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khattikeri Ā· 19 days ago
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every day i marvel at mxtx's ability to write 30-something year old men who come across as bitter vitriolic jaded milfs
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chameleon8 Ā· 5 months ago
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I can not believe that Jason Grace has wormed his way into becoming āœØThe BoyāœØ when 90% of what I remember him doing canonically was get concussed and be confused
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ladeedayda Ā· 8 days ago
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I've talked abt this with friends before, but the complete and utter lack of any romance in TCF is what really makes it special to me. And what greatly amuses me when reading the manhwa, as the artist made Cale so sexy for no reason šŸ˜‚
But I can't stress enough how impossibly rare it is to find stories with no romance. Not just between the main characters, but between any characters *at all*. Everyone is in a static relationship, a widow, or single. Romance is a concept that is so alien to the plot, it may as well not exist. And I LOVE IT. Consider me mildly bias as an aro/ace, but it allows the plot to focus all of its attention on the story it wants to tell (namely, Cale driving his family insane).
And at this point? Introducing any kind of romance at all would undermine the entire plot in a way that would be irreparable. I've compared it to a simple office romcom having a zombie apocalypse c-plot halfway through the story. It'd change the story *completely*, lmao.
That being said, the vibes between Alberu and Cale are hysterical. I don't think it started out this way, but at this point? The author is absolutely aware of and playing with it. Alberu treats Cale like he's his exasperated elderly wife that's constantly dealing with her stubborn husband, it's fantastic.
And on that note, if there's romance in part 2? Don't tell me šŸ˜‚
#tcf spoilers#blabbing.txt#I'm so annoying about it but man. I just. I treasure the total lack of romance so much#the trash of the count's family#trash of the count's family#tcf#And I know. It's rude to assume. The author may be happily married. But.#The aro/ace vibes are the most powerful I've ever seen. They jump off the page and directly into my heart#Author isn't just aro/ace coded. She's MY TYPE of aro/ace coded.#(namely being completely and confidently disinterested in the entire concept)#And what's more? Author loves women. Maybe not lesbian- that's way too presumptuous.#But I think the moment that sold that thought to me was when Cale ruthlessly punished a female bad guy without a spare thought to gender#Listen. Listen. I love every single character in this story. They're all so wonderful. Girls and boys alike. All written with so much care.#But the biggest tell of how a writer thinks of women... Is how they write their bad guys. And TCF blows me away every single time.#Bad guy women are ASSHOLES. IT'S AWESOME!!! Seriously#They're pretty rare but when they come up? They're treated with the same level of disregard as anyone else. MWAH.#Of course there's no gruesome gal torture scenes- those are all dudes. And I'm ngl. This is 100% contradictory but... it would feel gross.#However. He does psychologically break at least one woman šŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚ that was very funny. What a king#(spoilers: I'm talking about the gal Choi Han yoinked during the finale at maple castle)#Anyways. Author has her priorities in order. Dumbass protagonist and his fleet of exasperated kids. Women kicking ass. šŸ’Æ
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wonder-worker Ā· 6 months ago
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Studies of Elizabeth Woodville [ā€¦] have been hampered by the continuing fascination with her brother-in-law, Richard III. The Ricardian [and Yorkist] apologetic is now largely dependent upon the argument that the Woodville family posed such a threat to Richard of Gloucester, and the kingdom as a whole, that Gloucester had little option but to take the throne from his Woodville-dominated nephew. Although this argument has [irregularly] been contested, a reassessment of the queen's role in 1483 has not yet been attempted. Michael Bennett, in his 1987 account [...] still dismissed her as `an inveterate intriguer, capable in her vanity and fecklessness of some remarkable shifts and turns'. But more often she is scarcely mentioned in general histories of the period.
ā€” J.L. Laynesmith, ā€œEnglish Queenship 1445-1503ā€ (Thesis for the degree of DPhil in Medieval Studies, University of York, Centre for Medieval Studies, April 1999)
#Every single thing in this remains as true in 2024 as it did when she published it in 1999 btw#historicwomendaily#elizabeth woodville#wars of the roses#my post#Ironically Laynesmith herself is guilty of the same thing: her 'reassessments' of Elizabeth's role are really bad and always favor Richard#(so I don't know how she can call them 'reassessments')#also Laynesmith seems to think that the anti-Woodville argument has been 'repeatedly contested'#I would love to see those arguments because frankly from what I've seen (and I've searched A LOT) they are entirely non-existent#even historians like Rosemary Horrox who analyze Richard III critically retain a very negative and equally condemning view of the Woodville#throughout it all - so I am not sure that counts lol#That being said I'm really glad that Laynesmith pointed out how Elizabeth ā€œis scarcely mentioned in general histories of the periodā€#because it's absolutely true#Like I said before - even in traditionally negative narratives there is very lacking interest in Elizabeth as a historical figure#She's only relevant for marrying Edward and Promoting Her Family and scheming against Richard#Most historians barely pay attention to her beyond that#The thing about Elizabeth is that she really has the worst of both worlds - she's vilified and diminished in equal measure#This has a lot to do with her brand of vilification; the persistent need to reaffirm Richard of Gloucester's appeal and authority;#and the very specific anomalous place she occupies in this period of time (between the three dynasties)#In the so-called 'era of queenship studies' where other controversial queens like Eleanor of Aquitaine Isabella of France and#MoA were receiving a great deal of attention and reassessments - Elizabeth remained equally vilified but was also#ultimately still dismissed as someone who 'grounded her queenship in her carnality' (with Edward IV) :/#So when recent 'revisionist' reassessments have depowered her still further...not only are they singularly unhelpful and inaccurate#they are also actively contributing to a major element of her negative historiography that has literally been present across centuries#hence why they annoy me so much#(This is also why Elizabeth is often written as a hysteric with haphazard and incoherent motivations in historical novels btw#It's a direct result of the vilification + diminishment combination that's been so persistent with her)
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aj-lenoire Ā· 1 year ago
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i do not enjoy harry potter anymore and even when i did, snape was not a character i ever liked, but for some reason my ā€˜for youā€™ page is just full of dedicated snape stan accounts and i hate it
#anti jk rowling#anti severus snape#anti harry potter#like okay i remain a strong proponent of ā€˜you are allowed to like whatever fiction you likeā€™#but itā€™s important to consider whether the authorā€”when presenting certain subjectsā€”critically evaluates their own opinion on those subjects#like how stephanie meyer in twilight thinks itā€™s funny to have all the vampires make dog jokes at jacob because heā€™s a werewolf#but heā€™s native so it comes off as REALLY racist#(and also in the case of jkr specifically sheā€™s using her money from hp to fund terf shit LET HP DIE)#and the dozen-ish snape takes iā€™ve seen seem to demonstrate these accounts are either not interested in or cannot critically evaluate snape#a character written by a woman to be a redeemable asshole who take out a petty schoolyard resentment against a kidā€™s dad ON THE KID#the orphaned abused kid i might addā€”when the redeemable man in question is implied to have come from an abusive home himself#i just saw one like ā€˜oh if itā€™s okay to call him ā€˜snivellusā€™ then it must be okay to call luna ā€˜loonyā€™ right?#sorry when was luna joining a hate group against muggles and muggle-borns#i donā€™t deny james and co bullied snape quite viciously but he gave back just as much and also never grew out of that pettiness#not to mention he only turned from voldemort because he was specifically going to kill lily#all other muggleborns dying was apparently just fine by him#i still donā€™t get the love of this character not because itā€™s a bad thing to like villainous characters#but itā€™s ALWAYS the justification of his actionsā€”as if he was in the right to bully harry (an orphaned abused child) because of harryā€™s dad#thereā€™s no criticism consideration of the authorā€™s biases in there#should you not be a bit concerned that she thinks calling your best friend a slur ā€˜ONE TIMEā€™ is something that should be just forgotten#aj abstractions
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aroaessidhe Ā· 2 years ago
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2023 reads //Ā twitter thread
To Shape A Dragonā€™s Breath
YA fantasy
a young Indigenous girl finds & bonds with a dragon hatchling - the first time in many generations for her people - and is required to go to the coloniserā€™s dragon academy in their mainland city, to learn how to raise her dragon and the science of its magic
historical inspired setting on the cusp of industrial revolution with steampunk vibes
bi polyamorous MC, Black lesbian SC, nonverbal autistic SC
#To Shape A Dragonā€™s Breath#aroaessidhe 2023 reads#this is really really good i loved it!#the chapter titles are all like snippets of a story. or like sentence fragments that match up. which is cool#it is definitely more about being indigenous in a coloniser institution than Dragon School - not Super dragon heavy if you want that#I suspect the subsequent books will get into that when she gets big enough to ride and stuff#tā€™s also def YA! iā€™ve seen a few ppl assume itā€™s adult and be like its very young :( but like. I mean its perfectly reasonable for a 15yo m#definitely a Lot of racism and colonialism which is not fun to read! though it's still through a YA lens. there was def a part of me that#was imagining consequences of the narrative as if it were an adult novel#on that line of thought - at the end a lot of it is kind of solved by them going to the king and he's is like. oh no racism is happening?#that's bad i'll deal with those people! which felt like. a little simplistic. but maybe the easiest way to end the narrative for book 1 -#I don't think the author ACTUALLY is going to portray the king as a Good Guy throughout the series - it just felt conveniently like -#a simple YA solution to some very big and complex elements? if that makes sense? (but again - it is YA so it's allowed I suppose!)#some of the worldbuilding (like all the science learning) is probably setup for next books - we donā€™t really see any practical application#the romances are also subtle and not Overbearing In Book One which i like - leave some space for the series!#also her getting fanmail from a 10yo mixed race girl who looks up to her šŸ„ŗ#anyway. i really loved it!#oh also it reminded me a little of leviathan. i guess just the steampunk/time period/european culture....#To Shape A Dragon's Breath
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luvbug724 Ā· 11 months ago
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while i am here i stayed up til 8am rereading icebreaker by a. l. graziadei yesterday for the first time since it came out & ive been offline because theres no fandom for it but i cant stop thinking abt mickey so ive been devouring any mindless book i can get my hands on. if u want a cute little YA romance abt sports & mental health it is probably up ur alley :) you :) read it :)
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sskk-manifesto Ā· 7 months ago
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Ep 5!!!
