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Not an English major (I'm actually not even a native English speaker, but who cares at this point) but here's my attempt:
Anon is conveying a covert bioessentialism message under the guise of 'there is no female or male brain' argument (which is quite a researched and backed-up claim among neuroscientists). First, Anon is implying that gender does not exist and is equal to sex: "...you cannot actually change sex/"gender"..." [emphasis mine]. I'd argue that the Anon is not saying that people of different genders are different or the same, as the Anon seems to believe that there is no gender, but only [biological] sex, hence people of different sexes are intrinsically different (obviously, there are some sexual differences among people, but we have the least sexual dimorphism in the animal kingdom [citation needed] and individuals of the same sex have more differences than the difference between the average female and male [citation needed]; and sex =/= gender).
Anon's reasoning is unsound as their points contradict each other. I can extract 5 points from their ask: A) There are no female or male brains; B) Therefore you cannot have a female brain in a male body (somewhat sound, so far, though quite odd); C) Radfems do not believe that genders are "different from the ground up"; D) Radfems believe that there are physical differences between men and women (somewhat contradictory to point C); E) You cannot change your gender (completely contradictory to point C; point E emerges from point D and also contradicts point A and B)
No, they have failed to see a reasoning hole in their post. Example is provided in the passage above.
Anon is a TERF pretending to be a person outside. They refer to radfems in third person, trying to indicate that they do not associate themselves with radfems, but their reasoning leads us to believe that their beliefs emerge from a radfem/TERF ideology. (I have used radfem and TERF interchangeably, please correct me if it's wrong to do so)
While it is impossible to know whether Anon has a medical degree from this post alone, what I have described above does lead us to believe that Anon is uneducated on gender-affirming treatments ("...you cannot actually change sex/"gender"..."), does not know that biological sex is a complex spectrum and therefore saying that all men are different from all women is incorrect ("They do see the inherent physical differences between men and women..."), does not know (I'd say they just don't believe) that biological sex is not related to gender. Therefore, we can conclude that Anon either has a medical degree, but is a very bad doctor, biologist, and researcher. Or, what is more likely, they do not have any medical education and speak from a place of ignorance.
I am not sure whether I have kept my paragraphs below five sentences. Also, for the Scientific American article, which is provided in point 5, you can use 12ft.io to access it for free.
uhh, radfems are literally the ones that say there is no such thing as a "male brain" and "female brain" and thus you cannot have a "female brain" in a male body or vice versa. Thats a long ways away from "different from the ground up." They do see the inherent physical differences between men and women and recognize you cannot actually change sex/"gender".... but so does anyone who isn't brainwashed.
Let's test our Analytical Skills!
What message is being communicated by Anon? What statement is Anon making about gender? Are they saying that people of different genders intrinsically the same, or intrinsically different? Explain your reasoning.
Is Anon's reasoning sound? Is their statement consistent, or contradictory? What do you think the difference is between "(genders are not) different from the ground up" and "...the inherent physical differences between men and women... cannot actually change." Show your thinking in a short statement below.
Do you think Anon is demonstrating strong critical thinking skills? Why or why not? Support your answer using examples from the original text.
Do you think that Anon is a TERF, or an outsider explaining TERF rhetoric from an objective position? Why or why not?
Do you think that Anon posesses a medical background? Is Anon familiar with the science of gender-affirming treatments? How do you know? Elaborate.
Please keep your answers between one and three five-sentence paragraphs each. Don't forget to use quotes and examples to support your conclusions.
This test will be worth 10 points.
#i have never done a written analysis on pieces of non-fiction media#so this is my first time#i hope i get the good score#i need to improve my GPA#please#also. i have not proofread it. i am a very lazy writer when it comes to editing
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sometimes i forget that i started this blog to be about philosophy. anyway i've already told all my group chats so here's one for the blog: just got off a video call w the admissions director at my tied-for-first-choice university and i cannot tell if he thinks i have a shot or if im too much of a loser for their very cool program.
he did give me the very good advice to email faculty i want to work with to introduce myself and get to know them and their work, so maybe that's indicative of . good rapport idk
off to write emails and hope professors deign to respond. please i want to keep doing epistemology. what does it matter
#blah blah blah#academia#the joke of the day is consider my nerves WRACKED#ive applied to 4 schools i should apply to more before the window closes in 3 weeks#i fuckin knew this would happen too that id start looking at schools and then not finish the apps until the day before#wish me luck nyall#is this where my academic journey ends? we will find out when they mail out decisions between feburary and april#and if not a phd then i need to invest in a career shift bc while i like my job. i want to be doing something more meaningful#insert line about how everything is meaningful everything matters. thesisposting etc. but what if i want to do something MORE impactful#than renting trumpets to middle schoolers and their families#im pretty sure that my undergrad gpa is going to like. be an automatic disqualification for all the programs#idk if any of you remember 6 years ago but i was Not doing well in undergrad#so im banking on a 'most improved' award when they see my graduate transcript is more than a whole point better#pwease trust me to do even better in the future mistew phd pwogwam pwease bewieve me#<tags that are the reason i do not attach my name face or work to this blog in case i am Located.#<also tags that are very clearly identifiable as mine own. paradoxical choice
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wowowow im a week ahead in school in this what itâs like to be properly medicated lmao
#ive been titrating since the summer i suppose and school was still difficult last semester#but i dropped my club stuff and added new medication and i am lowkey thriving rn like???#if i can keep this up for the rest of the semester... like even if i can just keep it up for the first 6 weeks...#maybe things will be okay after all!#i need my GPA to be .1 higher if i wanna be competitive for grad schools...#and i really want to improve on my lab skills and stuff#but anyways. i got through stats so hopefully there will be no more GPA tankers LMAO#cy says stuff#personal
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It's so disgusting that I've ended up at the stage of saying like "Oh, I can't get into that right now, I don't have time due to school". Aka I am Prioritizing My Schooling!!!! Which is what I'm supposed to be doing lol but historically I have not let it dictate what I do or do not do in my free time.
But after the nearly disastrous end to my spring 2023 semester due to sudden and intense trigun hyperfixation... I have to be careful lol. I've been going strong so far, and I am NOT going to stop now.
#speculation nation#i WILL get my gpa above a 3.0 at the MINIMUM!! hopefully even higher than that.#but 3.0 is the achievable rank that could actually improve my chances of getting a job or whatever#im at uh. 2.97 i think? so juuuuust underneath it. at the rate im going this semester i'll hopefully pass it.#i have just seven more classes (4 this semester and 3 next semester) so i am limited in opportunities to increase my gpa.#gotta get the best grades i can... gotta make this last year my bitch... i AM going to pass them all and i'll do it WELL.#man i also have my advising appointment on thursday. for scheduling.#i need to look into potential classes i could take bcus the last 3 are all selectives. just need to be upper level tech.#hrggmhm the pressure of being on my very last year of college... already a fourth of the way thru it... crazy!!!!!!!!#but yea im trying to be a good student. as much as i can.
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After Office Hours
Pairing: Professor! Spencer Reid x Fem!Reader
Reader goes to her favorite professor hoping to find ways to improve her grade. He has some unconventional extra credit opportunities in mind...
WC: 1.3k
Warning: Student/teacher relationship, slight sub/dom dynamics, semi public sex, thigh riding, use of y/n, use of âbabyâ and âlittle girlâ plz let me know if iâm missing any!
Youâre running down the hallway of the law building at your university silently begging that your professor is still there. As you approach the door, heâs exiting, keys in hand. âWait, Professor Reid! Iâm here! Donât go!â You call out to him closing the last yards of space between you. âMiss y/l/n youâre late, office hours are over.â âNo Dr. Reid you donât understand! My statistics professor wouldnât let us leave until we finished the lesson on probability distributions! I told him I had office hours to get to and he didnât care. Please Dr. Reid I really need to talk to you about my grade!â He puts his hands in his pockets and sighs while gears are turning in his head. âFine, for you Iâll make an exception.â âThank you thank you.â You try not to read too much into his comment as he opens the door, âafter you.â You donât notice that he locks the door after following you in.Â
As he sits across from you at the desk, you pull out your physical midterm paper all marked up in red ink. âI thought I grasped this concept so well! I donât understand how I got a C-.â âY/N, you got a stressor and trigger backward. You failed to accurately explain the concept. The points you did get were from the passion in your writing. I appreciated the way you wrote, but I couldnât give you a higher grade. Iâm sorry.âÂ
âProfessor, I have a 3.5 GPA and I canât have that drop, especially not from my favorite class!â He clasps his hands under his chin with his elbows below him. âMiss y/l/n, it seems you have been struggling in this class for a while now. I see how hard you work but you have narrowly maintained a B-. If this is your favorite class, why didnât you come to office hours sooner?â âI-â Your mind is moving too fast to form an answer. You look down at the ground and canât help but press your thighs together. Youâve only had a few moments in such close proximity to Professor Reid before, and definitely not alone. His eyes seem to darken, âDo I make you nervous?â You just press your legs further together âUmm..â âCome here.â He says in a soft yet demanding tone while scooting his chair back. When you walk over to him he gestures towards his lap. âSit.â You comply. You put your right hand on his shoulder as his left-hand reaches around you and grips your side. He can probably hear your heart beating out of your chest.
âYou know how I knew you wanted this? When I guest lectured in your physics class you were wearing sweatpants. Out of anything you could have worn, sweatpants. You tried to hide it, but I saw your eyes widen when you saw me. You never dared to be caught dead in front of me clad from one of your tiny little skirts you love wearing to my class.â He takes the hand not at your side and squeezes above your knee. âDo you wear those skirts just for me? Tell me the truth.â You turn to him but avoid eye contact. In the quietest voice you say âYes, just for you professor.â Knowing you were coming straight to his office hours after stats, you wore one of your shortest skirts and knee-high black boots. You hoped being alone in office hours on a dark fall night he wouldnât be able to resist you. It was worth a shot, anyway. He smirks and before he has a chance to reply you say, âNow back to my grade, is there anything I can do to improve the grade I got on my midterm? Can I resubmit it with your notes taken into account?â âIâm sorry miss y/l/n but there's nothing I can do. The university policy states that once midterm grades are locked, any work done before can not be revised. My apologies.âÂ
âIs there anything I can do? Any extra credit opportunities this term? I can help you grade papers or clean your classroom! Please Iâll do anything! I need to improve my grade, please!â He just stares at you while you beg. âAnything?â He says with a devilish smirk. âYes sir.â You say back to him, smiling and batting your eyelashes. He takes a deep breath with his eyes closed and once he opens them he locks eyes with you and says, âRide my thigh.â âExcuse me, Doctor?â His dick jumps at the honorific. âYou said youâd do anything to improve your grade. I know you heard me, ride my thigh.â You cannot believe Dr. Reid just asked you for this. Since the first day of class, he has been the sole object of your fantasies. Youâve fallen asleep many nights imagining him bending you over his desk and fucking you until you scream.
 Without a second thought, you stand up to resituate yourself on his lap, straddling his left thigh. The moment you stand up he reaches for your wrist, âWhat are you doing?â You smile on the inside, those four simple words have shown you he wants this as badly as you do. âDonât worry professor, Iâm just turning around, I need something to grab onto.â You say as you sink down onto him. You put both hands on either side of his shoulders and begin to rock back and forth finding your rhythm. The roughness of his khakis against your ass and your thong pushed against your clit has you stifling your moans quickly. He grabs your chin to make you look at him, âI want to hear you, baby.â You let the moans leave your lips, still mindful of volume. He puts one hand on the small of your back and the other on your hip, gently guiding you. When he touches you, you are on cloud nine. Here you are, in your professor's office after hours riding his thigh as he speaks sweet praises to you. You swear youâve died and gone to heaven. âThatâs it baby keep going.â You are eyeing the member in his pants start to grow. Every time he speaks you get closer and closer to the edge. He can tell by the way youâre speeding up. âCome for me little girl, I want to hear how good youâre feeling.â The use of little girl sends you over the edge.Â
Tightly gripping his shoulders as you ride out the rest of your orgasm, leaving dents in his shoulders through his dress shirt. Once youâre done cumming, you collapse onto his chest breathing heavily. Staring down at his lap you see his dick straining against his pants, and heâs huge. He gently rubs your back as you come down from your high. He kisses your head and lifts you by your shoulders facing him. Youâre staring deep into his eyes. âYou did so good for me, but it's getting late, you should get home.â âRight right, sorry. Iâll head out now.â As you stand up and adjust your skirt you notice the wet spot you left on his pants.
