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Jily Microfic: Payback
@jilymicrofics - april 13th, prompt: payback - words: 639 Summary:Ā James gets his payback. A follow-up to my Mystery Microfic May entry, Risky Behaviour. Written for @nena-96 ;p
James Potter lives for the thrill. Adrenaline flooding his veins, heartbeat pounding in his ears, lungs gasping for breath ā this is his favorite state of being. Heās the bloke who laughs at jump scares, who eagerly leaps into the unknown, almost hoping heāll find something a little terrifying, a little dangerous. Heās not afraid of what might lie behind an unopened door.
At least, he didnāt used to be.Ā
Accidentally discovering Professor McGonagall with breasts cupped in her hands may have altered him forever, though.
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āI canāt believe youāre doing all this just so Evans can have her favorite breakfast,ā Sirius moans as they walk. He tilts his head when James gives no response. āAt what point dāyou think youāve taken the whole āweāre in loveā thing too far?ā
āItās for her birthday, you knob, and I dunno what youāre on about ā youāre doing just as much as I am to make this happen.ā
āNot of my own free will,ā Sirius replies, chuckling when James smacks his lips and rolls his eyes. āOnly saying ā thought I was the dog, but here you areā¦a sodding lovesick puppy.ā His mouth twists into a mischievous grin when James turns on him.
āOh, shove off, will you?ā James says as he pushes the other boy towards the wall.
Sirius laughs victoriously as he points a finger at Jamesā face. āYouāre so bloody red ā Merlin, look at your cheeks!ā
James smacks Siriusā finger and Sirius swats the back of his head and suddenly theyāre both so distracted by the scuffle they forget everything else entirely.
That is, until the sound of glass shattering draws their attention back to the empty corridor.
āWhat was that?ā Sirius asks.Ā
James shushes him, moving in the direction of the sound. āThink it came from one of these classrooms,ā he whispers, beckoning Sirius forward. āReckon itās Peeves?ā
Sirius whispers his reply as he creeps alongside James, āOr the Bloody Baron having another one of his fits.ā
They both know it doesnāt matter: theyāre going to open the door and find out.Ā
āDāyou wanna check the Map?ā Sirius asks, almost soundlessly, when they reach the nearest door.
James shakes his head in reply. They already know Filch is three floors below them, and itās been entirely too long since heās been chased by the Baron or dueled with Peeves. Being Head Boy has left him aching for a bit of mischief.Ā
Resting the tip of his wand against the doorknob, he mouths to Sirius: āOne, two, threeā¦ā before tapping his wand and twisting the handle.
As the door squeaks open, theyāre met not by the bellows of the Baron or the shrieks of Peeves, but the strangled cries of two high-pitched voices. When the light from the corridor illuminates the room, the boys find themselves standing before an aghast Professor McGonagall and a half-clothed Madam Pince, her full breasts, freed from her nightdress, tenderly held in the grasp of the other womanās hands.
āPotter!ā the Professor yells in bewilderment, dropping her hands to gesture wildly at them. Madam Pince screams and covers her now-exposed chest, and while James tries (fails) not to look, McGonagall turns back to the other woman, exclaiming, āSorry! Sorry!āĀ
Suddenly Siriusā hands are on Jamesā back, grasping at his shirt. āProngsāā
āSorry, Professor!ā James cries without thinking. āSo sorry, we didnātā Weāll justā SorryāāĀ
Before he can say or see anything else, Sirius mercifully drags him back down the corridor.Ā
They sprint the rest of the way to Gryffindor Tower.
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Later, once heās had time to recover, James tells Lily what happened.Ā
After falling into a fit of laughter and collecting herself again, Lily wipes her eyes and fixes James with a grin so wicked, he canāt think straight for how much he wants to kiss her. āWell,ā she says, āyou certainly got your payback, didnāt you?ā
#hp#sirius black#james potter#jily#lily evans#professor mcgonagall#my writing#jily*#jily microfic#the marauders#madam pince#prongsfoot#i mean. platonic. but still.
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I am incredibly serious right now when I beg you all, please, and if you have Twitter or Tiktok or whatever to please spread the word: click on an author's profile on Ao3.
You want to know if an author has written more? Want to know if they're still writing? Want to see more from them? Want to know if they've written a trope or kink or sex scenario you enjoy?
Click on their name. And look at their profile.
I cannot tell you how many times in the last six months someone has read a new or newer fic of mine and said they (a new reader who has read nothing else I've done) "can't wait to see what you do next!" I've written 50+ fics and over a million words already.
"I don't know if you're still writing..." click on my profile. I am. I literally wrote a 128k+ fic for that ship last month.
"Would you ever do X?" "Please do Y!" I already did. Click on my name and look at my works.
Archive of our Own is a library. It's an archive. Not social media. It is your responsibility to fight back against the laziness that corporate algorithms have trained into you.
Click my author name. Just click it. Just click it.
