#i like to find myself in rarepair hell and think - how can i make this worse for myself

[sieglinde-freud]

thinking about them and banging my head against the wall again whats new. they are making me so emo. god. what the fuck

[good-vs-evo]

oooh i was just tryna find some huayin content because i was bored and a little tired and wanted to cheer myself up AND GUESS WHAT

i thought tumblr was a safe place for me to be insane and queer and have a good time w my silly little rarepairs and polycules and hcs

but apparently. i can't ask for one place to be silly lmao there are ppl on tumblr still being like haters... for ships they could easily avoid? and putting it... under the huayin tag? which is, you know. the uh. the intention is kind of confusing. esp since ppl search up that tag w the intent to consume content related to their personal interests and probably don't want to see ppl hating on what they enjoy in the process <3

once again i don't really see the point in so avidly hating a ship that ur tagging it... in hopes that ppl who ship it will see it? because... they're ppl who ship it... and will likely not agree w u... and will likely just see u as another hater... and either ignore or fight and like where will that get anyone? sincerely? and hating an artist so much like w so much passion i think there are better things in life to do such as: find an artist u do like and move on!!

but i digress i just. i wanted to make a lil post w my hcs for them bc i <3 huayin hehe

reusing some from my long post abt all the rarepairs and polycules i ship!

hua cheng rarely got sick, but when he did, he wasn't worried (he knew yin yu would take good care of him)

both yin yu and hua cheng know how to cook, so they make each other meals when they know the other is too busy to remember to cook for themselves

yin yu can read hua cheng's handwriting! possibly the only person on heaven, hell, and earth who can, he's really used to seeing his messy scribbles and has learned how to decipher them

hua cheng was kind of a xie lian gatekeeper for a while, but he regaled yin yu with stories and let yin yu into his temple dedicated to xie lian

e'ming trusts yin yu and likes him to equal levels to xie lian

they have some little odd creatures of mysterious background that they keep and raise together in paradise mansion

yin yu asked hua cheng to teach him how to draw and paint and hua cheng has little lessons for him when they're both free

yin yu's interested in different kinds of masks, so hua cheng gifted him a room and funds to invest in new ones

they have chill time once a month when they're required to leave their work to just spend an entire day together

hua cheng's love language to yin yu is acts of service and gift giving

yin yu's love language to hua cheng is acts of service (no wayyy) and touch

hope u enjoy :) and also wishing u a nice day :D

[useless19]

You my dear have made the mistake of reigniting my love for megatron x knockout so now you must suffer my mad ravings. I'm sorry in advance. Megaknock is a FASCINATING ship because they are so alike and so different that its downright poetic in a way i know the writers didn't intend. They are both cunning and dangerous, both ruled by pride and explosive emotions. Both dramatic and boisterous. Neither are particularly patient and both relish in the pain of others.

However megatron enjoys a challenge, he's disciplined and unconcerned with his image as long as he can strike fear in his enemies, hes hardly afraid of getting dirty if it means getting his way. As for Knockout well in his own words games are only fun if your winning. he's indulgent and famously vain taking immeasurable pride in his appearance to the point where he will kill over getting his paint scratched. Megatron is composed and stern, with his harsh edges, towering size and unnatched strength he commands respect strength and radiates danger, an apex predator.

Meanwhile knockout is flamboyant and downright playful. With his small frame, his curved edges, his shiny paint he hides in plain sight making others think he's just a pretty preening thing, making them forget about the buzzsaws and knowledge from his profession that ensures he knows where the soft spots are. A scavenger through and through.

They would be a nightmare for absolutely everyone else as a couple, feeding off of and into eachothers worst nature. You just know knockout would revel in being a pampered trophy wife. As long as he gets to keep enjoying his hobbies he's perfectly happy to play the role of pretty accessory hanging off his masters arm or lounging in his lap and making him look all the more fearsome by comparison. Megatron would enjoy it just as much. Not only does he get to have a treasure the nobles of old would covet shamelessly fawn over him he also gets the entertainment of them not realizing the danger right in front of them. Atleast until they wind up on the dissection table. What can he say, megatron can't resist the sight of knockout in his element with his true predatory nature on full display, besides the colors of death suit him well. He always did find blue and red a lovely combination.

Pulling people back into rarepair hell is never a mistake ;)

One of the key things for me about their dynamic is that Knock Out is possibly the only person who is happy being a Decepticon while also genuinely seeming to like Megatron (for the most part). Watch the look on Knock Out's face in Stronger, Faster when Megatron injures Ratchet and presents his leaking frame to Knock Out with a "There's your laboratory sample, doctor." or the way Megatron accepts the Predacon talon at the end of Plus One.

They enjoy each other's competence and cruelty and their goals are often aligned, meaning that, while methods and success rates may vary, they generally aren't costing each other their key values/at key moments (compare to the worst of their conflicts with Starscream).

