#i know this wasnt a targeted action

[davepaste]

ordering items from an AliExpress store, almost commit to the awful price, remember I wanted to add a cheap wooden handle, return to checkout, suddenly total is inflated an extra 40%

I'm glad to be saving money by not buying anything at all, but taking away the sale prices because I briefly left checkout is incredibly annoying. And also I don't get the thing I want

[astergore]

context: i interpret inspekta as having Known that he was eating cappy's heart but in the context that he Didn't know i think it would be ridiculously funny

[bunnyluvs-blog]

TXTs reaction to you pulling another members photocard

txt x reader fluff, silly short storys, slight angst in Taehyuns and suggestive in Huenings

Choi Soobin: He isnt one to get jealous really, well thats what he thought. Soobin was watching you open up your own Temptation Lullaby Version. Ripping the packaging open and flipping the first page when you both see the name Hueing Kai. Soobin wasnt upset per say, but he was just a little bit pouty because you didnt get his version. Going through the photobook and gushing over the solo poster you got, Soobin was breaking bad. Then you go to to see the photocard, and oh boy. You got the slightly older makane Taehyun. You turn to Soobin to show him the photocard before he gets up and puts on his shoes. "Soobin ? Where are you going love ?" you ask, your mind confused. "Target" he says sternly. "Why?" "Im getting you my version and my photocard" you couldnt help but giggle. He pouts, "Why are you laughing?" you calm down and pull him to you, kissing his cheek. "I dont need a photocard or a certain version, when i have the real one right here" He smiles, still with a small pouts and goes back onto the couch to cuddle you.

Choi Yeonjun: Opening up your Temptation Nightmare version you were so excited. You saw the photocards while looking online and dont tell your boyfriend, but you were dying for Soobins photocard. You look through the freebies, and you honestly really like the bookmark. 10/10 will use. After looking through the photobook and all of that, you get to the photocard. AND YOU GOT SOOBIN. You let out a little happy noise. You put him in a photocard sleeve and plop him on your desk. Later that night Yeonjun comes home, planting a kiss on your lips and telling you hes going to take a shower. He walks into yalls bedroom to head to the bathroom when he sees his blonde haired leader sitting on your desk. He grabs it and walks over to you. "What is this?" he asked not really looking for an answer. "Erm, a Soobin photocard?" you respond looking at him weirdly. "Erm" he mimics, "Why isnt it me" You hold back a giggle at his actions. "Well maybe if you guys put more then one photocard in each album i wouldve gotten you" You say and he glares. "Fair." He turns and goes to the restroom. You know he isn't actually mad but will act like it after his shower to get some cuddles.

Choi Beomgyu: He was so so so pouty. You pulled Huening Kai which did not make Beomgyu happy. You put the photocard in your holder on your purse, and Beomgyu goes off. "WHAT" you glace at him. Very confused. "Why is huening on your bag and not meeeee" He clings to you and pouts, looking at you with his puppy dog eyes. "Because i always put my newest photocard on my bag?" "Nooo you always put me on your bag" The last few albums you have gotten have been Txt albums, which lucky for Beomgyu, you've pulled him. But his luck has run out and the tall baby of his group is doing his iconic peace sign pose on your bag. You finally calm him down and you go to get ready for bed, little do you know. Beomgyu was putting in his photocard on your bag and taking Huening and putting him in your collection. Beomgyu didnt care about how you would yell at him about it in the morning, because at least he would 'be' with you through the day.

Kang Taehyun: He wasnt jealous at all. He knows how much you love him and no silly photo of one of his group mates was going to change that. Ok well maybe he was a little bit jealous over the fact of how much you were smiling when you pulled Taehyuns oldest member Yeonjun. It was a good picture of him no doubt about that. And the fact you were smiling so much about pulling him made he do a double take on who your bias was. It was him right? "Why are you so happy? Is Yeonjun your bias now?" He ask, not upset but with a light chuckle to maybe hide the fact he was hoping you would come cuddle him and smile at him 2x as bright. "Im ot5 !!" Owie, hearing he wasn't your bias made him a little bit sad. Your poor baby just wanted to be your favorite in everything. He knows it wasn't a big deal but why did it sting. You saw your boyfriends playful smile turning into a sad one just like that. "Butttttt if i had to pick it would be you, your so handsome and talented, your voice is good for so many things and I love how you use it when you sing." You say putting down the album and pulling Taehyun close to you snuggling into his chest. He wraps his arms around you and kisses your head. "I bet if he saw you he would think you're really cool too babe" You let out a giggle at his words before kissing Taehyuns lips softly and putting the goodies away.

Huening Kai: If any of the members were pouting before Huening throws it out of the park. He watched you open your album, showing off everything like you're in a YouTube unboxing video. Huening was all smiles until you got the the photocard. He was hoping that you got him, he honestly really liked how his photos came out. Everything was fun and games until Beomgyu showed up in your hand. "Ohh baby look I got gyu !!" You showed off the photocard not realizing that your boyfriend was pouting, like a little baby. Hybe was not on his nice side today for giving him the album with the wrong photocard. "Pfft you got gyu and not me!! Mine was better" you're boyfriend said trying to convince you to get another album to get his photocard. You smirked at him playfully "But I like gyuuies photocard, he looks good" "Yea well not as good as me !!" His pout only got worse as you teased him. And at the end of the day you would have to pay for it later but that wasn't on your mind now. "I should put him in a case front and center" you joked and Huening was hurt. "NOOOO HES GONNA REPLACE ME" he slightly yelled out, clinging onto you to hold you in place. You couldn't help but laugh. He was so cute when he was pouty. In the end you had to pinky promise him you weren't gonna swap the photocard and just put the new one with the rest. Which left you a happy boyfriend and a sore back the next day.

