#i love my old men i really do but i wish they had more ppl in their lives

[ngtskynebula]

Parents that don't have ppl they can call friends are way too needy over their children's attention, and WE'RE READY to talk about this, YEAH 😡

[lingy910y]

Art Tag

tagged by @gallapiech, @doshiart, and @heymrspatel!! thanks guys <3

have you always been interested in creating art? since like 6, i remember practicing on the whiteboard with excitement the night before my first art class :')

what's your favorite medium to use? if digital, what programs do you like? i like drawing traditionally with pencils/color pencils the most, but digital art allows you to do more with effects yk, so i use ibispaint for most fanart. bc i'm broke

do you create outside of fandom? just casual doodles now bc i had to quit art classes now that i live on campus in another city </3

share something you haven't finished and/or never got around to posting:

my poor little meow meow

favorite piece you've made?

this one

draw your icon in a minute or less:

an underrated piece you've made in your opinion:

i still think it's this one </3

do you do art in a professional setting? no it would be too tiring for me but i would like to incorporate it. like if i do write books one day i would like to design my own covers :3

a piece you don't like but did really well on social media: i don't think any i don't like did well on socmed LOL

post an old piece and compare it to your most recent, what are the similarities?

the improvement is definitely there

have you ever collaborated with another artist(s)? with myn!

what piece has the most notes? are you surprised?

not rly bc the ppl love their 7x10 content, but i was kinda disheartened when nobody liked it for most of the first day and then notes started piling in?!?!?

who/what is your favorite subject matter? i miss drawing women... i wish i was obsessed over a female blorbo again cause i love drawing long hair and curves and dresses (not to say you can't do that with men. but i'm talking abt the og source)

show us something not from fandom you've made:

here's another one

where do you like to create? the desk in my room is the most comfortable ig

do you have a tag that you use to group your creations? tell us so people can follow it: #my art but lemme warn you... it's quite sparse rn bc my interests are all over the place + i'm at college

give yourself a shoutout, where can we commission/buy/follow you for more pieces? this is the only platform i feel comfortable posting art LMAO mainly bc the ppl are so nice :DD

tagging @vintagelacerosette, @reganmian, and @burninface

[socdarlings]

i want to know more about your boiling hot takes about transfem dallas i am enamored 😇😇

alright here we go. this is gonna be a long one. tw for transphobia/dysphoria. these are just my own headcanons, some abt his family, etc. i’ll be using she/her and he/him interchangeably

transfem dally hcs

okay so first off he goes by he/she/they, though he would melt inside if ppl started using she/her for him. i’d imagine it’d be from the gang

pretty much had a feeling she was trans since they were a kid, he stole his sister’s dolls and tried to put on his mother’s dresses when she wasn’t around. had to stop cuz he got caught by his older brother, who’s an ultra masculine douchebag

i feel like this’ll happen no matter what au he’s in (canon, modern au, 80’s or 90’s au, etc) considering he didn’t exactly have the best background

so he never got to explore their gender and was practically forced to shove it down and not tell anyone. ofc this led to him being very secretive and defensive abt his masculinity, where he dials it up extremely when he’s a teen. which is one of the reasons why he’s so angsty in the novel

also being masculine and putting up the tough guy act protected her from the rest of the world, and most importantly: being validated by men. even if she wants to distance herself away from masculinity, internally there will still be that conflict of wanting to be appealing to men

again no matter what au he’s in, i feel like there’d be transphobia everywhere. unfortunately

started growing out his hair and styled it like how those old 80’s supermodel’s used to do it, with the blow dryers and hairsprays. my fav portrayal of dallas is him having really poofy blonde hair (think @/felworthless’ art)

her hair is her pride. absolutely refuses to cut it

is actually quite proud of a little bit of her features, like her ears and her long eyelashes. likes being compared to an elf since elves are always seen as feminine. once somebody drunkenly said she looked like a fairy and her happiness levels? shot through the roof

i feel like she’d start wearing dresses and makeup as a joke on halloween and then continue to wear them in private

actually really likes hair clips. hair clips, berets, hairbands, etc. (if this is a 90’s au, she really likes those butterfly clips)

they would come out to the gang and i’d imagine they’d be confused but accepting

and he’d try coming out to tim who would go like

“we’ve been knew”

would steal sylvia’s perfume and makeup. she also likes smelling sweet, hence the extremely strong strawberry scent i hc she smells like

he wishes he was smaller tho. they feel like it’d be easier to pass if they were johnny or pony’s height

in the future i can see her as an adult either working odd jobs or in radio. i feel like she has that unhinged radio personality, like howard stern’s show in the 90’s

wouldn’t be out out considering the. absolutely difficult circumstances of being trans in the south but within the gang? yeah they’d be really happy. one of the actual few times they’d see them smile w/o it being menacing

likes pink things. pink or red things. also really likes stuffed animals

anything that’s “girly” or “feminine” he really likes

once he came out two-bits been calling him any blonde model he could think of (which was easy since there was a lot of platinum blonde models in the 50’s)

and she’s not opposed to it. not at all

even tried dressing up as marilyn monroe for halloween

in fact i think marilyn monroe and jayne mansfield gave her gender envy big time. maybe was the first time she really wanted to be them

overall. transfem dally my love

[theyogs]

May i humbly request that you ramble on abt anything to do w jar/ihe plzplzplz? Hot takes, silly assumptions/headcanons, favorite vids, fanfics or fanart you wish you could make (or see someone else make), anything at all!!! Make it as long and annoying as you please even if you think no one will care bc I WILL care <3

I NEED to hear other ppls thoughts abt these boys or i will go crazy

posdacted ily but you have put me on the spot and now i fear Every single piece of ihe/jar media knowledge has left my brain……….

my favourite jarcast of maybe all time is the snugglebrothers cast they did recently… like wow.. if there was no james upskirt censor it would be the most Perfect video of all time Let me see up there. i loooooveee when the boys are all comfy and cosy looking it’s so heartwarming and cute Plus this moment was so cute

i think my favourite stand alone alex video is trying to watch star wars christmas special idk why but when alex sings porn helmet wookie time it changed something in my little 14 year old brain and at 21 years old i still sing that to myself skjdowjdi

i want jartists to draw the boys in Cute pyjamas and i think they should have a Pyjama cast where they’re all in cute matching pyjamas and it’s dark outside and they have candles going…… WAIT I JUST REMEMEBRWD SOMETHNG There was a james blab on the og jar channel called is james racist - james blab and in 2022 i was GOING THRU IT emotionally like crying all the time and that video was genuinely the only thing that would cheer me up but it’s deleted or got taken down idk it’s not up anymore and i’m so sad about it because it was so funny… alex’s editing on that was Cwazy in another life he would be making ytp.. all old jar is so nostalgic and especially like old fan videos… ;-; i love jar so much they’ve changed my vocabulary permanently. i also really enjoy “the WORST video on youtube” idk what it is about that specific video but it just Gets me

i don’t really have any hot takes i don’t think i guess i think james is Really Awesome and cool for his opinions on pornography and i admire him a lot for that especially when all the comments were kind of disagreeing with him but i thought it was Epic And Cool especially coming from three different men :p i disagree with his opinion on the film cars tho, that is one of my favourite movies and i had a (serious) cars fan blog on here at one point.

i want more stand alone videos about Vidya game because even if i haven’t played/don’t have a desire to play any of these games i loveeee to hear their opinions on them like yayyyy ❤️ i think i just love to hear their opinions on anything because it’s like a Trip into their brains and i enjoy that :3

i’ve seen liek 2 or 3 tweets recently like hating on alex/the i hate everything culture of the 2010s and Waow i did not think i was still so autistic about alex&jar i got so offended because YOU FONT KNOW HIM LIKE I DOOOOOO you’ll never know the first and only podcast on youtube you don’t know Smosh hates us?! they will never understand just how meaningful i hate everything and jar media was to me as a teenager like they got me thru so much and continue to get me through hard times JAR MEDIA IS FORVER <///333333 ok i’m emotional now and i think i’ve ran out of things to say so

tl;dr make more fanart of boy in Pyjamas and allow us to have james upskirt as a Treat

[liauditore]

Alr, for the ask game

12

ask game!

evil today. is this what our marriage means to u 😔 (/jkjk i love when ppl ask to see my old art)

peep the horrors below the cut

^2016.

was supposed to be a pfp I think but I didn't know how image dimensions worked so the file didn't fit? No clue why it's been put thru the deep fryer (I THINK it's not even a compression thing and I was just drawing at a ridiculous resolution).

I definitely did digital art before this but it was with a mouse and i think all of it is lost media now 😔😔

^2017

Looks like I learnt how to size my canvas around here. Yes I had a steven universe phase.

^2018

TERRIFYING TO ME cus of how honestly close this is to my recent taste with the coloured lineart and subject matter?? But uh yeah my girls phase.

