#i lost my entire will

[ssg-nagareyn]

Nagareboshi

Smooth as a cactus flower

Cold as a supernova

A shooting star among dragons

Nigga I was always the jack of odd balls

I'm sorry, all trades and master of one-of-dones

Life really hasn't been a rave considered fun

It's a game that's pay to win

Pay your debts bitch

Money talks

Cash is king

Credit don't mean shit

You're too far in it to quit

I am nothing without my れ

From a time when all I knew

Was a name that stained my soul

As permanent as the tears I've cried

The night I learned too young

What it was like to stain your lips

From an overly curious boy

That you had called your family for hours

And you were deathly afraid of the consequences in telling anyone

Because “Heaven Knows” it was more of a crime “if I turned out gay” than if I was SA’d

Well it's no fun when you're the one tasting the bitter blade

I weep for my previous name because he

Never had a chance but I am thankful

For him because he birthed me

A birth that I spent too long hiding behind the same mask that I was born in.

I was never him, I never knew what me was.

What I saw on my computer screen were friends being free

Guys wearing skirts who would eventually become beautiful women

Bro I wasn't thinking of any of that I was too busy trying not to get picked on for being a weirdo

A quiet MF who stayed in the corner of the class playing on his Gameboy in lunch breaks

Told that piece of shit called my father that it was the village who raised me from a teen

Some of my best homies I met at one-thirteen are still a touch away if I need them

But not even they know the real me

Because I never knew who that bitch was until the eve of losing my life.

My mother. She was my life.

It has not been be same since that eve.

It's ironic isn't it? I spent two years of my life feeling the most liberated I felt.

The one person who I would be terrified and curious of seeing me like this is not here.

How would you feel? What would you react?

You'd tell me to clean my fucking room first off

You'd gasp and have a heart attack for seeing how I treat your wig

You'd see my photos and those focal points of anger would melt away

Even close confidants of us say that we look alike

Heck, we always did even when I was him

And when I told you I was non-binary you still accepted me even though you didn't get it.

I think you would have been a big help in my path of knowing how to use makeup

How to present myself

I've been going to lounges and open mics, bars and house shows with my friends

Isn't this what you used to do during The Garage and Roseland era?

I find myself protecting my homies much like a guard on standby

But I have fun because I know I'm protected.

So what did you do when you didn't feel protected?

When Jeannie passed, what went through your mind?

You left the apartment in a storm, grabbed your Newports, and I stayed up

I had school the next day but I had a stomach virus

But I didn't want to leave your side the following day and nothing you said was going to get me to go to school

I lied, you woulda forced me but promised me you'd be okay

I couldn't face Jeannie on her deathbed. I couldn't face you with the sheet over your body.

This wasn't meant to be a letter to you!

But…you are me, are you not?

When someone asked if my new name is my birthday, I said, I wasn't sure if I could call it.

But when you gave birth to me, you said it was a second birthday to you, right?

So, maybe, this whole Flow thing…was…like a second birthday for me.

When I lost you… Flow was born…

She…and you…became my second birthday.

That is in my name.

Malik was the middle name given to me by my mother.

My father gave me Naquan. In her words, he felt the name sounded cool.

But Malik had meaning. It meant King.

You looked up to Malcolm X.

That was his name. Malik el-Shabazz

I played Elden Ring two years ago

The main antagonist, her name was Marika.

There are no “Ls” in the Japanese language

So you can see the correlation, Malika, which means queen.

A tragic tale as antagonists don't really exists in that game

Just people with their own duties to fulfill.

But even that felt too similar to my old self.

Reyna was the result of weeks of sitting alone after work, high out of my mind

Because it is the only way I have solace these days.

It means Queen but it's so fucking versatile! Reyn sounds close enough to Nay

Reyna is Re:Nay. Rebirth of Nay

And to emphasis that

The middle name’s Renée

The last name’s Nagare

Because that's just how it flows.

No, seriously, 流れ means Flow.

But if you take the れ away…

It becomes 流 (In person imagine me saying Ryu)

And this is also a part of me because there are many Flows to my essence.

I got many styles, all this time this was a poem

But I'm having a conversation with you

On some crazy stream of consciousness shit

Streams and flows, that's what it means when you take away the れ

But the “Re” is what makes me, me!

Without the Re, I'm not Reyna, a sovereign

I'm Nay without a birthright.

Renée without the Re is stillborn, much like how I spent two-thirds of my life

I can be a shooting star among dragons

But that's not my true calling,

That's like in the Street Fighter movie

Where they gave “Ryu” the name “Ryu Hoshi”

He is not a “Shooting Star” he a “Rising Dragon”

I am the Spark to your Soul among the stars

And my Soul is a fucking Satellitare

Pardon my Italian tongue

But I'm as beautiful as a Rose

And I almost fucking forgot that.