[nebraska-is-a-myth]

Abuse in 'Runaway Max': A Stranger Things criticism

One thing I know to keep in mind is that the book is told from Max’s perspective, so it's her eyes we experience the world from, and her opinions that guide us through the story. For that we have to value her as a somewhat unreliable narrator, considering she is thirteen at the time and dosnt understand certain things.

A quick timeline to keep in mind because the book handles time very messily:

Billy has just turned 17 by the time Max and Billy first meet.

After Halloween in season 2, Max says she’s known Billy for 7 months, which takes us back to early May.

They move in together three weeks after the wedding in late June, meaning Max and Billy have lived together for a total of 5 months by the time they get to Hawkins.

Neil confiscates Billy's car keys for two months in June, so I’ve taken an educated guess that Max first witnesses Neil's abuse somewhere around august, then in September/October Billy breaks Max’s friends arm, leaving for Hawkins late October.

Now onto the deep dive:

In 'Runaway Max', we learn about the terrible Hargrove family dynamic, and how the Mayfield's learn to navigate that. Max gets a very graphic front row seat of Billy's abuse in chapter 10, and during that chapter Max responds to that situation as any 13 year old would, scared and confused. Despite this however, Billy's image doesn't change in Max’s mind. She has no visible compassion for Billy at any point of the book except from this chapter, and after that she states that she’s actively trying not to care about “his stupid life and his cruel dad”. 

From a writing standpoint, choosing this to be a part of Max’s character takes away from her complex experiences in an abusive household. Yes Max is a hardened character, but not exploring these difficult topics of disliking Billy while also feeling sorry for him makes her feel like just another pawn for the audience to make them dislike Billy. The writers could have made the step-siblings dynamic much more interesting to have them navigate this terrifying experience together. But I understand the duffers just wanted another one dimensional antagonist for season 2.

"I'd watched the Hargroves in action. Neil standing over billy with the belt - calling me a stupid little girl - making it clear that he thought I was weak and pointless. Knowing Neil believed that still wasnt as bad as the way Billy had hated me for trying to help him"

I have mixed feelings about this. I feel this description Max gives dutiful to anyone going through that situation, that they would feel disheartened by someone rejecting their help, and verbally berating them for it. However, it’s vitally important to understand the context of Why Billy reacts to Max this way.

During the assault on Billy that Max witnesses, Max calls out and interrupts Neil, trying to diffuse the situation. Neil responds not to Max, but to Billy “Is this the son I raised? A worthless loser who needs a little girl to fight his battles for him?” And then strikes billy again. 

Max assumes this to be an attack on her, however that's not what's happening at all. Neil is using Max against Billy. He takes Max’s intervention as a sign of Billy's own weakness, a softness. “Any hint of softness and he would never let me forget” In a way Billy had been trying to teach Max to harden herself so that Neil couldn't find anything to target her for, Billy had been making her more likeable for Neil. And now this softness that Max is showing for Billy, by standing up for him, is getting him punished. It’s been implied before that this was the case, but now we are seeing it explicitly that Billy is being punished for Max’s actions. This chain reaction forces Billy into a position where he cannot be on Maxes side, he cannot be friends with Max, because siding with anyone other than his father equals punishment.

After Neil leaves, we circle back round to the sentence “Sometimes Billy acted like we were in on some big, crucial secret together / like we were in some sort of secret club together - like we could be on the same team” Billy had been trying to tell her from the beginning, they were both members of a club trying to navigate life with Neil Hargrove, bonded by shared experience. They were supposed to be on the same team too, victims of Neil, but Neil has made that impossible by using Max against Billy. “I could see all the ways he hated me” Neil isolates one from the other, Billy resents Max for getting him hurt, and Max resents Billy for rejecting her.

During most of the sections of the book that happen in Hawkins, Max continues to call Billy a “Monster”. However, never Neil. It’s not untrue that Billy has a mean streak, he can be cruel and heartless, most notably when he breaks the arm of one of Max’s friends. The only time this level of violence is seen in Hawkins is during the fight with Steve.

Both of these big outbursts of rage are built up by attacks from Neil. Note: Billy is still an asshole, these are not excuses for his actions only explanations.

Yes, there are two occasions in which Billy grabs hold of Max’s arm, but there is an argument to be made that this is just normal sibling behaviour. Have you never pushed or shoved your sibling before, or been on the receiving end of that physicality. It’s not always pleasant, but it’s not uncommon for siblings to get physical during disagreements. Max is also only distressed by this on the first occasion, “He caught me by the arm, and it wasn't the first time he’s ever touched me, but other times had always been to push me out of the way in the kitchen or flick me on the end of my nose. This time, his fingers closed hard around my elbow” - however the second and last time goes like this “He reached out fast and caught me by the wrist”. Those are the only times Billy is ever physical with Max.

Despite this, Billy is still the monster. “Billy was the closest thing to one that I had ever known - this was what it meant to live with the monster.” Monster singular. Billy is the most terrible thing living in the Hargrove home, not the man who beats his son.

Personally I find something off putting with Max ranking Billy as a worse monster than Neil. During the night at the byers she says "I understood now that Neil was in his head, and that meant he was just as dangerous as his father. Worse because Neil was cruel and frightening but he cared how things looked on the outside. Billy was crazy" Max isn't stupid, she knows Neil is a bad person, and maybe from Maxes point of view Billy is worse than Neil because Neil hasn't ever physically hurt her. But from a writer's point of view, to say that the victim is worse than the abuser? That is both dangerous and honestly disgusting. To call Billy crazy, and insinuate that he’s acting like a ‘bad victim’ because he doesn't pretend that everything is normal is so hurtful to victims of abuse who see themselves in Billy. 

