#i like the alien a little too much 😔😔

[rhythm-gam3-add1ct]

Uhhhhhh *drops a shameless eddie and venom edit and runs*

[revelboo]

REVELLLLLLLL DROP ANOTHER MEGATRONUS FIC AND MY LIFE IS YOURRRRSSSSSS

honestly I’m such a big fan of your writing I’ve searched and searched for megatronus fics for so long and I have never found one but I checked your acc and I’ve never been so happy before like I’m addicted to your writing a lot of the time I look for transformers fanfics but I’ve never really liked them as much as yours and you also inspired me to start collecting transformers figures so I’m gonna start sooner or later cause things are expensive these days sadly 😔🤞🏽 but I don’t wanna start yapping so I’m gonna end it off here by revel have a beautiful weekend and week😋

I’m glad you like my nonsense! The figures are pretty fun to collect

Give It Up Pt 3

Megatronus Prime x Reader

• Venting in frustration when you swat his servos, chirping angrily, he just needs to see the little display on your arm long enough to figure out if he can pull your language from it. Something you’re absolutely not having. Studying your little suit more closely, he frowns. Maybe you’re breathing some exotic gas and need the suit to survive? “I don’t need your entire suit,” he says, holding a palm over his own arm and miming flipping up an invisible screen like you just did . Wishes he could get a better look at you, because your features are just an indistinct shadow through the tinted helmet. Staring up at him, you lay your own palm on your display and chirp softly. “On my honor, I’ll return your tech to you.”

• Grumbling, his awful language, he repeats the gesture. Why does he want your display? While you can detach it, you’re not sure you should. Though you doubt the super advanced living robot is the least bit interested in your tech. It’s probably the equivalent of a DOS computer to you. Or maybe a telegram. He’s defiantly not stealing secrets from it. And he’s not hurt you so far. Shook you until you nearly hurled, but you don’t think he was trying to harm you. If you’re trapped who knows where, you’re going to need someone to trust. You really hope that’s him.

• Chirping unhappily, you mess with the display until it detaches and hold the tiny thing out. And it’s such a shock that you’re willing to trust him. Extending a servo, he waits while you look at the display then at him before laying it on his servo. “Thank you, little one.” Lifting it, he squints at the tiny thing and shifts it to his datapad to try to sync the primitive technology. “You’re being very brave.”

• You really hope your GPS isn’t in the display. Really wish you’d paid more attention when the tech guys were explaining the minutiae of the suits instead of being terrified of what you were going to find on the other side of the portal. Giant, alien robots definitely hadn’t been on your bingo card, though. What can he even get off the thing, really? Nothing dangerous. Probably? Like coordinates to your world? “Please don’t be an evil, giant robot.”

• Waiting for the datapad to compile and create a language file for him, he studies you. Wonders what organics eat and how exactly you’d wound up on Cybertron. A peaceful explorer? You don’t seem to have any weapons. Can’t understand the language. And you’re so tiny as to be helpless. Probably not a warring species. Certainly don’t look at all intimidating in your puffy little suit. Moving closer, you rock up on tiptoe to try and see his datapad and chirp at him. Pointing with a finger and you’re just so adorable. “I’m going to give it back,” he reassures you, smiling behind his mask. Definitely not a warring species. You’re much too cute to be dangerous.

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[yan-randomfandom]

HIHIHI ITS OKIII I get why he isnt that popular, but he's from IDW Megatron Origin #2 comic, where he's basically like a rlly corrupt politician lol

While i was stretching out the idea where i'd go with the soft yan/obsessed senator ratbat- (cus at first i didnt think much, i just want to smooch his senator form lol) i realized i may have made him too soft and probably a character arc too 😔😔 so just consider it soft obsessed

Ok so it starts out a pretty normal day for you. You're just making some tea for yourself when you heard rummaging noises outside your home. You thought it might be some cats- and you ignored it at first. But then, it gets louder. So you finally decided to check it out. And you found.. a big metal bat. What.

Still, after the initial surprise, You came close to it. It seems even more panicked when you approached but you immediately tried soothing it and putting in some mechanic knowledge you do have to stop his shiny (probably alien blood) liquid leaking. Its eventually calms down and you took him inside. Its weight is sure no joke.

Its only when inside when you put the metal bat down on your couch does it falm down entirely. And it shared his name. "Ratbat". Huh. Who would've guess eh?

For the next few days you continue looking after it, making sure his injuries aren't too bad. You quickly found out that Ratbat, is one of a cuddly fella. He loves sleeping close to you and you find yourself not minding it, despite the claws. The next day, he's already gone. But he surprises you by visiting during the evening. And it becomes a habit to see ratbat visiting in almost everyday and to cuddle while you sleep.

For Ratbat, he was just happy to find a friendly human who had helped him, and the fact that you're fine with cuddling him. He enjoys physical touch, you absentmindedly running your fingers against his plating.. He'd fly from the base just to visit you often after he recovered. It was a routine he can get used to.

But one day, something changed.

It was just like any other day, you and ratbat began settling in the bed for the night. And he fell into recharge, ready to repeat the cycle again tomorrow, with you. Just you and him. Him as your "big weird alient metal bat".

The next morning, ratbat was the one who woke up first. And he feels.. odd.

He feels his own frame's weight is heavy. he suddenly feels too aware of every shift in his plating- his claws twitchs.. and it feels too big, heavy, and- and wrong.

what?

His optics snapped open. He feels a warm body beside him and- ah. Of course.. he remembers.

He's in your home.

He shifts a little to see your smaller form, still sleeping next to him, peaceful. Unaware of the massive stranger in your bed now.

His breath hitchs.

What if you woke up- not to your small, cuddly and affectionate (not that he'd be any less if you'd allow it in this form..) little weird alien metal bat.

What if you woke up and quickly realized something is amiss? And your eyes would darted to him- and what happens when you looked at him and-

You flinch? Eyes widen in realization, horror and fear?

A small part of him tells him- it's logical. Of course you'd be afraid. He's no longer reduced to a small helpless thing, who relies on others to survive. He should be happy- delighted to have his old body back. Because it means he has his power back.

But why does it feel so wrong now? Why does it have to happen now? Just when he thought he can finally have something- a someone, someone nice- someone kind, to spend time with?

Why is his processor thinking that no. No. He should be small- like last night, where everything is just him- Ratbat and you.

Not Senator Ratbat.

He should someone who is be able to fit in your embrace-

not someone who is too big for your bed.

Before his thoughts can go any further- he hears you mumbling and shifting. His optics darts back at you, slowing opening your eyes, and blinking up at him.

He does not blink back.

And you just mumbled,

"Hey.. ratbat... you got big."

He swore he nearly short cuircuited.

