bejoomi

[bejoomi]

a soft epilogue

joomi knows something is wrong when he gets home after training and sees jinyoung's shoes by the door. he almost trips as he takes his off, too eager to find him, because jinyoung shouldn't be here. joomi would love for it to be okay for him to be here, but it's not. he has lime dorm curfew, or something.

and yet there moon jinyoung is, faceplanted on joomi's couch. he doesn't bother to move as joomi enters, aside from turning his head to face him. he looks equal parts pathetic and dead inside.

"hey," joomi says, softly, like the way he used to speak to biscuit early on in his time visiting her at the cat cafe.

speaking of biscuit – joomi has to move her off the couch so he can sit down beside jinyoung.

"i know i am committing a cardinal sin moving you right now empress biscuit, but we need dad time," he says to the cat, carefully setting her down on the ground. he knows very well that she'll jump back up on the sofa if she decides she wants to participate in the coming conversation.

when he sits down, jinyoung crawls over the remaining distance to lay his head in his lap, and joomi's fingers thread through his hair like it's instinct now.

"what happened?" he asks, voice still soft.

and jinyoung explains: dropped from project green, given the chance to stay in lime for a slim shot at another debut years in the future, or leave. he took the latter option.

"no..." joomi says, equal parts shocked and sad.

he was so close. he was so close to achieving his dream. how could lime let him get so close, just to take it away like that? how could lime not want jinyoung in their next boy group? sure, he's not the best singer – or at least he wasn't the last time joomi heard him – but he's a fantastic dancer, a better rapper than most of limes' boy groups, in joomi's opinion, and he's funny. and beautiful. how is that not everything lime could want?

"sit up for a sec, i need to hug you," joomi adds a moment later. jinyoung does, and joomi pulls him into his arms as he slumps against him. joomi holds him tight, rubs his back, and says, "i'm sorry. that's really stupid of them and you deserve better than that." he presses a soft kiss to the side of jinyoung's head.

"i don't want to let go of you," joomi mutters after several long moments like that. it's been a while, he realizes – since he's gotten to hold jinyoung like this. he feels bad for finding a small joy in jinyoung's heartbreak. i missed you, he wants to say, but he knows it's not the time.

instead, he suggests they move so they can just lay down in his bed. jinyoung just flops down on it like a beached whale, and joomi jokes about jinyoung making his bed stinky because he didn't take a shower. joomi doesn't take a shower either, though. he just changes into his pajamas and flops down right beside jinyoung.

jinyoung ends up in his arms again, head on his chest, as he mumbles sleepy complaints. joomi mostly just validates them, and runs his fingers through jinyoung's hair like always, hoping it soothes him.

eventually, joomi asks, "do you want to keep trying?" to be an idol, he means.

"i don't know," jinyoung answers. that's fair enough. it'll take time to grieve this opportunity, and the dream he was so close to achieving. joomi's heart hurts for him.

but as they fall into a comfortable silence, part of joomi wonders if he was right – if jinyoung would've been happier if he stayed in delta with him and the others. maybe they would still be happily training together now, laying on a practice room floor laughing about how bad jinyoung swears joomi still is at dancing. maybe they would debut together in a few months, and joomi would direct jinyoung on how to sing the parts of the songs he wrote specifically with him in mind. maybe they would get to fall asleep and wake up together for years, and win awards together, and everything else that comes with sharing a dream.

or maybe they wouldn't have. maybe they would've debuted in three months and broken up two months after, ruining the entire mood and vibe of the group until one of them just left and ruined everything.

he doesn't know. if he was right, he's never been so unhappy to be. if he was wrong, it still feels just as bad. none of it matters anyway, because their universe – the only one that matters – is this: jinyoung, a mere week later, telling joomi he wants to enlist in the military. jinyoung, leaving for 18 months, right when joomi was starting to catch his breath and adjust to him as a more present fixture in his life again.

jinyoung breaks the news lightheartedly: something about breaking up for 18 months so he can get his ass kicked at boot camp. it still feels a little like being gutted. it feels a lot like they're on borrowed time.

that's what it always is with them, though, isn't it? joomi never gets enough time with him, before jinyoung is moving on to the next thing, with little regard for how much it hurts him. a lot of times it isn't even jinyoung's fault, though. it's like the universe, dunking his head underwater over and over again, as soon as he gets enough air to survive the next attempted drowning.

joomi's instinct is to ask is loving me not enough to stay? he doesn't, though. he knows that's a bad thing to ask, and he doesn't want to make jinyoung's next major life change about him again. that went badly when he told him he was going to lime. he'll learn from that mistake.

he can't help but feel it, though. why can't jinyoung just stay for a while? why can't they just be happy and in love?

but he knows jinyoung wouldn't be happy. joomi would leave for training every day and jinyoung would be stuck, ruminating, reflecting on his perceived failures, with little to no direction in his life.

he wishes love was enough. he wants so badly for love to be enough.

maybe he's quiet for too long, laying beside jinyoung once again, absentmindedly tracing the lines on his palm. when he does speak, it's just to say, "you're sure?"

yeah. jinyoung is sure.

joomi rolls over so he can look at him. he wordlessly maps out the planes of his face, like jinyoung is a picture he only gets a few moments to memorize before he has to reconstruct it in some kind of stupid puzzle.

18 months. joomi already waited on jinyoung for a year at this point – what's another 18 months?

it's a lot, is what it is, especially for someone who can't even agree to officially be joomi's boyfriend. joomi could wait. he would wait, but...should he?

so he asks. "are you...going to want to be with me in 18 months? do you want me to wait for you to come back?"

"i don't know...i can't really predict the future," jinyoung replies. "you don't have to wait. but if we're both still single in 18 months, and we're still feeling it, then..."

maybe. can joomi be happy with that? he has to be, doesn't he? he's quiet for a long time, processing. it's better than no. it's honest, as jinyoung always is. it's enough.

"call me when you get out," joomi says. "if it's meant to work it will." he smiles, just barely.

he believes it, though. a lot can change in 18 months, but a lot can stay the same, too. maybe they'll meet again on the other side of all of this, love still lingering and easily reignited. or maybe the temporal nature of love has had its fill with them, and this is all they will ever be.

in retrospect, it's been a bit of a mess. but joomi wouldn't change anything, and in many ways...this is probably the perfect way for things to end, if this is the end. they will end off on a high note, parting on good terms – no bitterness. they can keep the good memories without any rancor. joomi will not be angry, or tormented, or terribly depressed – hopefully. he'll surely be heartbroken, and it will surely hurt, but it could also surely be a lot worse.

