#i laughed so hard at the og post man its so FUCKING funny

[tekitothemagpie]

Gyatt....

Inspired by this post of @vivamight ! It was absolutely hilarious, I had to draw it :>

And an additional scene from the comments! (thanks to @bread-is-my-life for reminding me about this post, I had fun drawing this)

[anxiousanteaterr]

I finished Coromon again and the newer story overall was worth the replay. The more noticable differences show up a bit later on, and there's a LOT more visual improvements than I remember. I dont know if i like the newer story better tho. I also have some huge gripes w the villains, and apparently the main gripe stems from FALSE memories from the original story? I watched some playthrus of the old story to see the differences and theres whole ass scenes that I remember experiencing that just DID NOT happen??? 😭 Like idk if the devs did some smaller story updates between then and what I played or WHAT, but I have a memory of the titans of Velua talking w the Crimsonite titan down in the core of the planet and being like "why are you trying to take over our planet? why didnt u just ask to join us or ask for help?" (i distinctly remember a line from one of the titans saying "WHY didnt you just ASK us?" bc i thought it was so fucking funny) and I thought that they chose to let that new titan stay and the seven of them would work together. Not just killing 6v1 killing the fucker.

In the new story the Crimsonite titan doesnt even seem to EXIST as the Wubbonians exclusively just use the Crimsonite on their own and the only mention of a titan is some human npcs theorizing that there COULD be other titans for new elements. Chalchiu and her brothers are just like "ok girlies, time to wipe clean this world of every ounce of this Crimsonite shit. eradicate with EXTREME prejudice ♥️" and they just rebuild the whole ass world. Like HUH? What abt the Wubbonians? Your character even asks Chalchiu abt them and if they'll be ok w/out being exposed to their element and she's basically like "lmao too bad. not our worlds problem". like YEAH i GUESS thats true, but cmon man 😭 The Wubbonians in the new story dont even mention ANYTHING abt their home planet either. No Wubbonia. No Great Cataclym. Nothing. Its like the story took a hard pivot from "these aliens are looking for a new home and are trying to claim this one bc they and their titan are desperate and not thinking very rationally or ethically abt it" to "yeah these guys r just pure evil now and are here for galactic conquest" or sm and then at the very end and post game u get some hints that MAYBE something else is going on.

Epescially now that the devs changed it from "dark magic" to an actual element called "Crimsonite", it makes even MORE sense to follow the story where the Wubbonians are just a people who are desperately searching for a new home because their home world is either in or rapidly approaching an apocalypse. And how maybe out of the desperation for survival, their titan poured all of its stat points into charisma in order to persuade and brainwash everyone and everything it can.

Also i lowkey kinda liked how the Wubbonians in the og story like... didnt really do anything? I liked how they didnt even try to stop you in Ixqun. You expected a huge fight and they just... stand there. Point and laugh at you. Theyre far too busy staring at Crimsonite rocks and daydreaming abt how they won and that they finally saved their world. Standing there watching their titan do all the work, and subsequently get their ass kicked and STILL do nothing. Like yes kings, go, give us nothing. Just like how your titan gives up and accepts death immediately after being defeated.

[zannadu]

Now nobody asked for this but I’m going to do it anyway.

Includes: Katsuki Bakugou, Eijiro Kirishima, Denki Kaminari, Hanta Sero, and Mina Ashido

Warnings: fluff, mentions of sex, mentions of oral sex, kissing, and just dumb funny shit

MHA as Stoners

Katsuki Bakugou

It varies how fast he gets high, but his favorite way to smoke is with a simple joint

Okay this man will refuse to do any at first

But eventually will give in after the rest of the Bakusquad convinces him

(Though he will say “whatever I’ll do it”)

After the first smoke sesh with the squad he began to enjoy it more so he now does it more often.

If you are with him, he will either have a hard time being around her or will want to be next to you the whole time.

If you hold him he will act nonchalant but inside he will be exploding (no pun intended)

He will do his best to cuddle without making you uncomfortable.

He will get the munchies bad and insist you come with him to get more snacks every thirty minutes

He is much more open with his feelings and willing to talk more without yelling

He calms down a lot

He will show much more affection to you around people than he normally does.

Cuddling, kissing, squeezing, biting the whole PDA shabang.

He will not give two shits what everyone else thinks.

And when he finally has you alone, that’s when it gets a little hot and heavy. 👀

And he doesn’t even mean to.

Not that you’re complaining. ✌️

—————————————

Katsuki’s hands snaked their way around your waist and his face found a home in the crook of your neck.

“You know, if you want to cuddle, you could just say so,” you stated, resting your hand on his locked arms. He let out a soft groan against your skin. His breathing was slow and his eyes foggy. He squeezed you tighter and moved his hands to intertwine them with yours. His heavy eyes looked up and around the room meeting with everyone else’s eyes.

“You're touchy tonight,” Sero snickered, taking another hit off the joint that currently sat, squished in between his fingers.

Katsuki did nothing but roll his eyes and squeezed your fingers. He placed his mouth closer to your ear, his breath just tickling your ear lobe. Suddenly his teeth began to nibble on your ear, sending shivers down your arms, evident with the goosebumps now arise on your delicate skin.

“What do you say that we go to my room, I want you, ” his voice was low and husky. His fingers released from yours and fiddled the hem of your clothing and caressed your soft skin. His teeth began to but harder, causing you to gasp. He then continued to nibble slowly moving to your neck. How could you say no?

Eijiro Kirishima

It doesn't take very much to get him high so his favorite way to smoke is with a dab pen

Now usually this baby boy is sweet and manly

But when he's been smoking he gets VERY hungry

Like he will eat the entire kitchen.

He will space out a lot but will still listen to you if you're trying to talk to him

(or he will try to)

“Wait, what did you say?”

He isn't afraid of PDA either however he will wait till he's in private with you.

(as he should, he's respectful)

You might need to help him to his room

And try not to let him hug you until you're in bed because he will NOT let go until morning.

He is very sentimental and will give the BEST advice

“Babe, will you come to get food with me please🥺?”

“Kiri, you have a whole pint of ice cream, three bags of chips, AND meat buns. You don't need anything else😂”

He would pout omg.

He would fall asleep if you play with his hair in an instant

—————————————

Kirishima laid in your lap, and you picked up each piece of his hair and gently let it fall. He had showered and decided on no gel, therefore his hair is silky soft.

“Babe, why did you let me eat so much?” he groaned looking up at you. All you could do was laugh, being high just made everything funnier. He began to pout which ceased your laughter.

“I tried to stop you, but you wouldn't listen, ” you almost began to laugh again. He groaned and held his stomach.

“Next time, don't let me eat so much, ” he squeezed his eyes so much. You continued playing with his hair and smiled at the tired boy.

His eyes began to close and he looked up at you and soon he was out cold.

Denki Kaminari

His favorite way to smoke it with a pipe. Just makes him feel cool and the glass is trippy

Denki is usually very goofy and doesn't take things seriously, but when he's high he gets very philosophical

Like this man will talk about how space is so big and how a fish finds its way home.

Anything that will make you question your existence

He won't even realize what he's talking about until he looks at the rest of the group who is just starting wide-eyed and thinking about their whole existence on earth.

For some reason, he seems smarter than he lets people believe.

If he's with you he will be resting his head in your lap

He will have deep conversations sigh you

He will unknowingly rub small circles on your thighs while he's lost in thought💕

Continues to pick on Bakugou and how he's much different stoned

Usually wants alone time with you afterward, he feels safer when you sleep with him

He likes to be the little spoon

—————————————

Denki sat on the bed and leaned against the wall. His eyes studied the ceiling, his mouth slightly agape in a soft smile as he got even more lost in his thoughts. His eyes were almost entirely closed. The hushed murders from the other teens seemed to entirely disappear. The soft music that was also playing just took his mind further into the abyss.

