#i need comfort sometimes and i dont have the skill level to do so

[doodleloopsy]

it is so not fair....that's I don't know how to draw male bodies and masculine features correctly.....when I have tHAT MANY CHARACTER X PERSONA THINGS IN MY HEAD. I NEED TO SEE THEM ON PAPER. I WANT TO LOOK AT IT. NOT DISGRACE MY FAVORITE CHARACTERS WITH MY MEDIOCRITY. HELP. FR IM ASKING FOR ANY AND EVERY LICK OF HELP I CAN GET. THIS SACRILEGE SHALL NOT GO ON ANY LONGER.

I wanna be able to touch my thoughts and it's not working. how do I download the "draw men right" software into my hands? what's the update? me wants it. me needs it.

[kingshovelbug]

forrest!! SOS!! i have no good food to eat!! ik u can cook so can u tell us some yummy recipes?

oh god i feel like senshi because im so so very late to this ask because ive been in a slump with cooking myself and youve definitely eaten by now. BUT i have a few that i make either when i want comfort food that still checks some boxes of being kind of nutritious or that are just fast

i. spam musubi but its not actually

spam musubi are these awesome hand held things. sometimes they have egg sometimes they dont but i will eat a whole can worth in one go. so i do it as a bowl instead

i start jasmine rice in our rice cooker and chop the spam into cubes vs slices like it would be for musubi. fry them on medium high until theyre crispy. then ill julienne an onion and add it to the spam. once the onion is starting to soften ill add the sauce. the recipe i saw was 2tbsp soy sauce, 1 tbsp mirin with like a spoon full of sugar (honestly it was probably just under a tbsp) but ive been cheating recently and using a japanese bbq sauce i found at our local asian grocery store. once everything is coated i cook it a few mins so the sauce thickens up. by then the rice should be done and then you just take a scoop of each and i add seaweed on top

i know its not proper but since will doesnt like the sweet savory combo and im the only one eating it this way is easier for me to handle. i can store the rice and spam separately so nothing gets mushy and even refry the spam when i want to heat it back up

ii. black bean, pepper and cheese quesadilla

this is actually how i got will to try beans. i just take a can of black beans and dump the whole thing into a pot and cook on medium until i can smash them. ill also fry peppers and onions on medium until they have a little char. spices are honestly up to you and how spicy you want it. i usually put salt, pepper, cumin, paprika, chili powder and garlic in with the beans. once the beans are mostly smashed and the peppers cooked ill throw them together and smash them more just so everything is easier to spread onto a tortilla. that plus you can add your cheese. ive shredded my own and used grocery store mixes so its up to you!

iii. spicy garlic tofu

almost no notes on this. i use less maple syrup than the recipe calls for so 1tbsp of everything in the sauce. and instead of gochujang i use a chinese chili paste, imo it ends up less ketchup flavored but if you like ketchup then just use gochujang

iv. https://thecookiewriter.com/roasted-mushroom-pot-pie/

i dont make this as often but this is a recipe i use as a base and then cheat. i swap in frozen veggies and it speeds everything up

v. hotpot

i love making hotpot at home. its super easy skill wise it just takes some time. you can buy premixed hot pot bases from the grocery store if you have an asian grocery store near you and you just dunk stuff in the soup until its cooked. you just need to watch out for the spice level of the broth

will and i will usually get thinly sliced beef, rice cakes, udon noodles, fish cakes, bok choy and mushrooms. all you do is bring the broth to a boil and cook your ingredients. sometimes i dunk with chopsticks other times i cook with a small strainer lol

[natsuki-bakery]

⁎˚ ఎ Care Giver Razputin ໒ ˚⁎

Could you do psychonauts Raz cg headcanons? I-If you want that is... you don't have to... (づ_ど)

•As a skilled acrobat and a natural psychic, Raz is used to thinking on his feet and solving problems creatively

•So, he’s quick to come up with fun, imaginative ways to comfort and entertain, like using his telekinesis to make toys float or creating fun psychic games that feel like a mini-adventure !

•Raz’s ability to literally jump into people’s minds makes him deeply empathetic, often understanding others’ emotions and fears on a level most can’t. He’s great at picking up on your needs, even when they’re unspoken, and is always ready to offer comfort through his deep understanding of your mental landscape

•With his training at the Motherlobe and Camp Whispering Rock, Aquato mixes fun and learning effortlessly. He’d turn ordinary moments into training games, like practicing levitation races around the room or using clairvoyance for hide-and-seek

•His caregiving sessions are always full of excitement, learning, and just the right amount of chaos to keep things interesting

•Coming from a family of circus performers, Raz has a talent for storytelling and can weave incredible tales that capture your imagination. He’d often lull them to sleep with thrilling stories of his adventures, full of exaggerated characters and dramatic psychic battles, adding a cozy, familiar flair to each bedtime

•Encouraging Bravery and Exploration : Raz believes in facing fears head-on and encourages you to be brave in your own way. Whether it’s trying a new food, drawing your feelings, or just being okay with expressing emotions, Raz always frames it as a small, brave adventure. He celebrates even the smallest victories like they’re monumental achievements < 3

•Despite his adventurous spirit, Raz is patient and knows how to stay calm when things go sideways. He’s experienced enough mindscapes to understand that sometimes, patience and a gentle approach are the best tools. He’s always there with a reassuring smile, a steady hand, and a reminder that it’s okay to feel overwhelmed or scared

•Raz is mindful of respecting personal space, especially since his powers can easily overstep boundaries. He ensures that you feel comfortable and safe, asking for permission before using his psychic abilities to assist you, teaching you that your comfort always comes first

•Raz’s playful nature means he’s never short on ways to make things fun, even during tough moments. He’d animate objects to dance, pull silly faces with telekinesis, or just be a goofball when you need a smile. For Raz, caregiving is about turning the ordinary into something extraordinary

•Aquato knows the importance of having a safe mental and physical space. He’d create cozy little hideouts or blanket forts that mimic the comfort of a calm mindscape, filled with soft lighting and fun decorations. It’s his way of providing a little sanctuary where you can feel secure, no matter what’s going on outside

If you're in the basic criteria , are DSMP fans, vivziep0p fans , h0tel/h3lluva b0ss fans, Owl h0use fans, St4r butterfly fans, Ghibli fans, ddlg/abdl blogs, nsfw/k!nk blogs, anti-agere blogs, or anti Christians/Christianity blogs : just dont interact !

[txttletale]

I love reading your thoughts and writings on everything--even when I don't agree with a particular stance, your thinking is so insightful and gives me a lot to grapple with. Do you have any advice for cultivating one's own ability to think critically and deeply? And any suggestions for theory or readings that you've found helpful for this? Thank you so much! 💕

ty!! i'm glad to hear it--i do try my best to be clear about what i believe & why as much as possible so it's nice to hear that i'm succeeding (esp. because i think marxist-leninists tend to be v. v. bad at this)

honestly i only have two pieces of advice which is 1. read as much as you're comfortably able, and 2. never take any preconception you have for granted. like, for me i think this started when i started doing my undergrad and realised 'oh wow newspapers just straight up lie about shit all the time'--from that point on whenever i encounter something that challenges my notions of something i actively try to drill down 'okay, on what grounds do i think this? what basic premises do i believe that lead me to think this, and what's the logical line between them?' sometimes you will be able to answer very easily--but sometimes you will run into a question mark, a missing stair, and from there you can explore the topic more deeply and come to a different position in a v. fruitful way!

it's helpful to have someone to talk out these things with, or even just to write them down into the void. start a blog (or if you dont want strangers getting mad at your thoughts) a journal. might feel silly but i guarantee that trying to explain your positions, even if it's to nobody at all, is one of the best ways to make yourself meaningfully grapple with them.

i also recommend trying to familiarize yourself with some theoretical lenses--not that you should immediately adopt one wholesale, but you should familiarize yourself with the bases of some models of how the world works, so that you can follow different trains of logic & evaluate different explanations for positions before discarding them. this isn't vital for the project of interrogating your own positions, but it provides a structured & easier way to do it than just kind of trying to blindly fumble through your own ideas.

(& obviously make sure you don't fall into any of the like, classic failure modes of being self-critical of becoming, like, a neocatholic trying to find penance and atone for all the Secret Bigotry in your heart or so on. i have never done this or anything like this but i feel the need to say this just bc i do see people on this web site especially be prone to this kind of thing and want to be clear that like assigning a level of moral guilt to having flawed presumptions and challenging them for yourself is self-destructive & not useful to anybody)

good luck, & remember that critical thinking is a skill like any other that requires development and practice, not a moral virtue or an inherent trait of the chosen few

[tauforged]

do you have any tips for someone who wants to get into warframe for the first time?

