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buguazu-a-day Ā· 9 months ago
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25. vermillion mandated tea break :)
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lass-us-slay Ā· 1 month ago
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Thereā€™s a lot B-127 doesnā€™t know
Heā€™s been down in sub-level 50 for Primus knows how long, so itā€™s certainly plausible that B doesnā€™t know certain words. By the Pits- B probably doesnā€™t even know what certain Cybertronian traditions are! Or even what thereā€™re called (and probably even more-). Heā€™s been down there that long.
Some words that he might have no clue of are:
Conjunx
Engex
Berth (there were nothing to sleep in down there)
Any vulgar words
Shanix (thereā€™s no need for it down at sub-level 50)
Examine
Medical terms
Most likely emotional terms aswell
Sometimes B has to stop and remember what a certain items name is. But so far hes had no reason to, so he hasnā€™t had to ask anyone of what something is.
I imagine that he only knows certain word thanks to the data-pads that were thrown down to waste disposal. Although that doesnā€™t change the fact that many of those data-pads didnā€™t explain things such as a ā€œTrineā€ or anything else. (Those are common terms to the regular Cybertronian, thereā€™s no need for anyone to explain what they are)
But the word that Iā€™ll focus on today is: Leader.
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B-127 has heard of it, but not what it means. He ment to ask- he really did! But everyone got swept up with work and he found he couldnā€™t really find the time to ask.
So he guessed what it meant. And what did he think it meant?
A friend who many people knew and took advice from.
Did he confirm this? No. But did it sure look like one? Yes.
So he supposes Ori- Optimus and D-16 (or Megatron-?) will have to find themselves a new leader to help work through their troubles! And heā€™d be more than happy to help them, after all their all best friends arenā€™t they?
And best friends always have each others backs.
B just needs to find a way for them to talk to each other without fightingā€¦ Then they can finally all work together to rebuild Iacon together!
He bets itā€™ll be fun.
(Edit: I PUT B-126 INSTEAD OF 7 šŸ˜­)
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my-name-is-not-victoria Ā· 1 year ago
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Surfacing
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fairyofshampgyu Ā· 1 year ago
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Crying over gyu :(ā˜¹ļø I love himšŸ˜­
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crispyliza Ā· 4 months ago
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Hey guys..... I've been reading spamano fanfiction lately.... and I watched the latest hetalia musical.... I think I'm getting sucked back into the fandom šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­
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lesbianjonimitchell Ā· 1 year ago
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omg... just sent my resignation of membership to the political party i've been a member of for more than 8 years. a third of my life. i've spent countless hours volunteering for them on the board of my hometown chapter and during election campaigns; some of my partymates are basically family. but the party on a national basis have been eerily silent on palestine. the national leader wrote a long bullshitty op-ed titled "the palestinians are suffering, the jews are suffering" in which she refused to take a stance and failed to distinguish between jews and zionists. and also spent more time condemning the crimes of hamas than the crimes of israel.
i have considered leaving the party many times over the years. the fact that they can't take a firm stance on a genocide makes it abundantly clear that i don't belong here. fucking sucks, man. im not sure where i go from here.
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butnotbubblegum Ā· 4 months ago
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using the tags to vent my current emotional state into the void bc ig story feels like a bad plan for this, read at your own risk.
#but jesus christ coming back home while already knee deep in a suicidal episode was an awful idea#like i was maybe on the verge of improving and then i came back to all of this family bullshit#and the place as well like itā€™s so. i donā€™t want to say isolated necessarily. but so much itā€™s own little bubble#and i spent the last eight or nine years i lived here depressed and the last six suicidal#and being back here feels like the actual place is telling me to die#and i donā€™t think it helps that every place i go i know or know of someone who successfully committed suicide#like. oh this person drowned themself here. or that person hung themself in these woods. or several people jumped off the side of this clif#like. it all feels like reminders of my failures. and itā€™s like. cmon. wouldnā€™t it be easy. all you need to do is jump. is slit your throat#is find a decent piece of rope. idk. but everything is so much and i just want it to stop and it feels like the ground itself#is giving me a way to do it.#i genuinely feel like iā€™m like 16 or 17 again. and everything that isnā€™t within these hills#feels like a haze and not actually real. like the concept of buxton doesnā€™t actually exist and my friends do not actually exist and nothing#actually exists except the place iā€™m in and my family and the pub#i think going back to work at the pub was a mistake; i think itā€™s making this worse. especially because itā€™s henryā€™s dadā€™s local#and where henryā€™s wake was. and nothing there has changed at all. itā€™s like the whole last year never happened.#and i only need to get through two more days but it feels like an impossible task and i keep thinking being back in york will fix me but id#if that even true like. i was suicidal before i left. and itā€™s going to be intense and stressful and then i have to leave again.#come back here and do three full weeks of this all over again. i havenā€™t even managed two yet this time around. and i feel like#such a failure and such a drain on my friends (and on one in particular) because it just#is so much and has been so long and everything is complicated and awful and i think if i hadnā€™t come back iā€™d be in a normal mental state#by now. thatā€™s the worst fucking part. and also the whole thing of i know how to be suicidal here. i know how to not give a shit about#living here. i know how to do that. but ive never had to try before. like im trying to improve and im trying to hold on and hold off the#urges to kill myself or self harm or whatever because i said i would and because i KNOW it can be better than this and bc i love my friends#and they love me and i donā€™t want to upset them or make them anxious or anything like that and kat made me promise to try and im trying so#fucking hard and it feels like itā€™s not even worth the effort because itā€™s so much effort and everything is so overwhelming and awful and i#hate the way my family interacts and i just want everything to stop and idc if suicide is the cowards way out or selfish or whatever#bullshit people say it feels like the only option i can actually withstand because everything is so much pain and so much effort and so muc#everything and i canā€™t deal with it anymore. and also i forgot just how much i have to fucking mask in front of my parents and especially m#father and itā€™s so exhausting and i canā€™t sleep and thereā€™s so much yelling and i just need it all to stop#iā€™ve had major breakdowns the last 3 nights about wanting to die so much & trying so hard to not let myself & idk how much longer i can tak
