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buguazu-a-day · 1 year ago

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25. vermillion mandated tea break :)

#im lessening the 'rules' for this 'challenge'.#im still gonna draw every day #but not just buguazu #ive already been drawing just normal iguazu #sketches not of him will be armored core #i want to improve at art #not wear myself down #ahhhh weekend #ahhh echoing void that listens to me whine #im doing okay. the iguazu design marathon will continue come weekend.#i only have.... 16 left.

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lass-us-slay · 4 months ago

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There’s a lot B-127 doesn’t know

He’s been down in sub-level 50 for Primus knows how long, so it’s certainly plausible that B doesn’t know certain words. By the Pits- B probably doesn’t even know what certain Cybertronian traditions are! Or even what there’re called (and probably even more-). He’s been down there that long.

Some words that he might have no clue of are:

Conjunx

Engex

Berth (there were nothing to sleep in down there)

Any vulgar words

Shanix (there’s no need for it down at sub-level 50)

Examine

Medical terms

Most likely emotional terms aswell

Sometimes B has to stop and remember what a certain items name is. But so far hes had no reason to, so he hasn’t had to ask anyone of what something is.

I imagine that he only knows certain word thanks to the data-pads that were thrown down to waste disposal. Although that doesn’t change the fact that many of those data-pads didn’t explain things such as a “Trine” or anything else. (Those are common terms to the regular Cybertronian, there’s no need for anyone to explain what they are)

But the word that I’ll focus on today is: Leader.

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B-127 has heard of it, but not what it means. He ment to ask- he really did! But everyone got swept up with work and he found he couldn’t really find the time to ask.

So he guessed what it meant. And what did he think it meant?

A friend who many people knew and took advice from.

Did he confirm this? No. But did it sure look like one? Yes.

So he supposes Ori- Optimus and D-16 (or Megatron-?) will have to find themselves a new leader to help work through their troubles! And he’d be more than happy to help them, after all their all best friends aren’t they?

And best friends always have each others backs.

B just needs to find a way for them to talk to each other without fighting… Then they can finally all work together to rebuild Iacon together!

He bets it’ll be fun.

(Edit: I PUT B-126 INSTEAD OF 7 😭)

#transformers one #optimus prime #d 16 #megatron #b 127 #He doesn’t know what many common terms are #solely because he’s been down at sub level 50 for THAT long #I can bet you both Optimus and Megatron will have forgotten that their child has been isolated for Primus knows how long #but only cause their fighting ;)#and caught up in their emotions-#and having many things left unsaid between them-#and- Yk what B’s right #they should totaly talk without fighting for once 💀#I can already see a scene where B just asks #“why are you fighting? shouldn’t leaders take their own advice and talk things out?’#can just SEE some of the bots actually nodding to that and some wondering what the world has come too for B #the resident crazy bot to be the sensible one #I can bet you Megatron will be the first to be violently reminded that Yes. This B #his figurative child with Optimus has been acutely isolated for looooong before you met him #and that’ll just either fuel his rage or fuel him to make amends #just for B <3 #And also yes. B is the resident crazy bot because no one can actually clearly understand him because he doesn’t know a lot of vocabulary #which only adds to him talking more cause he can’t describe what he’s trying to tell them #which comes off of a bunch of nonsense to everyone else #aka crazy talk

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my-name-is-not-victoria · 1 year ago

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Surfacing

#nature #nature photography #adventurecore #cliffs #the woods #fall colors #we came out of the cave here for a short lunch break before going back in to finish the trip #the only time ive gone in one entrance visited another and then left by a third #ive heard this cave has a total of 16 entrances #some are flooded permanently #others are flooded seasonally #biggest cave i have ever seen

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nexahexagon · 1 month ago

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He’s always there,,, watching,,, screaming to the void,,,

#ImpulseSV #every time I go to the left corner he has something to say ✋#anyways picking this animation up to finish this one bit so I can say I accomplished /something/#I want to badly to be an animator but knowing NOTHING of how to use this software is killing me #tf is tweeting and why does it only work for two seconds before killing itself #tweening**#wtf are these brushes #why is every frame suddenly a full 16 frames that I have to adjust EVERY TIME #what the hell are key frames #how do I even put one frame between two #but it’s better than flipaclip for the sole reason I can use more than two frames and don’t have to duplicate a frame 10 million times #for a still frame #anyways hopefully maybe one day I can actually animate well #that’s my literal dream

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fairyofshampgyu · 2 years ago