- don’t start with the duviri/drifter quest when given the option. it’s cool, don’t get me wrong, but it will be very confusing and you won’t revisit any of the stuff that’s touched upon until way way later in the game. start off in the origin system, the story progresses a lot more naturally from that start point. i don’t really know why they made this an option.

- you dont HAVE to buy platinum. they start you off with like 50 i think? it’s not necessary for anything aside from buying additional warframe/weapon slots. everything else is cosmetic or optional. you can get mroe plat later on by trading with other players (if you do want to buy plat for cosmetics or whatever, i recommend waiting until you get a discount as your daily login bonus. iirc they range from 25, 50, or 75% off. they’re pretty much entirely random though so don’t feel obligated to use one if you do get it and don’t need plat at the moment so it goes to waste. you’ll get another)

- even if you decide you don’t like a weapon you end up crafting, you’ll be better off if you level it up to the maximum rank (30) before selling it rather than trashing it outright, that way you won’t have to go back and get it again later on in the game in order to complete it. the more stuff you level in full, the faster you progress through mastery ranks, and some stuff is mastery rank locked so you’re gonna wanna pay attention to your progress.

- you’re gonna wanna join a clan as soon as possible. you can find some via the recruiting channel, or probably by asking around on social media, idk. i started my own (not recommended unless you’ve got a group of friends you can rally or feel like recruiting to fill out your ranks in order to actually get stuff done) so i don’t really know what the clan recruiting scene looks like. having access to a clan dojo makes life a lot easier (and can make finding people to play with less of a hassle too)

- the story itself doesn’t really pick up steam until you start the ‘natah’ quest. in between the start and there, you’ll mostly be doing a lot of running around trying to familiarize yourself with the setting and playing catch-up. don’t worry too much about all the stuff they throw at you all at once. almost all the quests are replayable through your codex if you ever want to refresh your memory, and for those that aren’t, the wiki is… usually a pretty decent source as far as summaries go. i’d take it with a grain of salt though.

- this one especially tripped my sister up so i’m gonna touch on it: you’re going to be required to do the ‘heart of deimos’ quest in order to progress past mars on the star chart. IMHO, this quest REALLY should not be mandatory so early on in the game — you aren’t going to be able to make heads or tails of anything anyone is telling you. don’t be afraid to breeze thru it w/o paying much attention and circle back around later in the game, preferably sometime after you finish the war within or at LEAST the second dream. i genuinely don’t know why they’re throwing baby tenno to the wolves on this one. just know it’ll all make sense later i prommy

- don’t worry too much about the open world areas like the orb vallis, the plains of eidolon, or the cambion drift at first. they’re very cool (and you’ll be introduced to them via their respective quests) but they can be overwhelming to new players and the difficulty spike might be frustrating, especially before you’ve unlocked a majority of the tools available to you.

- this game has been ongoing for over ten years at this point - there’s a LOT going on. take your time progressing at a comfortable pace. don’t be afraid to ask around for help if you’re stuck on something or getting frustrated trying to farm a specific part or material.

- if people try to talk down on you for being a lower mastery rank or w/e they’re literally just being an asshole. MR isn’t indicative of skill so much as it is a representation of how much gear you’ve leveled, which is basically just an indicator of how much time you’ve spent playing - a chimp smacking a keyboard can feasibly hit legendary after enough attempts. you’re fine. hell, i’ve been here since 2013 and i’m only MR 19 LMAO

- the ‘meta’ for this game is wildly subjective due to the vast customizability of builds. take everyone’s opinions with several grains of salt and don’t be afraid to experiment on your own to see what works for you

- dont read general chat. it’s not worth it. nobody in there is as funny as they think they are

- the most important part of being a tenno is having fun and being yourself :)

[aircommndr]

Mun Vs. Muse

Similarities: dont hate me

Pride. Im sorry I am a prideful mofo and I have to keep in check otherwise i get myself into some pretty wack scenarios

Humor. I am creative with my witty comebacks which got me in a LOT of trouble growing up. I will let you know if i dont like you and ill be very vocal about it. were also both very sassy lol

we love ourselves some revenge if we deem it needed <3 def a fighter more than "lover". We also both have been involved in activism for a number of problems in our societies.

That "wont give up / wont give in" attitude. Im stuck currently at a job i absolutely HATE just because i wanna prove to my bosses that i AM capable and that I CAN do what any other manager can. I had 0 training for my position and the cards were stacked against me but guess whos still in their role a year later? This fool. I really do need to step down tho like plz i need a break LOL

On a similar note, admitting when I failed. Me and starscream are the WORST at that. We just. cant do it. nor can we admit when we're sinking / need help

Little shit syndrome. Im sorry but I can be an ass LOL. I have a very poor filter (which,, is partly due to my autism and poor skills at recognizing how to communicate with people) but i enjoy messing with people (playfully! unless i actually hate u but ye)

Similar vocal range! more so for g1 but certain other continuities. my voice is very neutral sounding, and im a bit scratchy/nasally! I also have a lot of vocal stims that are loud and noisy and often include screaming!

Delusions of Grandeur. Me and star both suffer from that and feel that there MUST be something important about us but also feel like we are inadequate. Kinda paradoxically

Me and Starscream both have Autism! As well as Psychosis! I struggle with hallucinations (both visual abd audible)

We are both prone to self sabotaging, as well as other poor coping skills we share

We both struggle with abandonment issues, and our major way of dealing with it is to cut ties / not make ties in the first place for fear of being hurt

Abuse survivors,, similar traumas

kinda off topic but i LOVE planes. Ive been flying on planes by myself since I was literally 4 years old ,, so planes are a comfort

we both struggle to accept help, affection, or kind words / praise without feeling like its a trap or something, and we just arent used to it. Touch is vvv iffy with us

....we got some similar kinks whoops

Differences:

I hate to disappoint all of you but I do not, in fact, turn into a jet (big sad)

Height difference. Hes a big ass bot, im barely 5'1

I am also not a robot (again sorry)

Not a war vet LMAO

im an asshole but not exactly on the same level as this fool

while i struggle with empathy sometimes due to mental disorders/trauma, i have way more than he tends to lol

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Tagging: @warriorsparked , @13urningstars , @rifleseye , @virtute-praeditum , @dontpetmeibite , @dynamoprotocol anyone else who wants to!

[grumpypampkinn]

Its been months since I used tumblr, i think my few mutuals arent here anymore as well. But i need to vent about something i cant talk about to my friends, and i out of therapy at the moment, so... I came here knowimg no ones answering. I think my situation is very... very specific and no one who doesnt identify themselves the way i do wont understand at all, and i dont want advices that dont fit mem if i even want advices... so i am speaking to the walls here.

I am in the aromantic and asexual spectrum. I dont feel sexual attraction at all, and i can fall in love but is veeery rare, maybe sometimes. Being comfortable and trustful of someone is what usualy would put me in a relationship. I dont want to date or have sex, but i would love to. If thats make sense... to me it does.

The thing is... I been in love these days. With two different people. Which is even more surprising and hard to manege for me. So i am trying to rationalize it, since, for many reasons, feeling it is not an skill of mine.

Both of them are my friends, on different levels of intimacy - obviously, i could never have a crush someone i just met or something.

The first one is a friend who I crused at 2020/2021 I think, at the time i did exactly the same thing as now, i thought about it, trying to be racional, i made spreadsheets and graphs of my feelings and thoughts and understood that I was more hyperfixated than in love. At that time I had someone i could talk about to. Yet, i have been feeling that again, in a different way. I know, for a few reasons, that its one sided, even though sometimes I look for and believe a little in signs that it isn't. But once again, I dont want to date them, but would love to.

The other one is a bit different... I am in the stage of concluding it is an hyperfixation, that I'm projecting internal feelings and stuff, basically because I'm a person who needs constant validation and this person makes me feel validated, and as a result I want more of that… but I don't think I want to date or would even like to date this person. I just think about them too much. The tricky part is that for some valid reasons the fact of just thinking of this person on this light feels terrible wrong, even if it isnt, so i have no one to talk to.

I don't want to be judged or encouraged about these feelings… I just wanted to get them out. I dont know how to end this story. Bye.

