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pumpkinnning · 1 day ago

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this really does not feel like the kind of statement to throw out there without any sense of context or place. there's definitely sth to be said about how women are taught to live in a constant state of preyhood by overwhelming societal messaging - and yeah it's also people's responsibility to see past that but "self victimization" feels kind of umm. a shitty way to describe it. are you gonna tell minorities who have internalized shitty cliches about themselves they're self victimizing ?

also yeah there are A LOT of places on earth where these kinds of fears are at least a little warranted. personally i grew up in a place where i was sexually harassed very regularly by grown men in the street starting age 10. and not just the whistling and creepy petnames, im talking graphic descriptions. a random guy once told me he was going to put out his cigarette in my eye bc i didn't smile back. when i started going on there was a notorious rapist operating in the same area as the popular clubs. one of my friends got her life completely ruined by a stalker and nobody did anything when he would just hang out in front of her door with a baseball bat for hours every other day. etc etc i could go on for a long time. and yeah sure i didn't actually get physically harmed but that kind of psychological violence takes a toll. and i tried not to let it make me too afraid i still pushed myself to go out and walk in the woods at night and go out alone. but that didn't mean i then turned around and called my friends weak and crazy for being scared. i am older now less vulnerable and i moved to another country and it barely happens anymore and i feel so much freer and safer and that still does not mean im gonna go call women who do experience this shit crazy online

again. absolutely we have to look at the way female victimhood is constructed in a way that plays into racism, classism, transphobia, etc. this kind of post however, which i have been seeing more and more of, does not sound like that. it sounds like misogyny using woke terms, and victim blaming, and "haha if it hasn't happened to me it can't be true and everyone else must be making it up" and "why don't [marginalized group] simply stop whining about their oppression and suck it up and pretend its not happening and everything will be fine. if you're impacted by it it's actually your own fault" and just very very privileged.

i'm sorry the self-victimization of some women i see online is crazyyyyy, they're saying shit like "yeah being a woman is so crazy, if you go on a date you have to text his full name and picture to your friend, and also where you're meeting, and share your location throughout the date, and check in hourly" girl the only safety measure you need is meeting in a populated place. that man is NOT going to kidnap you from Popular Cafe on Well-Frequented Street in broad daylight at 2pm. i promise. do you go forest hiking as a first date or what the fuck.

#like seriously. how has this sort of denial of the realities of systemic oppression become SO commonplace and acceptable in leftwing online #circles

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wallbang-buzzkill · 2 years ago

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CoD MW2 drawings to stay loose

#and then im going to DEVOUR some cereal and pass out #alejandro vargas #modern warfare 2 #call of duty #phillip graves #general shephard #kyle gaz garrick #also i have yet to see anyone draw alejandro's hair unstyled!!! so much fluff!!!! more people need to do this bruh #it is INSANE how the brush i use impacts my art style #like i barely feel i have one but it changes the whole mood/energy depending on the brush #i like the one im using in these bc it looks very true to my pencil sketches

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fleshdyk3 · 3 months ago

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god i fucking hate my dad

#he came home today from a bike trip he went on and he's been arguing with me about honeybee the whole fucking day #he keeps saying just let her out let her run around! every time i put her in her pen to nap #and he refuses to stop her from biting him #and he got mad at her for playing with his socks when she'd just been playing with mine and he threw them on the floor of the living room #which first of all stop being such a fucking slob #and second of all what the fuck did you expect to happen? it's a soft new toy on the floor where she spends most of her time. where all her #toys are. very similar to the two soft items she's allowed to play with (my socks)#she's fucking 3 months old she doesn't understand the difference between my socks and his socks #and i keep telling him i know what im doing i was doing all the research while he went to buttfuck nowhere on his midlife crisis motorcycle #but he just wont fucking listen to me #and hes like oh youre at that age where you think youre right about everything and are so stubborn like fuck you actually #first of all im stubborn about this because its a living breathing puppy and his actions will affect her behaviour as an adult #and bc i know what im fucking doing. ive been an animal person my entire life. i did all the research. i did this exact same thing with #parrots for five years.#and hes like you cant just put her in her pen every time shes being a dog like no i fucking dont. i only put her in her pen when it's time #for a nap and she's getting overtired. you can't just let her run around until she collapses bc for one she never fucking will #second that's only going to make her energy threshold higher and then she'll be absolutely impossible to handle #and i told him that and that i read that on like every professional dog training source i read #and he said that might be true or might not be #like it fucking is bitch omfg #and then he tried to one up me like um i actually raised you guys for a long time i know what im doing #like a child is not a fucking dog. also my mom raised us lets be fucking serious. and look how well adjusted i turned out #and he told me to relax and calm down like i wasnt even arguing with him but i sure as hell will now #like dont tell me to fucking relax. when has telling anyone to relax ever made anything better. especially a teenager. especially a (for #simplicity's sake) woman.#and i told him dont tell me to relax and he got all pissy and stormed off #like literally fuck you #im my fathers daughter. im just as stubborn as he is.#rambles

