#i need to write an essay about their relationship bc it makes my brain go brrrr

[libretitamortal]

Don't touch me. he really cared about yuka and loved her as his mother and that makes me weak cuz that makes me wonder what the fuck happened to her i dont remember omg

[rbr4c1ng]

Hii! I was wondering if you could maybe explain the bus bros fallout or p2p gate or pretty much all of the McLaughlin-Newgarden lore to me since I'm only getting in to IndyCar now and I want to be caught up before the 500. I understand this is a big ask but I've seen that youve posted about it and I just NEED to know. Any links to other pieces of lore would also be much apreciated. Completely understand if you don't want to write anything though so thank you so much I advance!! <3

YES ABSOLUTELY I WILL EXPLAIN! this is my special interest dw i could write an 18 page essay about their lore.

SO basically scott came into indycar from supercars in 2020-2021 ish and him a josef started getting along like super well, which is honestly a bit odd bc josef is known to not really let people get so close to him, so scotty is a bit of an outlier in that respect.

eventually! they make bus bros!!! wooooo everyone loves it etc etc they have fun making it…. until they don’t! leading up to their breakup there were QUITE a few clues that they knew it was gonna end in flames like scott talked about it on off track (see audio excerpt below) and on hot seats with hinch if i remember correctly?

there’s also a fair share of articles that mention it. they basically knew it was inevitable but i don’t think anyone thought it was gonna happen so quickly??

so then the winter break leading into the 2024 szn happened! this is about when i started getting really into bus bros and was honestly pretty present for some of this shit (i was at the daytona 24 and st pete so i’ve got some first hand evidence but we will get to that later)… anyways so the rumors start going around that bus bros is over around?? st pete time i think??? a little bit earlier. which is odd given that they seemed okay with each other at the daytona 24, even though i thought it was strange that they weren’t both on tower motorsports anymore cause josef switched to penske porsche but GENERALLY it seemed okay (although based on this pic idk their relationship seems a little charged atp but it’s all speculation really)

then after the rumors come out i think it was jenna fryer’s article that did it in? (idk it has a paywall on it for me right now and i don’t care enough to find it here but there’s definitely excerpts floating around) now i do recommend to take anything jenna fryer says with a grain of salt bc she is essentially a gossip columnist for all intents and purposes. but the article basically said that josef and scotty were done and scott wouldn’t answer any questions about it and was only saying that they’re fine or to ask josef about it (tea from todays 100 days to indy episode actually…). they promptly took down the bus bros merch site and have been relatively quiet since then. at st pete they talked on the podium and didn’t seem too bad but i’ve seen other clips where they won’t even sit next to each other or speak to each other so take that as you will. podiums are pretty much just publicity, cameras everywhere, you’d probably want to seem at least cordial with your teammate.

(pic 1 is mine, pic 2 is a pic of my tv from todays episode LMFAO)

so heres where most of the speculative stuff comes in. Josef dissolved his media company, unfollowed everyone, and cancelled bus bros leading into the 2024 season because he wanted to “get rid of distractions”, and really we could leave it at that, but i find it hard to believe that that’s the only thing that happened.

Josef is the dictionary definition of Penske Perfect, you won’t get any closer to it than him. he’s fucking OBSESSED with this idea of being perfect. perfect season, perfect body, perfect car, perfect team. obviously this isn’t feasible, but scotty seemed to have broken through that block in his little Penske Perfect brain and got him to LIGHTEN UP A BIT. and then the 2023 season happened. sure, josef won the indy 500 but it was one of his worst season finishes in a while and, to make matters worse, scott BEAT him. little scotty mac, supercars champion transplant from 2021 beat josef newgarden at his own fucking game after breaking down his walls and making him soft. i can see how that scared josef honestly. so he ended it. Scott doesn’t see things on a plane of winning/losing imo, everything is just experience for him. hell, he didn’t even know if he would end up in indycar and he sure as hell didn’t think he’d win races so soon AND beat his teammate. to josef, it’s JUST winning/losing. if he’s losing, he needs to be better. and he lost sight of that for the 2023 season. that’s why he had to come back and put an end to the shenanigans bc he knows scott makes him soft.

but that’s just my speculation!!!!! literally could just be nothing. maybe it is to josef, but i know for a FACT it isn’t to scott.

OH and with the p2pgate stuff! basically they had a component in their car that. was not supposed to be there! that prevented race control from turning off their push to pass like normal. (marshall pruitt has a rlly good article explaining it all here) and they were caught in long beach when race control forgot to turn on the push to pass during the sunday warm up and HMMMMM why do the penske cars still have it???? when has this happened before??? oh ok st pete! now they’re disqualified. josef used 9 seconds of p2p when it was not enabled and scotty only used 1.9 and will used none. so i’m led to believe that it was a josef-centered choice IF it was intentional to use the p2p when it was supposed to be inactive.

now josef really laid down the water works for that press conference at barber to the point that i was having a VERY hard time watching it. i felt bad for the guy. he seemed really fucking upset and i almost believe that it WASNT on purpose but. it’s just too good to be true right?

honestly i think this all could tie back to the downfall of bus bros in that scott maybe didn’t want to do the p2p thing but josef was willing to? and maybe that caused some sort of divide between them bc then again for josef it’s about Winning No Matter What, and yes scott wants to win but cheating isn’t the way for him. idk.

for more of their lore when they WERE friends, watch bus bros (duh), admit one, 100 days to indy, scott learns america: nashville, hot seats with hinch, and listen to scott’s episode on off track with hinch and rossi! also there are some very brief interactions between them on some older penske games videos before bus bros was even a thing but it’s not much. there are more but i can’t think of them rn…

sorry for rambling, if you have any more qs feel free to ask!!! i’m always available for brain picking :)

[heartpascal]

i screamed and cried you got exactly what i was i was thinking but also so much better in my ask about if the door wasn't shut, it's like you're inside my brain. but i have more thoughts since you said you liked them :)

also this is my second time typing this out bc my phone died when i went to send it the first time, so if you get this twice that's my bad😭

but you're so right, i just feel like after everything along with all it took for her to truly feel settled, she wouldn't be able to leave like that. especially not without someone else influencing her to, whether that be actively or passively. but imo, in addition to joel, a big part of why she wouldn't leave is because tommy left, and she wouldn't be able to bring herself to leave maria too

and tommy leaving is so stuck in my head because you're so right(this whole thing is just me agreeing with you😭) that would be so crazy for her. because tommy was there and he knows what that was like for r and joel on both ends. so for him to leave after all that? i actually think in a way it'd be worse than when joel left. because obviously r was hurt and angry with joel, but she gets to a point where she can start to understand why he did what he did and bridge that with the fact that it was okay to feel how she did, and work on reconciling that with joel. but for tommy, that base hurt/anger mixed with grief? and on top of him leaving maria and his kid, and r's own guilt, and everything else like. it would just all be too much. because how can you move past that even when he does come back? their relationship would be forever changed more so than it obviously already is. it's devastating and tragic i'm literally foaming at the mouth i need to write essays about this

obviously she goes with jesse and saves him and everyone comes home safe and okay🥲😭

no but fr i know i'm stuck on the idea of her staying behind, but it's breaking my heart so bad. bc part of her probably did feel like she should go, so she's already going to feel some type of way after she doesn't. but it would just ruin her when jesse doesn't come back. i feel like she'd be stuck for a while on how could she have let him go, and how could she have stayed behind, and how could the rest of them let this happen, when really it wasn't in any of their control. i could sob about it.

dina and her raising jj together means everything to me your mind is so powerful. i need several full length novels about it full of feelings😭

anon i cannot TELL YOU how much i love this and you. YOU MAKE MY DAY!!! i love love LOVE hearing your thoughts it feeds my own fr :’) and omg 😭i’ve only gotten it the once but i feel for you </3 having to type all this out a second time omg

you are so incredibly correct like i cannot even explain. please excuse me if my thoughts are incoherent i am going to do my best 🫡

tlou part two spoilers under the cut

reader and tommy’s relationship would NEVER be the same. honestly i don’t think there would even be a chance for forgiveness like there was with joel. especially because joel did have to go, he didn’t have to leave her, but he did have to go. whereas tommy??? no!!! he could have stayed. he could have done what his brother has been trying to do for YEARS and he could have let it go, for the sake of his wife and his child and R!!!!!!! tommy had so many things in jackson that he should’ve stayed for, and he didn’t. and i don’t think r would’ve been able to forgive that.

not to mention the effects on tommy’s appearance after seattle! i have always always thought that he was reasonable (to himself) for being fucking furious with ellie. because he lost everything, going after abby. he lost his wife, his friends, his functionality???, and ellie seemingly didn’t lose a thing. all the while abby got away just fine! so yeah i think his reaction, considering his state of mind, was reasonable. right? no. but reasonable? yes. BUT!!! imagine the effects of losing reader too???? not to mention how much more damage this would do to his marriage as well like ???? :( maria might have been able to forgive him, one day, but seeing what he did to r, who she sees as her own child???? NO!!!!

so yeah. tommy and reader would never be the same. i’m not sure r would even be able to speak to him again. honestly she’s going through it 😭 loses joel and then tommy and possibly jesse along with him? guys. please. she doesn’t deserve this.