TEHEHEEHSHHWHEHE if you can't tell i looove writing in his POV 🤭🤭💖💖💞

Andd I'd totally love to see your take on soft yan/obsessed bots !!!!! Ty for letting me ramble hihihihi <333 💗💞✨️

-🪴 Anon

Obsessed!Senator Ratbat x Human!Reader

a/n: yes. senator ratbat. ratbat as in soundwave's casssette. also if you're 🪴 anon GO TO THE BOTTOM RN!!!

— This is written as a continuation from anon's ask! Please read it first hehehehe it's so cute — 🦇

After a few struggles involving a window, a screwdriver, dishwashing soap, and a hammer—Ratbat finally got out of your house.

[Granted, he could have just mass-shifted or transformed to fit in the hole, but watching you come up with ideas and struggle was too good to pass up—along with other reasons, such as not wanting to reveal his abilities yet.]

Now, he sits beside the broken window, legs folded over his chassis. Ratbat looks up, his optics registering that the day has barely started. A tauntful gradient sky stretches above him, a quiet reminder of how much time he still has with you.

Which would be the usual. But considering the circumstances—his unexpected form, the schedule may have changed a little.

From whatever this is, Soundwave's reaction is most unpredictable. Would he slaughter Ratbat right there and then, or turn him back to his cassette form? Even the possibility of keeping him in this state is viable. He knows he doesn't stand a chance against him or his leader, Megatron.

His optics narrow. There's also the likelihood that they intended to turn him back to his root mode. This sort of thing doesn't happen for no reason. Maybe Shockwave has something to do with it. Did they notice him taking more time away from the crew?

"I'm back," you beam, walking into the window view with a towel between your hands. He feels a small, giddy jump at his spark, but he forcefully shoves it down. "You doing okay, Ratbat?"

He only nods, opting not to respond verbally. Many thoughts and questions are storming in his processor, too overwhelming to put into words.

A light, patting touch on his hand earns his already-given attention. He tilts his head to you, the warmest expression on your face—an expression he's never been given by anyone else before.

"Were you ever gonna tell me you can turn into this?" you chuckle, the sound subtly fluttering Ratbat's wings. "You look different. Handsome? Beautiful? Let's say lovely."

His vents turn on from the inside, a gentle hum whirring from the fans. It's not too loud, but it's still an incredibly embarrassing display—he's just glad you don't know too much about Cybertronians.

Ratbat lifts a servo and gently pokes your cheek, bringing out an amused smile from you. His engine purrs at your reaction.

You hold his finger with both hands, slightly turning your head away, feeling the metal texture. "Okay, okay. I guess you'll be going now, then?"

He pauses.

Hmm. No, not yet. Not now.

"I'll stay for a little more," he murmurs, watching your smile widen and how you affectionately rub his giant finger.

now he just doesn't wanna leave you 😭 but alas there'll be consequences

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hi 🪴 anon

giving you a big fat kiss on the forehead (with consent), BECAUSE THIS TOOK FOREVER IM SO SORRY (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠) I wanted to read the comic full first before touching your ask omg 😭😭

my first thought on reading this, by the way, are you not a writer already?? you're fantastic!! gimme ur account if u do have one!! i love it!!

please ramble anytime you want ..... im all in for it, even if i take forever to respond 😭 AAAAA THANK YOU FOR SHARING ME THISSSS 💕💕💕 RATBAT IS SO SILLLYYYYYYYTT UAAURGRJAURGUAHRJ he's so,,, he just wants to rest for real 😔 with you 😔😔😔😔 just wanna be held fr 😔😔

[vanesycho]

Are you able to do a soft thoughts f!reader x Johnny? 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 when you get the chance. No rush I promise.

I love soft Johnny so much😭 he is a very huggable person😔 thank you for your request🤍🤍

Soft thoughts about Johnny ˘͈ᵕ˘͈

ღJohnny is someone who warms up everyone around him with his big smile. Just his looks can put you at ease. When he is with you, you can be sure that he will make the day brighter with his jokes and thoughtful thoughts. The size of his hands and his warm touches make you feel safe, just like a blanket you wrap yourself in on a cold day.

ღHis laughter is contagious. He can make you laugh heartily even on the worst day when he is with you. He has a voice that seems to take away all your stress. When you are on a long walk with him, watching the clouds in the sky and having a slow conversation, everything feels calmer and more peaceful.

ღHe is someone you will always feel comfortable with. If you are someone who is shy to go out in public, Johnny is perfect for that. He always makes you fit in, makes you feel comfortable. He notices when you are uncomfortable in a place and makes you have a better time alone.

ღHis hugs can be the best thing in the world. He always makes you feel warm. He does not hesitate to wrap his arms around you tightly, and although he is afraid of hurting you by squeezing too hard, he cannot control himself. Especially if you are going through a bad time, his warm hugs can make you forget everything.

ღHe loves to cook, if he wakes up earlier than you in the morning, you can find him in the kitchen already. He will give you a warm smile, approach you, kiss your forehead and hug you. He will whisper in your ear with his calm voice "Good morning baby, did you sleep well? I am preparing you the best breakfast you will ever eat, just wait a little bit."

ღI don't know why but he seems like someone who sings for no reason. When he comes in, he will hum a song and then his voice will rise, if you join him he will reach out his hand and make you do a little dance show. Finally he will pull you to him and kiss you on the lips and end your little concert with that.

As the song ended, Johnny looked into your eyes and kissed you romantically. His kisses were like the last note of the song, sweetly completing the moment. "That was the best part of the song."

ღHe seems like the kind of person who will tell you ridiculous stories before going to bed. Sometimes he will tell you the story of how you two met as a love story and you listen to it with a smile on your face every time "And that was the day the eternal love of the two main characters began..." when he realizes you are asleep halfway through the story he will give you a light kiss and mumble goodnight. But sometimes he can tell you the most ridiculous thing in the world, like a story about aliens and dinosaurs fighting.

"One day, the dinosaur commander, a T-Rex, targeted the aliens' base using a huge laser gun." You listened to him, unable to hold back your laughter. "...And just like that, the dinosaurs and the aliens never fought again. Because now both sides knew how bad ice cream was."

ღHe is good with words. He can give you the best advice and compliments, makes you feel better with small touches. He never hesitates to show his love, even if he doesn't say words of love to you, you can tell everything from the look in his eyes. The brightness of his eyes, the small smile on his lips, the small nods that show he listens to every word.

ღHe's really good at flirting. At first you thought he was a playboy but you realized he only acts like that because he really loves you, he doesn't talk to anyone else like that. He squeezes in some flirty sentences while talking and then continues talking as if nothing happened, leaving you surprised.

As he walks around the library with you, he looks at you who you were excitedly looking for the book you love. “You’re so cute, these books must make you feel excited, just like I feel when I'm with you you.” You looked at him in surprise, but he picked up a book without even looking at you. “Oh look, here’s the book you’re looking for. Let’s go, I’ll buy it for you.”

[eff-plays]

"Lmao EA thinks Veilguard failed because it wasn't a live service. Are they fucking stupid?"

