Breakers shortly after his twenty-fifth birthday, heās surprised to find himself assigned to the Department of Creatures, Cryptids, and Associated Calamities.
When the Flood Comes by @academicdisasterfic (E, 10k)
Nine years on from the war, Auror Potter is upholding the Ministry of Magic's rule of law. Senior legal counsel Draco Malfoy is challenging it.
Wobble Week 2023 by @moonflower-rose (E, 12k)
Potter can't keep his hands off himself. Draco can't look away.
With Hands Full of Dusk by @corvuscrowned (E, 15k)
Harry thought he'd found what he was searching for after the war. But as the quiet life he's earned begins to unravel at the seams, he finds himself searching instead for an elusive, mythical creature found only in lore and legend - with none other than Draco Malfoy as his companion.
Rich Friend by @sorrybutblog (E, 18k)
As far as Harry can tell, Draco Malfoy is still rich as hell. Heās just not a wizard anymore. Featuring: Draco Malfoy trying to make it as a Muggle pop star, Harry Potter as our confused and horny hero, bad driving, good music, and the mysterious magic of falling for someone.
Waking Up Slow by @sweet-s0rr0w, @ihopeyoubothstaysafefromharm (E, 22k)
'Twas the night before Christmas, although itās July / Dracoās a shopkeeper, no-one knows why / Thereās hiking and witch caves, freak snowfalls and more / Bad Christmas jumpers, nosy neighbours galore / Narcissaās here too, butā¦ somethingās amiss / And whatās in those chocolates thatās making them kiss?
Sun Thief by BlackRose532, @floydig (E, 28k)
Or: Harry beats up a pimp and isnāt sorry about it, Draco deals black market potions, and theyāre shagging. Again.
Truth to Materials by lately, @toomuchplor (E, 54k)
In which Harry learns to appreciate art and other pleasures of the flesh.
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kpop sampler
my dear @auriette was asking about my non-skz kpop feelings, and i have so many of them, so i thought it would be fun to make a little playlist.
i'm sticking with the 10 link limit (which is v hard) but if you also have a lot of kpop feelings, please rb with a song/group rec of your own!
in no particular order:
The Rose (k-rock)
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i love them. They are super funny on social media, and their music is incredible. Screaming this song at the top of my lungs fixes me a little every time. Woosung is also a soloist and he's amazing.
WOODZ
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This song gives me the shivers.
He also has a cover of Hype Boy that is A+
The duality of man.
I think WOODZ is vastly underappreciated, and i wish more people were as into him as i am.
Ateez
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i know i already talked about them a little bit, but i have to do it again because i love them. just a bunch of insanely talented, stupidly hot weirdos. i love that they're all nerds who make legos together and that everyone but hongjoong and jongho have zero concept of personal space. wooyoung and san are medalists in the kiss your homie olympics. (woo is also bffs with changbin and also yeonjun from txt)
i'm still obsessed with this song and this MV. the ateez lore is very intricate and this is basically cinema.
TXT
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insane dance skills, super talented, great music. it was hard to pick which song of theirs to include here, but this is defintely a favorite. def check out devil by the window" also.
they collabed with the jonas brothers and anitta and both songs were incredible. yeonjun just released a solo album. more talented goofballs. i love them.
OnlyOneOf
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i am obsessed with OOO. they are incredible. they do most of their own choreo, they committed to making their MVs queer af and include messages of acceptance and support for the lgbtq community in the notes for all their videos. they paired themselves up and talk about kissing each other casually.
and they back it all up with high concept MVs, insane choreo, and great music that will absolutley get stuck in your head. picking a song was hard, but this choreo is too iconic
Hwasa
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i am obsessed with her. she is also in mamamoo, who are great, but i am currently absolutely obsessed with her cover of lunch. but this song which is a pretty direct call out of the rampant body shaming in the industry is so much fun.
KARD
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kard is the only mixed gender kpop group i know of, and we need more.
they are all adults, and their music and MVs are, too. killer dancey tracks. their friendship is a lot of fun.
BM is also a soloist, and has some very explicit horny songs that don't bother with the (barely) innuendo that kard plays with. he's also hilarious on SM, and on the daebak show
Enhypen
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they're just good. i love a concept album, and they killed it with this.
Evnne
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i love them.
they were all on boys planet, and i love all the groups that formed from that show (i was going to cheat and make a whole playlist of bp groups, but i'm just going to share this one and i'll make a whole separate bp post)
this video and song are just so fun, and they're so good, and i wanted to yell about them.