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tblsomedoodles Ā· 1 year ago
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Me playing Rimworld like a scifi family simulator? never.
anyways, i've been playing far too much Rimworld so have some little doodles of my main couple's four kinda creepy kids lol. I will admit, "Feral" is technically his nickname, but i can't remember what they actually named him and i don't feel like booting up my game just to check.
Sandy and Feral are very close in age. Timothy is pretty close behind them, and Alice only just hit toddler stage recently. I was sooo worried about Timothy when he was tiny. B/c he was born sick, recovered from that only to catch malaria. Recovered from that and immediately caught the plague. he's alright now.
Sandy and Feral will sit on their dad's research desk to watch him work in game, and i think that's just the cutest thing, so i doodled that too.
fun fact! According to Alice's genetics, she's supposed to have purple hair, but she, instead, matches Timothy with his grey/white hair.
there's a lot of other kids running around my colony too, but they belong to others (one being just a clone lol). no joke, i think i have 5-6 adults and about 8 kids running around the place. it's chaos. i love it lol : )
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penisbilt Ā· 6 months ago
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the bittersweet but absolute flood of relief that comes from admitting defeat at living independently, to have to move back in with parents. we tried! we gave it our best shot for almost 3 years! but living like this (being on our own) is just not possible for us at this time of our lives. we've finally proved it to ourselves that we can't do it. it'll be okay to let ourselves rest now
#latimers parents not mine!!!! i am NOT moving back to florida LOL#really hope that the changes will be good for my mental health. this apartment is toxic to us#ive been on the verge of meltdowns Kind Of A Lot lately. imnot doing great#extremely dependent on substances. just to reach a baseline level of functioning. but even that isnt working as much anymore#the only things i do on my phone or tablet these days is like. 2 mobile games. and skirting past my dms to check latimers blog#its too overwhelming to even open discord these days yknow. everything on earth is too much for me right meow#i havent been drawing i havent been social online OR irl i havent been cooking or creating#i havent been keeping up with personal hygiene like at all im particularly ashamed about that one#i've been really bad about doing my T the past few months which is a HUGE shame because im SO fucking hyped to be on it#theres just. too many obstacles in getting it done half the time. and the other half of the time i just forget#anyway. anyway.#our lease ends in july so between now and then we're just gonna try our best to tolerate our living situation enough to get by#there's a light at the end of the tunnel. and its called 'i only have to be in charge of like 2 rooms at most. and not a household!'#we're gonna try to slowly comb through all our things between now and then so the process of moving wont suck as bad#cuz listen. its pretty fucking bad right now#maybe not for other people. but it is for me. and its okay to let myself come to terms with that#im just. so relieved. still very stressed! but theres at least light at the end of the tunnel and its only like 2 months away#ill be able to draw guilt-free again. ill be able to just EXIST guilt-free#i dont think ive felt guilt-free for just existing the way i do since like. turning 20#i know my mom wouldve loved if i stayed home forever. and im sad i cant be there for her#but ever since i had a fight with my dad at 15 or 16 it just really felt like he didnt want me there more and more#maybe as the youngest he was resenting that i was preventing him from becoming an empty nester or something. i dont know#because all the other kids had been moved out and on their own at least once but i had never left home before#i dont know if he'd be heartbroken or not to hear that i feeling like he was resenting me. but thats the energy i was picking up for years#i dunno. i dont know#anyway. back to housing. for now im going to try to relax and store energy for the moving process#the huge pile of things by the kitchen? i dont have to worry about that becoming permanent because we're leaving in 2 months#the general discord of the state of our possessions? we have to go through everything to pack it all anyway. we can move in RIGHT this time#when we moved in here we didnt have a car or license so we were dependent on latimers 3-hr-drive-away parents to help us move#just /across town/. and we had a whole month between leases! but it still had to be done in a weekend
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hackfurs Ā· 7 months ago
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i think a month long vacation in washington would fix me
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wakinguponsaturday Ā· 7 months ago
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me @ me: stop thinking about your 'permanently on hiatus' teen Inquisitor fic. it's been 7 years. you are so busy right now you don't have time to pick this back up
me @ me: she was ELEVEN when the mage rebellion started. she was sent to the Templars as a political maneuver to bolster her family's reputation when she was EIGHT. her sister died in her arms days before they received word of the conclave. and you're just going to abandon her. wow
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the-acid-pear Ā· 8 months ago
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Did you know? Studies show 90% of abused children quit right before they become the perfect vessel for a child of what they believe their parents will actually love. KEEP DESTROYING WHO YOU ARE FOR A MEANINGLESS CAUSE!