i jsut cant get over it :( she just wouldn’t be able to understand what would possess tommy to leave after everything he’s seen her go through :( after everything he’s HELPED her through :( i think she would really struggle for a long time. she’s lost the only thing she had left of the childhood she never really got, and alongside it, the parent she had always thought she would never have :(

I CAN BARELT TALK ABOUT JESSE WITHOUT AOBBING AND SCREAMING AND CRYING. god. why did they do that to him.

she DID feel like she should go 😭 i think it would’ve been maria’s reassurance and support that would’ve been the only reason she didn’t go when ellie did. BJT JESSE???? he would’ve told her to stay. and she would’ve because she trusted him and she loved him and she KNEW he would come back. he wasn’t leaving her like everybody else because he would never. he had seen her through the good, the bad and the REALLY bad and he had never once even considered stepping out the door. he’s the man. he’s the myth. he’s the legend. she never gets to keep good things.

and then he doesn’t come back? ellie and dina come back to jackson, dragging a half-dead tommy behind them, and they didn’t even bring back jesse’s body. (in my mind anwyay. they were already injured as it was and just trying to keep tommy alive.) i don’t think she would know what to do with that. i don’t think she would know how to live with that. how do you carry on as if everything is fine when it’s so clearly not? jesse was the one person she knew would always come back to her, and in her mind, because of ellie and dina, he hadn’t.

so yeah. the only good relationship she would have left following joel’s death would be with maria. maria who becomes her rock. maria who leans on her and allows herself to be leaned on in return. maria who is the love of my life.

i just cant get over it. i just cant. like imagine. the devastation of jesse’s death would be unmatched. it truly would. how does one person handle so much loss? and the guilt? what does she do with that?

just thinking about maria holding r’s shoulder as she hands her the chalkboard and lets her write jesse’s name. maria hugging r when she cries over not even know when he died. maria figuring it out from the botched recounts that ellie and dina give. maria writing it on the board and holding r’s hand as she shows her.

[trentcrimminallybeautiful]

☔️? i really love your work! (your trent is so dorky he's absolutely perfect)

thank you sm!!! i just. i just love him being a dork <33 he's so. 💗💞💖💗💓💞💞💗💖💖💗💞💖💞💞💗💖

☔Is there a fic concept you have that you'd like to just explain and share because you're not sure you'll ever write it? If so, what is it?

okay i swear im not copying off of @sighonaraa here (hey !! 😘) bc my initial inspiration was poirot (silly mustache buddies!) not benoit blanc, although benoit blanc and sherlock holmes did cross my mind after i had the initial idea, but i have a fic i've rotated in my brain about like. amateur sleuth/gentleman detective/gumshoe ted au, with a tedependent angle.

i actually have a lot of interest in like. both mystery stories in general (amateur sleuth/gentleman detective versus private eye/noir detective is a good one! i have a very vague noir au too--and trent as a homme fatale, perhaps? inch resting) and in like. certain archetypes (gentleman thief, amateur sleuth, magical nanny, noir private eye, etc) and it's fun to see how ted would fit into them (magical nanny is weirdly fitting, the whole mary poppins/nanny mcphee--oh my god, "when you do not want me but need me, i must stay--when you want me but no longer need me, i must go" this is literally how ted thinks of his role with the teams he coaches isn't it. jesus christ. hang on a second i'm going to make that a Post.)

so like i have a lot of vague aus centered around these concepts: ted as a poirot/benoit blanc/sherlock type character, and trent potentially as his watson/hastings/etc, or the other way around possibly but less likely, and so on.

with the sleuth thing in particular, though, i just have a lot of feelings about how a good gentleman sleuth has to be like. kind, intelligent, underestimated, and non-judgemental. particularly that last one, i think, is a very important trait--because they go digging around in the domestic private lives of their suspects, and often uncover truths that are irrelevant to the crime at hand, but nonetheless have deeper life-changing implications. (a hidden relationship, a secret, a past indiscretion, whatever--i could genuinely write an essay aobut this but im trying to hold back here so i won't give specific examples) and in order to be kind, an amateur sleuth must know when to let things lie (in fact, a good sleuth will sometimes, if rarely, let the murderer go entirely, if it is needed, which generally, a cop in a cop show can never do), or when to be earnestly non-judgemental about it, you know? and i think all that suits ted to a "t". being curious, not judgemental. being kind and empathetic. i think trent would make a great partner in this as well because he very much cares about the truth, but ted helps him see when it's better to keep silent, because despite trent's determination (especially if he still starts off as a journalist with a Reputation) he does have a kind heart, and he isn't necessarily interested in causing pain. and he's very intelligent in his own right (although that's another thing, is that usually the watson/hastings is, while intelligent in their own way, an entirely different type of intelligence, while i believe trent would actually be pretty good at detecting, considering his skillset? so. hm.)

anyway i just have a lot of messy thoughts about this.

also see: i wrote like, one page of a selkie!trent au bc a single scene sprung into my brain fully formed and nothing else will cooperate now.

[kikuism]

top 5 scenes you're excited to write about/love thinking about involving your ocs!! 💜💜

ahhhhh 😳 haven't shared writing in forever but it's all i think about....so sharing it in this way makes me feel so vulnerable. i can't possibly rank these either bc they light up different parts of my brain....

1) i've been working on this for more than a year now, it's basically kiku meeting kou’s family and spending a couple weeks with them on vacation in their family home.....it's very tender and i explore their relationship in its deeper stage and how they themselves have matured. this will never see the light of day if i keep being as stubbornly perfectionist as i am so perhaps i will share some scenes soon....

2) everything with kaname.....i have such a vision and i love imagining the story in my head but i’m so stuck lol i can't write plots. why is it 759274x harder to write girls i hate it here i'll never meet the standards i've set for myself. it still feels like a 'chore' to write kaname, i can't write her freely like i do kikou. and the only way to remedy this is to write more of her, but then i get stuck and i quit it's a vicious cycle

3) sometimes i write kiku going over to kou’s apartment in the early stages of their relationship and they watch a bunch of movies together, kind of like in sayonara eri. kou has pretentious taste and kiku is just happy to sit close and absorb his quiet thrill. i watched tokyo story a few months ago and i think kou would love it. i like imagining what other movies they would watch and how they gradually get closer to each other during the runtime.

4) my meiji era au omg.....i've written so many scenes from that too. i love playing with the spatial distribution of the house, as the wealthy often had homes that were a blend of traditional and the newly emerging western style, and the established boundaries between master and servant become blurred as a result. there was such a good essay i read on this topic after i read naomi and i'm just grasping for straws here....i have to find it. anyway here's a snippet

5) i need to write more naomi. i love imagining her and kiku doing pretentious activities together.

[forlix]

hiii, it’s me again, 🪷 anonnie

I’m so glad you liked the song! I love giving song recs, and music and lit are so intertwined in my brain so I’m thinking of the two together all the time.

now… onto ‘empty my mind’… spoilers below:

SO GOOD 😭🫠

idek what this trope is called but I love when one characters is soo devoted and desperate to do anything for their lover. like, just give everything up completely and do anything for them. and I love it even more when the target of their affection is immediately aware of this dynamic and feels so protective instead of, like, taking advantage of it? which for sure you can see jisung assumes will eventually happen, and he feels like he deserves to be used and dropped. but reader treats him so well like ‘no, you’re not a bad person you’re literally just a human existing. you’re doing your best baby’ like UGH! SO GOOD!

and then they actually talk at the end and get that closure? like jisung feels safe enough to open up and reader understands him completely. and this silent reassurance that is fully being vocalized really convinces jisung that he does deserve to be loved. and like, he believes he’s being fixed too which is so much development. going from ‘I’ll do whatever you want, I feel like nothing so I’ll be thankful for anything you give me’ to ‘I’ll do whatever you want, because you make me feel like something’. also there is so much care put into the metaphor of the ghosts that manifest in his nightmares representing his mental health that I can’t get into it because I will literally CRY! how reader handles his mental state so tenderly just wrecks me 💗

also, love the scenes with felix and the other members. especially when jisung and reader leave the study group. I imagined felix thinking ‘yes, she can fix him’ the whole time he’s trying to bring them together. and I loved the smut, car sex is always sexy. not to mention how intent jisung is on convincing reader that he’s not gonna leave, and then later during the storm she assures him that she wants him to stay. like YES HE NEEDS TO KNOW THAT YOU WANT HIM FOR MORE THAN JUST SEX

sorry for the short essay but I really wanted to say it all. I think next time I will just dm you but I’m very shy about interacting with people 👉🏻👈🏻 anywayyy, byye, take care 🫶🏻

hello my light, my love, my lotus anon, pls accept my apology for replying to this so late i wanted to store it in my inbox until it finally sank in that it's REAL and you're real bc what the fuck. i can't believe u took the time to analyze "empty my mind" so deeply and so richly i wept reading this the first time and i'm weeping AGAIN typing this out. thank you, thank you, thank you

re: the connections between music and literature, you're SO real for that. for most of my writings (except for the drabbles), i include lil playlists in the description so y'all can listen to the songs i derived inspiration from while writing :') i would be so curious to know your thoughts on the ones i chose for "empty my mind"! or if u made any associations yourself 🎤 lmk my lyrical genius

and i seriously fell over myself reading your interpretation of their relationship because that's EXACTLY what i was going for, like, for real, you hit every single point and articulated it so much better than i could if i tried. i loved all of what you said, but especially the part where the reader embraces rather than takes advantage of him. i like to think he got the sense he could trust her from the moment they met, so he very cautiously continued to give himself to her bit by bit as they grew closer even though he was deathly afraid of doing so. and it was all worth it in the end bc she's wonderful for him and wonderful in general (can u tell i love my mcs)

and it's so interesting that you used the word "fixed." i had to tread carefully around their dynamic, in part because i didn't want it to seem like she was hoping to change anything about him (or yk those memes that are like "i can fix him" and it's about the most toxic person in the world? yeah that was not her thought process). the core of their love, the reason why they work, is because she doesn't see anything that has to be changed in the first place. he is fucking perfect to her as he comes. so i love the way you described it: it's him who wants to change, not for her but because of her, thanks to her, because she reminds him that he can.

