#i like being me ouo

[creaturemoment]

This might sound like an odd comparison, but my relationship with religion is best compared to selfshipping.

Even as a kid, I compared my lack of romantic / sexual attraction to my lack of faith, since they're both these nebulous concepts that so many assume are a universal experience.

But I do feel attraction to fictional characters and I romantically selfship, taking comfort in the unconditional love and support.

And similarly, I have more faith in fictional characters and beliefs than anything "official." Partially due to autism, partially due to religious trauma, partially due to being fictionkin.

The subjects of this faith, this inexplicable pull, often change or cycle over time. Based on my interests, or just what I feel like I need at the moment.

The most notable ones that come to mind are Mega Rayquaza and Gabriel Ultrakill.

Though, funnily enough, the thing that's currently caught my interest is the Adeptus Mechanicus. I am not mechanical, I have no desire to be, and yet.

Something about the atmosphere just draws me in, scratching some deep-rooted itch that made kid me obsessed with anything that had factions in it. To have an allegiance, to fly a banner.

It's silly, getting the overwhelming urge to wear those red robes and light candles. It's silly, how excited I get at the thought of being referred to as part of the Ad Mech.

It's silly, joking that the Mechanicus OST calmed the ever-finicky spirit of the washing machine.

But it feels fun, it feels safe, and dare I say I have a newfound appreciation for that web design degree I'm working on. And that's good enough for me.

Ave Omnissiah!

[articskele]

“...Wrong? Why would anything go wrong?”

Without further ado, a stimboard for @ask-the-biggering-onceler!

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[icewindandboringhorror]

mentally ill people who for whatever reason end up wearing the same exact clothing so many days in a row that it begins to disintegrate and will still not stop wearing it until it’s literally just scraps of fabric VS. those weird shitty rich people who ‘’can’t be seen in the same outfit twice’’ human dichotomy 

[yan-li]

Part 12

Thank you all for your support and patience!! I alredy have new glasse! yey.... and i now know the old ones were worst than what i belived them to be OuO

1 / 2 / 3 / 4 / 5 / 6 / 7 / 8 / 9 / 10.1 / 10.2 / 11

im doing the commissions i dont know if Im going to show them since I'm being very slow doing them. My arms fell ... weird... like ants and atrophy with some pain, i dont know what it is, Im also weirdly tired.... Im going to the doctor soon. Dont worry pain never stoped me ;)

[krysmcscience]

BILLDUMP TIME (with transparency, because I can). Don't mind me, I'm just yeeting my goofy art at some way more talented individuals out of nowhere and then hauling ass back to the security of being a weird silent lurker ahaha

@tesscourtes and @beccadrawsstuff, respectively! These two Bills make a little prism of sorts together because of their recent crossovers on Patreon~ :3c Speaking of which, I highly recommend supporting both these artists! They do fantastic work! (TessCourtes and Beccup)

@qoolk on the left, and @monobmp on the right! I am such a sucker for these outfits~ OuO Go and check these two out, their art is phenomenal!!! >u<

@1spooky2me The most difficult Bill of the lot for me to draw, ahaha... Their art is so incredibly consistent and dynamic, I am, a little envious <:,) A little envious, but mostly impressed, so go look at their amazing art, what are you waiting for

And finally, @ckret2, whose writing is sublimely in-character and just a delight to read - they're a great artist, as well! I simply Could Not resist drawing their Bill in this ridiculous incredible and very fashionable pink feather dress, even though he only briefly wears it in their fic, so I also did a little bonus doodle of him in his standard hoodie to make up for it. XD (Also, as far as I'm concerned, Bill and Mabel were both correct in that lime green accessories make the dress Much Better.)

This is just a small selection of the human Bill designs I enjoy. I may draw and post more later on, who knows! Feel free to reblog with some neat Bill designs, either your own or by other folks - if any of the designs particularly call to me, I'll add them to the little list I've got going~ :D (Alternatively, if you really like my stuff and want me to draw something specific, you could...mmm...perhaps, commission me...? OuO)

Also I'm tagging Billford because uhhhh yeah, sorry not sorry, every single one of these Bills is getting shipped with Ford by the artists in some way or another, lmao

[a-dauntless-daffodil]

Emily: “Go do paperwork, Emily. It’ll help you calm down, Emily.

Emily: "It’s important to make sure heaven is running smoothly and no one here is being inconvenienced by the suffering of others, EMILY.”

Emily: “DON’T THINK ABOUT HOW TWO WOMEN WHO WANT TO MAKE HELL A BETTER PLACE ARE DOWN THERE RIGHT NOW MORNING THE DEATHS OF FRIENDS AND TRYING TO PICK UP THE PIECES OF THEIR HOME- WHICH WAS DESTROYED ON OUR ORDERS. E M I L Y.”

Emily: (angrily grabs document and gently sets it down in front of herself)

Document: *Self-Assessment Form on the Maintenace of Heaven and Associated Structures*

Emily: (angrily scribbling)

Document: *Self-Assessment Form on the Maintenass of Heaven LIES and Associated Structural Violence*

Emily: "Hmph."