 He sees you staring and interrupts your thoughts, âDonât worry about it. Can I plan to see you next week at office hours?â âYes!â You say a little too enthusiastically. âUm I mean yeah, Iâll be here.â You say in a chiller tone. âGood, I have more extra credit opportunities in mind, I hope to see you in class on Monday. Next week, come to office hours once they're done, okay? Donât show up before 7.â âYes Dr. Reid, I look forward to improving my grade however you see fit.â You say with a wink heading towards the door. When you go to turn the knob it's locked. You unlock it and glance back at him. Heâs still staring at you with a hungry look in his eyes. You have the biggest smile on your face walking back towards your dorm, next week's office hours canât come soon enough.
a/n: this is the first fic Iâve written in about 10 years! Should I turn this into a mini series? I have more ideas for how this story could go! Any feedback is greatly appreciated <3
#softdom!spencer#professor!reid#professor!spencer reid#spencer reid#professor reid#spencer reid x reader#spencer reid imagine#spencer reid fanfic#spencer reid x you#spencer reid x y/n#spencer reid fanfiction#criminal minds x reader#criminal minds x you#criminal minds fanfic#doctor spencer reid#spencer reid smut#soft dom spencer reid
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Turn On/Off Replacements: No Zombies Edition + 3t2 Trait Support
This is basically an update of my TO replacements, but I want to keep the post clear, so I'm sharing it as a new version.
Here's what got changed:
â No More Glasses Zombie TO Instead of zombies, you'll get a brand new TO: Enthusiast. It's triggered by sims who are invested in their hobbies.
â 3t2 Trait Support If you use 3t2 traits, sims with fitting traits will trigger directly related turn on/offs. This is only a subtle flavor; if you want the whole chemistry system to be trait-based, this mod isn't for you. These replacements still work just as well even if you don't have 3t2 traits in your game.
â Polished Icons All the TS4 icons are now slightly smaller and hopefully work better with UI replacements. I also changed or edited some that I felt needed improving.
There are still two versions of the mod: the other replaces the Grey Hair TO with the Mersim one, the other leaves it untouched. Both versions are included with the download.
Download (SFS) (alternate)
Files are compressed. Probably requires all EPs. Conflicts with other turn on/off replacements (including my old versions), tunaisafishâs Attraction Traits Fix, and might conflict with cologne-related mods.
Compatible with UI replacements as long as this mod loads after.
đ¨đ¨ The Mersim version requires Midgeâs Mermaid Mod.
Translations included: Spanish, Italian, Swedish, Finnish.
Update (29.8.2024): Fixed the life skills TO sometimes not updating properly upon changing TO replacements.
Update (31.3.2024): The alien trait by @tammyhybrid21 now triggers the Alien TO too.
Update (11.1.2024): Enthusiast TO now replaces zombies instead of glasses.
Update (11.1.2024): Changed it so that business owners with level 6 or higher business and young adults with a GPA 3.7 or higher also count as hard workers.
Credits to @lazyduchess, @midgethetree, and simler90 for the groundwork and bits and pieces used in the mod. Translations by @bothersomecryptid, @themeasureofasim, @dystopianam, and @vegan-kaktus.
Full list of the TOs under the cut.
Replaced TOs:
Cologne -> Life Skills (has learned at least two of the life skills)
Stink -> Poor (household fortune* ~§20 000 or lower)
Underwear -> Rich (household fortune* ~§100 000 or higher)
Swimwear -> Great Dancer (dance skill 6 or higher)
Formalwear -> Pet Lover (has at least two pet friends or the Animal Lover trait)
Full Face Makeup -> Talented (has at least one silver or gold talent badge)
Hats ->Â Good Reputation (reputation level Reputable Resident or better)
Jewelry ->Â Bad Reputation (reputation level Lousy Loser or worse)
Custom Hair -> Alien (either skintone, eyes, or both, or the alien trait)
Zombie -> Enthusiast (level 5 or higher on at least one hobby)
Grey Hair -> Mersim (with Mersim version)
TOs with additional new trait support:
Hard Worker (career level 6 or higher, teen career level 3, owned business level 6 or higher, young adult with a GPA 3.7 or higher, or the Workaholic trait)
Logical (logic skill 5 or higher or the Genius trait)
Charismatic (charisma skill 5 or higher or the Charismatic trait)
Great Cook (cooking skill 5 or higher or the Natural cook trait)
Mechanical (mechanic skill 5 or higher or the Handy trait)
Creative (creativity skill 5 or higher or the Artistic trait)
Athletic (body skill 5 or higher or the Athletic trait)
Good at Cleaning (cleaning skill 5 or higher or the Neat trait)
TOs with minor fixes:
Unemployed (young adults and business owners aren't counted as unemployed)
Robot (servos don't trigger hair color TOs)
Unedited TOs:
Fatness (TS4 icon)
Fitness (TS4 icon)
Facial Hair
Glasses (TS4 icon)
Makeup (TS4 icon)
Blonde Hair
Red Hair
Brown Hair
Black Hair
Grey Hair (without Mersim version)
Vampire (TS4 icon)
Plantsim (TS4 icon)
Lycanthropy (TS4 icon)
Witch (TS4 icon)
For the sake of cohesion, all the supernatural TOs now have simpler, singular names (instead of vampirism, plantsimism, and witchiness).
*The household fortune is counted by its funds, the lot value (if the home lot is residential), and other owned lots. The precise value that triggers the TO might slightly vary.
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study tips: how to get a 4.00 GPA pt 2 đŚ˘
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this is the second part of my first post!!
disclaimer: now these tips won't guarantee you getting immediate straight A's, but applying them to your school life will definitely improve it.
#6 act like the main character in a tv show:
this helped SOOO much! acting like that could result in more confidence and encourage you to join in activities as main characters are usually the leaders in a group project, this could help you build ur leadership skills.
#7 find people or characters you aspire to be like:Â
a character i aspired to be was Rory Gilmore (as i think she was to everyone), even just watching gilmore girls made me be determined to get good grades. Some characters that are academic weapons are: spencer hastings, elle woods, blair waldorf, and paris geller.
#8 behavior:
your behavior is so important. respecting ur teachers, valuing school rules, and helping ur friends are all synonymous with being a great overachieving student. remember to always be polite and respectful whenever approaching anyone!!
#9 change your mindset:
adopting a more positive mindset is the key to being put together during school exams, it improves ur focus and makes you care more about urself than others, which u will then channel into school work.
#10 make vision/pinterest boards:
having a clear image of exactly what u want is so helpful, making vision boards are my favorite things to do. they make me feel very motivated and dedicated to reaching my goals(in this case an A+ student).
now making vision boards is pretty easy, all you need is either a board or A3 paper, glue, scissors, & some pictures!! i would recommend making a list of the goals you want to achieve and searching them up on pinterest, picking the pictures to ur liking then printing them out, cutting them up, and sticking them to the board!
#11 manifesting:
 my fav way of manifesting is listening to subliminals. i luv listening to them while doing hw, studying for a test, or even while sleeping. manifesting helps clear ur intentions and goals, because it involves focusing on them to bring them to life. i recommend the law of assumption and attraction.
#12 find study methods that work for you:
there are various study methods to choose from and are all catered to different learning styles. it took me a bit to find the ones that worked for me...đ
⥠pomodoro method: first u set a timer (for example) for 30 mins of focused learning, then taking a break for 10 minutes.
⥠blurting method: its basically writing all that u understood from ur subject on a piece of paper, then after that reviewing it and looking at the areas where u might have gotten something incorrect.
⥠practice testing: theres many apps that could help u with this like quizlet, but personally i like to make my own practice exam. i primarily just gather the key points from the topic and make up questions about them.
⥠active recall: this requires using flashcards or just actively testing urself about what u remember from the topic.
⥠the Feynman technique: in this method, u essentially teach the topic to someone else(or ur wall or plushie). this can identify gaps in ur understanding.
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#girlblogging#coquette#girlblogger#becoming that girl#self care#self love#it girl energy#that girl#dream life#school#pink academia#academic validation#academic weapon#elle woods#beauty and brains#spencer hastings#paris geller#rory gilmore#gilmore girls#just girly things#self improvement#girly blog#study motivation#wonyoungism#studying#student#pinterest#tips#wellness girl#healthy habits
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doctor demon prince im in my 5th year of undergrad suffering from functional freeze and Cant Write Papers disease (subtype where i eventually write it 7 months later and its really good for how rushed it is). ive also been doing unmasking work and trying to make progress w my nervous system and my relationships, i still have a long way to go . im going to graduate eventually (who fucking knows when) but with a pretty shit gpa.
Anyway my question is why the fuck do i keep wanting to get a masters degree when i know this setting sucks real bad for me. i love 2 learn but either dont have a handle on my adhd/autistic workflow yet or simply dont have the combination of traits it takes to succeed in academia. and i have student loans. i probably wont be accepted to any masters programs anyway but i dont know what else to do !!!!!!!!!!! đ seeing as this is the transgender autistic grad student website maybe u or some of ur followers have advice for me..... 𫶠ok thank u byeee
I'm sorry to have to say this, but why do you want to go to graduate school? It will drive you deeply into debt, cause you a huge amount of stress, subject you to a wildly inaccessible environment where student neurodivergences are often unfairly cast as signs of laziness and lack of academic potential, and, in a majority of fields, it doesn't lead to improved career prospects (typically, the equivalent amount of time spent working in your chosen profession will get you just as far, if not farther, than a graduate degree).
I don't recommend graduate school to almost anyone. Graduate school was a stigmatizing, exhausting, abusive, exploitative, traumatizing experience for me that left me profoundly socially isolated and physically sick, and trained me in an increasingly irrelevant and scientifically unsound field that basically does nothing but regurgitate neoliberal truisms back to the elites that already believe in them.
Some of the faults I've just listed don't apply to *every* academic field in the world -- but it does apply to most of them!
I think it's important for people to know that Master's degree programs are, by and large, created as a revenue source for universities. Undergraduate enrollment has hit a wall -- there's only so many more people who can go to college, in a world where college has become increasingly obligatory, college pays off professionally far less than it used to, and in times of low unemployment there's very little reason to go to school -- and so the possibility of growing undergraduate enrollment has become more and more thin. This means universities have been unable to turn growing profits for years. And that's what matters to them -- profits.
Left without the revenue source of more college students' tuitions, universities have turned toward courting repeat customers -- duping college graduates who are unhappy with their post-graduate career prospects by investing in even more school. In most Master's degree programs, there are very high fees, very limited financial aid, and very very limited mentorship (compared to, say PhD programs, where shepherding you through the program is at least an advisor's duty).
I've worked in higher ed administration for years now and I've seen how disposable Master's degree students are taken to be -- they're paying for a pricey credential and they get very little out of it, in the end -- in most programs, and most contexts. When we need to fill a budget gap, we create a new Master's program -- without regard for whether it is necessary, and without ever being able to prove it will aid our graduates in getting jobs, or even that the degree will fill a necessary niche.
You can feel free to write back to me if yours is a field where a master's degree is necessary or yields positive career outcomes for a great many people (social work and athletic training come to mind). But even still, I don't think you should subject yourself to a completely inaccessible environment that you are already struggling in and taking on more debt to do so. You deserve better than that. And 99% of graduate programs will not do right by you.
If you'd like to read more about just how exploitative graduate programs generally are, and why, I recommend Karen Kelsky's book The Professor is In, or her blog of the same name:
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Games in the library 18+ MDNI
Aemond x reader (Tutor/gamer au) Fluffish and also smuttish
Tags: smut, library fucking, public sex and nerdy gamer references.
Cool devider credits: saradika
đˇSummary: Your GPA is tanking and you need help. Luckily there is the grumpy antisocial Aemond to help you out.
đˇAuthor's note: Based on tutor aus but I made my own spin on it.
đˇWordcount :7324
đˇWarnings: Au universe, smut, desk fucking, p in v, dom/sub, reader x aemond, fluff, gamer references, cozy gamer gf and shoot-em-up bf (found something else? Let me know)
There have been quite a few storms lately, causing more rain and making the world a little gloomy. You donât mind, however. You have always been a fan of rain. Unlike today, where itâs an extra reminder how much you rather spent inside, cooped up with a good game with a warm cup of hot chocolate, not running around your campus with your bag above your head, as if life depends on it.