taking an intermission to fangirl over you bc

going from ‘I’ll do whatever you want, I feel like nothing so I’ll be thankful for anything you give me’ to ‘I’ll do whatever you want, because you make me feel like something’

the way you PHRASED THIS HOLY FUCK. A BILLION TIMES YES. you picked up on their very essence and i'm pressing consensual kisses to your mind because you read them (and me) like an open book

ALSO!! ABOUT FELIX OMG. you're so right, ofc our wonderful, emotional, observant lix can see the clouds perpetually hanging over ji's head and knows mc will be able to help him scatter them. my fav matchmaker

NEVER, EVER apologize for sending me an essay my star. you genuinely have no idea how happy your ask made me like it's not an exaggeration to say my heart is floating within me rn. that you took apart my fic so tenderly and so perceptively not only enforced my love for writing as a whole but strengthened it manifold. i don't even have the words to thank you as vehemently as i want to but just know i'll be safekeeping your words for a very long time to come 🤍

i treasure you so fucking much. THANK YOU.

[gaffney]

Tell what you love about 9 line? I love that Jesse has the logic despite Adam usually being seen as the smart one.

i’ve always wondered where the “adam is smart” headcanon comes from because this is the same guy who goes “we don’t need a tutor!!!” in d2. and ok this isn’t considered canon because it’s not in the movie but in the old d2 script he even makes a “i don’t need education to be a hockey player, gretzky never went to college!!!” comment. like that boy is DUMB. a dumb blond who i love (to bully). tho tbh i think the ducks got one brain cell in rotation…

but man i could write essays on 9line. i guess the “tldr” answer is that i think they all compliment each other despite being opposites?? also, canon is on my side because there's quite a few shots of all 3 together. but like, imo charlie and jesse have made the most impact in adam’s life–charlie as the first (duck) to show adam kindness and believing he could do better, jesse as the first (duck) to hold adam accountable for his shitty behavior and pushing him to be better. meanwhile charlie and jesse kinda skate run parallel. they often want the same thing but have a different approach, but even when they're not on each other's side they're on each other's side (ex. charlie, despite trying to welcome adam, didn’t try to invalidate jesse’s feelings or change his mind but walked out after him).

it's funny bc jesse wasn’t in d3, but i think him not being there actually made me appreciate him (and his relationship with charlie and adam) even more. esp because of how different they were without him there. charlie basically turned into jesse-lite and adam lost his nerve (going from defending jesse against dwayne & “her name is julie, not babe!” to blatantly turning a blind eye while varsity bullied kenny & not speaking up about the prank…), idc if the writers didn't do it on purpose i def headcanon that it’s because they missed jesse 😌

[thunderpetal]

20 questions for fic writers

I was tagged by @the-real-azalea-scroggs! Thank you <3

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

35! And hopefully one more before the end of the year.

2. What's your total AO3 wordcount?

201,451. Which is mad.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Zelda (Linked Universe), The Owl House, Spiderverse and as of that fic I need to upload before the end of the year, Revue Starlight.

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

Five Teaspoons - Also the fic that took me the least time to write out of all of them. But it's Wild-centric LOL

The Pink Heroes - Legend and Wild discuss gender while Twilight chills in the background.

Someday We'll Stand Here By The Sun - My Owl House longfic that explores Luz and Amity's relationship post S2, pre S3.

The Quiet Kitchen - The prequel to SWSHBTS.

Walking the Same Path - Wind and Wild discuss gender- yeah this is a running theme isn't it LOL

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I respond to comments because you must be crazy if you think I'm gonna pass up a chance to discuss the blorbos I write about more

6. What's a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Probably the weight of your actions, but I swear it's only angsty bc the canon of Gwen's universe in Spiderverse is angsty! Author is not responsible!

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Can I cheat and do a fic I haven't written yet? Because the ending of the Wind and Wild gender series is going to be so sweet it may cause cavities. Other than that, probably Eudemonia, cause it's just pure fankids fluff.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

No, I think half my fics are probably too niche to attract bad faith types.

9. Do you write smut?

I'm baby.

10. Do you write crossovers?

I rotated the idea of Owl House x LU in my brain for a while but never wrote it, and now that I haven't, I probably never will.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Lol yeah someone uploaded an incredibly similar fic to in how many grey hours a few hours after I did, but nothing ever came of it. It wasn't Stolen stolen so I don't really care.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I haven't hit that milestone yet :(

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

The Lumity fankids are a brainchild of myself, @heleirylis and our friend maisa even if the fics on my profile for it aren't actually co-written. Also me and leir still need to do a joint fic for one of our fandoms (it WILL happen soon)

14. What's your all time favourite ship?

Lumity or Kuromaya now I've gotten back into the latter. I could write essays about both. I have in the case of Lumity

15. What's the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Can I say all of them? LOL er jokes aside I could answer this question with my timeloop fic where Time dies in front of Twilight and Twi uses the ocarina to try to save him over and over, but I haven't even started that properly, and I still reserve the right to say I WILL finish it. It's just a way more complicated fic than anything else I've ever written and requires much more brainpower than I fear I currently have. I guess the WIP that is actually never getting finished is my Fluffbruary 2023 collection. RIP.

16. What are your writing strengths?

Dialogue and writing characters in character.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Anything other than those two things. But particularly writing descriptions.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

A couple of my fave blorbos are bilingual so I do it occasionally. But my brother is the one with a languages degree, not me, so I honestly try and avoid it.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Zelda, back when I was 11. Which makes me happy that I'm still writing for it now.

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

It's a bit hard to choose but I really love I've Built My Life Around You. I was attempting to capture a very specific feeling and I think I did it. Plus my writing is way too good in that fic, to the point where whenever I reread it I forget I'm the one who wrote it. And I reread it a lot cause it's my niche I want to read, which is why it probably qualifies as my fave.

Tagging anyone who wants to do this!

[canarymemories]

12 + 18 + 21 w/ izumi?

already answered 21 with the last ask, so just 12 and 18

12. What's a headcanon you have for this character?

had to contact ye olde retrospring to see if they would make me remember any skgh i'll give you a few. he has freckles, but they're light and reasonably easy to cover with makeup. he does end up actually needing glasses at some point post graduation, but his eyes (probably) aren't bad enough to warrant wearing them all the time. ace izumi my beloved,, genderfluid or nonbinary (i haven't settled on one or the other yet) but in a very shrugs shoulders idc what you call me kind of way (think of next door where he says the whole gender thing isn't as important to him as it is to arashi), just as long as u think he's pretty, we're all good sdkhg also you cannot convince me in any way that izumi is a morning person

18. How about a relationship they have in canon with another character that you admire?

avoiding the obvious response bc i could write like. an essay abt leo and izumi's friendship, i'll go with his friendship with arashi and ritsu. the three of them were left behind after checkmate and had to rely on each other through what was most likely the worst part of their lives for all three of them (yes, there were other people they could rely on at the time but that's not the point here). there is a certain closeness between those three that's seen throughout ! and !! that doesn't exactly exist within knights otherwise. like yes they're all close, but idk something about spending the worst few months of your life with two other weirdos Going Through It with you might make u besties for life or smth lksdgh i just think we should talk about them more often. i'd add more but my brain stopped working like. two hours ago i think 😔 but really,,, guys please consider the three of them. thank u

ask game

[lollytea]

No need to apologise for the derailing loved reading all of it (and as person who tends follow a stream of thoughts i relate)

When it comes to shipping in every fandom the characters / dynamics tend to be simplified for the convince (and bc id be hard to whip out a whole essay about in and out s of their relationship everytime you wanna make a silly joke, but it tends to be so widely and often used that it makes me sometimes think "wait you don t really think that they would act like that right?"But that s something that s just gonna happen ig and who am i to police ppl on jokes🤷

Loved the insignt about his military upbringing and automantically analysing ppl s strenght which i haven t though about but very much agree.

Althought i also think that beside willows powers she has proved to be quite fearless (let s overlook ladybugs / j) especially in front of Hunter where she stood up to Darius and was ready to protect EE with her body. She knew she was gonna lose and that she s weaker than the coven head but that didn t stop her. That s one of the reasons (i think) Hunter recognised fake willow so soon. Because real willow regardless if she s stronger or not overlooks the dangers and focuses on doing everything to save her friends.