This is a charitable take ^^^^ This is an EXTREMELY charitable take, and let me explain why.

EA wants a live service game. They want it BAD. They know nobody else wants it, but that doesn't matter. They want it, because to them, it's infinite money. If they just keep throwing devs at it, no matter the devs' actual passion or areas of expertise, they believe they'll hit the jackpot. When you have almost-infinite money to throw at a problem until it spits out the final infinite-money glitch? That's what you do.

When Destiny dropped and did big fat numbers back in the day, EA got so hard they couldn't think, looked over what devs they had locked in their basement, and picked out BioWare as their lab rat. BioWare just finished Mass Effect, right? That was some sci-fi bullshit, just like Destiny! Make them make another Destiny. But by the time it came out, it was too late. People were tired of the genre, and Anthem was so nothing and made by devs who couldn't care less, so it fizzled out like a wet fart. Alright, that was a big fail, but hey!! Inquisition made big money, so get BioWare on another live service, this time maybe fantasy-flavored? Except oops, looks like we used up all the goodwill with Anthem and people are really pissed about us making Dragon Age, an exclusively single-player game, multiplayer. Ugh. Okay. Fine. Scrap that, I guess. Gotta save face, for now. Let's um. Yes, let's just axe some devs from this, ya know, we gotta make money too right? Can't spend TOO MUCH on a singleplayer game. Oh no!!! It came out and it sucked?? Well, obviously it's not OUR fault. The game is as good as it could have been under the circumstances ... you know, not being a live service game. We wanted it to be live service, gamers, but YOU said it should've been singleplayer! And now it failed to meet expectations! See? We told you! Alas, if only it'd been a multiplayer live service instead ...

Look. They know. They're fully aware and they can very much hear and see all the criticisms thrown at Veilguard, and at live service games in general. The problem isn't that they don't get what gamers want, it's that they don't CARE. They want infinite money, and to them, having one good live service is so much more valuable than having a bunch of little one-off sale games. Do you understand?

"But BG3 and Elden Ring and etc etc made so much money and it was singleplayer!!" Yeah, but did they make Fortnite money? Did they make INFINITE money? No. They didn't. EA. Wants. Infinite. Money.

And they want to keep trying to get that one infinite money glitch, so that little comment about "oughough if only it'd been a live service game" isn't a misunderstanding of what players want or a poorly-thought-out argument: it's propaganda. They're trying to twist Veilguard failing into a justification for why their next game will once again be an attempt at a live service game. "See? You guys wanted singleplayer but then it failed 😔 We simply CAN'T justify making another singleplayer game, not when it SELLS SO POORLY. It's okay though, WE know what people ACTUALLY want, and we'll do it next time :)"

It doesn't matter to them how many single-player games must fail and how many devs must be sacrificed, how many players must be upset and alienated, because if they hit that infinite money glitch ONCE, if they get ONE Fortnite ... Then none of it will matter.

So yeah. This isn't stupidity. It's plain and simple greed.

[shiro-s2e2-erukinzu]

Anime only watchers and people who aren't caught up with the Manga, BEWARE... Cuz I'm about to discuss Spy X Family Mission 110... You have been warned...! 👌

[SPOILERS AHEAD FROM THIS POINT ON]

*Ahem...*

OH MY GOODNESS!!!! 😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱

THIS CHAPTER WAS CRAZY GOOD & HAD IT ME GOING NUTS BY THE END OF IT...!!! 😵

This was another informative chapter with something that might've just confirmed something ABSOLUTELY BIG...!!! 😲 So let's talk about it, shall we...? 😉

We begin this chapter basically right where we left off last time and Loid thinks to himself that maybe the reason that Melinda claims that Donovan is an alien might be some sort of metaphor for her not comprehending Donovan's way of thinking, so he asks her why she thinks this, and Melinda immediately shuts down Twilight's proclamation that Donovan won't find out about what they've discussed here... While in the waiting room, Melinda's bodyguard over hears Melinda shouting, but before she can do anything, Fiona goes to have a chat with her to ease her worry while also trying to get some info out of her....:

I honestly didn't expect to see Fiona show up and come in clutch to get extra information about Melinda, though I probably should have...! 😅

After that, we cut back to Twilight trying to calm Melinda down and convince her that he stands with her...! So, he tells her...:

I am so glad that Twilight told Melinda to get away from Donovan as soon as possible because I know that some people were worried that Loid was just gonna encourage her to stay with Donovan just so that he can get more information from her, but luckily that wasn't Loid's plan...! In fact as stated in the image above, if Twilight has proof that Donovan is abusing Melinda, it would cause a scandal and possibly lead to him being removed from power...! But before Twilight could her ask anything, Melinda stops him and says that Donovan hasn't done anything to her... This eventually leads Twilight to tell Melinda his observation of her:

Gosh, I feel so bad for Melinda... 😔 She doesn't deserve what's happening to her...

After that, Melinda decides that it's too late to hide that she came here, so she tells Twilight when she started to notice Donovan change...:

And then, Melinda reveals why she thinks that Donovan was replaced by alien...:

OH MY GOD, OH MY GOD! 😱 DID MELINDA JUST CONFIRM THAT DONOVAN IS INDEED A TELEPATH JUST LIKE ANYA!?!? 😵😵😵

I am seriously FREAKING OUT right now because I (and many others) have thought about this possibility FOR A LONG TIME!! 😵 GAAAAAAHHHHHH!!! I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY AT THIS POINT...!!! 😫

After THAT bombshell, Melinda tells Loid about how scared she is of Donovan as well as all of this...:

MELINDA...!!! 💔😭💔

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE SAVE HER AND CHILDREN FROM THIS MAN IMMEDIATELY!!! 😫

Then, Twilight suggests to Melinda that she should convince Donovan to come to therapy as well, which leads to the funniest image in this whole chapter...!!:

🤣😂🤣😂🤣😂🤣😂

In the end, Twilight did his best to work with Melinda before she left, but he felt that he might have pushed her little too much, so now Loid awaits for Melinda's examination results as he heads home... And of course, someone else learns of Donovan possibly being a telepath...!!:

OF COURSE ANYA WAS GONNA HEAR ABOUT THIS!!! 🗣🗣🗣

And that was Mission 110, it was both fantastic and crazy at the same time!!! 👌😌

This chapter was a very serious one throughout (except for the happy Donovan alien part, that was just so hilarious!! 🤣) Now I'm wondering where do we go from here...? 🤔 Is something bad gonna happen to Melinda because this? What is Anya (hell, even Loid) gonna do with the information that was dropped in this chapter...? 😲

IS DONOVAN MOST DEFINITELY A TELEPATH?!?! 😱 (The signs point to yes for me! 👌)

We are definitely in some deep territory here, so who knows what's gonna happen next...!! But, I am (hopefully) ready for ANYTHING...!!! 😆 So, until the next Mission; take care, be safe out there and be kind to one another...!! LATER Y'ALL!!! 👋😁

[aboringredmop]

k still don't know how im gonna post the videos (YouTube? unlisted?someone please help) but I can't sleep so I thought it'd write down whatever I remember happening!