#Episodes that make me go ā€œThe author has never talked with a woman everā€ šŸ˜“šŸ˜“šŸ˜“#I don't like how Lucy's character is handled at all. And I feel like I can't talk about it because I'm just going to sound like a bitterā€“#ss/kk shipper... But I really don't like it. And if it can help my case I'm a multishipper so I really don't take anyā€“#issues with atsu/lucy I like the ship quite a lot actually.#So you're telling me there's this girl... Who meets this boy who pretty much ruined her life by directly causing her to lose her job...#And the next time she sees him she's going to sacrifice her own freedom for him as well as tell him ā€œwhen you're done doing your thingsā€“#come and save meā€ (longest ewwww ever)... And when she regains freedom (author didn't bother to explain how because they don't care)ā€“#she goes to work... As a waitress at the cafĆ© beneath his workplace. So he can keep doing his Cool Superpowers Job while she literallyā€“#must serve him every time he visits the place. It's just ?????????????????????????????????#Lookā€š I don't dislike Lucy and I feel general affection towards her. It's just that they make her act like no one ever would#Just for the sake of the plot I guess#And like I knoww it's (probably just a little) more nuanced than that. I know Lucy is living her own fairy tale fantasy.#It's just that what I've said about her story is still trueā€š you know?#I'm sorry but as sweet as atsu/lucy can be. I really hate the author for making Lucy a waitress. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry.#It's so weird. This anime has women writing standards that feel like dating back to the 20s#Same with Katai and the ideal woman tbh. Like why are women to be seen as this abstract impersonal entities? Why can't they just be people?#Ideal for WHO. It's like super screwed up of a concept. What even is an ideal woman? What does it mean to be a woman anyways?#They just want to say ā€œideal wifeā€. But women aren't made to be wives their existence isn't functional to another person.#Sorry. I derail. Next episode is going to be even worse on this front ughhhh#Back to the episode: once again it really shows they were running out of budget with this seasonā€šā€šā€š the animation looks very suffered#Too many flashback also... I feel bad for the animators tbh#I don't really like the shift in art style :( Not even Atsushi I found particularly pretty this episode my heart cries#The nail pulling thing made me feel like throwing up afhsjyabfsbfwasfvb I feel like I can bear worse gore but there's a couple of littleā€“#specific things I can't stand and this seems to be one of them pffftttt#I like Higuchi I think she's both very funny and cool. I really wish she was explored more (but then again looking at Teruko... )#The relationship between Kunikida and Katai looks so interesting even though we only get glimpses of it. Kunikida regrets Katai leavingā€“#the ada but is also happy for him but also worries for him. He comes to his house seemingly to check on him and starts cleaning around.#The way he loves him and cherishes their friendship and shared history is really evident and it makes for a compelling dynamic.#Perhaps I should read their short story... In any case. Going to someone's house and compulsively start doing the dishes half out of willā€“#to help out half because he can't bear the mess sounds a lot like something I'd do lol
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tanicus-caesareth Ā· 10 months ago
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guarana drama, damage control
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angy-grrr Ā· 8 months ago
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I really dont know what hori has planned for the next chapters n the evolution of the characters I talk about 99% -is himiko alive? if so, where is she? why the mystery surrounding her character? if she is dead, is that why ochako is acting like her old self?
Is ochako actually, genuinely doing good and happy? is her conclusion going to involve a love confession and end up with deku after all of that? did she lie to himiko? how is she copying with it all?
Is izuku thinking of leaving UA again? Will he get a new quirk? Will he get support as a quirkless hero? what is he thinking about? what about his feelings, why the mystery?
What about katsuki? why is he able to do so so much after dying? is his heart going to be okay? what will his future as a hero look like with heart problems and an explosive quirk? What does he feel for izuku, why does he get all the classic love interest tropes?
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cluescorner Ā· 10 months ago
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There's no feeling stranger than knowing that something is bad but liking it anyways. Not in a 'it's so bad it's good' way. Because that implies that it has become good. I'm talking like this thing is just kinda bad in the normal ways things are bad, but i like it anyways.
#honestly I'm talking about Batgirls rn#because like...it has its moments but I wouldn't call it good. it even has some of my own personal pet peeves#specifically the overabundance of narration boxes that aren't from a character and rather the author is speaking to us.#if I wanted an overabundance Authors Notes I would read fucking early 2000s fanfics#and Babsgirl existing but I've made peace with the fact that we'll only get an Oracle story in a Black Label or similar thing at this point#I love the art and it has among my favorite designs for both Spoiler and Black Bat#don't get me STARTED on the covers holy fuck. the 90s rewind in particular lives in my head rent free because ajlkdfjdsalk;fjdlsa;kf#it also has both moments of REALLY FUCKING BAD characterization and REALLY FUCKING GOOD characterization#Cass being like 'ok but do we HAVE to save Seer?' horrible! demonstrates an egregious misunderstanding of her. what the hell?#Steph being abnormally good at solving the Riddler's puzzles and knowing basically every cipher because of Arthur? then getting incredibly#upset at even the MENTION of him to the point that she gets fucking stabbed by the RIDDLER of all people?#wow thanks for actually addressing a very interesting part of Steph's character that is often left by the wayside. good job.#issue 14 is amazing and it makes me want to implode every time I read it. like I actually recommend it without any caveats attached#it is straight up good. it's the high-point of Batgirls and it's not even close imo.#and wow! there is almost no dialogue and NO NARRATION BOXES??#it's almost like the whole appeal of comics is telling incredible stories through art or something. and that when you have good art#and good art direction you should just fucking let it speak for itself or something#and that maybe using what words you DO have to let your CHARACTERS speak in a way they normally wouldn't is a good idea#even if the in universe reason is that Steph is basically leaving this note as a 'I am either dead or close to it' type of thing#like holy fuck how did they do that?? AND SO LATE IN THE GAME THAT NOBODY FUCKING TALKS ABOUT IT??#and obviously there is a conversation to be had about 'was Batgirls queerbaiting' but honestly since it was cancelled IDK#I could see a universe where given time it could have made a natural shift to a love story between Steph and Cass#I'm not upset about it but I get why other people might be. there are some panels that like...come on.#and as always I am most fascinated by missed potential. because Batgirls showed that it COULD be good with Issue 14#and arguably other of the better issues. the art was incredible and as the issues went on it felt like the kinks were getting ironed out#plus getting a series focused on 3 of my favorite characters was a dream come true for me. ESPECIALLY because we rarely get good#stuff for Cass and Steph.