(all the boys planet boys are also stray kids levels of obsessed with each other, which i appreciate --zb1 is probably the worst-best about this, but they're all super close)
oh gosh only space for one more... ahhhh who to choooose
Blitzers
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this is just so much fun
no one really sounds like blitzers. the horns and big band elements are wholly unique and fit surprisingly well. they are super talented and clearly having a good time with what they do, and it's just a good time.
I hope you like at least some of these songs/groups!
(Now, to play by my own rules and not add another ten in a reblog unless specifically asked to do more!)
Please add your favorite kpop/krock groups to share the joy of good music that we can all be super normal about together!
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Fav deaged tim fic recs? I feel like Iāve read them all so I was wondering if you had any recommendations, thanks!
hello! i actually haven't read a lot of de-aged tim fics yet (though boy would i love to). 95% of the de-aged tim concepts in my head are from kicking silly (or angsty) ideas back and forth with my friends and the excellent tiny tim comics they make. so you probably know this niche better than i do, but here are two fics i really liked! š„°
Little Overlooked Dreams by Lunette3002
a sweet oneshot where 10 y/o tim gets to (re-)meet the bats and learns he's part of the family one day. i especially liked damian in this! and the detail where tim sometimes talks to himself in robin's voice was both cute and heartbreaking.
The 90s Are Back! by RedWritingHood
i rec'd this one on my reverse robins list, but it's worth linking again because it's such a fun (and funny) twist on a de-aged tim plot. reverse robins tim in his sort-of-back-with-the-bats antihero era gets de-aged back to his robin era, meets his many new younger siblings, and still manages to annoy his older bro damian while he's at it. mostly shenanigans, a little bit of angst, and many quotable lines to be found within.
also please look at this art too, it's so cute
#i feel like i'm really picky about this trope only because little kids are so so hard to write#so everyone who manages to write them well is an absolute legend good job#tim drake#fic rec#asks
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How Does it Feel to Read Classic Sci-Fi?
Orson Scott Card: Two of the most interesting books youāll ever read if youāre willing to look past a handful of things. And then you find the planet of Chinese people who worship having debilitating OCD. And the Mormonism. And the fact that the author is wildly homophobic and ought to read his own books.
Robert Heinlein (or at least the Wikipedia Summaries): I guess thatās a neat conceptāoh, itās a sex thing. Um. Gotcha.
Ray Bradbury: Man, I gotta read this thing for class huh. Well hereās hoping itās good! *three hours later* oh. thatās why heās famous. this will stick with me forever and I will never look at the phrase āsoft rainā the same again. christ. And then repeat 3x.
Isaac Asimov: Wow, this is such an interesting concept! I wonder how the exploration of it will influence the plot! Wait, hey, are you going to add any characters? Any of em? No like, with character traits other than ārobot psychologistā and āautisticā and āwomanā? None of em? No, ādetectiveā isnāt a character trait. Those are all just facts. Aaaand now Iām bored.
Ursula K. Le Guin: Hah, get a load of this guy! Heās never heard of nonbinary people before. Lol, what a riot; how dumb do you have to be to comprehend that these people arenāt men *or* women actually? Oh, wait, whatās happening. Oh shit, it was about society and love and learning to understand each other? And now Iām crying? And perhaps a better human being for it??
Andy Weir: Alright, this guyās a really good writer. Funny, creative, knows so much engineering stuffā¦ooh, a new book! ā¦I guess he canāt write women. Well, he wouldnāt be the first sci-fi writerā¦ooh another new book! And itās more engineering problem solving andāwow. Itās not just women he canāt write. Please stop letting your characters talk to each other.
Lois Lowry: Oh, I remember this being fun when I was a kid! Wouldnāt it be fucked up to not see color? ā¦upon reread, it would be fucked up to have your humanity stripped away, replaced with a tepid, beige āhappinessā for all time. Yeah.
Tamsyn Muir (let me have this ok): Haha, ālesbian necromancers in spaceā sounds fun. Lemme read this. Oh wow, yeah, this is right up my alley. OH GOD WHAT. NO. FUCK. OH SHIT WHAT IS EVEN HAPPENING AND WHY IS IT REFERENCING THE BOOK OF RUTH AND HOMESTUCK BACK TO BACK!!! AHHHHHHHHH!! Now give me more please.