And willow + gus being Hunters safe space is so dear to me it s honestly ridiculous

Hopefully after some time in nocedas household he ll have time to relax/heal and be a lil snarky maybe in a form of sibling like banter with luz?

//and back to willow and her strenght there s this hc i have about beta willow. That althought beta universe is way more dangerous/bloody i like to think willow wasn t that much violent there? But unhinged for sure, using plants attacks and refusing to "unspell" them after fight (they are her beloved plants and she s not heartless enough to make them disappear just after bringing them to life) leaving those dangerous creatures (but before the battle she always thinks what kind of flowers would grow the best in this climate/soil etc)

(was the last addition totally off the topic? ... perhaps Is this ask a mess? Very much yes. Sorry!)

I'm happy you liked it!! I appreciate when other people whose thoughts are similarly many but disorganised see my stuff and are like "yeah me too man."

And yeah whenever I make a silly little joke about Huntlow that's not entirely a reflection of how I really see them I always think about that one post that's like "oh no they're gonna think I don't understand themes and narratives!!" But like. I have several essays I can whip out if anyone questions me about it. I am very easily coaxed into writing huntlow essays. Practically dying to at all times. All somebody's gotta do is bring up a specific topic of discussion and their own opinion to get me started and I'll go off the rails.

Willow is SO brave man. And I like to believe that it's character development, going by season 1 where she went into denial over stepping on bones. I think the Eda petrification thing really changed her brain chemistry into understanding that the world they lived in was corrupt and you either gotta learn to protect or get protected.

She's still just a kid tho. You KNOW that deep down she was probably terrified during her confrontation with Darius, especially after it was demonstrated that she was way WAY outmatched in this fight and she hadnt a chance of winning. But she did it anyway because her friends' lives were at stake and somebody had to fight for them. Man Willow is SO cool.

(Something kinda tragic about her eventually giving up and throwing her arms out to shield them and shutting her eyes tight. She thinks she's gonna die protecting them. And it's noble. It really is. But we gotta remember that she blames herself for all of them being in this mess.)

I love this scene a lot because like both the "half-a witch" admissions from earlier, it's a moment between Willow and Hunter where they realize "Oh. You're like me."

They're both brave to a recklessly suicidal extent. They're protectors. They're self sacrificial.

Hunter sees her bravery in this scene and he understands it completely. She was prepared to handle this herself and lose in the process and he begs her to please just let him do it for her. His tone of his voice, the intense eye contact, his use of "Captain" and his plea? He knew she wasn't going to run away unless he begged. It wasn't the kind of person she was.

Hes known her for a DAY!!! But he gets it!!! He fucking gets her!!!!

Of COURSE this was one of the many reasons he realized LR Willow was a fake. After this girl pulled some shit like THAT there is no way she's getting spooked by illusions.

I know Hunter's gonna have some rough times in season 3 but I also know he's not just gonna be angsting the whole time. He's too funny. As much as the crew loves putting him through shit, they also clearly love him in comedic situations. They love Hunter man. You can clearly tell. He's gonna be so snarky he's gonna be so annoying. Hes gonna argue with Luz and probably Gus and maybe even Amity. It's gonna be great.

I'm so excited for s3 Luz and Hunter dynamic. It's coming I know it is. Its gonna be big and everything I ever wanted. Its so interesting to me how, besides Flapjack, Luz is the character Hunter has been the most comfortable around. They just have something special man. They're gonna have their snarky snippy little bickering, I know they will.

Beta stuff isn't really a thing I'm all that interested in. I'm happy people have their fun with the designs and coming up with lore and headcanons for those versions of the characters and the lore but I'm so attached to the canon interpretations that I can't really get invested. But I do love this!! Even in canon itself, I'd love to see Willow be the kind of person who dotes and fawns over her horrifying poison mucus spraying briars or whatever other plants her creatively unhinged little brain conjures up. Like they're her BABIES!!! It makes people uncomfortable but Willow is just so sweet that they don't have the heart to tell her to get rid of them.

[thejsorcerer]

hi, im writing an essay about the aroace experience and i was wondering if you could name some of your favorite things, or just some good things idrk about being aroace? im aroace myself but im having brain fog and cant come up with anything other than having more appreciation for platonic relationships than others may realize lol

omg that sounds amazing! I'd love to name a couple of things I love about being aroace, thank you so much for sending this 🤭🧡 (& hopefully I'm not answering this too late, I've been on a family trip so I'm sorry 😭). I'll try to name as much as I can think of during this 45 minute road trip HAHAHA

Take into consideration all of these are from a romance and sex indifferent, aromantic asexual perspective (meaning that I don't really want nor desire romance or sex for myself, but I'm not repulsed by either. Just indifferent).

Favorite Things About Being AroAce 💚💜

1. Definitely appreciating and nurturing platonic relationships more than others do. Romance isn't part of my life which means that my emotional and affectionate needs are usually fulfilled through my platonic connections and found family. I've had the privilege of finding my people and I couldn't be more grateful for that 🥺💞.

2. imo, giving excellent relationship advice to my friends who need it bc I am able to see things from a more objective and rational perspective. I've been told I give great advice so I have proof for that one 😉

3. Not feeling guilty for saying "no." If someone asks me out, there's a big probability I don't like them back (bc of the whole aromantic thing you know) so I politely reject them and don't feel guilty about it bc I just can't reciprocate that feeling: I'm not being rude. I'm just being me 💚. Plus I'm saving them from a bad relationship bc I just can't do it. Romance isn't for me.

4. Appreciating beauty. Maybe is their eye color, haircut, height, curves, face angles, fashion style; just gorgeous. You can acknowledge someone is attractive without being attracted to them. Men, women (ofc this includes trans people too), non-binary people; just anyone who's pretty, you get to acknowledge that and know it's purely aesthetic 😏.

5. Picturing a future where I'm happy and fulfilled even if it doesn't fit the norms 🥺❤. I know that I won't have a romantic love story and I've made peace with that. Rather, I can view a future where I am learning, growing and having fun with friends, meeting new people and experiencing life the way I want. I can dedicate my life to my passions (music, literature, travel around the world and visit those places I've always dreamed of going to, become an expert on topics I love); all in all, a future that makes ME happy. 💫

Hope this has been helpful, xoxo.

[bejoomi]

hello! 💕

hi! wow i’m so!! excited to be here, this muse has been eating my brain for a long time but i finally have the time and energy to actually apply, so here we are now 💓 i’ll be getting back to any messages asap, but i figure i should introduce myself properly here too. i’m carly! (she/her, 25) and i’ve been in krp forever so i’m sure i know some of you already, so if you think we’ve met before feel free to say hi to me i’d be happy to catch up  😊 regardless, i’m really excited to get to know everyone and their muses, and to get writing, so please like this post if you’d like to plot and i will run into your arms. i tend to plot best through tumblr ims actually, but i’m also @YURlLECLERC on twitter so feel free to follow me there even if u just want to chat or witness my unhinged ramblings.

onto joomi now, aka guy whose quote on his app should’ve been “stop it. get some help.” he has an about page here, which has just about all the info you could want to know about him, but i’ll ramble about him some and try my hand at some plot ideas under the cut too! even though it’ll be repetitive if u look at the about page it’ll be fun

u see that gif icon? yeah that’s joomi like. 1% of the time. i don’t actually know how he settled on jeongin as his face bc he’s not nearly as cute and happy but it be like that sometimes. maybe one day

he’s an ‘02 liner, but early ‘02 (january 9th) and he’s very mature for his age

( ABUSE TW ) mainly bc he has been through a lot, namely just...a cycle of abuse. his mom had/has a lot of issues and got divorced and married three different times so far, to a shitty man each time, who were all abusive in their own ways (aside from one who was just a Regular Old Asshole)

he was also in an abusive relationship himself unfortunately ( END TW )

he managed to escape the toxic wasteland of his life in busan to seoul last year when he got into snu

except he didn’t actually go to snu, he lied to everyone, broke up with his boyfriend, moved, and decided he was too much of a fucking mess and that he needed to work on himself first or else he was just going to absolutely crumble

so he started picking up a bunch of part time jobs + his occasional allowance from his family (who was never poor, luckily) and started going to therapy

he works as a waiter and at lotte world and then kinda makes money doing other random jobs. namely ghostwriting things for people (essays, mainly)

but he also ghostwrites music for his band that he’s been in for several months now. their lead singer is an asshole and attention whore and joomi just wants to write from his heart and would feel too vulnerable if people knew He wrote the songs, so he lets their lead singer claim the songs he writes. the lead singer also Named the band so yes, the band is named eat schmidt, no, joomi doesn’t know who schmidt is quit asking please

joomi fell back on music a lot as he grew up. he can play guitar and is really good at piano and can pick things up pretty fast. he plays keyboard in the band right now but is confident that he could fill in anywhere (and he wants to be the lead vocalist tbh...but that’s just a distant dream. don’t worry joomi i will give you your band frontman arc.)