“Hey do you guys think it's crazy that one muscle in your body is the reason you are alive, and if it just decides to quit one day you will just topple over and die?” Denki continued to stare up at the ceiling. The entire room went silent, the only noise was the light music.

“Dude what the fuck, ” sero looked at home from down on the floor. Denki shifted his head to look at the rest of the gang who were all just staring at him.

“What, I'm just saying, ” he shrugged his shoulders. You just looked at him and laughed. That was the most random thing to say and he probably would do it again soon.

“C’mon baby let's get you to bed, ” you grabbed his hand and went out of the room making sure to say goodnight to everyone. One thing was for sure, Denki could not WAIT to be cuddled.

Sero Hanta

This man's the og stoner and will hit a bong over everything else.

When Sero is stoned he makes sure everyone else is having fun

He makes sure everyone is comfortable with what they are doing

If someone doesn't know how to do something, like hit a bong, he will gladly show them

He is a weed mom

The best kind of mom honestly

If someone is paranoid or worried about an adult finding out or getting in trouble, he will try his darn hardest to calm them down

Has the necessities

Carries gum, eye drops, perfume or cologne on him at all times.

Has a pipe on him always

Provides the goods 🌿

Now let me tell you, this man gets HELLA horny when he's stoned

If everyone is settled in and comfortable he will turn his attention to you.

He doesn't even hide it.

“Mi amor, you look beautiful right now”

He will make you so flustered you will have to leave the room.

—————————————

“Sero, what are you doing?” you ask as me scoots over to you across the floor. You can't help but laugh. The cheesy grin on his face was everything at the moment. It seemed like you were the only two in the room.

“Just coming over to check on you, mi amor, ”he purred as he placed his finger under your chin to make you look into his eyes. His eyelids were heavy, the red tint covered by a foggy gloss, just made him that much hotter. He blinked slowly and began to inch closer to your lips.

“Sero, ” you breathed out right before gently placed his lips on yours, moving to pull your body impossibly closer to his. His lips worked over yours as you found your rhythm. He pulled away looking up at your eyes from your lips.

He leaned forward again, this time next to your ear so no one else could hear but you.

“I can't wait till everyone leaves so I can finally find out how good you taste.”

Mina Ashido

This girl's favorite way to smoke is a simple joint

She is great at rolling

(cuz she's good with her fingers if you know what I mean)

She is definitely in charge of the music and the vibes it puts off

But will also try and get everyone to go out and do stuff like getting food or to annoy Aizawa.

She also is the person laughing the most

She will laugh at literally anything

Kirishima making jokes about food or how hungry he is, Denki just acting dumb, or getting a rise outta Bakugou, whatever it is she will be laughing

This girl is part of the alphabet mafia and you can't change my mind🏳️‍🌈

Now she's is a cutie when it comes to relationships

She won't act inappropriately in front of everyone else out of respect for you

However, when she gets you alone that's a whole other story

—————————————

“C’mon y/n, let's go to my room. I have something to show you, ” Mina smirked at you and squeezed your hand in hers. You had no other choice to follow her as you were already headed out of Sero’s room and straight to her room. You didn't even get a chance to say goodbye to everyone.

You finally made it to her room and she closed the door behind you.

“What did you want to show me?” you asked sitting on her bed. You look around the very pink room and back to her standing in front of you. Mina looked you up and down and reached out to grab your cheeks gently with her hands. She leaned down and kissed you gently, working for her hands down to the hem of your shirt, eager to get it off. Her eyes glazed over and watched your every movement as you striped your clothes. Her fingers grazed over the sides of your arms and you went back in for a kiss. She pushed you farther back onto the bed, straddling her legs around your waist.

“This is going to be fun, ” she said breathlessly and pulled you in yet again for another lustful kiss.

Asks are open!!! This is my first official post on here, advice would be fantastic, or if you have any ideas that would be awesome! Thank you for reading😁❤️

[majimemegoro]

posted for @space-gayzer. this is the bit known as Og Okudera’s Rant from my Okudera and Sato WIP Banji’s Scroll. the rant sums up pretty much almost everything you need to know about his character (according to my interpretation). majima is the only other character I write who gets dialogue paragraphs anywhere NEAR this long, and only when he’s really at the breaking point. og okudera, meanwhile....

its an important bit but. you know what. alea iacta est or whatever

With a heavy sigh, Okudera folded up the packaging of his rations and stowed it away. He leaned back and looked up at the sky.

Sato watched him looking.

“Ah, Sato. I never thought I’d be back here. Funny how life works out, isn’t it?”

And Sato could have fulfilled his contract months ago. Yet here he was. “Sure is,” he grunted, scuffing a foot in the dead leaves and new grass.

“You probably don’t get it, but my whole life—I’ve always—I just want to do what I want. It isn’t enough. I left my village because I wanted—because I wanted,” Okudera said. “Anything. Everything. Anything other than—than trees and hunting and shitty radio reception. You couldn’t even—you couldn’t even fuck the local girls because it was such a tight-knit community, it would have been a huge deal, you know? It would have caused problems. You had to get married and fuck just one girl and eat the same food day after day after day after day. And I was—I would have died. From that. I wanted—I wanted the lights, and the noises, the gambling, the booze, the—the—” He gestured in the air. “The cars. The women. Sushi.” He wet his lips.

“Do you ever think about the miracle of corner stores, Sato? That if you run out of smokes you can grab a pack without stealing them from your old man? That you can be out at 3 a.m., and already strung out of your mind, and be able to buy like fifteen different kinds of booze, if you wanted to? Liquor? Wine coolers? And pre-made onigiri? And jagariko in a dozen flavours? Or that you can finish eating one kind of food in one restaurant, like, a good ramen or something, and then go right into another restaurant and stuff your face with another kind of food? You ever think about what kind of miracle that is?”

Sato didn’t. He had always been a creature of rhythm, and mostly unimpressed by variety. He made his own onigiri, the same kind for a whole week and then a different kind the next week, and ate at the same few restaurants for dinner. But Okudera was right, that all of those things he was describing were an unimaginable luxury. An unimaginable everyday luxury.

“And everything is something you do because you want to, in the city. No—you don’t have to trudge around in the snow for ages to get anywhere, you can call a taxi if you want. Or you can go to the gym and pump iron for six hours straight, and then eat street food and get drunk. Or you can get drunk first! You can just do whatever you want! And there’s so much of it, Sato! There’s so much of it! And people will try to convince you of things, but you’re never forced—I mean, a barker enticing you into a casino isn’t forcing you to do anything! The smell of karaage coming out of a restaurant isn’t forcing you to come in and eat three orders of it, but you can if you want to! And—and—you can go to the movie theatre and they’re playing so many different movies, and they aren’t censored, and they have even more in a video rental store, even dirty videos. You can go in a hostess club, and have an adorable girl hanging on your every word, and you can pay them for a second hostess to hang on your every word at the same time! And this one is a total vamp or something! You can go to ten different titty bars and see hundreds of different tits! And if you go to some soaplands, they don’t only have girls, there’s also—”

“I think I get the idea,” Sato murmured. “You’re lucky you didn’t catch VD.”

Okudera laughed. “I did gain 15 kilos in 4 months. And I got in debt. And I got in with a bad crowd. I used to black out for days at a time, and people would tell me what I did afterward, and it was—” He laughed again, and shook his head, and didn’t finish the sentence.

They sat in silence for a minute. Birds sang overhead.

“Well… maybe this is what I get,” Okudera said, somewhat subdued. “For trying so hard. For living so… much.”

“What, you think you’re cursed or something?” Sato scoffed.

“Ha, no, nothing like that! Well, maybe. I mean, all I ever wanted was to get away from the mountain so I could live it up and do crazy shit, whatever I wanted. But still I ended up having to hide out up here. Fucked up, no? Sato?”

“Should have thought of that before screwing over your boss,” Sato said, lips tight. He gripped his knees. 