#Late night book reviews with Bluejay#Not really#and itās 1pm#If youāre curious which books#or just wanna read another essay:#Card: Enderās Game and Speaker for the Dead are good* and the rest is Fucking Bonkers. Xenocide is the one called out specifically#Heinlein: Stranger in a Strange Landās Wikipedia page but my understanding is itās not the only book Like That#Bradbury: short story āThere Will Come Soft Rainsā will fuck your up; double if you check out the comic. See also āAll Summerā¦ā and Ā°F 451#Asimov: I; Robot is the specific ref but also its sequel novels where youād more expect real characters and not just fact lists also#Le Guin: Left Hand of Darkness specifically but also I just love her lmao#Weir: The Martian then Artemis then Project Hail Mary#Lowry: the only stuff of herās Iāve read is The Giver Quartet but I was shocked how good it was upon revisiting. Damn. Thatās pointed.#Muir: Gideon the Ninth and its sequels. Theyāre so good. Read them. You will be confused by book two. Thatās on purpose. Theyāre so good.#Yes donāt come at me for my tag formatting; 140 chars isnāt a lot. You try getting all three Bradbury titles in there#Also the lack of commas is an issue#Anyways I would rec basically all of these if you like sci-fi save for SiaSL (havenāt read it) and all of the Enderās Game/SftD spinoffs#Also if you do wanna read Cardās work pls get the books 2nd hand or from a library. Or via the 7 seas. His money goes to homophobia :(#But most of em are good and all of em are classics for a reason (save for Muir who really should be lmao)#Also also donāt come at me for including Weir; heās one of the most popular sci-fi authors AND came up in the discussion that prompted this#As did everyone else except Muir because that one is actually just self indulgent.#I worked so hard to tag the first few things such that it would be clear there was an essay beneath the tag cut#Anyways tags for like actual categorization n such:#orson scott card#robert heinlein#ray bradbury#isaac asimov#ursula k. le guin#andy weir#lois lowry#tamsyn muir
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okay but i need ALL of the fics that take place during crozier getting sober. like i feel like there is SO much potential here bc it is THEE biggest turning point for him! esp with regards to fitzjames and their relationship. like fitzjames seeing crozier's choice to sober up as this huge defining moment, one that ultimately and unequivocally earns his respect (back, really, because he DID have respect for crozier at first, before he met him. and now he sees that that respect wasnt misgiven, not really). and like the way this choice is what causes the first crack in james' mask around crozier! ugh it's just DELICIOUS.
#i just want to see ALL of the fics where james sits by francis' bedside while hes sleeping uneasily#ALL the fics where james takes care of francis#ALL the fics where james takes that first step towards repairing their relationship#perhaps apologizing ā not for having called franics out because that was needed but for the way he did it.#stooping so low as to use sir john's words against him only sharper#maybe james holding francis' clammy hand while he sleeps fitfully and whispering to him about the way he'd hoped francis would be when they#met and how now he thinks that may still be possible because he knows franics must be a good man beneath the drink#maybe the first conversation the two of them have with francis clear headed and hes already holding himself differently ā more assuredly#more confident and yet softer around the edges too#and they clear the air between them too#idk im just rambling now but#I JUST LOVE THIS PERIOD FOR THEM OKAY#there is SO much potential#that being said fjdkskd if yall got any recs PLEASE send em my way (they could be for smth like this or anything really!!)#the terror#fitzier#francis crozier#james fitzjames
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Does anybody have any manga, manhwa or manhua recommendations that are not the same top 20 most popular you see everywhere? Preferably obscure gems if u have them
I am not bothered by horror/dark/fucked up stuff so that's a-ok
#Please I am desperate#I am already reading a few but I can always use more recs#I keep scrolling online trying to find new stuff and it's always the same fucking. copypasted isekai or fantasy DnD story I am so tired#if they're within those two genres but bring something new and good to the table (looking at dunmeshi) I'll give them a chance#The only thing I'm not a particular fan of is pure comedy because it bores me#...if they're finished that's also best. I am already following enough ongoing things but I will give them a peek#umbra rambles#if u want to recommend anything w anon my askbox is open
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people who don't normally read sci fi have such bad taste in sci fi š