honestly i started this intro last night and am picking it up now tonight and i have no memory whatsoever of what i wanted to write but ok

personality-wise, he’s not exactly Prickly, but he is pretty stoic and tends to keep to himself. he’s good at holding conversation tho, especially if it’s about weird deep philosophical shit (best of luck to me writing it) and actually a very caring guy tho he’s Also a tsundere LMAO very sarcastic, but also very wise and pretty good at giving advice. he Likes listening to people and when people open up to him but he tends to offer a lot of unsolicited advice so he may not be the Best listener he would be very upset if he knew this though. 

he’s also kinda a bullshit detector, good at seeing through people and kinda cutting to their core (just scorpio moon things) so he Will call people out. all the time. if you’re hurting yourself or other people, that is; if you’re hurting him he usually just takes it and is like ok whatever. he’s working on that in therapy tho so this might change soon enough

tl;dr Band Boy That Is Tired

PLOT IDEAS

fans of eat schmidt. people that hate eat schmidt. generally just people from the band scene. joomi is not that proud to be part of this band but he does love rock music so he also kind of lives for it. he should be able to bond w anyone that vibes w this

also band members would be fun? i Do have intentions to make joomi the lead vocalist of the band in the future if all works out and guitar may be spoken for depending on how things go but!! anyone else!

coworkers! the lotte world job is probably oddly specific but the waiter job is pretty open to be Any restaurant. he will also write y’all’s essays...and can be convinced to do a lot of other odd jobs if bribed, especially if it’s taking care of your cats while you’re away

i would like as many people for joomi to call out as possible. he is not afraid of conflict for the greater good whatsoever so i think it would be so fun to have him fight people <3 feel free to hate him he Does Not Care

alternatively he doesn’t just fight people to be an asshole he Means to be genuinely helping. most of the time. so people he can genuinely help! he will stage interventions he will give u tough love but he also is capable of being gentle, he’s pretty good at tailoring how he acts to what he thinks people need. to some extent

i don’t know how to get joomi to learn how to do anything other than sing and play instruments but if someone can get him interested in that that would be amazing i think he’s currently the most useless muse in the roleplay as far as becoming an idol goes LMAO

he’s totally uninterested in becoming an idol atm, like it’s not even on his radar, so people to put it on his radar would be nice since this is an idol rp SDFSDDGDG not that i would be mad if he doesn’t get signed for years but! u know

neighbors? he has a roommate rn but he’s an asshole and they fight all the time. it may be concerning or u may just want them to shut up or maybe u have no clue and u just see each other around a lot, lots of options here. he will eventually move out but for now 👍 

joomi loves writing songs sm that is pretty much his Passion so?? i don’t have ideas related to this but maybe you need a song for something and don’t want to make it yourself? he will ghostwrite u a song and have a blast. fellow composer friends would be fun too but he might get grumpy if he thinks your muse is a better composer than him. that could be fun in itself tho!

honestly this is way more than i usually provide i am way more of a brainstormer so let’s cook up something fun ok <3

[kamotoshi]

bumping into their ex [hcs]

anon said: HI MISS FRAN! Your writing is so sexc that I'd love to make a request from you! How about hcs for Toji and Naoya (seperate) stumbling upon an old flame/fem!ex-lover years later? Would they try and get back with her if the feelings are still there? Acknowledge her even? Spend a night (nsfw) with her and then go about their own lives? Sorry if this request isn't your cup of tea, obvs you don't have to write it if you don't want to! Love your blog, and hope you're feeling better ilu <3

fran says: first of all hello bb thanks so much for your kindness and sending this in ily! second of all I love how this sounds like an essay prompt bc I thrive off that shit like yes get my brain warmed up with these questions omg critical thinking!! anyway hope you enjoy :)

pairings: fushiguro tōji, zen'in naoya; fem ex-lover! reader

genre: fluff, slight angst, humor, and one bullet point of smut

warnings: brief mentions of sex but nothing super explicit, swearing

✧ takes him a few minutes to realize that it’s even you smh but once he does he has no issue with being the one to approach you. like, if you bumped into him and he went “oh hey I didn’t even see you there” really, truly did NOT see you there

✧ even though years have passed since the two of you last saw one another and he always carries himself with that disinterested demeanor, he still cares about you a lot and wants to know how you’ve been.

✧ he’ll definitely ask if you’re busy and if you wanna grab drinks or something with him whenever you have the time. and ofc he’ll make it seem like he’s hella busy but the man has no plans whatsoever and is just being difficult to make it seem like he’s got more going on than he does

✧ but no matter how busy he seems (according to how “packed” his schedule is), he has his full attention on you when the two of you go out together to catch up

✧ there’s a part of him that wants to flirt with you and see if you’d do it back just to gauge if there’s still a chance for the two of you there, but he’s too worried that his feelings are one-sided to do it

✧ because as much as he loved the relationship the two of you shared, he still has this lingering feeling that you deserve better than him and that he wouldn’t be able to give you what you need. it was most likely this feeling that led to it ending between you in the first place

✧ so, instead of letting his feelings show, he just enjoys the time that you spend together talking about your lives before you part ways

✧ he’ll probably be left with this lingering feeling of regret at not being forthcoming about the way he feels about you, especially if you flirt with him and he pretends not to be interested

✧ and within a few days after your reunion, you’ll probably get a text or call from him asking if you want to meet up sometime. if you say no, you’ll never hear from him again—he doesn’t have the energy to chase you if you’re not interested (and he doesn’t wanna look desperate)

✧ but if you say yes, it’s likely your “meetings” will turn into dates instead ;)

✧ he’s for sure playing it cool even though his heart’s pounding in his chest and his palms are getting all clammy at the thought of talking to you again

✧ he’d definitely act like he didn’t see you at first and almost walk past without saying anything until you look over and make eye contact with him. and even if you hadn’t cast a glance his way he’d still find some “nonchalant” way of approaching you anyway

✧ naoya seems like the type to be more emotional than he appears and things like what happened in your relationship affect him more than he might let others know, so even if it doesn’t seem like he cares and like he’s on top of the world, he’s been thinking about you. especially if you’re the first person he’s ever been in a serious relationship with omg he’s 100% still obsessed with you lowkey

✧ he’ll most likely ask you if you wanna grab a drink or a meal and catch up (he’d offer to pay of course. he needs you to say yes and what better way of doing that than by offering free food?)

✧ but the two of you end up talking for hours and hours until you’re back at his place, walking around the property and reminiscing or sitting and watching a movie together

✧ being together, talking about all the memories you shared when you were together undoubtedly sparks that undeniable chemistry between the two of you. and before you know it, that one, innocent kiss he presses against your lips is turning into so much more

✧ seeing you again, hearing you again, and feeling you again drives him insane because he told himself that he just wanted to fuck you this one time and that would be it, but he finds that he can’t get enough of you and that he wants you to be with him again. like literally as he cums he has an epiphany that he’s still very much in love with you

✧ however, instead of openly admitting that he still loves you, he’s the type to throw that “can you imagine us getting back together lol?” out there all jokingly just to see how it goes down. based on your reaction, he’d be making his decision about whether to be open about his feelings or to just let you go

✧ if you mention trying your relationship again, he’s all for it. but if you don’t, you’ll never know that he wanted you back, and he’ll let you walk away without any arguments. purely in the interest of self-preservation, it’s better in his eyes that you think he just didn’t want to get back together rather than knowing you were the one that got away

[fantastic-bby]

SKZ vs. their crush

Pairing: Gender neutral Reader x Member

Word count: 3.9k

Genre: Fluff

Summary: It’s just them crushing on you 

Warnings: -

Masterlist

A/n: I tried a different format this time and used bullet points rather than just making it like a full story since my brain was going crazy when I wrote this. Let me know which format you prefer and maybe I might incorporate both bullet points and the essay ones since I actually quite enjoy writing using both.

Chan

You guys only met because you knew Jeongin 

The tiny babie brought you to meet his friends 

Chan was smitten when he first met you 

He thought you were so pretty when he saw you following behind Jeongin 

“Innie,” 

“Yeah?”

“Who is that?” 

He wants Jeongin to introduce you two

Sensing the vibes, the maknae is more than happy to introduce you two 

if he was being honest, he already knew Chan would pretty much fall in love with you immediately

Chan’s flustered when he introduces himself to you 

He’s almost blubbering all over the place 

You find it kinda cute but he’s scared you found him really weird 

He tries to steal little moments to be with you 

Like ‘accidentally’ bumping into you in the hallway 

Or how he just so happens to walk into Jeongin’s room when you’re on a call with him

Or how he just so happens to be lingering around the flea market nearby your college campus 

Chan takes care of you without even realising it 

If you bump into each other he asks whether you’ve eaten or how your day is 

He loves the way you seem to parent his friends like he does 

“Jisung, put the knife down. You’re going to hurt somebody” 

“Hehe, make me” 

“PUT IT DOWN 〴⋋_⋌〵” 

Chan’s surprised he listens to you

He loves how everyone only seems to listen if you’re the one talking too

If you’re hanging out with them at the dorms and Chan can’t seem to control everyone, you just step in 

“Guys, please”

And suddenly the chaos has calmed down 

Chan finds it amazing 

Everyone just… stops when you ask them to

You find it amusing 

It’s like watching a single dad trying to control his seven wild sons

He chases after Felix around the dorm a lot because he’s usually done something weird with Minho and Jisung

He manages to get your number using an excuse of needing you to calm down the boys 

“Please… they don’t listen sometimes” 

Jeongin finds reasons to push you two together 

“Yay! You guys made—oH nO I ComPleTeLy foRgoT!!”