(edit: here's the full recording! )

Becky and Joe walked on stage wearing sunglasses and red leather jackets and threw 3 of the trio plushies into the crowd. didn't get one unfortunately but it's really cool some people got free plushies :)

they made this robot child called the Inspiration Child, who's clearly meant to be a nod to ai (can learn from our show and generate it's own content!)

they explained how they met (and had some dodgy animated retelling), and how they started with small projects like commercials and music videos, until they came up with designs of the trio (and a mysterious fourth fella)

they made the designs first, then made the set, then the song and finally wrote the script for creativity. red guy was just a red mop head with legs at first ("alien squid thing") but Joe put the red guy head on for shits and giggles once and Becky thought it was hilarious so they kept it in the show

they were really not expecting it to blow up, and when Sundance called because they wanted to show creativity Becky thought it was a scam caller lol

they talked about the kickstarter and the credit card fraud kid. the mailed him saying "hey maybe dont do that" but the kid didnt know how to undo it cuz he just found a website full of credit card information and went ham, so Becky and Joe had to contact kickstarter because people were pulling out of the funding because they thought the project was overfunded (kickstarter was very difficult to contact)

they also made (lighthearted) fun of nsfw fluffybird art ((no padlock 😔) "using OUR characters to act out their SICK FANTASIES" - Becky) and theorists, especially because most if not all of the webseries is just them fucking around.

Inspiration Child also says something along the lines of "wow what a cool show with a great message of how corrupt the media is. I hate the media!"

Becky and Joe had these rules to make the show as vague as possible (no pop culture references, no names, no swearing and way too much detail put into small things)(the duck guy drag queen absolutely obliterates the no swearing rule lol)

they talk about the pilot, how they focused too much on the story because they felt like they had to due to it being on the big screen now, and how it ended up ruining the atmosphere and such of the pilot. they did show the entire thing sped up but my phone sucks ass so I could not get it to focus correctly. I'll see what I can salvage so you people can dissect frames of your blorbo you're Legally Not Allowed To See (which is also the official reason we don't get the pilot)

also pilot concept art showed that Mean Steve is in fact just called Key

they showed a whole post-it wall full of ideas for the tv show. don't know how much I got on footage, but what stood out most to me were 2 episodes called Money and Christmas. Joe mentioned "clock in a wheelchair" specifically

also really fun fact. Becky made the Lesley suit during covid, and pretty much threatened Baker into writing a human character into the show to wear it. concept art also shows Lesley with a mask made out of the same fabric, don't know if this was part of the original suit tho

they showed Warrens old models (?). he was gonna be a wayy more ugly looking silicone pug-worm thing y'all got lucky with the bald fuck

lily and todney were directly based off of some cancelled show about two porcelain doll children with panda parents. do not for the life of me remember what it was called but Becky and Joe were very enthousiastic about it (UPDATE: Candy and Andy!)

international release of the show soon!

Inspiration Child talks about what he's learned and sings a little song, then generates his own dhmis inspired content of a cult meeting in a forest at night. the dhmis Discord server called this "potential new content" but I doubt it

3 cultists walk on stage, face the screen backs to the crowd, drop their cloaks and boom! drag queens!!!

they were not mentioned on the site or during earlier parts of the show at all so they were a complete surprise. I asked Becky about it later during the night and she said she really wanted them there, so she asked and they were excited to! hope this means more official content with them soon I love them

they dance to There's Three Of Us, then Duck lipsings the shredder song which turns into a techno remix while Red and Yellow dance during the background

then Duck and Yellow make out while Red tries to undress to the instrumentals of the Fucked Up Part of Creativity but can't get out of his suit on time before the song ends

the drag queens, Becky and Joe and the Inspiration Child walk around during the meet and greet later and I got signatures from all of them! except inspiration child he didn't have thumbs

the drag queens were so fucking funny. Duck adopted inspiration child and loudly yelled at everyone to "GET AWAY FROM MY FUCKING CHILD" (their duck voice is sooo good). yellow stood in a corner staring at a wall for like 10 minutes and red was constantly awkwardly hovering just outside the frames of pictures (and also could not see shit lmao)

Becky liked my shirt! (the one with the melting trio heads) said she handdrew it

I'll post the signatures and some more stuff tomorrow because it is. 5 am

edit Heres the signatures! yellow guys is Italian I think? and means hi I love you :)

(the liyskaen is duck trying to spell my name. they got pretty close)

[dearly-somber]

just keep swimming | h.dm

-> pairing. non-idol!dongmin x f reader

-> genre. unrequited love, pining, swim athletes!au, high school!au

-> rating. 13+

-> w/c. 1124

-> warnings. None!

-> a/n. I finished this a while ago but was too lazy to format, sorry y’all 😔

-> bnd ficlet, oneshot & series m.list

-> started. May 18th, 2024 @ 20:02

-> fin. Wed., Nov. 27th, 2024 @ 02:14

-> edited. Sat., Nov. 30th, 2024 @ 13:57

-> divider credit. @strangergraphics, @saradika-graphics

The fact that you and Dongmin are both top athletes for your school’s respective swim teams means you see each other often.

Which also means you have to fight back the urge to drown yourself every time he does anything even remotely attractive, because anytime he does you feel yourself falling deeper into the hole that is your years-long unrequited crush.

It’s unfair, really. You not only have to see him shirtless every other day of the week, you also have to see him wet. You have to share a training space with him and watch on your breaks how his shoulders move when he swims; how he shakes out his hair once he’s surfaced the water.

And that cocky ass smile he gets whenever he’s beaten his record… You could drown yourself just thinking about it!

“You still in there?” Aria asks with a knowing laugh, taking a towel to her neck and down her arms. You give her a pained half-smile that has her shaking her head and laughing just a little harder, grabbing your own towel with a deep sigh.

“Is it that obvious?” you ask with a pout, pulling your hair out from under your swim cap. You ruffle the wet curls until they fall over your shoulder, pulling your towel over your shoulders as Aria does the same.

“Painfully,” she agrees, shoving into your side with a teasing smile. “Why don’t you just talk to him about it?”

“And face rejection after years of pining? I’d rather lose a race.”

Aria raises a brow. “That serious, huh?”

You sigh and nod dramatically, yelping as you stumble forward a bit when one of the boys bumps into you. You turn around to glare but find your eyes widening at the sheepish smile on Dongmin’s face.

He shoots a thumb over his shoulder at Kim Donghyun, certified alien and also Dongmin’s best friend, tattling, “It was him.”

You nod mutely, grabbing Aria’s arm and dragging her along a little faster, your cheeks warming like you’d been stuck in a sauna for the last hour and a half.

“Hey, Y/N?” Aria waits until you hum and turn to her before she leans in and whispers conspiratorially, “you’re hopeless.”