[godblessthecactusess]

hola - welcome to another reaction post

Agents of SHIELD - s7ep11: Brand New Day (WARNING – SPOILERS (obviously))

-          So straight off the bat, reading the tagline, looks fun - “(in order to win against Sibyl/Nathaniel) they’ll have to get creative, and maybe even a little out of this world.” Intriguing. Looks like we could be in for some fun stuff this episode, but I’m really wondering how we’re going to turn this all around in just three episodes (counting the finale as two), so I’m guessing there’s gonna be a big thing to happen that’s gonna end it all. Like, someone’s gonna die, I’m just gonna say it, it’s gotta happen?

-          Also, because I can’t restrain myself, I have been on Tumblr and Twitter today, and I haven’t actively stopped to read what I’ve seen, but because I am rubbish at avoiding it, I have figured out that we’ve got some flashbacks this episode, which appear to have Fitz in them??? I bloody hope so gosh.

-          Right, I’m gonna start it. Deep breaths.

-          Recap, okay.

-          RIP Jiaying.

-          Deke is so oblivious but I still love him and wish that Daisy and Deke had been a thing.

-          Daisy’s been crying nooo

-          So they lost the Zephyr. (And what’s left of the Fitzsimmons fam)

-          They went to space??

-          Daisy’s gonna fight this bitch. (I know I’ve seen it already in clips but still).

-          I’m discovering it’s really hard  to type and pay attention.

-          “I wanna be an agent of SHIELD” 1. I mean, that’s the show but 2. She says with the face of “but like actually don’t trust me look at my evil grin mwhahahaha”

-          Space woowww

-          How do all these randos know how to fly the Zephyr??

-          Did Deke just make a Die Hard reference? (rhetorical, yes he did); I mean I haven’t seen the entirety of Die Hard, but I watched bits last Christmas and I’ve also watched enough B99.

-          …Motherfucker. (again actually something I learned from B99, not Die Hard)

-          Aw Mackelena babysitting

-          Proof?

-          Oh so the team’s finally learning what we learned about time in Endgame.

-          “A Brand New Day” got it

-          Bro I was gonna say that (about it’s basically Project Insight) but he said it better cos he’s Coulson and he’s cooler.

-          “My sister” look at these two

-          Ha lies I bet she’s fucking lying

-          “Sibyl said” the new version of Simon Says

-          Hold up did she just give her the keys?

-          DON’T MAKE ME WATCH THIS AGAIN

-          IT’S A FITZSIMMONS BEST BITS

-          And I’m going to cry

-          DON’T hit my BABY

-          Elizabeth’s eyebrows are to die for

-          WHAT DID THEY DO TO DEKE NO

-          Where’s she going huh

-          Look Sousa put suspenders on

-          Are they his battle suspenders

-          Cos that’s the cutest thing ever

-          I love him

-          “I ALREADY HAVE A SISTER TO SAVE HER NAME IS JEMMA SIMMONS” OMG

-          Science Daisy

-          So she’s really never flown a quinjet huh

-          “It’s your last chance to stay behind” *assertively puts on seatbelt”

-          That moment when you don’t know if it’s a cut to the next scene or Mack’s caught them

-          No wait he’s got his shotgun axe. Bitch ready to go yes.

-          Oh wait he’s telling her off.

-          No he’s agreeing.

-          Omg yes Mack

-          Where does all that water go – I’m assuming there’s a drainage system?

-          So they left Mum and Dad behind rip

-          Is Kora just in the background reading a book.

-          Protective Nana Jemma

-          Nate you never cared about ‘your old man’.

-          Sousa just leaves his seat

       It’s a nice parallel to Goose in Captain Marvel

-          They have an auto-grav setting? But like, the quinjet isn’t made for space.

-          Daisy, ever the optimistic.

-          Mmmmmmspace

-          Oooof pulling the Bahrain card.

-          If May hadn’t done it, she wouldn’t have had a cool backstory, so put that in your pipe and smoke it Kora

-          Mmmmmcreepy messages through a virus in 1980s aesthetic. What a…. well… aesthetic.

-          Sassy Coulson back at it again.

-          I mean you are a fucking robot can’t you just plug yourself in or some shit; I’M NOT VERY SCIENCY OKAY

-          Oh great another “last mission” convo

-          Sounds like you will.

-          Thanks I’m crying

-          Oh wait he doesn’t remember the kiss I forgot that, shit.

-          Can’t just break a fucking window Nate, you’re gonna have to pay for that. Like literally with your own money, please and thanks, I don’t think the team brought any money with them.

-          Ooh love a good Coulson talk.

-          Honestly where would the team be without May? Dead, I think.

-          Burnt toast.

-          Did she just say Grant Ward.

-          Yes she did.

-          Ward would have been worse without Garrett? Uh I think not, not if someone had just called Child Services, and gotten him some fucking therapy.

-          “What are your intentions with Daisy?” Dad Mack coming through, “no funny business” and all that.

-          “I don’t have any intentions.” WHAT A LIE DANIEL HAHAHAHAHA YOU CRADLED HER HEAD ON YOUR LAP WHEN SHE WAS INJURED, YOU CARRIED HER BRIDAL STYLE OUT OF THAT BARN, YOU WERE GIVEN THE OPPORTUNITY TO LEAVE THIS WHOLE MESS, BUT LOOKED RIGHT AT A SLEEPING, RECOVERING DAISY AND SAID “IM RIGHT WHERE I NEED TO BE”, YOU SAT AND NAPPED IN A CHAIR BY HER BEDSIDE THE ENTIRE TIME, YOU DIDN’T SAY NO WHEN SHE KISSED YOU, SO EXCUSE ME MISTER “NO INTENTIONS” BUT I THINK YOU MIGHT BE WRONG

-          “Well then you better get some” omg we stan mack even though his voice is so deep I often miss what he says

-          “omg shes like so into you gurl” is basically what I just heard. (picture 2000s american teenage girl, phone pressed to ear, chewing gum really loudly etc.)

-          “sir” HES SO POLITE

-          I’m loving this chat and its so true, every single one of them would massacre Sousa if he hurt Daisy.

-          “just like a damn comic book” ahaha haha…. ha. yep.

-          But I do love a good comic book joke in the show.

-          Wasn’t it in like s4, and Coulson said something about Daisy being Director and she was like “ha yeah maybe in the comic book version”? idk man im rewatching SHIELD because I have the worst memory but that was funny too

-          These two’s eyebrows in this scene god.

-          Honestly if you get the chance to rewatch this scene just watch Mack and Sousa’s eyebrows as they turn to look at each other it’s adorable.

-          Alright Sousa no need to be so mean I think it’s a great name.

-          These two giggling together omg the one things I didn’t know I needed.

-          19th century definitely was.

-          FINALLY SOME NEW FITZ AT LAST

-          “can you give us a moment” “yes” “…..oh”

-          What are you suggesting fitz my darling

-          …sooooooooooo….

-          Some time to have a kid maybe.. idk… grow old together…

-          What bloodwork? Did I miss a thing?

-          Snuggling Fitzsimmons ahhhhh

-          I didn’t think Kora would be so sad omg. Now I feel bad for her shit it wasn’t meant to be this way, I-

-          Fitz looks so different omg

-          Omg Fitz grabbing onto her and hugging im soft omg what a beautiful trope

-          WHO’S FITZ WTF OMG NO FUCK SHIT CRAP AHHHHHHHH

-          A kickass fight scene nice

-          Uh oh

-          Nice one May

-          “Sunshine” what an asshole

-          They’re gonna decimate everything wtf

-          Wasn’t there all those ships in the trailer

-          “quake”

-          Look at these cuties

-          Thanos could turn you to dust too.