[nahalism]

I also feel hyperfocused in my role of the situations that happen in my life. But what do you do when you attract the same person, and when i say the same person, i mean that the situation with that person always ends the same way. I get to know them, we have a great time together, then they exhibit that loss of interest by not planning things together/ responding to texts late, i get sad and start stalking them to find out they have whole ass girlfriends. I sometimes wonder that my stalking skills should be used for something greater because im aware these men aint shit. But How does One particularly Break This Pattern??. I am not the type to ask for closure because I dont believe in that. I do not want to get lied to

so this is loaded and im going to unpack it in two layers because i feel like there are two things at play here

– firstly im not an advocate of men being trash, not even in a tongue in cheek way. yes people do fucked up things, but it goes both ways. usually its our ability to pick a partner thats at fault, not the pool of people we're picking from. there are plenty of good people in this world. of course there are bad too, but who you gravitate toward says more about where you currently are in your life, than it does about the person you chose. – when it comes to attracting the same person, if you believe in the law of correspondence, then that individual is merely a reflection of something operating within you. that likeness you both share may be something within you thats overt (your aware of) or covert (your unaware of), we'd have to talk more to unpack it fully, but at some fundamental level you are both a match for eachother. – sometimes its that you crave love but only know how to recognise affection in unavailable/deceptive/'insert harmful quality here' people. sometimes it can be that you are so in denial about your own desire for love that you give off an air of nonchalance and unavailability that repels who you're trying to attract. – the process i personally undergo to help me in this regard is that in between situations that go wrong, i take breaks from introducing any one new to my life (romantically) and i do the healing. i dont just mean heal from the disappointment experienced as a direct consequence of that situation not going as id hoped/planned for. i mean getting down to the root cause of what in me is attracted to these individuals, what in me accepts their behaviour or allows me to be blind to their behaviour, and then addressing what happened to me in my formative years that taught me this blue print of being. once im clear on why this cycle or pattern is playing out for me and how the root of it exists within me, i then begin to look at who i want to be instead of who i have been being. it takes a lot of work and acceptance of the fact that im going to make mistakes, and need to have grace for myself when i do. it also comes with knowing i will lose and gain people, things, and positions in life as i embark on that journey. in order to become something new what i was has to die, and so i have to be willing to let go and put parameters in place for what i will and wont accept in the process of that.

for example, someone who loves me will give me the grace, the mercy, the patience, love and support to grow. people who dont may do any number of things to put me back into the 'shell' of who i was and who they're comfortable with me being. however, i have to accept and commit to who im becoming no matter the cost and trust that what stays or is added to my life is a reflection of that work and its increase in my life, and that whoever leaves or comes to teach me an oftentimes unpleasant lesson, is also blessing me and protecting me with their absence. when that loss feels like rejection or abandonment its important to remember that its actually blessing you, cause i find it can be a huge trigger and make me want to shut off mentally, emotionally and physically and undo all the work ive been doing or question if its actually working. it is. – those boundaries are also necessary because as you become the a fuller version of yourself, you will learn what it looks and feels like to be loved and honoured. that sets the new bar for anyone entering your space for how they treat you, and is how you begin to attract a different type of person that can match your energy and give you what it is you desire from a relationship.

the second and last part to this is a slight read because there is a quote i heard once "your words betray you" and i feel it applies here. its okay to ask for or need closure, and part of that is accepting that sometimes people aren't lying to you. they're trying to give you an answer out of respect or with the intention of doing the right thing, but they actually don't know the answer within themselves (haven't done the work) OR the truth is they just cant give you what you want/need/desire, and were never the person with the capacity to do so. it can be hard to let go of the idea that someone who hurt you and let you down is a villain, and closure can force us into seeing people in a more nuanced light than we are prepared to. this forgiveness work and letting go is tied to what i wrote above, but oftentimes is the last step because you cant forgive what you dont understand and you cant forgive before you are ready to. – i get the sense that your someone who has closed off their desire for love/support from others due to perhaps not having had it when you needed it or from being hurt before, and so now your independence is a shield protecting you from what you feel is the inevitable pain or disappointment on the other side of relationships. if that is the case : 1) check that because you don't want to get yourself into the loop of a fulfilling prophecy. 2) open yourself to the idea that you can open yourself to someone, get hurt, but still survive it and come out with more love to give and receive on the other end. and that 3) when you do the work that allows you to meet the right one for you, it might actually last for your lifetime. and!! that part of what makes it last is multiple conversations where closure and believing that despite their best intentions they hurt you but still want to figure it out is part of it. conflict resolution is harder than walking away or believing that men are full of shit.

<3333 i know that was long but i wrote with as much love and intent as possible because i love you and wanna give you the answer you deserve. if what i said felt harsh, i hope you know it wasnt meant to be mean, + that if i got something wrong but u still wanna talk and reason u can msg me again anytime (both anon or private). sending u infinite blessings

[k0kichiimagines]

Hello! If its alright, may I please have hcs for Korekiyo, Akane, and Taka with an S/O who gets very paranoid and scared at night and has trouble sleeping? Its okay if you dont want to. Thank you so much in advance

of course you may!! <3

- mod kokichi

Korekiyo, Akane & Taka w their s/o who has trouble sleeping

CWs: mentions of anxiety and related topics

Korekiyo :

he'd request for you to answer a series of questions as best you can and are comfortable to, and then take your answers (written in his neat handwriting on paper) to the library with him, going through books of science and herbal teas to find the best techniques. he cooks you meals and teas he's read can help. he tries to distract your fears with giving books to read, or games to play, making the bedroom as comfortable as he can for you with soft sheets, lighting, anything really.

he's not a therapist, but he certainly tries to listen to your fears and help. he speaks to you in his soft voice at night, telling you stories, perhaps even singing now and then. he wants you to feel calm, and he'll stay awake every night until you've fallen asleep in his arms.

Akane :

she sleeps the second her head hits the pillow, letting her energy pile up for her next day of intensive exercise. however the second you mention your troubles she's there to help as best she can.

her first suggestion is to run laps until you tire yourself out, or do some other long exercises. otherwise she'll just ask around or advise you to see others for tips, ready to help you out with any if needbe.

but she mostly focuses on helping you relax. she teaches you some stretches to do before bed. she has experience with so many younger siblings, she would often cheer them up with stories or songs, so she uses her skills now and for you, talking in animated whispers and with bright eyes. she feels satisfied when you sleep with a smile, pulling your body close to her as she sleeps herself.

Taka :

he is insistent on making everything comfortable. he needs to know exact how open or not the window should be, what light level you want, how many blankets and what thickness level, how many pillows, what about any plushie-

you'll have to gently cup his cheeks to get him to stop. and he will. but he'll still ask, just slightly less... insistent. he'll try get you in bed early and at the same time, saying routine will help and that it gives you time to lie in. (he usually doesn't. but sometimes you'll find him there. either that or breakfast waiting with a note on the tray)

he'll try ease any worries you have as best he can, he'll try be very rational about it all but not in a dismissing way. if its no particular fear, just a rising anxiety, he just speaks softly to you, distracting your mind.

[gubler-me-up]

Not That Kind of Tie

Request(s): Pls write me some smutty Hotch if that’s okay w you 🥺

heyy baby, could you write a smut one shot, with aaron hotchner, where he is a dom and the reader is a sub with a lot of degradation and him calling the reader names and just being mean?

if your not comfortable with it, that’s completely fine!! i love your writing and i hope you have a wonderful day xx

A/N: Thank you for the requests, anons! I know I said I would post this on the weekend but I’ve never written a Hotch fic so it was hard to make a concept. Had to take several breaks to ask myself if I was even writing this properly??? Hopefully it’s good and you like it! Idk if I’ll write another Hotch fic tho i dont think is for me unfortunately 🤟🏾😔 but this was a good change of character to write for. I hope you enjoy and happy reading!

Couple: Dom!Hotch/Sub!reader

Category: Smut (NSFW 18+)

Content warning: Penetrative sex, unprotected sex, rough sex, degradation, fingering, spanking, swearing, male ejaculation (in mouth), slight blowjob, slight bondage

Word count: 3k

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You knocked on Hotch’s office door to give him the files you stayed behind to finish up. You had slacked off a bit on your paperwork for Hotch and didn’t want to leave him waiting any longer. You had no idea why he had given you so much paperwork to do but you weren’t upset about it. He liked your work and must have trusted you enough to work diligently on them. Besides, you weren’t mad about spending a few extra hours with Hotch.

“Come in,” Hotch said.

You opened the door. You greeted Hotch with a gentle smile before you walked in. He only peaked up to see who it was before he looked back down to carry on with his work. Typical behaviour for him.

You slowly approached his desk and dropped the files on it, deeply hoping he would look up at you. Something about him simultaneously ignoring you but favouring you enough to keep you around longer than the rest made you curious. You wanted to look into his eyes to see if the answers laid there.

He didn’t look up again. He diligently worked through his own paperwork, not giving you the attention your curiosity craved. However, your curiosity would just have to wait.