You hiss and smack at her arm, shaking your head even though your chest pangs at the truth in her words.

Things were a lot easier before he started talking to you. It’s much harder to ignore the object of your affection when said object-of-affection makes you feel so seen.

•••

“Y/N, wait up!”

Your eyes widen and you nod dumbly, tucking a wet strand of hair behind your ear. You pull your duffel tighter over your shoulder, your throat dry now that Dongmin’s standing next to you with a shy half-smile.

“Sorry, I hope I’m not bothering you?”

“No!” You wave your hands, laughing softly as you turn away from him and clear your throat. “Not at all…”

“That’s good,” he says, trailing off and walking in silence for a second before saying, “I just thought you might want someone to walk with, since Aria wasn’t here today.”

Your eyes widen in surprise.

He chuckles sheepishly, ruffling his hair. The wet strands stick up in all directions, and it takes everything in you not to reach out and fix it for him.

“I just thought I’d offer some company,” he mumbles. “I’ve never really seen you with any of the other girls, so…”

“That’s really sweet of you, Dongmin. Thank you.”

Your heart flutters dangerously as you send him your most sincere smile, looking away when he waves you off with a bashful grin. “It’s nothing,” he assures you.

“Where’s Donghyun? You guys usually walk to the showers together,” you comment, trying to keep your voice casual.

“Ah.” Dongmin laughs, his eyes scrunching up with the force of it—your stomach flips in response. “He’s got the shits.”

“What?” you laugh, unable to bite back the ugly snort that leaves your lips at his deadpan delivery.

Dongmin laughs with you, his smile warm enough to evaporate the water on your skin. “He ate a cup of Buldak ramen on a dare last night. He’s really bad at eating spicy foods, and I think he overdid it, so his stomach had some complaining to do.”

You giggle, shaking your head. “Boys. The things you’ll do for a game.”

Dongmin scoffs. “Like girls are any better. I’ve seen chicks do some weird shit.”

“Oh yeah?” you challenge, playfully squaring up with him. “Like what?”

“Well, I once saw a group of girls in T-Rex costumes dancing to We’re All In This Together in the middle of the cafeteria because they lost a bet, so—”

You pick your mouth up from the floor, shivering at the secondhand-embarrassment and giggling at the afterimage in your mind. You tend not to hang out around the cafeteria (mostly because Aria is sick of you staring wistfully at the men’s swim team table), so it’s not surprising you weren’t there to witness what must’ve been an amazing act of friendship.

“That’s awesome,” you agree, nodding as the two of you continue walking, eventually reaching the separate washrooms, where a group of young men are exiting right as a giggly group of girls are heading inside.

“Welp,” you sigh. “I guess this is where we part ways.”

Dongmin laughs, “Yeah, I guess so. Thanks for walking with me.”

“Thank you. It means a lot.”

He smiles a smile so soft you feel like wrapping yourself up in it. “Anytime,” he says.

And with that, he gives you a two-finger salute, turning on his heel and disappearing into the men’s washrooms.

You stand outside for a little longer, biting down on your lip to stop an idiotic smile from forming on your face. You exhale to calm your racing heart and head inside to wash up, your feelings a little more cemented than before…

•••

But in the end, you lose. A few days after the last competition for the season, right when you’ve mustered the courage to finally confess, Dongmin posts a picture of him and Lee Chaeryeong kissing.

My one and only.

“It’s okay,” Aria tries to comfort you, rubbing your back as you sit numbly in the middle of the bed, your crossed legs going numb and phone slipping between your fingers. “Dongmin’s not the only guy you’ll ever meet, yeah? There’s plenty others who’re dying to get with you!”

You manage a tiny nod before turning into her shoulder and sobbing.

It shouldn’t hurt so much, you think. You never really knew him, and you were never really anything beyond acquaintances. But it does.

You are breathless, and you are heaving for air, and you are drowning.

[cosmiiwrites]

NO MY ANON IS GONE, I’m too shy for this 😔 but anywho I was the person who originally suggested VenomSpiderMan!Reader and I’m low-key so happy that I’ve been able to infect other people with my brain worms, something about Spiders with the Venom Symbiote scratches my brain just right. Honestly I can really see the aggression becoming a big problem for Cecil, not in like an ‘oh shit we gotta do something about this right now’ kind of way, like something he has to constantly monitor, he needs to make sure they’re getting fed and that no one is getting hurt when they do, which would mean that if they go a few weeks, just fighting Viltrumites, not getting to eat any of them (which honestly would probably only happen if Viltrum only pit them against pure blood Viltrumites or just the strong ones in general IDC Reader CAN take on weaker Viltrumites no diff with the Symbiote) then Cecil would probably have to go to the trouble of getting fresh bodies for them, lest they eat the next petty thief they see. I don’t remember if it’s actually canon or just an idea my head cooked up, but also imagine if the Symbiote has to eat more when it helps heal the Reader, then Cecil would have to be on standby with the bodies after every big fight (morbid, I know 😨). I like to imagine the Symbiote is just as intelligent as the reader, since we know pretty much all Spiders are literal geniuses (Every Peter, Miles, Hobie), and since they’re both so intelligent, it makes it incredibly easy to bounce plans and strategies off each other while mid combat, they figure out what will work quicker than just the Reader or symbiote would and point out any holes in the others’ plan that may have been overlooked. Even if the things the Symbiote sometimes suggests are morally dubious. The Symbiote would also 100% get super attached to the Reader, the way it acts like it’s a breakup when it gets separated from Peter in several versions of Spider-Man? The entire venom movies? The Reader probably gets attached as well, hard not to when you basically share a body and it saves your life constantly. The Symbiote doesn’t care about other humans that much, outside of their worth to its own species, but it does care about the Reader, so if they want to save some worthless lives, it’ll help, it’ll even eat a corpse that is a little bit too old for it’s taste just so that they can keep their ‘morals’ and the Reader doesn’t like how immoral it can be, but they still change all of the candles in their house to those imitation ones (for power outages, which I imagine get increasingly common under Viltrumite rule) and wax melts (for scent) and they’ll start to work on frequency blockers, swearing up and down that it’s for the good of their missions. It’s totally NOT because they can no longer stand to see their companion in genuine pain. What are you even saying? That’s literally a space alien that low-key thinks of humans as food. 1/2

SORRRYYY SOME PEOPLE WERE BEING WEIRD N RUDE TO ME IN ANONS SO I REMOVED IT (it will be back soon tho!)

but omg haiiii i love ur venom symbiote suggestion mwah

YES I TOTALLY SEE CECIL BEING CONSTANTLY CONCERNED FOR THEM,, keeping them fed n everything 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ i think maybe he uses some of the dead bodies that they’d use to make reanimen to feed venom!reader

VENOM SYMBIOTE BEING EMOTIONALLY AND PHYSICALLY ATTACHED TO READER AND VICE VERSA AAAAAAAA

i love that they have like a genuine relationship, to the point where the symbiote follows readers morals just to make them happy😭

[justanotheryapper]

I just wanted to take a minute to appreciate the scene where Mark gets back from Thraxa and talks to his mom.