-          SORRY too soon

-          Uhhhhhhhhhh what the fuck is happening

-          They’re just wiping out shield

-          Rip the Triskelion

-          DON’T YOU TOUCH HER LIKE THAT oh look now I’m being protective wtf is happening to me

-          Urgh absolutely disgusting

-          Well shit

  Uhhhhhhh so this is problematic. I mean, by all accounts, they could just leave this timeline and go back to the OG one. I mean, there’s a canon timeline where Steve learns early that Bucky is alive, Loki has the Tesseract and Steve just told a elevator full of Hydra agents “Hail Hydra” (so a highly chaotic timeline, that the avengers just left) so they could just leave but like, that’s unethical, i guess???? Oh well.

  Let’s go have a look at the new trailer for the FINALE!! ARGH omg its all ending and I’m sad

  WELL im going to cry aren’t I? ffs

Daisy’s accepting that this is their last mission.

“This is what we were fighting for.” Which issss….? 

It really is the end, huh.

The finale will make me cry. There’s not many SHIELD episodes that have made me do that. I think the one that made me cry the most was the spy’s goodbye. And I seem to remember crying when Fitzsimmons were at the bottom of the ocean,  and then laughing through my sobs bc the shot of Fury coming down from the helicopter, arm outstretched like Jesus was the most hilarious thing I had ever seen; but other than that? Not many. 

I’m excited and terrified at the same time. I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF. HELP.

[luvuwite]

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IF YOU THINK IM ACTUALLY GONNA ANSWER ALL 100 OF THEM

youre right

long post warning AHIOQWR

The meaning behind my url: 

luvuwite? nothin’ actually, its just a purple stone!!

A picture of me:

no

How many tattoos i have and what they are:

dont have any Last time i cried and why:

yesterday i believe and personal Piercings i have:

earrings, 2 Favorite band:

i have way too many favorites, so ill do the one im currently listening to: Purity Ring

Biggest turn offs:

what Top 5 (foods):

soup, dumplings, pizza, lasagna, ‘n soup  Tattoos i want:

none Biggest turn ons:

i said stup Age:

14 turning 15 in 2 months Ideas of a perfect date:

soup Life goal:

to make my own video game or animation Piercings i want:

cartilage piercing Relationship status:

singl like a pringl Favorite movie:

ponyo A fact about my life:

i live in a house Phobia:

dont think i have one Middle name:

personal Height:

4′11 Are you a virgin?

stup What’s your shoe size?

uhhh 6 something or 5 in womans i think i dont remember What’s your sexual orientation?

man and waman Do you smoke, drink, or take any drugs?

no Someone you miss:

hM maybe this one chick i met in 7th grade named Sam What’s one thing you regret?

being 13

First celebrity you think of when someone says attractive:

justin bieber Favorite ice cream?

chocolate or oreo One insecurity:

voice What my last text message says:

marsh: SHE RA AT 3AM WATCH ME CRYING

me: OH MY GOD WAIT WHAT SPAMS NETFLIX Have you ever taken a picture naked?

what the fuck no Have you ever painted your room?

yes when i was 11 or 10 its blue and yellow Have you ever kissed a member of the same sex?

never kissed someone b4 Have you ever slept naked?

yes Have you ever danced in front of your mirror?

no Have you ever had a crush?

yes Have you ever been dumped?

no Have you ever stole money from a friend?

no Have you ever gotten in a car with people you just met?

no Have you ever been in a fist fight?

no Have you ever snuck out of your house?

no(?) Have you ever had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back?

no(?) Have you ever been arrested?

no Have you ever made out with a stranger?

no Have you ever met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere?

no Have you ever left your house without telling your parents?

yes Have you ever had a crush on your neighbor?

no Have you ever ditched school to do something more fun?

yes, go to sixflags with my mom fuck you mid school Have you ever slept in a bed with a member of the same sex?

yes, sleepover with my OG gang Have you ever seen someone die?

no Have you ever been on a plane?

yes Have you ever kissed a picture?

no Have you ever slept in until 3?

yes Have you ever loved someone or miss someone right now?

yes after that one question Have you ever laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?

once Have you ever made a snow angel?

yes Have you ever played dress up?

yes Have you ever cheated while playing a game?

yes Have you ever been lonely?

yes Have you ever fallen asleep at work/school?

yes and got sleep paralysis from it funny story Have you ever been to a club?

no Have you ever felt an earthquake?

no Have you ever touched a snake?

no Have you ever ran a red light?

no Have you ever been suspended from school?

no Have you ever had detention?

no Have you ever been in a car accident?

witnessed one Have you ever hated the way you look?

yes Have you ever witnessed a crime?

ive done the crime yes Have you ever pole danced?

no Have you ever been lost?

yes in market basket that one time funny story Have you ever been to the opposite side of the country?

no Have you ever felt like dying?

when i broke my arm in 5th grade yes Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?

yes Have you ever sang karaoke?

yes and never again Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t?

oh yes Have you ever laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?

yes in 2nd-3rd grade where they were telling a joke and i tried to hold it in and it came pouring out Have you ever slept with someone at least 5 years older or younger?

uhh with my mom Have you ever kissed in the rain?

no Have you ever sang in the shower?

yes Have you ever made out in a park?

no Have you ever dream that you married someone? yes Have you ever glued your hand to something?

no Have you ever got your tongue stuck to a flag pole?

once Have you ever gone to school partially naked?

no Have you ever been a cheerleader?

no Have you ever sat on a roof top?

yes Have you ever brushed your teeth?

everyday every morning if you dont youre gross Have you ever been too scared to watch scary movies alone?

yes Have you ever played chicken?

whats that Have you ever been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?

no Have you ever been told you’re hot by a complete stranger?

yes Have you ever broken a bone?

yes Have you ever been easily amused?

i laugh at everything so yes Have you ever laughed so hard you cried?

yes Have you ever mooned/flashed someone?

whats that Have you ever cheated on a test?

yes Have you ever forgotten someone’s name?

yes Have you ever met someone who didn’t seem real?

yes Give us one thing about you that no one knows.

i used to play mlp games on roblox

[blurglesmurfklaine]

Answer the prime numbered questions for the writers' ask meme!

Bold of you to assume I remember enough from math class in high school to know which numbers are prime EDIT: THERE ARE A LOT MORE PRIME NUMBERS THAN I THOUGHT THERE WERE (yes I had to google it I am not a Designated Math Gay)

1. Tell us about your WIP!

I’m currently posting Here We Go Again, which is the sequel to There From The Start where Blaine is the 12th member of the OG New Directions in season one! It’s actually a fic I didn’t realize would end up being so close to my heart but like I finished it the other day and big oof I was a sad girl.

2. Where is your favorite place to write?

Since covid? My room lol

3. What is your favorite/least favorite part about writing?

My favorite part is coming up with the emotional scenes which usually just come to me in the form of dialogue! I’m a total slut for drama or the result of emotional buildup

My LEAST fave part is like... coming up with a story that makes fucking *sense* around those bits lmaooooooo

5. Top five formative books?

(I’m gonna include fic in this)

All the other ghosts

LITTLE NUMBERS CHANGED MY LIFE OKAY

The Percy Jackson and the Olympians series

Perfect Chemistry which was just this trashy romance/drama novel (or maybe it wasn’t that trashy and I’ve been conditioned to think romance novels are trashy bc they focus on women) that got passed around in eighth grade and DEFINITELY started my addiction to love stories

Change of Heart by Jodi Picoult. I think this is one of my favorite books of all time. It’s so fucking beautiful and heartbreaking and I think I need to give it a re read tbh

7. Favorite/most inspirational book?

Oof this is so fucking hard. I’m not gonna say change of heart just bc I already used that one, so... Sing You Home also by Jodi Picoult just... fucks me right up man. And it’s gay. AND ITS GAY WITH A HAPPY ENDING. AND ITS NOT FIC CAN U BELIEVE?