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girlivealwaysbean Ā· 3 months ago
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on one hand completely ignoring your emotions is soo good for my mental stability and productivity but man i miss staring at the ceiling and listening to sad songs on loop
#idk if depression is the right word but yeah that author was right you become comfortable in your sadness you start loving it because#it becomes such a defining part of you#if i don't engage in any bad habits throughout the day i start to feel so uncomfortable and wrong and unfamiliar#that i crash and do something old me would've done again :(#the bounce back time has significantly improved tho so that's a relief#also lol who am i kidding pms will come soon im sure#but anyway#i physically can't listen to waiting room rn i listened to the opening notes and it was like#like a dam about to burst#so i just closed the gate very fast#i can't be sad rn because then i will feel lonely and then i will miss people and they won't miss me and ill cry the gasping for breath#i don't know what to do with this emptiness in the middle of my chest crying#man i hope this doesn't have any long term consequences#also i hope one day being good feels like me again and rotting in bed becomes unbearable again#i used to be so active like not physically but idk just like engaged with life more#curiously excitedly#well there's no going back now but i do hope i find a good balance#i was reading normal people and kinda rerealised that woah this sadness will always be a huge part of me. you only get#one childhood and. welp it got too real too relatable#i hope i don't turn out like her every self help book ive read says kids follow in their parents footsteps but god i hope not#this is why boys will always be so scary to me#future seems so bleak sometimes like not my 20s they'll be fire im sure but after that. am i even capable of being loved long term?#if the person who knew me the most well can move on from me in a flash. well then. i don't have anything more to give this is all#what has this post even become oh god. whatever. ill keep trying to be smarter first interesting second hopefully lovable will follow
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anotheruntitledsong Ā· 11 months ago
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i did like the hidden palace but (SPOILER if anyone hasn't read it?) i'm genuinely so annoyed at how Arbeely is handled like... I wish i could be sad but i'm just fucking irritated. I was overly invested in him and that's def why but i just feel like they did him dirty
#the golem and the jinni#i was scrolling goodreads and the take i kept seeing was 'oh I wish Arbeely could've had his family too bad the jinni FUCKED IT UP'#but idk that's just not how i read him. like thats not where i feel the problem is#his whole shtick is being content as the jinni's foil and like! things can change! but the way it's done leaves him totally unresolved#which in turn means the jinni's shit is also never getting resolved because there is like no way to#when Arbeely describes his future family in the first book it's all 'someday... vaguely...' and AGAIN! what you want can change!#and honestly it's really interesting and sad that he makes this sacrifice for the jinni#but it's a layer of complexity that like clashes with how little he is there for and how little the author's invested in him#and like the way the no marriage literally did not ruin his life at all... sure it sucked but the man is still like idk rich#what has continuously fucked with him throughout both books is that he wants (or at least spends half his page time thinking about)#emotional connection to the jinni in a human way#which is something the jinni cant\wont give him even though he's basically Arbeely's only close friend#(besides ig maryam who was rlly funny hinting at her dislike for the jinni like someone trying to get their friend to dump their toxic bf)#anyway the vibe in the first book is that he only thinks about wanting a wife when the jinni is being a dickhead#BECAUSE the jinni eases arbeelys loneliness by just being there because at the end of the day that's what humans need#but then it's made really weird in the second book by Arbeely getting 'trapped' by the jinni (and yet they just grow further apart)#which means that the only thing arbeely actually spent half his life discontent with and then literally died without is not a wife#it's emotional intimacy with the jinni. which is insane to me#arbeely is obviously already tragic but this seems TOO tragic entirely because the book doesn't give af about addressing it#if it was like a plot thing then all of the above would be fine and gutwrenching because it ties back into the jinnis self isolation#BUT IT'S NOT. like i get arbeely isn't that important to the plot but he was important to the jinni and the jinni was important to him#alsoo necessarily disclaimer i'm not trying to say he's in love with the jinni or anything like that#although a queer arbeely (divorced from the above idea) would also been interesting cuz I dont think the jinni has a grasp on homophobia#so idk theyd be keeping each others secrets (arbeely x the biscuit man? JOKE)#BUTTTT! I don't believe he needs romantic energy! him and the jinni having awful vibes up until arbeely's literal death is what bothers me#The jinni is a bad communicator ik but come on... not once? not even before the diagnosis? The jinni also thinks about how distant they are#could they not talk a little? for me? there are ways to do it within the bounds of their characters FOR SURE#im sure this is the point but i do dislike it either way. anyway sorry arbeely u remind me of my uncle#the hidden palace
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sovonight Ā· 2 years ago
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#ohhhhhhh i really do dislike the tonal shift in bg2/tob so much........ and by that i mean mostly in xan's mod šŸ˜­#i mean maybe the sense of betrayal and disappointment is immersive but it really leaves me with No idea what to do with him#in my version of radri's story. like. do i do my best even with all the parts i find ooc? do i cherry pick what i want and forget the rest?#and even after all my complaints i keep thinking back to his author. the fact that somehow this is the *intended* experience#currently feeling like the necromancer who resurrected their wife and is convinced she came back wrong but who just never truly knew her#i keep going back to 'estel'amin'. the fact that xan named charname his hope--and then quickly stopped using that name for her#once her bhaalspawn nature continued to affect her life after the conclusion of bg1#so--basically--i'm to assume that he changed his mind? she's no longer his hope; his light; and if she is it's rare#he just calls her beautiful now; something far more shallow#and the fact that in tob he vacillates between subtly criticizing her for her nature which she has no control over#(and which in radri's case she has never even willingly given in to)--#and attempting to comfort her after her nature makes bad things happen to her & around her#--but then his comfort is once again undermined by the aforementioned shallow compliments#it's coming across as 'i love your body despite what you are in spirit' and really isn't a great look at all#look maybe i'm crazy but in bg1 i got the impression that he was able to accept and move past it fairly quickly#like 'ok you're a bhaalspawn so now let's move into problem solving. obviously i have to quit my job and travel with you full time'#but in bg2 he spends most of his time lamenting about how hard it must be for her to live like this#while also pointing it out as a personal flaw of hers. as if she'd had any say in who her father was#like there are npcs literally shouting 'i hate all bhaalspawn!' and here he is--supposedly her closest supporter--#also subtly saying 'i hate bhaalspawn' right to her face#when literally as a neutral alignment and as a companion of 1-2 years-- he should actually have THE most nuanced take on her???#in bg1 he says murder is unavoidable in the life of an adventurer. then in tob he comments that charname kills everyone haphazardly--#--as though in another jab to her nature. meanwhile as a constant companion he should know better than anyone that it wasn't so simple#idk. i'm almost feeling gaslighted by the narrative in a sense#because when everyone else talks about xan in bg2/tob--including charname via the dialogue options/written internal dialogue--#they say that he's ~gray~ and calm and collected and emotionless etc#meanwhile he's literally the most emotional guy in the game. like. he's freaked out SO many times#so?? how am i supposed to take anything here genuinely?? how am i supposed to engage??? SIGH#anyway today's my first day at my new job and i have to wake up in 2 hours & im certain that i'll be too nervous to eat today#my goal for today is just to not be fired šŸ‘ 12 hours from now it will be over...
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aroaessidhe Ā· 2 years ago
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2023 reads // twitter thread Ā  Ā 
City of Nightmares
1920s insp fantasy city where people can turn into their worst nightmares if they donā€™t take dream-preventing medication
a girl with anxiety & pstd from her sister turning, living in a maybe-cult, ends up in the centre of a criminal conspiracy
you can pry a platonic reading of the main relationship out of my cold dead hands
#City of Nightmares#aroaessidhe 2023 reads#i really enjoyed this!!!#maybe theres some eh thigns about it but i have decided to love it. thanks#it definitely kept going in directions i wasnā€™t expecting#i think i enjoyed the first half more in terms of plot direction tho?#a lot of times i had to just stop what i was doing and make a face jdghkjfs#girl u sleep curled up in the closetā€¦ā€¦#also sy bestie you are so kovit-coded. he just has daddy issues instead of mommy issues#i respect an author with an agenda#also#alloromantics are so fragile. theres so many reviews like ā€˜this character went on a SEVEN PAGE RANT about how TERRIBLE relationships and mon#monogamy areā€™ ā€˜the authorā€™s SHOVING her views about HATING ROMANCE into her book AGAINā€™#broā€¦..literally thereā€™s just some musings on being sad when your friend abandons you for a relationship and personally not getting it#and how romanticisation of abuse is badā€¦ā€¦ā€¦.it is not that blatant and also all perfectly reasonableā€¦.#and then thereā€™s people butthurt about the ending of MoM. like wow so sorry a series ended in friendship instead of a romance.#sucks thereā€™s no other books in the world that do end in romance. i canā€™t imagine what it would be like to not be able to find books like th#at.#no romance#***probably i guess we'll see how book 2 goes#at the very end her other friend teases her for ''liking'' him and shes like yeah hes my friend.#which is of course One Of Those Tropes#but idk.....i think i trust the author...#also wait i said sy but is it cy. i listened to the audiobook
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nightshadeblooming Ā· 5 months ago
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OH MY FUCKING GOD SHES DONE IT AGAIN
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(Boy)Friend Material | Part II | csc x f!reader
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Part I
Seungcheol really thought that, having met you on a dating app, you'd be more into, well, dating him. He supposes he should have made sure you knew that's what he thought you were doing.