#which makes sense because they're there despite having no attraction to what makes sci fi sci fi#but it's funny because they're always so excited to give their recommendation#and it's always like. ready player one or bobiverse or the locked tomb or something else horrendously tacky#like it's either awful marvel style quipping or something painfully twee that thinks it's deeper than it is a la Becky Chambers#and you have to try to be nice while they rave about some of the worst writing a mainstream publisher has put out#that only counts as āsci fiā bc it's in space or whatever#the other option is they like some military shit linked to a video game about how some genocide is necessary#don't get me wrong I read mostly bad sci fi and I'm aware good sci fi is rare#but it's like you had taco bell exactly once and someone's like 'any good Mexican restaurant recs in this town?'#and you just HAVE to respond with how good your dorito taco was and it's the best Mexican food#and in this scenario you don't even know enough to say āhear me outā you don't know other restaurants even exist like it's never occurred#to you to look and after that one dorito Taco you never had any interest in having Mexican food ever again#and yet. if someone is talking about Mexican food you just have to bring up you ate a Dorito taco one time and everyone should have one#how it's the best Mexican food in the world#also tumblr stop saying books are good just cuz there are lgbt people in them challenge#one time i asked for ppls fav sci fi nobody's heard of and fully half the replies were Becky fucking Chambers btw
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my brain is so fucking stupid. I was bullied in fourth grade, my friends were like āactually erm we donāt want to be friends with you :/ā on the second to last day of eighth grade (even though we were all zoned for different high schools and would never see eachother anyway). And because of that my brain is, as my therapist and mother (two different people,) theorized, āhyper vigilant for any perceived social ostrichaztionā. The thing is itās fucking stupid about it. Sure it has the generic āuwu your friends probably hate you secretlyā thing.
But it also. Like: Iāll see a post that is somewhat negative towards a thing I like or a trait I even remotely identify with (including stuff as vague as ānervousā or āwriterā) and Iāll be like āyeah that makes senseā or āI donāt agree but I also donāt careā. But then my brain will repeat the negative phrase on loop for like a week. And will trigger physical reactions (crying, shortness of breath, etc) in response to it. Iāve actually had public panic attacks over things I give 0 shits about because my brain is a fucking helicopter parent.
#thereās one fic writer I love the work of#Whoās made a lot of good posts for a semi niche ship I like#And theyāve done nothing wrong but some of their posts (which again are not morally wrong my brain just sucks ass) have caused this#To the point I had to unfollow them#And a mutual reblogged one of their new posts that has the hallmarks of something that could cause this#(Reason I made this post actually. My thought is that venting about it will get my brain to stfu)#Thankfully since most of their stuff I look at is related to this ship so for now Iām safe#Because Iām currently fixating on oliretta and benslie ship wise (and in general I have rewatched like most of parks and rec)#(Within the span of a week. Itās a problem)#Iāve been on/off obsessed with this ship for like two (?) years so chances are I only have#Maybe four months to get my brain to calm the fuck down#vent#vent tw#vent post#mental health#mental health issues#anxiety disorder#Idk if this is a result of it but I do have clinical anxiety so that could be part of it#bullying#btw fuck people who say ābring back bullyingā in response to people being cringe#Like that shit can effect people#And god forbid a teenager or young adult be confident about what they like#Instead of having issues likely caused by being treated like shit by their classmates when they were younger#stress#actually mentally ill#mental illness#actually anxious#bullying mention
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Crying over Kinniku and Iromatsu, cry with me @ the "Karamatsu dies and becomes a ghost and does his best to pretend he's still alive" fic (linked as a source)
#Osomatsu-san#mr Osomatsu#fic rec#Karamatsu#so everyone knows kaijuumatsu is the greatest thing since sliced bread to me#thinking about (spoilers) Jyushimatsu realising that he's looking at his dead brother and that the expression he's looking at is the same#expression of surprised terror that Karamatsu wore upon death and that that was the last thing he felt and Jyushi feeling so afraid that he#had to leave the room and KARAMATSU'S HEART BREAKING WITH EVERY STEP HE TOOK because all the saw was his little brother#(the brother that lets him baby him the most too and gosh Kinniku are so tight they vibe so well together) being afraid of him????#i feel ill ILL going insane#and the iromatsu one-sided argument oh my god#Will there ever be a more superior trope than Ichimatsu getting mad at Karamatsu for lying and keeping things from them. i don't think so.#i just think of the pizza skit and how focused Ichi was on Karamatsu revealing his honest thoughts about his stupid his siblings were being#and i think of them in highschool and how it's hinted that they were close until ichi made popular friends and imagine being Ichimatsu and#looking at the ghost of your brother and remembering a time when you were his only confidante and also struggling to remember when was the#last time that he hauled your drunk ass home (one of the few remaining moments of brotherly caretaking that you allow from him as an adult)#AND I FEEL SICKKK I FEEL ILLLLL I'M SHAKING AND CRYING SUDIWHDKWKDJD AAAA hell#((it's such a good fic please read it. please be as abnormal about the IMPLICATIONS as i am too))
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V random but Iām in my Brockpetey feels could I listen to your 46 60 playlist!!