You pivoted around to leave his office. You walked towards the door faster than you walked towards his desk. You doubted your speed would cause him to look up. If your slow, eye-catching walk up to his desk didn’t pique his interest, you doubted anything would.

“Y/N.”

You turned around surprised to hear him utter your name. He rarely called you by your first name. It sounded monotone, as usual, but there was something in it that sparked a fire in you. It didn’t sound as if he needed you for any reason in particular. It seemed he just called you to call your name. You turned around to flash a smile his way.

“Yes, sir?” You asked.

“Close the door and take a seat,” he said.

You would have questioned him further but he immediately looked back down at his paperwork to continue filling it out. You didn’t mind his demands since any time in his presence was a good time to you. You were happy to be so close to him in his office even if it was just to hear him talk to you for a few seconds.

You closed the door as he instructed and made your way over to the chair in front of his desk. As soon as you did he looked up at you. There was no-out-of-the-ordinary expression on his face. Then again he was the master of hiding any visible emotions.

“Y/N, I want to talk to you about your work,” he said.

You looked at him worried. It didn’t seem as if he was upset about your work. Then again even when he was upset he sounded calm. However, after working with him for five years you knew him well enough to know he would have addressed any concerns he had earlier. He would never push off talking to you about your work for so long.

“I don’t think that’s what you want to talk about,” you said.

Hotch broke his usual calm, neutral demeanour when you made your bold statement. He raised his eyebrows in surprise at what you had said. You looked at him with a smirk as you shrugged your shoulders.

“I’ve known you for far too long to know you wouldn’t want to talk to me about my paperwork if there was something wrong with it,” you said.

“I don’t want to criticize your work. Your paperwork is always perfect,” he said.

A smile appeared on your face but you quickly pressed your lips together to refrain it. He had praised you for your work before which was always music to your ears. His words had such a way with you. His words could wrap around you like a nice bow or like his hands around your neck. His large, strong hands probably capable of bringing you to your knees.

“Y/N?” He asked.

You blinked twice as you snapped out of your inappropriate thoughts. You were pretty sure the fact you two were the only ones left in the bureau was getting to you. You smiled at him to show him you were all there. With his level of profiling skills, you doubted he believed your mind was on track with the conversation at hand.

“Yes, sir,” you said.

“As I was saying, your paperwork is perfect but sometimes I feel as if your mind wanders other places leaving you to do your paperwork past the end of the day,” he said.

“I’m not distracted. I like staying behind to do my paperwork late,” you said.

“You stay as late as me some nights,” he said.

That was a true fact he stated. You would stay behind as late as he would on some nights to do your paperwork. You both would leave at the same time which meant you got to witness Hotch after hours more than anyone else on the team did. It always felt so intimate between you two whenever you were in the elevator leaving the office.

Every time you two would stand next to each other and talk about whatever came to mind. When your hands brushed against each other, you could feel yourself holding back from holding it. He would never move away from you either. He would stand with high confidence next to you as he talked with fire in his voice. It was hard resisting a man like him.

One time your resistance was at an all-time low. You had to have him. You needed him to indulge in you in depths he never knew you had. He gazed at you a second too long in the elevator once and you leaned towards him. He didn’t move or flinch in the slightest.

He let your lips land on his as you embraced him in a desperate kiss. He grabbed your ass and squeezed it as he indulged in your kiss. It ended as soon as the elevator doors opened but you were hooked. The feeling of his lips, his tongue, his hands. You craved it again.

“Is that an issue? It’s just a preference of mine to get my paperwork out during after-work hours. You know, get to let my hair down and loosen up,” you said.

“I can tell,” he said.

His eyes gazed down at your halfway unbuttoned blouse before they looked back up at you. You hadn’t forgotten you had unbuttoned your blouse. You had gotten hot while working so you unbuttoned it. You were going to button it up before going into his office but you decided to leave it as it was, hoping he’d noticed. You were glad he finally did.

“Are you going to say this goes against dress code?”

“You’re not on the clock, so it doesn’t. Anyway, please don’t make it a habit to stay late so frequently to complete paperwork,” he said.

“I understand, sir. I won’t distract you any further,” you said.

“Distract me?” He asked.

You smirked. “Yeah, your eyes seemed unfocused for a second.”

He stared at you for a second before he shook his head with a small smirk on his face. He looked down at his case file and closed it. You watched as he shuffled all his files together to put them in a pile. You guessed it was time for him to leave the office for the night. However, you weren’t quite ready to go.

“Sorry for inappropriately looking at you. It was unprofessional of me,” he said as he stood up.

“No, it’s okay,” you said as you shot up from your seat.

He raised an eyebrow at your eager ejection from your seat. To say you were excited to be in an elevator again with him was an understatement.

You were curious what would happen if you went just a little further this time. Would he deny you or entice you?

You wanted to know what could happen before you two entered the elevator. You leaned over his desk to get close enough to his tie. You watched him watch you grab it out of where it was tucked behind his suit jacket. He didn’t move or flinch at your touch. He let you carry on.

You looked down at his tie and caressed your thumb on it. Quality silk for a quality man. A flood of thoughts passed by your mind you just had to voice aloud. You looked up at him as you bit your lip.

“Would you use this to tie my hands together?” You asked.

His face almost broke when you said that. He had to press his lips together to hold his smirk back. You could already see past his stone-cold demeanour.

“It’s not that kind of tie,” he said.

You let go of his tie to lean back. You placed your hands out in front of him with your wrists touching. He looked at them long as if you had presented the greatest temptation to him. He then looked back up at you to see the sensuality in your eyes.

“It can be,” you said.

“Y/N-“

“Don’t tell me you’re against punishing me for going against the dress code,” you said.

You said all the words you knew would tempt him to his core. His alpha male personality mixed with his sex drive wouldn’t dare give up the opportunity to punish you for breaking a rule.

“Are you begging?” He asked.

“You could say so. Would you take me more seriously if I begged on my knees?” You asked.

He didn’t answer you. He just stuck his index finger up and twirled it. You understood your cue and turned around. You sat on the edge of his desk with your hands behind you.

No words were exchanged between you two. Just the feeling of his tie wrapping around your wrists and your heart pounding against your chest. You felt the last pull of his tie on your wrists as he tightened it.

“Turn around,” he demanded.

You turned back around to look him directly in his eyes. You could see the full control on his face. His eyes pierced through your core. You enjoyed the way his look could even make you submit. You would have let him fuck you in the elevator but his office would do.

Hotch shoved his thumb in your mouth. He cupped your chin and pulled you close to him. He leaned in close to examine your desperate face. You smirked around his thumb.

“I never knew you’d submit to being a whore so easily. I would have done this sooner if I knew,” he said.

He removed his thumb from your mouth before grabbing you by your face. He pulled you towards him but your face was the only part of you that could reach that far. Your hips hit his desk hard as the top of you was slightly bent forward.

He placed a quick, aggressive kiss on your lips before he pulled away to look at you. You breathed heavily as you stared at him. If his kiss could knock the wind out of you, you were positive you were going to be breathless after what he had planned for you.

He let go of your face to make his way behind you. His hand caressed down your back. It curved over your ass and slipped under your skirt. You yelped as soon as you felt his fingers dig into your skin. He squeezed it even harder when he heard you yelp.

“I thought you were begging to be a whore,” he said as he lifted your skirt.

“I am,” you said.

He spanked your ass. “That’s not begging, whore.”

“Please treat me like a whore,” you begged.

He spanked your ass again. “Beg to be fucked like a whore.”

“Fuck me like a whore,” you begged.

He spanked your ass again. “Again.”

“Fuck me like the whore I am,” you begged.

He spanked your ass one last time before he moved your underwear to the side. You bit your bottom lip in excitement. The area of your ass where he had spanked you stung immensely but it was a little taste of how he’d treat you.

You craved everything he had to offer you. The caress of his hand. The hair pulling. The fucking. You wanted to experience it all. And you would get exactly what you wished for.

He grabbed a bundle of your hair in his hand and pulled you halfway up. His other hand was up to no good between your legs. You moaned aloud as you felt him rapidly flicking your clit.

Your legs started to shake the more he flicked. He then slapped your pussy with a brass harshness. You yelped at the feeling but it wasn’t in a bad way. It sent a shock through you that you had never felt before.

“Why the fuck are you shaking?” He asked.

“Because you’re-“

He cut you off by shoving two fingers in you. He pumped in and out of you with speed as he indulged in the sound of you shrieking. He placed his lips against your ear.

“I don’t want a whore like you to answer. I just need you to take whatever I give you. Understood?” He said.

“Yes,” you shrieked.