"how long do we have?" joomi asks next.

jinyoung wants to enlist as soon as possible, which is far too soon for joomi's liking. he tries to bargain with him, to wait until after his birthday in january, or to at least wait until christmas, or, or, or –

they get two weeks. joomi understands why. jinyoung can't justify being unemployed and leeching off of sooyoung for much longer than that, and finding a job that will be fine with him leaving in another month will be difficult. it's the practical thing to do.

but joomi doesn't want practical. he wants to love him forever.

but it doesn't really matter what joomi wants. this is jinyoung's choice to make, and life will go on, whether he wants it to or not.

it doesn't stop him from admitting, "i wanted you to keep me for a little longer," voice quiet, tucking his head against the crook of jinyoung's neck. then, he whispers, "a lot longer, if i'm honest."

jinyoung is the one to run his fingers through joomi's hair this time, and he breathes out an uncharacteristic apology. joomi hums in protest. he pulls away and kisses jinyoung's cheek.

"i'm happy," he says, even as his voice cracks with emotion. he can't help but laugh at himself as he continues, "i'm happy with – the time we got. i'm just not –" he pauses to collect himself, fights back the tears prickling at the back of his eyes. "i'm not r-ready..." his voice trails off. i'm not ready for this to be over. i'm not ready to say goodbye to you yet. "in two weeks...i'll be ready," he says, with a nod that is just as much for his own sake as it is jinyoung's.

two weeks. two weeks to finish out their whirlwind of a love story. it's not nearly enough time, but it never is, is it?

"i'm going to love you so hard and well for the next two weeks that you won't be able to stop thinking about me once you leave," he decides, a glimmer of mischief in his eyes to replace the tears there moments ago. sure, it's an innuendo, but he means it sincerely, too. he wants jinyoung to leave knowing how much he loves him. he'll risk it being scary or overwhelming, because this will all be over soon, anyway. what's the point of holding back now?

jinyoung laughs, though, and asks him if that's a promise.

joomi nods. "you're going to get a medical exemption because you won't be able to walk," he jokes. half jokes, really.

"oh, is that your plan?" jinyoung laughs again, raising an eyebrow.

"that's my plan." joomi grins, and pulls jinyoung in for a kiss.

this is how he wants them to go out: laughing. and with great sex, if they're lucky.

– 🎵 –

they spend the next two weeks trying to speedrun all the cliches of being in love.

it turns out they are not so good at cliches, though.

when joomi buys him roses, jinyoung mostly just laughs, and that's fine – he mostly just did it because of jinyoung joking about expecting more roses when joomi told him his ideal confession, anyway.

they try to do the candlelit dinner thing, but joomi is the one to laugh this time, because everything is so serious and feels so stuffy and they are surrounded by straight people, it just feels weird. so they drink a couple glasses of wine and skip out, ending up over-dressed at the shitty bar they ran into each other in on seollal last year. jinyoung steals french fries off joomi's plate even though he has his own again, and joomi lightheartedly smacks his hand away over and over to no avail. they just laugh, and god, joomi loves him. god, he's going to miss him so much.

they go to lotte world again. joomi says it's for jinyoung's birthday again – doesn't say that he would've taken him anyway. jinyoung isn't as overwhelmed by childish whimsy and joy as he was the first time they went together, but there's enough of it for joomi to feel warm and content again.

they ride joomi's favorite stupid balloon ride, and joomi holds jinyoung's hand as they stare at the rest of the park below them. joomi looks over at jinyoung, watching the way the light reflects off his face, and the glimmer of fascination in his eyes, and wonders if he will ever love someone like this again. probably not. definitely not. however he loves from now on will be different from this. maybe not better, or worse – just different. he somehow finds comfort in that, because he doesn't want to love anyone else like this. he doesn't want to love anyone else period, really, but he won't close himself off to it, if only because he knows jinyoung doesn't want him to.

jinyoung looks over at him, smiles, says, "what?" like he already knows the answer.

"trying to develop a photographic memory," joomi replies.

jinyoung poses like he would for a real picture. joomi laughs and kisses him, muttering, "you're beautiful," in between them.

"gay," jinyoung replies, but he kisses him again anyway, and joomi can't help but smile against his mouth.

they go to the club where jinyoung first heard joomi play music, back in the eat schmidt days, and sit at the same places at the bar as they did then – jinyoung didn't remember, but joomi does. of course joomi remembers.

"this is where it all started for me, i think," joomi tells him, after buying jinyoung a drink. jinyoung, still with all the animosity in the world for him, leaning into his personal space. if you want me to fuck you that badly...then that's too bad, he said then. joomi felt equal parts fear and thrill then, and jinyoung ensured that night that joomi would never stop thinking about him. much to his chagrin.

"don't lie," jinyoung replies. "you were obsessed with me as soon as you met me."

joomi laughs. "you wish." there was a time he genuinely hated moon jinyoung. it just wasn't for as long as he pretends it was.

ultimately it all worked out, though – if the situation they're in now can be considered working out. joomi tries not to think about it too much. (he still isn't ready.)

– 🎵 –

it's near the end of their days together, in the afterglow, joomi carding his fingers through jinyoung's damp hair, that he says it.

"joomi," jinyoung murmurs, in the way you only can following the best sex of your life.

joomi hums, indication that he's listening.

"i love you." it's simple. light. almost effortless, though he imagines jinyoung put a great deal of thought into this before his brain turned into the mush it is now.

joomi smiles, equal parts bright and tender. "i know," he teases, and kisses him, and his nose, and his cheeks. of course he knows – or he does most of the time, anyway. there's always room for doubt when you're jung joomi, but not anymore. jinyoung loves him.

"i love you too," he breathes, still smiling. he kisses him again, and adds, "thank you for not making me wait 50 years." he would've been sad if by the end of all of this, jinyoung still didn't tell him, he thinks. something in him would've felt empty for it. not now, though. now, his heart feels full enough to burst.

"figured i could express ship it, considering the circumstances," jinyoung jokes, smiling himself.

joomi kisses him again, and again, and again, all soft and tender. "i love you," he repeats, and after another kiss, adds, "so much." there's a jolt of anxiety in him, then – habitual fear that compels him to say, "sorry," eyes wide, in case it's too much.

jinyoung just grabs his face and kisses him again, harder – and says "don't think too much," when they pull away to breathe.

jinyoung knows kissing him makes joomi's brain short-circuit, surely. if he wanted to empty joomi's skull of every coherent thought for a few moments, mission accomplished.

when he recovers, joomi's first instinct is to apologize again. instead, he takes a moment to breathe. he looks at jinyoung, and the warmth in his sleepy eyes. you love me, he thinks in awe. these final days and moments are too precious to waste stuck in his own head. "okay," he agrees softly, smile on his face just as soft to match.

– 🎵 –

it's their last night together, jinyoung's freshly-shaven head resting on joomi's chest again, that it's joomi's turn to talk.

he doesn't know what to do with his hands when they aren't in jinyoung's hair, but he supposes it's time to learn. he wraps his arms around him instead, using one hand to rub jinyoung's back.

"are you still awake?" he whispers after a while.

"no," jinyoung replies, and joomi smiles.