Emily: (doodles demon charlie setting fire to a screaming adam)

Emily: “Ha!”

Emily: (doodles vaggie staring dreamily at demon charlie while a kneeling lute tugs on her shirt and yells ‘notice me!!!’)

Emily: “HEH.”

Emily: “….”

Emily: (doodles charlie and vaggie kissing)

Emily: “..hmm…”

Emily: (doodles HERSELF being hugged by charlie and vag-)

Sera: “Ahem.”

Emily: O.O

Sera: - _ -

Emily: OuO;

Sera: “And how is your self assessment going, Emily?”

Emily: “It’s gaying- it’s going okay!”

Sera: “Really.”

Emily: “Yep!”

Sera: “It looks rather behind to me.”

Emily: (stares down at the multiple new instances of the word “ass” on her improved document)

Emily: "Um..."

Emily: (looks at the doodle of chaggie hugging her)

Emily: “…Actually I was just correcting some mistakes on it. You know, so I can answer it HONESTLY. Without OMITTING anything IMPORTANT or giving the WRONG IMPRESSION about things I’m RESPONSIBLE for. That’s the proper thing to do, right?”

Sera: “…”

Sera: “And the doodles?”

Emily: “Courtroom sketches. For posterity.”

Sera: “They’re highly inaccurate.”

Emily: “It’s a metaphorical representation of what I saw and felt at the time.”

Sera: “Are you at least planning to get rid of-”

Emily: “I think I’ll have them framed.”

Sera: (face palm)

Emily: (humming happily while filling out the improved form) “Have you ever been complicit in a crime against creation? Why yes I have! And I didn’t even know it!! Ah but there’s no box for that is there? There isn’t even actually a question like that- don’t worry though, I’ll just add it in shall I? Yes, there we go, that’s MUCH more accurate~"

[parasolladyansy]

PKMN & a desk tour

Welcome to my desk 🌧️ I like to keep it pretty minimal in my workspace, so Skye is perched on the built-in shelf with some of the other Pokemon. Also, I had to get a clock because Procreate makes the clock disappear & I’d lose track of time (as well as the battery life on my iPad LOL well done Procreate XD) The little bird there in front of the ocarina one is actually a storm glass - she seems to only tell when it’s warm & cold, but I still love her.

I’m actually thinking of setting up a little home weather station in the future (barometer, thermometer, maybe a DIY windsock, etc.) & getting a book on meteorology to really learn this stuff. I feel like that skill will be useful to have, also weathercore (if that’s a thing lol) ouo If anyone knows about where I should start or what I should read, let me know! Ideally something with lots of pictures ^_^

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So…I’m really happy I joined this site. ;u; Lots of people here are so nice, & there are so, so many cool artists! Then some of them follow me, & say they’re jazzed when I follow them?? 878

So thank you! \^0^/ Keep being awesome! 🩵

[celestialsymbiosis]

Love and Mercy p.2 - Rick Grimes x reader

Guys lemme just... big disclaimer that I have nevvvvvver written like this before and I'm honestly shocked at myself. I'm the embodiment of that "Did you guys hear that? I'm scared" vine rn.

cw: nsfw +18 , oral, Rick being stressed, praise/degradation, pretty switch-y behaviour.

Enjoy ouo

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You let out a startled laugh. “So you’re declaring Christmas to be tomorrow? You’re just choosing?”

“Yes,” he nods once, rubbing his jaw like it’s a hard decision to make. “You get your day, and then I want you with me to assess the barricades. I can’t do it alone.”

You nod easily. “I’ll need help on the decorations. We don’t have much,” you gesture at the crinkled paper and twine on the ground. “Don’t suppose we can cut a small tree down with your hatchet?”

“I’ll figure out your decorations, just-" he beckons you forward, pulling you up easily to straddle his lap, “come here for now.” 

Your hands immediately go around his shoulders, pressing down into the muscle. “It’s like the more I tell you to relax, the more tense you get,” you chide, his arms resting at the waist of your shorts. 

Rick’s weary head lolls forward onto your chest like he’s too exhausted to keep straight. He lets this soft, barely audible noise you clock as a whine- when you scratch the hair at the nape of his neck, rubbing up and down his back with your other hand. 

“Yeah? Is this what you need?” your voice is on the line of teasing. He isn’t like this often, quiet and pliable. Maybe after a day of patrolling the streets of Alexandria, ready to strike at the slightest of noises and wound up too tight, or when he comes back after days of scavenging, dirty and sweaty and so on edge. 

You grind down hard onto his lap, the bulge in his boxers aimed perfectly at your clothed cunt. And then again at his shaky exhale, the puff of air at your sternum.

“Poor thing,” your lips press against his temple. You try to maintain the slow pace of your hips even as he pushes you down further into his lap to rut up into you. “Told you to slow down, Rick.”

He inhales heavily, head rearing to look at you, blue eyes so so so blue. “I can’t,” he mumbles almost painfully, and you frown in response because he’s still so obviously in his head. Your palms rest on the sides of his face. 

