#i need structure

[lover-of-mine]

Buddie in Every Episode:

2x01 - “Under Pressure”

[xoxoemynn]

omg you watched kevin can f**k himself! I was obsessed with that show when it was airing, definitely due for a rewatch. what did you think? the breaking of the sitcom with allison and kevin in the last episode has stuck with me since I saw it almost 2 years ago

YEAH IT WAS SO FUCKING GOOD. I've wanted to watch it for years but was too lazy to figure out how to and now it's on Netflix so there's that issue sorted!

I wanted to take my time watching and ended up binging it because I could.not.stop. so I know I missed things and I want to go back and rewatch, but I also want to let it simmer a minute.

Going to put some incoherent ramblings behind a cut just to be safe for spoilers (and yes I know it's been years but I know a lot of people are just hearing about it for the first time now that it's on Netflix).

The last 15 mins of the show HAUNT me. I had a feeling that was coming but actually SEEING it was terrifying. We all KNEW this was Kevin, we all KNEW the sitcom filter was obscuring how abusive his behavior was, but when we actually see him the way he REALLY is and how everything about him changes, it's just HORRIFYING. And it puts everything we just watched into a new perspective because the way he corners her, his tone when he asks her what she said to Molly, when he starts listing off things that happened in the show that even knowing all along that he was a narcissistic, abusive asshole you still might be tempted to think "oh, maybe he's just clueless to the fact he's being awful" and you realize no, he was AWARE and he knew exACTLY what he was doing to control Allison and keep her down...literally I cannot get that scene out of my head.

And then looking back on the series as a whole...

Just how JARRING the contrast was between the sitcom world and the real world? And how it faded away so slowly you almost don't even notice it at first until you get closer to the end of the series and you're mostly in the real world? How the sitcom filter obscures the bandages Allison wears. How dingy the house looks when it fades. How the women's appearances change, looking cute and put together in the sitcom world but in the real world we see Allison's roots are showing and her clothing is in worse condition and Patty's hair looks less TV ready despite being a stylist. How we start to see all the characters differently once Kevin begins to lose his grip on them. How we never actually see Pete in the real world?!

One thing the show does really well, and a reason why I'm so eager to rewatch it, is not outright revealing everything that's happening. Allison wears long sleeves for most of the show; when we see her in a hospital gown there are bruises on her arm that are never commented on. We'd never had any reason to suspect Kevin's abuse was physical, but especially after seeing the finale, I think it's fair to believe that. And then you look back on all the other times Kevin "accidentally" hurt Allison, like the time he slams the door into her face and we see her simply cover it up with makeup... yeah.

Just all the LAYERS to the show. Analyzing it from the lens of how sitcoms treat women, the wives in particular, who are shown as humorless, nagging shrews who are just expected to put up with their husbands who act like children and are engaging in all kinds of antics to the delight of a laugh track that would be horrifying in real life. (And the fact they brought in the actress whose character was killed off in between seasons of Kevin Can Wait and then barely spoken of again was a BRILLIANT bit of meta commentary.)

But then also what it's like to be in an abusive relationship with a narcissistic, charismatic alcoholic, and how isolating and desperate it can feel when nobody sees what you see, nobody understands what you're experiencing, because everyone else is content to live in this world where he's the goofy life of the party. And at the beginning you may be going "okay, girl, just LEAVE," but then as you learn more and more about just how controlling Kevin is, and what he's capable of, and also Allison's own childhood, you start to see why she was SO desperate she'd go so far as to fake her own death because she thinks it's the only way she can ever escape him.

It's just so. good. And intense. I wish they had gotten one more season because while the ending was brilliant, I felt like some parts in S2 were a bit rushed, particularly with Neil, but it was just SUCH compelling TV and I cannot get it out of my head.

[snezus-christ-risen]

Inquiry: Where to find sneezetember prompts?

[harryforvogue]

people who make spontaneous trips scare me like what do you mean you didn't stay up the night before planning down to every single half hour for what you're going to do, where you're going to eat, and how much time you're spending at each place???????