Leaves the two of you alone 

He honestly just thinks you two should get together and so does the rest of the group

So they find excuses to get you two alone together 

But your relationship takes f o r e v e r  

Only because Chan wants to be absolutely certain that he likes you

He doesn’t want to commit to someone he’s worried he’s not sure of yet

Slowly but surely, he starts to ease into the relationship

He sends you music he thinks you’ll like 

Eventually he’ll start sending you his own music 

He only confesses when he’s absolutely sure he’s pretty much falling in love with you 

The way he does it just wins your heart immediately if you weren’t already as whipped for him as he was 

He writes a song for you (´༎ຶ ͜ʖ ༎ຶ `)♡ 

Minho

Bumped into you at a dance studio he goes to often

He thinks your dancing is amazing 

At first he doesn’t want to bother you 

But then he’s all like “heyyyy I’m Minho” 

And you’re pretty much taken away by how gorgeous the man is 

Minho wouldn’t be too flustered 

He would keep his cool around you 

Doesn’t mean he wouldn’t try to impress you with his sexy dance moves 

Tries to win your heart the romantic way which doesn’t work because half the time you’re too busy dancing to actually realise he’s trying to flirt with you

“Hey, baby ;)” 

“Huh?”

“Nothing”

Wonders whether he should just make a dedicated advance towards you 

He likes your humour 

It’s similar to his 

You both just laugh at really weird stuff together 

When you share your numbers, he sends you weird videos that he thinks you’ll like 

Minho’s not much of a texter, but when you do get a message from him, it’s either something he’s really excited about or something really weird 

Only realises he’s actually crushing on you when Changbin points it out 

“Why are you so nice to them” 

“Who?” 

“(Y/n)” 

Then Minho realises that he really likes you

Starts slowly working harder to win your heart 

Helps you with your dancing

“Your body looks a bit stiff” 

Buys you lunch 

“I got you the lunch box from 7 11”

It’s always something you end up liking if you hadn’t tried it before

Buys you drinks from the vending machine 

“What is this???” 

It looks like a double shot coffee 

“Energy?”

Minho doesn’t know either but you both drink it anyway 

And end up being at the studio until 3 a.m. because you’re both so hyped with caffeine

Offers to walk you home if it’s getting late

“It’s not safe on your own”

“Minho, I’ll be fineeeee” 

Doesn’t take no for an answer and forces you to let him

His advances work

You’re pretty much whipped for him by the time he confesses 

Which Minho does by buying you flowers and bringing it to the studio 

Changbin

You work at the music shop that he goes to often 

When he’s browsing the CD’s and the vinyls, he spots you at the counter 

His heart almost explodes when he sees you 

The first thing that caught his eye was the way you were dressed 

:0 

Fits Changbin’s style 

He’s nervous to approach you with the vinyl in his hand 

Why was he so nervous? 

Oh right, he was pretty much completely smitten by you 

“Hi!” 

 He loves your voice even more

“H-Hey,”

Changbin’s so nervous 

He likes your bracelets too 

He thinks they’re really cool 

He ends up coming back a lot and you wonder why this man needs so many CD’s and vinyls 

Eventually, he builds up the courage to talk to you

Changbin comes by every once in a while just to say hi 

Sometimes he just comes in to talk to you during your break

You tell him you’ve always wanted to try making music

He tells you he makes music 

You’re all :0 

Changbin tells you about it 

And you get really interested in his music 

He starts coming after your shift or during your break to play you his songs 

He gets all uwu when he sees the way your eyes shine 

You have him wrapped around your finger without even knowing it 

Doesn’t admit that he’s pretty much whipped 

Even though he visits you almost every other day 

And how he buys you your favourite snacks 

Or how he stays way longer than he expected to just bcs he’s talking to you 

You’re just as whipped tbh 

You love talking to Changbin 

You like his music taste and he’s fun to be around 

Confesses to you by taking you out on a date 

He brings you to his studio 

Shows you how he makes music 

He finds it adorable how you’re so amazed by his equipment

So he teaches you whatever he can in the time you’re together 

You both spend the evening just messing around 

You make a short track that you’re sure sounds really off

Changbin reassures you that it’s nice 

He teaches you how to layer the different tracks 

And eventually teaches you how to edit them despite the few hours you have 

You’re so excited 

He smiles every time he looks at you 

Bcs you’re so adorable he feels like he might burst 

Confesses at the end of the night 

“I like you a lot” 

He blurts it out and it catches you slightly off guard 

But you like him back so it’s fine 

Ends up offering to take you to the studio anytime you’re both free

Hyunjin 

Met you through Felix 

Felix invited you to play a game with him and his friends 

Hyunjin hears your voice the first time and he’s already curious 

He thinks you’re really chill and he likes your vibe 

You end up playing more games with them 

He ends up wanting to get to know you more 

The thing that honestly gets to him the most is the way you take every loss so lightheartedly 

“There’s always another game” 

You don’t rage or stress out over it 

Over time, he starts spending one-on-one time with you 

Until you’re both just doing literally anything else but gaming together 

He denies them as dates whenever his friends ask, claiming that it’s just friend time

Until one night you’re both awake at four a.m. and talking about everything and anything 

He likes the way you think

“Hyunjin, did you know that sometimes in movies, they use trash cans to replicate tiger roars” 

“What???”

He likes how you’re joking talking about starting a revolution 

He knows you won’t

“So, yeah, fuck capitalism!” 

“Yeah!” 

He loves the fact that you’re so open about what you think even if it’s something small or weird

“Mercy’s ass is so thick… for what reason…” 

“She’s a video game character??” 

“Felix, her ass is so thick, she could kill someone with it” 

Hyunjin loves hearing you rant about your day 

“And?? It’s so stupid!!”

“Calm down, (Y/n)”

“Don’t tell me to calm down, you egg!” 

Hyunjin thinks you’re adorable when you’re all riled up

He finds it amusing because he likes hearing you talk 

“You live there too?” 

He didn’t expect to be so close to you

“Yeah, that’s how I met Felix” 

He never realised you and Felix knew each other in real life

You spend more time together 

Talking about whatever comes to mind until the dead of night 

Sometimes you watch movies together 

You stay away from horror movies because he doesn’t like it that much 

But you’re always talking about something with him

The two of you are always the last to leave the call because you end up talking after games 

Hyunjin asks you out without even realising it sounds like a date

“Is that a date??” 

“Sure” 

He didn’t even realise he asked you out until after he’s left the call

?!?!?!?!

Goes into panic mode 

He just asked you out!!!! 

Starts asking Felix about you

He laughs at Hyunjin but helps him anyway

Shows him what you look like on your Instagram 

Hyunjin thinks you’re so pretty on your posts

When he sees you in person for the first time 

He’s so taken away 

You’re gorgeous

Whatever feeling he didn’t realise he had for you comes rushing in 

Hyunjin loves your laugh 

You spend the whole day together just walking around town

It’s nice to hear his voice when it isn’t coming out of your headphones

By the time the date’s over, Hyunjin wants more of you 

So he tells you he wants to take you out again while he’s walking you home 

You accept 

He turns to you with a c: before asking if he can kiss you

Jisung 

You’re a barista at the cafe nearby the JYPe building 

Jisung was designated as the drink buyer that time by the rest of his group 

If he was having trouble remembering all their orders before 

He has even bigger trouble now when he sees you 

YOU LOOK SO CUTE IN YOUR APRON 

He freezes the moment he sees you at the cashier 

“Hi! What would you like?” 

Jisung’s eyes go ◑.◑

“Uhm… sir?” 

“Sorry!” 

He struggles to get his order out properly

But you’re patient with him and even though he barely knows you 

He likes that you are 

Jisung’s watching you the entire time you make his order 

He can’t take his eyes off of you 

You do notice it, but you find him adorable so you don’t say anything 

He seems to be easily flustered

When you hand him his order, he’s still a blubbering mess 

“T-Thank you…” 

Your name tag says (Y/n) 

So he thanks you using your name which you smile 

“Have a great day!” 

Jisung comes back the next day 

He doesn’t even need any drinks, he just wants to see you again 

When he does, he feels all fluttery on the inside 

“Welcome back” 

He orders a dark chocolate smoothie and an iced mocha for Minho

Minho would kill him if he found out Jisung went to the cafe without him 

Jisung sits at an empty table and watches you again 

The next day, the cycle repeats 

And the day after that 

And the day after that 

Minho follows him at some point, wondering why Jisung seems to obsessed with the place 

“Why do you like this place so much?” 

“I DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU’RE TALKING ABOUT”

Something’s definitely up with him 

Minho only finds out when he sees the way Jisung’s face seems to light up when he sees you 

“You like the barista, don’t you” 

“WHAT BARISTA ಠoಠ” 

That’s all he needs to confirm it 

Minho lets Jisung order, seeing just how excited and giddy he is when he’s talking to you 

Jisung’s practically bouncing up and down while you talk to him 

When they leave, Minho’s all up in it 

“You really like them, huh” 

“I don’t know what you’re talking about >:c” 

Knowing Jisung, he wouldn’t do anything about it 

So Minho takes it into his own hands to bring you two together 

The group is having a mini event and they need someone to serve drinks 

Who else to ask other than you? 