of course!! the first playlist i mentioned in the tags is actually not mineāit belongs to ash @notthequiettype and is a soundtrack to their wonderful fic Lake Rules (go read it if you havenāt already!!! highly recommend!!!)
annnd this one is my personal brockpetey vibes playlist
happy listening!!!
#liv in the replies#sadcanucksfan#also!! ash if you want me to unlink/untag please let me know and i will!!!#this one got bumped up because itās currently relevant (i just posted brockpetey content) the rest of them will be scheduled in the queue š«”#if i donāt do it now i will lose all links and ability to find things#as for my brockpetey i have zero reasons for any of the songs besides minnesota. itās all vibes no thoughts.#minnesota to me is the quintessential brock petey song topped only (but really equaled) by charm you (also by samia)#like minnesota i would love to say is a joke but i really heard that song for the first time YEARS ago and went oh my fucking god.#iām going back to minnesota huh#and then CHARM YOU??? AN ACT OF VIOLENCE AGAINST ME PERSONALLY????#youāre telling me thereās the lyrics ākissin you would be like kissin on the USAā & āflying while iām lying that i hate LAā & itās not 406?#(addition that i wasnāt gonna tell you but i have to tell yāall because itās relevant to Me. samia is so so so so good live.)#(also i havenāt added it to the playlist because itās sad but kill her freak out has narrative potential as brockpetey. also????#theyāre all somehow petey pov to me. sometimes people just get assigned bands in my head for no reason & i think samia is peteyās vibe band.#BESIDES bbno$ which is canon lmao. spiritually petey is a samia song to me i guess idk why either sorry but kill her freak out#is a (seemingly you know how i am) unrequited brock/petey for when brock got his gf. thank u for your time i hate it too just listen to it)#also no statements about my music taste i will cry. if you hate it donāt tell me if you have recs do tell me#although i do have a joke playlist compiled of all the songs brock has been screencapped listening to because. why not. itās fun and also#has that man ever listened to a single lyric in his life. what the FUCK is up with your chill playlist bud none of those songs are chill.#lovingly. ripping my hair out. the amount of times he listens to fast car like???? girl are you okay.#anyway this is ur reminder i miss stalking people on spotify let me see your music taste cowards.#ALSO#IF I THINK TOO LONG ABOUT PETEY IN MINNESOTA I WILL LOSE MY SHIT SO I AM NOT JUST KNOW THAT I CLICKED THE FIC & SKRTED I CANāT HAVE EMOTIONS#if i did not have someplace to be at precisely 7:50AM i would be having a full breakdown please believe me.#oh also ALSO bonus points if you figure out what the numbers in the name are :)
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coming in with mildy old grievances
upon letting it rest a bit, boston's ending in ofts still doesn't make any sense.
him and nick splitting? fine. him making out with beam knowing that this is not what nick and him agreed to? maybe? idk, the writing makes it seem plausible at least.
but the point being that he is left alone since he was a bad friend?
would only make sense if he wasn't shown to have genuine affection for nick and (uncharacteristically) grovel at his friends feet.
if we are to believe that the ending makes sense because his one (unforgivable) mistake was to not value friendship, why does the show take the time to have him panic about getting found with top by mew in the shower, keep it a secret, admit his affections for nick to himself, be down on himself after his friends shun him and ask "why am i always an asshole to the people i like" and then fully lose all his prior demeanour to try and honestly make up with his friends?
if he's supposed to be a stone-cold bitch who has no affections for anyone else whatsoever, why would he degrade himself like that? especially send photographs to this "friendgroup" months later from new york as if he still needs them and their approval to feel included?
this might bring back the slut-shaming discourse for the umpteenth time, but if the punishment by the narrative was supposed to make sense solely due to him being an asshole of a friend, things don't quite add up.