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torahtot · 1 year ago

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sth that always frustrates me is when people on here say things like "jewish ppl u can let go of connection to israel bc you can be at home in the countries you live in!" and someone responds with a whole essay on how antisemitism is alive and well.. bc that still accepts the original premise. you're saying yes, i agree, we would not feel a connection to the land if antisemitism didn't exist, but it does. this ignores the root misconception that makes someone say things like that, which is that they deny (or simply don't realize/understand) our connection to the land, which transcends the existence of antisemitism in the diaspora. walk into any orthodox school that doesn't even consider itself zionist, and you'll find the kids having conversations with their teachers about how to reconcile feeling comfortable in galut with the desire to properly mourn the beit hamikdash & yearn for mashiach so that we can return. this isn't metaphorical in the slightest; many of them will make aliyah whether mashiach comes or not (and it won't have anything to do with secular zionism or antisemitism). eradicating antisemitism in the diaspora would never change the fact that we are in galut. if they were smart they would actually shift the conversation to why we don't need an explicitly/exclusively jewish state in order to live safely & thrive in eretz yisrael, but they won't bc a) that would require accepting the validity of our connection to it and b) they consider it "validating settler fears" or wtvr the fuck. so instead they will continue to be totally inept at realpolitik solutions & fail to see eye to eye in conversation with jews bc they fundamentally misunderstand.. everything about us.

#or max theyll say uhm we never said ull b KICKED OUT or KILLED we think u should safely live under [nationalism but in the other direction]#it's actually very telling that if you look at activists *in* i/p who do real things instead of internet activism #the entire reason they're successful is bc they do what im talking abt here. they acknowledge the reason it's important #to both of us is not bc of antisemitism or oppression but just bc it's our homeland #also to be clear you can explain why the feeling of the need for a state is fueled by antisemitism #but 2 conflate the state w the land & say that our connection to the land can be erased or made metaphorical once antisemitism is conquered #is bs and wont get you anywhere #shoutout to that one post i saw saying yearning for eretz yisrael was always metaphorical... im So Tired #like besides being ahistorical that really only reflects the lived experience of the most assimilated among us. it's true for u maybe #but my community was absolutely not dicking around when they spoke about galut #op #on galut #also if anybody normal wants to reblog this if u have sth to say too long for replies. lmk ill consider it #jew blogging

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storm-of-feathers · 1 year ago

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damn why did i stop being an alcoholic being drunk rules actually i dont feel a single OUNCE of my burdens. i just feel the wine. and its pink.

#this post is mostly a joke OBVIOUSLY i dont wanrt to be a True Alcoholic again #ive been sober #(in the definition that i dont consider myself addicted - not in the definition of complete abstinence)#since 2018. and its been very good for me obviously #but damn i gotta remember that alcohol exists and i have some if i ever truly need to unwind #bc like. yk. i have a lot of trouble unwinding #i used to have this uhh #one of my grandmothers brothers. idk the word.#he always said that the world was so bright and loud and sharp. except for when he drank.#dgmw. i do think autism runs on my dads side #(and thats cool!! bc it proves autism isnt just a white thing!!!!! something thats unfortunately a popular belief :/)#but i think there was def a genetic susceptibility to it on my moms side too #like ofc i was going to be autistic!! look at my family!!!#which is interesting bc as far as anyone can tell my only biological sibling isnt autistic #i have two Additional siblings but thats a longer story. but i love them both just as much as my biological sib #i love having lots of siblings by choice #so many of my younger friends have said im like an older brother they need #and i love that tbh. i love that i get to be something i desperately needed when i was a terrified teenager #n e ways. if u read this far thank you its just wine drunk ramblings.#WHO want to run in the forest naked with me