If only I wasn't staring at the Torii gates mentally

Mix my soul with the Spirit Realm

Walking around with a halo over my head

Even Lazuli got caught lacking among the Z-Fighters

No one is wasting a prayer on me with the Dragon Balls

It was a good run but all stars fade.

[egophiliac]

can't believe that skeleman has turned on us, and Halloween Prom is tomorrow.

(what a top-tier UM...we are about to be just totally obliterated in the absolute silliest way. what possible use could this power have outside of bringing us to the brink of utter holiday disaster.)

[mafuyuakgae]

even if I came to love humanity in the end, there’s no proof I was ever here, right?

[vitreouspositive]

optimus "i can fix him" prime

vs megatron's "i can make him worse"

[cozylittleartblog]

Columbo and the Knight (1984)

put me in the universe where Columbo ran through the 1980s and had a crossover episode with Knight Rider. I think they deserved it, and I am not just saying that because they're my two favorite Old Shows. @telebeast wrote a little fanfic blurb about it and I HAD to visualize it into a comic (which is also the longest comic I have finished thus far at five pages...), so writing credit goes to them.

Autism W!

[doctorsiren]

AU where Ford did end up going to West Coast Tech and he ends up founding Aperture Science (and yes, this was all because Cave Johnson and Ford have the same VA)

[not-equippedforthis]

forever mourning how granada holmes never adapted the three garridebs. diabolical. unbelievable, even. 'if you had killed watson you would not have made it out of this room alive' but in brett's frightfully intense and low, biting, hissing voice. the violent, wild stare versus the gentle hand on watson's knee. all of that precarious control getting flung out the window. the humanity of it. gritting my teeth can you fucking imagine.

[mecachrome]

AUSTRIAN GP 2024 | Post-Race Interview Lando leaving an interview mid-question to congratulate Oscar

[ryllen]

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[sealsdaily]

Today's Sea Lion Is: Sine Wave

[starscream-is-my-wife]

Pt 2 and the final part of LL Megatrons conversation with an aware G1 Starscream

this one wasn’t as dramatic as the first part but there’s only so much emotional vulnerability Screamer can do with his new free will heheh, thanks for all of the comments encouraging me! I’ve never drawn longer comics like these before and it’s pretty fun so hopefully I can improve with the next comic I make!

[starry-bi-sky]

mmm throwaway conversation between Dan and Danny that popped into my head that I had to write out:

"You spent ten years being a one-man mass extinction event, then went back in time and fought me, and lost." Danny snarls, arms crossed and throat tight. His mouth pulls back to bare dagger-sharp teeth, and his eyes burn with the familiar thrum of ectoplasm heating up behind his eyes. "If I didn't believe you were half of Vlad before, I do now."

His other self -- and really, can he even call him that? He's half of Vlad too. Two halves severed from each other and welded together to make a new whole, -- snaps his head over to him. Wild-eyed and furious, he looks unlike the man Danny fought before, the one unruffled and untouched, unbothered by the world around him. It's familiar, but not like the way a reflection is.

"What's that supposed to mean." The Other hisses, matching Danny's scowl one-for-one with fangs much bigger and sharper than his.

But there's a reason lions fear hyenas. Danny matches the rumble in The Other's chest with one of his own, and shoves his face close to his. "I don't lose."

[egophiliac]

do skully have pokemon?

Pumpkaboo is the obvious one, but y'know, sometimes the obvious one is the right one! (we'll say SUPER SIZE Pumpkaboo, just for fun. big pumpkin for big skeleton boy.) and another person actually also suggested Greavard, which I somehow hadn't considered, but feels so perfect that I feel like I should have. dangit.

(they can also have little Nightmare Suit costumes :D)

[bunjywunjy]

my most fun kayak pastime: expertly scooping trash out of the lake with my paddle and immediately flipping it onto the docks of rich people

[avastazyana]

insp

[cozylittleartblog]

also in the face of people deleting their blogs, that's another reason why you guys are supposed to reblog stuff. if somebody deletes a post, your liked version will disappear, but the reblogs remain. i'm insane about preservation and archival, every single piece of art i have ever enjoyed is reblogged on my 450k+ posts main account so if the artists leave I still have their work. i even tag things (though just with the main fandom tag) so I have years and years worth of fanworks saved that the terrible general site search will never show you.

please reblog art. not just to support the artists who make it and share their efforts, but also so you have your own copy of their works saved for yourself, and the future users of this site.