“Yes fucking who?” He asked.

“Yes, sir,” you shrieked.

He pulled his fingers out of you. You heard him fumble around with his belt and soon his pants zipper. You gasped when you felt his hard dick hit your ass as it popped out of his underwear.

You couldn’t see it but you knew you were about to take a lot of dick. Your heart raced immensely at the thought of him repeatedly pounding into you. You bit your bottom lip just fantasizing about it.

“Your whore pussy better be able to take my whole cock,” he hissed in your ear.

You felt yourself throbbing down below at his words. You were more than ready to take him whole. You wouldn’t have it any other way.

“Yes, sir,” you said.

He did just what he said and shoved his whole cock into you. You screamed as he pounded into you over and over again, giving you no breaks. He shoved you down onto his desk to get you into a 90-degree angle. You definitely felt how deep he could go in the position you were in.

“That’s right, fucking take it like a disgusting whore,” he said.

You did as he asked. You let him rearrange your guts with no questions asked. You knew from the moment he kissed you and grabbed your ass in the elevator a few days back he wanted to do this to you.

The way he rammed his dick into you made you think the desk would tumble over. The force he had was remarkable. You couldn’t imagine getting fucked better than what he was giving you.

“Does your disgusting mouth want my cum?” He asked.

“Of course, sir,” you moaned.

He pulled out of you and immediately grabbed your arm. He yanked you off the desk to stand you upright. He pulled you down to the ground. You didn’t hesitate to go on your knees for him.

You looked at his dick and saw it glistening with your juices that coated it. You licked your lips as you looked up at him with excitement in your eyes. You opened your mouth to show him just how eager you were for him to cum in your mouth.

He grabbed your hair to hold your head in place. He used his other hand to stroke his dick to shoot his cum in your mouth. His dominant look sent chills down your spine. You don’t think you could ever look at him again without craving that look.

“You better not waste a fucking drop, whore,” he said.

“Yes, sir,” you said.

He then stuck his dick into your mouth and you felt his warm cum drip down your throat. You made sure not a single drop went to waste by giving his dick a slight suck. He looked at you pleased that you followed his instructions, even did a little more for him.

“That’s how I treat desperate whores,” he said.

You took your mouth off his dick. You smirked up at him. You could just imagine yourself being his whore day in and day out. Now that you got a taste, you wanted more.

“Then let me be your desperate whore more often,” you said.

He smirked as he let go of your hair. He pulled up his pants and underwear to fix himself up. He then turned his attention to you. He pulled you up by your arm and turned you around.

You could feel him untying your hands to set you free. You sighed to yourself because you wanted more of him. You could only hope the feeling was mutual.

You turned back around to see him shining his tie around his neck to tie it. You smirked as you stopped his hands from tying it. He looked at you with a questionable look in his eyes but his smile still remained.

“I guess it is that kind of tie,” you chuckled.

He smirked. “Only for you.”

“Doe this mean I can be your whore frequently?” You asked.

“Of course,” he said.

“Can we start in the elevator?” You asked.

He chuckled before leaning in to give you a kiss that you desperately wanted to feel again. You felt his hands wrap around you as he embraced you deeper into the kiss. As much as you loved experiencing his dominant side, experiencing the softer side of Hotch was the best reward you could ever crave.

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[kimbap-r0ll]

Can I please request a TWST matchup! I am veryyy outgoing. I make friends really easy and overall I’m a people pleaser. I do get very anxious and overwhelmed easily, which can cause panic attacks. I dont like sports, but I do like studying and my grades are something I take pride in. I overwork myself a lot and I make myself crumble. I thrive in environments where I get to help people. I tend to fall for possessive people because it makes me feel like someone actually likes me, even though they’re toxic. I get a long with people pretty easily though a lot of people have taken advantage of me because I’m naive and overly kind and I do anything in my power to make sure that people like me. I crave validation so I love being praised and takes care of, it makes me feel like I’ve done something right. I really enjoy video games and puzzles cause they challenge my brain. Its very easy to get me to do anything- just tell me “if you do _____ then I’ll be so proud of you.” And I’ll do it-. I am a little chubby with stretch marks and surgical scars. I’m very insecure in my body and I would like someone who would hold me close and let the world fall away. I love the idea of someone rough and tough getting soft and snuggling with me. I have some sensory issues that can cause panic attacks, like loud places/crowds. I prefer someone quiet where I can cuddle with someone or just be in my SO’s presence. I crochet and I recently finished making a blanket! I aspire to be a botanist or a horticulturist because I love plants and gardening! Thank you!!!

Hi! Thank you for the request! I think that the best person to match you up with would be…

Jack

He might not show it but I feel like he’s a pretty possessive guy. He’s not necessarily toxic, but he doesn’t like sharing and he gets jealous easily (it’s a bit cute to see him like that haha). But overall, I can see him as a person who will want to take care of you all the time. He has siblings and care a lot for his friends, so he probably takes that to another level when with a significant other.

He won’t ever try to manipulate you since he’s so honest (he can’t lie too) and that’s what matters a lot. He believes in being loyal and will be by your side whenever you need him. He’s not the best with words, but he admires you for who you are a lot. His praises sometimes come out in a blushing mess but he really does mean it when he says things like “you did well” or “I’m so proud of you.” He will make sure you are safe and comfortable with him. You don’t like crowded areas? He will part the sea of people if needed. He loves you for who you are, no matter what you like as your hobbies or how you look. To him, you’re the person he wants to protect and he cherishes you with all his heart.

Don’t push yourself too much, he gets worried quickly for your health! If he thinks you’re too tired or you’re overworking, he might just pick you up from whatever you’re doing and make you rest. He cares too much for you haha.

I feel like you guys would do gardening often together. I think it would be really cute honestly to attempt strawberries with him! He’s supportive of your goals in becoming a botanist/horticulturist since he too really likes plants.

Speaking of hobbies, he definitely is the type of person to just sit with you while you do your thing. He’s probably a softie on the inside, so if you make him something with your crochet skills he’ll melt. He wants to learn from you if possible too, and I think it would be fun teaching him!

If you ever want to just cuddle with him, he’s literally the best person to hug. His strong arms make you feel so warm and safe, and he definitely fits your needs of a strong cuddly man :)

Overall his vibes are very nice, but more importantly he will love you more than anything else.

[bemusedlybespectacled]

Ok. Level with me here. Im abt to turn 31. I work for the doj but as an analyst not a lawyer, and i want to go to law school. I just think that like. Im too old and mentally out of shape tbh. My current role is a lot of technical reading and data analysis - a lot of SQL and coding and API managing, not as much examination of substantive policy and im not a part of a lot of those policy driven conversations that the attorneys have. I did manage to score ok on the lsat but i just feel Dumb in a big way and its like. I couldnt break 170 on the lsat so im clearly not some hidden lawyer genius. I make (a very modest) 6 figures now and can keep climbing up the ladder in my current role but i just want to test my mettle and sometimes i think i can do it, but then other time reading about the realities of it im like god could i read 200 pages a night? For 3 years? And absorb it? And can my brain be rewired??? Obvi this is such a personal thing and you dont know me but like have you seen others do it as a 2nd career? In ur experience

I'd say about half my class was people over 30 who were coming into law as second careers. Like, one of my classmates was a nurse, two were teachers, and another one was a compliance guy for a factory? Like OSHA compliance and stuff. Not everyone is K-JD and that's okay.

I got a 161 on my LSAT, which is middling. Unless you're planning to go to Harvard, you don't need a super high LSAT score, and no one cares about your LSAT after you get into law school. I can't speak to the reading thing, because I read ~1k words per minute, so I absolutely would do some of my reading on the half hour bus ride to class. But most people are not me and they get through law school just fine.

Also, okay. There are a couple of major skills that you should either be decently good at already or capable of learning that you will need in law school and in practice.

Analysis. A lot of law school is "thinking like a lawyer," which basically means "take this one really complicated scenario and pull out the important bits and then compare those important bits to the elements of a law to see if they match." This is basically your entire first year. It's kind of like being a doctor: your job is to identify the important bits (fever, cough, sneezing, etc.) and the not important bits (what color their clothes are, whether they have a hangnail) to diagnose the disease (fever + cough + sneezing = cold).

Writing (which includes research!). You have no idea how many actual practicing lawyers I have seen who don't know how to cite a case or what a comma is.* I was a journal editor my 3L year and I actually had to have a "how to write an essay" presentation because so many people didn't know what a thesis statement was or how paragraphs work.

Public speaking. Obviously if you're planning on going into something non-litigation, like contracts, this isn't as important, but you should at least be able to answer questions on the spot without panicking and be able to be understood when speaking.**

If all of those things are things you can do or can learn, great!