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glacialswordsman-a · 7 months ago

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decided to draw a ref for how i view my yaya since i have bunches of headcanons for him

i'll put it in the headcanon masterpost but i'll give him an individual post too

pls DO NOT rb bc i dont want it getting out further than my circle aslkdjaslfj thank yewww <3

#(ooc. ✧)#(my art. ✧)#if you SOMEHOW recognize my style/handwriting no you dont #it's why i used this blog's handle as a signature instead of my normal one so shh.#also he does wear his jacket/coat and fur collar but i didnt draw it this time so i can show off his physique more #also fuck fur... i dont want to make myself suffer thru that right now!!!#like cmon. he's a knight. he has beef!!!#and he wears corsets!! of course his waist is snatched tf up!!!#also he's darker than canon yaya bc he deserves to have more melanin #i tried to make sure i stayed true to the “painted-on pants” look for him too #and give him a GOOD CHEST!!! MUSCULAR AND SQUISHY!!!#he also has abs beneath his clothes but yknow #aint nobody know how strong he actually is #also i love the thought of him wearing higher heels... may not be practical #but whenever i watch the video of the lady sprinting in stilettos im like “kaeya would know how to do that”#anyway excuse my brainrot i just love him very much #oh my god i forgot to lighten his palms. FUCK!!!#ok fixed... added his burn scars and other scars and the lightness to his palms #also shoutout to my boyfie and bestie for going rabid over how i drew him #theyre the real ones who support me and my "muscular yet curvy men” agenda

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tinylittlebab · 2 years ago

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ill be skinny. it will happen. ive been trying for so long now. once it was just trying to eat less and be smaller but not much real focus on my physical appearance. now its all about that. 11 years of my ed and 7 years of wanting what i want now. i dont live with my parents anymore. i have more control. i will achieve it.

there was a time where id eat 300-700 consistently. ill get that back. i will.

#most of the years ive had an ed i had no access to a scale so it was very jard to track progress #maybe i did lie my ass off and fool ppl around me into thinking its actually healthier for me to have a scale bc ill restrict worse without #one which is half true. not that kts anyones right to make that choice at this point. at least not in 2 months when im 18 its not #part of the problem im having is i wanna be small but i have so little muscle that ill have to be very dangerously underweight to look even #close to how i want. many peoples ugws are under that line. mine was once. before i learned that its genuinely very very dangerous #and a lot of the people who look the way i wanna look are only just below that line which is where id like to be #they look that way bc they have more muscle. most ppl cant maintain a bmi of 14 or less for that long. eventually your body freaks out #ppl use instances like eugenia coonie as proof that you can actually do it but like. most peoples bodies wont hold out that long #and many of the ppl in thinspo pics eother only maintained it for a short bit before gaining or getting really sick or they weighed more #and had more muscle. and like. my goal isnt to be all bone. i dont wanna push it that far. bony people arent physically nice to hold anyway #i just wanna be light enough that somwone cpuld carry me and people might view me in a certain way #i wanna be seen as cute and fragile and shy and like. young and sweet. ots hard to explain exactly what i want peopel see see me like but i #want when people look at pictures or videos of me for them to think i look sweet and wanna be gantle and nice to me #and when i walk around places instead of seeing an awkward weirdo they see a timid cute girl whos really tiny and pretty #i know ill never be that but. maybe if i lose enough weight and dont have much acne and leave my hair down then maybe i can come close

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britneyshakespeare · 1 year ago

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you know i mentioned last night that i realized only *after* i started rereading david copperfield that since i recently became an aunt, i was gonna see the story from a whole new angle and start relating more to betsey trotwood. i didn't even think about how at salem house i was gonna be poor mr. mell...