"i...just wanted to say, before i can't anymore, that, um..." he probably should've practiced or something. maybe written what he wanted to say on his arm so he wouldn't forget anything. he knows no matter what he says now, he will think of things he wishes he could say to jinyoung after he's gone.

he'll do his best to cover it all now, though.

"even though you didn't always make it easy," he laughs lightly, "i, um...i've loved loving you. some of the happiest moments of my life...are with you now. so, i wanted to say thank you, for everything. for letting me love you, and for loving me too. i'm going to miss you so much. but even if this is the end for us, i'm going to remember this time of my life really fondly. forever, i think. so...yeah. i just...wanted you to know."

jinyoung is quiet for a long moment, then chuckles, "you talk so much." he lifts his head, though, and closes the distance between them so he can kiss him. joomi laughs softly in between kisses that are just as soft.

when jinyoung lays his head back down, joomi reaches for his hair on instinct. nothing is there, so he just gently scratches jinyoung's weird buzzcut scalp. jinyoung hums contentedly, not so unlike a cat purring, so he takes that as a sign that it feels good.

"i love you, moon jinyoung," he whispers.

"me too," he replies.

– 🎵 –

when it comes time to see jinyoung off, joomi is still not ready to say goodbye, but he's as ready as he'll ever be.

he holds onto jinyoung's hands, sure his boyfriend-or-whatever-he-is-or-was can feel how sweaty his own are.

it's fine. he still clears his throat, and tries to look at jinyoung very earnestly when he says, "jinyoung, i'm afraid it's not going to work. we have to break up. you just look too ugly with a buzzcut."

joomi has always been a bad actor, though, so when jinyoung laughs, he does too.

"that's not what you said last night," jinyoung jokes in response, and joomi laughs again, in the way you do when you're approximately two seconds away from bawling like a little baby.

joomi kisses him, quickly, one last time, though his hands linger on his face. he stares at him for a few long moments, trying to memorize him again.

he decides, then, that he doesn't have to. 18 months is not that long. he knows he'll see him again when he returns, if only because he can hear sooyoung sniffling beside him and joomi couldn't possibly leave her alone while jinyoung is away. jinyoung will definitely come back for his sister, even if he doesn't come back for joomi.

"okay," he says, with a decisive nod. he lets his hands fall back to his sides. "do your best. don't get kicked out. and call me when you're done. i mean it, okay?"

jinyoung grins – the smile where his eyes turn into perfect little crescents – and nods, and joomi can't help the way his heart clenches anyway.

joomi pulls him into a hug one last time, but lets sooyoung get the final hug and final words.

when it's time for jinyoung to go – to really go – joomi salutes him in farewell, just for fun.

as he walks away, joomi reaches his hand out for sooyoung, who is quick to grab it. he squeezes her hand.

18 months isn't that long. he could wait. he would wait, but he won't try to. if new love comes for him between now and jinyoung's return, he'll try to open his heart and mind to it, because sure, love is temporary – but it might be worth it. it was with jinyoung, in the end.

or maybe 18 months will pass at lightning speed, jinyoung will call him, and they'll fall right back into each other's arms like nothing has changed. maybe distance will make the heart grow fonder, as they say.

joomi doesn't know. jinyoung was right – they can't predict the future. but he realizes, with relief, that he's excited to see what theirs looks like.

[bejoomi]

"i get that," joomi answers with a nod. "that's a good attitude to approach everything with. there are definitely a lot of different things to learn and explore. you never know how you'll feel about some stuff unless you try, so," he laughs a little. "i figure all idols have to act a little eventually, so it's good to not suck."

it's still kind fo bizarre for him to be thinking about being an idol, and doing what it takes to be a good one. that's his problem, though. most people who get signed to an entertainment company and become a trainee are trying to become a good idol to begin with. joomi kind of just joined at first because he didn't have anything better to do, and having a job related to music sounded cool. he was right about that much, but over time, he's grown to accept his fate and want to live up to the reason why he's really here: to debut as a kpop idol. he still feels far from ready, but he trusts in the fact that the company and their ceo knows what they're doing. if they decide he's ready, he probably is.

"action would be fun," joomi agrees, nodding again. be would probably prefer that too – much better than any romantic drama, or something of the like. "i doubt we'll learn any stunts, but maybe they'll talk about how they work a little bit? that would be cool." he figures eunbin would be a lot better at the stunts than him, anyway. "you focus mainly on dancing right now, right? i imagine it would be easier for dancers to do stunts – or people that are more athletic in general." so, not joomi. he's been working out more lately, though. maybe he would surprise himself if given the chance.

"really, huh?" she's not fully convinced that she's getting his full reasoning for agreeing to participate in the workshop, but it isn't her position to keep pushing either. from a first look, eunbin wouldn't have guessed that joomi was very interested in acting to begin with—he always seemed much more invested in songwriting—but even she knew that idols had to be good at everything, so it wouldn't be surprising if he was trying to improve.

she let out a hum, before giving his question a thought. "well, i just wanted to try everything. i'm a new trainee, and i don't even know what i'm interested in right now other than choreographing. maybe this workshop will open my eyes to a new interest! or just prove that i should never act for as long as i'm alive," she said with a snort.

eunbin had never imagined herself as an actor. if anything, she probably saw herself more as a backstage person. she loved the spotlight and loved to perform, but acting seemed like a completely different skill set, and one that she didn't even know if she had. "i've watched enough dramas in my life though that, if i were to act, i think i'd love to be in like one of those action thriller films. the action stunts look like a bunch of fun. do you think they'd go into something like that with this workshop?"

[bejoomi]

you'd think, for as long as joomi has been going to therapy, he would've learned how to say no by now.

you would also never guess joomi is gay based on the difficulty he has turning down a cute girl.

it's a combination of things, really – eunbin is new, he wants to be a good senior, and she just seems so excited about everything. chances are she wouldn't have minded if he said he wasn't interested, or lied about having something else to do at this time, but...he didn't do that. so here he is, stuck in an acting workshop again – a hell of his own making.

"ehhhh..." joomi responds to her question automatically, uncharacteristically thoughtless of him. okay, how does he say this?

"i participated. i'm honestly just really bad," he admits with a sheepish smile. "so your enthusiasm...inspired me to take the opportunity to improve." it's not like it's a lie. joomi doesn't particularly like being bad at things, even if he isn't interested in them. he usually learns fast, but acting, strangely, did not come to him naturally whatsoever.

maybe having a different instructor will help? he has no intentions of being in a drama anytime soon, but he can recognize the benefit of knowing how to act for other reasons, too. chances are he'll be in a music video with some kind of plot eventually, and he doesn't want to ruin it by being a shitty actor. he'll try and make the most of it.

"what about you? are you interested in acting, or just trying something new?"