Rating: M (18+) | WC: ~9.2k | Pairing: csc x f!reader | Genre: romance, smut
Warnings: elevator makeouts, minor safe sex discussion, lil tiny mention of birth control making reader depressed, restraining, oral f. rec., vaginal fingering, squirting, sex with a condom, crying during sex
Reader Notes: referred to with she/her pronouns, has two cats, has breasts and a vagina, gets carried by cheol, wap
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Seungcheol is still fucking floored that heā€™s been dating you without your knowledge for four months.Ā 
All this time, heā€™s feared that you werenā€™t as into him as he was into you. What else was he supposed to think when he was constantly the one reaching out? He was the one making the dates, and inviting you to hangouts with his friends, and asking if he could come over and spend time with you.Ā 
He tried not to mind that it was always him hugging you, him wanting to hold your hand, him touching you in all the little ways people in relationships do. He told himself that he just hadnā€™t discovered your love language yet, and that once he did, things would change.Ā 
Honestly, if you were anyone else, he probably wouldnā€™t have stuck it out so long. He was willing and able to because youā€™re you, and he likes you so damn much.Ā 
You got his attention effortlessly with your opener, and the way you committed to the bit instead of backing down or changing the subject kept him interested. Then when he met you, you were somehow even funnier and prettier in person, and he was fucking enchanted. As soon as you parted ways, he was trying to figure out how he could see you again, dreaming up different scenarios and cycling through ideas until finally, he just asked. You said yes, so he kept asking.Ā 
And now here he sits on your couch (where he can be found most Sundays), playing with your cats and listening to your musings as you pack your weekend bag. He doubts you think he can hear you or you probably wouldnā€™t be asking yourself, ā€œComfy or sexy?ā€ out loud. Heā€™s not sure which you pick but heā€™s kind of hoping for comfy because thatā€™s always been sexy to him, the surety that youā€™re comfortable around him and cozy as can be.Ā 
Itā€™s been a while since his last relationship and heā€™s not a serial dater like some of his friends, so he was a bit out of practice when he met you. Still, he counted himself lucky that you grew to be so comfortable around him after only a few weeks, though now he knows itā€™s because you thought he was just your friend.Ā 
He regrets that it took him thinking you wanted to break up to finally be honest about feeling like the relationship was one sided, because everything could have been resolved so long ago.Ā 
All the times heā€™s thought about kissing you, he could have. Every morning that heā€™s surprised you with your favorite iced latte, every flower garden that heā€™s ever brought you to, every movie night that heā€™s looked over at you and watched the colors dance across your face in the darkness. He could have been kissing you for months, and you could have been kissing him back.Ā 
He mourns the lost time, but part of him canā€™t be upset this miscommunication happened because itā€™s made him move with purpose. Heā€™s constantly thinking of you, always trying to be what you need, and he honestly isnā€™t sure he would know you this well if he didnā€™t feel like he had to prove himself worthy.Ā 
Itā€™s not like heā€™s going to stop trying to prove himself now, but it helps to be reassured that your withholding nature wasnā€™t because he likes you more than you like him, it was because you didnā€™t know he likes you at all.Ā 
He feels so juvenile talking in terms of like, but heā€™s a little scared to introduce love to the equation. He could so easily define his feelings for you in that way, but itā€™s been four months of dating you without you dating him back, and heā€™s reluctant to take that leap without being sure youā€™ll take it with him.Ā 
After he bore his soul to you, though, you said all of those things, told him that you donā€™t ever want to let him go, which sounds a whole lot like a love confession just minus the actual wordā€¦
Bluebell paws at his hand, asking for attention, and he grants it, trying to shake off worries that donā€™t hold weight anymore. Poppy sprawls against his thigh, purring so loud he can feel the vibrations.
This has been enough, he tells himself. Count yourself lucky that itā€™ll get even better now that she can knowingly participate in the relationship.Ā 
ā€œReady,ā€ you say in a sing-song voice as you struggle through the door to your bedroom, your shoulder laden down with a duffle and your hand holding your giant water bottleā€¦cupā€¦thing. Youā€™re wearing your favorite lounge set, one heā€™s seen countless times, but the way the soft fabric clings to the curves of your body still makes his heart pound.Ā 
He rises quickly to greet you, sending Poppy skittering off the couch. She darts over to you, yowling as if he committed a mortal sin, and you pout indulgently at her, asking, ā€œDid the big man scare you? Poor baby.ā€
He doesnā€™t mind the teasing, especially when you call him big in the process.Ā 
Before he gets too wrapped up in staring at you, he strides over, carefully taking hold of the strap on your shoulder and lifting until you slide your arm through so he can shoulder the duffle instead.Ā 
ā€œWanna get a refill before we go? I know you like your water more than mine,ā€ he offers, continuing to say (because youā€™re so fucking cute when youā€™re adamant about something), ā€œEven though it tastes the same.ā€
ā€œIt does not taste the same! My water is better and more refreshing!ā€ You claim instantly, walking across the living room to your kitchenette.
ā€œMaybe thatā€™s because Iā€™ve changed your water filter twice since I met you even though it only needs to be changed twice a year.ā€
ā€œMaybe so, but youā€™ll change it a third time for our six month anniversary and youā€™ll do it with a smile on your face,ā€ you playfully command him as you fill your monstrous water container.Ā 
Six month anniversary. So you really do want to keep him around.
ā€œYeah, baby, I will,ā€ he sighs, hoping you canā€™t tell that your little light-hearted threat has him feeling like he could drown, heā€™s so awash in adoration for you.Ā 
ā€œYouā€™ve never called me baby before,ā€ you gasp gleefully, spinning to face him with bright eyes and a wide smile.Ā 
ā€œI didnā€™t know if youā€™d like it,ā€ he shrugs, a bit sheepish that itā€™s taken him this long to test it out.Ā 
ā€œI love it, baby is my name now,ā€ you tell him, screwing the top back onto your water and sounding so serious, itā€™s almost comical.
You grasp your cup, holding your free hand out to him for what might be the first time. His heart skips a beat as he takes it, intertwining his fingers with yours and following you to your door.Ā 
ā€œBye Bell, bye Poppy, I love you,ā€ you call out, looking over your shoulder to find your cats already asleep in their favorite spots on your mushroom and flower cat tree. He whispers his own goodbye and closes the door gently, pressing the button and turning the lock until it clicks.Ā 
Immediately, youā€™re tugging him down the hall and towards the elevator, a chuckle escaping him at the sound of your bubbly laughter and quick footsteps.Ā 
ā€œLetā€™s go, letā€™s go, letā€™s go,ā€ you press the button and chant at the machine, bouncing in place beside him.Ā 
ā€œExcited?ā€ He teases, amused by your lack of patience.Ā 
Your head turns at the speed of light as you look at him with wide eyes and ask, ā€œArenā€™t you?ā€Ā 
He would be sarcastic but it sounds like your heart is primed to break, and he canā€™t risk hurting you just for a joke.Ā 
ā€œMore than I can say,ā€ he answers honestly, expecting your smile but not the way you hustle him into the elevator and back him up against the wall, wrapping your arm around his neck and looking away only to press the ground floor button.Ā 
ā€œYou gonna kiss me or not?ā€ He murmurs, his eyes already on your lips as you get close enough for him to feel your chest against his.Ā 
You answer without words, your perfect lips soft and unyielding, his hand dropping to your hip to tug you into his body as your fingernails scratch at the short hair on the nape of his neck. The feeling sends a shiver down his spine and drags a sigh out of his mouth, one that you swallow with a needy gasp.Ā 
He lowers your duffle to the floor, stepping forward until heā€™s got you against the wall and sliding his thigh between your legs to see what other sounds he can summon from you as his passion starts to overflow. His lips move against yours insistently, a fire lighting up in his veins when you wilt into him and let him take control, the transfer of power mouthwateringly sweet.Ā 
And then you pull away. You pull away and he tries to chase you but you stop him with a hand on his chest, and he wonā€™t push you, he would never push you.Ā 
ā€œEverything okay?ā€ He pants, trying to clear his mind of the thoughts and images of you that fill it.Ā 
ā€œYeah, itā€™s just- weā€™re here,ā€ you whisper, blinking at him and glancing over at the elevator doors.Ā 
The open elevator doors.Ā 
The lobby is empty, but if Seungcheol is being truthful, he thinks he wouldnā€™t really care if people did see.Ā 
Youā€™re his girlfriend, and heā€™s your boyfriend. Whatā€™s so wrong with it?
Then again, part of him does want to keep you all to himself, kissing in elevators included. Which is why heā€™s quick to step away from you and take your hand again, grabbing the duffle before pulling you through the lobby and to his car.Ā 
Heā€™s not in such a rush that he wonā€™t still open your door for you, waiting as you get in and gently shutting the door before tucking your bag in the backseat and jogging around to the driverā€™s side. He closes his door quietly even in his haste, not wanting to startle you or make you think heā€™s upset in any way.