#i mean i didnt really think about mr. mell much because he's more of a minor character #he doesnt come back throughout david's life like steerforth or traddles or emily or agnes or #or or or all these other dozen major characters #in fact i only think of salem house as a minor part of the book. the shit we gotta get through to get to aunt betsey again #in a sense i cant wait to be done with it again #but oh my god reading about the rowdy schoolroom and how he's hardly managing to handle his stress #MEEEEE!!!!!! ME AN EDUCATOR #diana rereads david copperfield #literally just let me fucking play my flute badly in peace #you know i really have grown up a lot in the past 5 years bc all the adults used to just be caricatures to me #in the sense that all of dickens' characters are kind of caricatures. theyre exaggerated and silly #whether theyre supposed to be archetypal good or bad people.#because the way dickens uses hyperbole. sometimes it's just too true!#like the assholery of steerforth. how disingenuous but charming and persuasive he can be #that is SO true to how it feels to look up to older people as a young child. david copperfield's yielding to him is so realistic #david copperfield's own childish innocence throughout the early chapters seems comical but is emotionally true to how childhood feels.#these were the parts of the novel that resonated with me very deeply at 19. and they still do #but oh now. now i understand the position of the working adults. especially since i work w kids now how different it all feels.#and have worked w kids for several years too. but only about a year after reading dc. actually almost 2 years #im one of the bumbling incompetent adults. oh dear. oh lord.

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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 years ago

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#ok. i just need to express something that is genuinely v funny to me #i was having dinner with my family and idk my sister asked my parents who their fave kid was and they were like idk we have no fave #and my other sister heard this like: oooo r we comparing whos the favorite? and of us 3 i think she things shes the best #bc her ego is huge and shes v self involved so i was like: y do u think u r the favorite? and she said: i make the most money. im the most #successful. im the best looking. im thr fastest. i have the best social skills #and thr fact that she listed being thr fastest runner as a reason she should b thr favorite kid is extremely funny to me. like is this a #physical race lmao???? also i dont think she has thr best social skill my youngest sister has lots of friends and is a teacher for small #kids. i think her social skills r better and shes wayyyyy nicer. and i pointed out that shes an abrasive person to b around and she was #like: well yeah i dont treat my friends like i treat u guys. which is extremely true. everyone things shes so nice. but its like. if u kno #ur being horrible to us y do u do it??? like i change my behavior to avoid being made fun of by u??? u make me think the world is a worse #place bc ur point of view is so judgemental. also u r extremely bratty and entitled and i dont understand. u r the only one of us 3 like #this??? all my negative self talk sounds word for word like the things u say. and after this trip ill probably add *baby voice* whats #wrong? r u too scared? to the list. idk i really dont get her. she didnt even kno i was starting my phd in the fall. i dont think she #initiated any conversation with me this whole trip #also she makes like 60k a year routing trucks for pepsi which is fucking unhinged to me. like bro it does not sound hard at all and in the #fall ill b making a barley livable wage busting my ass as a grad student. the work to pay ratio is way unbalanced #whatever. she isn't a horrible person. she is very funny. both my sisters r tbh and no one makes me laugh like them #which just makes me sad that we dont connect. anyway. im done bitching for now. ill have positive things to say later once i get back #into the swing of things #unrelated

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nomairuins · 4 months ago

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also i admire dws refusal ever to engage with language barriers

#tardis is gone and these ppl have never been in a tardis before so they dont have the translation software . Umm idk they randomly got #translation software somewhere else Shut up shut up dont ask.#ik im the only girl in th world who cares abt the translation software i just find ot interesting and i love languages im sry im always #going on abt this transltion software but i want to study it !!! and also i understand its judt there to handwave around the language #barrier thing BUT i think language barriers could be very fun 2 play w id get thatd have to be baked into th wepiaode but yk id have a great #time... bc i like languages #but im also not rly expecting dw to whip out a conlang or anything. so. whatevr #AND LIKE AT TIMES IT TRULY SEEMS THEY FORGET ABT THE TRANSLATION STUFF #or they remember it right after there being a flaw im never going to forget about the russians having a switch that was in russian while #speaking in english Without the tardis being present #bc my pet theory was Oh maybe bc we as the audience have been exposed to the tardis its like a cute nod to us having the translation stuff #in our brains probably not intentional but thats cute but no bc the text was translated and my true hearts belief is that #they straight up had to have the button in Russian so that we knew they were russiam #DJFNFJFNFJN ITS VERY FUNNY 2 ME. BUT I WAS SCREAMINGGG #i think my theory was cute though I KNOW they dont care abt the translator as much as i do its literally just so they dont have to worry abt #it and i get it 4 the stories they tell language barriers would slow everything down and yeah. i get it i do. but theyre so inconsistent #with it and ots funny 2 me #lik for example theyll be on an alien planet everybodys translated but then they have an alien woth a rly weird language that isnt #translated so that we can see the doctor like bark to communicate. but every other language is being translated why not that one #and the answer is bc that ones a fun little joke moment yk.#and then theres stuff like Confirmed the tardis doesnt translate sign languages which makes sense but it is able to translate text which is #portrayed as it Changing the text youre looking at into your language. yk #ik that may be bc visual medium and irl it might be something more like You just knowing what it says #but ADDITIONALLY and they cant handwave this bc bill said it outloud is it does match the lipsync #which means it is able to manipulate visuals. but then i guess sign language youd have to be manipulating the visual into an auditory form #its all just very intriguing to me you know