11. What are you planning to work on next?

I’m kind of nervous about my next project actually, because it’s not a type of story I’ve ever tackled before and idek how to summarize it without making it seem like it’s about something it’s not??? Idek I know I’m not making sense lmaooooo

Basically, it’s Kurt and Blaine adjusting to life after being reunited after 7 years. I actually finished the first chapter today! It’s going to be called Amidst the Chaos :) I’m very excited but also kind of nervous bc I also don’t have all of it entirely fleshed out but we’ll see what happens!

13. Describe your writing process

Bro. I have no process.

Jk, recently, I’ve been going to my room, turning off my lights, and turning on my instrumental music playlist (Schubert, my dude, you got me through the last few chapters of HWGA) other than that... I guess I make a rough outline and then sort of figure things out as I go???

17. What things (scenes/topics/character types) are you most comfortable writing?

Scenes: I love awkward/uncomfortable/funny situations. They are my CRACK

Topics: characters discussing their family and friends

Character: I could be wrong but I feel like I’m pretty good at writing Finn?

19. How do you cope with writer’s block?

Take a break. Go for a walk. Read something new. Read something old of mine that I liked. Work on one shots that I forgot about like they’re a pallet cleanser. Go back and try to write and nothing comes to me AGAIN. Force my self to take a break for REAL this time. Wash, rinse, repeat.

23. Most anticipated upcoming books?

I don’t think I read enough books anymore to answer this, but some of my friends are working on things that I am very VERY excited to read! (Yes Brit and Adri this is about y’all)

29. Is writing more of a hobby or do you write with the intention of getting published?

100% a hobby. Cheaper than therapy!

37. Do you ever write long handed or do you prefer to type everything?

Sometimes I do write on pen and paper! I feel like your brain works differently when that happens. Some of my best things have come from writing on pen and paper, I think.

41. Are there any books you feel have shaped you as a writer?

This is gonna sound stupid, but I think the Captain Underpants series had a huge impact on me... HEAR ME OUT: I love comedy, I love to laugh, I love to make other people laugh, and those books were some of the first books that had me CACKLING as a child and I was like “OH WORM?” So I make sure to keep most of my stories light with humor!

43. How do you deal with rejection?

Usually I just bitch about it in private with my friends 😂😂 but I like to think I take *constructive* criticism pretty well!

47. Single or dual/multi POV?

I think it really depends on the story, but overall dual/multi. It’s something I still struggle with on some scenes because I’m like I WANT EVERYBODY TO KNOW THIS CHARACTERS EXACT REACTION AND THOUGHTS but like it just ain’t their time to shine 😔

53. What is the first line of your WIP?

AIGHT AIGHT AIGHT

This is from the next chapter of Here We Go Again:

“He hit her in the face?” Kurt’s voice rang from the other end of the line.

This is from my not yet posted WIP, Amidst the Chaos:

Table five—sriracha sauce, he thinks to himself.

And this one is from one I may or may not tackle (but if I do it’s gonna be called Cruel Summer bc I’m s slut for t swizzle):

In the seven years that they’ve known each other, Blaine has never—not once—liked a single boyfriend Sebastian has introduced to their friend group.

THANKS SO MUCH FOR THIS ASK!!! It was super fun :))) 🥰

[bagelbite]

so my thoughts on endgame

yes this does contain spoilers and yes, i will continue to tag any of my spoilers as “endgame”

did i hate the movie? no. it had many very good moments that i will list before i list the problems i had with it

i LOVED all of the humor like they did that so well. like when steve was fighting his younger self and young steve says “i can do this all day” and now steve goes “yeah i know” in this just tired voice. and americas ass. and all of the jokes about rocket being a raccoon. and hulk taking pictures with the kids and then when rocket and hulk were sitting in the back of the truck. when tony threatened to sell all of morgans toys. korg playing fortnite. the whole scott coming back the wrong age bit. hulk having to walk down the stairs. when tony told steve that if he dropped the shield one more time he was gonna keep it. like there were so many parts that were just so funny and i loved it.

i loved all the tender moments. that little moment of friendship between nat and steve where she calls the avengers her family. i was SOBBING when tonys daughter was revealed and at literally every interaction between them. the fact that tony wasnt even going to build the time machine until he saw peters picture and thw fact that he had peters picture at all. tony telling nebula “you won” and her freezing bc shes probably never heard that before. the fact that both nat and clint refused to let the other one die (which was the truest form of love i have ever seen, not romantic but just genuine platonic love. also not that bullshit thanos called love for the very same stone). the moment when clint was looking around for his family and couldnt find them so he was just running back and forth not knowing what to do. im not even going to mention tony and peter’s reunion or goodbye because i was sobbing like a child the entire time. quill thinking for a second that gamora was back. when pepper told tony “we’re going to be okay” and you think she means the world and humanity but she really means her and morgan. the entire interaction between tony and his dad. there were so so many parts that just hit me so hard.

i loved all the heroic parts. carol showing up outside the ship with tony and nebula. steve standing up with his shredded sheild, still fighting on. the fact that steve can fUCKING WEILD THORS HAMMER LIKE BRUH. also that sick combo he did with the sheild and the hammer. the hail hydra moment because steve is so incredibly smart and knows how to work a situation. all of those bad ass women gathering to fucking destroy thanos. the circle opening up and revealing tchalla and shuri and okoye walking out, silhoutted by the light and the wakandan battle cry. the fact that the canons recognized that carol was the largest threat around and firing at the atmosphere to try and stop her and she just fucking rips through them like nothing. carol beating the shit out of thanos and him having to literally hold the power stone in his hand to beat her. that moment where you see all of the heros lined up ready to fight. “i am iron man”.

obviously there are more of every moment, and i loved all of them.

but.

that doesnt mean that i liked the movie. and heres why:

1) thor’s literal character assassination. i reblogged a few posts (that you can find in my endgame tag) that explain this better than i will be able to but bruh. the russo brothers did thor so fucking dirty and it makes me pissed. they made him fat purely for the laughs (which someone pointed out an emphasis on the fact that they literally edited his weight out of the trailers because they wanted to use it as a gag in the movies). also, they blatently ignored and made fun of the fact that thor OBVIOUSLY was grieving and blamed himself for how things had turned out. he has lost literally everything in his life: his home, his father and mother, his brother, his best friend - and now the man who wiped out half of the human population taunted him with his mistake of not going for the head. also, thor literally just went through the whole process of realizing his true power and sacrifing his home in order to protect his people and youre going to tell me that he just decides “mmm imma go to space and leave you all here youre fine without me” like no. also please read this post it makes me so mad its so true.

2) the whole time travel plot. to me it didnt seem well thought out and it leaves so many plot holes. like if removing a stone can create another timeline, i dont think putting the stone back fixes anything. you have still technically created another time line. and like what happened to loki we saw him disappear wouldnt that be another time line??? and like if 2012 or 2014 or whatever thanos came to the present, then wouldnt that create another time line?????? and if steve stayed behind, then thats a whole other time line. like it just doesnt make sense there are so many things that do. not. work. (sidenote: thanos said the infinity stones were reduced to atoms. wouldnt that be reversable by scott and shrinking down into the quantum realm??? this is just an idea)

3) it was predictable. there were SO many times that i was able to tell what was going to happen before it did. like clints family vanishing. and scott finding an older cassie. and scott being turned into a bunch of different ages. and tony saying no and then saying yes. even tony weilding the gauntlet was predictable (i just refused to think about it bc i didnt want to see tony die).