His hand finds your thigh again after starting the car up and getting on the road, the silence that fills the space anticipatory instead of stifling like it was just an hour ago. He finds himself clenching his jaw and bouncing his left knee, counting down the traffic lights that sit between your place and his until finally, thereā€™s only one left.Ā 
Itā€™s red when he rolls to a stop, and his heart is thumping so hard in his chest that he swears if he looked down, heā€™d be able to see it beating. He glances over at you and finds you already staring at him, which has happened more than a few times in the months that heā€™s known you. This time is different, though, because you donā€™t pretend you werenā€™t looking, or start rambling nervously, or even look away.Ā 
You just meet his gaze and let him see everything. Your nerves, your desire, your impatience, he sees it all, and feels it all himself. For perhaps the first time since he met you, he knows for certain that you and him are on the exact same wavelength.Ā 
Heā€™s so entranced that he doesnā€™t notice the light turn green until the car behind him honks, and that disturbance is still barely enough to make him tear his gaze from yours. His eyes reluctantly return to the road as he gives your thigh a gentle squeeze and presses the gas pedal, closing the distance between the light and his parking garage as quickly as the speed limit allows.Ā 
A long minute passes and heā€™s pulling into his designated parking spot, his seatbelt unbuckled and his door open before the car is even off. Sometimes, youā€™re distracted and he gets to open your door for you, but this isnā€™t one of those times. Youā€™re out just as fast as him, meeting him at the trunk and taking his hand.Ā 
Together, you speed walk to the door that opens into his hallway. You pass through first and then he does, your pace getting faster the closer you get to his place until finally, finally, heā€™s unlocking the door and beckoning you inside. He pauses to slip his sneakers off at the rack and you follow suit, the sight of your shoes next to his lighting up the part of his brain that craves domesticity with you.Ā 
You donā€™t come over as often as he goes to your place so when you slow, he takes the lead, his hand still holding yours tightly and his heart still racing.Ā 
He doesnā€™t quite mean to press you up against the wall but he takes a step forward as you take a step back and then itā€™s just too easy to lean in and taste you again, your lips supple and your sigh sweet.Ā 
The kiss starts off slow, tame, but itā€™s not long before heā€™s inching closer and sucking at your bottom lip, his tongue gliding along yours when you open your mouth and let him in. Youā€™re so warm and soft against him, your breasts flush with his chest and his dick starting to throb against your stomach, the combination of sensations making his head spin.Ā 
It seems he canā€™t get enough of you now after what feels like millions of missed opportunities, millions of times heā€™s wanted his lips on yours and his hands on your body. Heā€™s lost in you before he knows it, near mindless with desperation and devotion, his hunger for you so overwhelming that he fears no amount of you will ever be enough.Ā 
Itā€™s never been like this before, nobody else has ever made him feel as if he would suffocate without their air or perish without their touch, but here he is, kissing you like youā€™re breathing pure oxygen and gripping your hips like heā€™ll fade into nothingness if he lets go.Ā 
He knew you were special to him but he didnā€™t know he would need you like this, and the realization is enough to make him pull back, saying through sharp breaths, ā€œMaybe we should slow down, I donā€™t want you to feel like we have to rush.ā€
You gaze at him, almost through him, and say, with great care, ā€œSeungcheol, Iā€™ve wanted your dick inside me since we met. If you want to slow down, we can, but if I had it my way, weā€™d be moving even faster.ā€
And fuck if that isnā€™t enough to spur him into action, to make his cock twitch in his jeans and his hands fly to your waist, a rough, ā€œJump,ā€ escaping his swollen lips.Ā 
You gasp but wrap your legs around him when he starts to lift you, his grip shifting to your thighs as you vine your arms around his neck, seemingly holding on for dear life. Heā€™d die before dropping you so you have nothing to worry about, but heā€™s too focused on getting you to his bed to inform you of that fact. He also maybe likes feeling you cling to him like this too much to give you any reason to stop.Ā 
ā€œWe need a condom, right?ā€ He checks as he walks, fairly certain the answer will be yes.Ā 
Jeonghan bought him a box when he first started seeing you, the exact size he needs and brand he likes, and handed them over with a wink and a wiggle of his eyebrows. Seungcheol rolled his eyes at the time, but heā€™s thankful for him now because he never would have bought them himself, too fearful of jinxing the situation.Ā 
ā€œYeah, I stopped my birth control, it was making me hella depressed. Is that- I mean, are you okay with using one?ā€ You ask, though you absolutely donā€™t need to.Ā 
ā€œBaby, all I care about is making you feel safe. Iā€™ll wear a condom, Iā€™ll pull out, Iā€™ll do whatever you want.ā€
ā€œYouā€™re the best boyfriend,ā€ you sigh, hugging him tightly and pressing a kiss to his cheek as he crosses through the doorway to his bedroom.
He left it relatively clean, thankfully, and thereā€™s nothing embarrassing out, unless he counts the picture of him and you that he got framed last month to keep on his nightstand. You see it when he carefully deposits you onto your back on the mattress, your face twisting up like you might cry.Ā 
Heā€™s alarmed until you say, ā€œI have that photo framed on my nightstand.ā€
The fact that you have one is enough to make him smile but the fact that you picked the same picture is enough to make him fucking beam, his lips stretched too wide to kiss you even though he really wants to.Ā 
He tries anyway, his smile fading as he braces a hand next to your head and presses his mouth to yours, climbing up on the bed when you grip his shirt and start to pull him. Heā€™s imagined this so many times, pictured you under him and on top of him and in front of him (face down, ass up as he slides inside of you).Ā 
Heā€™s made himself cum to the thought of you in this bed, and now that he has you here, he almost doesnā€™t know where to start. You seem to have your own ideas and desires though, and heā€™d give anything to find out what they are.Ā 
So, like Seungcheol always has, he just asks.Ā 
ā€œYou said youā€™ve wanted me since we metā€¦ What have you thought about?ā€ His voice is ragged when he speaks, deep, but he thinks you like it, your teeth sinking into your bottom lip before your breath leaves you in a sigh.Ā 
ā€œLots of things,ā€ you whisper, your hands skimming down his chest until they find the hem of his shirt and start to push it up. He sits back on his knees between your legs and hauls it off, fighting a smirk at the way your eyes grow hazy.
You hesitate to put your hands on him, so he takes one of them in his own and presses your palm to his stomach, his muscles jumping at your warm, gentle touch.Ā 
ā€œLike what?ā€Ā 
ā€œLikeā€¦ how big you probably are. If youā€™d be soft and sweet or if youā€™d be a little rough, a little mean.ā€Ā 
Following your words, he drags your hand down and lets you feel him, his dick hard and pressing into the zipper of his jeans. You canā€™t cover all of it, but you close your fingers around the shaft as best you can and rub firmly, one, two, three times.Ā 
ā€œFuck,ā€ he sighs as you squeeze, the pressure making his eyelids flutter as pleasure sparks within him. ā€œWhich do you want more? Soft and sweet or rough and mean? I can be whatever you want.ā€
ā€œYouā€™re already all I want you to be, Cheol, so just be you.ā€
God, youā€™re going to be the end of him. Death by swollen heart.
ā€œA bit of both it is then,ā€ he murmurs as he leans down to kiss you, shifting his grip to your wrist before pushing your hand up to rest beside your head. He does the same with your other hand, leaving you unable to move your upper body.Ā 
Heā€™s about to break away to check in, but you melt into the bed and wrap your legs around his waist, tugging his hips into yours with a soft moan.Ā 
The sound sends a lick of heat down his spine, his dick pulsing in time with his heart and so hard, it almost hurts. He breathes a shuddering sigh into your mouth and grinds into you, wishing his jeans could magically disappear so he wouldnā€™t have to stop kissing you to take them off.Ā 
The denim is getting to be too restrictive though, especially when heā€™s dying to feel you with no barriers at all. So he tries to pull back, but you whimper into his mouth and hug him closer with your legs, and the only way he can respond to that is by kissing you harder and letting his body press into yours.Ā 
Heā€™s gone for you for a few more minutes, his jeans all but forgotten as you roll your hips against his and sink your teeth into his bottom lip. The slight sting makes him gasp and dig his cock into you in retaliation, his hands tightening around your wrists when you just push back and bite his lip again.Ā 
It feels almost impossible to pull away from you now but he canā€™t take it anymore, the clothes need to come off, yours in particular. Heā€™s imagined this too often and wanted you for too long to make this a quick, messy, fully-clothed fuck. You deserve better, you deserve everything, and heā€™s going to do his absolute best to give it to you.Ā 
So he breaks the connection, ignoring the whine that escapes you to pant out, ā€œIā€™ll kiss you again when weā€™re naked, promise.ā€
ā€œYes, oh my god, take your pants off,ā€ you reply in a rush, your eyes lighting up as you attempt to free your wrists from his hold. He releases you immediately, but he climbs off the bed before you can wrestle his jeans down, his hands finding yours and pulling until you stand with him. With a laugh, he says, ā€œI said ā€˜when weā€™re naked,ā€™ baby. That means you, too.ā€
ā€œStrip me then,ā€ you raise your arms, a challenge in your gaze, and he can do nothing but accept it, tugging your shirt up and off and freezing in place when he sees what you have on under it.Ā 
ā€œFuck me,ā€ he murmurs, staring at the cherry red lace that encases your breasts. There are delicate little bows on the straps and the lace is so fine that he can see right through it, could probably rip it without even trying.Ā 
ā€œDid you wear this for me?ā€ He asks absentmindedly, his eyes caught on your tits as they rise and fall with your breathing.Ā 
ā€œYeah, I bought it when we started talking. I thought youā€™d like it,ā€ you answer softly, tucking your thumbs into the waistband of your lounge pants and pushing them down just enough for him to get a peek of the very same red. ā€œItā€™s a matching set.ā€
His knees weak at the thought, he sits heavily on the mattress, setting his hands on your hips and guiding you to stand between his legs.Ā 
ā€œCan I see?ā€Ā 
ā€œThatā€™s kind of the point,ā€ you whisper like itā€™s a secret, steadying yourself with your hands on his shoulders as he starts to pull your pants down. They slip off easily and pool on the floor, leaving you nearly bare before him and more bewitching than he could have ever imagined.Ā 
ā€œGod, youā€™re so fuckinā€™ beautiful,ā€ he sighs out, feeling almost dazed as he takes the sight of you in, his thumbs tracing over the bows that sit on the front of your hips. He sinks his fingertips into you, squeezing to feel the give of your flesh and using all of his willpower to stop himself from tearing the lacy panties right off.Ā 
He could (and would) buy you a new set, but you bought this with him in mind, and had to wait so long to wear it for him. Itā€™s too special for him to damage it just because heā€™s desperate to see you bare.Ā 
You must be able to read his mind, taking your hands off his shoulders to reach behind your back and undo the clasps, the bra loosening on your body before you shrug it down your arms and toss it on the bed.Ā 
Seungcheol finds himself spellbound once again, captivated by all the skin before him, the way your nipples pebble under his gaze making his breath catch in his chest. ā€œCan I touch you?ā€Ā 
ā€œI feel like Iā€™ll die if you donā€™t,ā€ you answer immediately, gasping in relief when he smooths his hands up to cover your breasts. He cups them, testing the weight, and squeezes gently, already obsessed with the feeling of your soft, supple skin under his palms. His thumbs drag over your nipples, circling them until you let out a quiet little whimper, one that he would give his life to hear again.Ā 
ā€œLay down for me, baby,ā€ He requests, needing you spread out before him so he can fully drink you in.Ā 
Forgetting a change in position means he has to stop touching you, he pouts when you step out of his reach, though heā€™s distracted almost instantly by the cheeky cut of your panties.Ā 
He stands on knees that are still slightly weak, getting out of your way and watching as you climb up on the bed. He tries not to ogle you but your ass looks so fucking biteable from here, and he canā€™t even let himself focus on the space between your legs because he just might combust if he gets a good look.