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utsugyo · 5 months ago

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ANYWAYS, wrong blog but, as I was re-reading the manga, I noticed that s.asori didn't even use his 298 human puppets in the fight against c.hiyo and s.akura, he only used 100, that is taking only the manga into consideration where its noticeable that he still has 2 scrolls left to use attached to his back, and assuming each of the last 3 scrolls contain 100 puppets each /as the one he released was the one from where he summoned the 100 puppets he used in the fight/ (the last scroll would only be missing two puppets to complete the last hundred which would have been c.hiyo and s.akura probably) and this paired up with the fact that he could have avoided the final attack by the mother and father puppets makes me think that he really wasn't giving up his full potential (which is something that lit chiyo says) but it just makes me think that there's even more details to add to that reasoning;; now the reasons why he just basically let himself be k.illed can be argued, but one thing for sure is that he definitely had more tricks under his sleeve that he just willingly decided not to use (be it out of pride/underestimating his opponents, or something leaning on the very small bit of humanity left on him & the reason he is an 'incomplete' puppet in the poetical sense)

#;ooc #;headcanons #when i was little i thought it was so unfair that they got rid of him so quickly; but now i can see more sides to it #not only the whole 'he let himself be k.illed' but also the teamwork of c.hiyo and s.akura; looking at it now as im older #i can understand it better; i mean i still think that fight should have lasted 475456895 ages but realistically speaking #theres so many drawings u can include in a volume until ur forced to keep publishing the main storyline #what defeated him was something more thematic; the teamwork; the deep reliance c.hiyo and s.akura were able to form #something that goes completely against s.asori; of relying on others #i love this one video that pointed this out bc its so true; its not a matter of quantity vs quality when it comes to their fight #bc s.asori did n o t just go around turning anyone and everyone he faced into puppets; he clearly states that the ones he makes #come from strong individuals / his puppets are of very very high quality #or like how in the ps3 game he mentions after getting rid of a village how there was 'barely anyone' he could use as material #ANYWAYS!!the point is that even with this advantage; what s.asori lacked was the teamwork aspect; his puppets acted individually #compared to c.hiyo & s-akura's teamwork and c.hiyo's 10 puppets that worked in cooperation #and how this reflects the contrasting growth of grandma and grandson #s.asori not relying on c.hiyo after his paren'ts death #and c.hiyo having this same mentality when it comes to other villages and people #but then growing to trust others; rely on others #meanwhile s.asori kept to himself all the time #puppetry themes my beloved...#the first scroll was used for the fire abilities #in the anime; he wastes a second one to use water; but this doesn't happen in the manga originally #and i think it makes more sense to me #bc like;; why wouldnt he just release all his 298 puppets??#i just summ up the firs scroll with water and fire #and the last 3 are the 300 (actually 298) puppets; each scroll having 100 puppets #anyways he's super cool; like c.hiyo was famous for her technique to use a puppet with each finger but #s.asori can use 1 0 0 and i like to think; could use the 300 as well #and all that chakra is contained in that small lil tube containing basically his soul

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thueenz · 1 year ago

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playing small games that happen to include famous irl objects that have energy is so funny. girl the painting is unsettling me not for the reason you wanted it to.

#putting that painting on like every wall on one level and it got to the point i just stared at the floor bc being exposed to the energy so #much was making me feel weird and uncomfortable💀#if anyones curious it was the woman of the rain painting #kinda famous haunted/cursed painting #whether the things people say about it are actually true or not idk but it has a very strange and somewhat upsetting energy on it #very short explanation for people too lazy to google: person paints painting and says she felt compelled while creating/as if something els #was using her to paint it #people feel watched and filled with dread and sadness looking at it #id say some peoples responses are real #because before i read about it thats how i felt too and how a friend felt when i showed with no context #uneasy/dreadful and kind of sad #interesting! wonder what happened with its creation #but yeah whether the rest of the story is real who knows #anyway its hockey season and im suffering my family is SO LOUD at the tv #pers #magicposting

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nomaishuttle · 1 year ago

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thinking thinking ...