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Crying over gyu :(☹️ I love him😭

#his music taste 😩>>#he’d literally love Jeff Buckley I’ve been saying this for so long and also the carpenters #pls let me give you refs omg we have the same taste #also crying bc he’s literally the only pretty person ever #his hair ☹️😭😭😭#HIS MOLES #I LOVE HIS MOLES SO MUCH #Omg we both have a mole on the left near our mouth that literally means we’re soulmates 😍😍🤞#also him talking about how he doesn’t get why people judge people over mbtis #and saying how everyone is very different and he doesn’t judge people from the start like that SO TRUE #WHEN ARE THEY GOING TO STOP USING 16 PERSONALITIES IM SO SICK OF IT 😭😭😭#use cognitive funstions instead or soemthing 😭#I want to have deep conversations with beomgyu so bad like #he’d literally be the best person to have late night talks with im so upset he’s not my friend #ALSO WHEN HE LIKE SCOFFED AND SMIRKED AT SOOBIN AND SAID SOMETHING LIKE ‘YOU KIDDING?’#DYING WHY IS THE ONLY FINE PERSON TO EVER EXIST #I’m so in love with beomgyu 😭😭 I’m so upset idk him platonically curse the people who know him irl and are friends with him 😪😪

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crispyliza · 7 months ago

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Hey guys..... I've been reading spamano fanfiction lately.... and I watched the latest hetalia musical.... I think I'm getting sucked back into the fandom 😭😭😭

#but i have standards now #in ever canonverse fic I pretend spain and romano never had an age difference #bc I'm no longer 16 and i feel uncomfy otherwise #and i prefer romano to be like the musical version of him #it's the best one #i only left the fanfok for 3 years #i really hope this is just a phase and that I'll be over it by next week #axis powers hetalia #hetalia #aph romano #hetalia world stars #aph spain #crispy #spamano #aph south italy #hetalia fandom #text

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urfavcrime · 5 months ago

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LMAOOOOO Clem you're back into the dsmp? do you remember being like 'that was a dark time I'll never return to...' and then you were like 'okay I'm rereading the fanfic just because its so good though..' and now were here. you can never truly stop thinking about those little guys.

LEAVE ME ALONEEEE I HATE YOU. yknow what? its fine. that means i got over my internalized dsmphobia.

#seeing this after logging off ao3 and reading 1247141947219842718947128 dsmp fics. leave me alone im just a girl #atp my life is so overwhelming that dsmp has legitmately become a comfort fandom now.#you would NEVER catch me saying that in 2022 when i left originally #idk guys. i just miss when life was simpler #also cclingy. i jsust cant get them out of my brain unforuntately.#no bcuz i just. out of the blue posted two cclingy posts #bcuz i still love dem. always have only thing i still cared abt when leaving the fandom #and they both got a considerable amount of notes and i was like woah ok #cue scrolling through the tag #cue FALLING DOWN THE FUCKING RABBIT HOLE AGAIN #im back in the fucking building again #all because i reread passerine this passing may.#and also im rewatching the dsmp #as much as one can in these trying times (vods/videos being taken down)#and im at the oct 16 festival SOMEONE SEDATE ME FR

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bluebudgie · 2 months ago

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i still have to finish dragon age (think im about 70%-ish through) and i like the game for a lot of things but man if it's made one thing abundantly clear is that i'm not into action games

the combat is so mindnumbingly boring i dread every fight

that's not the game's fault i'm pretty sure because.. i imagine it's a proper combat system? (i don't really have much of a point of comparison in the genre) but to me personally it's just. mash 2 buttons for like 3-5 combos. hit 1 of 3 skills on cooldown. tell your companion to hit a skill on cooldown. mash mash mash.

i wanted to try but i really can't get into it bro😭dunno if i should have started on a higher difficulty but i'm afraid the enemies would just become damage sponges and it would just be more of the same mashing

but yea. gotta kick my ass into finishing the game. i want to see how it continues after all.