IMO, it's perfectly fine to go to law school as a second career if all of the following are true:

You are comfortable enough financially to not be able to work full time for three years. This can mean scholarships/student loans, this can mean having a spouse who works, this can mean having rich parents, but you are not going to be able to hold down a 9-5 and do law school at the same time.

You are okay with basically being in college again. Law school is college except everyone can legally drink. That includes things like extracurriculars, parties, cliques, That One Really Annoying Guy In Your Class, lots of studying and taking tests and writing papers and all that. Also, yes, a lot of people talking about politics.

You've got at least a decent idea of what you want to do when you graduate. It's your second career so you should probably have a firmer grasp on what it is you want and how to get there than someone who's never worked, which includes what classes to take and what extracurriculars you should be in. You might want to throw in some stuff to be well-rounded (especially if you end up changing practice areas***) but having at least some goal is important.

All that said: you don't need to do it just to prove that you can. PLEASE don't do it just to prove that you can. Plenty of extremely intelligent people are not lawyers and there are a lot of lawyers who are total dumbasses. It's a job with a specific skillset, but so are plenty of other jobs. If any of what I just talked about isn't something you think you'd enjoy doing all day, every day, for the rest of your life, YOU DON'T NEED TO, I PROMISE.

* Also, yes, I absolutely make fun of those people in private. There is no greater cure for imposter syndrome than to read something an actual practicing lawyer actually wrote, for realsies, and think, "Well, I can't be the worst lawyer in the world, because at least I don't write like that."

** Look, I have horror stories.

** I did not take any public speaking classes or family law classes in law school and I ended up in family law litigation instead of in nice, litigation-free immigration like I wanted to.

[natsukitakama]

Hey you <3 I just wanted to request a headcanon for the 104th cadets, please : how do they act while playing co-op games (you know, the kind you have to resolve some kind of enigmas, like pressing two buttons at the same time, etc) with their s/o ? Thanks a lot !

Author note : hi there ❤️ thank you for your request hope you’ll enjoy this ♡ Somehow I described them as a gamer ? Hope you’re fine with that, I actually really enjoy this 

i do not own those gifs credit to the owner(s)

Warning : rage quit / eren is litteraly me / Modern AU cause the canon-verse suck Lmao / I based this on my own experience 

Masterlist

Eren Jaeger - impulsive 

How did you not end up dumping him ? The man is DANGEROUS 

You think that he is all screaming and yelling like all the FUCKING time ? 

Play a game with him 

Spoiler : it’s worst 

I mean at first he saw this as a challenge and just getting the possibility to do play a game with you ? 

He couldn’t say no to that 

The thing he just took this way to personally, so he had to finish this with the best score getting the things you had to unlock during a game. 

He had to 

Doesn’t mean you want to.

The whole idea of co-op game is to play together in order to finish the game

But he didn’t hear that : he wants to do everything by himself 

And when he can’t do it he would ask some help.

Don’t expect him to be good with synchro-enigma he can’t he is either too quick or too late. 

I’m sorry to say that but he might complain about your game (while he was the one who is losing all the heart because he can’t read an enigma properly) 

And you see me coming but if can’t resolve an enigma and if you can’t help him he would just stop and won’t play at this game until he feels like he can do it 

Oh and he sucks at game like Overcooked you know those kind of things were you’re supposed to work at the same Time as his partners he is either too slow either too quick (but always pretend he isn’t his fault) 

Don’t think I mentioned that but he cursed a lot, he complained a lot (to my fellow frenchie he is like Sardoche in real life I don’t make the rule here) 

7/10 because it’s funny to see him being angry at a game 

Mikasa - skilful

i wanted to say that if you’re not eren she won’t play with you LMAO 

But if she is dating you, she would do it because she wants to please you and spend some good quality time with you (she is not a fan of video game but she can tolerate some RPG) 

She tends to be quiet while playing and only speaks when she got an idea about how to solve enigma or difficult game who implies being coordinate. 

You didn’t have to anything in such mission she will synchronise her game with you don’t question her. I don’t know how she is doing it but she can no matter if you tend to push way to quickly every button or if you’re a slow one. One look from her and she does it 

She is really god any games it piss me off

When you struggle at an enigma that you decided to resolve on your own she will either give you tiny tips or just ask you to just stop right now get some tea and try again later when you’ll be more relax 

The only problem with her is she wants to help so much that she might do everything on her own especially if one of your mission imply fighting (like kill a boss together to unlock another level) she would quickly get over it without questioning you and you end up getting so many xp and items while you didn’t ever touch anything 

She wants to help you so much poor thing ♡ 

Also if you’re hurt during a game or if you life are pretty low she would stop everything in order to heal you. Even if it’s very cute from her, it piss you off cause now you have to start again because both of you died together. 

9/10 she is the best she cooks cookie prepare some tea for you. 

Armin - strategic 

i love him I really do 

But you can’t play with him 

He needs to make a plan on every mission, Like sweetie just relax you need to chill a little bit. 

Although he tends to overthink everytime He is very good when your goal is to kill a boss, cause he will do two jobs : healing and helping you to kill him. Give him 5 min and he will give you a whole tactics so you can fight the boss easily and earn even more xp. He won’t be afraid to go and heal you too if you’re in need and would never judge you if you’re struggling (even if he guides you during the game) he understand that the game is pretty difficult. 

He is good to with enigma like it’s just sound quite easy for him. All he has to do is read the thing and BANG he got the solution how can you do that ?

He will even explain the whole thing so you could also resolve enigma with him 

The problem is he is way too slow, if your level implies being coordinate it would take you forever until being able to finish the game. Especially because he is not comfortable with a joystick like they got way too many button and he is not good with coordination so he ends up being confused with the button 

When it came to videotgameswhere all of you have to work in coordination, he is always slow. He really tries but he is always way too slow, but he counterbalances his lack of skills with his minds so after you’ll lose because he couldn’t manage to do something within 30s he’ll find a solution to win 

It’s really funny to play a cop-game with him on Fortnite cause he’s like « y/n why would you play at such a game ? What’s the point of killing people ? » and he is the one who is throwing a grenade and shoot at the same time so a lot of people can dies with one shot or planing a trap so a lot of people might die at the same time. He is very dangerous when he wants to just saying. 

8/10 because sometimes mind isn’t enough and you need skill to win 

Jean - Skill and minds 

Do not let him play with Eren 

I swear don’t do it otherwise they would spend the whole game yelling at each other « you should come quicker Horse face ! » « Oh yeah ? Who’s the one who though that would be wise to attack the boss without getting heal first uh ? Such an idiot bastard » 

It’s not comfortable if you’re playing while being on the phone but it’s so funny to see him getting angry because Eren (as usual) run without thinking about a plan

Like Armin he tends to be very good when it came to resolve enigma or find an enemy’s weakness : all he has to do is to let Eren, Connie and Sasha run at first so he could analyze the boss’ behavior (yeah he totally uses them as guinea pig and he doesn’t regret that especially when he hears Eren getting Angry or Connie complaining it’s so funny) 

Unlike Armin he is pretty food with a controller so he can actually being very efficient as long as Mikasa isn’t around 

He tends to be close to you EVERYTIME and he would even protect you, heal you everytime you got hurt because you protects Connie, Eren or Armin, it’s cute at first but very annoying then because he only focus on you and isn’t into the game anymore. When he turns like that, someone need to tease him about not being good like Eren and he will scream a little bit (how dare you as if he could even be worst than that suicidal bastard) but then he is on it. 

Watch him beating the shit out of the boss 

BUT when it came to games like overcooked when you have to share task he is bad. Not because he isn’t skillful but because he wants to be the chief so badly and of course Eren thought he could be the leader while everyone knows he isn’t coordinate enough to do that. So most of the time Armin is the leader in such a game 

Just give him a task where he has to be quick and he’ll be fine but don’t let him in the same group as Eren, they would argue about who should to this and you’ll end up losing because they argue. 

Also if you’re playing something like a RPG with him he gave you SO MANY things like everytime he drop something this is for you, at this point he doesn’t care about his character (he does but he can’t just not give you something) 

You didn’t ask it but I’m just say it, if you play animal crossing with him he would spoil the shit out of you, can’t blame him he just wants to help so badly. He’ll text you about his plan, the stuff he got he would even help you with flowers. 