#world building in my head bc its litany against the thoughts. and i think i like the twin moon gods thang and im goinf 2 keep that #even tho it means i have Gott to get universe sandbox at some point so i can figure out if what i was thjnking would work literally at all.#bc my thought js that there r two identical moons orbiting along the same path but theyre opposite from eachother yk #but idk if that would. work... or what itd do to tides what the moon phases would look like et cetera et cetera. so i have 2 thjnk #ikk i could just be like Well but they arebt acrual moons theyre gods which is true but thats also soooo lazy so im not doing that #abd then i was toying around eith the idea of a church that chronicles the lives of every single person on earth #like ig not a church bc theyd be like. well ig yes a church. theyd be like devotees to whichever god i decide #i should probably give them names UGH! anyways. but idk if that feels too bgeneric #im also once again debating on og yhey t like Forreal gods or if thats just belief. bc if i do go with the chronicling church thang i feel #they have 2 be real bc otherwise ill be honest idt my main ideas for that sect would work ... sigh #i think i will be moooostly magicless. my current thoughts for if they r fr gods then theyre like. almost entirely hands off they do nottt #fuck with anything they just watch all the time ...#and then the backstory for THAT is that they used to be very very very handson and they loved gfucking around with everythang and then The #war 💀#bc current thoughts r they made all the planets together and (main planet) id the last one they made #abd then they fought over what they wanted tk do with it and they spilled blood Which fell onto the planet and boom... theres the guys #and then they were like omg stares. but they also went to opposite sides of the planet so they wouldnt fight again #but then as life evolved they started playing around 2 make it more interesting .. like Ong i wonder how theyd deal with aj ice age ^_^#etc and then eventually they just started doing proxy wars #and then they were like oh hold on. theyre all going 2 die if we keep this up LOL #so they flooded the world thissss is famous.... and thats when they went almost entirely hands off #and then eventuallyyy everybidy figures out marine transportation and after like thousands of years they r like. in contact again #and ive decided there r a bunchh of different sort of schools of thought on the flood #like theres one group who believes the gods did it to discourage fighting so theyre very pacifistic and another side thjnks they did it #to help them win against their enemies etcc idk if theyre Full fledged religious groups but yk...

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lawofangie · 12 days ago

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some things i've manifested

these are some basic stories, but i have some "crazy" ones i might share if you guys want lol

note: before manifesting i used to have a pretty "normal" life. i was conventionally attractive, middle classs, etc. i didn't really "need" anything but a social life and better grades. regardless of that, i just manifested whatever i wanted and didn't limit myself. i also added a few little stories behind them.

appearance change:

changed my hair texture to curly

grew from 5'2 to 5'6

clear, even skin and skin tone (tbh i already had a really good skincare routine, my skin was super clear bc of that BUT my face used to be like 10 shades darker than the rest of my body and i had CRAZY backne and strawberry legs)

losing 30 pounds (i used to be 72kg, now i'm 58kg)

changed my shoe size (i used to be size 9 now i'm size 7)

changed my hand size (for reference, my hands used to be a little longer than my phone, i had a "pro max" sized phone.)

social life:

having good friends in my state (im from up north and was completely lonely in the state i live in now)

popularity (i used to be pretty irrelevant but now everybody likes me and wants to be around me)

getting my sp's (i manifested them from scratch and took inspired action to meet them)

having people crush on me more overtly/ getting approached more (this is kind of a weird one, before my appearance change i was pretty attractive like maybe a 7/10, but i got tired of people just ogling me and not approaching me. i only had the unattractive and overconfident guys approaching me, all the attractive ones just stared lol)

just being likable lol (people used to feel threatened by me or feel like i was standoffish for some reason. idrk tbh but it was VERY annoying. i literally used to get accused of "acting like i own the place" for being quiet and just existing 💀. i didn't really care what they thought, but i hated when they complained about it and tried to make it my problem.)

school:

higher gpa (i used to have a 3.0 but i manifested a 3.8, which is a weighted 4.0)

high grades (i used to fail many tests/exams and have a mix of a, b, and c's. now they're all a's)

dream college acceptance

teachers liking me (they actually used to hate my guts it was so annoying 😭)

school crushes liking me back (tbh they probably thought i was already attractive but they never spoke to me or seemed like they wanted to get to know me)

leaving early (my school day ends at like 12 now)

lifestyle:

living closer to the city

having my dream routine (i have my dream skincare products, haircare products, diet, and health routines.)