You are relieved when you make it inside, in the beautiful library that was built long before you began this study. You notice a silver-haired boy with a missing eye sitting in the corner of the room, with his math books in front of him, impatiently glaring around, unaware you are already there. âHi!â you enthusiastically say, placing your Starbucks coffee cup and handbag on the table in the big messy library you just entered. Itâs a saturday so most students would not want to be found death here at this time.Â
You have a reason to be here, sadly. You are failing math, falling behind more and more on the subject. So your professor, Borros assigned you a very unwillingly tutor, Aemond Targaryen. He sighed when Borros suggested he should tutor you, even going as far to say that there is no use in tutoring someone who does not want to learn. There is truth in that, but the issue is not that you donât want to learn. Itâs something else.
Aemond glares at your cup before standing up and checking the time on his expensive smartwatch. âWhy are you late?â Great. You were afraid of not getting here in time, seems like your Starbucks trip took a little longer than you had planned out.
You take out your phone. You are exactly 5 minutes late. There was a big line in front of Starbucks. And you forget you had tutoring today, to begin with. âIâuhmâforgot the time.â You lie.
He looks at your Starbucks cup accusingly. If it had feelings, the cup would feel attacked, perhaps even insulted, before it would hop off the large wooden table and into a nearby trashcan, ending itself. You would gladly follow it in the rabbit hole trashcan. âIâm sacrificing my free Saturday for you. The least you could do is get here on time.â There is always a bit of a gruff, Gringe-like edge to his voice as if someone just stole his presents and he is pissed.
You huff. He acts so high and mighty, and yet you know there is nothing personal about this. He does not help you because he is some godly angel. He helps you to get points. This is not a charity project for him, or a social project this is cold selfishness and part of his plan to become the best student of your class, likely a step 4 in his 10 plan step to world domination.
You smile sweetly when adjusting your ponytail. âYou arenât sacrificing anything. You get points and the chance to become Borrosâs TA.ââ You tell him, dangling his reward in front of him as if itâs a carrot, just in case he thought about bailing.
He dreams of that position for some reason, though you canât for the love of the gods figure out why. Perhaps for status, power, future learning references or just to get close to Borros? Your teacher had hinted that if he could somehow get you to improve your grades, there might be a chance he would become his teacher's assistant. That was enough to sway Aemond into teaching you.
Aemond briefly pushes his gold-rimmed glasses back on his nose, smirking at you. You feel a little nervous under his gaze. âCorrect. That means that I decide how this lesson will proceed.ââÂ
His cryptic description makes your mind wander back to the familiar gutter you have come to know so well. You make a mental note to stop reading dark romance books with tutors for a while.Â
You ignore him. That makes him eager to get your attention back. âNo calls, no textsâfor the next hour, you are at my mercy.â Sweet gods.
His soft pink lips briefly smack before breaking into a grin that sends shivers down your spine. You are thankful for the small bolero that covers your dress.
Aemond is a huge nerd. Kinda cute, but he doesnât know how innuendos work. And he is certainly not aiming his innuendos at you.Â
âOkay. So, youâre like good at math, right?ââ you ask, a little insecure. You are worried he might not actually teach you anything at all, though he is smart, his hands almost always scorching through the air as though Borros is personally offending him with his questions. He reads advanced math books whenever you and your girlfriends hang out in the library, shooting glares whenever you are too loud, giggling or gossiping.
He seems insulted that you think so lowly of him.ââIâm the best in our class.â You never really kept eye on who is the best of the class, and you do not really ever cared. Who cares, as long as you keep up your GPA it is all fine.
But you are not dumb, you need to keep him as your friend for now. At least your ally. Your accomplice? You donât know. You think you would be all the way at the bottom. ââImpressive.ââ You say, but you canât bother to meet his eye before taking a sip of your very delicious pumpkin spice late.
His head tilts slightly when he narrows his eyes suspiciously, reading you as a open book. He huffs. âI can tell you donât give a damn. Take out your notebooks, study books and whatever else you might need. It is time we start.â Whatever else you might need? You feel dread and anxiety fill your chest as you become aware of your thoughts traveling already far away from the lesson.
He brought an adorable little digital clock, that he puts on the table gently, before turning it on, exactly 120 minutes. He really does not want to be here a second longer than he has to be.
You faithfully take out your notebooks decorated with Sanrio stickers, PokĂŠmon stickers and panda stickers, as well as your textbook, and your collection of Hello Kitty gel pens. You put it all out for him to see, flicking the textbook open in front of you.Â
Aemond stands up, briefly looking over your handwriting in your notebook. He wets his lips before speaking. âGood girl.â
You roll your eyes.
He gets up from the chair across the table, walking to the empty seat next to you. He sits down, glancing at some of your previous sums, together with little drabbles and doodles. âSoâwhat do you have problems with?âÂ
You can feel the warmth of his body and smell the fabric softener he uses on his clothes. He probably does his own laundry.Â
This will be a long hour. You sigh, before summing it up. âAddition and subtraction, analog time, multiplication and divisionâŚââ And you forget dozens of other things.
Anything and everything that involves numbers. You have been that way since a kid, throwing tantrums whenever you were forced to do math or make a puzzle. Your brain blacks out whenever you are forced to make a sum, and after a while your brain is just completely fried.
He wrinkles his nose, thinking. âSo, everything?ââ he summarizes dryly.Â
You nod. âYep.â
His good eye slightly widens. âI can do this,â he mutters, to himself more than to you. He taps on an empty page of your notebook with his fingers.
ââWrite down âtwenty-five plus eighty-sevenâ.â
You obey, faithfully writing the sum down in your notebook with your favorite Hello Kitty glitter pens.Â
Aemond looks at the pen with a sigh, bending over your notebook to see what you wrote down. His brows furrow.Â
You try your best to focus on his voice and his words rather than the fact that he sits so close to you and smells like fresh strawberries.
ââAlright. Next, write down âone hundred and fifty-nine plus ninety-fourâ.â Again, you write it down as best as you can, in a reasonably readable handwriting. You hear him curse under his breath, exhaling.
âFive hundred and thirty-two plus six hundred and fifty-six..âÂ
You write a bit faster, messing up a few of the numbers in the process. You are glad you are starting with the addition sums, as they come the easiest to you. Â
âLastly, three hundred and fifty-five plus four hundred and sixty-six.ââ He looks at your sums. With one glance at his face, you can tell youâve already fucked it up. âI said âone hundred and ninety-fiveâ, but youâve written down âone hundred and fifty-nineâ. I said âsix hundred-and-sixty-fiveâ, but you wrote down âsix hundred and fifty-sixâ.âÂ
Great. He must think you are doing it on purpose. Embarrassed, you quickly scratch out the numbers you wrote down before sighing, cursing yourself for thinking this was going to solve anything.
âAre you doing this on purpose?â he wonders. âDo you even want my help?â The nerve of this man.Â
âWhat do you think?â you snap, placing the cap back on your Hello Kitty gel pens. âYou think youâre my first tutor? You think youâre the first whoâs tried to help me? Iâve done all of this before, but none of it matters. Nothing will stick anyway.âÂ
Your voice becomes squeaky. You blink rapidly to avoid ruining your mascara. He must think you are so stupid. You are. So, so stupid.
Aemond looks over your work again, sighing and rubbing his face. âNo,â he murmurs quietly. âYou turn them around. Some of the numbers.âÂ
That has been an issue since you were introduced to numbers. That and the bigger they get, the bigger the chance you mess it up.
âNo shit,â you huff, searching your handbag for your tissues. You find them buried under your perfume bottle and use them to wipe at your eyes.Â
His feet move under the table, briefly touching yours.
âDonât get mean. Just making an observation.ââ He scratches behind his ear. âWhat do you mean, ânothing will stickâ?âÂ
Great. He will piss himself with laughter when he hears this.
Youâd rather not tell him, or anyone, really. It is embarrassing. You are a twenty-two-year-old girl who canât divide the simplest numbers and, without a digital clock, youâd get nowhere on time. You wouldnât even know the time. People can and have taken advantage of that just to bully you. âItâs complicated,â you say.
His usual gruff voice softens. âAlright. So, tell me.â
What is the harm? you wonder. Who is he even going to tell?
âIâve got a non-verbal learning disorder,â you mumble. There. He knows.
âWhat?â he asks, a little too loud for your liking. Even if he had whispered, it would have been too loud. There is no one here, yet you are worried somehow someone heard.
You growl back, âNon-verbal learning disorder. NLD.âÂ
It is a little less common than dyslexiaâa lot less common, actually. You have heard that dyscalculia and NLD is a very common combination. That might be the reason you are so horrible at math. Part of your brain just refuses to understand it, which frustrates you, which makes you upset, and all that means youâd very much rather not do math at all.Â
Aemond becomes very quiet before admitting something you never thought youâd hear. âIâve never heard of that.âÂ
Where could he have, though? He is very clearly a math expert, not a learning disorder expert.Â
You look at your polished pink nails with gold glitter.
âHm. Not surprised. You are perfect after all, arenât you?â you ask.
He becomes grumpy and unbearable, as you become mad and perhaps jealous that he is so perfectly fine and normal, and boring. âFine. Donât tell me.âÂ
Aemond takes out his phone. You thought they were âforbiddenâ. Didnât he say so earlier? You glare, insulted. You have a social life, after all, and the world suddenly seems far more beautiful than it had been before you began your suffering here.Â
âSo, are you telling me you donât know how late it is now?â He shoves a Wikipedia page in your face. He looked it up.
You take out your phone. âOf course I do. Itâs fifteen-thirty.âÂ
You donât say the correct time. You say âfifteen-thirtyâ. Fifteen thirty. Not half over past something, am or pm bullshit. You say it how it is. Itâs fifteen-thirty.
Aemond draws a clock in your notebook. You quite like the way he uses your Hello Kitty gel pen for it. âAnd in analog time, that would be?â He wonders, his voice trailing off when his one remaining good eye glances at you.
You shake your head as he draws two hands on the clock, and multiple numbers. âOh, no one cares about those lame old clocks,â you smoothly lie, and it is part of the truth.Â
No one uses those old lame clocks anymore. Everyone and their mother has a cellphone. Why bother reading a clock if you have a cellphone? And in your caseâwhy bother reading a language your brain seems to not understand anyway?
Aemond sighs, reading you easily. He scratches the clock out. âYou canât read them, can you?â He asks after he has scratched them out. You can either deny it or lie about it but why waste energy and time?
This man is too observant.Â
âI know that the big one up means âtwelveâ,â you say with a little smile, very proud that one thing did decided to stick.
You can see it on his faceâitâs becoming more and more clear that you donât need a tutor. You need a miracle. Â
He blurts out a question. âHow did you even leave high school?â he asks. You donât think he meant to hurt you, but he still does.
âHow did you lose your eye?â you ask, lashing out.
Aemond sits up a little straighter. âThatâs quite a personal questionââÂ
You smile back, still furious and hiding your displeasure by ripping your nails. âExactly.â you groan.
âFine,â he mutters. âIâm sorry. Iâm impressed, if anything.ââ
Fake sympathy. Yeah.Â
This is a waste of time, you didnât learn years ago, why would you learn it now? Why did you even came here to begin with? A little voice reminds you of just why you came over. âYou donât need to lie to me. I know Iâm stupid,â you mutter when playing with your bracelet.Â
Aemond grabs your wrist, letting go almost the second his skin touches yours. âYouâre not stupid. I know you can be very clever and an absolute pain in the ass when you want to be.â He grins. âJust⌠not with numbers.â He closes your notebook.
âReally?â
You know you are clever on other fronts. Itâs just difficult to believe you arenât stupid when you see how advanced your peers and friends are and you still struggle over middle school math.
He nods. âYeah. I remember for a while in History and Language that you were a threat to my position as best student.ââÂ
Youâd liked History for a while, itâs true. You were good at itâthat is, until you got a social life and it became an afterthought. What might have happened if you had stayed on that path?
You donât understand why he wants to be the best. âI mean, you are already first in math, arenât you?âÂ
He should not push for perfection as much as he does.
He shrugs. âI donât care. I have to be the best in everything.â It sounds empty. You might not be the only one with problems.
You try telling him what you think. âThatâs a little⌠unhealthy.â
He snaps at you, suddenly scowling. âWell, I donât have a rich daddy to pay my way into school.âÂ
Ah. That is his issue with you. He thinks youâre a rich little girl that has a daddy that pays for everything.
You stare at your pink nails, briefly ripping at them before speaking. âI donât either. Mine died when I was two. I have a stepfather, but heâs too busy fucking my mom and arranging vacations to Dorne for the two of them to bother with me.ââ
Aemondâs chest sinks a little, regret written across his face. âIâm sorry.âÂ
He sounds sincere. And, just like that, you realize your math session has turned into a therapy session.Â
You laugh despite your sadness. âLook at me, trauma-dumping all over you. Sorry.âÂ
You open your notebook at the same moment that Aemond grabs your fingers.