^2019

I had a rossdraws phase as you do and decided it was time to pick up digital painting. I still love ross' stuff and do abuse colour dodge when I feel like I deserve a treat but I wish I could go back and tell past me to figure out facial anatomy a bit more 😭😭

I think I had the mindset of "you HAVE TO study from realism" while still wanting my faces to look anime and ended up understanding neither 👍

But hey the colours are cool? And I still look back fondly on this era. I get a bit of a squick reaction at overly colour-dodged or filtered pieces now tho just cus it reminds me of what I used to do tho 😔

From 2020 onward I had a bit of an identity crisis between the paintings and the anime-style drawings. I think what I currently have is a nice in-between but who knows what it'll look like in the future LMAO

^2020 after watching DBS during lockdown. Not perfect by any means but still super proud of this 💪

^some more recent pieces where you can really see the crisis in full swing lol

and now i draw block men :D so uh yeah

[llycaons]

atogai pt. 3/4(?). matters are progressing as stupidly as you can imagine, but there's a lot more kissing so ig the author considers that worth it. idk if EYE do bc they're still doing to it maintain their foolish disguises!!!

it's gotten to the point where their horny thoughts for each other are interfering in their internal monologues.

kadou is like almost having a breakdown and evemer is like wow he's so beautiful....I wish I could make out with him and solve all his problems

in many ways it IS very like fanfic. the romantic prose is certainly starting to sound familiar

omg they're doing sleepover questions...

virgin evemer not a surprise. bisexual evemer moreso. nice! rowland broke the stereotype of the stoic intense yearning gayboy

ace melek. hello ace melek!

bi tadek and I don't even mind he's a bit of a slut. I like him even tho he's kind of obnoxious

gay kadouuuu

honestly the fact that they're having this conversation at all is kind of hilarious and very ummm fandomy in the sense that this is something only a modern audience would care about or put labels on, but I don't even mind? I think it's fun. EYE like to know anyway. apparently in this universe they construct attraction the same way! sure!

also I love how evemer's first crush was an incandescently angry 16 year old girl with huge muscles. he's the post that's like 'my type is women who could look like they could beat me up and men who wouldn't stand a chance' I actually relate a lot

it helps that this is such a fantastical setting so you don't feel like it's being ahistorical or disrespectful of an actual region's culture or people. like...it's quite silly and fun and that's the point. no homophobia no misogyny no transphobia

unlike mask of mirrors, there are non-binary people (a lot, judging ny pronouns only, and the author is nb too), but also apparently no trans women or men? that can't be right...you'd think they would mention them at least. with such a culture, trans ppl and transitioning must be supported. I imagine

anyway I knew siranos was a shady fucker!!!!! I CALLED IT!!!! he was party to way too many state secrets for just A Guy who the sultan liked to fuck!! and he interfered in the investigation!!! why was HE there that night huh!!!!

their government is so fragile and inefficient...just the sultan and her heir and her brother. and ONE commander. eozena doesn't have a second in command?

honestly kadou insisting on going out when he's easily identifiable and extremely valuable is so stupid, strategically speaking, and there's no good reason that he should be doing this. it's very contrived. like I know he wants to be doing something but like... dude your wants and mental health are not the most important part of this situation sorry. people are literally dead

initially ppl had to argue w him to get him to even ask for stuff and now he's like um I'm Doing This. but it's stupid!! he's literally one of the only people left who could run the government!!!

not that I care about the maintenance of the monarchy, but THEY clearly do

evemer being a bad kisser is great. virgin bisexual king. it would even be great if he was kind of inexperienced and bad at sex too but idk if that would ruin the romance for ppl. it's kind of fun that kadou is the experienced one even tho he's the shy anxious slightly younger one

damn I wonder if there's age ratings on books. the only one I ever saw was on mdzs. you can't really tell if a book has a sex scene in it just by looking...when I was younger I was all shocked and horrified bc that all scared me but now it's just kind of inconvenient if I want to know and it doesn't say

if we even HAVE a sex scene. if mx. rowland cheats me out of one again AGAIN I'm going to be sooo mad. let it be known that's a good chunk of the reason why I'm even reading this. the context is...well ifyyk

oh and look he got captured

anyway this is stupid. like ppl can recognize him by his HAIR and he has the shittiest diguise...

honestly as soon as that incident happened where he didn't run and instead went back to save evemer a few weeks ago, evemer should have been removed from duty for him. bc that's not safe! having a guard you would die for? that kind of undermines the entire point of having a guard!

also them going out when the mastermind knows both of their faces....god damn this is dumb. OH WELL

oh huh evemer is used to ignoring and working through physical pain and kadou is used to working through mental distress. foils?

the dynamic here between a very loyal guard and a prince he swears to follow is expected, but not really my thing. I was lond of hoping for something more nuanced? alas. at least the issue of power imbalance is a huge theme that gets worked on pretty thoroughly

I am not someone who wants a kneeling knight emoji sorry. can you people get a grip

also. the bad guys KNOW WHERE THE SAFE HOUSE IS. WHY DIDN'T YOU IMMEDIATELY LEAVE...

why tf is kadou lying about evemer being a count. just say 'you're not going to kill me bc the sultan would destroy you for it, well if you kill evemer then EYE will destroy you for it.' like kadou is also a member of the royal family and he doesn't need to lie about that...

in the second half of this book it seems like over-cautiousness has given way to utter carelessness and poor judgement. like damn evemer, you're supposed to be the best!!! why is the princess still in a safe house that siranos knows about!! and you KNOW he knows!!!

also their fellow guard was beaten and imprisoned in a manor for hours bc they were like 'ummm we all have to sleep instead of raiding the manor' like you have NOBODY???

well whatever. they're married now ig. it worked

FINALLY they're making out for realsies in this dungeon they're being held in. aw sweet they're about to fuck

NOOOO WHY DID THEY STOP

MX. ROWLAND KEEPS EDGING MEEEEEEEE

swear to god just let them come....I'm so mad

AND I DON'T GET WHY. what's the harm of them having sex? why do they have to divorce vs. annulling? god this is not being explained properly

oh if they consummate then it would have to be a very ugly and public divorce...jfc it's not like anyone would KNOW

head in my hands

anyway in that sense the marriage served a purpose but I don't think it was THAT necessary? man I just wanted to see them fuck. mx. rowland is so cruel...

so the upshot of them being married is that evemer is now technically of an equal rank with kadou so he (evemer) is able to cross that last little gap between them, insist that kadou listens to what he says, and assures kadou that 1. he's okay and he also wants this 2. he's allowed to disobey orders if he wants to (he got that privilege last night from the sultan) and 3. he can physically disengage and leave if he needs to. which is enough to get kadou to relax his terror of abusing his power on someone of a lower rank than him and hurting evemer

and evemer had to be the one to initiate...honestly I know there's been a lot of kissing going on but I feel like kadou didn't make his own position clear enough that evemer would be confident in making that move. like...he's not wrong abt kadou also wanting it but also you two have known each other for less than two months and kadou has been sp careful and repressed so like.. how do you know...

in many ways the mdzs confession was very silly but having someone externally confirm lwj's feelings did solve the gridlock between lwj and wwx. here they did it on their own but I'm not rly sure how?

anyway their dynamic was never unpleasant, I actually always enjoyed it, but now it's really fun. lighthearted and playful and affectionate and horny. it's a good time. I like them together

I was thinking abt the title and how little it has to do with the actual core story and relationship but the bit with the pins was so neat...I like that

kadou being like 'this can't last' WHY NOT!!! for once can romance protags have some confidence in their love stories damn

oh tenzin is so funny

wait im sorry the hypercompetetent guards have just been SITTING there when they heard the prince had been taken? they didn't raid the shop in question? how useless ARE these people???

anyway they're all back, I kind of assumed they'd know they were together, but um...ig not. because...ohh their positions....they can't...he has to get married to a noble....oof...this does get me

like they know they like each other but they're not officially TOGETHER together. okay yeah that makes sense

evemer talks so much abput self-discipline and all but hmm he doesn't have anything on lan wangji sorreeee

very little left now but this is getting long

[thekhoei]

i never realize how i constantly think ringo as the ***chubby*** one no excluded in the beatles in every single phases (i think its bc of the cartoon portrayal or he actually gained weight in the late 60s, i mean him nowadays is a healthy old man, old ppl do get a lot more visceral fat and yeah i know the whole "fat beatle" press) until i paid close attention to a picture of ringo in early 60s. his background pretty much is alike my grandparents' condition back them so besides all the down to earth praises he gets this is the actual reason why i feel so closed to him (john is the most relatable to me). its understandable why he had such skinny legs and arms but how did i just really notice until now. the way he thrives to be the best version of himself despite every single obstacles in life always motivates me bc not anyone can be that optimistic with so much struggles like that. no wonder why he became one of the extraordinary in an all extraordinary bunches of men. i love this man a lot and i wish him all the best til the end of his life and i hope to see the justice in his biopic bc it would be a real tearjerker if its done right.

also i cant forget appreciation to one of the greatest parents in the world, Mrs. Elsie Starkey and Mr. Harry Graves, especially Elsie and her mother love. Ringo wouldnt have been himself today without them.