Continuing this thought, Max then goes on to compare Billy to a recently possessed Will. Which, first off, comparing abuse is never okay. But what Max says is almost worse, "Will had turned into something terrible and frightening, but even with the mind flayer working through him, he was trying not to let it. He'd almost gotten us killed, but you couldn't blame him because he didn't ask for this. He was trying so hard to stop it" Is the author trying to say that Billy should try harder to not let the abuse he has been experiencing at the hands of his father since before he was ten, affect him? Because if Brenna Yovanoff is using Will as a ‘good’ example of a victim of parental abuse, and using him to discount Billy's own experiences, then I��m sorry but who let this book go to print?

Obviously as a character Max choosing this comparison means very little to her because she doesn't know about Lonnie, but the writers do. Comparing Billy to will is a choice.

Billy and will have both experienced abuse from their fathers. Will is on one side of the spectrum of victims, quiet, timid and apologetic. Billy is on the opposite end of that spectrum, his experiences have hardened him, made him angry about what's happening to him. Billy isn't quiet, he’s an asshole and he has issues with authority, but the one thing that sets Billy and Will apart is the fact that Billy is still experiencing that abuse.

Will is a survivor, Billy isn't.

To imply that "you can't blame Will because he didn't ask for it", but it’s okay to blame Billy, does that mean we are supposed to think Billy is asking for it?

There are choices writers make in the information they reveal to their readers, the phrasing that is used and the comparisons they make. It speaks volumes that while Will is praised for his experiences and bravery with his dad, Billy is called a monster for acting out because of those same experiences.

I mean, tell me you're a writer who doesn't understand the complex reactions to abuse without telling me you only care about “good” reactions to abuse.

[ganseyenthusiast]

like i said i wont write the trc/cdtheu zombie AU. but here're my thoughts:

assuming this as an alt to the greywaren midpoint - maybe induced by nathan and/or the moderators, a dreamt object 'end of the worlddddd' type thing that may yet be reversible if the ley is spoken to blah blah

i think it makes most sense with groups spread across different areas: gansey-blue-henry, bryde-matthew, hennessey-carmen-lilliana, declan-jordan.

people who are carrying each mini group: declan, henessey, henry, bryde, mor, gray

everyone's goal is to make it to cabeswater/lindenmere bc they cant think of anything else. henry's specific goal is to trek across the US to find ronan and beat his ass

declan probably has the hardest time both in finding a space to stash still-sleeping ronan, dealing with a crowded city, and trying to find matthew/deciding if he wants to haul ronan's body with him to the barns. probably is also being targeted by moderators STILL. potentially still shot?

sarchengsey have access to a car that doesnt need fuel BUT its loud + the Roads Are Dangerous. gansey insists on Solving It In Lindenmere and henry's like well drop me off at my mom's on the way then. he's the only one who knows how to use guns and has no qualms about killing people that look human, so gansey has to agree. gansey is profoundly useless the entire time but when he inevitably gets bit they find out he's immune.

bryde and matthew do their best to stay awake and set up barriers and hunker down in the basement of a museum just wincing at the sounds outside. prolonged discussion on whether matthew is human enough to bleed out + bryde waxing poetic on Humans Are The Virus

carmen and hennessey basically do exactly whatever they were doing during greywaren.. sorry i wasnt paying attention. hennessey is having a great time with mowing down people to make way for carmen

adam has been kidnapped and dropped off at the fucking pentagon. he's begging them not to nuke boston he just needs a MINUTEEEEE

i can't decide if Dreams are immune or not. if it's a dreamt zombie virus then it either doesnt affect them or does something /different/ to them than it would to normal people

this is more action/thriller core, if i wanted to lean into the horror it would be AU where nobody knows each other + accidentally runs into each other black summer style. which IS interesting but far more effort lol

[cemitadepollo]

The wound in my heart that never closed is a result of online smear campaigns and backlash I faced when I was younger. I wasnt even like, famous famous, no one would know me outside a very very niche specific spanish speaking internet circle and even then it was like 100 people who saw what happened and like maybe 12 people where directly involved against me. 12 people is little on paper but imagine the social impact it had on 12/13 year old me. Now imagine how people that deal with a bigger audience feel.

I am almost 19 years old now and I still feel like I need to prove my honest and well intentions to everyone around me. I feel like I need to tell everyone every little thing that I do to be some sort of "transparent figure". I'm paranoid that most of the people that I love around me could turn on me. If someone is doing anything harmful it's not wrong to call them out, but there's a way to do things, and exposing them out for them to be eaten away by the world is NO way or helping someone improve and reflect.

And the worst part is that I'm fresh out of high school and it happened again but in real life and I hate that people would ruin someone's mental stability over things they're not even sure about. "She just uses people" how could you know??? How could you know that random stranger you have never had an actual conversation with, let alone know, has bad intentions??? Both in person or in the internet.

I hate cancel culture. I hate video essays made on individuals for petty reasons. I hate making someone a target and making them look like monsters instead of trying to privately handle the issue. I hate kiwifarms, I hate 4chan, I hate the way we choose "lolcows" and I hate the way normal people get harassed into fame and it justs keeps coming back. It's not fair.

Where is nuance?? Where is the compassion?? If you dont have proof of something then don't smear it all over the place and make someone look like a danger to others. Make yourself responsible for your actions and for what comes out of your mouth (or what you type and post around). Be honest with yourself; you dont want justice, you just want a reason to speak shit of and be rude to someone you dont know for no reason, youre not being moral or rigtheous, youre just a cruel person who thinks they have the right to "push back" when nobody did anything wrong to begin with.