“What do you want, Rick?”

He grunts, pulling your hips to slide forwards and back on his cock forcefully, and he moans a little louder when you-

“No. What do you want? What do you need from me?” You lick at his jaw, equally as taken by the moment as he is. “Wanna help you relax, Rick. Tell me what to do for you.” 

“Fuck,” he grits his teeth hard together, loosening his jaw when your thumb presses harder into the bone. “Get on your knees, baby. Need you to suck me off.”

Without another word, you slide off of his lap, landing back on the floor. Before you can tug on the waistband of his boxers though, Rick pushes your head down to his crotch like he couldn’t get your mouth near him any quicker. You hum against it, open mouthed kisses on the fabric as he practically humps your face. You let him for a while, because after all- this is about getting him to fucking relax. He needs this. Needs to let loose. You can have your pride stand to the side if it means Rick will come, hot, heavy, and boneless all together. 

But you can feel the wetness of his precum through his boxers, so you pull back a little forcefully, rubbing your hand on him when he lets out this affronted huff. You pull his boxers down his narrow hips and before his hand can push you down again, you’re surging forward, taking him down your throat in the first shot. Your tongue glides on the underside of him, smoothing over the ridges and veins that run down the length.

If there’s one thing you know about Rick, it’s that he doesn’t particularly enjoy anything tight and controlled in bed; you’re practically drooling over him and he can’t seem to get enough, revelling in the sounds escaping you as the head of his cock hits the back of your throat. Fuck. 

“You’re so fucking good, Sweetheart,” he pants, one hand holding you up by your hair as he fucks your face, hips almost coming off the couch to reach your mouth. He pats the side of your face, at the vulgar bulge of your cheek when he pushes against it. “Look so good like this- like it’s your job to suck my cock. Christ, baby.”

He continues like this, with praises sung for your performance as your fingers join eventually to play with his balls, gliding over them and squeezing so gently. You run a nail down the side of his dick, feeling him twitch in response, and again when you tongue the slit of his head. 

“I’m gonna come,” Rick’s head falls back onto the couch as his hands press you down till your nose nearly meets his pelvis. He keeps you there, thrusting shallowly into the wet heat of your mouth. You almost can’t believe your lack of struggle; maybe Rick was right, maybe it is your job to be able to take all of him in like this. You definitely can’t believe that you haven’t been touching yourself all this while, hands splayed on his abdomen while your legs squeeze together for a modicum of pleasure.  

There’s a sharp intake of air from him as he suddenly goes rigid. He maintains your position over him as his cock flexes inside your mouth, spurting out lines of cum deep into your throat, keeping you there a few seconds after just to be sure you took all of it down even when you start squirming. 

“Fuckin’ hell,” he spits, wrenching you off of him before roughly pulling your head up to meet his lips. The whole act is depraved. He squeezes your jaw open the same way you’d pressed into his earlier, forcing his tongue inside your mouth, tasting the mixture of saliva and his own release with a wretched noise. You match it, sucking on his tongue to take it back before you finally pull away. 

For a few beats, the two of you are just looking at each other, eyes lidded and panting. Somehow, both of you look and feel equally as debauched, lips swollen and red, hands twitching as you reach for each other. Rick’s cock is pressing against the front of your shirt with how you lean up on your knees to hug him, the smallest movement at the aftershock. He’s mumbling soft praises into your hair while you’re doing the same- you think so at least, because you might actually just be humming against the hollow of his neck with how gone you feel at the moment. 

Later, after the both of you have half-heartedly cleaned up the mess between you, Rick kneels beside you next to the coffee table. He’s got you to unwrap the stuffed lamb to teach him how to rewrap the newspaper and twine over it neatly, trying to follow along as you demonstrate it on a smaller throw pillow. It’s decidedly not neat- but Judith won’t give a shit, Rick acquiesces as he ties it up together with a tired laugh. 

“It’s charming,” you insist, nudging him towards the door with the simple task of finding a tree. Plant, Rick will offer instead, but the tiny star ornament he manages to conjure up will be more than enough. 

@ astrolowaters on ao3

[kikiwooo]

Hiiii I saw your hcs and stuff and now I'm hooked as heccc omg T.T I barely find mlbb writers here so you're like a precious gem in this cave of wonder smh 😭💗 I was hoping maybe if you have spare time to write something about my two favorite mage mains..?ouo but even one of them is all goodie! Xavier and Valir are my faves but I barely find any Valir writings or hcs of him so I was hoping maybe an hc list of dating Valir? 👀 Or Xavier like what do you expect being in the same location as them, does Valir give warm hugs during rains or does Xavier always take the lead because he's worried one of Alice's goons will ambush and get you first?👀 I want to knowww aaaa

let me just get back onto writing☝️

notes; gn! reader, valir being a menace

Valir thinks way too highly of himself; believes that he has the power to protect both of you(which he does). For Xavier, he's just another version of Yin. Valir is just too laid-back for his own good, sure he could count on him to protect you but he's not needed when Xavier himself is here, no?