[mimichuuz]

"You're too young to let the world break you" is REALLY hitting me rn.

Not to victimize myself, but life hasn't been so kind to me. Although most of my biggest problems are now in the past, they've left everlasting effects on me. Was homeless & physically abused. Now I have to be in control of money. Even if its not mine. Can't tell if its just a fear of older men or maybe just my dad. Hell maybe not either. Just this uneasy feeling around them. Now I got an eating disorder, have to harm myself so I don't harm others, 2 felonies, ankle monitor, anger issues, sleep issues, and all that other shit which is probably caused by my own mental health. Hate this shit so much. I hate living. I can't kill myself bc I have some things I'd rather enjoy than die, but if I were to somehow end up in a bad situation, I'd let it kill me. Like that time I lit all that shit on fire in my apartment. Literally couldn't breath but I just layed down with my music playing and closed my eyes. Until the cops found me ofc. Hate this all. Please kill me. Let me rest. There are ppl who have it WAY worse than I do, and they're just living on. I have few problems compared to them yet I can't even handle getting out of bed. It just shows how weak I am. I am too weak to go on. Please just kill me and let me rest. If I can't manage simple things like leaving my bed and home or eating properly, doesn't that just show that its better to leave me dead? If I do have to keep living, I want to be so heavily on pills that I'm just like a vegetable. Just no cares at all. I can't talk to anyone at all. My friends wouldn't understand bc we have different lives, my family would use everything against me, my therapist still works for the county or government or whoever, so I could probably get taken from my mom if I tell her everything. Although my mom has put me through some shit, I would like to be with her. I know I'm probably safer with her and we still have some good times. I wish I could do the same with my dad. He's still in my life but i know he still hates me. Apparently he loved me when I was a baby, but as I grew up and developed my own opinions and became close with my mom, he hated me. That started in like 1st grade. I'm now in 9th and its still the same. He tries to hang around when other ppl mention how he treats me, but ofc that only lasts a bit. Then it happens all over again. I wish he loved me like he does my sister. They've always been close. He compliments her and gets her things. Last time my dad complimented me was when I was in 4th grade. Last thing he gave me was a bracelet he found on the ground in front of a hotel when i was in 5th grade. I still cherish it. Why am I never good enough? For my parents, for my family, or myself. It's not hard to be the perfect girl. I just need to lose more weight, hide my flaws, attend school, and be pretty. Then everyone will love me. My parents would accept me. Its so easy but why can't I do it? I've only lost 17 pounds. It should've been WAY more by now but nooo I had to develop an eating disorder and fuck up my eating and metabolism. All of my flaws are mental but they seem to show physically. My eye bags, bruised body, discolored skin, messy clothing. Its gross. I had to stop attending school bc every time I did, I just shut down or almost harmed myself or my peers. I was way prettier when I weighed 92 pounds but ofc my fat ass tried to recover and went up to 105. And now I'm stuck at that number. I hate everything. I want to disappear. I want to go. But ofc, I'm just a 14 year old girl. Everyone says I have no real problems, im being dramatic, or just blow off my issues when I speak up. I don't know if I should listen to them and quit my mental help stuff so I can go completely insane or continue attending and working to better myself. All this shit constantly and I'm just 14. I want it to end already.

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

little freak - a close reading

alright, okay. i’ll give the same disclaimer i put at the top of every post that concerns a song that i know means a lot to a lot of people, especially if those meanings are so diverse. this is my interpretation, the way that i see the song, and it’s just one of many. consider it as such if yours is entirely different, bc that’s more than okay. i discuss it in a very queer context, all about gender and identity, so i am aware that my own experience deeply comes into play here. in any case, i hope it serves as a nice read, and i’d love to discuss this mind-blowing song some more with you all :’)

harry’s house, track 6

LYRIC ANALYSIS

Little freak Jezebel You sit high atop the kitchen counter Stay green a little while You bring blue lights to dreams Starry haze Crystal ball Somehow, you've become some paranoia A wet dream just dangling But your gift is wasted on me

“freak”: outcast, ‘unnatural’ person, freak shows historically a place where queer ppl could find refuge and a home (// ‘peculiar’ boy)

“little” in front of it: endearment; talking to a young/inexperienced person

Jezebel

biblical figure. deeply negative connotation in the christian trad. someone who worships false prophets or pretends to be a “servant of God” while actually being a pagan. historically, (probably) a figure who simply stuck to her own beliefs/identity and was killed for it. bc Jezebel wore make-up before her death, christians associated wearing make-up with vice, with manipulation

now, symbolises promiscuity, sexual immorality, esp. “sexually promiscuous or controlling women” 

parallels with old-fashioned ways to (negatively) describe queer people, especially queer men: ‘sexual inverts’, ‘sexual deviants’ etc. - living life differently and being condemned for it

-> deep female connotation here

“you sit high atop the kitchen counter”

“high”: under the influence of drugs / out of reach, away from others, observing

childlike - adds to feeling that it’s about a younger person 

kitchen: home, at home, in a house - childhood/at other people’s homes

if she’s sitting on top of her own kitchen counter, it seems like she’s there without actually ‘working’ in the kitchen. not cooking or washing up, just daydreaming/watching/being: inverted stereotype of a woman in the kitchen 

+ at home in the kitchen? just likes to be there, no matter what. queer: love for and attachment to things that aren’t traditionally associated with your assigned gender. harry’s love of cooking, being in the kitchen

“stay green a little while, you bring blue lights to dreams”

green - blue he just had to didn’t he: nod to the fandom, acknowledgment of people who see him (more) for who he is (x)

“stay green”: stay young, innocent - theme of growing up, changing

blue light: a thing that usually keeps you awake (if you’ve watched a screen before bed, f.e.) - half awake? daydreaming, dreaming...?

stay young, stay you, because you make dreams interesting/breathe life into dreams

for me, connection to ‘little green’ by joni mitchell: story about her daughter that she gave up for adoption - sweet, tender song for someone who you don’t really know, but you actually know on a deep, intuitive level, bc she’s part of you. lyrics about stars, the moon, blue eyes. a long, happy life. a bright future. harry’s reference to it symbolises (for me) how at this point in his life ‘little freak’ was someone who he only thought about, who he could only think about bc she was mostly unknown, but was still part of him. and no don’t come talk to me about this song then could also be seen from the pov of harry talking about/to a child he wishes for and how he would then treat her no no no don’t do it

a cut bc this shit is long okay! peace <3

“starry haze, crystal ball”

looking up, up at the stars - as if they contain the answers -> astrology, connection with the universe

“haze”: it’s unclear, a blur - can’t see the future, can’t see the bigger picture (yet)

crystal ball: trying to see the future. so desperate for answers when you’re younger (<-> “there’s things that we’ll never know” - fine line)

-> elements all throughout hs3 of astrology, psychic powers, ‘otherworldly’ techniques to look at the self/past/future - acceptance of deeply human way of looking at the world, opposed to cut-dry scientific approach (// following intuition, esp. about identity, gender,...)

‘little freak’ is sat high atop the counter -> she has a better overview, and he’s looking up at her, not yet fully realising she contains the answers

“somehow, you've become some paranoia; a wet dream just dangling”

“paranoia”: worried, panicked (seemingly) for no reason - think other ppl are judging

obsession, something always in the back of his mind

“a wet dream”: she’s a dream, but a very tempting one, and she’s right there, up for grabs. if he could only get over his fears - get atop the kitchen counter with her, dare to let go and go higher up

“but your gift is wasted on me” 

he doesn’t dare to join her. her gift, which is who she is, her identity, was wasted on him. his own queerness, which is right there, and there for him, is ‘wasted’ bc he’s afraid of being judged, of being a freak

I was thinking about who you are Your delicate point of view I was thinking about you I'm not worried about where you are Who you will go home to I'm just thinking about you Just thinking about you

“thinking about who you are”: do you know who you are? - still full of wonder as to who this daydream is, this person in the back of his mind

“delicate point of view”: so soft, so gentle, about this ‘part’ of him - she’s sat up high, has the point of view of someone higher up, the overview. she holds the answers. “delicate” like the nuanced, intricate lives of (queer) people who fully accept their own complexities, own depths. also delicate like something that is fragile, something that can break if it were to jump off the kitchen counter

“i’m not worried about where you are” // i don’t know who/where she is - she

he’s telling us that she’s not an entity he’s jealous of, or who can leave, bc she’s him. she’ll always be there. - “i’m not worried”: comfort, peace, security

Did you dress up for Halloween? I spilled beer on your friend I'm not sorry A golf swing and a trampoline Maybe we'll do this again Tracksuit and a pony tail You hide the body all that yoga gave you Red wine and a ginger ale But you would make fun of me for sure

“halloween”: 

childhood 

gay holiday. when you can dress up as whatever you like, for many ppl a moment of liberation bc they can finally dress as themselves - they’re not wearing a costume. (so the answer to this question would even be “no”) // dorothrry