âI think youâve earned a break.â He awkwardly lets go of you again.
Thatâs fast. âWe havenât solved a single sum,â you say. âI mean, we can solve one. I think this one is doableâŚâÂ
You look at your crossed-out sums. Oh, yeah. That happened.Â
His silver-haired head nods up and down, but he does not answer at first, staring at your nails. âPerhaps not. But we have discovered why you have issues with this. Go take a break. Thatâs an order.â
He cheekily smirks at you, causing butterflies to flutter in your stomach. Perhaps not butterfliesâperhaps just straight-up lust. You want to pull this guy in by his sweater and give him a good tumble.
You lick your lips. ââYeah? What will you do if I donât, sir?ââ
He leans in a little closer, his eye flickering to your ruler lying untouched on the table. âLetâs just say⌠you wouldnât like to find out.ââ
Aemond takes a bottle of water from his bag and a sandwich while you grab a hot chocolate from the machine in the library and a freshly baked muffin from your bag.Â
You eat your muffin and then take out your Nintendo Switch bag, starting the device up for a brief moment of relaxation. You play Animal Crossing for a few minutes, forgetting the world around you as youâre sucked into your peaceful little island.
Aemond is very silent as well, staring mostly at you.
âIâve got one too.â You are sucked out of your island and back into reality.Â
ââHuh?ââ He nods to the switch.
He means a Switch. You didnât think he would be into games. You think he would be too busy studying, really.
âWhat game are you playing?â he asks, tilting his head, coming a little closer so he can see for himself, almost touching your skin in the process as he clumsily bumps into you. ââSorry.ââ He murmurs.
âA very intense one,â you comment as a compilation happens on your screen. You want to restore your island from desertcore to cottagecore and right now, one of your villagers has decided to be a menace.Â
On Aemondâs lips grows an almost dreamy smile as he stares at you playing on your Switch. âOhâlike Xenoblades? Zelda? Hades?âÂ
Youâve heard of all three, but havenât played them. They are not games you think you would like. They sound difficult, full of combat, full of puzzles and full of realisation that you are stupid. So you stay far, far away from them.
âAnimal Crossing!â You turn your Switch so he can see your former desert island as you turn it back into a cute aesthetic-worthy village.Â
He tries to blink, but he only has one eye so it looks a little awkward. âThat is your definition of âintenseâ?âÂ
It can be. It can be so intense you rage-quit. Some of these animals have no mannersâyouâve certainly bullied a fair few off your island.Â
âYou try terraforming your island when a lazy villager sits in the way!â You point with your finger to the panda cub that sits in the way, right where you want to plant a bush. âThatâs Chester, and right now heâs making my life hellââÂ
The panda, or Chester, enjoys a sandwich while smiling at your avatar, unaware of the misery he isÂ
causing.
âThat panda is?â Aemond asks, confused. âThe panda is the issue? Canât you tell him to move?âÂ
That would be so helpful. But, unfortunately, noâthat is not an option.Â
You nod, turning your Switch back to you. âHe just wonât leave. I can hit him with a net, but he would hate me,â you mutter. âPushing him is useless. Heâs, like, glued to this spot.â
Aemond smiles to himself. âPerhaps he is saying we should return to studying.â Chester would say that, the menace. He has not given you his photo either, the bear knows too much.
âHe says to me that I can have five more minutes,â you say, smiling and blinking your eyes innocently.Â
He sighs deeply, exhaling before putting his arm under his head, watching you terraform around your island. âCute.â He sits up straight, blushing and quickly pointing to your Switch, decorated with stickers from Stardew Valley. âI meant, uh, the stickers.â He quickly mutters, and you canât hide your own smile.
The stickers are cute, but you canât help but wonder if he wasnât talking about something else. âThanks, theyâre from Stardew Valley.âÂ
âI heard that gameââ Whatever Aemond would say next would forever be a mystery. He is rudely interrupted by your fan dumping all over him, telling him the plot, the main features, and your personal opinion of the game in the world-wide record of 4 minutes as you ramble. âYouâre kinda supposed to help this town flourish by bringing crops you grow, artisan stuff, to this community center. You can also romance and have children and have a pet. There is like magic too, but I wish it was more fleshed out-ââ You shut up quickly. You put your switch down.
He nods, but you can tell you are losing his interest.Â
âYou can slay monsters, too,â you blurt out. âAnd you have different swords, weapons and stuff. Sorry. I kinda ramble.â
âI like it. Itâs cute when you ramble.ââ Damn it. You feel your cheeks redden. Aemond watches the rain outside, before asking another question about Stardew Valley. ââCan I kill my spouse?â he asks as a follow up.Â
You know the modding community is very active, but they are like about dogs and cat breeds, about teleportation hacks and making portraits better. Not about you know, full-blown murder. âNoâŚâ
He frowns as if that surprises him. âIs there warfare? Can I take other peopleâs farms? Is there a princess for me to save?â No, no, and no.
You understand you two play different games.
âNo, not really. It does have multiplayer, though.â
Aemondâs scoffing little smirk returns but it does not meet his hurt and very glossy eye. âIâm kinda a loner.â He laughs but there is a hidden sadness there. A sadness you relate too all too well.
âI am, too,â you say.Â
âYou have dozens of friends.â You can still have friends and be alone.
He refers to the girls that you hang out with. Are they friends? You donât hang out aside from the weekend. You canât call them, if something has happened to you, and they definitely donât know you game or have NLD.Â
âYes,â you say, âbutâŚnone of them game, I guess? Like, in that way, Iâm alone. And I donât make friends easily. Not everyone likes the games I play. Some wouldnât even call it gaming. So, what kind of games do you like to play?â
He suddenly becomes interested in his very well cared for nails, and you know you hit a weak spot.
âCrusader Kings II, Zelda, Hades, Xenoblades and shooters.â He tells you. ââMostly single-players.ââ
You donât know Crusader kings, but judging by the name, you do not have a cute farm at day and a run a witchy cozy coven at night. âThe bloody ones.â
He snaps his head to you, smirking a bit.
ââZelda is not bloody.ââ Before he looks at your hair and your lipstick. ââI think you actually like it, if you gave it a chance.ââ He says. ââI mean, there is dozens of npcs to talk to, a wonderful open world, and ingredients to forage and outfits to collect and to find. In a way, it is Stardew Valley but without the Valley.ââ
He definitely heard about Stardew Valley before. ââYou know a lot about Stardew.ââ
He nods. ââMy sister, Helaena, she plays it a lot. I wouldnât know how to play it, however.ââ He confesses, slightly tilting his hands. ââItâs beyond me how you get anything done with a time limit and a stamina bar.ââ
You smile, and you never thought you would in his company. ââDescribe the story. Of that Zelda game.ââÂ
He needs some time to think before telling you the main story. ââYou see, with an adventure game thatâsâŚthat would defeat the purpose of playing. So: You are a hero, named Link. After 100 years, you awake in a shrine, and you hear a voice, and you need to save the kingdom and the princess.ââ It sounds very âŚmale-written and male-aimed. You arenât sure Zelda is for you.
You have another problem with it too.
ââThat sounds horrible. Imagine waking up from your nap, and suddenly you got to save the world.ââ
At first he is confused but the moment he knows you are joking, he laughs, a very delightful sweet and welcoming sound. ââIt starts very locked, but thereâs so much you can do in the game, in my honest opinion it's one of their best entries in the series. Thereâs cooking, horses-ââ Horses? There are horses? And cooking? ââThere is combat, but you learn quickly, at least I did. The monsters are actually clever, and in the beginning, its best to avoid them until you get decent weapons.ââ You arenât sure. Combat? The monsters in the skull cave of Stardew Valley regularly kick your ass. ââThere are puzzles too-ââ That is where you draw the line. No puzzles.
ââHell no. I hate puzzles.ââ You did as a kid, and still as an adult you canât figure out how some people enjoy putting together these images, made up of 1,000 pieces and when they finish it, they destroy it too. Like what is the point? And it does not help you can never figure out where to start.
ââI know.ââ That catches you off guard. Aemond does not pressure you into it. He simply accepts it. ââBut they are fun. We can solve most problems in multiple ways. You canât fuck this up, if you are scared of that. Even if you die, you can restart as many times as you like. And no one is going to call you stupid for it.ââ He promises you, when leaning in a little closer, touching your face gently.
ââNot even you?ââ You ask, for confirmation, not sure why you care but you hate for him to laugh at you for doing something very rookie.Â
He shakes his head. ââNo. It took me a lot of time to get the hang of it too, if you must know.ââ So he is not as perfect as he pretends to be. ââI already told you: I donât think you are stupid.ââ
You lean in a little closer to him, staring at his soft pink lips. You make your voice as dry as possible. ââWhat if I call ââLinkââ ââZelda?ââ You ask him with a cheeky grin. Nothing annoys Zelda fans more than that.
He grins back, but has faith in you. ââI know you wonât.ââ That is true. You know that the Princess is called ââZeldaââ but the person you play as is called ââLink.ââ To confuse the two would be like calling JojaMart Pierreâs general store. Â
ââBut what if I do?ââ You ask, getting a little cheeky. ââHm? Sir?ââ You ask, pushing his buttons a little more as you grin.Â
He needs to make an effort to hide his smirk, quietly muttering when eyeing the stickers on your switch. ââDonât push me, we are alone after all, and Iâm very bored.ââ He murmurs, sending a shiver down your spine when his voice gets that rough edgy little dark edge.
ââAre you âŚInterested?ââ You ask, surprised.
He lifts his head, a bit insulted. ââYou think I would not avoid you like the plague if I wasnât?ââ
All this time you thought he hated you, but he had a crush on you. ââI thought you hated me! That I annoyed you!âÂ
He blushes, quickly cleaning his glasses for some reason. ââNo, I just donât like it when I canât control my feelings. Like I become very different around you.ââ You noticed. He puts walls around himself.
ââYou become a little angry bird or a Goomba.ââ You know for sure he knows what a Goomba is, and you know it as well. They are the adorable little creatures from Mario games that try to murder Mario and look grumpy.
He chuckles, mortified by your description.
ââPlease, no, gods, not a Goomba.ââÂ
You do find the courage to tell him your final thoughts, before flipping your notebook again, picking up where you left with the sums. ââIf it helps, you are kinda cute too, Aemond.ââ You tell him, and you mean it. ââNot that Iâm into Goombas, but..Yeah. Youâre cute.ââ You tell him.
He nods, absently before he becomes serious again. ââDid you ever try motivational tutor lessons?ââ Motivational what?
ââWhat uhm do you mean?ââ You ask, a little lost.
He shrugs, smiling. ââWell, people are more likely to succeed if there is a reward for them in it.ââ You notice him biting down at his lips, avoiding your eyes.
ââAnd uhm, what would my reward be?ââ You ask your body to betray you within mere seconds as you think of how he will reward you. You, on the couch on top of him when fucking him-
He grins, when slowly touching your legs, going to the space between your legs, to where your dress ends. ââWhatever you like,ââ he purrs softly in your ear. ââ A cup of coffee, a donutâŚââ
You nod, a little disappointed and curse your dirty mind. That man is a saint for trying with you. Aemond reaches out to grab something close to your textbook and your eyes follow his fingers. ââPeople are likely to succeed more if they are disciplined too.ââ He is just teasing you, you tell your very dirty minded mind.
You know he will make you stand in the corner or perhaps take your phone away. ââAnd what would my punishment be?ââ You ask, dryly when you copy the sums from the textbook.
Aemond sighs. ââI wonât do anything you donât consent to, that is the first lesson.ââ You were taking a sip of your cold coffee and nearly spat it out, all over your textbook as your cheeks burned with interest.
ââBut if you are into a little motivation, I guess I can show you another use for this pretty ruler.ââ He mutters, tapping with the ruler against the palm of his hand. You notice he has excellent self-control. This will be fun.
Yet you are surprised, that the red sweater glass-wearing sniveling little best of the class into BDSM. ââYouâre into Kink?ââ You ask, your voice is a bit strangled.
ââThatâs not an answer, little brat.ââÂ
He totally is. Gods, just your luck, stuck with Aemond Targaryen who is secretly into brat taming. Whatever sums you wanted to make, will certainly get fucked up now.