I think it helps that Megatron is usually smart about dealing with Knock Out on a (somewhat) professional level. Take the times Knock Out presents himself as mission-ready in Tunnel Vision and Hard Knocks, Megatron questions his capabilities both times. Knock Out doesn't appreciate the questioning, but Megatron's concern is assuaged by giving Knock Out an Insecticon guard and Knock Out borrowing equipment respectively, there's almost an edge of care to it. Later on, "Haven't I proven myself?" is followed up with "I need your scientific skills." which both soothes the unintended insult and shows how much Megatron appreciates Knock Out's non-combat skills - ie, the whole package.

Knock Out doesn't have some big grand plan, he's going with whatever flow works best for him. Whereas, Megatron does have a vision of the future (defeat the Autobots and rule the planet) and it's one that Knock Out fits in perfectly well. There isn't a need for Knock Out to question the status quo because it serves him just fine.

Megatron and Knock Out are also fascinating to me for being the two highest charisma characters in the show, just focused at opposite ends of the spectrum.

As much as I love the many ways in which they can make each other worse, I also really like how they have the potential to fit together and give each other the space to be needlessly sadistic while also being able to get comfort (even if it is wrapped in layers of denial). Megatron praises people when they succeed (competence kink, anyone?), while Knock Out, despite being designed sexy, never gets anyone commenting on how pretty he is, not even in a derogatory way. It's so close to Megatron dropping a half-compliment on Knock Out's looks and Knock Out taking it entirely too seriously.

And size difference. Can't forget the size difference!

[intcritus]

SHIPPING INFO. answer the following for your muse(s) so people know how shipping works on your blog.

What’s your OTP for your Muse(s)?

I don't really do OTPs, but Hua Cheng and Xie Lian is the only one to ever exist in my head. Other than that, I don't really have many if any at all because fandom tends to ruin any sort of OTP for me and I just don't even bother anymore.

What are you willing to RP when it comes to shipping?

Mmm, I'm pretty open to write anything but no non-con, I just don't see myself going that route after somene shoved it on me in Bleach fandom days, I'm still traumatized that shit happened. That and I find that it's a harstop for me to write stuff like that in general with the way I've mutred over the years and it's a trigger for me. Generally though, I'm happy to write pretty much anything else, but there has to be communication involved.

How large does the age gap have to be to make it uncomfortable?

I try to make my characters from 27 to damn near 50, and I have a lot of immortal muses. That being said, no one below like 27 because most of my muses are just old enough that they'd be bothered by certain age gaps. For my 27+ muses, no one below their age but upward ? Yes please. For my immortal muses, give them them 30 + always. They don't wanna feel like grave robbers. As for any muse I have below 27, i.e Edward, Shoto, Shinso, they're dating in their age bracket.

Are you selective when shipping?

Yes and no. As someone who needs active communication when it comes to shipping, I realize things don't really progress or develop if we aren't talking. And I don't mean everyday, because that's unrealistic. But if we're in the midst of shipping, I would like to hear your thoughts on the way they're developing together. I would love to share thoughts about the ins and outs of them just being in the same space. I love to ship, but empty ships with no substance fall flat and get dropped overtime because shipping is a two-way street and if one part is not putting in the work, the whole workload falls onto the other partner and that's a no go for me. In the same token, I'm happy to talk about dynamics, I'm all about what'll work and what won't work, especially in romantic ships, but familiar and friendships work out perfectly without much chatter.

How far do steamy moments have to go before they’re considered NSFW?

There's steamy, then there's suggestive. Steamy is them grinding against one another, dirty talk and the like. Suggestive is just them probably making eyes. Either way, I'm tagging it as is because I don't want the tumblr police in my ear.

Who are other muses you ship your muse with?

Honestly, couldn't tell you off rip. I have friends who I've been friends with for years that occupy most of my ships. It's such dynamic and rarepairs that it's hard to list them all. Its so much fun when I think about just how rarepairs, pairs I've hardly thought about can work once talked about. It's so good.

Does one have to ask to ship with you?

Absolutely. I feel like if there's some blooming chemistry for our muses, and you see it, feel free to tip yourself into my IMs or my inbox and shout in capital letters about them, I'm always happy to discuss it. Because I'm not an insta-shipper, but I love when muses develop crushes, or if there's potential for a certain dynamic and I'll never turn down anything, as long as there's adequate communication.

How often do you like to ship?

As someone who takes the time to develop ships, not as often as I used to. Mutual interest goes a long way into getting me to ship. Sometimes I'm there for shipping and I'm like hell yeah, other times I'm just eh. Depends on the why and if there's interest on both ends.

Are you multiship?

That, I am. But I don't do multiples of the same muse. I'm all for a friendships but I refuse to be ship with multiples because it's messy and my brain doesn't like to feel like someone's hoarding my muse or vice versa. Most people don't do exclusives but in my head, I do because it gives me peace of mind. That and my muses are very devoted to their person and the thought of trying with the same muse, different writer shrivels up their muse as a whole.

Are you ship obsessed or ship more-or-less?