“i spilled beer on your friend”: 

jealous or protective act - stay away from her

if it’s little freak’s friend, it’s a queer friend. “i’m not sorry” - spilling beer on someone as a way of attracting their attention in a clumsy, flirty, teenage way - attracting the other queer person’s attention. + “your friend” then means that the friend was drawn to her, his queerness, from the start

“a golf swing and a trampoline”: 

calculated movement, strategic game. business meetings, grownup conversations, tactics <-> free, loose activity. childhood + jumping, trying to go high up in the air, trying to fly

“and”: i am this AND that

in the context of the beer spilling: talking to someone new (and queer) is a jump in the unknown as well as a well thought-out interaction, involving tactics as well as guts, and the urge to be free

“maybe we’ll do this again”: move for second date, part of convo with new friend / apprehensive, careful, shy, hopeful

“tracksuit and a pony tail”

again, (perceived, expected) opposites combined in one: tracksuit: streetwear, baggy clothing, masc. <-> ponytail: femme. put together, care for appearance. or: long hair, but it’s out of the way, not let down (yet)

“you hide the body all that yoga gave you” 

wearing that tracksuit

hiding your body in your clothes: very gender

yoga: practice that connects your mind and body. controlled, balanced, calm // trying to find answers/identity in connections, in the bigger picture

“red wine and a ginger ale”: 

alcohol and no alcohol - more balance in opposites 

his drinks of choice? hers? his and the friend? hers and the friend? 

red wine, earlier he spilled beer: red wine representing her? (brit. culture: Men drink Beer, Women drink Wine)

“but you would make fun of me for sure”: not in the context of all the opposites/balances, i think. more in the friend - spilled beer - do this again line. “maybe we’ll do this again?” “yeah, well, as long as you don’t spill beer on me next time!” stunted, dorky flirting. (remind you of something?)

entire verse symbolises how intertwined his (gender) identity and his interactions with others, especially in his love life, are. the traits he hasn’t properly learned how to balance yet, and his insecurities, coming into play when meeting new people, especially someone who has him all flustered

I disrespected you Jumped in feet first and I landed too hard A broken ankle Karma rules You never saw my birthmark

“i disrespected you”: i ignored you, i ignored an entire part of my identity

“jumped in” <-> high atop the kitchen counter. away from her, towards a standard, on the ground, ‘normal’, trying to be the norm, someone that isn’t him

“landed too hard”: tried too hard and it backfired, it hurt him

// if the truth tell, darling, you fell like there ain't enough dying stars in your sky - only the brave

“karma rules”: again, unseen powers that are at play in the universe, things humans don’t understand; secret structure to life. if you go against your intuition, what you know to be right in your heart

“birthmark”: you never saw me at my barest point, my most naked self. you never saw me be reborn, you didn’t live to see my queer birth

trauma changed him, made him lose her, the original ‘little freak’, who was soft and innocent. he still grew and changed, was (re)born, but now his queerness, his identity, is colored by that pain

SYNTHESIS

SOOOoooooOOOOOooo. It’s painful and it’s beautiful. Harry tends to do that with his most intimate songs. As you can see, I see this song entirely as one about gender and identity. When I first heard it, and I’d seen some posts about how it might be a love song for his s/o, I didn’t completely get it. I couldn’t get into that interpretation, it felt off to me. And then I read this post by @swimmingleo and it all clicked. 

To me, Harry is speaking to a younger self. Someone he used to know very intimately, yet distantly. (Very ‘Little Green’-ish.) His younger queer self, that was always there, but he didn’t engage with yet. He looked up at her, in wonder, not yet realising that he should join her up there and finally see the world from her point of view. Finally see where so many answers lie. Delicate, because it’s so complicated and nuanced. It’s about a time in his life when he was still figuring out who he was, seeing all these ‘opposites’ that simultaneously held true within himself, that came together and were contained by him. Feeling the urge to fit in and choose. Which he did, choosing for the jump down instead of the climb up with her, resulting in a loss of self. There is loss in this song, but more than anything love of someone, in particular love of himself at a certain time of his life. Before puberty, before figuring shit out. A simple, tender love for your younger self. 

I think this is a very universal feeling, but especially for queer people, to have a complex relationship with that younger self. During childhood, you were truly yourself, because it was before you understood what it was to control/suppress your impulses or feelings. Growing up, and going through puberty, can be insanely jarring and scary, especially if you stop feeling at ease in your own body. Social customs start dictating what you should like and look like, and sometimes you loose sight of who you really are, or sometimes you even intentionally hide. You start to feel disgusted by yourself, especially if it includes urges that deviate from the ‘norm’. It’s hard to feel tenderness for your (pre-)pubescent self, especially to muster up some understanding instead of harshness, concerning mistakes you made. Because of this younger childhood self that they so desperately wanted to stuff away to fit in. So, in this respect, Little Freak is a triumph. Of being patient, kind and tender to that self that fucked up, because they were figuring it out. Just like everyone else. It got you to where you are now, and made you who you are now, which is a complex, beautiful person. It’s also an homage to that queerness that was always there. That queerness that isn’t understood when you’re that young, but that you were also not afraid of yet. The one that slowly grows with you until you’re ready, when you stop being scared of it again.

In this album about home, love, change, childhood and identity, I think it makes the perfect centerpiece. It’s written from the point of view of someone with a deep acceptance of himself, someone who feels at one with who he was when he was a child, and sees how he evolved to who he is now. Someone complex and queer, who needed to get high up on that kitchen counter in order to see it all, and understands what it took for him to get there. It’s him reminiscing his childhood, his period of late blooming, and recognising, acknowledging, all of it in its complexities, which are only visible to him now. It’s a love song for the trans identity.

Little Freak and the Peculiar Boy, a one-person show.

[castielcommunism]

yeah i rly don’t think ppl give dean enough credit with the mary of it all in s12. the whole “oh this 40 year old man expects his mommy to make soup for him” type of take is boring like ok putting aside that maternal resurrection is an insane situation that would likely destroy one’s psyche, dean is also trying to unlearn so much…like yes the situation IS both funny and depressing, both for dean and mary (and sam to a lesser extent). but like you, i think deans reactions are a testament to the good parts of him, not the bad!

yeah like the expectations Dean puts on his mother ARE unreasonable don’t get me wrong but they’re deeply sympathetic. Like this is a parent who he has exclusively good memories of and has heard only good things about. She also doesn’t know Dean at all, which I think excites him. John was constantly disappointed in him and withheld his approval, and I think on some level Dean figured that if he could just be My Mom’s Oldest Son then he would finally have a parent who would properly love him and take care of him the way he needs. In some ways Dean is emotionally still a four year old because that was the point at which he lost his childhood and was treated like a resource by his father. I think Dean does want Mary to make him food and tell him everything will be okay and tuck him into bed. Not literally, but like emotionally those are the things he wants from her because they’re things he’s never had.

And in 12x22 when he watches her say that to his four year old self he realises he doesn’t actually want that because it’s a lie. They can’t reverse time or undo the damage in their family’s history, but they can start fresh and try again (which is exactly what he says to her).

And Sam wants those things to! Like he absolutely wants A Mom. But he doesn’t put all of his emotional expectations on Mary or like bare his soul to her immediately the way Dean does. Dean places all of his emotional baggage at her feet and demands she deal with it, so when she decides to leave he’s not only completely devastated by it, it also retraumatises him (my mom is leaving again) and confirms all his worst fears (once my parents know who I am they hate me). Which is, again, unreasonable and unfair to Mary, but it’s understandable. Sam doesn’t do any of that. He’s sad his mother is leaving but like he’s not going “oh my god my mom hates me and wants to leave me, specifically, because my lot in life is to be abandoned by people I love when I let them down” the way Dean does. Sam definitely feels a lot of resentment and anger towards Mary for making the demon deal, for not preparing him or their family for it, for dying and destroying their lives, but she never really fell from this high mantle for him. She’s just an utter and complete stranger that their father was obsessed with.

And obviously like Mary is not blameless in this. She did make a deal, and her actions did destroy her family. She had children with John and she does have a responsibility to them, even if they’re suddenly these grown adult men she doesn’t know. But the tragedy of it is that none of them are really at fault for what happened, or for Mary coming back, they just have to deal with these circumstances the best they can.

So yeah back to the original point of this ask, a very compelling part of s12 for me is watching Dean try really hard at making his relationship with Mary work. And like he’s kinda bad at it! He fucks up and they argue and he gets his feelings hurt but he still wants to try. We don’t really see him do that in the show with the other relationships he has, and it infuses a lot of much needed sympathy to his behaviour and just makes him overall a much more interesting character. I wish the other relationships he had with Sam and Cas had similar stakes, but this is supernatural etc etc.