˙ ˖ ✧ — @bejoomi

it wasn't that eunbin was interested in acting in particular, but seeing that she was a new trainee, she wanted to sign up for everything she could. that's why when she heard about the workshops, the acting one just happened to be the first one to catch her eyes.

joomi also just happened to be right there when she was signing up. she didn't mean to convince him to join it with her, but here he was. at the workshop. with her. truthfully, it could've been anybody standing next to her at the time, and she still would've tried to get them to sign up with her. of course, she didn't think he'd actually do it, and she can't even say he's a friendly face or whatever to help calm her nerves. hell, she barely knows the guy, but this would be a great opportunity to get to know him, right?

"i heard there was actually an acting workshop held a couple of months ago. did you not participate in that one? or did you feel like getting some extra acting lessons in?" again, she couldn't see why he'd sign up for an acting workshop when one was already held in depth not too long ago. in her mind, he just appeared as someone really dedicated to acting.

[bejoomi]

as of early october, joomi has been a studio delta trainee for a year.

it's crazy to think of how different his life was before the day he signed that contract. he never really had thoughts of being an idol. he abandoned his band and took a risk on an idol company, of all things.

he thinks he made the right choice in the end. all of the dead calm members are trainees now themselves, or off doing better things that would keep them away from the band anyway. it wouldn't have lasted.

instead, he became a delta trainee, and has worked hard to improve in every area an idol could ever need to show – and he also fell in love, but that's a whole other thing.

his weakest area by far was dancing. or well – no, it was probably rapping, technically. it probably still is rapping, but it doesn't feel like as much of a weakness as dancing always did, because it isn't so vital to know.

now, he's still not the best dancer in delta by far. that would be stevie, or jinyoung while he was still here, god rest his soul. he has improved leaps and bounds, though. he likes dancing now. there's something cathartic about throwing all of yourself into something. songwriting is like that for joomi, but dancing takes it a step further, because it's so active. high quality dancing requires all of you. and then razor sharp technique on top of that. it's still hard.

he's cooling off, drinking some water when seira scoots her way over to him. he's glad, honestly. he's been wanting to say hi and properly welcome her to delta, but just hasn't gotten the chance yet. he smiles. she knows his name? that's surprising. "i know who you are," his smile only widens, and then it softens a touch. "welcome to studio delta, seira. you've worked hard."

she's asking if she can practice with him, though. dancing, of all things, and his eyes widen a little. "well – yeah, sure. i'm not the best dancer though. i used to be the worst dancer in the class, actually," he laughs lightly. "not anymore, but, you know."

are you a dancer?

it’d been quite the while since seira had last been a trainee. she’d been a trainee for two years prior to debut, then an idol until last year, then she’d been practicing by herself, until now, a trainee again. on a probationary contract though. she was thankful and happy she was a trainee again, but the word probationary haunted her, scared her. she was set on giving her all, but she’d also given her all during next gen and it still hadn’t worked out for her. she was scared, but all she could do was attempt her best and work hard.

she wants to work on her rap, but she knows that shouldn’t be all she’s focusing on, her original rap got her this probationary contract, but she needs to show she can do more than just rap. it’s been a while since she last practiced her dancing, it was probably during next gen, she’s not sure how to start again, but she looks around the practice room as she stretches, her eyes landing on joomi. she scoots her way over to the other.

“joomi, right? the name is seira, or sunah if that’s easier to pronounce” her heart beats fast, she’s not the best at approaching strangers “are you uh, busy? i wanted to hear if you’d like to practice dance together?”.

sending it to... @bejoomi

[bejoomi]

joomi honestly doesn't care about winning the unofficial signature contest. he thinks it's just cool to get the chance to talk to so many people who have walked the path he has and achieved such massive success. dressed as a stupid skeleton, of all things. it's pretty ridiculous, but it's also fun, and god knows he can always use more of that energy.

jiayi asks him if he was nervous to approach bxy, and he hums in consideration. "a little? but not too much. they were really nice when i met them on next gen. they complimented our performance a lot, so i was like, 'well, worst thing that could happen is they don't remember me and i make a fool of myself, in which case they would probably take pity on me and give me an autograph anyway,'" he replies, lighthearted by the end. he's sort of joking, but that was his thought process.

he smiles as jiayi declares the signature an official signature. she's cute, with all the spirit of someone new to this industry and determined and enthusiastic to make her mark. that sounds like joomi has been here for ages – he hasn't. he's just already seen enough of his fellow trainees grow despondent over the past year. he hopes jiayi doesn't.

"six? really?" she asks joomi incredulously, eyes scanning over his own notebook. jiayi thought four was a decent amount, the night is young anyways, but turns out she's been slacking in comparison. she huffs, determined to get at least two more autographs in the next half hour.

"did they? that's sweet," she smiles at joomi before popping another pretzel in her mouth. "were you nervous going up to them?" she asks, curious how joomi felt in the moment.

"it's official, then!" she states, giddy. "it's a signature so i'll count it."

[bejoomi]

seojun is a good sport about joomi's questionable joke, so he grins, both relieved and a little amused. "that's good," he says with a nod. when he thinks about it, seojun has been pretty busy in the past year since that fateful halloween. he was a coach on next gen, and joomi can only assume he's part of the same project jinyoung is as a lime trainee.

"it's nice that they just let us have fun for halloween," he comments, turning to look around at the rest of the trainees (and senior artists) mingling at the party, or collecting candy and signatures. everyone works so hard. they deserve to have some fun every now and then, and he's glad the entertainment companies seem to agree. it's also cool that they let the trainees take part in this massive tradition, even if it isn't a public event for them like it is for their seniors.

"you might be one of our seniors soon, huh?" he decides to make conversation. "you can pretend you don't know what i'm talking about if you're legally obligated to keep it a secret," he adds lightheartedly. "i just know someone in lime. well, a few people in lime," he laughs, because that much is obvious, isn't it? "i mean, i know someone that has blabbed to me a little about the project group."

seojun had been wandering around and trying to catch up with everyone possible.

sure it took a lot of time but he had plenty of friends he hadn't gotten the chance to speak to with all the training they had been doing. it had been mostly waving as he passed by others on his way to wherever when in the axis building.

as he looks over the different items on the table, he easily pours himself a glass of fruit punch since he had been eyeing it after everything he had to do tonight.

looking over, he give a smile to joomi. it had been a bit since he's seen the other and it seems a bit funny that they are interacting again at another halloween party. "i've been okay. much calmer than last year. so you don't need to worry about another panic attack from me." sure that happened a few times when things got to overwhelming for him but he didn't mind joking about it. he's just glad someone was there for him during that or he would have easily left the party that night.

[bejoomi]

for a moment, joomi thinks she's onto him right away, with the way she furrows her eyebrows and stares at him. he still ends up answering the question, though.

cherish. it seems like everyone loves them. he gets it. even though their music isn't really to his taste, they've done a lot for the industry, as far as his research has indicated.