The only thing I'm obssessed with when it comes to my ships is probably everything me, Sis and Aven come up with. Because those pairings come outta nowhere and are all the more dynamic for them. Shipping has become a rare thing for me these days because stuff tends to fall off, and I am okay with that. Developing ships is different because muses aren't one dimensional and it's fun to see them opposing one another, for them to be realistic and have conflicting feelings. Those are the things that make me want to ship rather than ' oh my god, they need to kiss', it's more ' could they agree on world destruction ? ' or ' is that thing a deal breaker ?'

What is your favorite ship in your current fandom?

Don't really belong to a single fandom tbh. Like I said, most of my pairings are rare and odd, so....

Finally, how does one ship with you?

Like I've been saying, communicate with me ! I'm not gonna bite and the worst thing I can say is no. I'm big on communicating because it goes a long way in letting me determined if there's mutual interest there and if not, we can always come back to it another time. But if not, I'm not always in a rush to jump into ships, it takes time.

tagged by : @avaere ( thanks nerd <3 )

tagging: @venstm @strcngered @msftsn & anyone whose feeling froggy !

[danggirlronpa]

Since polyships are on the table... 🍑 Mahiru/Hiyoko/Ibuki or 🍑 Mahiru/Sato/Hiyoko (I have a feeling this one will go horribly, as I tend to headcanon Hiyoko as being very jealous of Mahiru's affection towards Sato; both Sato and Hiyoko are definitely in love with Mahiru meanwhile can't stand each other. I imagine Sato also dislikes Hiyoko because she reminds her of Natsumi - however fair or unfair that comparison is, I definitely feel like Sato has a hatred of bullies. Meanwhile I think Hiyoko would have a soft spot for Ibuki; she would at first try very hard to push her away and prod at insecurities, but once that failed I could see them getting close. Plus, Hiyoko is attracted to kindness - something that she sees in both Hajime (platonically) and Mahiru, which makes her have a soft spot for them - and underneath her jokey-ness, Ibuki is very kind. And I don't even have to explain why Mahiru/Hiyoko works in this equation, lmao - Ibuki/Mahiru is probably the relationship between the three I've put the least thought in, but, I feel like they'd be amicable.)

Also, my Natsumi rarepairs.... 🍑 Chiaki/Natsumi and 🍑 Mikan/Natsumi... I know they don't interact but Chiaki and Natsumi are very much foils for each other & how they affect Hajime, so I think its a damn shame they never interact... plus Mikan/Natsumi would be so tragic.... finding your girlfriend dead... realizing your friend, Sato, killed her..... selling Sato out to your dead girlfriends brother.... Mahiru having such a favorable view of Sato and negative view of Natsumi & Mikan having the reverse.... the biased narration of Mikan (and Mahiru too).... the thought of my girlfriend was nice to me, a real angel, so she COULDN'T have been bullying you.... and then a year later, meeting a demon in the form of Junko Enoshima, who reminds you so much of your dead girlfriend, who tells you that Hope's Peak is corrupt, didn't look into her death to avoid a scandal with the reserve course so the funding to their pet project doesn't get shut down... and you're angry, you're so angry, that was your girlfriend and they don't even care.... why not let the devil tempt you into revenge? Don't they deserve it? I am so crazy about Natsumi/Mikan and NO ONE is tapping into their potential, the only fics on it on ao3 are my own.... I adore them 😭

I've been holding onto this ask because part of me doesn't even want to touch on a response so it can just stand alone as a testament to the ships. I LOVE seeing people talk about their rarepairs, absolutely fuck yes. Please don't think I'm ignoring you when I'm brief or my thoughts differ from yours because this RULES.

Mahiru/Hiyoko/Ibuki: Neat! Every dynamic in here is fucking stellar. I definitely also think this is a ship that centers on Hiyoko, which in and of itself is sort of fun. Danganronpa fans HATE her. But women LOVE her 😏

Mahiru/Hiyoko/Sato: Basically Canon. I'm biased about this because Mahiru/Sato is my real True SDR2 OTP and I consider both it and Mahiyoko to be Basically Canon on their own. But ALL TOGETHER. BOTH IN LOVE WITH MAHIRU. You know that tumblr post that's like "superhero and supervillain but theyre both friends with the same civilian so when their buddy invites them all out together as civilians they just have to silently seethe at each other across the table"? Yeah

Chiaki/Natsumi: Fine. This. And I'm going to be exposing a lot of things about myself as a person here so everyone just be cool. This is a kismesistude. And I will leave it at that.

Mikan/Natsumi: HELL YEAH. This might only appeal to a niche audience but hear me out, okay. You know yakuza mangas that are like. Oh No I Am A Sad Abused Young Woman/Twink Who Has Been Sold To/Become The Caretaker Of A Child In/Married Into/Reincarnated Into/Otherwise Somehow Become Involved In The Yakuza! im so frightened! what does this mean yakuza want with me!! a heart of gold?! could it be??? oh but because of my abuse i feel like i dont deserve this but through this yakuzas unrelenting instant love for me and very violent vengeance upon my abusers and also some gang drama to force us into compromising situations will i be forced to learn self esteem through the power of love?? THATS WHAT I WANT FROM THEM. THATS THE AU IVE WRITTEN IN MY HEAD. AND ALSO WAY OF THE HOUSE HUSBAND AU

[liamgallaghermpreg]

31, 44, 60 and 70! (chosen at random hehe ❤)

Thank you!!