Before you demand more, or ask if a writer will do XYZ, or wonder if the author still writing, or anything - click on their profile. Click on the author's profile.
I'm not trying to be mean or condescending or anything like that. I'm just exhausted. It's disheartening and frustrating to repeat myself ad nauseam, because someone couldn't take thirty seconds to do the tiniest bit of work to see if I've written lately, if I've written more for their ship, or scan my works to see if I've written what they're asking for. Please. Please. I'm begging.
Click the author's name, and explore before you ask.
#lincoln rants#I'm sorry but I'm at the end of my rope#I got a LOT of these comments on my Buddie Platonic Sugar Baby AU#acting like I was some new writer to the fandom#babes I've been here since the dawn of 2020 where the fuck have YOU been?#I am happy to answer questions! I love responding to reader comments!#but it is beyond frustrating to answer a question that if they'd literally just clicked on my author name#they would have gotten the answer to themselves#yes I have written more yes I am still writing yes I've been here longer than you have#and I don't mean that in a pulling rank/seniority way I just mean that in a could you please just CLICK ON MY NAME???#INSTEAD OF MAKING ASSUMPTIONS??? way#I'VE DONE MY TIME! FOUR AND A HALF YEARS! IN THE CIRCUS!#I'm sorry but sometimes I have to yell publicly a little#and I really do suspect this is people who are not on tumblr#so I am genuinely begging you#if you are on other social media platforms#PLEASE feel free to repeat what I have said#PLEASE I AM SO TIRED!!!
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Steddie Week 2024
July 6th Prompt: Dizzy
Day 1 | Day 2 | Day 3 | Day 4 | Day 5 | Day 7
@steddie-week
Steve stands up, and thatās where it all goes wrong.
His intent was to grab more drinks from the fridge, but when he stood, he blinked a few times. āWhoa,ā he murmurs.
āSteve?ā Robin asks. She sounds like sheās at the end of a long tunnel.
āSteve?ā Eddie asks. He sounds closer, but not as close as he should.
āāM fine,ā he says, ājusā dizzy.ā
Then heās waking up in the hospital. āWhat,ā he asks, then doesnāt complete the thought because Robin and Eddie are both standing over him, one on each side, holding each of his hands, and heād feel so much love if he could feel anything besides general panic because- āI canāt hear you,ā he says, breathing picking up. āI canāt- please, I- I need-ā
Eddie shuts up, staring at him with wide eyes, and after a second of hesitation, places Steveās hand, palm down, on his chest. He takes deep, purposeful breaths, and Steve can feel his hand moving, feel the breaths, feel his heartbeat-
He takes a breath. Another. Another. By that time, Nancy had gotten a doctor.
Later, heāll learn this is something theyād been watching for, but couldnāt be sure of until he woke up. Later, heāll learn that Eddie lays awake at night, sometimes, hearing the sound Robin makes.
All he knows right now is how to keep breathing, how to keep holding Robinās hand, how to believe heāll be okay, because he has to.
He has to.
He stays with Eddie upon his release, because theyāre together most days anyways, and itās a certain kind of torture on Steveās heart because Eddieās started carrying around a notebook and a pen just to write to Steve whatever he was gonna say, and Steve doesnāt think he could love another person more than he did, but hereās the proof, apparently.
Theyāre sharing a bed, because Wayne had previously called their couch āolder than Jesus,ā and Steve lasted for all of an hour on it before slipping into Eddieās room.
The good thing about sharing a room is it helps curb the nightmares for a time.
Eventually, though, they come back with a vengeance.
Steveās laying in bed, like he does every night, when he rolls over to face Eddie. āEddie?ā He asks. Eddieās always last to sleep, so Steveās not hesitant about asking, except Eddie doesnāt answer.
āEddie?ā He asks again, jostling Eddieās shoulder a bit.
Suddenly he shoots up in the air, and Steve bites back a yell.
Suddenly thereās a voice that sounds like itās coming from everywhere and nowhere, reverberating off the corners of the room, echoing louder and louder. You took everything from me. Eddieās arms snap, and Steve yells, scrambles up, music, except whatās his favorite songāthat puppet one, metal, come on brain, thinkābut thereās nothing here but country, bluegrass, stuff Wayne likes, and Steve turns to watch the blood drain from Eddieās face as another gristly crunch echoes, louder than anything so far. So Iāll take everything from you!
Something reaches out for him, grabs his shoulder, and he yells, twists around, pushes away, hard enough he falls on the ground. He opens his eyes to see Eddie on his bed, Steve sitting just off it, eyes wide and hand reaching to help, stalled halfway. Illuminated by the lamp, too, which wasnāt on half a second ago.
Steve blinks at him, looks at the room. No floating Eddie in the middle of it.
āDream?ā He asks. Eddie nods. He stifles the sob and practically launches himself onto the bed, into Eddieās arms, lets himself shake apart because he can.