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teardropsonsmyguitar Ā· 6 months ago
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yellowlaboratory Ā· 15 days ago
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I have come to say chapter 17 was everything it was too good. Like I love my babies so much. Then bonding and that kiss had me spiraling. The only thing, Iā€™m son nervous for whatā€™s to come because there are three chapters left and there probably be more drama and angst. Iā€™m preparing myself to cry.
Anyways I love love love your writing and am so excited for chapter 18. Is it coming out anytime soon??
Also final thing to say, you excited for part 2? Any theories or predictions? Iā€™m so excited I genuinely canā€™t wait!!
Have a wonderful day!!
this is so sweet!!!! thank you so much šŸ’›šŸ’›šŸ’›
there are only a couple more chapters left and they are probably going to be some of the longest chapters of the fic. there's a lot I want to cover before we wrap this up. and I'm not going to tell you there won't be angst. :)
as for chapter 18.... well, all I'll say is that it literally ripped my psyche to shreds, but .... it's almost there. I need to go back and forth about a few things and then have my beta reader look at it but it shouldn't be too long now.
and I am SO EXCITED for part 2!!!!! worried nervous filled with doubt and thrilled as well!!! my opinion of part 1 is INCREDIBLY high. i think the one thing I'll say is that I left part 1 feeling like the pates really understood what I loved about the characters and the show, and as long as I can confidently say that about part 2, then I'll be thrilled. I'm not super good at making predictions, mostly cause the pates throw shit at me that I could never expect, but I'm thinking we'll see a non-zero amount of jiara and cleope angst and I'll be eating it up.
also please for the love of god someone please please please get pope and sarah out of that rat infested hole in the ground.
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angel---eater Ā· 24 days ago
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weird ranting about fandom is done now lol i just care a lot abt jake as a queer character. hes mentally ill and traumatized and has brain damage and is most definitely also neurodivergent bc lets face it all HS characters are some kinda ND, and he makes terrible decisions and burries his head in the sand for months instead of talking to his own boyfriend bc intimacy is simply too new and overwhelming and hes GREAT. i wouldnt have this fucker any other way
#our t#the best thing about dirk and jakes relationship in hs1 is that a lot of their problems couldve been solved if they just bucked up#and talked to e/o#but theyre 16 and werent raised by. well. anyone. i mean jake was for a little bit but dirk had idk. seagulls. and robots. and then hal#but you see dirk being so more than willing to talk to jake like all the time but hes just left to have his messages pile up#which understandibly makes him feel like a clingy overwhelming monster when hes just..............**16** and really into#one of his best friends. and yes jake is dirks only option but you cannot ignore the fact that they *like* each other#jake likes dirk so much he made a whole new dirk that just lives in his brain#they like e/o so so so much. jake keeps calling dirk his boyfriend for pages and pages after dirk breaks up w/ him#and after being jerked around for so long by jake i dont blame him for giving up#meat!dirk's 'youll never hurt me again' in the epilogues is from a place of truth. jake DID hurt him. jake didnt have to ghost him#for that long. dirks clinginess scared jake which got them both hurt. both sides of this are extremely understandible and real#i dont think either of them did anything majorly wrong to e/o im ngl. its just being 16 and traumatized#<- reasons why i find the cannibalism dirkjake trend jarring and massively ooc#like if i want some HS cannibalism-as-metaphore for overwhelming attraction stuff my first thought is actually vrisrezi but okay
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akihatohnoofficial Ā· 1 year ago
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If Wildbow didnā€™t have a white suburban motherā€™s view on drugs Taylor would be doing some breaking bad shit
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