"i really like nana," he answers himself. he liked her even before kpop was on his radar, and then he had to sing one of her songs on his season of next gen, back when kpop was barely on his radar.

when yeseul asks him why, through her little ipad as usual, joomi doesn't answer right away. instead, he narrows his eyes, searching. is anyone from cherish around? he could've sworn he saw someone not too long ago...

he grabs onto yeseul's hand and starts walking idly. he sees some of their other seniors, and maybe it's rude to just walk past them, but they're busy talking to others anyway. it should be okay.

eventually, though, he sees her: none other than nana herself, chatting with someone from...shit, he can recognize her face, but can't remember her name or the group she's from. not a delta senior...oh! she's from wonderland, isn't she? what's her name...sora, maybe. yeah, he thinks so.

he stops walking, pondering over their options. truthfully, he's a little nervous himself. it's not like it's his first time ever seeing nana in person, but he hasn't spoken to her before. if he's forcing yeseul out of her comfort zone, though, it's only fair if he does the same, right?

"let's go say hi," he decides, continuing to tug yeseul along. he's very sure she'll protest, but she'll also probably be too frozen in fear to resist him much. "or just get some candy from them, at least. and maybe their signatures."

once he's standing in front of nana and sora, his nerves really kick in. he bows respectfully, several times, then says, "i'm a big fan. i'm joomi. i'm a studio delta trainee. this is yeseul," he motions to her beside him. she doesn't have to talk if she doesn't want to. he figures it's better for him to keep talking, actually.

"we wanted to get some candy from you, if you still have any left," he smiles brightly, but a little shy simultaneously. "and! if i can get your signatures in my notebook, too...that would be really cool." he releases yeseul from his grasp so he can extend his notebook to their seniors to sign.

it isn’t that yeseul never thought she’d be joining an entertainment company, if anything they were hopeless thoughts and fantasies. she once saw herself joining as a composer, or a producer of sorts, but that was it. reality did not sink in for her until about an hour into this party, full of senior artists and fellow trainees. really, what is she doing here with all these… talented people?!

she’s overwhelmed by just about everything. fortunately for her, joomi is here! so she tags along with him as they navigate through the party. it’s comforting to stick by a familiar person’s side, and joomi is, in her terms, dadcoded. even though they’re one year apart, yeseul feels like he’s mentally at least five years older.

besides everything else, yeseul is just in bliss that they’re both delta. she sincerely enjoys the time they spend together, especially if the topic is about music!

the girl blinks at joomi repeatedly. an extremely basic question. suspicious. she furrows her eyebrows at him, pressing her lips together as she stares at him. why is he asking that question? weird. she answers him anyways, with her usual ipad:

⤷ cherish? ৻( •̀ ᗜ •́ ৻) my dad used to play their songs a lot.. so i grew up liking them!!

yeseul doesn’t connects the dots and answers. she thinks about the question very seriously. it’s rare for her to have any biases, usually she likes the group as a whole. though just this year, she started liking a certain trainee from nextgen… but she can’t say it. that guy hasn’t even debuted!

as she continues thinking about it, she smiles awkwardly and shakes her head.

⤷ just cherish!! why? abeoji, you are being very suspicious. (≖_≖ )

[bejoomi]

* ♪ – checkmate

do seohan is odd.

if joomi had to choose one work to describe him, it would be that. that's fine, though. truthfully, joomi likes odd people. they aren't as predictable as other people, and that makes for a more complex puzzle for joomi to figure out.

seohan is one of those puzzles for joomi. he seems normal on the outside, but there is something vaguely unhinged about him below the surface. sometimes it peeks out. joomi has seen enough over the course of the time he's known him, thanks to the cat cafe he frequents, and bonding over biscuit, apparently seohan's favorite cat from the cafe who joomi has now adopted.

that's why he's over at joomi's apartment now. he found out joomi adopted biscuit somehow, and wanted to come see her. joomi was like okay, fine.

what he doesn't know is why they're sitting on the floor, coffee table in joomi's living room cleared off, setting up to play checkers. seohan brought a checker board over for reasons unknown to him. joomi didn't ask why, because that felt rude, and seohan didn't explain. he did ask him to play eventually, though, after biscuit disappeared under joomi's bed and refused to come out.

she'll come out eventually, joomi assured him. then came the suggestion to play checkers and wait for biscuit to decide to grace them with her presence again.

"how good are you at checkers?" joomi asks. joomi is pretty good, but he hasn't played in a while. he doesn't really care if he wins or not, though. joomi intends to use this game as a weapon of psychological warfare – or to be more accurate, an opportunity to pick seohan's brain when he can't escape him.

– @beseohan

[bejoomi]

joomi can't help but laugh softly. jay is cute. he frequently forgets that they're actually born in the same year – even if joomi is technically older, being born in january. he just seems so young sometimes. and he calls him dad, which doesn't really help that fact. "i barely know how to play it. just basics," he clarifies. "i had an instructor that told me i needed to learn a new instrument. i don't even remember why at this point. but that was what i chose. i haven't gone back to it since those initial lessons, though. maybe i will one day? it was kinda fun." joomi would probably find playing most instruments fun, though.

he laughs again as jay tries to come up with a name for them. "jaymi...?" he tries. there is a bit of a ring to it, maybe? "i don't think i know enough to teach you. but maybe we can take an actual workshop and learn how to play it together." he wouldn't mind that. he still thinks he can improve with the instruments he currently knows, but it wouldn't hurt to learn something new for a while.

jay asks if he's a diva, and joomi does take a moment to genuinely consider it. he shakes his head before long, though. "i don't think so. you aren't like...entitled enough, to be a diva. you're a pain in the ass, but that's different." he says it affectionately and lightheartedly.

jay is right, though – for how much they talk, and for being jay's dad, they don't actually train together that much, at least when it comes to fun stuff. "yeah, we should," joomi agrees with a soft smile and a nod. "i think it would be fun to write a song together." joomi admittedly doesn't know too much about jay's creative process. it would be cool to find out. now that dohyun is gone, joomi doesn't feel as...for lack of a better term, locked in to writing with particular people. he's sure he'll still write with ren the most, but it's not the same as it was before.

"i wouldn't say i have more on my plate, but maybe more expectations?" joomi answers after thinking for a little while. "the instructors know what i'm good at and where i'm lacking pretty well now. they might still be learning about what you can do." then again, it's already been a few months since next gen ended, hasn't it? time flies.

now that jay thinks about it, he doesn't really spend that much time with joomi in relation to making music. maybe a part of him assumes that joomi is usually busy making music with his trio of producers; he doesn't really feel the desire to get in-between the flow and rhythm they probably already have as a group. sure, training in general, yes. but nothing outside of the usual day-to-day.

that probably means this is the perfect opportunity, instead. it's not that it's just the two of them, but still. it's a great start! "you can play the gayageum? why is this the first time i've heard of this!" he whines, not one to hide his playfulness around joomi ( then again, he feels even more like a brat whenever he's around joomi, maybe it's because joomi allows him to be ). "you have to teach me next time. not here, we can have our own mini workshop. a jay-joomi special. jayjoo...? jayjoo: the workshop. first agenda, gayageum." he furrows his eyebrows, wondering if that has a nice ring to it now that he has said it out loud.

he hums, blinking at joomi's next statement. "are we? divas? am i?" he never thought of it that way. divas are usually high maintenance and difficult to deal with—he supposes he fits the bill, but jay personally believes that he's easier to get along with than most! it's not like he's the normally grouchy one, despite his edit during next gen.