"Come on! You sound just like my teacher!" Valir snorted as he walked beside you, keeping an arm your shoulders after his idea of surfing on fire boards were rejected by Xavier. "At least someone here was willing to hear me out and not outright reject me, right?" Valir furrowed his brows towards you playfully, his gaze gleaming with mischief as Xavier's expression soured even more, he kept his arms crossed over his chest and shook his head with a heavy sigh. "However fun it might sound, it's dangerous."

Valir could make you burn even in the freezing cold weather, his warmth would make you want to push him away. Oh come on now, he's still trying to control his fire around you! So?! It's not his problem that you make his fire burn hotter than it already is.

Xavier has a decent amount of warmth within his body, enough to keep you warm with a blanket over both of you.

Valir would jump at the opportunity to cuddle with you under a blanket in a rainy day, he'd nuzzle into you so closely, it's just aggressive affection he shows. Sometimes gives you quick squeezes which steals your breath away from your lungs.

Xavier would rather to die than admit he likes Valir's warmth when you three cuddle, that fire-wielder would not stop teasing him, poking fun at the mage even when you're in between.

[miss-conner3]

*Rise the hand to do a question*

Excuse me miss, Will your Au be focused especifically after Ando’s arrival or will it touch to like all the game lore and the postgame relations with the emo cat and the bishops?

Also, talking about the swap Au, Andy looks sooo cute. If Ando made something that hurt them, no matter in wich way, then that lamb should be crucified, cooked, and served as lambchops.

That had been the plan.

Originally, the whole story was going to revolve around Ando and his arrival at the cult and how he was going to adapt… but I realized that I also wanted to explore other things besides that.

Like, for example, the process of Ando's resurrection, the aftermath of the descent of the divinity of the lamb, some internal conflicts with Narinder, and something related to the red crown.

I don't know if I'll put the whole story of the game, although most likely I will, since I have something related to one of the bishops, so... we'll see.

Lamb chops XD

Thanks, I'm glad to know that Andy has received a lot of love from everyone besides his pathetic husband (>v<)

Look how happy he looks too hehe

As for your question…

Ando was a quite capable and intelligent bearer of the red crown, being cautious in his every move, as his time as well as the life imposed on him were not things he was willing to waste.

So every decision he made was made in order to increase his strength and power, so that only then could he face Narinder at his maximum capacity.

Unfortunately, this strategy did not take his followers into account.

To Ando, they were people whose lives were placed under his care, and while he did not despise them, he saw them as needy and fickle in their loyalty and faith. So he only focused on fulfilling his role and abiding by whatever their wishes were, whether they were food, shelter, or love.

So because of that way of thinking, Ando ended up making a mistake.

A mistake that Andy never let him forget.

I'm quite tempted to draw the events that led to their tense dynamic, as well as how it also contributed to the ending that Ando imposed on his own world |vO)

Now that I mention it, I could do it.

Anyway.

¡Thanks for asking! (ouo)/

[floweramongstthecold]

Highlight a FFXIV blog which you recommend new community members should follow.

&

Highlight a FFXIV blog from which you are always happy to see a post.

I hope these are better questions! :)

ouo Ooooo I can answer thessee! Okay okay sooo first a blog I think new community members should follow would bbeee

@gatheredfates because she reblogs lots of stuff that could be super useful! And @mirkemenagerie because she ALSO posts lots of useful stuff and does lootttss of analyzes.

Annd for the second onneee! You wanna knooowww who I like seein blog posts from?

My pick is @starrysnowdrop because I LOVE her and Aymeric? I love how she's so open with her LALA being with Aymeric. And did you know, she's inspired a lot of people who ship with Lalas to like... be happy they did it and ignore all the haters? Cauusee... she has. And I love her for that because she did that for me too honestly. XS *stares at my two shipping with talls* Yeeaahh....

ALSO DID YOU KNOW, she has a new sideblog shippin with Zenos? Cause she does... y'all should fuckin... go check that shit out. Give her some love and stuff.

OH WAIT! There's one more who I like seeing posts from. And that's.. @spotofmummery I love... their Amon, so much? I loveee seeing him and Cadu? And the mun is soo niiceee! Y'all should fucking... go check them out too btw

[articskele]

Woe, Pony Town Oncelers be upon ye!! Plus more pony-ified versions with different coat colors ouo

The Onceler always struck me as an earth pony, maybe a mule? I considered giving him longer ears

Both bc of his farming background, in reference to Melvin, and for the idea of making your way to the top through sheer hard work and innovation, not having to rely on any fancy powers!

And he's just so cute- I like how you can see the brown part of his gloves when he lies down ouo

He EEPY, featuring messy wet hair

And the Biggering AU version has his fancy peacock wings!