(and i don't think there is a way that this is not cruel, even when everyone else - sans nick maybe - is acting quite in character, e.g. Mew not only not forgiving him - fair - but being cruel about it by feigning that he's okay with Boston staying in the group...actually, this is going to be too much to put in a bracket, so:
Mew had his revenge (disproportionately when you ask me, but that is neither here nor there) but I do understand that he doesn't want to be friends with Boston anymore. However, he did basically force Boston back into working on the group project. It was only after the Atom thing (where both him and Ray knew that there hadn't been any SA or at least didn't actually care if there was) that Boston was out of the group again. And when Chueam offers to let him back in, Mew suddenly is like "well, you cannot decide that by yourself". Yes, Mew can change his mind on wanting to have Boston around but it doesn't make his behaviour any less cruel. Nor does Chueam not apologising and Ray not caring at all how Boston has become austrasized for the thing he did not do (I cannot overemphasize how Mew did let Boston back into the group - even if it is just for the project - since he called them even to some degree) make them any less shitty friends. And they clearly do not care about hurting him when they smell blood during the new years party that Boston fucked up with Nick.
Is there a difference between being cruel to a friend and being cruel by sleeping with his partner? that's sth everyone can decide for themselves.
but it absolutely gives less and less credence to the justification for his treatment by the show being that he's "just an asshole and a really bad friend".
and to call it a good ending since he meant to cut all ties before moving to new york anyways? only makes sense if it wasn't shown as a change in how he does things that he wants to try and date nick until then. which was a really interesting turn: someone like him wouldn't change to be monogamous but trying to not sleep with people for a few months? could've very well been possible as well as an interesting thing to try as someone like boston. but if we are to believe that he truely doesn't care since he plans on leaving, there would be no reason to try and get his friends forgiveness nor send them a present from new york afterwards.
the others do feel in character, but with the emphasize on the casual slut shaming they do (while it is a conscious theme of the show) and nick even going as far as saying "maybe you are the type of person who should roll alone" (instead of: we just don't fit but that doesn't mean people like you have to be alone) it really doesn't feel like this is about him being an asshole in general at all. queer friendship - despite what the title might infer - hasn't been a central theme of the show. which obviously is up to the writers. but the personal vendetta that seems to have seeped in against someone who was like Boston feels a bit disappointing. if anything, it makes an otherwise interesting show feel very inconsistent and carries the unfortunate side-effect of making the audience feel like this show meant to say some disparranging things about "sluts".
even in the constraints of the story the writers clearly set out to tell, there was a much more interesting and compelling characterization left on the board in favor of moralising in the last minute on not being a slut.
#only friends the series#ofts#beyond tumblr a lot of the audience response was to rejoice at the retribution which is a bit disappointing for one of the more interesting#characters introduced in the series#notwithstanding any translation issues re: to what nick says#but the whole picture makes the messaging pretty clear#and it is curious because i do like that the others not necesseraly are given clear happy endings: chueam believes she fixed the friendgrou#and has never apologized for accusing boston of sa#the choice by force to have top look so out of himself when mew tells sand to kiss him??!! there is still so much in there (further illustr#ted by mix's cameo)#sandray being cute and seemingly on a good path? yes - but i do think not everyone in the audience has forgotten the economic disparaty#between them - sand's self-sacrificing nature and ray's tendency to call him the most cruel names without ever apologizing for it#i felt very empty when boston was left on that curb - but i went wtf when his last mention in the show was him sending them the group photo#maybe i will still write that piece on ethics in this show#other than that and reccing that one tonnick fic i will continue to finally reblog all the amazing ofts gifsets
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so...heartbreak weather by niall horan sandray pov ray song or heartbreak weather by niall horan sandray pov ray song? ššš
gonna be honest never heard this song so had to give it a listen on my way into work. after hearing itā¦i instantly added it to my ofts playlist (really needs to separate it out for the couples but i also never pictured finding 400 songs that fit the vibes of the show š) because YES this is so sandray coded from rayās pov!