#yea yea gw2 has action combat but the pacing is entirely different and at least i have more than 3 skills to press you know #like ds3 is my only other point of comparison and i loved that game but i feel like that was also a very different approach #ds3 is a rhythm game more than anything else #oh wait i also played kingdom hearts. kingdom hearts has fun combat.#this has also confirmed to me that any last bit of doubt Ive had left in me whether i want to give eff eff 16 gameplay a chance is now dead

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lesbianjonimitchell · 1 year ago

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omg... just sent my resignation of membership to the political party i've been a member of for more than 8 years. a third of my life. i've spent countless hours volunteering for them on the board of my hometown chapter and during election campaigns; some of my partymates are basically family. but the party on a national basis have been eerily silent on palestine. the national leader wrote a long bullshitty op-ed titled "the palestinians are suffering, the jews are suffering" in which she refused to take a stance and failed to distinguish between jews and zionists. and also spent more time condemning the crimes of hamas than the crimes of israel.

i have considered leaving the party many times over the years. the fact that they can't take a firm stance on a genocide makes it abundantly clear that i don't belong here. fucking sucks, man. im not sure where i go from here.

#ultimately i always ended up staying because the local chapter in my hometown were considerably better than the party on a national basis #and all of my homies actively dislike the leader lol #but i dont live in my hometown anymore and havent been active in the party for years; and regardless this is so black and white that i #cannot keep supporting them. end of an era. ive literally been a member since i was 15-16. so fucking disappointed in them. idk if their #silence is because theyre priming for the leader to run for prime minister now that the biggest centre-left party has forsaken the left #like the left literally had the majority and they opted to work with the centre-right instead and make a cabinet across the middle #so the leader from my party might be trying to appeal even more to the centre-left. idk. and not my party anymore but yeah #thankfully aforementioned homies have spoken out against israel! but not as much as i'd hoped #margrete auken of the european parliament youre the only one i still respect

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butnotbubblegum · 7 months ago

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using the tags to vent my current emotional state into the void bc ig story feels like a bad plan for this, read at your own risk.

#but jesus christ coming back home while already knee deep in a suicidal episode was an awful idea #like i was maybe on the verge of improving and then i came back to all of this family bullshit #and the place as well like it’s so. i don’t want to say isolated necessarily. but so much it’s own little bubble #and i spent the last eight or nine years i lived here depressed and the last six suicidal #and being back here feels like the actual place is telling me to die #and i don’t think it helps that every place i go i know or know of someone who successfully committed suicide #like. oh this person drowned themself here. or that person hung themself in these woods. or several people jumped off the side of this clif #like. it all feels like reminders of my failures. and it’s like. cmon. wouldn’t it be easy. all you need to do is jump. is slit your throat #is find a decent piece of rope. idk. but everything is so much and i just want it to stop and it feels like the ground itself #is giving me a way to do it.#i genuinely feel like i’m like 16 or 17 again. and everything that isn’t within these hills #feels like a haze and not actually real. like the concept of buxton doesn’t actually exist and my friends do not actually exist and nothing #actually exists except the place i’m in and my family and the pub #i think going back to work at the pub was a mistake; i think it’s making this worse. especially because it’s henry’s dad’s local #and where henry’s wake was. and nothing there has changed at all. it’s like the whole last year never happened.#and i only need to get through two more days but it feels like an impossible task and i keep thinking being back in york will fix me but id #if that even true like. i was suicidal before i left. and it’s going to be intense and stressful and then i have to leave again.#come back here and do three full weeks of this all over again. i haven’t even managed two yet this time around. and i feel like #such a failure and such a drain on my friends (and on one in particular) because it just #is so much and has been so long and everything is complicated and awful and i think if i hadn’t come back i’d be in a normal mental state #by now. that’s the worst fucking part. and also the whole thing of i know how to be suicidal here. i know how to not give a shit about #living here. i know how to do that. but ive never had to try before. like im trying to improve and im trying to hold on and hold off the #urges to kill myself or self harm or whatever because i said i would and because i KNOW it can be better than this and bc i love my friends #and they love me and i don’t want to upset them or make them anxious or anything like that and kat made me promise to try and im trying so #fucking hard and it feels like it’s not even worth the effort because it’s so much effort and everything is so overwhelming and awful and i #hate the way my family interacts and i just want everything to stop and idc if suicide is the cowards way out or selfish or whatever #bullshit people say it feels like the only option i can actually withstand because everything is so much pain and so much effort and so muc #everything and i can’t deal with it anymore. and also i forgot just how much i have to fucking mask in front of my parents and especially m #father and it’s so exhausting and i can’t sleep and there’s so much yelling and i just need it all to stop #i’ve had major breakdowns the last 3 nights about wanting to die so much & trying so hard to not let myself & idk how much longer i can tak

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tblsomedoodles · 1 year ago

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Me playing Rimworld like a scifi family simulator? never.

anyways, i've been playing far too much Rimworld so have some little doodles of my main couple's four kinda creepy kids lol. I will admit, "Feral" is technically his nickname, but i can't remember what they actually named him and i don't feel like booting up my game just to check.