Jisung’s eyes almost bulge out of his skull when he sees you because 

What are you doing here???? 

He’s so nervous 

Minho practically shoves him your way 

Again, you find him so cute that you don’t even realise he’s practically dying to know you more 

“Hi Jisung!” 

You learned his name over the course of him constantly coming back and Jisung just loves hearing it from you 

“Hi (Y/n)” 

“I can’t make anything ice blended, but I can trade if for an iced dark chocolate” 

“Okay!” 

As long as you make it, he’ll take it 

The event comes to an end but Jisung’s pretty much spent more time with you rather than his group mates 

Even they’re amused by how into you he obviously is 

“Hey Jisung” 

You stop him before you leave and he’s immediately at your side 

“Since you keep coming over, here’s my number” 

◑.◑

“Give me a call before you come in so that I can have your drink ready for you to pick up” 

He’s so happy :D

He sends you pictures of cute animals and random snippets of his music 

Felix 

Met you through League of Legends

You have good synergy so you became friends through that 

At first, he only managed to play with you occasionally 

When he’s able to, he notices how you always sound so bright 

“Hi Felix!” 

He likes playing with you 

You’re laid-back 

You don’t stress over losses too much 

“Ah, what to do?” 

But when you’re irritated, Felix finds it funny

“Fucking asshole!” 

“You were in the way, (Y/n)”

“Shut the fuck up!” 

You’re so funny to him 

“Felix, don’t go into bush” 

“I can bait them” 

“DON’T”

His character dies

“Oops ( ͡° ͜V ͡°)”

“-`д´-” 

You’re easy to game with and that’s what he admires the most right off the bat 

You always seem to be up for games 

Even when he’s not able to play, whenever he logs into Discord he sees you’re online 

Wonders whether you sleep at all 

“I don’t need sleep. I am gamerrrr. Gamers don’t sleep” 

“Please sleep” 

“Lix, sleep is for the weak and I’m not weak” 

“You passed out last night in call” 

Honestly slightly concerned for you 

Overtime he realises that he really looks forward to games with you

Before Felix would just go to sleep after practice or shows 

But he’ll start waiting to see if you’re up for even one game 

Which you always are 

Slowly starts spending time with you just talking 

Eventually it leads to the both of you staying up until 5 a.m. laughing at really stupid memes 

During the day when Felix can’t join call 

He sends you funny tiktoks and memes 

You appreciate it because you like him 

But you don’t admit it because you’ve never met him in person before

Until you both find out that you live only a few hours away from him 

Invites you down to Seoul to spend time with him 

You’re nervous

Felix is nervous

He knows what you look like

You exchanged Snapchats and started streaking a while before 

He sends you funny pictures of his members 

You send him selfies with random filters

But nothing could prepare him for when you appear from around the corner 

He sees you appear and he’s all (゜ロ゜)

Your photos don’t do your natural beauty any justice

Is a bit of a mess when you’re walking around together 

Eventually loosens up around you 

Compliments you a lot and it makes you blush 

You spend the day just wandering around the place 

Felix takes you to his favourite places and favourite cafes 

He wants to share his favourite things with you 

You find it endearing 

Tries to make you laugh a lot because he’s just grown to really like the sound of your voice 

Since you’ve spent most of your time talking over call

Felix just loves hearing your voice 

When the day’s over 

He asks for more nights that aren’t just filled with games because owo he wants to do more with you 

Seungmin

Bumped into you at JYPe because you were visiting a friend 

Hears you singing with Yeji and he immediately falls in love with your voice 

He peeks into the dance studio to see the two of you just sitting on the floor together 

There’s no music 

It’s just the two of you singing together 

Your voice makes him :D 

Seungmin leaves the two of you bcs he doesn’t want to intrude 

But he ends up seeing you more often 

Turns out you’re in Seoul for a while so you’re spending quite some time with Yeji 

He sees you in the hallways a lot

When you walk past each other, it’s always just a polite bow 

You don’t really think much of Seungmin other than the fact that you think he’s pretty handsome 

Yeji teases you for that 

When you’re walking through the building to look for her 

You hear someone singing in one of the rooms 

You peek through the glass 

It’s Seungmin! 

ಠoಠ

And he’s so good

You listen from outside the door 

You knew he was good since he was an idol

But you didn’t think that he was that good

You don’t even realise he’s done when the door swings open and you’re standing there 

When Seungmin sees you, he realises you were most likely listening 

Now you’re just staring at each other like 

(ﾟωﾟ;)

Because now he knows you were listening 

And now you know he knows 

“Uhm…” 

You’re embarrassed 

You’re lucky Yeji pops from around the corner and your eyes plead for her to drag you away 

Which she doesn’t 

“Sunbaenim!”

“Hi Yeji” 

“Have you met (Y/n) before?” 

You actually want to tear her apart

“Not properly, no” 

“Well... “ 

“WELL WOULD YOU LOOK AT THE TIME” 

You drag her away before she can say anything else 

The next time you see Seungmin 

You pass by him in the hallway once again while you’re looking for Yeji

“(Y/n)” 

ಠ_ಠ

“We keep passing each other but we’ve yet to actually meet each other properly” 

“Haha…” 

“I know you were listening the other day” 

“Haaahhhhhhaaaa…”

“I don’t mind that you did.”

“Huh” 

You’re actually bit surprised that he doesn’t mind

“I overheard you and Yeji singing the other day in the dance room” 

༼ : ౦ ‸ ౦ : ༽

“You sing really beautifully, (Y/n)” 

There’s an awkward wall that takes a while before you two actually break it down 

But when you do 

It’s almost like you visit the building to see Seungmin rather than Yeji 

She doesn’t mind since she saw it coming 

Doesn’t mean she can’t tease you about it 

Seungmin looks forward to having lunch with you in the cafeteria 

At this point, the staff don’t even question your now daily appearance 

You end up falling for Seungmin way faster than you thought possible 

The feeling’s mutual 

He just likes everything about you 

You’re so sweet 

You’re also really caring 

He notices that when you follow him to the practice room where Stray Kids are 

Changbin trips over Hyunjin’s legs 

You’re rushing over to help without any of them really realising it 

He loves how nice your voice is too 

“Can you sing for me?”

You’re shook 

You wonder why he wants to hear your voice specifically

“Your voice is just really nice 

He realises he really likes you when you briefly disturb their practice to give Seungmin lunch 

He briefly mentioned that he forgot his wallet and his lunch 

Since you aren’t an idol or staff

You had to use your own money in the cafeteria 

Seungmin’s heart flips at the realisation 

Ends up asking you out so that you don’t have to spend so much time inside the JYPe building all the time 

Jeongin 

Meets you through Changbin 

You went to the same high school as him and you kinda just stuck around

Changbin brings you to the dorm bcs he borrowed a hoodie 

The entire dorm greets you really brightly 

Jeongin’s the only one just watching in awe 

He’s so shy when you wave at him 

Seungmin notices and raises a brow 

“I-I’m Jeongin” 

“Hi Jeongin! Changbin talks about you guys a lot” 

He’s so nervous 

He wants to know you more, but he also doesn’t want to make it obvious that he’s taking interest in you 

The others don’t really notice because they’re too excited by the new person 

Seungmin, on the other hand, tells Changbin about it 

Changbin now makes it his mission to bring you two together 

He brings you over to the dorm more often 

Especially if Jeongin’s the only one home 

“(Y/n), you’ve met Innie before right?”

You nod

Jeongin’s adorable 

Changbin ends up bringing you over for movie nights 

Now you’re just an honorary member of the group 

Everyone else loves you 

Jeongin always tries to sit next to you during movie nights 

Especially if it’s a horror movie 

When you get scared, you hug his arm and he likes that 

Makes him feel like he’s able to protect you like a big strong man ᕙ(`▽´)ᕗ

You kinda like him too

So you test the waters around him 

You start talking to him more since Changbin told you he’s really shy 

Jeongin slowly eases into your company 

It takes a bit of time, but he’s started getting more confident around you 

You visit the dorm thinking Changbin’s there because he stole your favourite belt 

When Jeongin opens the door he’s all :D but when you ask where his hyung is he goes D: 

Tells you he’s not home but lets you in anyway 

No one else is home except for Jeongin and Chan 

So you sit in the living room with Innie 

You start talking about random things 

You end up talking about almost everything because it turns out that Changbin’s gone way longer than both of you thought 

Chan eventually emerges from his bedroom and waves at you 

He orders fried chicken for you guys 

You and Jeongin continue talking while eating 

Chan finds it super cute

Jeongin’s playful around you 

But he doesn’t want to make himself appear immature 

But you like when he’s being playful so you slowly ease him into being more comfortable 

He still just wants to impress you so you like him back 

Wait, when did he start liking you??? 