You settle on your back in the center of the mattress and he feels his heart squeeze at the sight of you in his bed. Heā€™s wanted you in it for months, and not just for sex, but for cuddling and reading together and falling asleep in each otherā€™s arms, too. So much time has been wasted, but he wonā€™t let it bother him, not when this literally feels like a dream come true.Ā 
He starts moving toward you, trying to formulate a game plan for how he can kiss your stomach and suck one of your nipples at the same time, but you hold a hand out and say, ā€œStop.ā€
Every muscle in his body locks up, his heart pounding in anxiety that heā€™s done something wrong, that youā€™ve changed your mind about him, that you-Ā 
ā€œDonā€™t look so worried, Cheollie, I just want you to take your jeans off,ā€ you soothe, making him sigh out his stress and squeeze his eyes shut.Ā 
ā€œListen to me, Seungcheol. I like you so much that it scares me sometimes. I like you in a way that is concerning to my friends. I like you more than I have ever liked anyone else. My crush on you is deeper than the Mariana Trench,ā€ you say emphatically. ā€œI will tell you this until you believe it.ā€
Fuck, he feels like he might cry.Ā 
Hearing these words from you is affirming beyond belief, soothing to his very soul, and the steadiness and truth in your voice as you said them is what gives him the courage to admit it.Ā 
ā€œI think Iā€™m in love with you,ā€ he whispers quietly, his eyes still closed. He hears rustling, envisions you making your way to the edge of the bed, and heā€™s not surprised when he feels your hands take his.Ā 
ā€œI know Iā€™m in love with you,ā€ you whisper back, your fingers intertwined with his and your voice just as sure as before.Ā 
He blinks his eyes open, finds you staring up at him with a teary, affection-soaked gaze, and canā€™t stop himself from leaning in and pressing his lips to yours. The kiss stays chaste and soft even though your tits are out and heā€™s harder than heā€™s ever been in his life, this moment so precious to him, his desire takes the back burner.Ā 
Until you pull back and tell him, ā€œNow take your pants off, please. Iā€™m so fucking wet for you.ā€
Fuck the back burner, you just lit the stove on fire. He unbuttons his jeans, the fly barely halfway down before heā€™s shoving them off and stepping out of them, kicking them away like their presence offends him. You didnā€™t ask him to, but he sheds his boxer briefs as well, feeling his cock pop up and hit his stomach before it hangs heavily between his legs.Ā 
Your eyes grow wide and you open your mouth to say something, but he canā€™t stop hearing, ā€˜Iā€™m so fucking wet for you,ā€™ the words seared into his brain forevermore.Ā 
ā€œLet me eat you out?ā€ He practically begs, willing to ask again on his knees if you want him to.Ā 
ā€œI love that you ask, but you donā€™t need to anymore. Just do what feels right and Iā€™ll stop you if I donā€™t like it,ā€ you promise, laying back and lifting your ass for him as he slips his fingers into the waistband of your panties and starts to tug them down.Ā 
And shit, theyā€™re soaked, fucking sodden with your arousal, the lace sticking to your pussy as he peels them away. He can feel his mouth water when the scent of you fills his nose, leaving him breathless and near brainless with need for you.
Sinking to his knees, he gently pushes your thighs apart to reveal the prettiest fucking pussy heā€™s ever seen. Maybe he just thinks that because itā€™s yours, but that doesnā€™t really matter when youā€™re glistening and open and all for him.Ā 
Heā€™s always imagined himself having some amount of finesse when he finally got his tongue between your legs, always pictured going slow and taking you apart piece by piece, or at least pacing himself even a little bit. Now that heā€™s here, with his hands on your thighs and his face just inches from you, he knows that wonā€™t be the case at all.Ā 
You smell too fucking good for him to hesitate any longer, his tongue darting out and dragging from your opening to your clit. He canā€™t hold in the groan that leaves him at the first taste of you, his cock twitching as your arousal coats his taste buds, heady and rich and perfect. His eyes flutter closed and he buries his face in your cunt, pushing your thighs up to your stomach so he has more room to work.Ā 
He feels your hands against his, feels them hooking beneath your knees to hold your thighs up for him, and he moans gratefully in response, setting his thumbs on either side of your pussy and pulling your lips apart so he can taste you more directly.Ā 
He dips his tongue into your entrance and you clench around it, the sensation making him whimper into your pussy and delve even deeper inside. Just this might not be enough to get you there but you taste fucking heavenly and feel even better, and heā€™s wanted his mouth on you like this for months.Ā 
So he allows himself to be selfish for a few minutes, fucking you with his tongue just to feel the way you quiver and squeeze around the muscle. Your arousal starts to leak down his chin and he almost regrets the waste of it, pulling his tongue from your pussy to latch his lips to your opening and suck.Ā 
ā€œSeungcheol, please, I need-,ā€ you implore him, your words halting when he fills you with two of his fingers, the digits sinking inside with a squelch. You whine above him and his gaze travels up your body to find your back arched and your kiss-swollen lips parted, every sound that escapes them like music to his ears.Ā 
Fuck, youā€™re a goddamn wet dream.
His fingers curl inside of you, exploring until he finds that patch of nerves along your front wall. As soon as he grazes it, you gasp brokenly and buck into his touch, making him bite his lip and return his eyes to your pussy and the way it swallows his fingers. His mouth finds your clit and suctions around it, the little bud firm under his tongue as he flicks it back and forth, following your sounds to find what you like best.Ā 
ā€œCheol, I-Iā€™m getting close,ā€ you moan out in a warning tone, but it only makes him more determined, his fingertips grinding into you and his lips puckering around your clit. You seem to love it when he sucks in pulses and crooks his fingers into your sweet spot at the same time so he sets a quick tempo, hoping to help you find the edge and then tip you over it.Ā 
It happens sooner than he expects, the molten velvet of your cunt tightening around his fingers rhythmically as your cries reach a fever pitch. He doesnā€™t stop, wonders if he even could when youā€™re making the noises you are and begging him, ā€œPlease, Cheollie, please.ā€
He would soothe you but his mouth is still hard at work on your clit, his tongue rolling over the bud again and again as his fingers prod that spot inside of you. Soon enough, you canā€™t speak, just sobbing and sinking a hand into his hair to hold him in place, your thigh falling to rest on his shoulder.Ā 
He doesnā€™t mind the weight, loves your soft skin against his ear and the feeling of you pressing his face into your pussy, as if heā€™d even consider pulling away now. You want to cum again, he can tell, and heā€™s not going to stop until you do.Ā 
He fucks his fingers in and out of you faster, pursing his lips around your clit and sucking deeply, grumbling and groaning into you in encouragement, his brows furrowed and his vision hazy.Ā 
Your cunt spasms around his fingers, growing impossibly wetter and locking down like a vise until all he can do is curl his fingertips into your sweet spot and dig his tongue into your clit. A sharp whine pierces the air and your thigh trembles on his shoulder as you break, arousal gushing out of you in spurts to coat his neck and drip down over his collarbones.Ā 
Itā€™s the only flood heā€™s ever been thankful for, and before youā€™ve even started to recover, heā€™s already voicing his gratitude.