"you know, dad... this is making me realize we don't play together that often—if at all!" jay concludes, nodding to himself after he has mentally confirmed that in his head, on his own. "we should do this more often. again, outside of this workshop." he laughs, making plans even though joomi hadn't exactly properly agreed. "it feels kind of criminal that we haven't made at least one song together," he points out.

"i guess we are all busy though. especially you?" he wonders aloud. "as my senior trainee? do you have a lot more on your plate?"

[bejoomi]

when jiayi asks how many signatures joomi has, he double checks in his own notebook. he always has one with him, and decided it would be fun to participate in the unofficial competition by having their seniors sign the inside cover of this one in particular. it's about halfway full of song lyrics already, and considering how much he writes, he doubts he'll get use out of it for much longer – but it's still fun.

"six," he replies, after double checking his count. "i got all of bxy's autographs and then cade's, from vertex." it actually took him a good deal of courage to approach cade. that man is a spectacular songwriter and producer. joomi would consider himself lucky if he gained even half of his respect and recognition for his skills after he debuts.

the bxy autographs might come as a surprise, though, so he figures he should explain. "i met some of the bxy members on my season of next gen, so it was easier to approach them. they actually remembered me, surprisingly." he's touched, honestly. maybe that remix he made of frost stuck with people more than he expected.

when jiayi mentions her own autographs, and the scribble, joomi looks. "i mean, some people have signatures that look like scribbles," he laughs. "i'd count it."

━━ axis halloween party ◞ trick or treat?.· ( @bejoomi )

"how many signatures do you have so far?" she asks joomi, leaning over the table. there's a fire in her eyes and jiayi is hungry to win the unofficial competition. she wants to get the most signatures, is desperate for it.

she pops a pumpkin-shaped pretzel in her mouth, chewing thoughtfully while looking out at all the other trainees mingling. it hasn't been long since the conclusion of next gen and when she got signed but jiayi feels like it was a life time ago, one of her first encounters being with joomi in the cafeteria where he introduced himself.

if he didn't want her to stick around, well, he should have said something by now. jiayi is sure she can be annoying at times with all the questions she asks, but she persists regardless.

"i have four, i think," she mumbles, flipping through the small notebook she brought along with her to count. "wait," jiayi's brows furrows. "maybe three? this looks like just a scribble," she says, trying to hand over her book to joomi so he can take a look.

[bejoomi]

* ♪ – this is going to ruin the tour

sure, joomi trains with stevie at studio delta now, which means he sees him practically every day. you think he might get sick of him, or at the very least not want to hang out with him outside of training too, but stevie is special. how could anyone possibly get tired of stevie?

okay, he's sure some people would probably find him annoying, but he doesn't. and it's almost like doing some kind of holiday festivity around seoul is a tradition for them now, even if it's an accidental one.

it brings them to now, tagging along at the end of a group of ghost tour attendees. joomi honestly finds everything fascinating. he's not too easy to scare – at least as far as the supernatural goes. joomi thinks even if the spooky stories their tour guide spews were true, he could probably befriend an evil spirit. they have reasons for being that way, right? maybe.

he can tell stevie is a little jumpy, though. part of him is tempted to be a terrible and evil friend and intentionally scare him, but considering it's stevie, he decides to yap as an attempt at a distraction instead.

"did you know that the banpo grand bridge holds the guinness world record for longest bridge fountain?" he highly doubts stevie knows. stevie hasn't even lived in korea for that long. there's probably even basic trivia about the city he doesn't know. lucky for him, joomi does!

– @bexstevie

[bejoomi]

* ♪ – introducing...

maybe, from time to time, joomi is a little devious. it's rare, but occasionally...it can be fun.

poor yeseul should not be his target. she is quite fragile and nervous and also so new to the trainee landscape as a whole – throwing her to the wolves would be cruel. but she won't be going to the wolves on her own! joomi will be there to protect her!

that's his goal, anyway, during the part of the night allocated to trick or treating, of all things. honestly, joomi himself is not the most comfortable with their seniors, but he is starting to feel like a senior (citizen...) himself these days, and it makes this whole ordeal easier.

yeseul has been following him around for a little while now, and joomi honestly doesn't mind. he likes helping the new trainees, especially if he already knew them beforehand, like he did with yeseul. he's really glad she's part of delta, and he's happy to hang out with her whenever she'd like.

maybe he is betraying her trust, but he kind of thinks forcing yeseul out there could be good for her – in moderation, anyway.

"yeseul, who would you say your favorie axis labels artist is? do you have any biases?" it feels like such strange language to use, for a guy that didn't know shit about kpop at this point two years ago. times and lives sure do change.

–– @beyeseul

[bejoomi]

* ♪ – refreshing

joomi is having fun.

halloween is usually one of the best holidays for him, though. it's more about fun and being a little silly compared to holidays based on family, like christmas, seollal and chuseok. or his birthday. somehow those holidays always manage to feel incredibly lonely.

halloween always somehow manages to be fun, and this year is no exception, it would seem. he has to give the axis staff – mainly sr media? – credit. they know how to throw a halloween party.

it's crazy to him that it's his second halloween as a trainee. last halloween, he was just starting his time in delta. now...he's one of the longest standing trainees there, isn't he? it's just ren and hyejin before him now, with dohyun gone. and jinyoung.

he pours himself a glass of fruit punch at the snack table like it's soju. he's having fun. he can be sad about what he's lost on a different holiday.

someone comes up to the table beside him, and joomi looks over at them without thinking. speaking of last halloween – there's a familiar face from the escape room nightmare of last year. has he seen seojun again since then? he can't remember...

"hey," he greets him regardless, with a soft smile. "this halloween seems a lot less scary than last year. are you holding up okay?" maybe he's teasing him a little. is it mean? last halloween, seojun was so overwhelmed by everything gone that joomi had to talk him down from a panic attack. yeah, it probably is a dick move to joke about it. too late now.

–– @beseojun

[bejoomi]

joomi laughs softly, gaze shifting back and forth between sua and biscuit as she wanders. honestly, joomi could probably just sit here and happily watch biscuit roam around all day. well, happily isn't exactly accurate, but you know – contentedly, or something like that. he's not really in the mood to do much other than sit around and mope anyway. observing biscuit is a far better use of his time, all things considered.

joomi is honestly sick of moping. he does it too much. but in his defense, mope-worthy shit just keeps happening to him. biscuit already makes him feel a little better, though, somehow. it's not that sua is bad company in the slightest. cats just feel different. less judgment – well, no, biscuit definitely judges everyone intensely. still, he feels...less pathetic when he thinks about taking care of her. he hopes it helps long-term. he thinks it will.