[youtube-arc]

What made you love smg3? :p

And how are u today? ^^

Oh, hi anon, I'm fine! Today is being a slow and lazy day, which is good after a train wreck of a week I had lmao

About 3...well, SMG3 wasnt my favorite character at first, I enjoyed him, he was goofy, silly and funny, basically a Team Rocket-esque villain, a trope I always liked; but he was not my favorite

(Also, he is my brother's favorite, so he made me watch all eps 3 appeared lmao)

Well, when the Classic Era ended, 3 started to appear less, but his schemes were more...evil, I would say, things like Mad Mario non ironically took me off guard and all, and I was intrigued: the series was getting more serious, and now it had the arcs..I wondered if he was also getting serious

Well, when I watched Mario's Spicy Day for the first time, I was 100% sure: the team was taking this cartoony ass villain seriously...and they just gave him the most intersting backstory possible

3's backstory is probably what made me put him as my favorite in the first moment; is so intersting to rethink every single interaction he and 4 with the fact that 3 always envied 4, since they were in college

Literally everything made sense now that we knew that...and the way he told all of it...god, its amazing, Mario's Spicy Day changed the way I see the series forever

As my url implies, I LOVE The Youtube Arc, and 3 is probably the main reason why; his presence, his lines, his plans, everything about him is perfect...and I couldnt bring myself to hate or cheer against him...he wsd an amazing villain, and you could see that he could do better, he WANTED to do better; even if his actions were kinda drastic and targeted, I thought he was more like Waluigi and Bob than Francis, you know what I mean?

And he came back as the Dead Meme Lord and we saw his relationship with 4 and Mario evolve, and his connections with both of them be explored and stabilished as fate...gosh, I started to like him even more, and wanted to see more of him

As part of those cool things, I really love how grumpy, moody, silly, and smart and gay he is...and hes also a tsundere, I have always liked tsunderes

He is funny and cool as hell, I like how contradictory and yet cohesive his character has being, and I love studing him and thinking about his personality and stuff..Did you know that he always putted fancy hats in creatures he wanted to keep as a pet? isnt this guy a delight?

Anyway, I hope you can understand it aisduhuiasdh I just wrote with my heart and all

I love this gay guy I hope he explodes /pos

[aesrot]

Feel free to delete this, but I remember you saying that you liked Sonadow (I think that’s the ship name?). Anyway this is your invitation to infodump about them as much as you want. Also if you want to give fanfic recommendations I just might read them <3.

GIGGLES you shouldnt have said this >:3

idek what i could talk abt bc at the same times theres a LOT but also, despite me being mostly caught up game lore wise, i still dont feel like i have a good enough understanding of the characters, i'll probably only feel that when im caught up w the comics. which,,, will take me a good while to get through (just the archie comics are like over 500 issues long lol)

BUT. hmm what could i say that doesnt really require much prior knowledge...

ig, as every ship i ever ship, i see them more as queer platonic, sonic gives me the strongest aroace vibes, so i feel like his love for shadow wouldnt take a much different shape than his love for his other friends. but their connection goes a lil further to me, bc, when it comes to certain stuff, i feel like they're the only ones who can understand each other. and shadow... my dearest little guy... he represses a lot. his life experience wasnt. the best. i dont think he got that many opportunities to explore his own emotions, he probably cant even name a bunch of his emotions, its just easier to lash out, thats smth he's used to. he knows violence, it feels safer, he knows that dance.

and its because sonic has his fair share of violent background (aka, took up the role of a hero since he was way too young) that i feel like he is one of the few who can read shadow much easier than anyone else. hell, sonic himself is kinda knee deep in some repression (in my own understanding of his character). obvs most of this is bc its a franchise that targets kids, they wont get wild w the angst, but my boy sonic be out there fighting all the time and takes on a responsibility that shouldnt be his, the consequences of his actions can be catastrophic sometimes (once again asking everyone to watch sonic prime <3333 so much angst potential, im not normal abt it), and even when things go wrong, he jut smiles and powers through it. just think this for a second. god. imagine the amount of times he pushed himself beyond his limitations for the sake of others, how many times he pretended to be fine....

and yet. despite all that, they are terrible with communicating to each other, so things get physical often (as in fighting, not sexual, which makes it even gayer to me <3), and sigh. not surprising. put two stupid traumatised hogs in the same room and they'll either zoom around trying to race each other or they'll try to tear each others throat bc they just cant be normal together. ig thats how they communicate, go figures lol

my thoughts are all over the place atm so its hard to make this coherent <- my thoughts abt them are usually just violently screaming and sobbing. im sooo normal abt them. cant get much deeper than this without getting into the Lore, but yeah, ig this is smth

and oh, abt fanfics, hmmm i dont have that many that you could read without any background, but i did just finish this one shots collection thats very sweet and pretty chill to read without much prior knowledge, its mostly just a bunch of fluffy sick fics and them exploring their own feelings.

[clutzicone-dts]

Season 3, episode 1- The Surge

Otherwise known as:-Kirby: Planet Robobot

Oooh! A sleek new intro, remixing the weekend whip for a more technological feel while still preserving the essence of the song!

SENSEI GARMADON BABIGIRL

Okay okay we’re recapping the end of last season, reflecting, rebuilding (RIGHT ON TOP OF WHERE THE LITERAL INCARNATUON OF EVIL DIED), Cyrus borg being another favorite, and…

NEW NINJAGO CITY WE’RE SCI-FI NOW BABYGIRLS AND THE NINJA ARE TEACHERS!!!!

This is the longest they’ll be holding a job btw :)

Also! Zane torture! Yay!!!!