[marley-manson]

☕ on margaret houlihan :) (thank you for always sending me asks btw <3)

Yeah ofc! tbh there are a few types of ask memes I feel too awkward to send stuff for lol, like "make an assumption about me" types, but in general I like to send them as much as I can bc it's always nice to hear ppl's thoughts on stuff <3

So anyway, I love Margaret! From the start to the finish tbh. I think in some ways she did get a raw deal in the first few seasons with the misogynist jokes and subplots thrown her way ofc, but at the same time I thought she was still great as an antagonist with a lot of hints of depth throughout. Her potential for depth and growth was seeded early on, thanks to some of the female writers (eg Hot Lips and Empty Arms) and just some solid writing in general, and I adore it. Her frenemies dynamic with Hawkeye and Trapper is one of my favourite parts of the whole show.

And I love seeing her develop! It makes so much sense for her character that she starts to grow when she breaks up with Frank, and gets engaged in a long distant relationship. Even from early on she had a performative vibe with Frank and the generals she fucks, and I loved seeing that openly acknowledged and contended with in episodes like Stars and Stripes and Comrades in Arms. There's a vibe that we only started to see the real her consistently after breaking up with Frank, and that she really got to explore herself more after divorcing Donald.

Like for one small example that might not even be intended but still works really well, contrast her dramatic horrified gasp when Frank tells her George is a "pervert" in George, vs her casual response of "to each their own" when Radar mentions a "guy back home who used to wear dresses" in Ping Pong.

I also love the suggestions that she used to be more fun and chill than she is now, with Lorraine, and Are You Now Margaret revealing that her old college friends were communists.

Oh and I love how unhappy she is about her life tbh - it’s so emotionally affecting to me. She gets a few episodes here and there that delve into that, and they’re always a punch to the gut for me, like Birthday Girls was painful.

I do think that like... they could’ve spent more time exploring her flaws in the second half of the show, because she is still quite flawed even without changing herself for men - like that scene in Post Op in season 5 where the wounded kid tells her about shooting a Chinese soldier after seeing how scared he was and realizing he was just another kid, clearly feeling guilty and fucked up about it, and her response is “Good for you!” I absolutely adore that scene, it’s very fucked up and dark and I wish Margaret got more moments like that, while being occasionally confronted about them as well.

But overall she’s a fantastic character in general and despite that I still adore her to pieces and I’m more than happy with the direction the show went with her.

Ty for the ask!

send me a ☕️ and a topic and i’ll talk about how i feel about it

[music-as-a-haunting]

ok i KNOW the ask game said specify a character but i think all ur pronoun/sexuality takes on all the mash guys would be very cool :3

M*x im fucking love you thank you for the precious gift youve given me…

ALRIGHT M*A*S*H BOYS NIGHT PRIDE EDITION

Hawkeye- is malewife a gender nah but weirdly enough i think Hawk is a he/him but in a “Harry Styles wearing a skirt and nail polish in 2018 while everyone on the internet collectively lost their shit” way. He is, as if I even had to say it, a disaster bisexual.

Trapper- all around red blooded american man, he/him, not exactly disaster bisexual but bisexual with a sunglasses emoji infusion 😎. he WOULD find it funny/endearing if you used she/her pronouns like yes I am that bitch hello how may I help you.

B.J. HUNNICUT IS THE WHOLE FRUIT SALAD. Idk this is just my hc but I feel like he is definitely in a lavender marriage with Peg like they definitely are best friends and they do love eachother but holy fuck Bea Jay Hunnicut is a funny little mlm he/they I want to see him in pain

Frank Burns- he fucking sucks i dislike talking about him but I really wish they fleshed out the “secret repressed homosexual that hates himself” idea so yeah he/him passably straight on the outside little fruit tart on the inside

Charles Emerson Winchester III- Secret Repressed Homosexual that Hates Himself Prime. I am a gay Charles purist and I can and absolutely will die on this hill. who the fuck is Donna He/Him and sometimes the royal “we” just cause hes my special little guy and he can.

Henry Blake- his pronouns are they/them! actually though? I feel like Henry could pretty solidly slot into the non-binary identity. Is this based on fact? No! Its based entirely on vibes (which is arguably more accurate) unrelated but they would also wear the “Women want me fish fear me” hat without a trace of irony

Sherman Potter- now THERE is a trans man who wouldve fuckin thrown down at stonewall. he/him StraightGuy tm who just loves his wife and his horses Very Much. arent there a lot of stories of AFAB ppl dressing as men to join the army? also i hc all of his buds in Old Soldiers to be trans guys too.

Radar- whats that post that goes like “I think Radar is autistic with massive amounts of t boy swag” its really funny but I would like to tweak the narrative n this one. I think Radars mom has the type of rural homegrown wisdom where she thinks the severity of her morning sickness would determine the babies gender so she assumed Radar would be a girl so everyone got her little dresses and painted the Radars room pink but after Radar was born she just. raised her as a girl anyway? you cant exactly scrap a 1-10 year female wardrobe and buy new in Ottumwa so out of convenience he was raised as a girl but recognized as a boy. so i feel by the time he gets drafted in korea and has spent plenty of time performing as both genders he really doesnt care anymore and only prefers mens clothing because he personally finds it more comfortable. i think he would accept he/she/they pronouns and be demisexual.

Klinger- said you were a lesbian girl me too I really dont know how to explain is but Klinger is both a straight man and a lesbian at the same time. definitely he/they/she and demisexual like Radar… i feel like Klinger is your dads older sibling and Radar is your moms younger sibling. same vibes for sure but different auras.

Father Mulchahy- ive been waiting for this one (and another thank you to M*x for letting me on my soapbox) FATHER! MULCHAHY! IS! NOT! ASEXUAL! HE! TOOK! A VOW! OF! CHASTITY! TWO COMPLETELY DIFFERENT THINGS! Please dont feel like im coming for your neck specifically if this is your hc its totally valid to want ace representation and it would only feel natural to assign it to the character who doesnt have any relationships as a part of their backstory or characterization but I feel like only assigning Mulchahy with this role is not only some pretty upsetting ace tokenism but harmful to the sanctity of his faith and vows he took on as a priest. That being said! I think Mulchahy is bisexual (and would probably think Jesus was too) and I think you could address him with he/they pronouns but has a slight preference towards he.

Sidney Freedman- It seems like almost everyone in my post has come down with a case of the bisexual he/theys 🤒 but yeah besides Hawkeye I think Sidney would be the vocal about his identity? He could run circles around homophobes and transphobes who try to claim gay/transness to be a disease and I think his wife probably knows and supports his identity although they remain monogamous (Sidney is NOT a cheater >:( )

Thanks so much for the ask!! I hope I answered thouroughly enough and if I forgot anyone please let me know so I can hit myself really hard with a cast iron pan

[attourney-at-lycan]

hmmmm was else

OOOOOO

mcd aaron..👩‍💻 thoughts ?

(i dont really have a prompt but like ur version/rewrite ideas because i love collecting everyones as its fascinating to see how ppl just get this bad self inswrt crush him up and then glue him back together adapted and polished into a new far better chara )

DUDE FUCKING I LOVE- okay. i love sad fictional men so much it’s not even funny. i see one and go ‘i can fix him’ which is what aaron is to me. a sad babygirl

in my rewrite, aaron actually…. does kill a majority of people in his village- those who he didnt kill managed to escape. it helps with the fact that he hides his identity and how the word he was a maniac that killed everyone was spread fast (though i dont doubt zane also had a hand in this)

by killing, i mean he was… sorta posessed by shad’s vengeful wish that was in the amulet. the reason why it reacted to him is because he’s a descendant of shad himself. i still need to work out certain details.

and i just realized u meant canon aaron. PLS IM SO STUPID-

okay canon mcd aaron thoughts rlly aren’t much? by this i mean: he didn’t really… do anything other than bring back garroth and save aph? and thats bc jason’s ass got jealous over his wife’s own ocs and needed to intervene like the normal husband he is-

but i really liked aaron, even back when he appeared bc i’ve always loved tragic sad characters like aaron. aka the ‘bad boys’. it’s also why i loved garroth so much, sad old man. and why i started to love laurence during season 2-

if there was more done with him, and if jason wasnt… jason- BASICALLY IF AARON’S CHARACTER WASNT HELD BACK BY AN IMMATURE CREEP, he would’ve been such a great character, which is what im trying to do?

i dont want the fact that he lost everyone to be brushed off. bc it clearly doesn’t seem to bother aaron a lot other than to be used when it is convenient to the plot-

im putting him early on in my rewrite bc 1. i want to develop his relationship with aphmau more as really close friends and 2. it feels like everything with him was rushed and i want to take my time with him bc he’s the type of character that takes a long time to open up to others.

im so sorry if i repeat myself, i feel like there’s sm much j want to see but my thoughts go way too fast for me to even grasp what i want to say so have this incoherent ramble wkdwbdiwhdhsisb

im also thinking about making him half werewolf bc he has to be taller than 7’0”

[2lekk]

The Elvis Ask Game

thanks for the tag babe @missmaywemeetagain

When and what was your first exposure to Elvis Presley?

im not sure if this was actually my very first exposure or not but this the earliest memory i have lol idek if it really counts but when i first watched ‘forest gump’ & they were saying he got his moves from forest. & then after that i remember hearing about him through ‘full house’.