Eventually he feels reverberating in Eddieās chest that he knows means words, means speaking, so he looks up at Eddie, whoās looking at the door.
He turns to look, too, and sees Wayne. āS-sorry,ā he tries, still sniffling.
Wayne shakes his head at him, walks into the room, sits on the edge of the bed. Offers his arms out in a hug.
Steve thought he was done crying. Trust Wayne to prove him wrong, because heās tearing up all over again as he leans into Wayne.
His new position means he can see Eddie, who points at him, makes a talking motion with his hand, then points at himself and Wayne. Steve frowns. āYouā¦ want me to tell you?ā
Eddie points at Steve again, insistently, and Steve understands: your choice.
āI can,ā he agrees. āWe were in bed and I was tryināa talk to you, but you didnāt answer, and I kept trying to get your attention, but suddenly you- you were up in the air, and your arms and legs broke, and a voiceāit was Vecna, I didnāt recognize it in the dreamāsaid Iād taken everything from him so he was gonna take everything from me. And I was trying to find music, but I couldnāt remember the name of your favorite song, and the only stuff in here was Wayneās stuff, country and bluegrass and stuff like that, andā¦ā he sighs out a broken sob. āI couldnāt save you.ā
Eddie reaches for his hand, but suddenly thatās not enough, he needs to be able to feel his heartbeat, have his breathing move Steveās hand, so he tips over into Eddie again, gets his hand on his chest and his face in the side of his neck.
Eddie says something, but before Steve can move Wayneās got a comforting hand on his back. He removes it after a minute, and Steve can feel the shift in the bed of him getting up, but before he can mourn the loss, Eddieās got his arms wrapped around Steve as he carefully lowers them back down. He rubs a hand up and down Steveās spine, slips the other into Steveās hair.
Steve falls asleep like that.
He wakes up in almost the same position. He tries to apologize, but Eddie waves him off, hands him some clothes and points to the bathroom before pointing to himself and miming cooking.
Steveās heart clenches at the thought. āOkay,ā he whispers.
Robin comes over later, and they sit on the front steps as he recounts what had happened. āHeās just so sweet,ā he sighs. āAnd Iām an idiot whoās letting my heart get involved.ā
Robin wraps an arm around his shoulders and kisses his temple. It doesnāt help as much as heād hoped it would, but he appreciates the gesture anyways.
Later she leaves, and Eddie pulls out his dedicated Steve Notebook.
Iāve got a friend in Indy who knows sign language. I could give her a call, if you want? He writes, and again Steveās all but overcome with love for this man.
Instead of anything he wants to do, he just nods. Eddie grins and hops up to use the phone.
Heās back in a couple of minutes, collapses onto the couch with the notebook before furiously scribbling and handing it to Steve.
I spoke to my friend. She says sorry and it sucks, first of all. Steve snorts and nods. Sheās willing to talk to you, get you started, maybe even get you some books. Does tomorrow work?
Steve gapes up at Eddie. āTomorrow?ā
Eddie nods and grins, then points at Steve in a gesture Steve knows has come to mean you decide.
āThat would be great,ā he says. āSeriously, I- thank you, Eddie.ā
Eddie waves him off, but Steve can see the happy little blush on his cheeks.
They head out the next day. Itās probably twenty minutes into the drive, and even with Eddie sitting next to him in the driverās seat, it feels lonely. He never realized how much heād miss the sound of tires on asphalt. He wasnāt ever truly into music, like Eddie is, but he misses the radio. He misses the wind rushing past, the silence thatās possible to share when both people can hear-
He doesnāt realize heās crying until Eddieās pulled over, a hand on his cheek and a concerned expression on his face. āSorry,ā he tries. Eddie shakes his head, presses his palm more firmly to Steveās cheek. āFuck,ā he mutters. āāS stupid. Justā¦ felt alone. I dunno. Thereās, like, a million little things you hear every day that you donāt think about, like the way your hands tap the steering wheel when you turn, or the way your clothes shift and rub against each other, and itās all silent now, and thereās not even music, and-ā he takes a deep, shaky breath. Lets it out as evenly as he can. āI justā¦ felt really alone all of a sudden.ā
Eddie brushes his thumb along Steveās cheekbone as he thinks. Suddenly, he grins and moves his hand, shoving a tape into the deck and cranking the sound. He demonstratively puts his hand on the door. Steve laughs and does the same, gasping when he feels the vibrations of the song move through him. He canāt tell notes, but itās something, and then Eddie carefully reaches for his hand, keeps his grip relaxed until Steve smiles at him and tightens his own fingers around Eddieās. āThank you,ā he whispers.
Eddie smiles, nods, and gets back on the road.
They arrive at his friendās apartment in no time, and Steve would be jealous at the length of the hug if Eddie didnāt immediately step back to grab Steveās hand again. Based on his hand motions, heās introducing Steve.