Sandy and Feral are very close in age. Timothy is pretty close behind them, and Alice only just hit toddler stage recently. I was sooo worried about Timothy when he was tiny. B/c he was born sick, recovered from that only to catch malaria. Recovered from that and immediately caught the plague. he's alright now.

Sandy and Feral will sit on their dad's research desk to watch him work in game, and i think that's just the cutest thing, so i doodled that too.

fun fact! According to Alice's genetics, she's supposed to have purple hair, but she, instead, matches Timothy with his grey/white hair.

there's a lot of other kids running around my colony too, but they belong to others (one being just a clone lol). no joke, i think i have 5-6 adults and about 8 kids running around the place. it's chaos. i love it lol : )

#rimworld #my doodles #i haven't drawn in like 5 days because of this game #so it deserved some doodles #the adults are pretty horrible people #but their kids are all creepily adorable : )#i'm so sad only Sandy got the ears!#I might let their parents have more kids just so Sandy doesn't feel left out #after some of these ones get to adulthood that is #b/c i have some work spots in desparate need of filling #and they'll be perfect for it #but if i put them to work now they're learning will suffer #and their traits will too when they grow up #i had a kid that i ignored the learning rate too #and b/c of that he ended up with a slow learner trate #but also had a similar genetic trait slowing his learning speed #that dude could NOT learn anything to save his life #it literally brought his learning speeed down to i think like 16 percent #always let your kids finish school if you want them to be productive people

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penisbilt · 9 months ago

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the bittersweet but absolute flood of relief that comes from admitting defeat at living independently, to have to move back in with parents. we tried! we gave it our best shot for almost 3 years! but living like this (being on our own) is just not possible for us at this time of our lives. we've finally proved it to ourselves that we can't do it. it'll be okay to let ourselves rest now

#latimers parents not mine!!!! i am NOT moving back to florida LOL #really hope that the changes will be good for my mental health. this apartment is toxic to us #ive been on the verge of meltdowns Kind Of A Lot lately. imnot doing great #extremely dependent on substances. just to reach a baseline level of functioning. but even that isnt working as much anymore #the only things i do on my phone or tablet these days is like. 2 mobile games. and skirting past my dms to check latimers blog #its too overwhelming to even open discord these days yknow. everything on earth is too much for me right meow #i havent been drawing i havent been social online OR irl i havent been cooking or creating #i havent been keeping up with personal hygiene like at all im particularly ashamed about that one #i've been really bad about doing my T the past few months which is a HUGE shame because im SO fucking hyped to be on it #theres just. too many obstacles in getting it done half the time. and the other half of the time i just forget #anyway. anyway.#our lease ends in july so between now and then we're just gonna try our best to tolerate our living situation enough to get by #there's a light at the end of the tunnel. and its called 'i only have to be in charge of like 2 rooms at most. and not a household!'#we're gonna try to slowly comb through all our things between now and then so the process of moving wont suck as bad #cuz listen. its pretty fucking bad right now #maybe not for other people. but it is for me. and its okay to let myself come to terms with that #im just. so relieved. still very stressed! but theres at least light at the end of the tunnel and its only like 2 months away #ill be able to draw guilt-free again. ill be able to just EXIST guilt-free #i dont think ive felt guilt-free for just existing the way i do since like. turning 20 #i know my mom wouldve loved if i stayed home forever. and im sad i cant be there for her #but ever since i had a fight with my dad at 15 or 16 it just really felt like he didnt want me there more and more #maybe as the youngest he was resenting that i was preventing him from becoming an empty nester or something. i dont know #because all the other kids had been moved out and on their own at least once but i had never left home before #i dont know if he'd be heartbroken or not to hear that i feeling like he was resenting me. but thats the energy i was picking up for years #i dunno. i dont know #anyway. back to housing. for now im going to try to relax and store energy for the moving process #the huge pile of things by the kitchen? i dont have to worry about that becoming permanent because we're leaving in 2 months #the general discord of the state of our possessions? we have to go through everything to pack it all anyway. we can move in RIGHT this time #when we moved in here we didnt have a car or license so we were dependent on latimers 3-hr-drive-away parents to help us move #just /across town/. and we had a whole month between leases! but it still had to be done in a weekend

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hackfurs · 10 months ago

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i think a month long vacation in washington would fix me