ââDo you expect me to really learn better?ââ You hope he understands that your brain is just not a regular brain. It wonât magically solve things now that you are motivated.Â
Aemond shakes his head. ââI kinda donât. But itâs alright, love. I wonât get upset with you. Not really, at least.ââ He tells you with a grin. ââBut I wonât lay a finger on you until I get your consent.ââ Such a gentleman.Â
ââFine, youâre free to touch me.ââ
On his lips, grows a dangerous smirk as he grins, before sitting next to you. ââWhat is the square root of 48?ââ He puts his left hand on your knee and slowly makes his way to your thighâŚ
Fuck. ââUhm, 4.ââ You blurt out. It is a gamble but you donât care.
Aemond chuckles before tsking as a disapproving teacher, before grinning and telling you the correct answer. ââThat would be 6.ââ You growl, a little angry you didnât know it. But he softly murmurs in your ear, when his hands go over your body. ââTake off your coat.ââ He tells you coldy.Â
You let out a little squeak. He grins, adding softly. ââAgain, if you want to, of course.ââ
ââI want you to strip too.ââ You tell him after you have taken your coat off.Â
He chuckles, thinking you canât defeat him. That you donât know his weakness. But he told you, earlier today without him realizing so. ââYou can ask me questions but I know a lot more about math-ââ
You interrupt him, smiling.
ââWhat year did the Titanic sink?ââ
Aemond gawks at you, before thinking deeply. It is a random event that did kill people, but it had no major consequences. ââ1910?ââ He guesses. You grin.Â
ââ1912, take off your shoes.ââ You tell him.
ââFuck.ââ he murmurs, but obeys. ââIf I go with the train at 9:20, and the train takes half an hour-'â No way you will get that one, so you take your dress off, zipping your zipper down and exposing your black bra and matching knickers. Aemondâs breath catches slightly, exhaling when his pupils enlarge.ââGood girl.ââ That is enough to worsen your arousal and to harden your nippels. Aemond watches as it happens, a pleased contemptuous smile on his lips.Â
ââTell me, little Brat. Darwinâs father has four children, Red, orange, yellow and-ââ It is a pattern question. A clear question. Red orange yellow are colors represented in the rainbow. ââGreen?ââ The moment you said it, you repeat the question silently before growling.
ââNo! "It's Darwin!â You grow out.
He chuckles. ââYou can keep your pretty knickers and bra on. I want you to sit on my lap.ââ You sit down on his lap, making sure to rub him a tiny bit in the process, to make him wild. He groans in your ear when forcing your ass down. ââSuch a naughty little brat. And so wet for me too.ââ He murmurs in your ear when his fingers smoothly slide in your knickers, before toying with your folds, touching before inspecting your wetness. You twist on his lap, trying to force the finger to move deeper, harder, and rougher. Aemond pulls you tightly to his chest to avoid you moving at all.
You enjoy his control more than you should. ââFuckâŚââ You quietly mutter. He muses happily to himself as you squirm and twist on his lap.Â
ââSo tense, are we shy, little brat?ââ He is toying with you, torturing you.
ââAemond, please.ââ You beg, helplessly as he begins to fuck your body with his fingers, and you happily fuck his hands, clenching yourself whenever you are allowed.Â
You need to find release soon, and he knows it very well judging by his smirk. ââIâm afraid I won't listen to that name. You will call me Sir or you will refrain from speaking at all.ââ He says, and your fucked up little brain enjoys it too much.
That is so hot. He has an authority kink. ââFuck!ââ
He grins, as he takes a stance behind you.
ââIâm afraid I canât allow such crass words.ââ
Oh shit. You feel your heart race and your stomach flutter with lust and butterflies and your curious mind wanders. ââAemondâŚââ He grabs you briefly by the throat, but he does not make it hurtful. He raises a brow.Â
You look at your shoes.
ââI meant, SirâŚââ Your face is pressed down against the wood of the table, before Aemond growls.
ââNothing will save you now, little brat. You are all mine.ââ
He grabs the ruler and your cheeks are spanked first with his fingers before he moves on to the iron ruler, hitting your cheeks with precision but hard enough for you to like it. You squirm on the desk, certain you leave a trail of wetness as Aemond uses the ruler on both your ass cheeks, finding a torturous rhythm. And yet you like it. You want it to happen again, you want to brat. ââFuck,ââ you cry out as three of his fingers enter your pussy. His left hand is feeling you up, when his right continues to punish you for your sins. ââSir, sir please!â You moan.
ââAre you sorry?ââ He asks, between fucking you on the desk with his hand and spanking you. You nod, furiously. He sighs, letting go of you and his fingers leave your spent wet cunt. ââGood. Donât be naughty again or I will punish you again.ââ He warns you. You want to brat. And you want to brat so hard that he will punish you with his cock this time.Â
You bring your own fingers to your entrance but before that you can shove them in, Aemond has grabbed your wrist, painfully twisting it. ââSeems like someone canât behave herself.ââ You nod, furiously as if you regret it deeply. Aemond sighs. ââPull my pants down for me.ââ He tells you, and you inwardly cheer. You get to work, unbuttoning his jeans for him and pulling them down first, before staring at his boxers which barely hide his erected cock.Â
You pull his boxers down too, freeing his cock as the red swollen tip is pushed in your face, with clear precum on the edge. ââGet on the desk.ââ He tells you. ââBent over it, the way I know you want to.ââ You know what he means very well, and you obey, bending over the desk so he could take you on it.
He sighs before grabbing one of your hands and wrapping your fingers around his cock. ââMake me go wild, and Iâll fuck your little needy pussy.ââ You obey, your back turned to him as you try to please him with your fingers rubbing his head and his balls.Â
You are bended, and Aemond opens your legs roughly and sharply, before going inside of you with his cock, filling you all the way with his length as you silently whisper. Aemond starts to trust and you become lightheaded and carried away on your pleasure. He fits so well. ââSir,ââ you weakly mutter as he fucks you on the table, your book and hello kitty gel pens still present. Aemond grunts as an animal before grabbing the ruler, smacking your cunt this time, causing you to cry out in pleasure. ââSir!ââ You repeat your own cry, before slamming your hips against his own, begging him to finish you. ââPlease!ââÂ
ââSuch a needy cunny. Iâm going to come inside of you, little Princess. You are going to tell all your little whore friends about this, that you got fucked by a man in the library, used as a glorified slave. You will tell them how red and throbbing your little pussy was, and you will not tell anyone it was me. Is that understood, or do you need me to fucking explain it another way?ââ You understand, but you would love another explanation because it sounds so dirty.
ââAnother way. Iâm pretty stupid.ââ
He glares as if he disagrees with that.
ââVery well.ââ
Aemond grabs you by your hips again, fucking you.
âââN-no, Aemond, I have a party tonight-ââ You tell him, begging him to be a bit gentle.
He groans. ââI donât care. Fuck your parties.ââ
He did not get invited.
ââNhn!ââ You cry out as his cock cruelly fucks you, not giving a damn about your warnings.
Aemondâs lips briefly kiss your sweaty forehead.Â
ââDelicious, such a good cunny.ââ He murmurs, rubbing your cunt until blood sticks to his fingers. You need a little push. Just one tiny push. ââAnd now, you will come for me, my slut. When I tell you, you will come all over my cock, soaking me.ââ You nod, bracing yourself.
Aemond fucks you harder and faster and it becomes difficult to hold your orgasm in. You need to release it, you need to find a release fast. ââSir, please.ââ You beg, helpless. He grins, spanking your needy pussy.
ââI know, but try to show some self-respect, my little brat.ââÂ
You wordlessly wail. He sighs, before impaling you thoroughly and resting his hands on your hips. He whispers in your ear. ââCome.ââ You obey, freed from a prisoner and let go when you two fuck each other roughly, your muscles hurting from the rough fucking on the desk. And finally, you come all over his cock, just as he promised you would. He takes you two more times after that, bringing you close to two other orgasms, before denying those two. You are taken without warning and lose your control, coming all over him, earning you a spanking and a rough fucking before he comes inside of you as well, with a lot of curse words and grunts.Â
ââFuck, Y/N.ââ He murmurs, in your ear. You put your underwear and bra back on. The timer ends, revealing that two whole hours have passed. Aemond dresses himself quickly too, looking at your messy hair and glassy eyes.Â
You become aware of the feelings and the urge to run far away from them. ââI have to go.ââ You tell him.
Aemond stops you, gently and you know he has become himself again, dropping the dom-act.
ââNo. You seem to know some things about Kink, but after playing with my ladies, I give them aftercare. You deserve a bagel, or a donut, or fuck it, another Starbucks if you want. If we were at my place, Iâd prepare a bath for you or give you a message.ââ He rambles on. ââLet me buy you something nice for your lunch, and at least walk you home.ââ He asks, no, begs. Your face melts at his sweet manners.Â
You put your stuff in your back, as Aemond zips up your dress for you, careful to avoid your hairs. He has done this before. You wonder how many times and with who. ââShe is judging us.ââ He suddenly whispers, nodding to your hello kitty gel pen.Â
After two hours he has become just as mad as you have. ââShe knows too much, I might drown her into my Starbucks later.ââ You tell him.
He does not approve of that idea.
ââThat would be sad and torture.ââ
ââFine, Iâll justâŚput her in my pencil case.ââ You do as you promise him, putting the gel pens in your pencil case.
ââThatâs it, good girl.ââ
He winks before following you to Starbucks.
ââHey, uhm Aemond?ââ You ask after you are waiting for your order. Aemond looks around a little amazed. He has never been here before, calling it a capitalistic hell.Â
ââYeah?ââ his hands nervously play with his rings. He can be so adorably shy.
ââWhat are you doing tonight?ââ You wonder, hoping you donât regret this. As in, he does not say no.
ââNot much, I might actually play Zelda. Why?ââ He wonders.
ââWant to come to this party with me?ââ You blurt out with a smile.
a/nthank you for reading let me know what you think. there might be a part 2 but i havent decided yet.
The eh creatures above the a/n are goombas.
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have you changed your old and set gpa / grades to a new one? i guess this would be along the lines of revision
also, for big exams or whatever that most people seem to have super hard times with even with studying the best they can like the mcat (medical entrance exam basically) how would you go about that? letâs say you didnât want to do much prep for it, can you just assume youâre top percentile with the score you get back and if thereâs inspired action you can get into that, or do you actually have to put in some level of work? this may have been worded badly LOL my apologies
i did! i believe my old one was a 3.0 or something like that and i manifested it being a 4.0! i'm currently a senior in highschool and the "hardest" thing i'm taking right now is physics. if i didn't assume my grades were always high and relied on the 3d to tell me how they were, i would probably be failing miserably right now.
personally, i hate studying and i always thought to myself about how i would much rather spend my time taking care of myself and improving my life somehow. i could be spending time with friends, my sp, family or trying new hobbies, going new places, traveling.. i've honestly always found school to be a waste of my time that i could be spending doing so many other things. i used to get so anxious and scared over school and put it on this pedestal like my future depended on it, when that wasn't true at all.
i had to realize that i was doing myself a disservice my pretending that these things somehow mattered more than my input, my wellbeing, and my say in matters. acting like anything depended on "top percentiles" or approvals is a way of distracting yourself from the fact that you are the one accepting this as true. you are the one deciding "if my grades don't look like this, i won't succeed", when in reality, your grades and scores are quite literally said to be a way of being prepared.
a lot of administrators actually don't know what standards schools are choosing by because even if you have the good grades and good exam scores, there's still that chance of you not being picked. this goes back to my point on reliance and how that's your conscious decision. also, leaving things up to "chance" or "luck" (a made up concept) is honestly stupid when you really think about it. you're choosing to let things decide themselves, but somehow you can't decide?
i've noticed that people often put trust in many irrelevant things, like gods, deities, stars, cards, palm readings, psychics, mediums, other people's inputs, etc. and i've realized that nobody ever puts trust in themselves for some reason. isn't that weird? it's fine when you put trust in the things you're not even sure where they originate, the validity, that you can't even see or be sure of.. but the one thing you can be sure of (yourself), is somehow untrustworthy?
it was for this reason that i realized that i need to get more comfortable with myself and deciding i have things without relying on some external factor to tell me that i do. it just doesn't make any sense and it doesn't even work. at the end of the day, your mind is going to sway one way, either you'll believe you succeed, or you didn't.
but anyways, what i'm saying is that being the top percentile is not at all necessary to reach your goals, because at the end of the day it is up to you and the way you feel about yourself, whether you realize it or not. you are the one deciding, even if you have good grades, where you are going to make it in life. you are the one deciding EVERYTHING about your life, your self image, your relationships, yourself, everything regarding you is up to you (obviously).