31. Do you start with the characters or the plot when writing? Both ! It really depends. Sometimes I have an idea/plot/pwp I want to write and then I wait till I find the right characters for it. I sat on this one particular AU I wrote a couple years ago for like, 3 years before I fell in love with characters and was like “oh they’d work for that AU!” Or like, I have bulletproof kinks and I’ll tend to write pwp around that stuff for any ship. But a lot of times my stuff is character driven. I love making arguments for how I feel about characters via fic, I love exploring how I think characters would interact (which often leads to writing rarepairs or even pairs I don’t necessarily ship!) and I love writing time period studies, and that tends to come with the property itself and when it’s set.

44. What mistakes do you keep making no matter how often your beta corrects you? Ohhhh my god. My regular beta can confirm that there are many times they leave comments like “Spike what the hell are you trying to say here?” Lol a lot of times I have something I’m trying to communicate that sounds way better in my head and I need that outsider perspective to be like “bruh.” Also, I overuse commas and always have.

60. Have you had a writer you admire comment on your work? What was that like? YES!! Omg I was walking on air hahaha.

70. When asked, are you embarrassed or enthusiastic to tell people what you write? Depends on the person. If you’re down to clown I’ll happily babble at you. Otherwise if you ask what I write I’ll just say fanfiction and won’t elaborate really. Less embarrassment and more protecting myself lol.

[lefae]

Do you know how many works your read this year?

💌 ao3 wrapped [reader edition] (accepting)

Pfft... Umm... So, small disclaimer: I'm a speed reader and tend to read mostly long fics, and due to memory issues will also reread earlier chapters of multichapter long fics to remember wtf was going on previously before reading the newest chapters (because I also tend to wait until there's at least a handful of chapters before getting caught up because otherwise I'll have to keep searching for fic immediately after just having picked one to read).

I have also been hyperfixated on Mass Effect (since introducing you to it, no less), so that's been the predominate fandom to the point that I've read almost everything in some of the tags unless it outright has stuff I won't read at all due to being NOPTs, squicks, and/or severe triggers. Like, I think there are only a handful of Nihlus/Shep fics I haven't read at all yet. And fyi, there are only 3 fics for Joker/Tali, which makes me sad and I kinda want to fix that if I can get the spoons to do so.

All of that was written mostly while I waited to get out of the AO3 frozen jail from trying to load through too many pages too quickly, so now that I can get a rough estimate based on my history, I've read close to 200 fics in 2023 - the majority of them long fics of 100k or more), and the majority of them this year being Mass Effect (including Andromeda) and/or Dragon Age, including various crossovers in some cases (I'm a sucker for a good crossover and/or AU, as you well know).

I read everything from complete fics to wips (including abandoned fics), so there's not much limiting what I'll read. The biggest thing is just staying away from the ships I don't care for, and the tropes I don't want to see, which AO3 makes super easy to avoid (especially since I also use userscripts for highlighting tags, so I have warnings highlighted as red to make them easier to find in long clusters of tags as necessary).

Lately, rarepair hell has been the most common theme I've found myself in, with some pairings having only single or double digits of fics, and most of those are really short (like 1000 words or less), so I'm always looking for the next long fic to dive into.

If I read more short fic, the number would easily be higher, but I actively sort by word count and start at the longest fics possible and work my way down through the pages. Given it only takes me a couple hours to read a 50k fic, and only about 2 nights to read a 200k fic, it's little wonder I seek them out first, unless I'm pressed for time or am having bad ADHD issues with attention span, then I might filter down to a smaller range for a bit.

[dreamcrow]

🌿🤲🎉🌻

(from this meme; thank you for the ask!)

🌿 how does creating make you feel?

oh how can i answer this without becoming completely maudlin 😂 human! alive! as if i esteem death but little! also incredibly tired and like i have never before successfully communicated with another human in my life.

🤲 what do YOU get out of writing?

oh this one's easy. u see,

blorbo kees make gay little brain go brr

also: making strangers on the internet learn about my various fixations. buckle up kids we're learning about neolithic fibercrafts

🎉 how often do you celebrate completing & posting a work? how often do you give yourself the credit/validation that you seek from others when you post? (if you don't, you should!)

...well now i'm embarrassed to say 😂 for the first half of this question: "only once, i.e. when it happens." for the second: i think the validation an author gives themself and the validation they get from others are two completely different things! i do reread my own fics (or look at my own art); it lets me stay sharp on what i do like about it and (i hope) be more able to discern what i can still refine. which i'm glad of! it's a skill i am glad to have, which i wish to cultivate further. and i think i've grown a lot as a writer, even just in the past year. but an unsolicited comment from a stranger—it's the same thing as ticklishness, you can't do it to yourself.