4) steve staying in the past. now im going to preface this saying that im not trying to say that steve didnt deserve it. he did and im happy for him (since this is what the russo brothers have decided to make permanent). steve did deserve happiness and i will even say that he deserved peggy. but. that doesnt mean thats what he should have done. it was out of character for steve (not as bad as thor but still out of character). he would have recognized that the world needed him in the now and he wouldnt have been able to just stay in the past. like steve’s biggest character flaw is that he cant just sit by and do nothing, he always has to act. so now out of no where he just decides that hes gonna screw over everyone in the present and stay behind. like he knows they just lost tony AND nat, two of the og avengers, and hes just gonna decide to leave them hanging without another person???? and hes just going to sit by knowing that bucky is out there being tortured??? ALSO i am absolutely not saying that any part of his talk with sam was unnecessary. i even love the fact that he gave the sheild to sam (black captain america is my shIT HELL YES I AM HERE FOR IT). but. there is no way that steve “even when there was nothing i had bucky” rogers wouldnt say anything to bucky. and i saw someone saying “well they obviously talked off screen” bitch i dont care there are probably thousands of off screen things that happen and thats why we have fanfiction. but the on screen stuff matters and steve just ignores bucky entirely?????? no he fucking doesnt the russo brothers are just afraid to encourage any more interaction between steve and bucky because they fear stucky fans. and im not even saying this as a stucky fan im literally saying it as a marvel fan who knows the smallest amount of steve’s character.

5) tony creating his worst nightmare. tony has said multiple times that he blamed his dad for leaving him and it only makes sense that he would fear having a kid and then leaving them alone. and the russo brothers did just that. they gave tony the life he always wanted and then ripped him from it, creating tonys nightmare at the same time. he has now subjected morgan to live a life like he did, without a father. now personally i dont think tony should have died. did i predict that he was since infinity war (bc of rdj’s contract ending and also it will be very difficult to continue the “next generation” with these huge figures still around), yes. and i know that its unrealistic for everyone to survive in war but so is fucking time travel and they pulled that card. idk i just dont like how they did it.

so overall, i think i loved a lot of the overall moments on film, its just that i didnt like the themes, messages, and character delieveries shown in the movie. im just gonna go watch winter soldier and ragnarok and homecoming and captain marvel and black panther and all the other Actually Good marvel movies.

[stephensttrange]

I HAVE SO MANY INFINITY WAR THOUGHTS. 

okay first of all, even though i knew it was coming, i’m a little disappointed that clint wasn’t there. i’m not sure i really like the explanation about him going back to his family or whatever, like it seems a little too obvious? at least i guess ant man’s arc will be explained in his movie but clint?! i’m really impressed with the russos rn so i’mma trust them to sort it out in IW4 but i would be so disappointed if clint doesn't come save the day :/

ALTHOUGH IF HIS CHILDREN OR LAURA TURNED TO ASH THOUGH 

OKAY NOW. HOLY SHIT TONY AND PEPPER GETTING MARRIED AND HAVING KIDS?? YESS. 

Of fucking course Loki died. i knew it was coming but i was still so sad. i guess his death redeemed him somewhat. 

I KNEW GAMORA WOULD DIE the moment she was all like ‘you have to kill me’ to peter. it was a nice diversion because that wasn’t how she died in the end but i’m still devastated.

also can we talk about how many characters just said stuff before the opposite happened? like tony: we’ll get married and have babies/and then’s in fucking space. and strange with ‘ill chose the stone over you’/and then he fucking doesn't and rocket with ‘i have so much to lose’ aND THEN HE DOES WHAT THE HELL. it was just so emotionally draining.

also like i’m so impressed by how funny the movie still was, considering how fucking intense the subject matter was. i laughed for a solid two minutes at why is gamora lmaoo

TONY’S BLEEDING EDGE ARMOR IS MY SEXUALITY. LIKE THAT WAS FUCKIGN BEAUTIFUL 

ALL THE TONY AND PETER SCENES warmed my heart and they were incredible.

Like, overall i just so impressed by how well the russos incorporated all the characters together and all the storylines. i felt like they all got at least one moment to shine which is so hard to do since there were so many of them. 

OTT but paul bettany as plainclothes!vision is fucking hot oh my god. 

look, i’ve not been a fan of wanda post aou and cacw but this was the first time she seemed like someone i can sympathize with and whose motives i can understand. good job russos. 

BRUCE/NATASHA LIVES. KINDA. I love them. 

on a similar note, i haven't been a big fan of cap as you all know for the past couple of years but when the avenger’s music began to play and hE SHOWED UP AT THE TRAIN STATION FUCKING FUCK YES. 

also him looking like a lost lonely ass homeless person has dissolved all my salt and redeemed him ... at least to some degree

HE CALLS THE COMPOUND HOME. 

HE GETS THE BAND BACK TOGETHER BECAUSE TONY IS MISSING. 

also talking about cacw, tony what just carries that phone everywhere?!?! all the time with it charged and ready to use?!?! your feelings are showing mr stark. 

EARTH’S BEST DEFENDER. okay fine cap i guess i like you a little again.

like they said that the movie will be from thanos’s point of view which was so unique to me because i think this is the first villain since loki who was fleshed out and not... sympathetic but understandable? like of course he’s a psychopath who needs to die ASAP but i like this idea of showing how he sees the world because its just so different

i literally stopped breathing when tony almost died. strange giving up the stone to save him legit made me tear up like tony was so lost and broken when he softly says ‘why’ because the last time he almost died, they fucking almost closed a portal on him akdjakjfkajet

hE’S BEEN IN MY HEAD FOR SIX YEAR ohh tony <3

PETER ‘DYING’ IN TONY’S ARMS AKDJAIFIRASTJEGL

 i’m sorry but cap’s new ‘shield’ is the worst thing ever i had to laugh

not as bad like bucky and his machine-gun 

also his face as he says where’s the fight kinda broke my heart oh poor bb. 

thor with his stormthrower was the most badass thing imaginable, everyone in the cinema legit whistled and appluaded it was so GREAT

look as said and wtf as i am about half the people dissolving, it kinda makes it so that the OG avengers are kinda back and that makes my heart a little happy akdjakjfkjfa

also look compared to the shit show that was cacw, i didn't think tony got the raw end of the deal this time. he knew at all times that he was supported and loved and yes his arc sucked, but so did everyone else’s. i didn't feel like this movie was piling on him which was such a great feeling. and of course peter and strange and quill didn't actually die.... right? RIGHT? RIGHT?

CAPTAIN MARVEL THAT LAST SCENE AKDJAKJFKAJFA

‘thanos will return’ dAMN RIGHT MY BODY IS READY

so.. yeah. i apologize for how scattered my thoughts are right now but i’ll watch it a few more times and hopefully have more coherent things to say. i was impressed but how little this movie disappointed me in terms of everyone’s character arcs and honestly... i think this may have shot up to no 2 or 3 on my fav movies lists. if you've watched it come talk to me!!!! i would love love love to discuss <3 <3

[happyfunnycoolgirl96]

nothing descriptively gross under the cut just some columbine talk and the usual winding down

the guys i knew at my old school always joked about the worse parts of tumblr with me irl so it seems fake to me that those parts actually exist since it’s so hard to conceptualize when it’s being told to you face to face opposed to like, reading about it on a post. stuff like joking over people who go “me and josh dun share kin memories and i’ll murder anypony thats a double” you know? anyway i was just checkin out blogs that looked funny or looked like they were run by chill people and there was this guy who was a fuckin, uh reblogging shit from that fanbase that worships serial killers. it was so jarring it was like, here’s a snarthurt post, here’s a guy sliding down a banister and doing a backflip, “i’m thirsty for dahmer”, here’s some ok ko fanart. specifically it was this columbine shooter amv set to This Is My Fight Song and that stuff snapped me out of my soup high at the speed of sound, guys i wish i could brush off that kind of stuff easy and just go about my day but i’m way too empathetic for this kind of stuff i guess

i was gonna originally end the post here but i’m gonna go on a tangent just because i have time wheeeee