She asks Eddie something, and he turns bright red, pulling a strand of hair across his face as he glances at Steve before looking back at her and answering.
She invites them in, scribbles on a little chalkboard, and hands it to Steve with a smile. Hi, Steve! My name is Nicole. Itās nice to meet you.
He grins up at her. āItās nice to meet you, too.ā
She takes the chalkboard back, scribbles something else. Eddie tells me you recently lost your hearing. Do you mind me asking about that?
āNot at all,ā Steve says, then frowns, somehow just now realizing he doesnāt know the full extent of what happened. āHonestly, all I know is I stood up and got really dizzy, and then I was waking up in the hospital.ā He shrugs. āIāve had a couple of pretty bad concussions, and I guess whatever made me pass out also justā¦ took my hearing.ā He shrugs.
Eddie shakes his head, grabs for the chalkboard. Almost. He bites his lip. You passed out, and I wasnāt fast enough. You hit your head on the floor. He looks away, takes a deep breath. Iām sorry.
āThat is not your fault, Eds,ā Steve tells him firmly. Eddie wonāt look him in the eyes, so Steve grabs his chin. āHey, look at me. Not your fault. I donāt blame you. Okay?ā
Eddie shrugs, pointing to himself with a self-deprecating smile, and Steve knows what heās trying to say. I do.
āWell I donāt,ā Steve says. āBut if- if you need to hear it. I forgive you, okay?ā
Eddie nods, eyes big and wet, and Steve pulls him into a hug.
Eddie suddenly laughs, pulling away to wipe his eyes before saying something to Nicole.
Right. Theyāre not alone. āSorry,ā he tells her, but she waves him off, handing over the chalkboard again. I think weāll start on the alphabet today. That way you can at least finger spell what you need, even if itās slow.
āSounds good,ā he says, and she nods, talking the chalkboard to write the alphabet.
Slowly but surely, she teaches Steve and Eddie the alphabet. They get a little tripped up on some of the letters, most noticeably p and q, until Nicole takes pity on them and makes a p. She uses her other hand to draw a line down both her extended fingers, then tracing her own legs. She taps her thumb, peeking out between the two, and with a mischievous grin, points between Steve and Eddieās legs.
They share a look and burst out laughing, but they donāt forget those letters again.
By the end of the day, theyāve gotten through the alphabet with enough regularity that Nicole feels they can practice on each other.
Steve pauses before they leave. T-h-a-n-k, then a pause, then y-o-u.
Nicole smiles, presses her fingertips to her lips, then brings her hand down to chest height, palm up. She does the motion again, and Steve copies her, grinning when she nods excitedly.
āThank you,ā he signs and says, grinning even wider when she pulls him into a quick hug before waving at him and Eddie.
They wave back and pile into the van, Steveās hand in Eddieās before Steve can practically blink. He smiles, unbearably fond, and squeezes to get his attention before signing, āThank you.ā
Eddie just smiles back, throws the van into reverse, and starts home.Ā
They practice more while they make dinner, throwing words like spatula and stir and chop around, and Steve didnāt realize learning could be this fun.
Heās watching Eddie stir the broth, hips moving in a little dance to a song only Eddie knows, and his heart is so full, he has to say something before his heart bursts. āIām gonna say something thatās gonna sound incredibly sappy,ā he says. āBut justā¦ please just listen until the end? And try not to tease me too much.ā
Eddie just smiles, grabs his hand and squeezes, and Steve takes a breath before starting.
āIām glad itās you. Iām glad you were there that day, Iām glad you were there when I woke up at the hospital, Iām glad you were there when I realized going home meant being completely alone. Iām glad you made a complete fool of yourself in the hospital lobby, doing charades to let me know I could stay here.ā He takes a breath. āIām glad you have Nicole, because it lets me talk with you easier. Iām glad you never once let me feel like Iām alone, or like Iām going through this alone. Iām glad youāre learning with me. Iām glad youāre making this fun. I didnāt know learning could be fun, but it is with you, and I-ā he takes a breath, swallows the three words that want to come out. āIām glad itās you,ā Steve whispers, āhere, at the end of all things.ā
He doesnāt realize heās crying until Eddieās hands are cradling his cheeks, wiping away tears. Eddieās just as teary-eyed, though, and he pulls away, looking for the notebook. Please donāt punch me.
Steve looks up, brows furrowed, to watch Eddie spell something. I l-o-v-
Thatās as far as he gets before Steve gasps, understanding, or hoping he understands, and pulls Eddie into a kiss.
He pulls back almost immediately to check thatās correct, that that is what Eddie was trying to say, when Eddie pulls him back in, dinner be damned, crowding him in against the counter and doing his best to lick into Steveās mouth.
Steve lets him, pulling away for a sharp inhale before diving right back in, fingers tight in Eddieās hair and the back of his shirt, and thereās a sudden vibration that he just knows means Eddie moans, and suddenly heās dizzy again, but this time he welcomes it, because this time heās not passing out; this time, heās dizzy because heās drunk on love.