I love seeing a more domestic life for them, they deserve it after everything-even if it’s a bit boring for them

Look at Jay fangirling, he’s wonderful

Wow absolutely none of the kids like Cole huh

Hmmm. I can’t tell if the ninja were teaching at darkley’s or not…

Okay so Cole just continues to be Built DifferentTM

Kai Smith(the struggler)

Zane I know what you are. (Bisexual, he’s bisexual)

That was… ominous…what do you mean, “wait for action?”

You’ve heard of double monitor, now get ready for 16 monitor!!

Jay fangirling!!!!

“Cyrus borg-unfortunately, when my parents gave me a name like that, my future in technology was predetermined.” Oh Cyrus my beloved

WAIT DR JULIEN IS DEAD?????? WAIT SIAT WIST ARE WE JUSY GONNA GLOSS OVER THAT???? I LOVED HIM

Yes Kai do point out the insanity of building a corporate headquarters on top of the overlord’s defeat

Oh Cole I love you

“Oh wow. A statue. Of yourself.”

THAT WASNT OMINOUS.

KAI NO DONT DISCUSS THIS BEFORE EXITING THE BUILDING

…technoblade….. :(

Hm. I fear.

“Mmm… im bored..” “really? No, me too actually.” *GIANT EXPLOSION AND SEVERAL MILLION DOLLARS DOWN THE DRAIN*

Oh shit the kids-

YES NYA GASLIGHT GATEKEEPER GIRLBOSS

Hmm…. Yeah these outfits are pretty good, I’ll probably rank the gi’s after I finish rewatching

So yeah that’s definitely the overlord-OH NO OH NO THATS ONSCREEN TORTURE.

“Cole. Through me.” “Excuse me-“ “THROUGH ME.” ZANE BABYGIRL

Ohhhh so that’s was the blades do- yeah I completely forgot about that.

Oh good the kids are okay

PIXAL DONT WORRY YOULL GET BETTER SOON

This is the season Kai finally gets a fighter jet :)

Oh Cyrus borg how I’ve missed you

Mech counter: 4

DARETH DARETH DARETH!!!!!

Btw whatever happened to the ultradragon?

Wu as many secrets as you hold, I could never bring myself to hate you

LLOYD YES MY BELOVED HE HATH RETURNED!!!!!

Mm. This is slightly worrying.

NO DONT TARGET THE OLD MAN HE HAS SO MANY LOOSE ENDS HE NEVER TIED UP

NOOOO BORG WHAT HAVE THEY DONE TO YOU??????

NOOOO THEY TURNED ZANE INTO A MARKETABLE PLUSHIEEEE

[reverberation-ensemble]

i feel like elena represents some of the more complicated issues in the reverberation ensemble tbh

obviously shes a bloodfiend and she needs blood from living things ( most of her targets are humans ) to survive , and even if her actions were sinister or unnecessary ( like building an entire hideout inside of the citys sewage with human interiors ) i dont think she was 100 % wrong for mostly going after humans . however how she handled that is debatable

i dont think there are many non human organisms in the city ( saying this instead of " animals " because the crabs [something we consider animals] are referred to as Organisms in limbus , though maybe animal & organism is interchangable ? ) and she admits that the skin , bone & organ is not what shes looking for , but instead the flesh & blood of the organism .

i also dont expect her to find a place that just so happens to be giving out blood donations & be able to make sufficient enough funds without starving or dehydrating herself , ( even if they were able to survive without blood , iirc for bloodfiends theyre mostly impulsive & have an unquenchable thirst specifically For blood ) . elena says shes a victim solely because shes a bloodfiend , which , shes not a victim of roland directly for that ( despite blaming him for certain things ) .

she is a victim of the city , she lacked any kind of help she could turn to so she turned to worse choices , while she couldve easily stuck to the backstreets to target her victims , the people there were probably malnourished & mostly boney , so she had people kidnapped from the nest instead . the problem arrives when she brags about her kill count to roland & angelica : 4172 . she absolutely did not need to do this , she speaks as if what shes doing is barely a problem or even honourable , it doesnt come off as someone who was starving and felt like it was the only right thing to do .

i know earlier i said she wasnt 100 % wrong for certain things , but she also isnt … right about certain things . while she did use part of her targets for food she also used their veins for decoration , she felt almost nothing towards them , she only saw them as prey to catch & kill . obviously shes dehumanizing her victims , but shes not human herself . shes a humanoid bloodfiend . maybe you could argue that she should be held up to the moral standards of a human because she can think & act like one , but i dont think thats entirely true . shes animalistic in a way , she has certain uncontrollable urges & needs that a human wouldnt .

regardless , shes still not entirely a " victim " of roland but she places the blame on him since he bested her a major fight few years back . she was a victim of the way the city treated her maybe earlier in her life , but her actions arent really justifiable when she gets to the point where shes flat out bragging that she killed over 4000 people . the system failed her as a bloodfiend but she failed to find a better solution .

but all of this is kinda weird when you take into consideration that the discrimination elena faced for being a bloodfiend is an allegory for racism , ofcourse i know that fiction & reality arent comparable in certain cases ( like roland being forgiven or let off by someone who wasnt even harmed by his past extreme actions ) , but i guess its itchy to think about for me especially considering who i am & what ive experienced . elena is someone whos obviously went down the wrong path due to the discrimination she faced but a lot of her issues didnt even come directly from the racism she faced as a bloodfiend , i dont like to think that shes using it as an excuse or mask but instead that she doesnt realize the full extent of what shes done is awful . ofcourse shes not excused of her actions because of that though .