🌻 what makes you want to give up on writing? what makes you keep going?

ngl, it's pretty rough out here in rarepair ordership hell. all my works outside of toa are for hugely popular fandom mainstay ships; i've never written for such a small pairing before, let alone one i was one of the (if not the) first to consider! (god, has it really been THAT long since wizards...?!) it's made me think a lot more about why i share my stuff, and made me focus on intrinsic motivation as opposed to external validations. not 2 b corny or anything but i have in fact learned a good bit about myself since starting this mindset

but in addition to my regular commenter/kudo-er crowd, may they regularly find $50 on the sidewalk, on a couple occasions i've had comments on fics i wouldn't at all have expected the commenters to check out. which! yes, blorbo kees make brain go brr, lol. but also. i know it's a sign i really admire a writer when i take a chance on something new with them, so it's always really cool to get to see the same from the other side.

[crqstalite]

2024 year in review <3

(template by @/papakkapao on twitter!)

So!

The last year in review I did here on tumblr was in (checks notes) 2021. Damn. I was still going by Andre. Whoops! I changed my alias to Sol recently, so if you're staring at this and wondering who the hell is on your dash, don't unfollow quite yet -- it's still me!

Anyway, on to the shit I was up to this year!

WORD COUNT:

This year I wrote in total (drum roll, please) 141,705 words. Pretty impressive considering I've been going through a bit of a dry spell fandom wise for the last twoish years. After my ME/DA phase petered out I don't think I wrote or made much until late 2023, when League of Legends's Heartsteel AU dropped. I wrote a frantic 143,227 words for my largest fic yet in the span of about five months, and actually finished it earlier this year before I delved into Honkai: Star Rail for the rest of it. Scary what a hyperfixation can do to you.

FAVORITE FIC:

My favorite fic that I wrote this year has gotta be if these walls could talk. Sue me, the only completed work I have under my belt, I'll plaster that everywhere. A brief taste of AO3 popularity came with it, I loved responding to everyone's comments and headcanoning 'till way too early in the morning. Regardless of how I felt about it around mid-March (annoyance, wanting to quit, sick of writing it) it does mean a lot to me because it is a little badge of my hard work out there for anyone to read. I made so many friends in the fandom afterwards that it'll always have a little soft spot in my heart.

(I also have a favorite in mine, yours and ours because it's the first work I ever did for Honkai: Star Rail and it makes me happy.)

NEW THINGS I TRIED:

A LOT. Probably too much. But a lot. I spent a good chunk of the year long-form roleplaying (insane, even for me. there has be at least thousands of words written in some server in the void), writing until 2am with a friend across the world, actually writing a whole fic (yes, you're noticing a common theme here), and learning not to take myself too seriously. I spent the last half of the year writing rarepair fic because it made me happy and I didn't care as much about the numbers. Is it objectively good fic? Well -- you're asking the author, of course she's gonna say yes!

But I had fun. I hopped in and out of fandoms as I pleased. Went with the wind instead of trying to force myself to have fun where I wasn't anymore. And eventually, landed right back where I want to be (Dragon Age) after the release of Veilguard.

GOALS FOR 2025:

I was gonna do this funny "cats out the bag!" joke but I'm too much of a yapper to be quiet so -- I'm writing a game! Or, well, I'm thinking about writing one really hard. And I'm finally getting started. I have no idea if I'll finish it, but I'm really excited to try. Really excited to get my brainworms out into the world LOL. Info to come soon.

Anyway I'd tag the people that inspired me but I'm like 80% sure none of them are on tumblr? Yeah if you got this far and realized your dash is 50% me reblogging whatever I please, it's because I semi-moved back to tumblr a month or so ago. Twitter girlies are insane and I prefer a brain cell or two with my DA takes tbh.

(Says the guy who has not finished the game -- STILL)

Anywho if you want to find me/see what I'm up to these days, here I am, @/crqstalite on twitter. Don't be a stranger, I sure won't be.

Happy New Years you filthy animals!

[starwalker03]

Ayo it's late but 2023 Digital Art Progress

I drew the most digital stuff I've ever drawn last year. I finally pushed past a lot of my issues with the digital medium and figured out how to actually Do The Thing per se. so I think I got a lot better over the course of 2023. I definitely changed my visual style a lot, that's for sure.

Unfortunately I did lose my USB in 2023 as well so I lost a lot of my files. much sadness.

LONG POST. lots of drawings to get through and I have Thoughts.

Anyway these are dated in my files as March, which is my earliest I have rn, so this is kinda a representation of how I started the year.

I was busy most of April so May has two files. these were both a part of my semester one project of my degree.

I've got a lot of things dated for June, which is surprising. and not a lot of things dated after. I'm all over the place with starting wips and when it comes to finishing them... ehhh it happens eventually.

I really wish I could go back in time and fix that leg. I just wanted to avoid drawing toes lmao. the thick line art really is a problem to me but that's neither here nor there.

