#i might delete this late

[m0th-balls]

warning: unwanted sexual advances

Sorry to vent, but I'd rather do it here where I already talk abt nsfw stuff. Im asexual its something I'm really open abt it. Im a sex repulsed asexual unless its fictional. I think it comes down to the fact I'm also autistic and dont like being touched in general, plus I have gender dysmorphia that causes me a lot of anxiety I have SMALL moments of wanting to do sexual stuff with my wife, but its not somethign I want to do often and she knows that. Shes hypersexual and a very touchy person. So. She gropes me a lot randomly and makes sexual jokes towards me/about me, so I have to tell her to stop every day. She complains that shes just playing with me and I remind her I dont like it and she gets upset and or jokes and says that I hate her. Normally I can deal with that, but I'm really depressed today, so when she gave me a hug and immediately tried to grab my ass, I stopped her and gently told her not to and just moved them an inch up higher to my hips instead She said 'you hate me' and let her arms go limp so only I was hugging her And I just? I just started crying. She didnt notice cause Im a champ at hiding the fact that I'm upset

But I know she loves me and I love her, but why cant I just have one fucking day where I dont feel like a fucking object to her. I just want to cuddle and not worry about being groped or make jokes without a sex joke being made about me I cant even take my fucking testosterone cause she acts like that magically cures my asexuality. It makes me horny more often, but that doesnt make me want to do things.

And I cant even fucking TELL her when shes genuiinely upset me like now cause she has BPD and RSD and makes it about herself and about how much she hates herself and wants to die bc she upset me that its no longer about how she HURT ME AND UPSET ME. Its not like this is 90 percent of our relationship. It happens everyday like once or twice a day, but theres 90 percent of the itme when its fine and everything is fine I just wish it happened less. Like once a day. Or a couple times a week. I could handle that more. I just cant handle it today and I want to just cry

[terracottakore]

(wip) trying to get back into the swing of things

[driftwoodwolf]

I am not immune to re4r leon

new print for otakon maybe

[artsymeeshee]

one of those nights

[voidheartkisses]

crazy things the bishops have done in my cult:

Leshy: got in a relationship with BAAL of all people (Seriously how do I break them UP)

Kallamar: had 2 abortions (he has the lustful trait so he's my guinea pig for whenever I need the egg yolk to make someone younger)

Heket: stole someone's wife (who had a kid)

Narinder: tried to kill my other spouse (It's a whole drama I'll talk about it later)

Shamura: took forever to give me their quest because they forgor (dangit grandpa)

[silusvesuius]

nnnnnnnnnnnnno maa'am

[thepatronsaintoffilth]

I can't believe what I'm about to say, but ...

... The resistance to Hameln would have stood a better chance if they had mobilized fundamentalist christians against the show.

Think about it! They're finding legit sigils and hidden messages and dangerous corrupting influences embedded in a kid's show? Actual factual harm being perpetuated against children with some combination of demonic worship, shady business practices and unethical surgery?

Isn't that the kind of shit the supposedly righteous would go to war for?

As much as I love a ragtag group of librarians going against the forces of evil, you really need to fight fire with brimstone. Whip the PTA of the local Catholic school into a frenzy, maybe get a few rightwing politicians in your pocket, get a few true crime content creators to bring in the younger TT crowd and Hameln won't stand a chance.

[valtsv]

finally had a conversation with my parents where i was able to share my honest feelings about them and the way they raised me and also face up to some of the really shitty things i've done to them and the harm i've caused and everything i've kept hidden and let fester. and while we both said things that upset each other and it feels pretty fucking awful right now, and i don't think we'll ever have the ideal relationship that any of us wants, i don't regret it. i regret a lot of things about my life and the decisions i've made. but it was a discussion that needed to be had. and whatever happens now, whether we learn to compromise despite our differences and get closer or drift further apart until we're strangers to each other, i feel like i can maybe start to properly self reflect without any illusions or fears about myself holding me back and really grow as a person and make more meaningful decisions and changes in my life instead of just running and hiding from ever facing the future. i'm finally able to accept that i'm even less of a good or happy person than i let myself think i was. but i'm also not afraid to try to be myself anymore and figure out how to live.

[rotting-and-so-beautiful]

and if i post my shitty, extremely messy dyhard sketch that i made while i was supposed to be studying for finals? what then?

ugh they’re so gross i hate them :/

[celtrist]

I just vented out a whole rant about how aromantisim is treated within Hazbin/helluva. I'm not really sure if I should post it for multiple reasons, one of which being I don't want anyone to feel targeted about it or take it the wrong way (like I honestly dont have beef with Al shippers. Gripes, but no beef as I also ship him on occasion).

There was just a sudden burst of frustration I had with it that I think was in part just came from built up frustration from other things. There's things I'd like to have out there, but I don't really think it'd get far or, again, be just taken the wrong way. I don't see a point in posting if people are gonna ignore it, plus it wouldn't change how things are now. If anyone has any thoughts or are curious let me know, but I don't wanna make anyone feel like shit or put a pointless rant out there no one wanted to see. I also wanna keep rants to a minimum as I know people aren't always into that sort of stuff, especially if you don't follow someone for that and you just get an influx of posts of them complaining. And I still want to keep things relatively light hearted around here, at best maybe just some critiques on things here and there.

It's late, I'm on my phone when I should probably just sleep it off, so sleep it off I will.

[milestheinvestigator]

I think the fact I'm not even done with series 3 and pulling this shit out of my brain at such late hours is concerning yet amazing.

[m-eltdown]

[wikiangela]

sometimes it feels like some people don't even like eddie as his own character (same often goes for buck for that matter), they only exist for each other and with each other, and ppl bend over backwards, twisting all the words said in canon, trying to make all their individual storylines about each other. it's insane lol

let them be their own characters jfc, there's so much more to them than whatever you want their relationship to be😫

[panevanbuckley]

i don't know if you still take 9-1-1 prompts but i've been really loving your "eddie comes home" fics and i was wondering if you'd write some more "seal!buck comes home?" (aside from the series - also adore that!)

hope u have a great day!🫶

oh my gosh hi hello you sent this 4 months ago and i didn't take 9-1-1 (or any fandom) prompts at the time bc i was in a writing slump but i also haven't stopped thinking about this request since you sent it! and now i'm apparently writing again and so i offer you this very late fic, i hope it's sort of what you were after? 💜

by your bed(side)

[read on ao3] | buddie | 2.5k | gen

Helena is already grabbing Christopher’s coat. “Come on, sweetheart. You’re coming home with us for a little while.”

Christopher frowns, blinking blearily up at her. “Nana? Wha-” He sits up taller, eyes darting between each of the adults in the room. “I’m not leaving my dad.”

“He’ll be okay, you’ll see him once he’s better.” Helena reassures, reaching down to squeeze his shoulder.

“Oh yes, I’m sure he’ll be fine waking up to find that you’ve taken his son to another state after almost dying. How could you both be so selfish?”

Chris is starting to look upset now, his lower lip trembling as he looks down at his father. “I don’t want to go to Texas.” he whispers, his hand resting on Eddie’s leg. Bobby’s heart pangs, and he’s about to finally speak up when another voice cuts into the tension of the room-

“You’re not going anywhere, Chris.”

[jayisabellsart]

railgun I guess

[angelpuns]

Having a very ' everyone secretly hates me ' kind of day smh