i’m gonna steer off course here since i already put everything under a cut and don’t have to care about this getting long, and say that, every time i see a really WEIRD post like something as general as “i hate belarus and every single fucker who lives there” or something as unimportant as “i wanna strangle people who like dogs” and it has thousands of notes, and it’s just people silently reblogging? i bet the belarus and dog people examples sound exaggerated or like the beginning of a straw man argument but those are the genuine vibes i get from some posts like... let me think of an example. there was this one time where i saw a post that went along the lines of “(south american country (don’t remember the name)) and the people in there make me so uneasy like if you tell me you’re from this country i’m gonna start backing tf  away. lmao.” and it was all silent reblogs so i just said “what happened to u in there” cuz i don’t know this fucker, idk what they’ve been through. maybe they got mugged there or something and then this guy just responds “don’t speak to me thanks :)” (i fucking hate passive aggressive smileys but then. i hate passive aggressive anything) and then they blocked me, like where oh where did you learn that that was an okay response to anything, ever, if you’re gonna block me for expressing concern on your abstract as hell public post why are you gonna react like that. so, just putting that out there, those posts cheese me out cuz it gets me confused about like, what’s the country lore? why would you hate a whole country? i mean getting bitter about it and posting about it isn’t my route and i get why you would hate... the leader of a country, the way a country is run, what the leaders of those countries did in the past or plan to do in the future, but i see so much country hate and it’s not even commonly hated countries sort of like how everyone hated on germany lmao, like i’ll see a hate post for a country that i don’t even know where to start on why you would even hate this country it’s so alright and settled, like sometimes i see a “i hate france. we stan canada” post and it’s widespread enough to make me super uncomfortable. maybe i’m just too soft and doughy for these guys but like, you ever think about every mother father child innocent citizen living in a country and you ever think about their feelings when they read something like that

WHICH MOVES ME ON TO MY NEXT POINT

which is weird posts that just talks about hating something that contains a lot of different people and portrays them as some sort of hivemind or like, whatever manipulative tactic a random 25 year old would use to dehumanize people who don’t like the company of.... mouthbreathers or something. and you go into the notes to see what’s up and a bunch of people are like “why would you want to kill men? i’m trans and whats your deal” or “why do you want to kill people who listen to kpop? i’m korean not everybody who listens to pop wants to finger jimin” or something that follows that structure (kill all kpop fans and kill all men are the two most common posts i see that strike me as like, kind of weird to spread when its so generic btw those weren’t examples pick out of a hat) and then somebody jumps in and says ITS A FUCKING JOKE PEOPLE 😂😂😂 like i really hate someone doing that because an og post would be phrased so genuinely and real, like it makes me think that that’s a real person behind that screen who lives their life like everybody else except they think in such black and white bold statements. i like to think i’m someone who can pass through a crowd and look generally normal, but when someone swoops in and says SIKE WHAT ARE YOU AN IDIOT ITS A JOOOOOKE CHIILLLLLL it makes me question, just how fucking well i DO mesh in with everybody else? was everybody else in on the joke? what’s the punchline? you think all pisces should die in a hole? whats going on. there are only a couple of people who i know are like “I DONT GET THE JOKE” all the time, in real life and they’re kinda annoying i suppose. like you could make a joke and this kind of person would be like, “why are you guys even laughing i hate people.” that probably sounds fake but that actually happened like i was bantering with this girl at my new school and i make some joke about how the public school lunch sucked, i dont remember the punchline it was probably something tame just to get to know her or some weak shit like that, but this girl looked me in the eyes and said “that’s not funny” in a deadpan voice then later walked off while i was answering this one question she asked me about the school clubs. the fuck, anyway actually having that role where you’re the guy asking “whats with this post?” and everyone just says ITS A JOOOKE and you didn’t even sense in the slightest that this could be a joke, at all, in any way... it just feels REAL alienating, it makes you feel like a bona fide dumbass, and you sorta see yourself as the jerkass telling some random chick at school “that’s not funny” then walking away as they answer something. it makes you feel like there’s something wrong with you that people have always been able to sense. it makes you feel too intense and uneasy in your own skin like you don’t know yourself at all and everyone around you is pretending and keeping up an act so that you, the fool, don’t realize you’re embarrassing yourself.

anyway. if you actually read all the way to the end... kudos i’m not gonna revise this or look over it at all so its gonna be a wild ride to read i know it. you get 20 brownie points from me personally have a good day

[aurimeanswind]

Treading Water—Sunday Chats (6/18/17)

It’s weird to see TWO chats posts in a week, but hopefully I’ll keep this brief. It’s been a bad, long day, but the chatting stopes for nothing.

Kinda Funny Live 3

The KFLs have seriously been the highlight of my year for quite a while now. Ever since the first one, which only came together as a last minute thing when I missed the PAX East of 2015, I have known I can’t miss one. The first marks the relationships I built with folks who have gone on to be my real best friends. The second as a high point and a reminder that we’re all working. Now the third has been a look at some of those friends who have gone on to “Make it”, as well as a shift to such intimacy in regards to being fans of Kinda Funny. 

We all loved a thing that brought us together, but now I think our love for each other, the friendships there, have spawned off to be their own independent strength. Barrett alone, who I stayed with while I was in SF, him and Alyssa have become really deep, personal friends to me. Anytime I get to spend with them is like time with family, and it’s incredibly important to me. I cannot express how lucky I am to have them, as well as Roger Pokorny and Danny Juarez, the two other folks staying with me. They acted as my rock and center in a week that has gone on to have a lot of fallout with my emotional state, like I talked about in Tuesday Chats. All of them there, happily supporting me, even when I am a mess and feel as though I’m not worth supporting, made that weekend for me.

I didn’t get to hug and meet and talk to as many people as I would have liked. But that week I really needed the family that I have out west. And I got it. And I’m just so happy for that.

Talking about KFL is such a blur. I haven’t gotten the chance to really sit and think about it, thus the lack of written recap for it. But everyone there encourages and most of all challenges each other. To do things, to be creative, to engage, to work together, and most of all, to support one another. For a community filled with folks trying to either actually get hired at Kinda Funny proper or to get into games or entertainment coverage, there is a ton of “send me your stuff and I’ll check it out” and it just warms me. I’m the same way. I’m always down to see and consume new stuff. Any because of the KFLs I have gotten the chance to have so many amazing people on Irrational Passions Podcast.

I am infinitely lucky. And even though everyday I definitely feel undeserving of the adoration and affection folks give me, I can always just flash back to the weekend of KFL3 now. Where, in the movie theatre after seeing Wonder Woman, Sean Pitts called my name, and me turning, swinging my big gorilla arms, knocked a glass over an broke it. This led Roger Pokorny to start a round of applause from the crowd of KFL-goers. So. If I ever need to humble myself real quick I got that.

Thank you everyone who came and said hi, or gave me a hug, or forced me to follow them on Twitter (please stop doing that last one). I cannot express deeply and honestly enough my appreciation for you all. 

But I can write one big long blog post about it.

What I’ve Been Working On

I wrote a big long editorial on E3 that I think I am gonna try and publish either tonight or tomorrow. But I’ve been writing weird stuff. This past week has been dominated by thoughts and feelings on the E3 shows. And it’s been weird to write about what I love so much while feeling all messed up in the head. I can feel how it changes my tone, but I think it brings something different out of me.

Outside of the sphere of writing, I’ve been making and uploading all of the ExtraLife 2016 videos! I’ve made it happen y’all! The last one finished uploading this morning, and while I had hoped it was done last night, for now I can say 100% for sure, it is done. The Deed is done. ExtraLife is finally behind me...

And also ahead of me. Oh boy. We have some surprises for the upcoming ExtraLife 2017 that I am so excited to announce. Trying to find the right time and place for them, but people should be excited. We are going to be putting on one hell of a show. 

What’s on Tap

It’s a weird one, so bear with me

Alundra

The big one I’ve been playing and the one I’ll probably go back to playing tonight is Alundra.

For folks who don’t know, and it’s probably a ton of you, Alundra is a PS1 game that is a Zelda-like, and it’s one of the best I’ve ever played. Right up there with Okami as far as NOT Zelda games that are maybe even better than some Zelda games.