[riddler-apologist]

had an autistic meltdown while hanging out with my friends who are all NT. slamming my head against the wall /j

[plumpatch]

really don't know what i'll do when i graduate. it'll feel a bit silly to take my study abroad class after the ceremony. and then i come back from kyoto and? then what?

[itsbrucey]

Big fan of sun motifs in characters not necessarily being about positivity and happiness and how they're so " bright and warm" but instead being about fucking brutal they are.

Radiant. A FORCE of nature that will turn you to ash. That warmth that burns so hot it feels like ice. Piercing yellow and red and white. A character being a Sun because you cannot challenge a Sun without burning alive or taking everything down with them if victorious.

[bugthingsdaily]

today's bug thing is the bug carousel at the Bronx Zoo!

[chiarrara]

my class ended and now time means nothing to me. i am unstuck in time like kilgore trout. someone please get me some adderall im losing it over here

[ellies-enrichment]

excellent news i know what to do for day 2 now but idk how i'll execute it

[koushuwu]

“i’m gonna go back to sleep.” “i’ve set an alarm for 11am.”. yeah, well maybe you shouldn’t go and check your phone at 8am then, bitch (me). i know i can’t fall back asleep when i’ve on the phone for more than 10 minutes, bro. and here i am one hour later. guess i should just get up then

[yellowsubiesdance]

i’m actually worn out from all the social events, i am legit excited to start my classes

[spoopdeedoop]

when the duo has bees

[harryforvogue]

Hi Sarah I wanted some writing advice ! How do you go about outlining the events of a fic? I have no idea what I really want to happen in the beginning, middle, and end of this fic and wanted to know what your writing process usually consists of! xo

hiiii so basically

i start with a scene i REAAAAAALLY wanna write, which is usually the climax or the resolution, oddly enough. and i frame scenes around it

i do kind of like a comic strip version of a story first. this then this then this and finally this!

and the in between stuff is filled in with dialogue, setting changes, new characters intro, etc. that’s where the GOOD stuff is.

the beginning for me is always hard. i write at least 5/6 first chapters before deciding on the final one. endings are easier to write. and the middle is relatively easy too IF you have it outlined.

i think you need to have at least a vague comic strip version of your “story” including the plot. and then add in the little stuff that makes your story come to life AFTER. because in the end when you’re telling your story’s synopsis to someone, you’re going to refer back to the comic strip graphic yknow??

for example, i’m in the outlining stage. every few days, i add in the tiny details in between the Big things. i know that this is the beginning, and this is the issue, and this is how it’s resolved.

hope this helps!

[speaknowslut13]

How does one make new friends in their 30s? Is there like a BFF dating app? Do I swipe right? Do I go through a bunch and become cynical before either giving up or finding the one? Do I hope someone sets me up on a blind friend date? Do I hope a stranger asks me for my number so we can be friends? Do I go through a friend-slut phase? Do I have a sleazy-friend summer???

Or is it like….over?? 😅 Do I just kinda not care? Do I even want to??? God I’m glad I’m back in therapy.

[uncanny-tranny]

Amatonormativity has destroyed so many people's understanding and acceptance of themselves, and it's heartbreaking.

Yes, it is normal to be in your 20s, 30s, or older and not have lost your virginity, had a first kiss, or a partner. It is normal to say that you aren't ready for those things, too! It is normal if your life doesn't follow the "college graduate -> engagement -> buying a home -> 2.5 kids and a dog" trajectory that so many people have idealized.

So many people associate maturity with losing your virginity, or having a first kiss, or a serious relationship, and I think that's a dangerous association. Maturity isn't gained through those things, and you don't have to have those experiences to be considered "mature" or "grown." It is not a bad thing to go at your pace. Nobody else can live your life but you. If you end up having those experiences, that's great! But it should be done because you want to experience them, not because you feel "broken" and "immature" without them.