8/10 because he tends to flirt with you or argue with Eren so you’ll lose precious time for the mission 

Connie & Sasha - Funny 

I put them together because 1) they tends to play everytime together 2) because they play the same way 3) they share one braincell (meaning either you’re dating connie or Sasha you’ll have to play together) 

One word : a mess 

Always questionnaire why we’re doing this or why we shouldn’t do this, this way 

BUT they’re like very synchronized, it’s like seeing someone and his reflection (sometimes you’re even jealous cause you can’t do that)

They tends to be very effective when you need to coordinate something 

They’re pretty skilled too 

But they can’t make a plan even to save their life 

The number of life you’ll lose because them and Eren decided to run into the boss’ lair without asking permission 

It should be illegal to run that easily anyway 

If Connie is really dumb when It came to enigma 

Sasha is very good to notice tiny elements that actually was the key to resolve the problem 

She tends to be super good to drop every tiny things that was hide behind a tree too a really hunt (but won’t share her things with you if you’re not giving her puppy eyes I’m sorry) 

But Connie is your best allies to fight couple of ennemie at the same time, like you were walking and boom you’re surrounded by NPC and he will come to save you. 

Connie is a protector 

I mean Sasha is too but she more into prevention, safety than protection but if during a game you might be in danger of course she’ll run after you (ask you extra cookies for that) 

Dont expect any of them to be good at enigma or games like overcooked, I mean Sasha might spend her whole call luring about foods while Connie might try to do everything on his own since he is incredible (he says it) 

If you’re calling one of them during a game, it’s actually more entertaining than the game, I can’t explain they’re just super funny

If you’re playing in a RPG that might have a huge map you’ll definitely lose them at some point during your game, they don’t have any sense of direction and since they can’t read a map (that’s me don’t bully me I’m trying) well they get lost and will send you a picture of their screen so you could help them  

6/10 because they’re trying to their best but since they share one brain cell well it’s always more complicated than it should be 

Bonus : Marco Bott - Motivating 

My cute sweetheart 

He is doing is best everytime you call him for a game 

He is so good at overcooked than I’m jealous of him 

Kinda good with Enigma but he is really good when game imply strategic (he also loves how focused you are and how he could motivate you with his plan) 

He doesn’t play at any games that involve war or anything so don’t ask him about a fortnite game he won’t do it 

He really love role-play (not put intended lmao), he is actually a good narrator and is so good at at owning xp : his character might not be the greatest when it came to strength but he is very balanced character 

Playing with him it’s actually relaxing, he never raise his voice and seemed to always find a way to relax anyone that might be too into it. 

Especially good when It came to help Eren and Jean to just shut up and play the game without yelling : don’t ask me how he does that the man is a genius 

If he teams up with Armin during game like Among us you loose any chance to win (I mean if you’re the traitor he would never say it but he noticed so does Armin but won’t say anything about it) the man knows everything, and is able to make you confess it’s really fun to watch but bother you when you’re loosing yourself in your explanation 

When it’s just you two playing a game together and somehow you struggle to resolve an enigma or a level, don’t worry your boyfriend Marco he is

The best cheerleader in the whole univers fight me on this 

+100 ego boost for Y/N 

In the end your resolve that damn enigma 

10/10 yeah I’m not impartial but I love him 

[tobeornottotc]

Cherry Magic Ep 11: The problem with  Self Deprecation

You had two choices Adachi. But you didn’t hope to see a chance the second one.

It’s painful because Adachi has always thought that this was going to happen that’s why he was so scared the whole time before he and Kurosawa got together. And it’s painful and heartbreaking. Basically Adachi fell into self despair, he went back to his old thoughts that all he is, is a burden and not worth it, that he wasn’t deserving of someone like Kurosawa’s love, affection and attention. All he wanted was to prove to himself he was worth it. But once he got rejected by that woman for his designs he worked on himself, it felt like he was right; all that hard work, attention, affection Kurosawa showed him was wasted on someone like him, after everything Kurosawa did for him he still without magic couldn’t do something to show him he was worth the effort. That’s why he spiraled into self hate and anxiety again. He went back to his old self, the one that fought so hard to let Kurosawa in. 

Remember from episode 6 his biggest reason for why he had anxiety this whole time; he doesn’t want to be seen as heavy. This is the reason why we had all those episodes of angst because he knew once he got with Kurosawa there will be a time he disappointed him or was to heavy/ burden to him. And that’s what he felt this episode coupled with impostor syndrome, guilt about not being enough for Kurosawa who just is such a perfect person who deserves someone like that, not being on the level people want him to be. How can he believe in himself when he doesn’t even see any reason to, every single reason he started to get better was because of Kurosawa and Magic well that’s what he thinks. He didn’t even understand that his idea was his before he read that woman’s mind, that the reason he gave her was actually what his purpose was at the start; he said the same thing to Kurosawa in episode 10; he made the emojis to focus on emotions of people, but the magic made him stop thinking about his own skills and he saw himself as a cheater.

It’s just so painful. In the end he accepted what he always knew one day he and Kurosawa will have to break up because he was worthless, imperfect and heavy. He took the first choice without even trying to hope for another way to not lose Kurosawa. He did not try to fight for what they had because he had gone into such a well of self hate and doubt and anxiety again he’d regressed so much this episode because of his worries about the magic, about losing it. The reason was because of Tsuge.

The episode starts of with Tsuge showing what happens without the magic being misunderstood and dealing with miscommunication, Adachi saw that he would end up like Tsuge just blaming himself and not being what Or giving what Kurosawa wanted from him without the magic. Adachi believed he was going to fail without the magic and so he told Kurosawa his fears and once Kurosawa gave him an out, he took it refusing to look back because he expected Kurosawa to do so. He didn’t even understand that Kurosawa was giving him a choice so he stops being the one causing a burden to Adachi🙄

If Adachi was feeling worthless and heavy to Kurosawa this episode, Kurosawa was even worse, his thoughts were trying to find ways to make Adachi calm down and believe in himself but he realised his presence was doing the opposite: it was making Adachi think he was worthless. He was failing Adachi. That’s why he gave Adachi the out in guise of a choice he probably hoped Adachi would stay and fight like he always did when he read his mind and tell him it’s wrong but Adachi immediately agreed and left him broken. Also from the beginning he first met Adachi all Kurosawa has been trying to do was make him feel like he made him feel 7 years ago, he wanted him to see how great he was, how comforting he was, how healing he was, he wanted to do all that for Adachi, so the realisation that being with him was doing the opposite, he tried to give Adachi a way out. 

But Adachi was feeling the same way; a burden to him instead. It’s funny how again Kurosawa and Adachi’s need to please people is the reason for why they broke up, the need to be each other’s perfect person instead of just being themselves, Adachi found no confidence in just being without the magic and Kurosawa felt like he was more of an obstacle each time he was being himself he wanted to be more to Adachi, he wanted to be his support, his number one, his help because Adachi did so to him 7 years ago because of this he also wanted to please Adachi, so much he realised the only way to do so was to free him from the comparison to him and being with him with those thoughts. Kurosawa has always thought him being perfect was like a burden, but in a different way people wanted so much from him and objectified him but Adachi saw his perfection the opposite, instead of it making Adachi want to be with him, it made Adachi feel not good enough to be him. His perfection became a different kind of burden. 

And it just sucks because it’s miscommunication as always but this time, the magic instead of always healing; it is being the cause to break their bond,  which is ironic if you think about how these two got together. I don’t know what to say, all I know is Adachi needs to become brave and learn to trust and love himself. He should see what he is to people without the magic, it’s not the magic that made Kurosawa fall for him, it was him being himself, he was the person who saved Kurosawa 7 years ago, he was the one that came up with that idea for the emojis and it was praised, he was the one who stood up for Tsuge and told him to be brave without magic, it’s all so important that he notices that he’s helpful and he’s kind and he’s okay just being himself without magic.

It’s okay to fail once but you can try again, it’s okay to be awkward and weird and have anxiety with people because you can be your self and people will notice your light and your helping heart. It’s okay to be heavy sometimes with the person you love, if they’re right for you (RIGHT FOR YOU AS IN You DONT HAVE TO CHANGE FOR THEM TO BE RIGHT FOR YOU) they’ll understand and be your comfort and help. You deserve someone like Kurosawa because as much as he does for you, you do the same for him, you proved it 7 years ago. You proved it last episode as well when you told him to just be himself and took away his burdens of trying to please you. You made Kurosawa feel just comfortable, being his true self. Because you see him in a different way than others. That’s why he chose you.  

That's all you have to do Adachi . You had two choices but you refused to wait for the hope of the second, you refused to do the one thing ;Kurosawa wanted from you the whole episode to trust your self and believe in your abilities. You took the easy way out and broke both Kurosawa and your self esteem even further. You took the easy way out when you’ve been fighting all episodes to be brave and trust your heart and your self. You forgot that you don’t want to see Kurosawa hurt and sad. You forgot how much Kurosawa needed you not because of magic but because of you.