"empress biscuit," her calls to her softly, picking up one of the treats and waving it in her direction. she doesn't pay any attention to him at first, which makes him laugh a little. "hey, i'm talking to you."

she does turn around eventually, and very hesitantly wanders in his and sua's direction. he holds the treat out to biscuit, and as she approaches, leans closer to sua, guiding the cat in her direction.

biscuit seems to catch on to his plan and pauses, looking at sua skeptically. joomi still holds the treat out, waiting. he wiggles it a little for good measure. "she's a friend of mine," he assures the cat. "you trust me now, don't you? i wouldn't introduce you to someone mean."

biscuit takes a few more curious steps forward, and joomi drops the treat into sua's hands. biscuit pauses again and just stares at sua. joomi stays very still. "just give her a second," he murmurs.

in retrospect, sua thinks she might have been conned a bit-- when joomi blindsides her a bit with the question of can we get a cat? and how could she say no? joomi had been bundled up in a blanket, sniffling and sad about jinyoung while sua kicked his ass in mario party. it feels cruel to do so, her allergies be damned-- so sua agrees.

she's always wanted a cat. the stray cat in her childhood already labeled her own even if her grandfather refused to let her take the feline home with her. joomi's basically asking to live her childhood dream, and sua's going to reap the benefits from it.

a trip to the store, then to the cafe, then right back to their apartment. a bit of spontaneity never hurt anyone, and maybe she's basking in it a bit, enjoying the slight chaoticism of it all.

it's not so bad. to be honest, sua doesn't mind having to add a few more bottles of her allergy medicine onto her grocery list if it means joomi doesn't look so sad. it's the first time all day she's seen him a little brighter, and if the cause is a cute cat who looks like she wants nothing to do with them-- she's perfectly content with that.

her eyes follow biscuit's every moment, stock still as the cat makes her rounds around joomi's room. sua's unable to stop the small gasp that leaves her mouth at the idea of kids trying to pull her tail, frowning in the direction of biscuit. "little shits." she mumbles, mostly to herself.

when joomi tosses her the bag, she catches it easily, glancing at biscuit before back to the treats inspecting them. she snorts at joomi's words, opening the bag to take a few treats out herself.

"a surefire way to a girl's heart is food." sua jokes, setting the bag aside and tossing the treats in her hand idly. shifting, she moves to lay on her stomach, extending her hand towards biscuit, palm up with the treats displayed. biscuit's not really paying any attention to het yet, but she's patient. and besides-- the longer she doesn't have the cat's attention, the longer she goes without feeling like she's going to have a sneezing fit.

"though it makes you wonder if it's more the treats she's caring about rather than the person." sua mutters, huffing out a laugh as she shifts to get comfortable to watch biscuit gather her bearings.

[bejoomi]

joomi loves playing instruments. he always played piano throughout his life as an escape from the...abundance of hardships he faced. his fingers grazing the keys could transport him somewhere else, if only for a little while – somewhere that didn't hurt so much.

somewhere like where he is now, really. he's been no stranger to pain in the past year – or week, even – but he knows this is better than how things used to be. even with dohyun leaving, fracturing the trio that was dorenmi, and the sadness and creative block that come with it – this is better. he is safe. he is loved. he gets to make music every day for his job. there is still so much good. he tries, desperately, to focus on that instead of the loss.

the instrument workshops come at a good time, ultimately – another opportunity to float away on melodies he plays, and something new to focus on. he also hopes dedicating time to improving his instrument skills by himself will help bring some of his creativity back.

except he's not by himself. jay is here, and that's probably good, actually. he loves jay, but they don't spend enough time talking about music, all things considered. he was usually always writing with ren and dohyun during their free practice, or dancing with jinyoung, when that was still...relevant.

"yeah," he answers with a soft smile. "it was either this or like...gayageum or drums. but i think i could probably learn drums on my own, and gayageum doesn't feel as fun." he gives the bass in his own lap the lightest slap. "this is my next worst instrument, so it seemed like a solid choice."

joomi raises an eyebrow as jay gossips about their instructor, but he makes a solid point. "someone i know once said musicians are divas," he chuckles. "i think there's probably some truth to that. but as long as he's good..." joomi shrugs. god knows grouchy and strict is probably one of the easiest things he's dealt with.

he smiles softly once again at jay's mention of his love for music. "yeah," he agrees with a nod. "i am honestly not mad about missing out on dance practice for this. playing instruments is one of my favorite parts of training here."

boom boom bass.

while studio delta generally has a schedule for them to practice their instruments, this workshop that's being held feels like the perfect opportuniy to actually lock in and properly polish something that he's meaning to actually get better at. this time, it's the bass guitar. he's rather familiar with acoustic guitar and electric guitar, but when it comes to bass—well, he needed more experience.

the workshops came at the right moment. although he knows being an active participant in this workshop and committing to it means he'll need to sacrifice his time doing other things ( namely his dance lessons, as he's spending more time sitting down and working through an instrument ), he believes he can make up for it later down the road.

"dad, are you trying your hand at bass too?" he asks @bejoomi, tilting his head to the sides as the guitar sits on the base of his lap, held to his chest. "i heard that the mentor for this workshop is actually kind of strict and grouchy," he whispers, partaking in a little bit of gossip. "but usually, those types of people are really good at what they do, aren't they? you know, like our very own lovely ceo."

jay laughs, knowing that it'd be bad if he had spoken in a louder volume. "anyway! this is what i joined delta for, after all. focusing on what really matters to me—the music!"

[bejoomi]

belated event + general plot call!

hi everyone! now that i'm officially off hiatus it's time to make my Official Plot Call and get back into the swing of things. i'll need threads of all kinds, both regular and event threads for all three of my muses. i'll do what i usually do and write a bit about their current states, as well as what they'll be doing and how they're feeling regarding the halloween event under the cut! and also an event tracker. but please like this post to plot and i will message you soon 💗

JOOMI

GENERAL UPDATE

with dohyun leaving delta, his songwriting trio (dorenmi) with ren and dohyun is broken. he is very sad about it because they had dreams of being The songwriting trio of delta's next bg and potentially the next generation of bgs in general. he is still movin forward though and doing his best to not be Crushed by it. he is feeling a bit aimless though, and he got so used to writing with ren and dohyun that his creative process is all out of whack now, which is p much just as frustrating for him as dohyun leaving. i think he's been trying to do more things on his own lately, both falling into his old habit of shutting down and closing in on himself when he's hurt by Other people, and because he just like...wants to make sure he's still comfortable functioning by himself, because maybe he's Not and if he Is other people leaving his life won't hurt so much. but i think he's also trying to like...do it in a healthy way, and not shut down, and he's also trying to hang out with people that aren't his closest friends because he thinks it would be good to expand his social circle a little. also out of hopes that if someone leaves again he won't feel it as much. this means there's a lot of room for plotting with new people, yay! or reconnecting with people he hasn't spoken to in a while. but he is still pretty sad and is an introvert so he will not be doing anything that requires intricate planning or orchestration on his part slkdfjglsflkf ALSO NEW DELTA PEOPLE!! PLOT W HIM! he will still do his best to be welcoming and be a good sunbae, not an emo ass bitch for them .