I think I finished a bunch of thing in June, because these are dated two days apart and I definitely started one before the other lmao. hell I think the one on the left was started in 2022.

I'm not sure when this was but it was early in the year. I tried to veer away from the harsh lines and ended up swinging too far into semi-realism. I loved how it was looking (this is still a wip) but the amount of time it was taking was too much for me to replicate again.

This definitely a June piece, because I wanted to do one character every few days throughout Pride Month. Didn't finish it.

last year my friends and I considered starting to record and post our dnd games, so I did some arts of the characters of our current campaign.

I think the solid black line art all of the same thickness was one of the main things I always disliked. I could never quite make it work with everything else I was doing.

This is probably the only work I did with solid black lines that I really liked. it seems to work okay here.

The July came around, and artfight with it! (this character belongs to Crimson_Deceit. You can find Crimson on instagram as Lova.cos or twitter also as Crimson_Deceit)

and then the DCU rarepair exchange came in September and I didn't have time to write treats so I drew them, which spawned a new attempt at shading things that I've been messing with ever since. I prefer the way my linework looks with it.

I messed around with clown oc designs in October, cause that was a mini trend on instagram. didn't finish fast enough to post it but i really like some of the designs.

in December I drew the OCs of some of my friends, as we finished our playthrough of CoS last year. this is our cleric, a changeling who went through many names and faces, depicted holding hands with their player @angelicsky64817

Last piece of the year was this muck around. I'm still trying to figure out some of these new style choices I'm making.

Finish off with a sneak at what I'm currently doing in the new year! I've been drawing one big piece so it's stretching over from january. It's still a wip. And it's such a big image I've gotta compress it.

woo! now I gotta go finish that thing. there's gonna be three more characters to the right of the yellow one. why have I done this to myself.

i hope that in 2024 i can get more of a grip on the saturation of my newer styles of drawing. and learn some more colour theory. and also get better at drawing skin, cause I think I'm mostly okay at clothes but skin always looks boring or weird.

[dellinah]

I'm just randomly being tagged on rat content now im sobbing why must you make Ratigan attractive to me I never cared for him that way till now and it's in feral form on top of that as if I wasnt already a degenerate furry before

That being said i love this! I know you said you like a few panels but I think they all look great! :D I especially like how you manage to make all the mice characters look distinct and different from each other bc I struggle so much with character uniqueness idk how you manage to pull it off!

Also seeing the cool and collected Basil have a gay panic moment, lmao. Or he's just scared he's gonna die. Or both

Probs both

This looks great tho! Both in story and art! I think second panel is my fav bc the anatomy looks SO GOOD but you also draw Basil so cute I can't not mention him :3 Love the traditional sketch style that manages to be so clean yet detailed <3

Also like... was anyone gonna tell me Ratigan has a first name or was I supposed to find that out on this gay rat comic myself

a bartering tool part 1

idk how many parts there will be, but have some of wild Ratigan and Basil from the accidental courtship AU

[sobeautifullyobsessed]

My thank you and love letter to the Doctor Strange x Reader community...

It’s been a very long time. I’ve written for multiple fandoms for 8+ years now, and I was almost always left on the outside looking in, mainly because my creative choice was to fashion OFCs. The red-haired step-children of fan fiction. Still, I carried on, because it’s what my Muse directed, and the nature of the stories that are within me to tell. I like to think my work has steadily improved over the years.

And I get it- I really do. Most people want to see the ship of their heart, and that is most often with canon characters. 

There’s tons of fantastic fic (and face it, not so good as well) out there that gives people exactly that. Are there fictions where the characters are bent and manipulated and made OOC for the sake of making them fit into the narrative the way the author wants them to. HELLS YES! And does it hurt to see the love and praise lavished on these pieces as though they are manna from heaven, while I still struggle to break a couple dozen notes of any kind, and mainly because I have the audacity to fill the written fantasies I offer with strong, original female characters? Not as much as it used to--but sometimes it still smarts.

But I think I’ve found my home at last. The Doctor Strange x Reader Insert community has truly made me feel welcome and embraced me in a way that I finally feel appreciated. And among peers. You lovely people are so key smash and enthusiastic and willing to share ideas and thoughts and advice, it’s like day and night to my old experiences (with one notable exception, because this blogger 🥰🥰 ALWAYS believed in my work and supported me without fail). I never got as many reblogs as I have since giving in to writing my female characters as Reader, and I want to thank you all for every single one of them. You all amaze me too--your imagination and enthusiasm, and daaaaaamn, how astoundingly prolific you are! My only gripe is with myself; why the hell can’t I keep up? I want to match you pace for pace, story for story, else I feel like I’m being left behind in the dust.

Anyway--and hand on heart--just know that I adore and appreciate you all, and you’ve given me the unexpected joy of having my own work greeted with kindness and enthusiasm for the first time in too many years! So please- do read on...and write on too!