Steven Yeun did such a great job in this scene, and I haven't seen anything be said about it yet. He managed to capture the exhaustion and defeat in Mark perfectly and really capture that older sibling feeling.

As an older sibling, I could really feel and relate to Mark's dialogue (his low energy voice) and body language, even his heavy sigh after saying he couldn't just leave Oliver to someone else. [I sometimes feel like I overcomplicate things with my family, but in moments like this one with Mark I just feel so defeated and overcome with dread because I love them too much or can't really do anything about things at times.]

That paired with him having to possibly give up his future (college) and complicated relationship with his father just hits the nail on the head a little too well for me and made me dwell on that moment for a bit after the episode ended. It's crazy because most of my siblings are half siblings too, but I've never viewed them that way until I remember it for a second and forget about it for another year lmao.

The show just managed to capture that part of Mark so well, and it's one of my favorite moments in the show. It may be a mundane thing to obsess over, but it spoke to me personally. He is just so older sibling coded in the best way possible, but more specifically in the parentified way because Mark also has to take charge of how Oliver grows up given their shared alien heritage (something I relate to as well💀the parentification aspect i mean😔)

Honestly, it's just one of those things that I had to unpack for a moment because I don't get therapy and probably won't for a couple more years until I'm ready.

[all2angels]

God I have so many thoughts about hesitant alien Gerard😩

Like for some reason I see him being this sweet gentleman in but public that everyone loves, but behind the scenes he's the devil himself.

Like imagine being he's young sugar baby that got into his trap of kindness and spoiling you with gifts and now you get abused everyday and threatened by him that if you won't be a good fuck toy he's gonna kick out the house

Oh to have a sugar daddy like this😔💅

~🍡

:3

dilf hesitant ailen gee x reader

a/n damn hey y'all! im back! although i cut this short cuz i had to go HEJSHSHDH i just wanted to post something quickly 😓 hopefully more posts soon YUP

tw !dead dove don't eat! no proof read & wordy, NSFW, age gap, abuse, manipulation, spanking, degradation, no safe word, rough sex, i haven't writte in a while there's not much smut tbh

no one believes you when you say that he's not a good man — that he hurts you and threatens you, because all they see is this sweet gentleman that gets you anything you want, takes you on expensive dates, spontaneous vacations, and overall treats you good.

they don't know the things he'd whisper in your ear when you're in public, "fix your attitude before i have my way with you in front of everyone in this party," he'd say, then pull back away from you with a bright, charming smile and snakes his hand on your waist, giving you a small kiss. others swoon at the sight.

it sucks because everyone seems to see him through rose tinted glasses, a well educated wealthy man, well spoken and kind, generous and charming, handsome, and attractive. they're under so deep in his charm that they don't even question the problematic age gap.

and you used to see him that way too — you thought he was way too kind to be true, and you were right. he said and gave you everything and anything to lure you into his cage, and he's got you locked in the moment you stepped foot inside.

gerard was smart and thoughtful about his actions, and you didn't realize until it was too late. it started small, little outburts here and there; you brushed it off to him just beige under stress. and then it got physical, harsh shoves and slaps every so often. then it started to become a part of sex. and that's another thing — you noticed gerard was only every decent to you in exchange for sex.

praises and compliments he used to give you all the time was now reserved for foreplay. "you're beautiful, baby, have i told you that recently?" he'd say, crashing his lips into yours. "mhm, so good f'me, aren't you?"

then what starts as praises quickly turn sour, once he's got you bent over on the bed—clothes ripped off, it's almost like a different person comes out.

"you're a fuckin' slut, hm?" he'd whisper, holding your hair tightly and using his arm to keep your head down. his other hand caressed your exposed behind—smack! "yeah, you love that, don't you?"

he's mean with it too, every trust harsh and deep, careless with how it'd feel for you. no lube, he'd jam in inside if need be and safewords? he thinks it's stupid and a waste of time — no use for it too, he'd keep going even if you ask him to stop.

if hell was real, then you're already here. gerard doesn't waste a single day of reminding you that your sole purpose was to please him.

[revelboo]

Hello! I usually don't post much here in these ask Boxes, but seeing your writing style made me have thoughts about ..... I don't know if you saw TFE(earthspark) but if so, can you write something about megatron?? 😘👍😔💅 (I'm literally addicted to everything you post)

Haha I do adore Rory McCann’s lovely, growly voice. 18+ 🌶️

Give Up/Give In

TF Earthspark Megatron x Reader

• That mad laughter rings in his processor as he transforms and reaches, only to find Skywarp already gone. Weapon fire slamming into his back right before Starscream slams into him, driving him down to the ground. He’s dimly aware of brakes squealing, something colliding with his ped. Humans screaming and running from the fire fight, but there’s no time to lure the Seekers out of the middle of town. They’re darting away before he can bring his canon to bear. The three clever enough to know that he’s stronger, but they’re faster. All they have to do is keep moving. Servos tightening into a fist, he bares his denta at Skywarp. “Come on then!” He roars in challenge.

• They came from out of nowhere, Cybertronians fighting. Sure you’d seen this sort of thing on TV, but it was always a distant horror. Something that didn’t happen in your town. Slamming on the brakes, you hear tires squealing before another driver slams into your sedan, caving in the driver’s side door as pain sears through you and then your head is snapped back when the airbag goes off. From far too close, those massive aliens are brawling, and you watch the gray one step on an abandoned car flattening it and not even noticing. Clawing at your seatbelt, you see the guy who hit you stagger out of his truck. “Help! I’m stuck!” You scream at him and he hesitates. For one brief moment you think he’s going to actually come over, then something explodes and he’s running away. Leaving you.

• There’s guilt there in the back of his processor as he fights his former allies. His followers who believed in him. Needed him to be their rallying cry for change. For a better life. Understands their hatred and how they see his actions as betrayal. But he can’t let the weight of his failures cripple him now. A blow to the back of his head. A kick to his shoulder. Weapon’s fire to the face. Staying out of reach, because they know as well as he does if he gets his servos on them it’s over. And just like the last two times in as many days, the attack stops. The trio warping away without any clever words or sneering. Looking for weaknesses. Testing him. Baring his denta with a snarl, he steps back and something crunches under his ped, a ragged noise of pain freezing him.

• The ruin of your car tips up slightly as that massive foot steps on the hood. It’ll step back any minute, crushing you and never even noticing. Then that foot moves and he’s crouching down. Megatron. How many times have you seen this one on TV? The reformed warlord. Huge fingers grip the roof of your car and just pull it away so easily. Glowing red eyes staring down at you as he frowns. “Easy, little one,” he says and that low, growling voice rolls over you. When he wrenches the door from the car frame, you become aware of the pain and the wetness at the same time, a ragged scream tearing from your throat.