but, to answer your question properly, no. you do not need to put in any level of work. the law simply states to assume ("whatever you assume to be true will be true"), not to do anything else. everything takes care of itself the moment you simply decide it is true. inspired action is usually something done unconsciously, like for example, you want to manifest money. you decide you have $100. then as you randomly decide to clean your room, you look under your pillow and find $100. (this happened to me but i found it in my drawer lol).
inspired action and trying to force something to happen are two different things, again, one is done unconsciously and the other is done with the intent of hoping something happens. and what does hoping imply? it implies that you don't have it. if i said "i hope i have $100", i obviously don't have it. if i said "i have $100", then i very clearly have $100. you have to assume it in order for it to be true. and that means, you take your own word for it regardless of what you're being shown at this very moment. you have to decide that it already happened.
i'm sorry, i know this is the part that so many of you guys hate since you like being bossed around by other people, but this is how the law works. it's the only rule you've been provided with, and yet so many of you fail to follow it. an assumption is something you believed to be true without proof. the law requires you to believe something, we (coaches, bloggers, teachers, etc) are the ones telling you to believe something *positive*. the law itself is indifferent, you're free to believe whatever you want, good, bad or indifferent. nobody has control over your mind or thoughts but you.
and yes, it has to be you. not your friends, not your parents, not your teachers or professors, not your bosses, not the random strangers on the street, not the people you only meet once, you. because this is your reality. you're experiencing life as your own person with thoughts, feelings, opinions, goals, dreams, a functioning body (hopefully?), and your own eyes. it's yours, and yet so many of you struggle to realize that.
your manifestation is something that's supposed to happen naturally, it's supposed to find a way to grow into your world comfortably, like the example i just provided. (please don't take "find a way" out of context, i simply mean the "how" is not up to you. everything else is. the law of assumption is a law. it has to materialize, and it does, this is also not to say that it will necessarily be "unexpected" or "strange", you just won't know how it will unfold.)
putting in a level of work just comes from a place of doubt (or misinformation, but let's not talk about that right now). you doubt the fact that you can truly sit back and relax and have things work for you. it's a belief that will do absolutely nothing for you and not benefit you at all, though i'm sure a lot of you believe many things that don't benefit you, and you don't really seem to care.
and how would i go about applying all of this? i would simply decide that i have passing marks or that i got accepted into whatever school i wanted regardless of my grades. there is only one rule to manifestation, you can't break it, but you can bend it however you want as long as you assume. the only rule to the law is literally to just apply the law, so do whatever works for you.
if you just wanna feel good about your grades and feel even better getting accepted into a school, go ahead. if you're coming from a place of fear and feeling like you "need to manifest this or else", please take a step back and consider the fact that this is all up to you and i just told you it doesn't work that way. remember that you only feel this way because these standards have been drilled into your mind for years by the people around you. you've basically been conditioned to care about your grades and limit yourself to or only believing in getting going to school for a job.
we as people are the ones who give things we created significance and purpose. nothing is fundamentally real, it is all manmade, and so, you shouldn't be putting it on a pedestal. you are the only one keeping these standards alive in your head and keeping the assigned significance of these standards alive in your head. none of it really matters and we all know that deep down. we are all going to die one day and we literally live on a floating rock in the middle of fucking nowhere. please don't stress yourself out over stupid shit and live your life the way you want. just decide it's yours.
hope this helps! feel free to send me another ask if you still have questions. đŠś
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A swimming lesson
It was another typical day at school, and as usual, I found myself in the crosshairs of Mr. Coachman's disdain. My name is Tristan, and I am what one might call an "unsporty" student. Thin, nerdy, and full of useless facts, I was the kid who always got picked last in gym class. Mr Coachman, a former athlete turned sport and philosophy teacher, had no patience for my know-it-all attitude. He believed that my incessant need to correct everyone was hindering the class and, quite frankly, his sanity. One day, Mr. Coachman approached me after yet another unnecessary correction during PE. He offered me a chance to improve my abysmal grades in sports by taking extra swimming lessons with him. Reluctantly, I agreed, desperate to boost my overall GPA. At our first swimming session, Mr. Coachman handed me a peculiar-looking swimming cap. He claimed it would allow me to hear and see his instructions directly in my head. I thought he was out of his mind, but upon putting on the cap, I realized it actually worked. It was a surreal experience, feeling Mr. Coachman's voice and visual cues echoing in my mind as I swam. The instructions were crystal clear, making it easier to perfect my stroke and improve my technique in record time. Weeks later, Mr. Coachman, noticing my progress, approached me with a new pair of swim goggles. He said they would help me focus better in the pool. Skeptical yet willing to try anything, I put them on and dove in. As soon as the water enveloped me, I felt a heightened sense of concentration. The outside world disappeared, and all that mattered was the water beneath me. Mr. Coachman's voice became a distant echo, guiding me through each stroke and turn. It was as if the goggles had transformed me into a single-minded swimming machine.
Mr Coachman observed my newfound dedication and satisfaction. I was exhausted from the intense swim training, which left me with no energy to display my usual know-it-all tendencies in class.
Several weeks later, Mr Coachman's next request gave me pause. He presented me with a slim blue Speedo and promised that it would enhance my speed in the water. There was just one catchâI had to shave off all my body hair. He argued that professional swimmers did it all the time for better speed and reduced resistance. I protested vehemently. "Shave off all my body hair? Are you out of your mind?" I exclaimed, my voice filled with disbelief. Mr Coachman, with a grin on his face, replied, "Of course not, Tristan! It's a small sacrifice in pursuit of greatness. Trust me, you'll thank me later." I crossed my arms stubbornly, determined to resist this outrageous demand. "Absolutely not! I'll wear the Speedo, but I draw the line at shaving my body hair. It's like asking a caterpillar to give up its fuzzy coat!" Mr Coachman's smile didn't falter, and he simply said, "Suit yourself, Tristan. But just remember, the pros do it for a reason." His words lingered in the air as an internal struggle waged within me. The temptation to conform and become the ultimate swimmer clashed with my natural inclination to rebel against such absurdity. In the end, though, curiosity won over. I figured, if I could endure the grueling training and wear these magical swimming items, what harm could a little body hair removal do? With a hesitant sigh, I finally agreed to Mr. Coachman's request. Trudging to the bathroom, I grabbed a razor, examining its gleaming blade with trepidation. As I stood before the mirror, thoughts of caterpillars and metamorphosis floated through my mind. I wondered if shaving off my body hair would truly transform me into a swimming powerhouse. With each stroke of the razor, I felt a mix of excitement and unease. Whiskers and hairs fell, leaving behind smooth, hairless skin. Trapped in my thoughts, I couldn't help but wonder what my friends would say or how they would react when they discovered my newfound aquatic obsession and hairless body. Finally, once all the hair was gone, I took a long look at my smooth reflection. It was a strange sight, almost otherworldly. I felt a mix of vulnerability and exhilaration, like a sea creature shedding its scales and emerging anew. Standing tall in my hairless glory, I slipped into the slim blue Speedo. Ready or not, I was about to dive into the next chapter of this bizarre journey, hoping that my shaved body would indeed prove to be a worthwhile sacrifice in the pursuit of greatness. Emerging from the water for the first time in my stylish Speedo, I had transformed. My physique resembled that of a Greek statue, not an ounce of body fat in sight. I was an athletic swimmer, a force to be reckoned with.
With my old clothes no longer fitting, Mr. Coachman outfitted me with a tight beige chino and a light blue shirt.
As I squeezed myself into the outfit, I couldn't help but complain about looking like a preppy dork. However, Mr. Coachman assured me that it was all about how I wore the clothes. Skillfully, he rolled up the sleeves of my shirt, unbuttoned the top buttons, and stood back to appraise his handiwork. "Aren't you a handsome devil?" he remarked with a satisfied grin.
Surprisingly, I found myself thanking him, swallowed by a sense of excitement and self-confidence that I had never experienced before. Something about Mr. Coachman's approval made me feel alive and validated, even if I couldn't pinpoint exactly why I had become so susceptible to his influence. And thus, Mr. Coachman's cunning plan had come to fruition. Those magical swimming accouterments had not only transformed me into a skilled swimmer but also had slowly but surely chipped away at my once-sturdy resistance. When I wore all three itemsâcap, goggles, and SpeedoâI was utterly beholden to his every command, a true embodiment of the "perfect student-athlete" he had envisioned from the onset. Now a member of the swim team, I had gone from a nerdy outcast to a charming and good-looking athlete, the joy of all my teachers. But deep down, I couldn't help but wonder if Mr. Coachman's methods were entirely ethical. Regardless, I was living proof of his success, and the sensation of hearing Mr. Coachman's voice and visualizing his instructions while wearing the cap and goggles had left an indelible mark on my perception of swimming, forever changing the way I experienced the water.
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my freshman year really tanked my gpa (2.9) from what it should be. can i be saved?
hello, pretty,
absolutely, you can definitely recover from a low freshman year gpa! it might seem super difficult but its very possible, if you put in the effort. here's what i can suggest for you:
assess the situation: understand which courses affected your gpa the most and see if you can retake any of them. many universities (and some high school programs) allow grade replacement for retaken courses.
improve time management: develop a solid study schedule and stick to it. prioritize your assignments and avoid procrastination. personally, i've been using both the notion calendar and a physical calendar that i keep in my room. the notion calendar is good for day-to-day planning where the physical one (since it has a much smaller space to write) is good for any events or exams.
seek support: utilize campus resources like tutoring centers, academic advisors, and study groups. donât hesitate to ask for help when you need it!
engage with professors: build relationships with your professors. attend office hours to discuss your progress and seek advice on how to improve. some of the teachers at my school hold tutoring sessions for struggling students, so inquire to see if your teachers will do the same.
focus on strengths: take courses that play to your strengths and interests. excelling in these can help boost your gpa.
stay positive and persistent: remember, one bad year doesnât define your entire school career. stay motivated and keep working hard.
many students have successfully raised their gpas after a rough start, so youâre not alone in this. keep pushing forward, and youâll see improvement over time. i believe that you can do it!
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Old Habits Die Hard Part 6 | Bradley Bradshaw x Reader
Summary: The slow burn threatens so make Sugar melt, and Bradley can't remember ever feeling this way before.
Warnings: Angst, swears, smut, fluff
Length: 4800 words
Pairing: Bradley "Rooster" Bradshaw x Female Reader (fuckboy college student Bradley)
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"Oh my God," you sighed when you woke up late on Saturday morning. As soon as you opened your eyes, you couldn't stop smiling. Being walked home by Bradley was like a dream you didn't want to wake up from.Â
His lips had been all over yours, hips pressing you back against the wall outside your apartment door. When you asked him if he wanted to come inside, he groaned, "Of course I want to, Sugar. But can we just... not? Not tonight?"Â
You nodded in response, and he looked so relieved, you didn't think he meant for you to feel bad about what he said. You thought maybe it was more about him than you.Â
As you ran your fingertips along his scars, Bradley melted into your hand. "Tell me you'll come back over to the house tomorrow. We can hang out again."
You smiled at him. "Yeah, I'll come back tomorrow."
He nodded slightly, still leaning into your palm. "Text me. I'll walk over and get you. Shouldn't be walking by yourself."
And you were still thinking about what he said the next morning. He wasn't your boyfriend. He would probably never be your boyfriend. So maybe you shouldn't be encouraging him to walk you to and from his frat house all the time, but you had already promised him he could do it again.Â
"You're an idiot," you told yourself as you climbed out of bed, still wearing his sweatshirt. "He's not a good idea. You should know better." But you were still smiling.Â
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Bradley was antsy as soon as he woke up. He had too much energy. You'd gotten yourself under his skin somehow, and he felt like he needed to do something about it. He started pacing around his room.Â
He'd been threatening to kiss you stupid, but you were the one who had managed to turn him into a brainless moron with your lips and your face and your body.Â
"Dude," he groaned out loud. You had invited him in last night. He knew Janessa was staying with Tyson, so it would have been just the two of you at your apartment. It was an invitation for full steam ahead to getting laid, but he had said no. As if he had a shred of dignity left to protect. Like there was a thread of virtue left inside him.Â
Why was it so important to him that you didn't think he was a complete fuckboy? He never cared what any of the other girls thought. He never stopped them from writing on his door. He had even once fucked a girl after she told him she just wanted to be able to get her name up there, like riding his dick one time was some sort of prize you could win.Â
Just thinking about it made him uncomfortable now. He couldn't even remember that girl's name or what she looked like. But he remembered that she brought her own marker.Â
He collapsed back onto his bed. He had to swallow around the lump in his throat. That was probably how Phoebe had become his safety net. She was there the night his face got busted up. She knew what happened and could have probably guessed why he got into a fight with Chase. She never gave him a hard time about any of it. And she never got mad when he went into a spiral where he started sleeping around more than usual.