TL;DR shes practically morally grey but mostly leaning towards just being kind of " evil " , some things she does are straight up awful but some things are just the result of her being chased into a corner . this entire txt was just the result of me being really passionate about her character , i dont know if i fucked up inbetween the paragraphs ( i was constantly finding a way to close this up without leaving any loose ends ) but i think its mostly fine ? im really tired it was like 9pm when i started writing this . as if now its like 10 : 23pm , ive revised the past paragraphs a little to make sure things actually make sense so i think im done . feel free to tell me what you think .

[syrupspinner]

steam next fest 3 the finale maybe

i have recently become much less confident that nextfest is all one word, also

yeah, its missing some pizzaz, like music and sfx work, but the devs are pretty open about it being early so ill look past it. the gimmick itsself is fun! its simple and straightforward in a good way, and i like how it iterates on runs. the good items taking up more physical space and getting burried in your deck is a really good expression of balance. good little roguelike! wishlisted and played for way longer than i thought i would

straight up couldnt get this one to work. no buttons or keys do shit. i unplugged my controller, relaunched it, a bunch of stuff, still stuck on the first screen. shame, i was really looking forward to giving it a shot

this is a good demo! it does a good job at presenting the game and letting you know what its all about. i got the basics really solidly, and i see how the additional environments would iterate on the core gameplay loop. i dont think this ones for me, it seems a bit too sandboxy and score-based for me, but i recognize that this is a well made game and i think itll be really enjoyable for its target audience. check it out if you like simulator/management things, or if you want to try the genre out!

okay, just finished the tutorial, and im kinda split. first, the action feels great and the movement it stellar but yeesh this controller binding is messing me up. it only feels comfortable for me to keep one finder on the front of the controller, and i switch between the bumpers and the triggers with just my index. literally the only games that arent comparable with this approach, by expecting you to use bumpers AND triggers simultaneously, is this and hotline miami 2. the worst part is, i only figured out how weird this feels by the second-to-last tutorial, so i gotta redo all of it with kbm. after that, the game felt a lot more reasonable to get my fingers around (i probably wouldve switched spacebar and shift if i played longer), and i can confirm that the controller layout is my only obstacle to this kick-ass game. i will say that i wasnt expecting it to be a survival game? i thought itd be kind of a roguelike progression-through-a-dungeon thing, but its more about staying in a small space and defending. i already had this one wishlisted, and im glad i know what to expect now, this seems like itll be an interesting "kill 20 minutes before bed" game (in a good way! i love those)

right away, this feels like its to scotland what kisima innitchuna is to alaskan first nations. only its all stop motion and the entire ost sounds like a simon & garfunkle open house. maybe this comparison is stupid, the point is that this is awesome and you need to play it now. it may look like you get what the games about when you look at it, but it feels different to control. i dunno how to explain it, the artstyle makes the controls feel... different in a neutral way? please just try it, words fail me. this may very well be a once-in-a-lifetime game

game froze midway through the opening. man, bad luck today. it gotr working in the end, and MAN does this make me feel like a game reviewer. the game isnt hard per se, i can beat all the levels pretty easily, but the game asks you to be pretty damn talented if you want those a ranks. replay the level, route the best way to kill everyone as efficiently as possible. by the end youre gonna feel like harding. i feel like the full games gonna be a bit to tough for my blood, but im gonna have a stellar time watching the action from the sidelines. catch this at GDQ 2026

yeah i uh. went back to play more. damn this is more fun than i thought itd be, this is a good ass roguelike

before you read on, let it be known that this is objectively one of the best made and well put-together games ive tried this entire festival and all of my gripes with it are from personal preference. trying this game has led me to understand what people enjoy about punch-out (its clear inspiration) better than any 15 minute video essay could: its a puzzle game that relies on twitch reflexes and trial-and-error. its your job as a player to be attentive to the bosses's minute difference of animation to tell you exactly how to dodge and exactly when to strike. thats a great game! i feel genuinely remiss that i dont like trial and error and split-second weaknesses, or else i wouldve enjoyed this game way more. if youre on the fence about it, please give it an honesty try, this game knows exactly what to be and how to be it. the animation is great, both from the perspective of telegraphing attacks and just looking fantastic, the games vibe and personality is choice, and the gameplay itself is tight as hell. please just give it a shot

i guess thats the beauty of a demo, huh? it lets you figure out if youre gonna like a game before you commit to it. i hope if you take anything away from this 3-part... idk what youd call it, i kinda just gave my opinion about shit. look, im trying to tell you to try these games out yourself, hopefully this helped you figure out what is and isnt worth trying according to your own personal taste. and if youre not sure, give it a try anyway. demos are free, yknow

[opalwatch]

wasnt gonna come back for at least one more day but i just need to get this out there-

i normally make jokes about politics from a hxh lens and you already KNOW i use the phantom troupe to cope with everything but i just can't anymore, i can't find any humor in it. the sentence "saiyuu threw up the third reich heil" isn't funny. it just isn't. none of this is funny. elon musk threw up two sieg heil signs today and he's in charge of our government. trump stated there are only two genders recognized by the US government. this will ultimately create a pipeline where my girlfriend cannot get the care she needs and we cannot get married. trump is backing out of the paris climate agreement when the US is already destroying the climate. he's backing out of the world health organization. he pardoned jan 6 insurrectionists, which is a blatant endorsement of their actions. his first act tomorrow will be rounding up immigrants and stuffing them into cages, just as he did four years ago.

im in southern florida at a college being targeted by Ron Desantis. i already face CONSTANT bullying and harassment from the people in my dorm hall because im queer. it's only going to get so so much worse now.

i'm going to get personal now so skip this section if you dont wanna hear opal lore. i have a terrible relationship with my birth family. they're all major trump supporters. they're racist transphobic pieces of shit who do everything in their power to make me feel unsafe. i don't have a fucking family. my parents were brainwashed into the maga cult. i lost my fucking parents to fascism.