All you need to do to want to play Alundra is watch its INCREDIBLE intro.

Don’t lie to me, or yourself. It’s great.

The Evil Within

I just bought this last night on the podcast when I found out it was on sale.

It ends up my old save from October 2014 was still on my PlayStation. I had gotten to chapter 4 apparently, but I started over.

Man that part with the butcher at the beginning is totally not fun at all.

I remember the first time I went through it I knew exactly what to do, and this time, I DID NOT. AND OOOOOH BOY. I WAS MAD.

I died about 12 times before getting through, so let’s hope it picks up the pace pretty soon.

QUESTIONS!!

One again, thank you all for your questions. Even in my worst days I can turn to the outpouring of support from you amazing lovelies and smile. If you want to have your question answered on Sunday Chats, just look for my tweet on Sunday afternoons (Eastern Time) with the hashtag #SundayChats in it, send your question in a reply to it, and I’ll get it covered!

It’s a little bit exhausting, to be honest. I don’t like to admit it, but Sunday Chats is probably the most exhausting things I write outside of Alex Talks scripts. I don’t say that to make it sound like a burden, I love it! But I do put a ton of love and care into it. I’d do one of these every day if I could, they’re so limitless rewarding. Seeing people come out to interact with me it just... Well, it’s a really special feeling that I cherish a great deal. And they help make my favorite day, my favorite day still.

As for PSX. I just don’t think it’s in the cards. I’m more focused on making ExtraLife an event to remember for the folks coming to my house for that.

Hrm... This is really tough. I think I have some things that I don’t necessarily have no one to talk to about, but we’re just in different headspaces about. Like Harry Potter. I didn’t have anyone to chat about that with for the longest time, because it’s so deep and emotional for me. I did have a pretty good conversation about it that was pretty contrary to me recently though, so it can happen. I just have to be in the right headspace. And also I have my friends Barrett and Ally to talk real-ass Harry Potter stuff about now, and I think they’re both in a very similar place to me with it.

Music is another one, because the way I consume and appreciate it is super weird and unorthodox, and I don’t know anyone else who listens to music like me. I usually take an album and eat away at it over a month or two. Sometimes even a year. And just continue listening to it over and over again. It’s just my process I think.

So I don’t think there are necessarily things I am crazy passionate about that I have no one to talk to about, but no one really interprets certain things the way I do.

Fuck. Uh, Nathan Drake, because he is so cool.

No... Uhh, Joel, because when I die he goes super jaded.

Nope... 

Yuri Lowell. There. Anime dad.

Also fuck you Ben I took 10 minutes to think of this answer so I hope you’re happy.

Well, Google is defining esoteric as “intended for or likely to be understood by only a small number of people with a specialized knowledge or interest.” I think when I say my writing is esoteric, I don’t necessarily lean into the idea that it’s specialized, but more abstract. Intended for my audience. I make things overtly flowery, too long, and redundant usually. So that’s what I meant.

Fuck this question.

Also it’s Nathan Fillion as Richard Castle.

This is so hard for me. I love the Shatter soundtrack, for example, but I’ve played all of 25 minutes of that game.

It’s somewhere between the Persona 3/Persona 4/Persona 5 domain. I love the hiphop inspirations in Persona 3. Oh boy do I. Persona 4 has the jolly pop-y vibes down to a science. And then Persona 5 does jazz, and holy shit do I love me some jazz. Even if I never listen to jazz music in my spare time (I should) the sound of it awakens something in me.

Right now it’s probably Persona 5, which I do think has maybe the strongest soundtrack of the three, but that’s just where I’m at right now. That’ll probably change, so take it with a grain of salt.

Hrm, well if this includes games that were just announced, Ori and the Will of the Wisps and that Shadow of the Colossus Remake are right up there. If we’re leaving just games that actually got shown and with gameplay, its Tacoma and Mario Odyssey. Holy shit does that new Mario game look in-credible.

No and Jesus Logan... Between this and that tweet you sent out with you using a fidget spinner, I don’t know what to tell you.

I’ve said before on Sunday Chats that me and my dad aren’t crazy close, so I don’t have a lot. But here are a few.

One time my dad, his friend Roy, and myself, we all drove to New York to see Bruce Springsteen. It was in the backseat of this big van we got to drive to and from Florida, and it had a TV in it. I hooked up my N64 and played Super Smash Bros with my dad in the back seat for an hour. It was a ton of fun.

One time when I was younger and I couldn’t sleep, I came downstairs to see my dad awake playing MLB for the PS2. We talked a bit and then I played a game against him. He absolutely destroyed me. Like, not even close. We had a good laugh about it though.

Me and my dad went jet skiing outside the house he used to live in on the water once. It was pretty cool. We went out to the Chesapeake bay and everything.

I used to watch my dad play the OG Super Mario Bros and Legend of Zelda as a kid. Some of my very first memories of video games ever.

Why are you so wrong Jon? Well, I don’t know. I can’t help you with that.

What I can tell you is that, while not the greatest Mexican food in the world, not even necessarily Mexican food, Chipotle is definitely better than California Tortilla. And Qdoba and their wet tortillas. But that’s an aside.

I don’t know! I haven’t seen it yet! It sounds like they just adjusted it so that an actual fight happens at the end, not just a cut to black. It’s probably for the best, since it really was super anticlimactic before.

YO IT’S SO GOOD!!

Tacoma is out so soon and I barely have any room in July to breath. Luckily the only big release there is Splatoon 2, which isn’t a massive investment of time for me. But holy shit dude. Video games are so good. Like, I wasn’t even mad at Sony’s seen-it-all-before-except-sotc-remake-holyshit because video games this year are just so damn good.

I am shooting for at least ONE. If it doesn’t happen Joey, I can safely say you’ve let me down.

But no, it’ll happen. It was such a nice time to actually get to talk to you in person again at KFL. I miss you!

It’s probably either Ochako because she made me cry so so hard, or Kirishima because I just like him a whole lot. Iida is also up there, because he is just the best and I just want to hug him and make him less high strung all the time.

Luckily I will never be as good as Griffin McElroy, but if you wanna be my Australian Nick Robinson you know I am so down for this.

Checklist

I know I said I’d try to make up for my lack of a Checklist last Chats on Tuesday, but I didn’t really watch as much E3 content as I wanted to. I’ll share what I can though

The #1: Easy Allies E3 Reactions

While I haven’t listened to their Frame Trap or Easy Allies Podcast on E3 yet, their nightly reactions have been stellar. The only real E3 reactions I’ve gotten to so far. Though I’m really looking forward to getting into Kinda Funny and Giantbomb’s reactions.

GiantBomb.com - The Nightly Post Shows only sort of about video games. 

Even if I haven’t watched them yet, my day of is tomorrow and I can’t want to snuggle up under a blanket and crack into these. They are industry-spanning, insightful, hilarious, and honest-to-god historic. In the absence of Ryan Davis at Giantbomb, the finales of having Dave Lange, Adam Boyes, John Vignocchi and Jeff Gerstmann together, as the panel, really bring me that sense of family that I miss from GB’s Ryan-less content. Not to say their content isn’t amazing, but those four are truly family, and their closer to the yearly GiantBomb E3 streams is always a sight to behold.

Jeff Gerstmann’s Interview with Phil Spencer

I know I’m doubling up on my GB content here, but this interview is just fantastic. It is every year, and I look forward to it every year.

Totally not video games related, but here is a Buzzfeed article on why I love Lin Manuel Miranda. 

Gotta love those MBMBaM references.

Okay. Whew, that’s everything I got. Sorry for the weak checklist. My lack of having a computer has thrown my article-reading off a ton, but I try and at least get to two a week.

Thank you all for your support. Happy father’s day to the dads out there! And thank you all for reading.

As always, do me a favor

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(fan fact: this gif is the exact moment in My Hero Academia that absolutely fucking destroyed me)