#steddieweek2024#steddieweek#stranger things#steve harrington#eddie munson#steddie#robin buckley#platonic stobin#Nancy wheeler#Though she was mostly just mentioned#deaf steve harrington#Iām actually VERY excited about this one :)#I started something like this a while ago but never got to complete it#This is my Redemption#starambles#This story is brought to you by me at all of 5 years old seeing people in a Cracker Barrel signing#And I knew my letters#And I SO confidently marched up to them and finger-spelled my name#Whereād that kid go. I want to be her again#Also brought to you by my time#(more recently)#At a Starbucks and I was able to order COMPLETELY in sign instead of using the pad the hoh barista had#I mean. I was just getting a water. But STILL#I did it! š
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what if we made Jean and Neil kiss. on the mouth. and it was platonic. wouldnāt that be beautiful?
#they are very tolkien coded to me!!!!#redefining the meaning of kisses and platonicity in the chat rn#THEY ARE BOTH STILL QUEER OKAY DO NOT COME AT ME I WILL BITE#bi bi bi jean moreau!!!!#demi demi demi neil!!!!#iām jus sayingā¦#i like the idea#if misplaced forever partner why no kiss?#i have so many more pairings i feel are so tolkienish in their affection but i shall refrain for now#lest i am burnt at the stake already#aftg#all for the game#the foxhole court#the sunshine court#neil josten#jean moreau#jeaneil
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i hate the concept of platonic and romantic as a binary i hate the concept of platonic and romantic as a sliding scale of "less" to "more" i hate the concept of platonic and romantic as the only two options i hate the concept of platonic and romantic as significantly different things i hate the concept of platonic and romantic as all encompassing i hate the concept of platonic and romantic as the two halves of a shallow concept of love that doesn't actually encompass anything at all i think we need to overhaul every popular conception about "types" of love so we can talk about things that are real and true for once
#in conclusion. alloromantics stfu up about love challenge#hate using the term platonic so much actually. cause even if it has a definition that is what it Should mean#you know that people don't actually think about it that way.#you say 'platonic' and you might Mean an all-encompassing love. but how it's interpreted is shorthand for 'just friends'#so like. the word platonic isn't Really for me is it :|#platonic gets presented like a consolation prize for aro people no matter where you turn#but fundamentally rn it comes from a concept of platonic and romantic as the two kinds of love#where platonic is for family and friends and nothing More.#and romantic is for the relationships that overhaul all else#so 'aros can still feel platonic love!' ok. what if it's not platonic as you know it though.#'oh then it's romantic!' k but it's not romantic either. will your framework explode if i say that#'aros can still feel platonic love!' why do you say that like it's a second-best option and expect me to identify with it...#again. platonic might Actually mean smth i experience. but it won't be Heard that way. do you get what i'm saying#i don't experience 'platonic blurring into romantic' cause i will never feel romantic love actually. those lines are still blurring though#ummmmm in conclusion. killing and biting#aromantic#aromanticism#aroace#arospec#talking
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Unrequited/One-sided Radioapple but it isn't treated like an angsty end of the world thing.
Imagine they slowly get closer after all the banters, and eventually becoming close friends. Lucifer ends up catching feelings for him, and after a long while, decides to confess and ask Alastor if he felt the same.
Alastor admittedly does not feel the same.
He's getting uncomfortable, struggling to keep his composure because he's DONE this before. He KNOWS how this ends. He remembers Vox and all his insistent declarations of affection and desperate pleas for Alastor to reciprocate; the possessive entitlement. He remembers how all those sickly sweet words morphed into something venomous when he didn't give the lowlife what he wanted. He remembers the anger, the ridiculous notion that it was Alastor's fault why he was so mad, that Alastor led him on and that he obviously deserved something in payment for it all-
So yes, Alastor knows how this ends.
It doesn't mean he isn't disappointed though, because he actually LIKES Lucifer, far more than he ever did Vox. Perhaps not in the way the king might have wanted, but he did. He treasured their little talks, their drinking sessions, their shared love for their instruments, Lucifers singing, their little duets, the banter, the playful jabs, the sparring.
He'd even slowly grown accustomed to the other's touches, not feeling the same surge of disgust and discomfort whenever the shorter man would grab at his arm in excitement, forgetting his usual thoughtfulness of Alastor's touch aversion for the short moment of whatever distracted him. Alastor even enjoyed it at times, relaxing at the feel of soft feathers beneath his claws, or the sensation of gentle scratches against his ears.
Difficult as it was to admit, Alastor had grown to care for the angel, the same way he had for Rosie orv Mimzy.
But no matter how fond Alastor was of Lucifer, it didn't change the fact that he didn't feel the same way romantically, or even sexually. No way in the 7 rings of Hell was he going to lie to Lucifer about either, not going to even entertain the idea of pretending he reciprocated for Lucifer's sake. He respected his friend too much for that.