And what was your first impression?

i didn’t really think too much about him & it’s crazy bc i’m beyond obsessed now lol i never really dived into him or music until recently. i mean i always thought the way he danced was interesting LOL but yea all i knew about really was the basics, the dance moves, jumpsuits, the ‘King’ title, his connection to black culture & and his death. it’s insane bc i very recently found out that my mother was a HUGE elvis fan & i was so in shock bc she never played any of his music or mentioned him to me or around me. i was offended lmaoooo bc i could’ve been had him in my life😭

Lace shirts or jumpsuits?

this is a very hard question bc baby the lace shirts?!?! especially when he tied up the bottom & showed a lil stomach?!?! pls. he was eating the gworls up. but also the jumpsuits. the fucking jumpsuits. he really did his big one w those. the taste🤌🏾😘

You can steal one of Elvis/Austin’s outfits, what’s it going to be?

sheesh. idk. it may just HAVE to be the leather suit… or maybe the outfit with the hat & the pink jacket from the merchandise scene. knowing me, i’ll probably wish i chose a different one when i’m scrolling on my feed later😂

C’mon, we know you’ve been watching/reading old interviews and random footage of the man, so what’s your favorite random Elvis quote?

PLS it’s soooo many. i’ll list a few

-‘if you don’t come back (take 3)’ hes messing around singing then he goes “i go crazy at 4 o’clock, you people never seen me. they have to put me in a straitjacket”

-during the 68 comeback special singing ‘love me tender’ he changed the words & says “you have made my life a wreck- uh complete”

-during the 68 comeback special again, he’s telling the audience that the 2nd audience is coming in next and they get a little upset & he goes “i just work here”

-one i ALWAYS catch myself saying now “my boy my boy” my dad asked me other day where i got that from & when i started saying it😂😂

it’s a lot more but that’s just off the top of my head

Did you find Austin Butler’s lips distracting despite them being in a movie about the King of plush upper lips? (Be honest now)

of COURSE i did. him as a whole was a little distracting🤣🤣

What’s an aspect of Elvis’ character you wish more people appreciated?

how loving he was. that man gave & gave & gave until he died. i wish the ppl that were in his life appreciated that instead of taking advantage of it. i 100% believe if those ppl really appreciated him like they say now then he would still be alive. i’ll leave it at that before i start crying

You meet Col. Tom Parker for the first time, forewarned with the knowledge of what a scumbag he is, what do you do?: A. nothing, you’re a coward who doesn’t care about abused golden-hearted men B. you give the Colonel a stern telling off C. you encourage Elvis to leave him and break the contract E. you slap a legal document against that fat suit and declare “Mrs. Claus is bringing you a lawsuit” F. you waste no time with formalities, it’s a letter opener to the juggler for that piece of trash

this depends on what point in elvis career we’re talking about here. id say i’d let him be until 58ish. i say this bc i’m not gon lie, he gave elvis the start he needed but 58 is when king creole came out & that was the last movie role of his i took serious🥴 i of course enjoyed the ones after that but it’s not the serious drama he wanted. he was given all bs roles & he wasn’t performing & making music he really enjoyed. i feel like from then on is when colonel started blatantly playing in his face. anyways, to actually answer the question, B C & E

What was your favorite aspect/scene from the Elvis 2022 movie?

fave scenes hands down, the vegas rehearsal & the trouble performance. i love love love the music that baz had created for this, that man is genius & everything fell into place perfectly.

it’s so many mixes that were such a small part of the movie that it wasnt released that i love SO much.

-i want jimmy’s elvis impersonation of ‘how do you think i feel’.

-i want that slowed down version of ‘that’s all right’ that “big boy crudup” sang

-the slowed down version of ‘that’s all right’ from when colonel first heard elvis

-the slowed down CRAWFISH?!?! pls i need that

that’s just a few, i need EVERYthing

but i literally wouldn’t change a thing. the transitionsssss!!! so amazing. idk the movie was just so fucking perfect. i watched it over 20 times (over 10 in theatres)

You can choose only one song or piece of media to convince someone to become an Elvis fan, what is it going to be?

there is literally no way i can answer this & i refuse to stress myself out trying🤣🤣 the way my fave elvis song changes every week?! pls, i wouldn’t know WHAT to put on. i would have that person there alllll damn day trying to convince them

How many children would you give Elvis Presley from your own -or theoretical- womb? (listen to the beast in ya, your feminism won’t serve you here)

pls. i will never have the desire to raise a child🤣 even if i did, im too selfish & would want him all to myself anyways lmaoo

Where are you hanging out with EP, his bedroom with the teddy bears, Club Handy, his private jet or Graceland?

graceland for sure, real personal. i would say the bedroom but the teddy bears would’ve been too much🤣 & i wouldn’t be the center of his attention at club handy LOL

What is the peak Elvis era? warning, this says an awful lot about you…

oh late 68- early 70 EASY. top TIER. i’ll stand on that forever.

How long have you been an Austin Butler fan (be honest now, God is watching)

i’ve known of him for a good minute but i wasn’t actually a fan or even paid him any actual attention until Elvis movie.

What kind of Elvis chick are you? -a 1950’s prospective wife material that he’s already sampled, a 1960’s filmset fling or a Vegas torrid backstage affair?

ummmm can i make up my own & say 60s wife?😂 idkkkk filmset fling maybe? LOL

Is Austin Butler an honorary southerner now? Answer options: A. hell no, California can keep his sweet cheeks. B. hell yes, he’s practically been possessed by the soul of the King of the South

oh possessed for sure😂 that’s stuck w him for life now

Pick your poison in the fan-fiction realm: angst, fluff, smut, fluffy smut, angsty fluff, angsty smut?…or is reading about Elvis Presley an acknowledged health hazard?

angsty smut & smutty fluff. easy picks LOL

Spit or swallow for this man? (And if you don’t understand this question move right along)

PLS im SWALLOWING. is that even a question???

Would Gladys approve of you? Take your above answer into consideration

i’m cracking up, gladys wouldve NEVER known that side of me. now me as an actual person? idk LOL but based off my love for her son? she would approve & love me 100%

Which of Elvis’ cars is your favorite?

i’m not a car perso bc n at all so the pink cady just bc it’s my fave color.

What are your odds for besting this man at karate?

oh pls. none. at all. it would’ve been over for me REAL quick

If you could meet Elvis and have enough composure to tell him something, what would it be?

oh wow. ummmm. to sum it up(not going in detail bc i’ll start crying LOL) i would just let him know exactly how loved he is & how he’s still changing lives of millions

What’s the Elvis 2022 quote you’ve been mumbling to yourself ever since you heard it?

“let it all hang out EP, let it all hang out”

“been a long time baby”

i repeat a lot of them very randomly but those are just two

What are your top 3 go-to Elvis songs?

as i was saying earlier, the answer to this changes pretty often lol but rn these are the ones i’ve been throwing on first (don’t confuse this list w my all time fave songs lol)

‘after loving you (take 2)’

‘if you don’t come back’

‘just pretend (midnight show)’

If you could spare him one tragedy what would it be?

the death of his mother. no questions. i 100% believe SO much would’ve been avoided if she lived longer. elvis for SURE would’ve lived longer, can’t convince me any different.

Is there a modern artist that sorta scratches for you the itch that Elvis’ absence leaves?

no. LOL sorry not sorry. it’s one elvis & nobody gives me the feeling he does. literally.

How did you react at the end of the movie when In the Ghetto started to play A. I got up and fixed a snack because I have no soul, B. I left feeling alarmingly horny, C. I was impressed but didn’t realize how affected I was until days later when it was still with me D. I cried buckets they had to bring in a mop E. I may have appeared emotionless but in fact my soul was leaving my body and I don’t think it’s returned quite yet

D but at the same E? by the time in the ghetto comes on i’m still stuck & also upset that it’s over & instantly want to rewatch. i will quite literally never be the same after that movie. i can’t express enough how much it has affected my entire being. i never been so impacted in my life

This was much fun!! thanks again for tagging me to be apart of this @missmaywemeetagain

now idk who to tagggg. i’ll tag you friend @ooshhella hope you have as much fun as i did😁

[aerltarg]

Maybe this is a stupid question, buuuuut:

I just can't imagine a world that Rhaegar comes back from the Trident, wins the war and becomes king. No, I'm not a anti Rhaegar, matter of fact I like him very much, I'm just can imagine how would Lya, little Jon, this whole affair, would settle in the capital. The norm that fics (at least those I read) tend to follow is to make Rhaegar:

1. A douche, paranoid and destiny-obessed king.

2. Completely incompetent, aloof monarch, that deep down has a heart of gold, but can't really be understood.

I mean, isn't he supposed to be a scholar since he was a kid? What's are your thoughts about it?