And yet, Phoebe got away with not getting mad about the things he did, because she wasn't his girlfriend. Nobody cared about him enough to be that.Â
Maybe things had started to improve when he started drinking less. The past six months had been better for him, in a lot of ways. He had been taking extra classes to get his GPA up as high as possible. He had actually been enjoying school. But he kept on going along with the easiest girls on campus, the ones who he knew wouldn't give his scars a second glance. The kinds of girls he'd always chosen.Â
His mom would be disgusted, and he knew it. His dad probably never did this shit. He buried his face in his hands. You were supposed to text him later to let him know when to walk to your place and get you. He needed to tell you he couldn't see you anymore. He needed to stop being around you, starting today. Maybe he could get better, be better, but he'd have to try it with someone else. Because there was no way he could let himself ruin you, drag your reputation down to his level. Jeff had been right. You were too fucking good.Â
And then he thought about how sweetly you talked to him last night. How well you had kissed him, and how he had pressed you down underneath his body. You trusted him. Trusted him with more than just his ability to get you off.Â
Then he thought about you in his lap in the library study room. He wouldn't be able to tell you no if you said you wanted him. He was so weak. He had never let himself be interested in any other girl like this before.Â
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You had finished all of your schoolwork, and it was only mid afternoon. You couldn't text Bradley yet; that would have been as mortifying as when you came apart in his lap. So you tried to take a nap, then you watched a movie. You wanted to text him while you were eating dinner, but then you frowned, because he had been the one initiating texts with you ever since you wrote your number on his pristine door.Â
"What the hell?" you whispered. What could his problem be? What if he hooked up with someone else last night after he walked you home? You pushed your plate of food to the side, suddenly no longer hungry.Â
You glared at your phone, not wanting to be the one to make the first move. And just then it lit up with a text from him, and you quickly snatched it up into your hands.Â
Sugar, I miss you more than I should be allowed to. Tell me to stop.Â
Your heart was pounding now. Stop? You didn't want him to stop. So maybe he hadn't been with anyone else last night. Maybe he'd just been thinking about you.Â
You wrote back, You're allowed to miss me all you want, Beer Boy. Or you can walk over and get me. Then you wouldn't have to miss me at all.Â
You waited for a response but got nothing. You got changed and finished putting on some makeup, and he still hadn't written back. Finally, when you were about to see where Janessa was, he replied.
I'm on my way.Â
You bit your lip and almost screamed. You put your dishes in the sink and thought about taking a shot of the cheap tequila you and Janessa bought before you turned twenty one. You needed a distraction. But then there was a knock at your door, and you rushed to open it.Â
Chocolate brown eyes, messy hair tucked under a backwards cap. Smirk that made you feel silly.Â
"Sugar," he whispered, leaning against the door frame with both hands and examining your face. "Tell me I'm not allowed to miss you."
Fuck that. You reached for the front of his shirt, pulling him toward you, and he released the door frame. "What if I want you to?" you asked him softly.Â
He groaned as he pulled you against him and kissed you.Â
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He wanted you. He tried not to. He spent the entire day telling himself no. If you had told him no, he would have been gone immediately. But you were dressed all cute again, and your body was fitted perfectly against his. And you kept giving him a green light.Â
"Bradley," you gasped when he ran his lips along your ear. "Feel like hanging out here instead of going to the party?" you asked softly.Â
His cock throbbed for you. He hadn't let himself masturbate all day, and it had been a week since he got laid. You could have him right now if you wanted him. Right here next to your front door. But he was trying so hard to do what he should. Part of him still believed he came here to tell you he couldn't be around you anymore. The other part knew he was full of shit; he came here because he couldn't stay away. He was a fucking mess.Â
"I signed us up for beer pong," he told you, his voice raspy as you ran your hand along his arm.Â
You giggled, and he pulled you closer. "I suck at beer pong."
"I don't mind," he promised, taking your hand and leading you out. He listened to you talk as you walked. You asked him questions and wanted to hear what he thought about things, just like you had last night when he took you home. When you stopped at the crosswalk and kissed his scars, it felt nice.Â
Tyson and Dev waved you both over to the game as soon as you got there. "You guys are up," Tyson said, handing you the ball. "Ladies first."
Bradley watched you get ready to start the game, smiling softly at him over your shoulder. And you weren't just bad at beer pong, you were terrible. But he didn't mind when you missed three shots in a row, because your little crop top was riding up higher every time you attempted a throw.Â
When Bradley made his shot again, you groaned and glared at him. "Told you I sucked."
"How are you possibly this bad?" Bradley asked you, taking you by the hips from behind and moving you a foot further away from the edge of the table. "You're good at math! It's like a physics problem." He let his hands linger on your body for a beat as Tyson took his turn.Â
You turned to look at him. "Huh. I never thought about it that way!" you said, and Bradley grinned, because he had made your eyes light up.Â
"See, everyone underestimates how smart I actually am," he told you as he squared your hips and let his hands ghost up the soft skin along your sides, making you shiver. "Just get used to the way the ball feels when it leaves your hand, and let it arc down into the cups." Bradley removed his hands once you were in position, and when you took your shot, you managed to get the ball into a cup.Â
"It's math, Beer Boy!" you told him with a smile. He could still see the fading hickey on your neck whenever you tossed your hair back from your shoulders. When he leaned in and placed his lips there, you moaned softly, and he felt weak. What the fuck was going on? If you were any other girl, he could have had you begging for him, fucked you in his room, and come back down to the party with a clear head.Â
"Are you guys going to stop feeling each other up and play?" Tyson called from the other end of the table with a grin.Â
"Sorry, man," Bradley replied, picking up the ping pong ball and tossing it effortlessly into a cup. "Math," he confirmed with a nod.Â
The match was close, but Dev managed to edge the two of you out on the last cup. "I've never been that good before!" you told Bradley as he led you away from the table as the next opponents were called over.Â
"You know the secret. Now you'll be unbeatable. Come on, let's get some of the good beers," he said with a smirk, dropping his hat onto your head. He had no idea where Jeff was, and he wanted to keep it that way. The kitchen was empty, and as soon as he had you in there away from the horribly loud music, you had your arms around him.
He took two beers out of the fridge and opened them before picking you up and setting you on the counter. "Warn a girl next time!" you screeched as he jumped up next to you.
"Sorry," he said with a laugh. Bradley couldn't get over you. "You look adorable in my hat."
He watched your cheeks flush pink. "I slept in your sweatshirt last night," you admitted with a smile, but you looked away from him.Â
Fuck. "Lucky shirt," he muttered, and you turned to look at him, pressing your lips together.Â
"What's wrong today? You seem... a little hesitant. And you didn't text me as much," you said softly, and Bradley's heart was in his throat. "Not that you need to text me or anything like that, of course," you said, fiddling with your beer before taking a big sip. "I was just, you know.... I like you."
"Sugar." Bradley took the beer from your hand and set it aside. You looked at him tentatively as he leaned toward you and brushed his lips softly against yours. Nobody had ever said that to him before. He'd never be able to stop now. "I like you, too."
You made a soft sound as he wrapped his hand gently around your neck and stroked his thumb along your jaw.Â
"I'm sure you say that to every girl," you whispered, and his lips touched yours briefly again.Â
"No, I never say that to any girls. That's the problem."
You laughed softly as his fingers drifted down your back and he gently kissed your neck. "That doesn't sound like a problem to me, Beer Boy."
"Oh, it is. It's a big problem."
"Then how do we solve it?" you asked as he pushed you back until you were lying along the kitchen counter, his hat rolling to the floor.Â
Bradley watched you reach out to him, and he let you pull him on top of you. "You're smarter than me, Sugar. Might have to rely on you to figure it out. I can only think of ways to make it worse," he whispered, letting his fingers meet the soft skin between your jeans and your shirt.
You reached up and ran your hands through his hair. "Then make it worse," you told him. "Kiss me until I sound so stupid. Touch me until I sound so fucking dumb."Â
"Jesus," he muttered as his lips crashed against yours, humming softly. You nibbled and licked until he dipped his tongue into your mouth to meet yours. Your fingers were a little rough against his scalp as he pulled your bottom lip between his teeth, and both of his hands were all the way up your shirt.Â
All the little gasps and moans you made were making him dizzy. You were so sweet, but Bradley already knew you were a little dirty, too. "You're the best combination of everything," he told you, stroking your tits through your bra.Â
"Oh, God," you moaned into his mouth when he kissed you again. You bucked your hips up against him, and he anchored your body against the counter as his fingertips found your nipple. He teased you there as his tongue found yours, and you whined his name so loudly he was practically seeing stars.Â
When the door opened and the sounds of the party filtered into the kitchen, Bradley froze.
"Come on, guys! That's where I make my sandwiches!" Tyson yelled. "What the fuck!"
Instead of looking embarrassed this time, you just laughed as Bradley pulled his hands back out of your shirt and sat up.
"Uh... sorry," Bradley said vaguely in Tyson's direction. "Won't happen again."
"I doubt that," Tyson said, glaring at both of you as Bradley helped you down from the counter and picked up his hat.
Bradley laughed when you waved over your shoulder and said, "Bye, Ty!" as Bradley pulled you out of the room.Â
"He has no right to complain, really. I'm the only one who cleans this fucking house," Bradley muttered. When he tried to lead you back into the living room, you tugged on his hands and he stopped. When he raised an eyebrow in your direction, you nodded toward the stairs.
"Let's go up," you said softly. "Your room is quiet. And I want to be alone with you."
Bradley let you lead him there.
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Bradley let you take control. You paused outside of his door, which still only had the note he had written to you and your phone number on it. "Just the way I like it," you told him before opening it and going inside. The soft glow of the Navy desk lamp warmed the room just like the previous times you had been in here.Â
Bradley tossed his hat on his desk and ran his fingers along the ends of your hair. "Sugar." His voice was so soft, and his grin was just barely touching his lips. "I shouldn't have you. You're too sweet for me."
You shook your head slightly. "No, I'm not."
"Too sweet for anybody," he told you as his hands found the bare skin of your waist again, and you had to squeeze your thighs together. "I fucking want you so bad though. I don't know what to do."
You traced the long scar along his neck with your fingertips, and his eyes fluttered closed. "I want you too, Bradley." Gently, you kissed the spot where your fingers had been, and he pulled you against him. "I like you. All of you. You call me Sugar, but you're sweet to me."
He swallowed hard, his Adam's apple bobbing against your lips. "I'm different now," he whispered, and while you weren't sure exactly what he meant by that, you nodded your head. He was different than you thought he would be.Â
Bradley dipped his head down and kissed you, his lips smiling against yours as he worked his hands higher on your waist. He pulled away a little bit and watched your face as he stroked along your curves with his thumbs. "That tickles a little bit," you told him, biting your lip to contain your giggles. But his hands inched a little higher.
"Want me to stop?" he asked, his thumbs finding your bra again just like in the kitchen. You'd worn your nicest underwear and a tight crop top that really had no place even being in your closet. He smiled, waiting for you to answer.
"Don't you dare," you told him, whining as his palms met your breasts, gently squeezing and kneading you through the lace fabric. You expected him to rip your shirt off, but he was taking his time. Somehow you knew this was not exactly the same guy who'd had the names all over his door. This guy was a better version. It felt like he was being better for you.
When your head tipped back, his lips found your neck, sucking and teasing you. Even though you tried to stop, you found yourself grinding your hips against him. He was already starting to get hard, and you knew you were already wet. One of his hands slid down to your butt, slowing your movement.Â
"Don't rush this. I want to spend the whole night making my smart girl stupid," he told you, and your body shook.Â
"Fuck," you said, nodding and agreeing with him as both of his hands went to the front of your jeans. He smirked as you steadied yourself with his shoulders.
"One word response. Starting to sound dumb already, baby," he said, teasing your lips with his as he dipped his fingers inside your open zipper.Â
You could only moan in response as he slid both hands up your body and pulled your shirt over your head. He stared at you like you were beautiful, stroking his hands over all of your newly exposed skin. You expected him to want to fuck you quickly and then get back to the party, but things were never as they seemed with him.
Then his breath hitched as he ran his knuckles along your ribs on your right side, just below your bra.Â
"You have a tattoo," he growled, immediately dipping his head down to kiss you there. "What does it mean?" he asked, running his tongue along your skin and making you cry out.Â
"Oh! It's a math equation. Called Euler's Identity," you gasped as he nipped and bit you. "It contains the most important mathematical constants making it the only perfect formula in science," you managed to say with a shaky voice. Because now Bradley was on his knees in front of you, unhooking your bra and sliding it down your arms.