Biggerler, the man himself! Featuring a little trick that makes it look like he's got those long curly coattails ouo

Also an earth pony! I think the greyscale look really fits him, and that dark marking between his eyes makes him look especially serious

(There is a shark plushie in Pony Town that I would've added in reference to Viktor, but it's one of the Halloween collectables I don't have yet :pensive:)

A note about his neck, you can make things the same color as the in-game grass to create the illusion of it being invisible! So it's like his head is floating ouo

Pony Bitter's got a light green coat with darker ends of his ears, a lighter snout, and mark on his forehead that may or may not be foreshadowing-

And I made him a unicorn! I like the idea that an infected unicorn's magic turns yellow and unstable, so I'm picturing him lashing out at someone and his horn sparks

Which would add extra emphasis to the idea that he's dangerous, and something needs to be done fast.

ROCKYYYYYY- Sporting his skull bandanna and the little star on his goggles and everything! A pegasus this time, since those kinds of classic rock songs tend to use wing imagery

And the markings make him look like a bird ouo

And his second outfit! I looove love love how he goes from a nice blue to this murky blue-green, with the markings turning dull. The fiery wings are a reference to this post!

And lastly, have pony Artic with a little Onceler plushie ouo

[sincerely-sofie]

Sofie's Belated Reactions to Today's Nintendo Direct:

Mario & Luigi: Brothership

I'D KNOW THOSE CRIES OF TERROR ANYWHERE

BEES

LOOK AT MY BOY GO!!!!! YOU MOMENTARILY DEFY THOSE GRAVITIES MAN!!

Wasn't sure about the visuals for the new Mario & Luigi game but they very swiftly grew on me!

ADORABLE CHILD CONNIE I LOVE YOUR HAT

I already love the Extension Corps mini boss squad

"Brothership" is the best title for a Mario & Luigi game oh my word.

(More below the cut!)

Nintendo World Championship: NES Edition

Neato! Nintendo-sanctioned online speedrunning competitions is not something I expected in this Direct, or at all, but I'm happy to see it!

This is reminding me of my goal to speedrun the first Luigi's Mansion game and see what my personal best is... I gotta do that sometime.

Fairy Tale 2

I don't go here but I'm happy for all you Fairy Tale enthusiasts out there!

FANTASIAN: Neo Dimension

WHOA WHOA WHOA did the announcer just say the creator of Final Fantasy created this game??????

I don't go here either but it looks fun!

Nintendo Switch Sports (free update)

MIO: Memories in Orbit

I'm digging the visuals for this!!! Not sure what I'm looking at, but I like it!

OH??????? RAIN WORLD-ESQUE ROBOT CHARACTER????? I'M LISTENING OuO

I absolutely adore this player character design oh my word

THE ENVIRONMENTSSSSSS OH MY GOLLY GEE WILLICKERS

NINTENDO YOU CAN'T JUST SHOW ME THIS TRAILER WITH NO COMMENTARY AND DROP A RELEASE WINDOW WITHOUT ANY FURTHER COMMENT. I NEED TO KNOW MORE.

Disney Illusion Island (free update)

Not many thoughts here other than I absolutely LOVE the pin connecting mini game idea.

Hello Kitty Island Adventure

OH MY GOSH HI HELLO KITTY HIIIIII

There's a Sanrio game with character customization????? EXCUSE ME??????? MY SANRIO-SONA IS PENDING YOU GUYS.

WHERE is Tuxedo Sam. WHERE is My Melody. WHERE are my children.

THERE THEY ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nintendo this can't launch next year, I need it NOW

Looney Tunes: Wacky World of Sports

Oh they had to get people's attention for this with Lola Bunny, huh

The lineart effect being blurred and pixelated in places even in the trailer does not bode well in my eyes (they are the eyes of someone playing Pokemon Scarlet)

It's a fun cartoony idea for a party game though! I like it!

Among Us (free update)

No comment beyond I still have never played a game of Among Us. I don't know if I could survive a public lobby.

Farmagia

OH MY WORRRRRRRRD

Digimon / Pokemon / Harvest Moon / Stardew Valley / Ooblets combo punch of a game I LOVE YOU

WATERING CAN NOSE GUY I LOVE YOU

IT DROPS IN MY BIRTHDAY MONTH GUYS

Donkey Kong Country Returns HD

I'm sorry everyone but I hate monkeys and apes and I don't like Donkey Kong or anything to do with him ;w;

Dragon Quest III HD-2D Remake

INSTANTLY IN LOVE WITH VISUALS FOR THIS. I AUDIBLY GASPED SEEING THEM AND SENT MY BOYFRIEND INTO A FIT OF GIGGLES

In a perfect world, all HD remakes of 2D games would look like this photo-bashing beauty instead of uncute 3D adaptations (side-eyes the Diamond and Pearl remakes)

I think I might enter the series with this game, or maybe 1 or 2 when they launch. I LOVE THE VISUALS.

Funko Fusion

Exclaiming that I hate this game and then listening in shock and horror as my boyfriend tells me there's two or three other Funko Pop games on Switch

Bonding over our shared distaste for Funk Pops with my boyfriend right now. This is true romance.

Luigi's Mansion 2 HD

Seeing the tagline "Spooky, Silly, and Strategic" and PRAYING it's the Luigi's Mansion 2 HD's launch trailer

YEAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH

The New Denpa Men

Got jumpscared by the Denpa Men character and immediately fell in love.