ā€œFucking beautiful, baby. That was the hottest thing thatā€™s ever happened to me, oh my god,ā€ he mumbles, pressing kisses along the thigh that rests on his shoulder, withdrawing his fingers to clean them off with his mouth.Ā 
ā€œI didnā€™t know I could do that,ā€ you whisper dreamily, struggling to lift your head.Ā 
He lowers your thigh and rises to his feet, shaking out his stiff legs before leaning down over you and letting you taste yourself on his lips. The kiss grows deep in an instant, his tongue sliding into your mouth as you wrap your legs around him and pull his body into yours. His aching dick gets trapped in between until you reach down and take hold of it, guiding it to rest against your hot, wet cunt.Ā 
That first bit of contact is enough to pull a low groan from him, the slippery heat of your pussy on the top side of his cock making him throb and leak against you. Heā€™s so fucking desperate for you but thereā€™s only one thing that he wants more than to sink inside of you bare right now, and thatā€™s to respect your wishes (and not get you pregnantā€¦ for the next year or two, at least).Ā 
Maybe someday he can fuck you without a condom but that day wonā€™t be today, so with great difficulty, he drags his lips away from yours and reaches an arm out to pull open his bedside drawer. He feels around for a second, exclaiming victoriously when his fingers catch on the box before he takes hold of it and sets it on the bed.Ā 
Looking back at you for approval, he finds you beaming up at him like he hung the stars in the sky just so you could bask in their light, and fuck, he swears heā€™d rearrange them all in the shape of you, given the chance.Ā 
He fumbles one-handed with the box for a minute, his other hand braced next to your head to keep himself from crushing you, before you take over and tear it open, ripping a packet off the strip and tossing the rest onto his nightstand.Ā 
ā€œWeā€™ll need those for later,ā€ you inform him matter-of-factly as you unwrap the condom and reach down to wrap your fingers around his dick. Heā€™s been leaking enough precum that your hand glides when you pump it up and down, and it takes an astounding amount of self control not to fuck into your grasp as if heā€™s never been touched before.Ā 
You place the condom at his tip and start to roll it on and even that is heavenly, your touch electric and your eyes bright like the summer sun when your gaze meets his. He feels you line him up, his cock jumping at just the thought of being inside your perfect cunt, barrier or no barrier. Your legs tighten around his waist, pulling his hips into yours, and he takes that for the hint it is.Ā 
Sucking in a deep breath, he starts to sink into you, the head of his cock pushing through the tightness of your entrance to disappear inside of you inch by inch. He goes slowly, both to give you time to adjust and to give himself the opportunity to get it together, the blazing heat and intoxicating grip of your pussy wiping out every coherent thought in his brain. Thereā€™s a stretch but itā€™s eased by your arousal, and the way he can feel you relaxing and opening up to accept him is nothing short of exquisite.Ā 
ā€œHow does it feel?ā€ He gasps out raggedly, watching your face as he finally bottoms out. Your eyebrows are scrunched up and your pretty lips are parted, soft breaths escaping as you hitch your thighs up higher on his waist and let your eyes blink open.Ā 
Theyā€™re full of tears, making him blanch and immediately start to pull his hips back, sure that heā€™s hurting you and youā€™ve been unable to even speak through the pain to tell him.Ā 
ā€œNo, stay! Stay, Cheollie, itā€™s fucking perfect,ā€ you plead in a broken voice, hugging him closer with your legs and wrapping your arms around his neck.Ā 
ā€œThen why are you crying?ā€ He asks, confused and still slightly worried though the fluttering of your walls around him is enough to make him want to cry too.Ā 
ā€œIā€™ve just wanted you for so long, and you make me feel even better than I ever dreamed you would,ā€ you tell him through a wobbly smile. ā€œI think youā€™re my missing piece.ā€Ā 
ā€œBaby,ā€ he sighs lovingly as he melts against you and drops down to his elbows to press his lips to yours, the movement burying him just a bit deeper inside and making both you and him moan in pleasure.Ā 
He doesnā€™t think he even knows words that could explain how flawless, how right you feel around him, but he can at least try, for you.Ā 
ā€œBeing inside of you is likeā€¦ coming home. Like Iā€™ve been wandering in the cold my whole life and I finally found somewhere soft and warm and safe to rest. I kind of want to never leave,ā€ he murmurs, resting his forehead against yours and gazing into your eyes as he speaks.Ā 
ā€œYou may not be able to stay forever but Iā€™ll always want you to come home again,ā€ you promise him gently. ā€œYou will leave enough to move, though, right? Because-ā€
Laughing, he squeezes his eyes shut and steels himself before pulling his hips back a few inches, the drag of your clenching walls on his cock enough to steal his breath even with the latex in between. He tries to go slowly as he presses back into you, but the igneous embrace of your cunt draws him in with one effortless, gliding thrust.Ā 
Somehow, burying himself inside of you the second time feels even better than the first, and itā€™s easier to withdraw from your warmth again when he realizes that the pleasure will only compound as he moves more and more.Ā 
Fighting to keep his eyes open and on your face while he establishes a rhythm, he builds speed until the catch in your breath and the fluttering of your eyelashes tells him heā€™s found the best pace for you. He canā€™t make it out more than a couple inches before your legs around his waist stop him, but he loves that you want him inside as much as he wants to be inside, so he just puts more power behind his hips as he slides back in to make sure you feel it.Ā 
Time starts to pass and he falls into something like a trance, the feeling of your pussy clinging to him as he leaves and cradling him as he returns hypnotic. Itā€™s almost as if heā€™s lost the ability for complex thought and replaced it with pure sensation, just acting on instinct now that his brain has been rendered useless.Ā 
It doesnā€™t help that your gaze is deep, mesmerizing, fucking magnetic. He canā€™t look away, feels like he canā€™t even blink as he fucks into you, his face close enough to yours that heā€™s breathing your air. Still, he wants to be even closer, wants to burrow inside of you, climb into your ribcage, and make a home right next to your heart.Ā 
The desire is so intense, itā€™s nearly frightening, but nothing could scare Seungcheol away from you now. Heā€™s yours, mind, body, and soul, belonging to you in a way heā€™s never allowed himself to belong to anyone else before.Ā 
He hates to admit it, but heā€™s already starting to get close. Lasting has never been an issue for him, even in the past few months when all he could think about was you, but thinking about you and being inside of you are two very different things. Your pussy is goddamn magical, everything about fucking you is goddamn magical, and he fears his only hope is in changing positions.Ā 
ā€œBaby, can I- shit, can I fuck you from behind?ā€ He stalls his movements long enough to ask, dreading the moment heā€™ll have to pull out completely so you can turn over.Ā 
ā€œUm, yes butā€¦I honestly donā€™t know if I can hold myself up,ā€ you reluctantly admit, like you think itā€™s something to be embarrassed about.Ā 
ā€œThatā€™s what pillows and my hands are for,ā€ he assures you, smiling at the way you relax and unwrap your legs from his waist, allowing him to begin the process of extricating himself from you.Ā 
Slowly, he begins to draw his hips back, ignoring the alarm bells that ring in his head as he feels his cock leave your heat inch by inch. Itā€™s only for a minute or two, he tells himself, pushing off of you and sitting up so you can get onto your stomach.Ā 
He watches your body move as you roll over, his eyes stuck on the curve of your plush ass before you get your knees under you and they shift to the gleam of your wet, fucked open cunt. Keeping his gaze on you, he reaches to the head of the bed and grabs the two pillows that rest there, sliding them under your hips one after another. You sink into position, your back arched and your cheek pressed against his sheet, completely relaxed even with your body on full display for him.Ā 
The groan escapes without his permission, the memory of your taste on his tongue making his mouth water. Before he knows it, heā€™s on his stomach too and burying his face in your pussy, reaching up to press down on the small of your back so you arch even deeper into him.Ā 
ā€œCheol!ā€ You gasp, pushing back onto his tongue when he shoves it inside of you, making him whimper into your cunt as he devours you.Ā 
ā€œNever gonna get enough of this pussy, fuck,ā€ he mutters as he shifts his focus to your clit, wrapping his lips around the bud and sucking in pulses. He doesnā€™t know how long he eats you out, just that he goes until youā€™re dripping down his face again and squirming against him, desperate to cum.Ā 
ā€œSeungcheol, please, I ne-need your cock, need you to fill me up,ā€ you cry out, reaching back and gripping one of his hands where it holds you down.Ā 
His dick jumps and leaks into the condom at your words, the plea in your voice sparking a shiver he feels all the way from his scalp to his toes. Pulling his tongue from you, he rises back up on his knees and shuffles forward, taking hold of his cock and gliding it up and down the seam of you, nudging at your clit.Ā 
ā€œCheol,ā€ you begin, likely about to threaten him. He would love to hear it but your entrance catches on the head of his dick and he canā€™t resist the alluring, feverish depths of your cunt, sliding inside in one long, ruthless thrust.Ā 
You keen when he reaches the end of you but you also tilt your hips to accept the last inch, the snug clutch of your pussy near mythical in the bliss it brings him. With one hand gripping your hip to hold you up and the other firm on the small of your back to keep you in place, he starts thrusting in and out of you.Ā 
The tempo he takes is brutal, fierce, the force of his hips impacting your ass making it ripple and bounce as he fucks into you. His hearing is fuzzy with how fucking good it feels but he can still make out the smack of his skin against yours and the slick sound of his cock gliding through your wetness. Thereā€™s a squelch every time he bottoms out, and accompanied by your whines and whimpers, all of the noises combine to create a masterpiece of a melody.Ā 
Seungcheol truly thought the pause would help but heā€™s right back where he started, throbbing and leaking for you and so fucking close to the edge, heā€™s concerned heā€™ll make it there before you do. Sure, you already came twice, but you deserve a third, a fourth if he can hold himself back long enough - one orgasm for every month he spent not making you cum.Ā 
The hand on your back slips around under your hips, working itself down between your legs to find your clit. Itā€™s swollen beneath his fingers, slippery from the arousal his dick keeps pushing out, which only makes it easier to swirl circles into the bud, the way your pussy instantly clenches around him making him moan roughly.Ā 
The added resistance just enhances each stroke, your walls trying to suck his cock back in when he pulls out and hugging him tighter and tighter every time he pushes inside again. He fears he wonā€™t be able to make you cum without it making him cum too, but thereā€™s something so poetic about finding that euphoria together that he canā€™t be bothered about breaking this soon.Ā 
ā€œGetting close, baby?ā€ He asks, fairly sure what your answer will be.Ā 
ā€œYeah, Cheollie, wan-wanna cum with you inside me so bad,ā€ you gasp, craning your neck to look back at him. ā€œThought about it every time I-ā€Ā 
You canā€™t finish your sentence when his fingers start to move faster, but he thinks he knows where you were going with it.Ā 
ā€œEvery time you fucked yourself, you wished it was me instead, huh?ā€ He teases a little meanly, knowing he has no room to talk.