"It sure does look perfect," he told you. He kissed your tattoo again before looking up at your chest and your face. "Never seen anything better." He ran the tip of his nose along the underside of your breast, his fingers never leaving the ink on your flesh. His mouth was all over you, kissing and sucking, leaving your wet nipples exposed to the cool air.Â
"I should have known you'd have a sexy math tattoo next to your tits," he said, scooping you up as he stood. "You're too fucking good to be true."Â
You squealed in his arms as he walked across the room. "It's really more of a natural sciences tattoo, if you want to nitpick," you told him with a giggle, as he dropped you onto his bed and pulled his own shirt off. His body was gorgeous.
"Oh no..." he said, shaking his head at you as you scooted back to rest against his pillows, and he yanked your shoes off. "You're sounding too smart again. I must not be doing a very good job."Â
You tried not to smile, but it was useless. "What are you going to do about it?" you asked, your voice shaking with need as he settled himself between your legs and stretched out over your body.Â
"This." He pressed his lips to yours, tipping your chin up for better access to your mouth. Then he gently pinched your chin, easing your mouth open so his tongue could meet yours. He felt warm and slippery as he explored your mouth. When he licked your open lips, you whined, grinding your hips up again and clenching around nothing.Â
"And this." He caressed your tattoo and palmed your breast with his big hand before letting his fingers trail down your body and dip into the elastic of your underwear. He slipped his fingers lower, moaning into your mouth as he eased one digit over your clit and through your wetness.Â
You were going crazy now. Making unnatural little noises and pulling his hair with your hands. He knew he was making you stupid, and he was looking at you like he loved it.
But he didn't know that your orgasm in the library was the best sex of your life. He didn't know that you'd never been able to cum with any other guy before. He didn't know how much you liked him.Â
"How does that feel, Sugar?" he asked, swirling his fingers along your clit just like you did to yourself when you were alone.Â
"Good," you moaned, shaking your head against the pillow.
"What do you want?" He licked your breasts before pulling your nipple between his lips and teasing.
"More," you whined. "You."
He grinned. "Back to one word answers, I see."
He moved so gracefully, sliding your jeans and underwear off and settling between your legs. When he slid a finger along your slit and pressed his knuckle against your pussy, you almost couldn't stand how good it felt. "Bradley," you whined, as he kissed your hips and your belly. Then he slipped his finger into your pussy.
You watched him watching you, and he looked delighted every time your body involuntarily squirmed. He added a second finger, moving them just the right way to get you worked up. When his thumb brushed you again, your back arched off the bed.Â
"Fuck," he muttered, working his fingers as he guided his body back over yours. "You're making me crazy," he groaned before kissing along your tattoo again. You wrapped your fingers around his wavy hair and watched his tongue glide across your chest. "Do you want me, Sugar?" he asked softly. "Can I have you?"Â
"Yes."
When he gently removed his fingers from inside you and licked them clean, you moaned and squeezed your thighs together. He was immediately off the bed, and you gasped, missing his warmth and weight immediately. "Where are you going?" you whined, propping yourself up.Â
"Need to get a condom," he replied, eyes on you as his hands shook opening a new box. "I'm coming back."
When he returned to the bed, you sat up and unbuttoned his jeans. He let you take your time guiding them down his hips and easing his boxers down as well. When you say how big and hard he was, your eyes darted up to his face. You licked your parted lips and he groaned so loudly you squeaked.Â
"You're huge," you told him. He was going to hurt you. The other guys hadn't been this big. Â
He must have heard the apprehension in your voice, because he told you, "We can stop," even as he was practically panting.Â
You wrapped your fingers around him and gently squeezed his velvety warmth. "No. Just go slow?" you asked, running your fingers along his length.Â
"Anything you want," he gasped.
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Bradley had never been this excited in his life. He wanted you, and you wanted him back. He'd tasted you. He knew how good your skin felt. Now he was about to fuck you.Â
He was completely sober, and delighted that he would remember all of this. He had never seen anything as gorgeous as your body bathed in lamplight.Â
You were whining his name as he rolled the condom on and got himself ready. He kissed your lips and cheeks, running his nose against yours until you were smiling. Then he whispered, "Sugar," against your lips as he pushed himself inside you.
Your lips were parted and your cheeks were flushed as you grasped his hair tightly with one hand and wrapped the fingers of your other hand in his sheets. He didn't dare move for a few seconds as you got used to the feel of him. You were so wet and tight and perfect, Bradley kind of wished he could just stay inside you like this. But then he started moving, and his own need was building. A few minutes of this and he could tell by the way you were responding to him that you were already close. He'd worked you up and now he wanted to be good for you. He needed to be so good for you so you would stay with him.Â
So he worked his hips a little faster, filling you all the way and then easing himself out a few inches before filling you again. "Oh God," he grunted next to your ear. Your eyes were squeezed shut, your chest rising with each whimpering breath you took. "You're such a good girl," he told you, moving nice and steady. "Look at me."
Your eyes fluttered open, bright and trusting as he caressed your breasts with his right hand. Moaning louder now, you raised your hips to meet each of his thrusts. "You feel so good," you whispered, voice hitching on the last word. Bradley pressed his lips to yours, kissing you and inhaling all of your little gasps. He pushed his hand lower to tease you, and soon you were shaking beneath him, squeezing his cock with your tight little pussy until he was grunting.Â
"Oh my God," you whined, shaking your head and pulling his hair as you came. Bradley pressed his lips to your tattoo and whispered your name as his last thrusts drove his own orgasm home.Â
He was never going to stop touching you. Every inch of your skin that he kissed and caressed was like silk. As he pressed his lips all over your shoulder and collarbone, your grip on his hair started to loosen, and your breathing evened out.
When he started to move, you grabbed onto him, holding him against you. So he wrapped his arms around you and stayed inside you, afraid to speak and break the spell.Â
Finally, you kissed his forehead and giggled softly. "I can't believe this was better than the library."
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Beer Boy and Sugar.... oh man, they are sweet together.
Big thanks to @mak-32 for helping me along the way. This one's for you, Mak.
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Aaron Minyard is a dick yes but heâs a dick because heâs a scared ex-addict kid whoâs desperately clawing at anything he can to be ânormalâ and not a Foxâ˘.
Date the sweet cheerleader who also wants to be a doctor, get the 4.0 gpa, become a surgeon, Stay Away From The Foxes because association means heâs damaged and heâs Not Damaged anymore and definitely donât talk to the therapist because that means he needs help which he Does Not Need. Keep the appearance of the ânormal Minyardâ.
He grew up in an abusive home with an addict mother who made him into an addict. Keeping up the normal appearance has been the name of the game his entire life, itâs second nature. Donât let anyone suspect anything. Being apart of the Foxes comes with a reputation and that scares Aaron, it threatens a rickety appearance heâs oh so carefully built to protect himself from others (and mostly himself tbh).
Being an asshole and outwardly a dick is his trauma response. Itâs the result of his refusal to process and come to terms with his past. Heâs a dick to others because heâs the biggest dick to himself.
(Me personally, I also think his homophobia comes from a place of internalized shame and homophobia. Once again, he grew up with it drilled into him that he Needs to be ânormalâ and put together and I assume he probably also grew up religious ((his uncles a homophobic pastor who boarder line hates his own son)). Aaron grew up seeing how Nicky was treated for being openly gay. If he started having any thoughts about being anything other than straight, his first response would be anger and shame thatâs expressed outwardly.)
His response to his internal shame and anger is to lash outwards at others rather than process it. (which isnât an excuse, I just donât think heâs an asshole because heâs an asshole at his core but because he carries a lot of shame.)
I think him rooming with Matt is what would really help him improve his ability to process his shit. (Along with more joint therapy with Bee and Andrew). Seeing Matt, another ex addict, who is fiercely kind and protective of the Foxes, whoâs unashamed of his past and how it affects him now would be an eye opener for Aaron. His past doesnât define him but itâs not something he can deny either.
Matt helps him see the Foxes as a group who has overcome their struggles. Who are helping eachother continue to over come their struggles. And he slowly starts to realize he can let them in and he can accept his past and still be successful and have the life he wants. And start to process and change the way he reacts the way he does.
(And process his not straight thoughts bc bi Aaron is real in my heart)
#this is my Aaron Minyard trauma response think piece#I think about him all the time#heâs just a guy with a lot of trauma give him a chance#he is so dear to me#aftg aaron#all for the game#aaron minyard#the foxhole court#aftg#andrew minyard#matt boyd#I will do anything to protect him
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Hi, Iâm struggling with using manifestation to improve my grades. Iâm a high school student in the U.S., and last semester, I failed Algebra 2 đŹ (I know, I knowâyikes!). Honestly, I think part of the problem was the teacher. Math has always been a tough subject for me; I havenât done great in my previous high school math classes either.
That said, Iâm determined to turn things around. My ultimate goal is to achieve a 4.0 unweighted GPA and rank #1 in my class.
Heyyy I would love to give you the best advice possible xx!
First letâs look at you beliefs: (the ones Iâve picked up on and if thereâs more be sure to deal with em)
- you struggle with manifestation around improving grades
- you failed algebra 2
- you have a bad math teacher
- maths always been a tough subject for you
Youâve been manifesting and persisting in the fact you have bad grades perfectly!! Now I need to to persist the oppositeâŚ
- manifesting good grades is super easy for you
- you passed Algebra 2 with flying colours
- your math teacher is so perfect for your learning style itâs honestly crazy
- math has always been that subject that just clicks for you
- your the best mathematician in your school and even graduated with a 4.0 unweighted GPA
Now do you see how natural & simple manifestation is? Youâve been manifesting bad grades without even realising it! Anyways I would advise incorporating these new beliefs into your day to day life until it feels natural and like you donât even need to affirm (I suggest saturation sessions and if you donât know what that is go to Taylor tookes on YouTube and she has a vid on it). You could do this a couple ways whether that be affirmations or visualisation, which you repeat during saturation sessions or when opposing thoughts come up. Just remember you donât need any of this, you just need to accept it as true but if you having trouble accepting it thatâs when affirmations and visualisation can come in handy!
I know you can do this my luv have fun and can I just say how amazed I am by your math skills? Like seriously wow⌠đ¤Š
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Hi! Iâm a big fan of the great pictures u post/reblog and your clear passion for animals :) As an incoming law student I havenât seen many other law students who have such full lives / take part in so many non-academic or career related activites outside of school. I would love to emulate a somewhat similar lifestyle once I begin law school, would you be willing to share about how you manage your time to maintain such a balance? Have a great day! â¤ď¸
Aww thank you! There are a variety of factors, some related to my personality and others are just how my fate turned out.
Personality wise, I'm extremely introverted and prefer being alone most of the time. I'm not in a relationship, so I have more time to myself. I also only go out with friends like once a month during the school semesters, if that. Finally, I don't have a TV or many other technology distractions, which forces me to turn to my hobbies more when I'm bored.
Then I was very fortunate because I got accepted to my law school with a full scholarship (I had a 3.9 something undergrad GPA and 165 LSAT score). Less lucky is that my dad passed away a few years back. It was a horrible time for me, but I do acknowledge that I was luckier than some people in the same situation because I inherited a house, and used the extra money from selling my brother's during the COVID real estate boom to get an apartment really close to my campus (his house was more valuable than mine so I got some of the difference in value to make things more fair). These two things have taken a ton of financial pressure off me. I still have to work, but not insane amounts to pay off debt.
For whatever reason, I also just learn really well with standard teaching methods, and I'm a good test taker. I don't bring a laptop to class, and writing notes by hand has been shown in studies to improve memory retention. So to be honest I don't spend too much time studying and still manage to do good.
I know I post a lot about reselling, but that's not my main job. My main jobs are tutoring and babysitting. For tutoring, I make $60-$80 per session, so it's not minimum wage and I don't have to do it for hours everyday. Then for babysitting, I work for doctors/nurses/other people that need late late night shifts. These shifts pay more, and the kids are mostly sleeping when I'm there, so I'm able to do my readings and case briefings at work most week.
My current internship writing policy suggestions for a nonprofit is remote and has a flexible schedule, so I usually do that work late at night as well.
My sleep schedule is trash and tbh I don't sleep enough. But I get things done! Lol.
Also, I can't emphasize this enough, try not to commute to school from far away! Try to live nearby. So many of my classmates commute from NYC and I feel terrible for them. Many have told me that they initially planned to do homework on the train/subway, but the reality is they usually can't because of distractions or lack of a seat.
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