• There’d been no time to worry over the humans and, if he’s being honest, he hadn’t spared them any thought at all. While he protects Dorothy and her family, the rest have never actually mattered to him. Just more collateral damage of the war. The little human’s screams taper off to a panicked wheezing as he breaks the seatbelt and lifts them free. The red blood making him remember Dorothy hurt, bleeding out and still trying to fight. Defiant. You’re not her. Trembling in his servos, eyes wide and terrified as you look up at him. “Please,” you whisper and he’s frozen. Because you need him and he isn’t sure what to do.

Next

[youcancallmeemma]

Ya'll... I just watched the new Sonic movie (Sonic 3) and I have to say... I thoroughly enjoyed it.

Me ranting about it after the cut!!

SONIC 3 SPOILERS!!

1) Okay, so, first of all. The movie was amazing. I felt so giddy and excited when I was sitting in the movie theate, just waiting for the next thing to happen.

2) I had to hold back my tears when Tom got brutally punched by Shadow, mainly at hoe Sonic reacted at that... poor boy thought he lost another parent:( I didn't want to cry in front of of my brothers. (They would've bullied me bc they always do)

2) Maria was sososososo pretty!!! I really wished that we could've seen more of the sibling dynamic between her and Shadow, but I honestly loved the relationship they had.

4) My boy Tails should've had more screen time though...💔 Along with knuckles...💔 (I understand they already had enough going on in the movie, and I think if they did what I wanted, it probably would've made the movie uncomfortably cramped)

5) TAILS LOOKED SO CUTE WITH THE HELMET ON IN THE HELECOPTER ATVTHE BEGINNING OMG⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️ I mentally agreed with Agent Stone when he said Tails was adorable, because he is.

6) Honestly, kinda wished Stone and Tails built up a friendship between them. Would've been fun to see them interact more! (Again, same thing I said earlier in nr.4)

7) I actually thought about this before seeing the movie. If I remembered correctly, the movie is based of Sonic adventure 2 (I believe) And Amy Rose was the one who comforted Shadow and got him to turn from evil to good? (I THINK. I SAW A PLAY THROUGH LIKE 10 YEARS AGO, DON'T YELL AT ME😭) So, I wondered how the would go about this. Honestly, the fact that Sonic comforted Shadow was a little odd to me, but what Sonic said was sweet. Since this is the movies we're talking about, it's on brand that Sonic was comforting him, since basically every single live action Sonic movie has him comforting SOMEBODY. Honestly, I liked it.

8) And... THE WAY MR. OLD REBOTNIC (can't remember name💔) GOT KILLED!?!?!? WHAT!?!? YOU'RE TELLING ME HE FOT STABBED IN THE BUTT BY A SUPER POWERED ALIEN HEDGEHOG QUIL, GOT LUNCHED UP, AND GOT INCINERATED BY A DAMN SHEILD!?!? Woah. Imagine telling other people how you died and someone says THIS to you??? My one brother quite literally looked at me like this when that happened: "😧" (my other brother laughed his arse off)

9) And the final message Robotnic gave Stone?? Omg, you can NOT tell me they didn't have SOMETHING going on over there....

10) Finally, the end credit scene... METAL SONIC AND AMY???? ARAGARAGATSGA!!!! Sigh, Why must I wait for the 4th movie to come out... 😔 (PLEASE GIVE REVERSE SONAMY IN THE NEW MOVJE OLEASE PLEASE PLEAS PLEASE PLEA) Also, when Amy revealed herself a little boy (who had a Sonic CAPE mind you) yelled out "IT'S AMY!!!" He might be a bigger fan then me chat... (I forgot my Tails plush 😔)

11) Fun mini fact about me, I'm not much of a Shadow fan (Don't come at me) so I've never been too interested in him. However, the movie got me much more interested in him, and Shadow is now up there with the others. (Also made me feel much more for the poor boy :<)

12) Overall, the movie was literally the best one I have seen in a WHILE. Even though the movie had a lot going on, I still felt immersed in the story the whole way through. Character development was was amazing, Sonic crashing out was SO COOL??? Tails and Knuckles trying to stop him was just as amazing. Tails looking like a scared kid while Sonic and Knuckles were disagreeing tugged SO HARD onto my heart strings💔 I really recommend the movie, it was a great watch. I do however recommend watching the first two movies before watching the third one.

PLEASE DONT COME AT ME!!!

I am simply a teenage girl who's a little obsessed with the STH franchise and movies.

Also, I am not a proper movie critic. Please don't take this stuff too seriously 🙏🙏 Like I said, I'm simply a teenage girl who likes Sonic.

[kifaprokumiv]

Hi, just wanted to say i love your art and ask if you have some sefikura or ff7 in general fic recs pls <3

AAAAAAAAA THANK YOU💥🫵🫵🫵

I haven't yet read a general ff7 fic that I felt crazy about, so I can only offer sefikura fic recs

cracks knuckles

OK

First and foremost, The Fic - The Fear of Falling Stars by silentsaint. Rated E ~ 500k words and ongoing

My friends who are not even into ff7 can attest to how not normal this fic makes me feel. Post AC sefikura get shoved into the past and become even more insane about each other. The day to day dynamic of Sephiroth and Cloud is juice and filling of this fic.

The author also plays a bit with their genders, but it's not the main focus of the fic. I do love me some sefikura gender fuckery.

The fanfic is pretty mean and the author loves putting Cloud through a blender. Man is clinically depressed, he is living a very different genre to Sephiroth.

I will shut up before I spoil too much.

2) Another fic by silentsaint - august in the promised land ~9k words rated T.

Immortal tired old man Cloud with an ugly moustache, and Sephiroth with many opinions on said ugly moustache. Cloud reminiscence on everything while roaming the earth until it's time to do the old song and dance again.

Actually a pretty sweet fic that presents a funny image of late-20s-looking Sephiroth and his 56-year-old-looking boyfriend

3) Little Seph series by ToastedCatBread, How to Use an Astra (~100k words) specifically. Gen, rated T, finished.

Canon divergence fic. When Kadaj reunites with Jenova's cells, Seph comes back in the form of a child and learns that when you look like a kid people are a lot less likely to execute you on the spot. The author explores how Avalanche (with emphasis on Cloud) interacts with Sephiroth when he's vulnerable and not immediately hostile.

How to Use and Astra is placed around the middle of the series and is about Seph going back in time to the beginning of Ff7 to try the role of Cloud's "blade" purely for the sake of indulging his curiosity. Is his death at Cloud's hands predestined, or is there a place for him in this world? He's there to be Cloud's weapon but doesn't fail to remind him that he can turn on him any minute should Cloud "wield" him wrong.

The sentiment of this series, which I appreciated a lot, is that it doesn't really matter if Sephiroth is human, alien, or God. Whether he's accepted by Cloud and Avalanche is the result of his choices.