PS  The blogger I mentioned above is a fabulous author (and amazing friend) in her own right. Besides her canon compliant fics, she is the The Queen of Rarepairs, and has been known to fashion the occasional and delightful OFC when the spirit moves her. You can find her work on both her main blog and side blog-   @strangelock221b   @dreaminonao3​   Please go give her works a looksee- her Doctor Strange pieces are true *chef’s kiss*, my favorites of which are Stephen x Darcy (omg, they are squee worthy and when I read them I simply pretend I’m Darcy) and Stephen x Pepper (face it, the Man falling and being in love is *sighs* DIVINE), and a newer series which she wrote to cheer me up, called The Countess and Her Defender on AO3. All my love to you, T! 💗

[dervampireprince]

How is my favourite boy doing today? Friday is a bit of a personal hell for me, almost no time for anything until I finally get home at 8:30 make dinner and get to disintegrate, but I can always imagine that I'm having a bit of a better day by my little prince's side, no? Letting him curl up by my feet as I read something and gently pet his soft hair. I hope the day treats you as gently as I'd love to do, dear heart, take care 💙

what a sweetheart you are. i'd love to curl up next to you. i know i've been slower at getting to asks the last couple of days, i've just been busy getting something done that i have a deadline for. though i keep having to remember i don't have an audio backlog at the moment and now will have to frantically record today though not especially in the mood and trying to- oh.. as i'm typing this i remember i have a couple audios pre-recorded but i just keep thinking no one will want to hear them i guess

look at me and my rarepairs. i've actually been thinking of editing that last one to make it just viktor x male listener by just taking out vander's name... maybe that last one being viktor x listener might be a thing some people might like? 'you're viktor's secret undercity boyfriend and viktor is insecure that you could find someone better than him'

sorry i'm rambling about this here in your ask. i guess i'd rather post one of those than try and force myself to record today or tomorrow. no point in stressing myself out when i don't need to, right?

[dana-chan-the-control-brain]

Hi hello I ship the computer and membrane now and I’m very frustrated because it’s only your fic in the Ao3 tag and I don’t trust myself to write anything lmao. I love you but also how could you. I thought I escaped rare pair hell when I escaped home/stuck

I thought I escaped rarepair hell when I left the Naruto fandom.

But here I am.... Making crack ships again.

I can't really believe I invented two ships in two fandoms that were well liked enough.

So I guess from a veteran, tips for surviving rarepair "hell" that I honestly wish someone told me when I was 19 and an over sensitive idiot:

"Just cause people don't draw it or make content on it doesn't mean people hate it."

I find that's true for most rare pairs.

They're just kinda combinations that no body thought of before. Either cus they didn't interact canonically.

So when people hear of something like this existing, it's usually meant with confusion, and bewilderment. Like "those two???"

But then if ya bother to dig a little or just let someone enthusiastic talk about it for five seconds you're like "oh yeah I can see that now"

People typically don't hate crack ships. Like if they do, it has to with personal preference.

Like the two smartest minds in the world mutual bonding over their "sons" and having a mutual respect for each other might seem boring to some people honestly.

Like... I get it. But for me, personally, I'm not a teenager anymore.

I've seen the enemies to lovers thing a thousand times. I've seen teenage pining a thousand times. I've seen the cliches and common misunderstandings in selfish relationships a thousand times for drama or comedy and I'm bored. I'm just kinda bored of the same song and dance I see very often with the Zadrs and Zagrs out there.

As an adult it just doesn't appeal to me, even when the characters are aged up to their 20s. Cause usually in those ships when they're aged up that much, it seems to be the authors goal to make either Dib or Gaz as sad and pathetic and lonely as possible. I can't speak for everyone, but that's just what I see.

So like it kinda makes sense I somehow ended up shipping only canonly adult characters, in their mid-thirties (or equivalent from the computer. He was dad on activation) who are both in stable and comfortable positions in thier lives right now. Who both are vastly inexperienced with love just because neither of them have never felt it before for obvious reasons.

Me and @paketdimensioncomic kinda wrote the fic as a joke cause we were so angry about some troupes that we often see.

I mean, there will be misunderstandings for comedy but they're both typically solved with communication cause both of these idiots failed the class at how to understand their own emotions.

(also, I highly recommend the Moo-ping10 server. We are throwing brainbrane headcanons at each other very often. Just pm me and I can invite you.)

Anyways, sorry for rambling about it.

Yea.

Professor Membrane needs a friend and peer his equal he can talk to. The man is an island and only has his kids and people who work for him. Membrane just needs a better social network and I think his quality of life and parental skills will improve overall.

Computer needs someone to talk to who actually appreciates him and treats him like a person. Zim takes him for granted and he most likely always will (without character development) Computer needs someone to vent to and listen to him for once. And someone he doesn't need to dumb down information for.

Professor Membrane is used to talking to AIs and even when he does find out that "Oh the person who I was talking to on the phone with was a parental AI all this time" I doubt his opinion would change much and he'd just be more fascinated by it's technology and how it can seem so alive.

Anyways.... Science Dads.

They live in my head rent free every day.

(aside note: Zim's Computer is the only character to make a dick joke in the show so I kinda run with that, that he probably has a dirty mind a little. He is the internet, afterall.)