i've been agonizing over how to word these thoughts for a few days now and maybe this isn't the most succinct post but i don't give a fuck. do you know how fucking bad shit has to be for me to not be able to find ANY comfort in my special interest? that sentence sounds so fucking stupid but the shit going on in this country has deprived me of all my joy and optimism and hope for the future and this earth that i cant even find joy in the one thing that has consistently brought me endless joy for the past 2 years.

idr what my point with all this was. i would call it a cry for help but there's no one to help us. i guess i just wanted to make people who don't live in the US aware of just how bad things are getting. this is only the first day of the orange bastard's presidency. just know that if i stop posting about things that make me happy it's 100000% of the fact that i now live in a fascist oligarchy where I now have to live knowing that I'm going to have everything I love ripped from me and there's nothing i can do. i just want to be able to think about the phantom troupe again.

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

this girl one time wanted to have sex with me and when i asked to use a condom she laughed it off and said it wasnt cool, and began to chip away at my boundary until i gave her what she wanted. she kept trying to get me to do things and i would say no, and she would continue asking anyway. in bed she said something like “you said you would” and that legitimately scared me, because it seemed like she was just blatantly lying to my face, or just forgot. then she called herself a succubus (A DEMON) and my gut screamed at me to be careful around her. sorry this may be TMI, but im anon so whatever, she said i could nut in her, which is the complete opposite of my original boundary. she was so sweet otherwise and communicated really good. except for when i texted her my concerns about being manipulated. she just became really defensive. im really happy im not “under her spell” anymore. i dont know what she was trying to do, but she could have hurt me really bad

its not tmi, its ok, you know me :p <3.. im sorry your boundaries were disrespected :( ill put my answer under read more cus its probly gona be long , this message had me contemplating some things..

IMO : sex is so tricky its been a struggle my whole life to understand how i feel about it & where my boundaries lie + allowing myself to express them so i understand the struggle u present here altho it's a different perspective.. some people use sex as a vehicle to gain power over others, by way of luring their partner into a state of vulnerability, i dont think that's something demonic necessarily i think it's usually more surface level than that. however

you do see a huge rise in the amount of ppl kind of, trying to personify the succubus nowadays? ppl have always wanted to be sexy but it's like different than the way ppl wanted to be sexy when i was younger. it got rly mainstream to have kind of a demon aesthetic if that makes sense? when i was younger this stuff was reserved for the relentlessly bullied & punished Goth and Emo kids.

but ok when i worked at spencers gifts in 2021/22 they had all these shirts of anime succubus girls getting choked and in bondage n shit, and these shirts were their best sellers they were outselling most the band tees and franchises like naruto.. and im telling youuu it was like, the youngest girls always buying these shirts, it made me so uncomfortable!! sometimes i would walk away and get my coworker to ring them up cus i was like nah im not selling a child that shit...but it really made me think like wow if i was in 7th grade and wore this shit to school it wou;dve been like wearing a giant KICK MY ASS!!!! target on my back but it's like, a popular thing rn.

and im not saying the bullying should return ofc, not the point. but it lead me down the string of thought wondering why this stuff is being pushed into the mainstream so heavily. sex sells i guess $$$ but yeah i think right now it's especially common to refer to yourself as a succubus if you're trying to feel a sense of power as a woman. because as a woman there are very few ways to gain power other than using sex. and many people want power! but i dont think most of them are demonic. just lost..

still its good u followed ur instinct to stay away from that girl because it is really cruel to manipulate someone in a moment where they've trusted you enough to be close to them like that.

yeah i think its rly rare for someone to be in some true demonic possession shit but i feel there can be dark things that linger *around* people who have weak spiritual armor and sort of, feast off their energy & create misfortunes around the person that generate bad energy for it to feed off of. but i dont think they have too much control over your actions like i would imagine for someone who's truly possessed. i feel a lot of ppl have these sort of ambient malignant attachments especially if they keep a lot of dark imagery & symbols around thinking it's just an aesthetic.

thas just my thoughts....really bored tonite so im typing a lot.... i love sex i think it can be so beautiful and restoring, it helps me feel so much happier in life to have good sex regularly i dont think sex or sexiness is evil. i just think its easy for ppl w bad intentions to turn it into this whole twisted ass mind game when it shld rly b so simple and natural and a loving connection that sets u free......be safe out there anon be discerning! protect you heart..<3

[thegreatimpersonator]

cant speak for everyone, but the reason why im so upset at taylor over this is bc she always has a lot to say... when SHE is the one being targeted. like with the ginny and georgia thing, or when damon albarn said some shit about her songwriting she didnt hesitate to come online and say her piece. she labelled herself as the 'resident loud perosn', she made a documentary about how she was gonna take the muzzle off (and anyone who says miss americana wasnt a political documentary must have been watching something else because what the fuck else was it???) but she cant even say trans rights, or at the bare minimum NOT date a man who is against everything she supposedly stands for. its just very spineless behaviour. and then on top of it all, she decides to release more midnights versions which is not only a blatant cash grab but also a distraction from all the noise around ratty, and has the audacity to say 'you asked we listened'. about a stupid song feature, like wheres the energy of listening to fans who are hurt by your actions??? its all just very tone deaf and tasteless and tbh i expected better (at the very least bc she usually cares about her image/how people see her even if she doesnt actually care about the issues at hand, but i guess that doesnt matter to her now either lol)

it literally took taylor 1 single day to respond to the damon albarn article. she knew about it immediately. you cannot tell me she doesn't know about what matty has done, you literally cant. everythings she's done since has been a blatant distraction.