So a clear, direct rejection it is. It was a shame, but nothing could be done. He said his piece concisely, and waited, shoulders set, back straight, smile and eyes a careful blank canvas as he prepared for the inevitable.
Lucifer nodded, a normal soft smile still in place, "Thank you for your answer, it means a lot."
Which......what? Alastor expected an outburst, or at the very least sharp words.
What he did NOT expect was....acceptance? And not just that but, a happy one? Contentment?????
"You're....alright with that?", he had to ask, he had to. Lucifer was clearly just very good at masking his upset.
But the damn angel just smiled?? And it didn't even look fake, just as bright and soft as his normal smiles, albeit a little confused?? Lucifer smiled at him, his brows furrowing in a bit of confused disbelief, as though Alastor is being the weird one here.
"Uhh, yeah??? Why wouldn't I be??? Yeah I may have some feelings for you but its not like you're obligated to feel the same. Above anything else, we're friends first and foremost and i'm alright with that..."
Then he seemed to have reached his own little conclusion as his words trailed off, because suddenly Lucifer's eyes widened in realization of something, and his words picking up with a sense of panicked urgency.
Alastor would really like to know what Lucifer's supposed realization was about himself because he had absolutely no clue.
"I mean, we ARE still friends right?? I don't- I- I hope this doesn't like- change your opinion of me. You're not- oh gosh I'm not making you uncomfortable am I? I- I won't mention it! You can even forget this whole confession ever happened! We can just go on as before! I don't feel any different or would act any different! Honest! I mean, I don't regret confessing because you deserve to know and I'm not ashamed of my feelings, but I don't want you to be uncomfortable! It doesn't change the way i'll treat you! Or change any aspect of our relationship! I don't even think I like you more as a lover than as a friend! I really, really do love our friendship, it matters more to me than any thoughts of being in a romantic relationship with you! So please just forget it all-"
Alastor let the word vomit wash over him, every word leaving him more confused by the minute.
Because yes, there's the desperation he expected, but...it was more about, convincing Alastor to remain friends?? Reassuring Alastor that nothing has to change?? That their friendship is the most important thing here??
(If anyone asks, no Alastor's heart didn't swell. Only lesser beings would have had the urge to cry, and Alastor is anything but.)
Lucifer is unknowingly reassuring Alastor of every single one of his insecurities about the situation. Because Alastor DID want to remain friends, he cared too much about the man to let it go so easily. It was rare to find people who treasure friendships above romantic relationships.
"I don't tend to forget easily, nor will I forget this one in particular.", he spoke, finally finding his voice. At Lucifer's defeated, pained expression( is their friendship really that important to him?), he continued. "But....yes. I'd like that.. To remain...friends."
He didn't often say the word out loud, being comfortable enough with each other that it need not be reassured with the label. But with Lucifer brightening up like his namesake, relief and happiness palpable, Alastor felt no qualms at declaring their friendship out loud.
So life went on as usual. True to his word, Lucifer remained basically the same. The following weeks were a bit stilted for Alastor, as he put some rather painful distance between him and the angel; limiting their interactions, their usual touches.
Anytime now, Lucifer would break and show his true colors, Alastor would think, waiting for the boot to drop. Lucifer would end up angry, and dissatisfied, and that was that.
But it never happened. Lucifer never expressed discomfort when Alastor avoided him, seeming to be understanding of the others need for space. He was just as affectionate as before, though initially a bit held back, as though gauging Alastor's comfort.
Months would pass, and the king never faltered. Their friendship remained strong, if not growing ever closer than before. Alastor found himself even growing more comfortable with the man. Affectionate touches were becoming common, hugs and head pats and cuddles being a welcome thing, with the reassurance that the shorter king would never disrespect his boundaries.
Lucifer seemed genuinely happy about it, despite being clearly told that none of Alastor's actions hinted at anything romantic. In fact, he seemed ecstatic that Alastor was getting more affectionate towards him as a friend. The embarrassment the radio demon felt at having Lucifer basically tear up (no really, he was crying so hard, full on drama sobbing) with joy in front of him was intertwined with the sheer incredulous fondness he felt for the man at that moment.
They were sitting at a couch one night, more than a year passing since that confession. Lucifer was leaning back, resting against the cushions, while Alastor had his head on the smaller one's shoulder, nuzzling at the crook of his neck, legs tucked close to his body. Both had a book in hand, two nearly empty cups of tea on the table in front of them. Every so often, Lucifer would flex his fingers that rested on Alastor's head, running a digit against the other's ear, often prompting the demon to lean into the touch. White wings enveloped the two, blanketing them against the chill of the night.
As Alastor turned the page of his own book, relaxing into the touch of his dearest friend, he wondered how he ever got so lucky in hell.