HALLOWEEN

joomi is in a Creative Block rn to some degree and this unfortunately is extending to halloween costumes. he would be happy to go out and do halloween stuff with people though....he just probably will not be making the plans. he might honestly go and do some stuff by himself though, like the ghost tour...so there's an opportunity for him to run into pretty much anyone there! or maybe catch him shopping for a halloween costume just Staring at them with nothing calling to him. he could probably use some help in the costume department, especially for the trainee costume contest. he does not feel the need to win it but he does want to do a decent job, if only because delta is running the contest and he doesn't want to disappoint them LMAO he also might go to lotte world and check out the discounts by himself. he used to work there and hated it but it's been a year now and he's kinda interested to see how it feels now. he will probably be weirdly introspective if u run into him there. LJKSDFKLSKLD (also update as i was typing this post: joomi decided he wants to be dead aka a skeleton for halloween. so he will be in one of those goofy ass skeleton body suits for the axis party and probably a mask too that he doesn't wear for more than 5 mins because it gets hot)

EVENT TRACKER

GENERAL HALLOWEEN EVENT: thread 1: @bexstevie (1/4) thread 2: open thread 3: open AXIS HALLOWEEN EVENT: party thread 1: @beseojun (3/4) ✓ party thread 2: @bejiayi (4/4) ✓ trick or treating thread/solo: @beyeseul (4/4) ✓

NAYOUNG

GENERAL UPDATE

nayoung's Situationship (cam) has now left sr media and she is Just A Bit sad. but she's also like wow i can finally focus without him bothering me god bless. LKJSDLKFSLKDF but she's still being pretty antisocial...though she is at least Aware now that she Should interact with people more. there are just not many people in her life she does actively want to spend time with. but she is more willing to do things with others now, though chances are she won't initiate anything unless it is with her Palz, of which there are like, two off the top of my head. KLJSDLKFS so she may need some encouragement from others to not just Work all the time. she is still gaming and working at the convenience store in her minimal free time tho so plots around that are always possible!

HALLOWEEN

she will not go out of her way to participate in anything but if the right person/people ask her to do something she will! HOWEVER she is very determined to win the axis costume contest. she is just way too competitive. she has decided she's going to be medusa and she is going all out. makeup, gray contacts, curled hair, snake staff and snake headpiece – the works. costume is something in this zone. she will probably look very unsettling and will enjoy unnerving people all night! it would be nice if she had someone to get ready with and/or help her do her makeup too so that plot is open if we can get nayoung to like someone enough for that LMAO 😭 but she will also 100% be sucking up to their seniors and getting as much candy and such from them as she can

EVENT TRACKER

GENERAL HALLOWEEN EVENT: thread 1: @beyuji (2/4) thread 2: @bejaeyoung (2/4) thread 3: open AXIS HALLOWEEN EVENT: party thread 1: @beclaudine (2/4) party thread 2: @beseira (2/4) trick or treating thread/solo: open

RIHA

GENERAL UPDATE

riha got a dreamwave audition callback for lime BUT she did not actually go and audition. she chickened out and decided to pretend to be sick 😭 she just felt very unprepared for everything and even though she knows auditioning could only possibly be a good experience. she scawed. it made her think about if she Really wants to become an idol or not because she's really only doing it for her late mom and she's very intimidated by it. she thinks she does tho! so she's going to try to focus up so next time an audition opportunity comes around she feels ready for it. it's all made her think of her mom more though, and if riha is good at anything it's Running From Feelings, so you bet she's been trying to fill her life with Activities so she doesn't have time to be sad! unlike the others riha Will initiate and plan things with just about anyone. she's also vaguely looking into vocal lessons on top of the dance lessons she's already taking so she can Actually Improve, so more music-related plots would be nice now! but rly anything goes with her, she's always down for something new. most of the time anyway

HALLOWEEN

riha will be very happy to do halloween related stuff with anyone! she thinks halloween is very fun even though she gets easily scared. she loves seeing everyone's costumes, especially pretty girls LMAOOO that being said she is so facking indecisive she has no idea what she wants to be. so let her tag along with your group costume(s). she is down to go do fun things multiple days in different costumes and she would honestly like to try everything that's going on in the city for halloween! she will be very good at the zombie run honestly bc she's so active. i think she will have a lot of fun w that even though she will also be Screaming. if ur muse gets scared she can probably still run with them on her back bc she is a big strong girl. LKSDJFSFLSFD but she's open for a lot and is once again down for anything most of the time

EVENT TRACKER

GENERAL HALLOWEEN EVENT: thread 1: @beclaudine (2/4) thread 2: @beyuji (2/4) thread 3: @beseira (1/4)

[bejoomi]

post-hiatus cleaning!

hi everyone!! i've been on hiatus for several weeks now and technically still am, but i wanted to start Preparing to return a bit in advance, even if i may not write yet. i currently owe 20+ replies across all my characters here and as much as i would love to catch up i think that's unrealistic aklsjdfklasdg and some are also very old! so i've decided i will be starting fresh for the most part and dropping a bunch of threads. there are a lot of starters i haven't replied to and some that i still owe people and i'll probably message those people soon to ask if it's okay if we say they're happening at the present time instead of when they were posted, because everyone has had some recent developments! i'll cover those in another post as i nail down exactly what has changed while i was on hiatus.

i also do want to apologize for flopping on so many of these threads. i write 40 hours a week for my full time job and writing for rp on top of that can sometimes be a Struggle, and september was also a Rough Month. but i really do want to try to do better, and i would love new threads with everyone i've already threaded with and new people alike! i'll post a new plotcall at a later time too. i'd also be happy to chat about how any dropped threads ended if you'd like, and i may actually message some people about that myself! whew ok without further ado, i will list the few threads i am keeping under the cut.

KEEPING FOR JOOMI

her majesty - @bexsua

KEEPING FOR NAYOUNG

alcohol free - @beyinuo sunday meal - @lucielxbe catching up - @jindallaebe

KEEPING FOR RIHA

girls make me wanna die - @beyuji starter i've owed for ages - @beyeseul i <3 leg day - @shoutabe friends! - @bechangmin

also tagging rp partners that weren't already tagged in threads i'm keeping so they can see this:

@beyuwol @noelxbe @renxbe @beminseok @bejiayi