oh, yeah, i can totally understand this! it's is the whole point in canon actually, "the wrong man came back from the trident". you would expect a hero win against his antagonist and have a happy ending w his lady love but it doesn't happen. instead the subversion happens to them with rhaegar being killed by robert who becomes obviously a shitty king and lyanna dying after him. they were never supposed to have happy ending, they were created as tragic and doomed and dead from the beginning for the whole plot to start, jon to have his parentage mystery and dany to take the passed baton as the last dragon, prophesied savoir and the heir who has to carry entire house on her back now.

as for the realistic rhaegar wins aus that's the difficult question. tbh we just don't know enough abt their situation, plans and wishes. you see, e.g. in agot we can be right in ned's head and see his motivations, what he was thinking abt, what he was planning, what he was hoping to do. but if his story was told the way rhaegar's was i bet he would have his own crowd of haters and ~intellectuals~ jumping out every two seconds w their "hot takes" how actually all hints abt what rlly happened (ned being a good man w his own sense of honour, justice and experiences affecting him and the deal w cersei's children) doesn't matter and he was an ambitious prick, planned to grasp the power by being joffrey's regent and make his daughter sansa queen. (you can actually insert there any bullshit and still don't reach the level of stupidity of such "hot takes" this fandom loves so much lmao). also he would be blamed to the hell and beyond for being too stupid and not foreseeing the future and actions of other ppl bc ofc after everything happened it's so easy to say what was so obvious to notice. also they would say that the deaths of his men and horrible fates of his kids are 100% his fault and even straight up say he killed them lmao. i can rant abt it for hours so yeah. this is a situation w too many unknown variables bc it depends too much on actions of too many characters we don't know enough abt. the only thing it's possible to tell for sure is the fact that there couldn't be any perfect solutions since things got too complicated at this point.

such fics as you've mentioned tho are just a part of this dumb fanon where rhaegar is "too prophecy obsessed"/"incapable of love"/shrodinger's rhaegar both smart and stupid at the same time/whatever/all of this combined lmfao. the man was notably intelligent from the early age as you've absolutely rightly mentioned, his guesses abt himself being tptwp have nothing to do w egocentrism as some parts of the fandom would want us all to believe unless he wouldn't be so reasonable abt it and later on, after so many years, wouldn't have changed his mind and thought his son could be tptwp.

and literally fuck all antis that think you shouldn't consider prophecies that hold real power in this fantasy world lol. you know, aegon the conqueror was said to be motivated (or at least partly) to unify westeros by the prophecy and still got the treatment of perfect/maximum close to perfect figure of a leader everyone should look up to from the narrative and grrm. prophecy obsessed much, huh? i don't even talk abt all these parallels between him and rhaegar grrm put there not for bitches to ignore them completely! and i will never get tired of reminding that dismissing prophecies is UNWISE for targaryens of all people. the house whose story is built on the dream of young daenys and her father aenar that listened to her despite common sense (or what local "anti magic"/"anti prophecies" clowns consider to be common sense). targs would be as dead as the rest of dragonlords if not for daenys the dreamer. who else in the world has as many reasons to take prophecies seriously as them?

yet antis out there act as if rhaegar is one dimensional weirdo whose every character trait is abt mf ~prophecy obsession~. like how can they miss one of the main points so badly?? the game of thrones distracts ppl from the real danger beyond the wall, yk, the one rhaegar was aware of and meant to deal with. there wouldn't be such a problem if he became king and had as many years of head start before ice zombies apocalypse as ignorant bobby b did. rhaegar had to die just for westeros to sink in shit and our main heroes to save everyone to make this story more epic LMAO

so yeah, too many ppl portray rhaegar as this one dimensional robotic creature without any knowledge of what feelings are idk even for what reason. it seems these ppl can't read for real bc rhaegar was not only intelligent af as well as dutiful ("it seems i must be a warrior" but "he loved his harp more than his lance") but also. ugh emotional?? my boy had constant emo sessions w brooding at ruins of summerhall, sleeping out there beneath the stars all alone and writing songs that made all women cry. does it sound as someone who "isn't capable of love" lol? folks act as if he was completely heartless from the day he was born (bc he didnt play w other kids ig??) but in reality their emotional range is less than the one of a spoon in comparison to rhaegar's lol. i'm not even gonna address the horrible attitude of demonizing him for his implied depression, vile clowns never listen to themselves when they talk abt targaryens and their "madness".

tldr; these fics are mostly lame af and suck at characterization if they're making rhaegar like that lol. anyway his character isn't abt being a good or a bad king, it's abt being a would-be-king for characters in books and readers in reality to sigh over his tragic aura and pretty aesthetic abt how it could've been. however, grrm clearly doesn't write rhaegar as evil or incapable as some parts of the fandom would want to try to persuade others. realistically speaking in the scenario where he wins there couldn't be any perfect decisions but it's a territory of speculations on thin air and lit nothing more since canon doesn't provide us with enough information to rlly theorize anything instead of building biased headcanons some ppl call "analysis".

but remember what barristan said about rhaegar while practically watching him all his life, from a literal baby to the man grown:

“I know little of Rhaegar. Only the tales Viserys told, and he was a little boy when our brother died. What was he truly like?”

The old man considered a moment. “Able. That above all. Determined, deliberate, dutiful, single-minded.” (ASOS, Daenerys I)

“Prince Rhaegar’s prowess was unquestioned, but he seldom entered the lists. He never loved the song of swords the way that Robert did, or Jaime Lannister. It was something he had to do, a task the world had set him. He did it well, for he did everything well. That was his nature. But he took no joy in it. Men said that he loved his harp much better than his lance.” (ASOS, Daenerys IV)

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Transcript of End of the Road Special

Transcript of End of the Road Special. 

Please let me know if I made any errors in transcription. Twitter version Family Don’t End with Blood Transcription Winchester Mythology Transcription

Dabb: Ultimately, we came up with something that we're all very proud of Singer: You never know what the audience is going to like so we really tried to say "what would make us happy? Would we be satisfied with where we've taken them?"

The Carry On song was a guideline.

Singer: The myth of what these brothers were throughout 15 years... We didn't shy away from fatalism, but we wanted to be able to have it be kinda uplifting as well.

Dabb: If you're going to do something that feels like a complete arc, you have to kinda go back to the beginning of it (clips of them hunting vamps from s1 & 15.20) When it comes to Sam & Dean- it's all about getting back to, in some ways, these two guys on the road in this car.

Dabb: They've been doing this job for 15 years now. They've fought everyone from demons to vampires to God himself, but at the end of the day, they're still working guys, out there on the road & taking cases. We've tried to never lose sight of that.

Dabb: There are times when we've been wrapped up in our own mythology a little bit. We've always tried to get back to the basics, which are: these two guys, saving people, hunting things. 

Eugenie: I think we sort of knew generally what the ending would involve.

Eugenie: We might not have known the mechanics, but we sort of knew there would be a victorious, glorious sacrificial ending bc I think sacrifice is a big theme in the series.

For every great thing you do, a cost must be paid.

Singer: Andrew & I talked about it. We were in agreement pretty quickly... talked to the rest of the writing staff & let them know what we wanted to do and we were open to suggestions. And then we pretty much pitched it to Jared and Jensen.

Jensen talks about flying to LA. Jensen: So before we ever even started 15, we knew how the last portion of the story was going to go. We didn't know how we were going to get there, but we kinda knew the final- the finish line- we knew what... what that was going to look like.

Jared: I don't think there's ever been a season of SPN in 15 years where the way the writers thought the show would play out for that season- ended up being the way it played out And so we were aware of that. They told us here's what we're thinking, here's what happens to Castiel

Jared: In the finale, Dean dies & Sam lives on. And then we think they're going to meet up in heaven. 

I remember Jensen... just because I know him so well- he seemed to bristle a little bit.

Jensen: It was hard to hear then & it was hard to read now. Not because I didn't like it, not because I wished it had gone differently... I'm not adverse to it. I think it's a great ending. I'm proud to film it.

Singer: And we just aimed for that, you know, throughout the season. We knew where we were going.

Jensen: Reading it & knowing that... there's just a weight that is so much larger reading these scripts than I've ever experienced before. 

There's an emotional weight that these scripts are going to carry & these episodes are going to have that I don't think we've ever seen before.

Brad: [J2] were so young when all of this started. They brought to it such conviction & such commitment to the effort. 

That's one of the things that kept the show going for so many years... a show that was designed for very young guys, footloose & fancy free, & on the road…

Brad: To see these guys grow up b4 your eyes into- men, not boys any longer- was amazing. 

BABY Jared: Though the story does involve Sam & Dean chasing supernatural things, it really is a story about two brothers that love each other & ultimately will do anything for each other.

Jensen: There's really one person that gets it on the level that I get it, and that's Jared. Jared: I've never spent as much time with another human being as I have with Jensen Ackles. He will be my friend and brother forever. And I know that.