[piratefishmama]

im the one who sent the ask about billy being a bully outside the mains.

i'm not the same person who was doing whatever other bs

i saw someone in your replies talking about him being abused and whatever else, as if it erased his other behaviour.

so i wasnt talking about you forgetting, i was talking about other people forgetting, especially his stans.

his stans will try and justify every action he's done that has negatively impacted other people. they'll find justification for his treatment of max, steve, the other kids. but that is something that I've never seen them touch on, because there no way they can stretch whatever they try to use to absolve him of everything to this kid he targetted.

im sorry if it came across in a bad way, but I was agreeing with your post, its just an offshoot thought I had from it. that little fat kid isn't one of eddies, but he is proof that billy is a bully. if he was okay with bullying a kid in front of witnesses at his job, he would have absolutely been fine with bullying people at school unless he got put in his place, like as you said in your post about Eddie doing

Oh sorry for being defensive! Anons always get me a little eeehhh after someone's been acting out.

Oh god that must have been the other person in the replies, didnt read it! just insta blocked from the notification cause they were out there bragging abt how they could still see stuff 🤣

idc what you have to say if you're out here being a dipshit for no good reason. and a 'neh-neh-ne-neh nehhh' post is just ridiculously immature. Let people have fun on the internet for gods sake they're fictional characters, people can HC whatever they want it doesnt hurt you.

But yeah abuse doesnt excuse anything, he was a dipshit of the highest order.

So many teachers back in my day claimed 'you dont know what's going on in their homes' whenever i'd complain about bullies, school never doing anything about it.

Violence is sometimes the only language they speak, which sucks but alas, put them in their place and they stay away for a bit. it's a tested method and unfortunately it works. They know they cant fuck with you, or in Eddie's and my case, your friends without reprocussion and a concussion is a pretty decent reprocussion.

Billy was only there for a year and a bit before he died, I broke a bullies nose in highschool for picking on a friend of mine and we both got left alone for two years so lmao, timeline seems abt right to me.

and honestly how else could he successfully gather and protect weird freshmen, if he didnt have a proven 'THIS BITCH IS FERAL' reputation?

[puppyminkz]

JASPER LORE WOOOOOOOO

Wanted to post this to show the people who were curious of Jasper's background.

NOTE: There are a lot of details left out on this, considering it's just a written idea of Jasper's Lore lol

It is not written well I KNOW LOL It's literally just a bunch of notes that i tried to cluster together and organize to make sense, lol

Dad was a druggie, mom moved onto another piece of shit dude, being his step dad named Brenden. His Stepfather was very abusive, to more specifically Jasper. Brenden and japser's mother had two kids together, though Brenden never layed a finger on them throughout the years, but for some reason always picked on Jasper. Jasper was an Autistic and vulnerable child, making him an easy target for Brenden. Jasper not being exactly 'normal' made it easy to get upset with jasper, Brended taking any 'irregular' behavior as an opportunity to get mean and/or violent. All it took was jasper to breathe off pattern to trigger that Brenden.

They boy struggled in school as well. Didn't exactly fit in with the other kids (cliche ik lmao) he got picked on a lot, kids could be bruital, often stalking him and pushing him around shouting insults. A common insult being the word 'retard' or 'retarded'. He didn't exactly have friends in this point, he liked keeping to himself anyways, and The bullying wasn't too bad considering he delt with worse at home.

Unfortunately his vulnerability and decaying mental state, he grasps the attention of the slenderman. He'd see him here and there but it wasnt often. Though he was often watching, causing him to always get these horrible headaches.

Time goes by he appears more and more, fucking with him more and more.

Over the years he made three friends. Tomii, Vicc, and Iris. He'd never felt so comfortable and safe with people EVER. He finally wasn't alone, he finally had a safe space. Tomii and Vic were both struggling in their own ways too, so it was nice to have people to relate to. Not only this but he eventually gained a special relationship with Iris, them eventually becoming a couple.

The abuse at home and school continues, the consistent traumatic events eventually pile up causing him to lose his shit, developing long lasting psychosis, the psychotic episodes, voices demanding him/convincing him to do things while being fuled by the years of pent up anger. This and The help of Mr No Face picking at him, all lead to that one breakdown causing him to murder his step father. Soon after, his mother came home from work, being just now exposed to the situation, she freaks out understandibly. Out of fear Jasper killed his mother too. Leaving his siblings alone in the small apartment.

soon after he runs away from the situation to his partners house. He's mid through a psychotic episode, the stressful situation only strengthened the episode more. Jasper was completely delusional and panicked at this time, convincing himself that everything and everyone was out to get him. All it took was that small look of panic in his partners face to convince Jasper that his partner was after him too. That look of panic wasn't meant to be threating but understandibly worried for his dear boyfriend, though Jasper wasn't aware of this, in his head he was convinced that his partner was now a threat. That look of panic was one way too close to the one his step father gave after getting uspet with Jasper, that look he'd make before beating him. Due to the help of whispers growling about how his partner was somehow a threat, This is what lead to him to kill his partner. This was an action he regretted the most later on.

Jasper again, runs off, having no idea where to go, he finds himself an isolated area after hours of traveling. The area being an old abandoned home in the middle of nowhere. He settled there for a while until being unwillingly taken away by 'The Harvester proxy' bringing him to Mr.No-Face's land, Wiping a majority of Jasper's memory and creating him as another one of his proxies, being forced to live in a cycle of killing.

Note: i included Tomii and Vic bc they will have their own stories eventually that involved Slenderman and Jasper lol.

If i do an actual well written story about this, they will be included a LOT more.

@Gaspproxy on isnta: Creator of The Harvester proxy