Your face crumples as you nod, tears filling your eyes, and he leans down over you, his hand leaving your hip to brace himself so he doesnā€™t suffocate you. He presses his lips to your cheek, your jaw, your neck, murmuring, ā€œI did the same fucking thing, baby, and I always wanted it to be you.ā€
ā€œPromise?ā€ You whisper, a vulnerable tinge to your voice. Heā€™s reminded that, until tonight, you had no idea how he felt about you. This is all still new, and he needs to be kind, delicate, reassuring as you acclimate to the reality of him being in love with you.Ā 
Stopping all movement so you can fully focus on his words, he whispers back, ā€œCross my heart and hope to die. Ever since we met, Iā€™ve thought about you, wanted you, dreamed about you. I fell for you. Youā€™re it for me.ā€Ā 
ā€œYou're it for me too, Seungcheol,ā€ you tell him gently, before asking, ā€œCan I turn back over? I want you to hold me.ā€
He answers by smacking one last kiss to your cheek and climbing off of you, helping to roll you onto your back and pulling one of the pillows out from under your hips, leaving you slightly elevated but not so much that itā€™s uncomfortable. Sighing contentedly as he stretches himself out along your body, he slides his forearm under your shoulders to pull you into his chest and holds himself up with that elbow, slipping the other hand between your bodies to guide his dick inside of you.Ā 
ā€œBetter?ā€ He confirms, grinning when you nod shyly and wrap your arms around his neck, your legs rising to encircle his waist as he sinks back into you. He hopes you feel as held by him as he feels by you, the sheer comfort and safety of your body enough to make his eyes water this time.Ā 
He moves slowly, carefully, rocking in and out of you at a steady pace, never leaving you more than halfway before burying himself inside again. The brief pause did wonders for his self control, his release feeling far enough away that he thinks he really might be able to get you there once before he lets you pull him over the edge too.Ā 
Until you start kissing him, that is.Ā 
Once your lips meet his and your tongue slips into his mouth, every part of him is wrapped up in loving you. Thereā€™s not a single thing on his mind except for you, every thought dedicated to kissing you, fucking you, pleasing you, and it feels so goddamn right. Like this is what he was made for.Ā 
And fuck if that doesnā€™t have him closer than ever before, his cock pulsing and leaking into the condom, the latex probably the only thing keeping him from cumming right now. If he could feel you bare, it would be over for him, and as much as he wants to experience you without the barrier, heā€™s thankful for it.Ā 
His fingers settle back onto your clit and start to rub circles around it, his mouth catching the gasp you let out when his hips scoop on the next thrust in and drag the head of his cock against your g-spot.Ā 
He canā€™t hit it with every stroke, not when he wants to get as deep as possible, but combined with the work of his fingers, he can feel you getting closer each and every time he does graze the erogenous patch.Ā 
You stop kissing him to tilt your head back and let out a long, high-pitched whine, and he knows itā€™s almost time. He doesnā€™t change a thing, not when your nails dig into his shoulders, not when your hips buck into his, not even when your pussy starts to swallow around his cock. He just keeps his steady pace, continues to roll your clit beneath his fingers, and hopes, prays, wishes that pleasure will find you before it washes over him.Ā 
ā€œPlease, please, please baby, please fucking cum for me,ā€ he begs, every muscle in his body tensing as he fights to hold off his own orgasm. Itā€™s not in vain, thank fucking goodness, because you whimper brokenly as your pussy starts to undulate around him, growing tighter and tighter until he canā€™t move, can barely even breathe.Ā 
Youā€™re cumming, fuck, youā€™re cumming, and so is he, the pulsating of your walls around him making him surge deep inside and stay there as he fills the condom with his cum, his cock jerking and jumping within you. Itā€™s better than it ever has been, every thought in his head wiped out by pure fucking ecstasy and every muscle in his body tensing then relaxing as he succumbs to the urge to just melt into you and let two become one.Ā 
Minutes, or maybe hours, pass before he can pull himself away from you, but eventually you release your hold on him, your arms falling to rest beside your head and your legs gingerly returning to the mattress. He doesnā€™t know if heā€™s ready to not be inside of you, but the condom is starting to feel uncomfortable now that heā€™s softening, especially as full of cum as it is, so he holds the base of it as he withdraws himself from you.Ā 
You pout the whole time and he does too, but you say nothing as he gets off the bed to slip the condom off, tying the end in a knot before dropping it in the bin next to his desk.Ā 
Seungcheol doesnā€™t know why but heā€™s nervous to turn back around, to face you again. When he does, though, you just smile up at him sleepily and open your arms, waiting for him to find his place.Ā 
He grins softly and slides back into bed, laying on his back and gathering you up against his chest, humming contentedly when you snuggle into him, your leg tossed over his thigh and your arm wrapped around his waist.Ā 
ā€œWe should wash up, but I donā€™t want to moveā€¦ā€ he murmurs, lifting his head just enough to press a kiss to your crown before letting it drop back down, his eyes fluttering closed.Ā 
ā€œI have bad news,ā€ you say quietly. His heart starts to race and his eyes fly open, his arms tightening around you like thatā€™ll protect him from what youā€™re about to say.Ā 
ā€œWhat is it?ā€ He asks, hesitation clear in his voice.Ā 
ā€œWe forgot my stuff in your car,ā€ you whisper nervously, as if thatā€™s something he would actually get upset with you over.Ā 
He canā€™t stop the laugh that bubbles out of him, tinged in both love and relief, though he does muffle it in your hair.Ā 
ā€œThatā€™s not so bad, baby. Iā€™ll go get your water and bag, and you start the shower, okay?ā€ he proposes, already planning to jog so he can make it back in time to rinse off with you.Ā 
ā€œOkay,ā€ you sigh happily, sitting up and rolling out of bed before prancing over to the ensuite, fully fucking naked.Ā 
Yeah, no way in hell is he staying on that goddamn couch tonight.Ā 
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AN: what a fucking journey this was!! Iā€™m so happy i kept yall updated through it because it was so nice to have you cheering me on and to know you were excited for it to come out šŸ„ŗ did i expect it to be three times as long as part one? no! are their feelings a bit dramatic? yes! is this fanfiction? yes, so i can make it as dramatic as i want! people get married after one month, theyā€™re allowed to be in love after four! ps you donā€™t know how hard it was to keep more breeding kink from slipping into this like itā€™s borderline impossible for me to write seungcheol without breeding kink but i did my best and i did it for you
all i have left to say is this: you deserve someone who will love you like seungcheol loves reader! you deserve someone who will listen to you and respect you and do everything in their power to make you feel good! thatā€™s what i, user sluttywoozi, wants for you! remember that the next time you think about settling for less than what you deserve!
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