having a high self concept (tbh i technically always did, i knew what i wanted and deserved. i just felt more like i was being injusticed. so i got rid of the "unwilling victim" mentality. i also used to ruminate on irrelevant things, like mistakes i made, what people thought of me, etc.)

very high confidence (in my looks, abilities, judgement, etc.)

money for my parents and myself

having a busy, productive life (i used to hate school because my grades weren't contributing to anything i wanted to do in life, so i wanted a productive life outside of that.)

always getting my way

getting all sorts of things for free

and more!

i'd say this all took me around 2-3 months, not because manifesting takes time, but because i assumed a lot of things would take time. i also had periods of doubt in myself and tried to handle things in the 3d on my own for some time.. which obviously didn't work. still, all i did was assume and accept these things as true and they happened overnight, in a day, or within that week. the longest anything's taken me is like 7 days, and that was because i kept wavering in my mind. manifestation is truly instant.

but anyways, i hope this is motivational and helpful. i do have some pretty "ridiculous" stories like some revenge stories, "crazy" stories regarding sp's, some not very appropriate stories, really good things happening to me, and others.

thanks for reading! i hope this helps. 🩶

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ghostfacd · 1 year ago

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DISGUSTINGLY INLOVE | TOM BLYTH

PAIRING. tom blyth x fem!actress!reader

SUMMARY. in which you and tom have finally revealed your relationship!

AUTHOR NOTE. another one cause y’all seemed to love the first part. can be read as a stand-alone but you should check out first part bc it’s pretty awesome 😏 OH AND here is third part!

ynuser so excited to announce that the ballad of songbirds and snakes is available in theatres NOW! it was definitely such a rollercoaster of emotions and so fun and exciting to be able to play balleona laurent, a crazy, power and love infatuated teenage girl from the academy. i want to thank all my costars, they really are amazing and helped me throughout the entire movie!

tagged @/lionsgate, @/tomblyth, @/rachelzegler, @/hunterschafer, @/joshandresrivera

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user1 you really brought balleona to life girly! i pictured her exactly how you made her to be

➥ ynuser oh im crying this means so much 😭😭

➥ user1 you deserve all the recognition and love!!!

tomblyth fave villain

➥ user2 get out they’re so cute

user3 inlove with the way you sang, literal chills

jenniferlawrence you’ll never take my spot!! 🧐🧐 (all jokes aside, you did AMAZING.)

➥ ynuser HAHHA i love you, so grateful i was able to meet you the other day!!

rachelzegler round of applause to us !!!

tomblyth coryo, janus, leona, and lucy gray behind the scenes 🎬

tagged @/ynuser, @/rachelzegler, @/joshandresrivera

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user4 everyone say thank you tom for feeding us with yn, rachel and josh content!

ynuser really had to do me like that

➥ tomblyth wdym you’re so pretty, i love u in this pic

➥ user5 hello?? his response. 😪😪 im crying

user6 bye rachel looks so done in first pic

user7 their friendship :(

ilovetomblyth everyone getting nicknames and then there’s just lucy gray HAHAH

➥ rachelzegler very hard to give lucy a nickname 🤕

➥ ilovetomblyth OMG RACHEL ILY

lionsgate new behind the scenes interview with our favorite people, rachel zegler, tom blyth, and yn avocot!

tagged @/rachelzegler, @/tomblyth, @/ynuser

tomblythswife girlies after seeing the way tom looks and talks about yn

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user9 bro looked at her like she is the love of his life I’m done

user10 “babe, im literally from the UK” STOPPP THEYRE TOO CUTE 😭😭😭

user11 she LISTENED TO LONDON BOY WHEN SHE FIRST MET HIM 💔💔💔💔💔💔😔

ilovetomblyth literally felt it in my guts

user12 when the credits rolled and you can hear tom saying “she’s like the sun and more.” GOSH.

ynuser carpet ready 😵‍💫

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tomblyth 😚😚

user8 THE LAST PIC?

iloveyn oh gosh they’re so 💔💔

rachelzegler enougghhh

➥ ynuser oh shh as if this isn’t u and josh

➥ joshandresrivera cruel yn, cruel. (true tho!)

tomholland so pretty!