#this may have gotten away from me lmao#this was supposed to be a rlly short prompt of 'Unrequited love but overbrimming friendship' but instead i typed out this word vomit-#i don't know if im labeling things right here??? this may not look platonic tk others but ig im sort of projecting here#bc i want friendships like this soo badd. i mean this is still platonic right??? this is normal friendship behavior like come onnn#I've been teased about being ace bc of this mindset but i always just go RIGHT this is how friendship works y'all blindššš#bloopnik writing#bloopnik rambles#radioapple#appleradio#platonic radioapple#platonic relationships#aroace alastor#alastor hazbin hotel#alastor hazbin#hazbin hotel alastor#hazbin alastor#alastor#duckiedeer#unrequited feelings#BUT NOT UNREQUITED LOVE HELL YEA#one sided radiostatic#lucifer morningstar#hazbin hotel#THEY LOVE EACH OTHER SO MUCH AND ITS BEAUTIFUL#queerplatonic#i think#fic#fanfic#radiosilence
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the difference between remus and regulus:
james: would you still love me if i was a worm?
regulus: no
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sirius: would you still love me if i was a worm?
remus: you are a worm tho
#theyre both unnecessarily mean#i still love them tho#theyre perfect#theyre besties#platonic moonwater#remus lupin#regulus black#james potter#sirius black#wolfstar#jegulus#starchaser#sunseeker#remus x sirius#james x regulus#also thank you everyone seeing this i had no idea this would blow up like this
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thinking about saiura
#my art#saiki k#tdlosk#saiki no psi nan#the disastrous life of saiki k#saiki kusuo#aiura mikoto#mikosai#saiura#i like them as friends more often but...an impulse came over me idk what happened . ..#i got an anon a couple days ago saying they liked my mikosai arts even tho i . didnt mean for those 2 be ship arts#so this one goes out to you#usually i dont like it when ppl tag my stuff as ship but i had a change of heart#(btw those other arts are still intended as platonic/ friendship stuff but i'm making an exception just this once)#anyway. no one probably wanted to listen 2 all that but yeagh#more recent art but not really. i really tried to do like have a bunch of arts on queue type deal but it didnt work . like at all.#anyway peace and love
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platonic relationships in media are actually so much more important to me than romantic ones. not sorry
#i just decided to open my mouth today#found families mean the WORLD to me#six of crows#tbh#the party#stranger things#EVERYONE IN >#THE DRAGON PRINCE#SHE RA#CARMEN SANDIEGO#across the spiderverse#???? like.#in every piece of media ever.#found families are my everything actually. if you care#i still like romantic ships OBVIOUSLY#(wont shut up about byler kanej rayllum etc)#BUT the platonic ones are what keep me interested and ultimately what make the media so special to me#OH AND ALSO!!!#HEARTSTOPPER#!!!!@#HOW COULD I FORGET#radio silence#ofc.
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Arthur and Bella as young parents in an au where nothing very bad ever happens cause i just want them to be happy :(
#malevolent#arthur lester#bella saltzman#my art#i just widh they got to be happy and realized they just werent mean to be romaticlly together but still raised faroe together as platonic#co parents i just think modern medicine and divorce could have saved them :(#its been thinking about Bella hours lately#shes gorgeous and Arthur does have a type lol (or maybe i just do lol)#malevolent podcast
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Huzzah! It's birthday time! I'm slowly accumulating more and more things I like (latest additions this vest I made and a travel typewriter! Still need to fix the latter one though)
Sure has been a year.
#terri#niart#got my wisdom toofies out#well 2 out of 4#still got stitches#idk if this removal lowkey fixed my fear of the dentist?#it was so easy and painless#also finally i'm on anxiety meds jkahsdjash#i also got depression meds but i haven't tested them yet#I'm going to see the love of my life soon again!!!#only 2 more months to go....#i've also finally found awesome friends who don't make me feel like i'm insane for wanting to be cared for#the difference is like night and day#old friends saying hey let's surprise another friend of ours oh also i think it's your birthday on that day#new friends reminding me to pick a brunch place for us to go on my special day#i am sobbing#the right people are out there#don't lose hope#i've never felt this platonically loved honestly#also yes i'm working on the next dragon's lair aksjdhasjkd#just#a lot of things happening and i'm sooo burnt out#this piece was such a strain and i just#don't have patience for art rn#this is photobashed btw there's an actual photo of my typewriter under all those layers#i'm not about to spend 300 hours just to draw a typewriter from this angle kajshdjkasdh#ALSO ONE MORE THING CAN I JUST GUSH ABOUT THE ANASTASIA BROADWAY OKAY?!?!?!#I didn't realise until now that they made it way more historically inspired and i mean bruh BRUH#i have been having a recording of it playing on the background nonstop for like 3 days now#Vladimir Popov I want to inject you straight into my veins holy shit he is a perfect man
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no one told me that the simone-karl plot from why women kill would rip my heart out and stomp it into little itty bitty pieces