He realised it when you were over for a regular movie night 

You fell asleep in his lap 

Jeongin thought you were so cute 

When you wake up he asks you out 

You accept 

He cuddles you for the rest of the night and asks you to spend the night at the dorm

[butterflydm]

wot reread: the fires of heaven (chapter 1)

spoilers for the fires of heaven, but I will try not to go beyond that.

1. Why DOES Siuan resist the idea of going to Tear? It seems like it would have been smart. And easier than searching through every village in hopes of finding rebels against Elaida. I hope we get an explanation from Siuan at some point, because Tear makes SO MUCH SENSE. Is it because she’s from there and doesn’t want to go back? Is this an Anakin Skywalker “I hate my home bc it sucked” thing?

2. Leane’s whole thing about how her stern persona was a mask to hide the softness inside that she couldn’t show because there was Work To Be Done... stealth foreshadowing for how Rand making himself ‘hard’ is actually toxic and bad for him and he needs to embrace the love/softness in his heart? It feels thematically relevant.

3. “I’m no bloody hero in a story.” The Min-Mat comparisons are real. (Min is a LOT more like Mat than Berelain is). Has anyone written a meta/essay on that? Apart from this ‘no hero’ bit, there’s also the similarity in their fated ‘romances’ (and how they approach them) and more.

4. Honestly, this sort of thing is part of why Mat feels like he does fit into the ideal polycule so well. It just feels like there’s something that connects him to each of the other members of the group, whether it be a narrative connection like here with Min, or the interesting tension in the scenes he’s shared with Elayne or Aviendha. And of course all that complicated emotional stuff he has with Rand (his relationship with Rand is just SO MUCH more complicated than Perrin’s is). Plus, just like each of the three women connects Rand with a different part of what he needs as TDR (prophecy, politics, his Aiel heritage), so does Mat.

5. Min is like, “whelp, an oath is an oath; guess I better resign myself to scrubbing pots for the rest of my life” meanwhile both Siuan and Leane are just like, “um, we have a Higher Duty, Min” The contrast is amusing.

6. Min has managed to talk herself into being absolutely hopelessly in love with Rand, despite barely knowing him and not having seen him since the start of The Dragon Reborn, when he ran off from Moiraine. Logically, I understand her motivation: she ‘knows’ that she’ll love him; she doesn’t ‘know’ if he’ll love her back, so she hurries her way to the first point so that she can get to work on trying to make the second one happen, too. Out of all the characters in the series, Min is the one who already believes that destiny is unchangeable, due to her gift, so if Fate says that She Will Love Rand, well, she doesn’t have a choice. I get it on an intellectual level, but I can’t really ship it based on that, lol. I find “fate said so” as much less compelling than “cute boy brained himself in my garden and was interesting” because one of them is just about external forces and the other is about actually liking the person involved.

7. In this entire segment, Min doesn’t name a single quality of Rand’s that she likes. He holds Min’s heart in his hands, Leane tells us! But, like, what about him as a person do you like, Min? We know that Elayne likes that he listens to her and treats her opinions as worthwhile and that she thinks he’s attractive and that she understands his pragmatism when it comes to how he has to behave as a head of state and that she finds him incredibly endearing when he tries and fails to do romantic things for her (keeping the feathers that Rand wanted to be a flower will live in my heart forever). What does Min like about Rand, at this point, apart from “Fate Says I Must”?

8. I really do need to write that compare-contrast Min-Mat essay when I get to the point when Mat’s version of this type of thing becomes relevant. Because, oh boy, do I see some similarities.

9. Aw, Logain is such a reliable traveling companion here! He snuck off so that at least one of them wouldn’t get caught and then waited around to break them loose again. A+ job.

10. Honestly, the motivation of going after the trio because he was bored AF after Morgase kicked him out of Caemlyn made perfect sense for Gareth. They didn’t need to inject romance into it.

11. “Ren somebody or other”. News travels slowly in a pre/post-industrial world.

12. Seeing the yank and pull of Morgase subconsciously trying to fight Gaebril’s compulsion is pretty heartbreaking. Some part of her refuses to surrender entirely -- she wears her serpent ring and she’s so proud of Elayne -- but he’s a very powerful channeler, so she keeps getting yanked back under. And then seeing Alteima fall under the compulsion as well. Ugh.

13. So Rahvin ends up getting all his info about Rand via one of the High Ladies of Tear that is so challenged by Rand’s changes to the laws of the country.

[judeiscariot]

hey! feel free to delete the shit out of this ask, i just wanted to tell SOMEONE and maybe get some advice, i respect your opinions sooo idk gimme ur 2 cents if u feel like it. if not just wipe it out cause i’m mostly just trying to sort out my thoughts anyway.

sooooo basically, i’m in a good and healthy relationship that’s been going for over a year. he’s really in love with me and as far as i can tell i’m in love with him too. my issue is that i have a really hard time with long term commitment, and he’s an extremely committed person. i don’t have my life figured out yet. i don’t know most of my identity past the fact that i’m gay.

with that out of the way. i think i’m in love with my best friend.

lots of extraneous circumstances led to us spending a lot more time around each other, and now all i want to do is be around him. i don’t want to do ANYTHING else, straight up. i’d rather spend time with him than sleep. but i’m also extremely ADHD and off meds, and i have a history of getting weirdly obsessed with people bc of that, so i’m not convinced that this isnt just a temporary thing. i also am pretty convinced i might be polyamorous, but i’ve never had the chance to try that out, so i genuinely don’t know.

i can’t end a year and a half long relationship because i might be having feelings. but i’m also terrified of the ramifications of any of my other options right now. i feel like i’m walking a tightrope and i don’t know what to do. i’m not cheating on my boyfriend. that’s about as far as i got figured right now.

i also don’t know if this is genuine attraction to my friend or not. i can’t tell. my emotions feel like such a muddy swamp and im just stuck in the damn current. im not having the greatest time with it. can’t focus on anything at all in my life.

i don’t know what the point of sending this is, and i definitely don’t mean to overstep boundaries or anything. i just can’t tell anyone in my life or even send this off anon because my friend group is so tight knit. it would make everything awful and awkward if any of them found out any of this. i just don’t know what to do.

love you, you’re one of my favorite blogs on this app. sorry for writing you an essay that isn’t even about mcr or the bible. maybe i’ll do that next time.

hi!! it’s sweet of u to ask my opinion although i’m definitely no expert on this stuff but i can for sure give u my thoughts.

before i start i’ll just go ahead and say that obviously i don’t know you or your life so definitely take any advice i give with a grain of salt, i can just tell you how i’d probably go about handling the situation if it was me.

obviously having commitment issues makes long term relationships really difficult, especially if the other person is especially comfortable with commitment. as someone who also struggles with commitment i think those issues can sometimes make us subconsciously look for ways out of committed relationships, whether romantic or otherwise, even if thats not what we actually want. like you could be happy in a healthy and loving relationship and your brain will still try to tell you to push the other person away / seek ways out of the relationship. this may not be your situation but i know that’s something i’ve experienced before and something i see pretty commonly in people with commitment issues. however not having your life together can also make committing in relationships really difficult - for some people being in a loving relationship helps them with figuring out their identity, and for others it inhibits them from exploring in the ways they need to to really get to know themselves. again, this is a purely case by case basis type of thing and since i don’t know you personally i can’t tell you where you fall on that scale. if you feel that being in this relationship is inhibiting your personal growth or that you can’t really get to know yourself while in a relationship with this person then that might be a sign. it could also very well be a right person wrong time kinda thing - you could absolutely still be in love with your boyfriend and just simply not in a place in your life that would allow you to thrive in a relationship with him.

as for the whole being in love with your best friend thing, that is something i do have an inordinate amount of experience with lmfao. i also definitely feel you on the whole getting super obsessed with / attached to certain people thing although for me it’s more a symptom of BPD not ADHD. having feelings or thinking you might have feelings for a close friend is a notoriously difficult situation to solve and for me in the past the best option has honestly and truly been to just wait it out. pay attention to the way you feel around your friend and if you see those feelings shifting or changing at all. it could be a temporary thing, like you said, and upsetting the balance you already have with this person for temporary feelings would obviously be a less than ideal situation. and with thinking you might be poly, i think that kinda circles back to the whole deal of figuring out your identity while in a long term relationship. like i said i don’t know you or your boyfriend, but if you think it would be worth it to see if he would be cool with trying out an open relationship then having a conversation with him about that could be be constructive.

i really think communication is key in pretty much every human relationship ever. it might be worth talking to your boyfriend about how you feel, not necessarily the possibility of having feelings for your friend, but more so your hesitance towards commitment and unsureness about your identity. at the end of the day, it’s up to you to decide if this is a relationship that you’re able to grow in, and if it’s not then it might not be one worth staying in. HOWEVER like i said i don’t know you or your boyfriend personally and ultimately i'm just Some Guy From Tumblr so i’m not gonna just like outright tell you you should break up with him or anything. but if i were you i'd strongly consider having a sit down conversation with him.

and like i’ve said, take all my advice with a grain of salt, i’m more than happy to give it but i’m definitely no type of expert! you’re also welcome to dm me any time if you want someone to talk to and i wish you nothing but the best trying to figure everything out <3 and for future reference essays about mcr and / or the bible are ALWAYS welcome in my inbox lol