➥ tomblyth im the only tom she needs in her life btw

➥ yndaily EXCUSE ME HELLO

#coriolanus snow x reader #coriolanus snow fanfiction #coriolanus snow imagine #coriolanus x reader #coriolanus snow #coriolanus snow fic #tbosbas #tom blyth #tom blyth x reader #coriolanus snow fluff #ballad of songbirds and snakes #the hunger games x reader #the hunger games

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norrizzandpia · 1 year ago

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This Is About Oscar?! (OP81)

Summary: Y/n’s new song exposes a side of Oscar no one knew about.

Warnings: the whole thing is basically just about sex, language

y/nnn Surprise! 34+35 out tonight 💗

Comments:

oscarpiastri i think its pretty good

- y/nnn you only think that for one reason and we both know it

Liked by oscarpiastri

oscpastry guys… 34+35= 69……..

- mclarensgirly i fear we are getting the WHOLE story

- pieasstree YOU FEAR??? I WANNA KNOW

- mclarensgirly I MEAN ME TOO BUT HOW WILL WE LOOK BABY OSCAR IN THE EYE AFTER???

landonorris im scared oscar hasnt stopped smiling all day

- oscarpiastri what can i say? Its not everyday your girlfriend writes a song about you

- y/nnn babe youve heard the song im not sure you want to go broadcasting it that its abt you

- oscarpiastri are you kidding????? Of course i do

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y/nnn 34+35 out now (oscar wanted me to make it known the song is about him 🤦🏼‍♀️)

Comments:

oscpastry THIS SONG??????? IS ABOUT?????? OSCAR PIASTRI?????? THE RACING DRIVER??????? FOR MCLAREN???

- mclarensgirly YEAH WTF ARE WE MISSING SOMETHING

- pieasstree “you drink it just like water, you say it taste like candy” WHO IS THIS MAN

oscarpiastri this is the best day of my life

- pastry81 i dont know who you even are anymore

- f1butmore-mclaren how did mclaren even sign off on this

- y/nnn its my music i choose what i release all that mattered was if oscar was comfortable (he was comfortable to a degree that was concerning)

- oscarpiastri real

landonorris most recent google search: “how to erase your memory and ability to hear and see” i can never look either of you in the eye anymore

- y/nnn I TOLD YOU NOT TO LISTEN TO IT

- landonorris I DIDNT THINK YOU WERE GOING TO TALK ABOUT MY TEAMMATE THAT GRAPHICALLY

- y/nnn thats your own fault then

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pieasstree youre gonna tell me 34 35 is abt this man.

- oscpastry “even though im wifey you can hit it like a side chick” is dick whipped the correct term for this???

- mclarensgirly plz never say dick whipped again but yeah i believe so

- pieasstree WE ARE MOVING AWAY FROM THE MAIN TOPIC OF CONVO. HOW IS THIS ABOUT HIM. IT JUST DOESNT MAKE SENSE.

- oscarsmyfav i dont know what i was expecting from that song but “i know all your favorite spots, we can take it from the top, youre such a dream come true, make a bitch wanna hit snooze” WAS NOT IT.

- hisrookieseason “i dont wanna keep you up, but show me can you keep it up cause then ill have to keep it up” I HEARD THAT AND IT ALL MADE SENSE

- oscpastry YEAH LIKE NOW I UNDERSTAND WHY HES SO MELLOW ALL THE TIME ITS BC HES TIRED

- oscarpiastri never too tired tho

- pieasstree WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON

- oscpastry AM I IN A DREAM THIS IS NOT THE OSCAR I KNOW???????

- y/nnn its the oscar i know…

- mclarensgirly WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK IS GOING ON HERE

- oscpastry im so scared rn but also SO intrigued

- pieasstree its the way theyre probably sitting next to each other and laughing at all of us distraught fans

- y/nnn hes very pleased with himself (👇🏻)

- pieasstree i rlly just dont understand how that man THAT BOY could cause an earthquake in bed as y/n said

- y/nnn trust me he could.

- oscarpiastri trust me i can and i have.

#f1 imagine #f1 fanfic #f1 fic #f1 x reader #mclaren #lando norris imagine #lando norris x reader #oscar piastri fanfic #oscar piastri imagines #oscar piastri x reader #oscar piastri #oscar piastri imagine #oscar piastri fluff #oscar piastri smut #oscar piastri fanfiction

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