That’s the problem with Self hate and trying to please others. It convinces you that you are not enough, that you’re not worth it, that you break all you touch but really the damage is you actually not giving your self a chance. You think that without you people would thrive when really its because you left and gave up that the person declined. 

It’s not easy to trust our selves with anxiety and self deprecation, it’s not easy to see what we do for others. But when someone comes into your life worth showing up for, then you have to stop hiding and thinking the world is never going to be yours, you have to be brave and fight for the right to have that person by your side. And hopefully Adachi will learn that next week. 

No one is perfect but by taking a leap of faith, and trusting that by being our truest selves, our weakest self, our broken  self, that we still deserve love, and happiness, that’s when we become whole and find our answer and safe space and real true love. 

[holy-guacamoly]

Helloo!! Congratulations on getting 200 followers!! Thats a great achievemen and I hope more follow you [you freaking deserve it!!] Aight, I hope you don’t mind me participating in the event and no rush please! Take your time on this request!! Okay, here we go!

Fav character?: Erwin Smith Pronouns: She / her Name: Kayte or Arri or Noonie (Friends call me Kayte or Noonie / Close friends call me Arri or Noonie or Kaytie!)

Hobbies and interest: I really love studying!! Especially when it’s in the mornings or evenings with coffee and then tea at night! I play the piano as well as skilled in archery. My fingers do lot a work aha. Drawing, reading and writing are also my hobbies!! I am a fan of BTS but I am not obsessed. I have a thing for cola and coffee :p I love my jacket…i feel anxious without it sometimes. Cooking!! I love rain and playing in it. Studying or reading or playing the piano when raining makes me feel soo comfortable. Inwould snuggle in my blanket with tea when its cold during rain, relaxation~~ MUSIC I love it. Fav genres? All except any type of country, I can’t vibe with it. Personal favs are classical and rock.

My personality:

I am independent, smart, stubborn, witty, very curious, brutally honest (when needed) and I have a bit of an anger issue but I am very chill most of the time tho. I can be very serious and quiet, depends on the situation. I am scary when I am quiet, I have been told due to my RBF lol. If you anger me ‘secretly’, I will not talk to you to give you a hint. Oh and I can be gullible. The level of my independent-ness can get to “oh i do not need help in handling 5 group assignments“ level. Trust me, it happened once. I am apathetic towards how people think and treat me, It can get to a point I do not care for myself sometimes. Dont worry! I have friends helping me with the problem ^^ BUT, i am very caring if others. I can treat you like my child even if we just met. I will comfort anyone. Fun fact: My studying can go on until 3 am or more…everyday

Okeyh, thats all!! Right, if you do not mind, I am requesting for both SFW and it’s opposite. Thank you in advance for doing this!! I really appreciateit and this is my first time requesting something like this >w< Take care and have a great day!!!

Hey hun! Thank you so so much! <3 Guuurl, when I read about your personality I was like same?! Also, the caffeinated beverage part hit my soul. Thank you for your detailed description it makes writing so much easier. ♥ Erwin is constantly so proud of you! Ambition, kindness and your overall skill level are traits your boyfriend adores. As a very ambitious man himself, Erwin needs a badass woman by his side. ♥ Your man does this little gesture, where he secretly fills up your coke or coffee stock, without you noticing at first. He wants to reward you for your hard work. :( ♥ Rainy days with Erwin Smith are a motherfucking dream! I feel like he builds blanket forts for you, with fairy lights and tons of cozy pillows inside. You show him the newest music you are into, while he talks about some literature he recently read. Between exciting conversations, you are always in for a good make-out session. The tea you prepared often gets cold because you are just so caught up in the moment. ♥ Erwin is the CEO of reminding you to chill tf out. He hates to see you stressed or not caring enough for yourself. Your man did a lot of research about relaxation techniques, so he can do them with you. Also has a supply of emergency face masks at home to give you a little spa experience during wild times. If you fall asleep on your desk after another allnighter he carries you to your shared bed and wraps you in a little blanket burrito. <3 ♥ One word: Gentlemen. Erwin has a thing for kissing the back of your hand or just putting gentle kisses on your cheek when he greets you. It's a little cheesy, but who can deny this beautiful man? "Arri, you look breathtaking," Erwin whispers against your skin as he pulls you a little closer. An inaudible gasp escapes your lips. "I am such a lucky man." ♥ The two of you often play the piano together. Especially during stormy evenings, you love to light the fireplace and get lost in the music. Sometimes Erwin starts to sing even though it sounds horrible. :') "And after all this time, I'm still into you〜" Erwin screams at the top of his lungs as you play the piano. Your eyes dare to roll back into your skull and you stop abruptly. "Honey, I love you. But you need to stop with that noise you call singing. The neighbors asked if we adopted a dying cat from the shelter," you huff, but give your boyfriend a playful nudge. "I can't help but sing all kinds of stupid love songs to you," he answers. Your whole expression changes from annoyed to genuinely delighted. "Erwin Smith, you are a hopeless romantic." ♥ Since your first encounter, Erwin wanted to marry you. He never pushes you to any decision but he just loves to imagine a domestic life with you. Often refers to you as "wife". You lean against the doorframe, scanning your boyfriend who is still on the phone. He on the other hand doesn't seem to notice you. "Yeah, gotta hang up now. I have to run errands with my wife. Bye." "Oh, did I miss something? Who is your wife?" you ask teasingly. Erwin turns around, not an inkling of shame on his face. "You, of course, stupid." ♥ Your oldie is so confused about BTS. Like why are they so popular? Why do people these days seem to like them? He just doesn't get the concept lmao. Also gets a little angry whenever you try to explain the hype and he still doesn't understand. Poor baby. :( NSFW ♥ He loves to mark you. Everyone needs to know your his. Gives you hickeys on your shoulders and neck. Erwin especially likes how you get flustered by explaining them to your friends and co-workers. Develops a breeding kink over time, because that is the ultimate way to show others you are his. He isn't seriously trying to get you pregnant but loves to talk dirty about it. ♥ Gets feral when you address him with Sir. He is such a gentle Dom and spoils you rotten in the bedroom. Plays with your clit for hours, using every toy you want if you just beg enough. "You were such a good girl today," Erwin muses. His fingers wander over your body like feathers, causing your brain to send shivers down your spine. "I think you deserve a treat. Don't you too, princess?" All you can do is nod eagerly. "So what shall it be, baby girl? The womanizer or your favorite dildo?" ♥ Is into bondage and very skilled at it. Erwin sees it as an art form and you are his most delicate work. Loves to squeeze your tits between the tights knots of the ropes he uses. ♥ Doggystyle is everything for you both. It has something so animalistic that it makes your head spin. "Fuck, Erwin, pull my hair!" you exclaim, your voice higher pitched than usual. "Fucking use me, Sir!" And that was enough to make Erwin Smith lose his mind. In conclusion: Like I said, you are Erwin Smith's wife. He takes care of you and you take care of him. There is nothing but love.

[self-care-suggestion]

Hi there, so I dont know how to ask this or whatever but uh... My girlfriend and I agreed that we needed to break up to be alone for a while and work on ourselves, and after healing and growing, we'll talk and see if we wanna try again. We became a long distance relationship during the pandemic- almost all of it. We're being really good about boundaries and respect, and we still have great solid communication skills about our needs and comfort level and all of that. We are good for eachother in normal circumstances, supporting eachother and bringing out the best in eachother- this pandemic has kinda just brought out a lot of burried things we didn't know we had to work on in ourselves.

But

Its hard. I dont know how to ask this from a bunch of internet strangers, but I need some support. A pep talk. Some encouragement. I dont know. This is hard.

It's going to be a long *long* journey if healing. I have a good feeling about how this could turn out, but it's still a process.

I don't know. Any words of support would be nice.

Hey pal, it looks like you are putting in some real work on keeping your relationship healthy and open to moving with the both of you. Thats awesome! But its totally true that sometimes holding all of that up, especially while being long distance and (hopefully I understand this right) and not actually being in a relationship. Trauma is heavy. So the pep talk i have for you is, hang on to who you are. You're doing an awesome job, and are obviously concerned with the wellbeing of your partner. You seem to wear your heart on your sleeve friend. You're doing an awesome job. My only caution to you is while you and your partner are learning and growing together, make sure you aren't molding to who they want you to be, and that you're forming into a more defined version of you. If that makes sense. Layman's terms, make sure you aren't being something for someone else. Just be you. Love you buddy, get some good sleep and a warm meal. You rock