Unironically adore the character design of Denpa Men. I gotta get this thing.

Metal Slug Attack Reloaded

I'd rather play Battle Cats. Sorry guys.

Darkest Dungeon II

I have no words, only polite applause as I wait for the next drop to enthrall me.

Switch Online Expansion Pack

I miss the Four Swords companion manga!!!!! I loved that thing!!!!!!

"AND" says the announcer, followed by a black screen and dead silence, causing me to burst into laughter.

Phantom Brave: The Lost Hero

*gets yeeted offscreen* AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA---

I like the eye designs in this! Very fun!

Marvel VS. Capcom Fighting Collection: Arcade Classics

My dreams of learning a fighting game and getting really good at it... they are returning........ I gotta main Peach on Smash Bros...........

Learning about fighting games and the concept of infinites from my boyfriend and feeling myself wither at the realization it's just a matter of reaching your infinite before your opponent in order to win.

Super Mario Party Jamboree

Boyfriend exclaimed in utter glee when this little guy came on screen and I got to hear about how much he likes them!!!!! My man is adorable!!!!!!!

I gotta get this...... I've never played Mario Party before and I need to main Goomba or Shy Guy.............

Learning about the legacy of Mario Party 4 from Boyfriend and I'm utterly enraptured

The Legend of Zelda: Echoes of Wisdom

THE LEGEND OF LINK EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I finally can play Zelda for the first time since Spirit Tracks!!!! And it'll be for realsies this time!!!!!

I LOVE THIS GUY I LOVE THIS I LOVE THIS GUY I WAS GENUINELY SPEECHLESS WHEN I SAW THIS GUY I LOVE YOU LITTLE GUY I LOVE YOU

I'm playing this game for Tri oh my word. The gameplay mechanics are amazing but Tri is the number one reason I'm gonna play and fall in love with this game

I love how this game is so much more strategic than straight-up combat focused!!!! We're playing Zelda mode lads!!!!

Putting September 26 on my calendar POST-HASTE

Just Dance 2025

Lego Horizon Adventures

Lego adaptation of Playstation and Window exclusive video game supremacy!!!!!

Stray

MY BABY BOYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!! THE KITTY MAN!!!!!!!!

I've already played this but I'm so happy it's getting an adaptation for Switch!

Tales of the Shire

I still need to read Tolkien's works so bad ;w;

Not going to play this most likely, but I enjoy the idea of a cozy LotR game regardless!

Ace Attorney Investigations Collection

*SCREAMS LOUDLY*

YOU CAN SWITCH BETWEEN THE NEW ART AND THE ORIGINAL PIXEL ART???????? I'M SOLD

The Hundred Line - Last Defense Academy

Squinting during the whole trailer while trying to figure out if it's made by the team who made Danganronpa

I WAS RIGHT

Romancing SaGa 2: Revenging of the Seven

Boyfriend and I just share a Look because we're bored

Metroid Prime 4 Beyond

MARBLE TRACK SAMUS GO WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Boyfriend and I are weeping and wailing at how this game looks compared to Scarlet and Violet

Conclusion

TLOZ ECHOES OF WISDOM BEST GAME Y'ALL!!!!!!!!

[clownmoontoon]

RAAAAHHH HELLO ITS BEEN A MINUTE!!! \OUO/

YOUR FAVORITE CLOWN IS BACK IN BUSINESS ive been quiet a while, a LOTS been going on in my personal life that brought my social medias to a complete (and unfortunate ToT) standstill til now!

i rlly wanna talk about it, its been honestly life changing and for safety i need to add some warnings:

cw for abuse both physical and emotional, and suicidal thoughts/ideation (dw im ok and not suicidal! i used to be and i finally have real context as to why)

ANYWAYS LETS TALK ABOUT IT

i got the opportunity to see a therapist for free for the first time since i was a kid and it was IMMENSELY eye opening.

SOME CONTEXT: ive lived with just my mother since i was a teenager as i tried to "make it" as an artist. ive had my ups and downs w this career goal and have been heavy in the midst of a very big Down period. entirely brought on by how sick i was at the start of the year to june (infected lymph nodes, pneumonia, 2 pounds of tumors in my uterus that required the removal of the organ entirely etc, i may have a weak immune system im realizing sdlkjd) which resulted in me having very little energy to create and/or post content. by july i needed to basically start over. which i was excited to do! i WANTED to get back to work and i was even excited for art fight! ;u;

aaaand in july is when my mom thought would be a good time to threaten to kick me out unless i found money to give her or got a "real" job. this came as an extreme and horrifying shock as i had just asked her the month before to "believe in me just a little longer" as i finally felt i realized what id been doing wrong all these years before and felt strongly i could succeed before the end of the year, she not only emphatically agreed but even said i didnt need such a time limit and she definitely didnt mind supporting me til i reached my dream lol i couldnt even do anything until july bc i was busy recovering from major surgery, coming home with tape on my stomach to heal the incision that hadnt fully closed yet

ive wanted to see a therapist for ages bc im Full O' Trauma and i knew it would help. The way this worked was basically like getting a free trial, i got six days of therapy (to be spread out as far as i liked) thru zoom.