#why women kill#im so late to this#but they mean so much to me#people talk about the beth ann plot being the best but like...#"please youre my best friendā... āits not enoughā#turning into#āi want only you hereā... āyou're the love of my lifeā#but still in a plaTONIC WAY#where simone accepts the reality of their love and puts aside her pride and chooses to show up for karl#because hes her favorite person in the whole wide world even if they dont love each other romantically#and she cant imagine life without him#and then ends up...#and her devoting her life to...#bahhhhh im dead#literally deceased#~~like karl~~
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was it casual when i had a panic attack at the thought of you dying was it casual when you risked your entire carrier just to feed me lunch was it casual when you were willing to die protecting me even though you wouldn't accomplish any of the goals you devoted yourself to was it casual when i spent so many nights rolling around in deep thought about whether you think of me like i do about you was it casual when i wished for you upon a shooting star was it casual when i refused to let you continue your way down a path of self-destructive loneliness even though you wanted me to was it casual when you needed to kill me and only me to grow stronger and be entirely untethered from your past but you just couldn't was it casual when i preferred to bear your pain and hatred and die fighting you as opposed to giving up on you was it casual when i could trade blows with you (read your heart) even though your supposed wife couldn't was it casual when i was your one and only was it casual when the hands that we blew off of each other bore the evidence of our cosmic connection was it casual when you cried your first tears of relief and happiness after you lost to me was it casual when you kept in touch with me but not with your wife was it casual when we fought and laughed and became inseparable was it casual when i can't exist without you was it casual when i put all my goals on hold because how could i focus on them when i can't even save you was it casual when you were my main motivation for training to become infinitely stronger was it casual when i'd remain a fool my entire life if being smart meant that i had to give up on you was it casual when you know my heart i yours was it casual when
#which could mean nothing#nah the way i could've kept going for so long#this is ridiculous#they're actually insane#characters be doing all that and y'all still insist on calling them straight š®āšØ#naruto was the og yearner. bro redefined what it means to be a pining teenager#you know it's bomb when the haters pull out āthey see each other as brothersā#āthey're marriedā actually the rainbow is so blatant it's blinding#ain't no way you watch five hundred episodes of these fools acting like this and your main takeaway is that they're platonic soulmates#i fear your gaydar is non-existent#āi had another dream about sasukeā girl ik what you are#only people who love naruto and sasuke more than i do are each other#they make me sick#im afraid i would not be doing all that for a friend or a person i consider a brother and yall wouldn't either#ānaruto would do this for any of his friendsā hm no.#how did that boy kisser megumi put it? something something personal feelings?#jokes aside i genuinely don't think naruto would go to such lengths for anyone other than sasuke at all#uzumaki naruto#uchiha sasuke#sns#sasunaru#narusasu#naruto#naruto shippunden#naruto uzumaki#sasuke uchiha#naruto and sasuke#naruto ramblings#it was never casual
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nah cause past me who liked seeing these lot as swingers who have flings with each other would've gone crazy for this
#i mean ig i still do really like these interactions#it's really nice seeing that they all get along still š„¹#they love each other! platonically! but also in a gay way#moominvalley season 4#moominvalley spoilers
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a while ago, i started working on something meant to explain the lore behind this kurokara drawing i did back in may, but i never ended up finishing it. it popped back into my head again so i decided to redraw one of the panels from it to see how much my art / style imitation has improved since then. i'm pretty proud of how much my art's grown!! šāØ
the original sketch is under the cut!
#sorry that my art posting over here has been a lil slow recently#it's all been for behind the scenes stuff or. for the other blog. so i couldn't really share them here#drawing kuroba's expression here really did just make me want to shake them by the shoulders tho#like you make that kind of face at him and it still takes a fucking dream about being married for you to finally get it gOD#( i mean i made them like this but STILLā )#all of this happens the same day as that s2 valentines day skit btw#dude spent the whole day losing his mind over not getting chocolates only to get this kind of reaction out of kuro ->#have them fall asleep on him AND receive a lovingly handmade gift from them that totally only has platonic feelings behind it. totally.#his brother's are going to murder him in cold blood#osmt#yumematsu#karamatsu#mj ocs#oc : kuroba#ship : kurokara#mj draws
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it doesnāt fully hit chuuya that he misses dazai until winter hits and the cold that touches his skin feels achingly familiar but still not close enough to the way no longer human would flood his senses with relief whenever dazai used to touch him and he realizes that no cold breeze could ever replicate that feeling or satisfy his restless soul the way the chill of Dazaiās touch could
#chuuya drunk out of his mind: mā fuckim ice packā¦ I want m ice pack back..icy ass bitch#kouyou: chuuya what the fuck does that even mean#bsd#bungou stray dogs#dazai osamu#chuuya nakahara#skk#this could b taken as platonic too if ur not a coward#just worstie tingz#is it even winter still I forgot to post this sooner oops#just clearing out my drafts
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