#i havent been in over a decade and its the only place ive ever felt at home #i know its basically a stereotype that furries move to seattle but ive been going there since i was a small child nearly every summer #while growing up and i have such a deep appreciation for the land and the mountains and water there #the weather #there's a hole in my chest in the shape of an ice cold drink from the cafe my mom works at #there's another in the shape of those cool nights with the window open #watching the ferry cross the sound while you take in the sea breeze #i miss it so much i cry whenever i think about it #i left something behind when i got on that plane back to chicago when i was 16 and i need it back

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wakinguponsaturday · 10 months ago

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me @ me: stop thinking about your 'permanently on hiatus' teen Inquisitor fic. it's been 7 years. you are so busy right now you don't have time to pick this back up

me @ me: she was ELEVEN when the mage rebellion started. she was sent to the Templars as a political maneuver to bolster her family's reputation when she was EIGHT. her sister died in her arms days before they received word of the conclave. and you're just going to abandon her. wow

#dragon age #dai #im sorry i ever left you lil baby trevelyan #and i want to rewrite the first 8 chapters SO bad. i was apparently addicted to sentences with minimum 3 clauses at 17 #i have ideas again! fuck!#the newest one is that shes actually only 15 when the conclave happens but she lies and tells josie that shes 16 #because thats a 15yo thing to do and then she would be too anxious to admit she lied #and then when everyone goes to celebrate her 18th birthday in the time bw the endgame and trespasser #shes like okay i have to come clean about this. im so sorry. and everyone goes why??? did you do this?????? why not just say 18 then??#and she goes i honestly dont know what to tell you i was more panicked than ive ever been in my entire life and then i ran with it #god. i missed my anxiety ridden child #emery #em.chats

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july-19th-club · 3 months ago

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tanaaj is such a tragic character "i do everything right nobody has ever been as good or correct about the rule of saint leah as i am. unrelated but why do i feel so bad and guilty and lonely all the time?" well for starters you live in fully automated luxury catholicism so that's gonna contribute to the issue for sure

#'ive never hoarded anything in my life not even my child!'#tragically you were not taught that love is not a finite resource that has to be equally distributed to everyone in the world #in case it runs out #this is a FASCINATING book. and i'm also reading cultish the language of fanaticism at the same time #so it's like. wow none of you people are escaping the systematic self-destruction in pursuit of the nebulous holy! good luck !!#infact. i think i kind of hate this book. in a way where having seen much of religious fanaticism #i get viscerally uncomfortable reading leah and tanaaj. like i CANNOT talk to them and take apart their reasoning. on account of #they're in the book and i'm just reading it. but i want to SO badly #the actual star #i dont hate it . it's really good. it's just an extremely demanding read for me i guess #what if the utopian communist future still had sin and fundamentalism. and Cancel Culture enshrined into the mutual aid network #i just read the bit where tanaaj has to sit vigil with this dying sedente woman. and she is SO MAD. at this elderly lady for...#staying in one house all her life and loving a partner enough to forgo social convention to live with them? raise a child together?#and tanaaj is like. she was HOARDING. this small location. and those two people. thank GOD her child saw the light and left home at 16 #meanwhile there's nothing to imply the old lady wouldn't have happily shared her area with any travelers coming through #tanaaj is just fundie. and reading her perspective makes me soooooo insane #she also manages to be transphobic in a genderless nonbinary bodymod future. where everybody has a dick and a vag.#she gets mad about people who only want one set of genitals or want to reorganize their sex characteristics. in Unorthodox Ways #meanwhile halfway across the world but getting closer niloux is like. my girlfriend is a transwoman on purpose in genderless bodymod world #and she is also your ex girlfriend. probably on account of your insanity. i can see where i walked in past lives and it's real

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butchyena · 3 months ago

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mourning someones who’s not dead this morning. man.

#its just so cool i lost my other parent and he couldnt have done me the favor by doing it by dying #people would probably feel not as bad for me if he was just dead like my mom #he’s all i have left and the only one i want to talk about the wicked movie with. but he’s a different person bow #he’s not the dad i had at 16 who took me to see it on broadway for my birthday #now he has to be so angry a black woman is in the film he wouldnt talk to me about anything else last time we spoke. he WOULDNT.#he couldnt have just died… he couldnt have just made me sign a paper to pull the plug #he couldnt have just dropped dead !#obviously this is about just more than the movie but my friend surprised me with early screening tickets #its nice to feel thought about. but it made me remember when i got early screening tickets for Into The Woods and gave him an hour review #over the phone right after i’d seen it. just. he could be dead instead and it could be simple as him not being here.

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