[ticktockmyclockworkhart]

Not putting this in any tags because it doesn’t really belong in tags, this is just a thought from only me and posting negative stuff in tags about what people like is gross, but Oz/Damien is really a discomfort to me man, huge turn-off when I see that ship, idk why too much, though. I see a lot of myself in Oz maybe and people like Damien are really scary and stressful to be around, plus the official polaroid description really doesn’t portray a very healthy relationship. I’m not super keen on it personally just because of how much I relate to Oz, speaking from my own personal projecting-ass experience lol, I just think Oz needs someone calm and patient around him so he can open up and feel comfortable just being himself when there’s no pressure on him, and people like Damien are folks I’ve definitely been friends with but not ones I would ever trust with much personal stuff about me or go to in a time of need.

Make no mistake I like Damien, he’s a hilarious and fun character and I think him and Oz can be friends, but that’s just my own personal two cents on the ship, I think I just see it everywhere because of its popularity and it gets me thinking about it and why I just can’t see them clicking.

Ofc if you love the ship and find it a huge comfort this is no smoke to you, you’re very, very valid in liking what you like! This is just a thought I’ve had for a while and wanted to kind of like… yell it into the void of my blog, vomit it at the foot of my followers and go “here, you didn’t ask for this :)” Also me putting this down trying to figure out why seeing the Oz/Damien ship everywhere mildly annoys me because I wasn’t too sure why I outright didn’t like it, not just wasn’t crazy about it like I am with just about every other ship.

That’s my random thought vomit anyway lol, precious comfort characters go brrrr and regardless of my opinion go have a hell of a time shipping whatever you want, rarepair or most popular ship in the fandom, like fuck it dude do what you want shipping is such a silly and fun little thing to just enjoy and sometimes we’ll enjoy them differently but damn!! That’s really cool tbh

Again not tagging this because I don’t want me being negative in tags associated with the ship or characters, that’s not fair to the people browsing those tags for actual content about the tag, but if this does show up in tags by tumblr word association or something please lmk! I don’t want my ramblings to end up in the wrong place and bring someone’s mood down, because at the end of the day this post is purely for me trying to shake a bunch of incoherent thoughts out of my brain. This is more of a reason why I’m personally not a fan and don’t interact with content regarding the ship, not a reason why someone else shouldn’t like it.

Had to throw my thoughts somewhere, brain clogged like a pencil sharpener that needs to be emptied

[beevean]

Yo, I'd just like to tell you how much I appreciate the tgaa conversations you've got flying around your blog. I just finished the game (like, a half hour ago, and cried my eyes out for the last 20 minutes of it) and I don't have any friends to talk to about it, so sorting through your blog really helped me feel better about finishing the game. I also would just like to say how happy I am that you talk about Barok so much, because he went from being a character I was largely indifferent about to being my hands-down favorite in a game filled with a large pool of heavy, heavy competition. Your thoughts are interesting and insightful, and are both a delight to read and a soothing balm for my quivering emotions that were scraped raw in the final case.

Tl;dr: you have a cool blog and I had fun going through it

Hello, thank you very much for your kind words 🥰

I've been waiting two years to gush about GAA! I watched GAA1 and 2 in 2019 and I was Full of Feelings, but they weren't that popular yet so I kinda resigned myself to get the crumbs I could find

But now that more and more people are finishing the games by themselves I'm not wasting any second to talk about this wonderful duology with some of my favorite characters of the entire franchise <3

I'm especially dedicated to defend Barok, since I immediately guessed he'd be a base breaker in the Western fandom (the Japanese fandom seems to love him a lot instead, kinda ironic considering the reason he's more divisive here). I went from "cool guy, still a major dick" to "I believe in Barok van Zieks supremacy" in the span of a few cases, and I think I can safely say that he's now my favorite prosecutor of all time, a small step above my dear Edgyboy. also i cursed myself into ryuuzieks hell like the dumbass i am, not guessing that it would have been a rarepair .///.

Not that he's the only one that I love, mind! Ryuu goes toe to toe with Phoenix in being the best protagonist, he's cute and badass at the same time and I love how he manages to have his own character arc separated from his descendant's; Susato is best assistant bar none, and I adore her cute chemistry with Ryuu; Asougi takes the best parts of Mia, Edgeworth and Godot to make a compelling anti-hero; I'm so proud of Gina for her development in GAA2; Herlock... is Herlock (affectionate). Just an excellent main cast all around, and I'm not even counting how some of the minor characters are so likeable (Hosonaga my beloved)

Also G2-5 has earned its spot as one of the best cases of all time, hasn't it <3 the Professor twists, the pain for everyone involved, the absolutely epic breakdown of the main villain (which is also one of the best big bads of a series without a shortage of excellent antagonists), it's all so good, Shu Takumi really surpassed himself <3

Anyway, thank you for the sweet compliments 💕 I'm just so much in Love with this duology and I want to share all of it :) feel free to stick around and to talk about it because I don't plan on stopping for the time being!