i used the visits more for getting advice on how to reach my goals thru mental blocks and exhaustion bc ultimately i felt like 6 days wasnt enough time to get into trauma stuff and i really just wanted to get my career off the ground again, hopefully permanently.

i had vented a tiny bit about my mom and by the final visit w my therapist i decided to forgo the "how to better reach my goals" questions and ask if she had advice on how to handle someone like my mother, who i had to live with and rely on and who would often say something cruel whenever the mood struck. as i told her about my situation she stops me and asks

"do you hear yourself? bc i hear you"

and im suddenly so scared shes going to tell me the same, "get a real job" "stop acting so selfish" etc

instead she says, "this is abuse, youre literally describing an abusive relationship"

i was in complete shock

i even asked her how could i be the one being abused when i was the one using the resources and she compared it to a person getting married to someone rich and that rich person treating them like theyre worthless for not also making money.

it shook me to my core especially bc my mom loved calling me an abuser and comparing me to her abusive ex husbands (one of which used to abuse her physically, punch her/beat her etc) and saying im just like them

for the record ive never laid a hand on her, she would say these things whenever the mood struck, often out of nowhere

once bc i told her i couldnt read her mind and didnt know what she wanted lol wild

ANYWAY after this conversation i started looking back on my life and realizing why ive always felt so worthless, why i thought until my early 20's that suicide would be the best option for everyone. i was so exhausted from chasing this dream and feeling like such a worthless burden, my mother would get so angry with me for just existing and i felt like she would be so much happier if i were out of the picture, my sisters (both a decade older and living w their own families) calling me a leech and selfish for "using" our mother etc

any time i would stand up for myself, kindly and meekly as i could my mother would tell me how she wanted to punch my mouth, slap my face etc for years i thought she'd eventually fly into such a rage one day that she'd kill me and... i honestly didnt really mind the thought once while in high school my mom picked me up for lunch and offered to pay for a prom dress. i told her that it was ok, i knew she was struggling w money rn and i didnt really wanna go to prom anyway she flew into such a rage she pulled over on the highway just to pull my hair and beat me, and then dropped me back at school to finish my day lol

realizing that all of that IS NOT OK OR A NORMAL WAY TO FEEL OR BE TREATED AND I DEFINITELY DIDNT DESERVE ANY OF THAT was extremely eye opening

i told my best friends what my therapist had said and they were both like YEAH... DID YOU NOT KNOW YOU HAD AN ABUSIVE MOTHER??

apparently it was very obvious ^^; my friends were shocked to find that i thought everything was my fault, my therapist even used the term "gaslighting narcissist" to describe her which was WILDLY VALIDATING for me lmao

sitting w all these thoughts whirling around my head my mom texts me suddenly and tells me to ask my sisters for money (13 hundred dollars lol) bc she needs it for "bills"

i didnt want to do that at all she told me to "use my big words" to convince them and not to say it was her idea, but instead to act like i was asking bc i wanted to

it felt gross and made my skin crawl and honestly didnt even make sense bc WHY would i need that money so i asked but let my sisters know it was my mom asking and said she prob felt embarrassed to ask, while telling my mom that i asked in the way she wanted

my oldest sister makes good money and has helped our mom w money in the past. she texted me back asking why our mom needed money and why 1300 and i told her honestly i didnt know, i asked my mom what to say and she said to tell her she had an itemized list but she left it at work and couldnt remember what was on it lol

my sister told me to tell our mom that she couldnt help rn, so i did and my mom encouraged me to push harder to my other sister

suddenly the sister i had been talking to texts me and says that our mom left her a voicemail saying she doesnt know WHY i would ask for money, must be bc she threatened to kick me out bc i never help her with money :,( which was WILD bc any time i had money my mom would get most if not all of it, i havent been able to save money since ... ever tbqh, even when i tried my mom would successfully guilt every dollar from me letting me know i didnt deserve to save a penny after all shes done for me aaAA

ANYWAY i was so angry and hurt that my mom would just throw me under the bus i told my sister i had proof i wasnt lying (bc she was already inclined to believe our mother since they both considered me a leech to start with) and sent her screenshots of my texts

she was shocked and hurt too i decided to tell her about my therapy and how my therapist had called our mom an abuser and she answered that she understands more than ill ever know... which is very sad hjghfgf

we havent really talked more since and i deleted my texts to the other sister, more likely than not my mom sent her a similar voicemail

im very tired

i want to get out of here, im finally seeing this relationship for what its been for years and years, even back to when i was a little kid! i didnt know about suicide but id dream of being an animal in the wild bc i felt like if i were just out of the picture everyone at home would be less angry

its something that enrages me now tbqh ive tried all my life to be as little of a burden as possible and now im ready to be a problem LMAO :o)

the long and short of it is that i will be posting art sales and opening my patreon FINALLY to try and save up funds to get out of here ive also gotten a part time job on weekends for a little cushion tho some of that money will inevitably go to my mother, unfortunately

she doesnt know about the money i make online :o)

my family has constantly called me selfish, entitled and spoiled for just asking for common decency and to be treated like a person, theyve dehumanized me to the point that my greatest coping mechanism was creating a creature sona that isnt human but a monstrous equivalent lol AND I LOVE THEM IM EMBRACING CREATURE LETS FUCKIN GO

i know this has been long and if youve made it to the end i love u and im so thankful for your support!! ;u;

FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT!! i want to come back full force, i havent stopped drawing at all, just havent had the energy to do much til now

my therapist even pointed out that i probably WOULDVE had at least moderate steady success by now if it werent for my mom's constant abuse

OH ALSO I NOW HAVE FOUR CATS LMAO a stray i had been giving water to and keeping safe from weather things (extreme heat, extreme cold etc) had her kittens here! and my mom gave me the ok to keep them all ;u; (and then ofc rescinded that but thats hardly a surprise now lol) and man, having kids cats sure changes your perspective on what u want and feel like you deserve! I NEED TO DO WELL BC THESE KITTIES DEPEND ON ME AND I LOVE THEM QVQ <3<3

SO YEAH IM BACK BABY IM GETTING THE HELL OUTTA HERE ASAP AND CONCENTRATING ON MY WELL BEING AND MENTAL HEALTH!! 😤🔥

[jaywhere]

going to reflect EXTREMELY briefly on the fact that's like. listen. i was in bts fandom for probably about 5 years. i watched the fandom get weirdly obsessed with boypussy fic (and to be clear i will defend the genre In Conception: it is nice to be able to write fic about trans people without the emotional and social burden of transness, trans bodies can be acknowledged as hot without social context, it Has Its Place and i am not scorched earth on the Concept)

but like. boypussy fic got popular in bts fandom because the fandom was incredibly transphobic (kpop fandom in general was incredibly transphobic) and cis authors really liked to fetishize transmasc bodies, narratively treat bp characters like they are women, and then turn around and harass actual trans people for writing genderbends, insist that being trans is a mental illness, and scream cry throw up when trans folks didn't let cis authors cry plagiarism about their extremely basic ideas about trans experiences (all real things that happened to me and literally just the tip of the iceberg). huge portion of the bp fic was literally just treating the character narratively like a woman down to the Pet Names and just using he/him pronouns for the character.

and my alcoholic ex used to get blackout drunk on video call and go on about how my "boypussy" is hot literally so many times after i told them i didn't like that and it didn't make me feel good about myself. just like in the fic!!! :) :) :) :) and then (sober) treat their afab femme presenting non-transitioning journey like it was worse than whatever i went through, my fucking texas ass transitioned in grad school with not a single trans elder got discriminated against nearly wasn't able to work bc the ssa wouldn't fucking change my name literally still constantly terrified of being outed bc i could lose my fucking job paid 12k for top surgery and another couple thousand for the physical therapy for my fucking t4 syndrome i got from binding for 12 hours a day 5 days a week bc my grad program sent me to intern in COW COUNTRY GET SHOT COUNTRY thinking I DIDN'T FUCKING PASS literally couldn't even write fanfiction without someone telling me i am MENTALLY ILL for being trans why do you have a problem with being mentally ill it's not a bad thing. all while they were FETISHIZING ME against my EXPRESS WISHES

in retrospect genuinely traumatic. therapist is like you have internalized transphobia. no shit.

going through my old ao3 comments and it's so fucking bad

[kushami-hime]

CW: H/otwings shipping fuel, D/abi being smug, sneezing, sniffling, allergy fit, slightly stuffy talk, allergy talk, wet & slightly rapid sneezes, stifles & half stifles.

D/abi can't help but notice that something is off about the Number 2 hero. He's sniffling, sneezing, and looking like more of a mess than usual. Maybe it's time he earned himself a bit of entertainment. Even villains need to have a bit of fun every once in a while, right?

Here we are guys...first real h/otwings wav. First attempts at both D/abi and H/awks and...erm, well...it could be better ouo; I know I have a habit of being too hard on myself but ffs I did so well with the test sneezes but when it came time to do the actual wav they did not hit as well as I was hoping.

I do have two other H/awks wav scripts in my drive (one w/ snzfucker listener and another with cold denial involving E/ndeavor who I know I can't voice act for shit unless if I pitch shift my voice into the core of the planet but the script was fun to write). So if for some reason anybody wants to actually hear more of my H/awks, lemme know. And that goes for D/abi too, but idk what his snz will sound like @u@

I'll be doing some comfort wavs and idk if you guys would prefer them to be sick! listener or not so lemme know about that as well.

Anyway, enjoy lovelies! <3

Characters are canonically in their 20s (H/awks at 22 and Dabi between 20 & 25) so you butthurt anons can't get pissy at me for making kink content THIS time around, muahaha.

As always MINORS DNI. VANILLAS DO NOT REBLOG!