Also features a very wholesome friendship between Sephiroth and Wedge.

4) Reverb by Carressa, rated E, finished 5k words

Shameless smut mixed with Reunion instinct (we love to see it). Switches sefikura, they're crazy for each other, so configurations don't matter much. Features demanding Seph who purrs like a cat.

My ass is too picky and specific with how I see sefikura 😭, I have an addiction to reading fics, but there's very few that truly scratch my itch.

I am big fan of genderqueer switch sefikura. Imo they can be trans in any and every direction. Toxic yuri between transfem Seph and transmasc Cloud is my jam but I don't see them in fics all that much😔. If you want me to engage with yaoi at least make it trans and gender ambiguous

[sunaddicted]

Instead of a 2024 fic review, in honour of 2025 being my 10th year posting my writing on ao3, I thought it would be fun to do a little recap year by year of my most liked fics.

It's fascinating to see which fandoms came and went and which turned out to be there to stay!

If you're as curious as I was and maybe want to (re)discover some of my older fics, some links and stats await you under the "read more" 💛

2015

My resolution for the new year is to go back to my origins and start writing again for the Tolkien fandom!

Enthralling (Silmarillion, Angbang) is hands down one of my best fics to this day, despite the fact that my English wasn't as good as it is now! If you want to read about Mairon seducing the mightiest of the Valar, this is the best take I wrote on it!

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2016

Sentient Reflection (DCU, Superbat) not only was the first superbat fic I wrote but it also was my first one in the DC fandom and folks, as you very well know, I've been digging this particular hole deeper and deeper with no signs of hitting rock bottom.

One sour note, is seeing Selfish Prayers (James Bond, 00q): I'm sorry to everyone who followed it and was a fan but it will never be finished 😔

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2017

It was the year of James Bond AUs! Omega!Bond and alien!Q clearly were the favourites, with The Odd One (James Bond, 00q) - the first instalment of the omega!Bond series - being one of my most liked fics ever in the fandom.

Aside note: in 2017 started my descent into the garbage fire that was Gotham (my beloved) and I've been steadily writing for this fandom for years and none of what I think are my best Gotham fics - my best fics in general, actually - ever made it to the top 5 😱

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2018

Superbat won hands-down that year, what can I say? Not to toot my own horn but I did write some bangers.

*peach emoji* (DCU, Superbat) is all about Bruce's ass - enough said, right?

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2019

Superbat kept winning 😮‍💨 Whipped (DCU, Superbat) is there for you if you want to have a laugh.

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2020

My Bond fics showed up (I did participate again in the 007 Fest after many years of absence so, that probably helped)! Alas, as the rare pair gremlin that I am, Everything They Said (DCU, Superwonderbat) came to eat - if you're in the mood for some delicious Trinity angst, all in Bruce's head, you're definitely going to enjoy the fic!

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2021

Daniel Craig bowed out of the franchise with a movie I absolutely, 💯% despised and if your liking of Unfixable (James Bond, 00q) shows anything, is that a lot of you hated it too 👼🏽

Honourable mention to Between Us, In The Dark (WWDITS, Nandermo) - I wrote like.. 4 fics for this fandom and still one of them made it to the top 5!

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2022

Finally, some of my Gotham fics got to the top 5! And they're not as good as some real fucking bangers I wrote hahaha

Dancing in Circles (James Bond, 00q) got top spot and with a good reason: old geezers in love, dancing circles around one another? They will pine for forever, sign me up.

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2023

You can pry my rare pairs from my cold, dead hands 😮‍💨 Three of Cups (DCU, Superwonderbat) is the soft Trinity smut we all deserve.

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2024

Listen, it was a bad writing year: writer's block has been kicking my ass to hell and back relentlessly.

But you know what? I still write some damn good superbat smut! Fire on Fire (DCU, Superbat) is filthy and loving and a take on alpha/alpha relationships I don't see much of!

I hope you had as much fun reading this little review as I did discovering all of this! 🤩

[musette22]

I wonder if Steve has a significant amount of imposter syndrome, especially when he came out of the ice. People had solidified this idea of him and expected him to excel and be that, hell even his teammates were just like oh I know all about you. (Expect maybe Thor, who I think was one of Steve’s closest friends in the beginning)

He can’t escape these expectations and if he goes against it, he’s berated for it. It’s made even worse with the serum, but at least with that he had the howling commandos to ground him and encouraged him. In the 21st Century there was no one to bounce of and the fact it would have been made worse by his survivors guilt.

Idk Steve is a character that has so many layers but gets over looked because he isnt allowed to fall into a vulnerable headspace. I kinda wished we saw more of that in his character, not in like a reflective sort of way but a kinda overwhelmed by everything portrayal. I’m sorry if this doesn’t make any sense.

Oh absolutely, yes! I think you're completely right. I also think Steve struggles hugely with the expectations people have of him, the dichotomy between the persona & legend of Cap versus the real Steve Rogers. He had to get used to a whole new body first, and then on top of that, he also had to learn to deal with all those expectations and the idea(l) people have of him which he doesn't even recognise himself in, half the time. He doesn't feel worthy of all the attention and hero worship, constantly thinking that if only people knew the real him, they'd be sorely disappointed. At the same time though, I think he feels like the whole celebrity aspect of being Cap is empty and meaningless anyway, most of the time (except for when he can use his fame to do something good, of course, which he tries to do as much as he can because otherwise, what's the point?), so in a way I think he doesn't even want to live up to people's expectations of him. He is also known for his stubbornness and righteousness, after all 😉

And yeah, in the 21st century, there isn't anyone left who knows the real him, who can grab his shoulders and shake them and tell him that it's the real Steve Rogers, that little guy from Brooklyn who was too dumb to run away from a fight, who makes Cap great, that he is worth knowing and loving. That his ideas may be reckless and harebrained more often than not, but that he does what he does for the right reasons, because he is a good man first and foremost, even if others can only see a perfect soldier. He must've felt so enormously alienated and lost, those first few years 😔

While I love the idea that (most of) the Avengers would've ultimately come to understand and appreciate Steve for Steve too, the way things stood at the beginning of TWS, they definitely weren't there yet (thank god for Sam, who at least tried). Which is why I adore the kind of fics in which Bucky, after he comes back, is not only cared for and helped to get back to himself by Steve, but in which he also gets to care for and help Steve to get back to himself in return ❤️ Mutual healing, that's my jam 💫

And yes, Steve Rogers is actually a huuuugely layered and complex and interesting and underrated character, and I will die on that hill!!! The MCU unfortunately did not explore any of this nearly enough (in fact, they cut some of the scenes that would've been the most telling when it came to the state of mind he was in) and they massively oversimplified his character development for the sake of action/tony/heteronormativity/etc. I'll always wish we'd have gotten to see more of Steve's motivations and character in the movies, but I'll also always be grateful that fanfiction has given us what the MCU didn't dare, and a thousand times over too! ❤️