likeā¦
all of my life I've been sleep-walk living
running around the same bars I've been in
it can be so lonely in this city
but it feels different when you're with me
the perfection š¤š½
#truly wish i wasnāt so busy right now because i have so many good songs that i want to edit for them but alas adulting must be done#thanks for sending this tho! i love music recs!#stunning shannen šļø#sand x ray#asks#only friends series
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#mine#i still have a crush on my coworker -_-#we talked a lot today i got to know him more and we're getting like rly friendly with each other its really nice#but i URRRRGHH#also on thursday i asked him for music recs because i need them and he was like well what do u listen to#which is such a good question for him to ask and i peeked at his spotify when he had it open and he had like 50 billion playlists with#different genres and i was like !?!??!? what does this mean#but i didnt ask#anyway i was like ummm indie rock and other stuff#and we talked more about genres and stuff and then he was like u should try her's#and i was like oh i know her's harvey is one of my favorite songs and he was like i didnt think u would know them thats cool#but also harvey is (was) the only song by them that i knew so i took that recommendation and 1 or 2 others home with me and i was like ok#and i listened to songs by her's (thats the title of their first album) and it was surprisingly good#but also because music is my secret love language its hard to listen to some of the songs and not immediately think of him#and today heĀ urrrrgghh he just looked cute he had like a shirt under his work shirt that was kinda cute and he had this jacket he came in#wearing and wore it when he left too and it was like denim and i thought it was normal rough denim but i brushed against it while i was gett#getting ready in the bathroom and it was SOFT and i was like WHAT#also he smelled good again he pisses me off because he smells good every time he comes in and its like how are you doing that#and periodically over the last several days ive run into smells that are a little similar to whatever he has going on#or ill hear a voice that sounds vaguely like his or yesterday when i was out with my friends i saw a guy who looked kinda like him#and i just feel insane im like 9@*UL>$??@?#also i forgot to mention this but he looked very handsome in the denim jacket and it pissed me off#and we got to talk so much today and its like AUAUUUARGG. and at the end of my shift he was about to clock out#and i had just clocked out and i was going to refill my water and then leave and he stopped me#and he was like what shifts are u working next quarter and i was like uhhh blah blah blah#and it turns out we probably will not have shifts together which sucks especially because the reason we knew each other#at all before january is because we had shifts ''together'' (not really but we bumped into each other frequently) in the fall too#so its like. wtf. wheres my consistency. why cant i keep seeing my favorite coworker at our job. fuck this gay earth#hes fun to talk to too like he has a lot of silly strange and interesting stories and hes just like nice and fun and always says goofy shit#i feel like hes the type who just makes friends easily cause ive seen random customers talking to him too and hes just like kinda chill and
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#all weebs should be legally required to read about japanese imperialism both inside and outside the country that is now labeled as ājapanā
Couldn't have put it better if I tried, prev.
The Ainu have not intentionally forgotten their culture and their language. It is the modern Japanese state that, from the Meiji era on, usurped our land, destroyed our culture, and deprived us of our language under the euphemism of assimilation. In the space of a mere 100 years, they nearly decimated the Ainu culture and language that had taken tens of thousands of years to come into being on this earth. ~Kayano Shigeru (1926-2006) Our Land Was a Forest: An Ainu Memoir
#book rec#important#ainu people#indigenous peoples#ainu mosir#kayano shigeru#i've also read this book#if anyone wants it and can't access it let me know and we'll figure it out#the author literally did want as many people as possible to read about the ainu#and he's passed on in 2006#back to the land of his ancestors and the kamuy no doubt#the kamuy must have received him well for everything he did and how hard he fought to preserve what was left of the ainu culture#and language#but it hurts so much to know that he was one of the last living native speakers of the language#i don't even know if there are natives alive today or if the language is only taught as a second language in ainu mosir/hokkaido#but it's good that they're making an effort to teach it which was what he wanted#homiro said some shit#i'm very passionate about this and hope my phd project is acceped because i want to write about them#but not in a pity kind of way but rather in a resilience kind of way#yeah#the speech he gave to the old lady who helped him translate a yukar had me bawling like a baby but it was what made me want to do it#and think that pity is very colonial like positive post-colonial ideas or something like the poor peoples who were abused#instead reparations should focus on preserving the culture and giving rights to the peoples#like... the ainu were only recognised as an ethnic minority and an indigenous people of the japanese nation in 2008. let that one sink in.#and it was because of UNESCO and UN pressure to preserve these cultures and give rights to indigenous peoples#so yeah#weebs really need to learn about the culture and history of japan and the japanese empire#and also not think that the ainu didn't fight much like the native americans they also fought but that was before the meiji era#because one thing ppl need to understand is that people get oppressed by colonisers when they resist oppression with all they have#if the wajin/shamo/japanese didn't have guns they'd have been crushed and for that i have resent my own ancestors
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