BABY Jensen: There's a lot of dynamics between the two brothers, there's a lot of history between them, there's a lot of banter between them... it's good stuff S15 Jensen: We had a partner in crime & we leaned on each other for, you know, for times when it was tough.

Jensen: But we also won together. We got to share the experience of success & the experience of getting picked up for another season. Watching these two characters go through what they're going through, when we're working 14 hours & it's 2-3 o’clock on a Sat morning and we're just now finishing filming out in the rain and mud and we gotta race to the airport to get on a plane because we've got a photoshoot in LA & we've gotta do on camera interviews and we gotta promote the show that we love so much that we were just in the mud & the rain filming hours before we're exhausted and it's like there's only one person that gets that right now. That gets how I feel and that's this guy standing next to me. That's pretty cool. That's pretty cool to have somebody like that.

Brad: We knew it was going to be impossible to tie up every aspect of all of the cans of worms that we opened up. 

We did want to bring a proper ending to the guys, the guy's relationship.

Brad: Then of course we had this huge corner we painted ourselves into with the most powerful thing in the universe being the big bad of the season. We try and find a proper send off for Jack & for Cas. What to do w/ the boys & is that a together farewell or an individual?

It was just... lots of moving parts. 

Dabb: I give a lot of credit to Bobo who really was the one who started banging the drum early & often to ending the mythology in 19 and end the characters in 20.

Brad: You're battling God & battling God & you have this epic situation going on through the first 3/4 of the show & then what? You send off Dean in act 4? That just felt wrong. Eugenie: We had this obligation, it was really mandatory, that we tie up the mythic narrative and leave the final episode for the emotional resolution. I [was] more on the side of not wanting to best God. To have God change to be more like his creations. So there were philosophical arguments, but we always knew God's resolution was going to be a big ticket item.

Jensen: We'd started day 1 of the 2nd to last episode, 19. We were 1 day down on that episode & we were just about to start our 2nd day & we got the call that morning that we were not going to be coming in that day.

Jensen: So we figured ok, we'll figure out protocol, figure out what we need to do, & we'll just regroup, come back on Monday. As that day progressed, it was like- this looks like more of an apocalypse that is ascending upon us than just a bad cold.

They pulled the plug & they said everybody go home. 

Singer: Fortunately, we got assurance from both the studio & the network that one way or another we were gonna finish the series. That was comforting to us, but we didn't know when we were going to go back.

Eugenie: We didn't know what we were going back to... if this was the last time we would ever see the set. There was no plan. It was just get out of dodge. Dabb: When it first happened, we thought it would be a couple of weeks, maybe a month.

I had conversations w/WB where they expected everyone to be back shooting in June & then things got worse & pushed & pushed.

Eugenie: Slowly as we settled into that 4 or 5 month period, discussions were going on w/the studio, & the networks, & the actors. We knew there would be restrictions on what we were allowed to shoot, but finally, the mechanics were figured out. 

Singer: So they were ready to go pretty quickly, shooting in Van, where covid wasn't quite as virulent as it was [in LA].

Dabb: We were one of the first shows, one of the first WB shows to start back up. So in a way, we were kinda a guinea pig. But, in being that, I think everyone took it really seriously. We had 0 positive tests. Crew members weren't going out on the weekends.

They were like look, if I get sick, it hurts the whole show. That speaks to the family culture up there, where we've had so much of our crew for so long. Where J2 & Singer provide such great leadership.

Singer: When I was in prep for 20, I was basically in the office but couldn't go to the set. It was very odd for me not to be able to go to the set while I was in prep. 

Everybody just hung in there & did what they were supposed to do.

Brad: Then we were faced with the dilemma of having to rewrite a lot of the stuff bc of the pandemic bc of the limitations that we knew were going to come on the production.

Jensen: We were gearing up for, not only the end of that season, but the end of the series. There was a lot of big, big things written-packed- into those last two scripts.

Jared: At first, it was supposed to be a lot of our old cast from prior seasons in a Roadhouse with Kansas.

Everybody had already agreed. Kansas was going to be in Van. We were going to have dad there & mom there. Just probably 20 or 30 different actors & actresses who had been a part of the SPN's canon over the last 15 & a half years.

Jensen: It was scheduled to be the last day that we were going to film, so it was almost like rolling right into a nice wrap party on camera. 

Brad: The idea of flying a boatload of ppl up there to quarantine for 2 weeks so they could shoot for a day was making less & less sense.

Eugenie: How do we make this work? And while you're doing that, you also don't want to sacrifice the heart and soul of the project. 

So we came up with a reduced, much more intimate ending. It has been replaced by something equally magical & rewarding.

Singer: I felt an enormous responsibility in directing the finale of a show that's been on for 15 years. Andrew, when he saw the cut, he said some really nice things to me as to, you know, the way I handled the material.

Jensen: The scenes that were filmed on our last day on the sound stages were filled with the most emotion of the final episode. 

Singer: One of the really hard things was we're on another stage that wasn't the MoL stage & they started wrecking the MoL sets

They'd been working on this set and been apart of this- this family for just as long if not longer than the set's been around. I was like "it's really sad seeing this get taken down" and the other guy said, "I'm trying to hold back tears while I'm swinging this hammer."

Jared: As we start saying goodbye to characters, to locations, like it just seems like every day you would wake up and there would be some reason to cry. 

Misha: This is a show ultimately about love, & empathy, & caring, & I think that Castiel embodies that.

Misha: Half the crew was crying. It was really such a sweet, supporting environment to be in for the demise of a character that, of course, for me is really important. 

But it was so lovely to see that, you know, the folks that I'm- I'm working with were also there for Cas at that moment. 

Alex: To get to work with these caliber people & see your friends every day is really special & is not something that often happens in this business for this long. It's been definitely a topsy turvy last couple weeks here with us and the crew. 

Jared: Friday of the final full week was the big scene in the barn with the vampires where Dean suffers his fate. They did the first two days with the entire stunt team & the young boy actors. 

And then they cut it for Thursday night and they're like, okay, Friday, tomorrow, we’re starting the dialogue. Dean, you're on the post. Sam, you just cut off the last vampire's head.

That was the scene- that was where Supernatural was really encapsulated. 

Jensen: And then the next week we kind of had this- on the road encore get together filmmaking scenario that felt more like we made it & it was more pats on the back as opposed to tearful goodbyes. 

Dabb: In a weird way you can look at the 15 seasons is like Sam & Dean's emotional evolution. You know instead of therapy, they kill vampires, but other than that it's kind of the same & brings them both to a very good place. And a place where they can, as the song says, you know, lay their weary head to rest. 

This felt like the most honest & emotionally fulfilling episode for these characters to us. Jared: I got thinking about how Supernatural started & how the majority of times how I thought it should end. It started with Sam & Dean Winchester. I think it's proper that it ended with Sam & Dean Winchester together again. 

Jensen: When the cameras stop rolling & Bob yelled, “Cut!” and Bob yelled, “That’s a series wrap on Supernatural.” There was- a there was a loud cheer that echoed through that canyon we were filming in. I will- I will happily say that there were hugs that happened and that needed to happen. Those are people that I spent not just years with, but so much time with- it's like brothers in arms and so to put it to bed the way that we did felt really good and then felt good to hug some people, I'll tell you that much. Singer: I thanked everyone, but I wanted to really thank people who had been with us from the beginning and as I looked around, there were so many people who had been there from the beginning.

We really were a family. I always say about this show is one of the reasons that it was a success and is that it was not only about the Winchester family, but it was about the Supernatural family. 

Jared: So now that's all said and done, I guess I can look back at it and just be proud that I helped this show carry on and I'm really proud of the blood, sweat, and tears that I put in, and I feel like- I feel like that sacrifice was also maybe one of the things I learned from Sam, you know? Sam had to sacrifice a lot. So, I'm honored and flattered and grateful that I got to be a part of that journey.

Dabb: You're never going to have another show like this. You're never gonna have another experience like this. For a lot of different reasons, from how long it ran, from the family that the show became, from the amazing fans that we have. [Footage of us] From the emotional investment people can put in over 15 years of their lives. 

Some started watching this when they were in high school, when they were 15, they're 30 now, they might have kids. That's their- that's like half their life. They've been with this show. You're not gonna have that again. Shows just aren’t gonna run this long, especially genre shows, but I don't know that I'm ever gonna do anything else in my career that I'm gonna be more proud of than having been involved in this show. 

Jared: The things that stick out are just how important it is to keep putting one foot in front of the other. And keep on working and wake up every day and treat it like it could be your last and- and if you make it out the other side, you'll be happy and proud of what you did. 

Jensen: The crew had packed up, they had cleared the bridge, and they were all starting to, you know, load their trucks and get moving. And Jared and I just kind of hung back, and we just took a moment. I looked at him and I said, “I’m proud of us, man. I'm proud of what we've done.”

We know that that's the collective we, that is everyone that is involved, that is- you know from the top down. You know, for our portion, for what we contributed to this monster of the show, he and I reflected on that, and still able to see and smell the roses.