#i know she wouldnt do that for me even though she even has a car and more friends where i live

[itsalwaysdark]

i wish i had an exact copy of myself. sigh

[tortademaracuya]

I dont think i could keep being friends with someone that badly treated another friend but at the same time I feel like the worst person on the planet if I even think of applying that same standard to someone else

[connorntofficial]

me and my cousin spent 10 hours straight talking abt the Todoroki siblings the other day and these drawings are all the result of that🙏 had to draw them being normal siblings!!! so imagine this is an au where Rei and Endeavor get a divorce right after Shoto is born and Toya gets mood stabilizers and therapy

Toya is still so competitive and gets so mad when he doesnt win at everything! especially with superiority complex he has😭when playing games the other three know that if he isnt winning hes going to flip the board and accuse them of cheating! they know its going to happen!

Toya lives to make his siblings lives harder! but in this au instead of it being. murder. its just him taking any opportunity to embarrass his siblings! they go into stores and he SO LOUDLY will say "oh my god Fuyumi are you stealing😨" HIS SIBLINGS HATE IT!!! Fuyumi is the main person he embarrasses though because she reacts the most!

also these two playing hide and seek^_^ Shoto would hide with Natsuo and Natsuo would get so mad and tell him to find his own spot! and they would bicker and both get caught first.

other hcs is that Shotos siblings would say they are gonna play hide and seek with him and he would go hide and the rest just. wouldnt😭he would be hiding for like 45 minutes and they would never come to find him! and he would get so upset😭😭

when Toya starts driving his siblings would all make him so stressed when he would be driving! pointing out every cop they see, scream if he accidentally goes through a red light, freak out wayyy too much if he accidentally goes up on a curb. all that. HE HATES IT!!! once he got more comfortable driving he started driving poorly intentionally, just to freak out his siblings. like swerving the car randomly, harshly breaking, letting go of the wheel for multiple seconds😭just to startle them.

if any of the kids did Christmas concerts the other three would always cheer ABSURDLY loud just to embarrass them! Shoto wouldnt get embarrassed, he would fully stop singing and wave at his family in the crowd. Natsuo would get extremely embarrassed and would pretend he doesnt notice them, he would yell at them afterwards. Fuyumi would get embarrassed and try to keep her composure but would be laughing and lose focus ! Toya would get embarrassed like Natsuo, trying to stay focused on what hes doing so he doesnt mess up. he would be very very annoyed in the moment but would forget about it afterwards i think.

when any of his younger siblings have good Toya will always ask for a bite and take the most absurdly huge bite ever😨even if his siblings say no! he asks as just a formality i guess. even if he has the same food or even worse, if its a food he hates😭he will still take a bite just to be mean! but if any of his siblings ask for a bite of his food he will either refuse or, if its in some kind of a wrapper, he will only unwrap the smallest bit so they can only take the smallest bite ever. and even then he will say they took too much!

i have a million other ideas and thoughts but i dont want this post to be too long‼️

[stevie-petey]

hi!! can we get a cute fluffy stug blurb to deal with all the angst? your writing is genuinely so incredible i get scared to read a new chapter bc i don’t want to see them suffer but your writing is so so so good it just draws me in completely. I hope you’re proud of come home bc it’s INCREDIBLE i don’t think i’ve read anything related to steve that i love more. and the blurbs?? what else could we ask for omg you’re giving us EVERYTHING

hi dear !! i was savin a fluffy request for when we needed one, and i think after these last few days ,,,, some cute bickering between robin, steve, dustin, and bug is needed.

enjoy <3

"your boyfriends late."

"the bell rang like, five seconds ago."

"hes still late."

robin rolls her eyes at dustin while you shove him off the curb. he yelps in surprise and you snicker. "watch your step, dusty."

"do not call me that." he glares at you, straightening his hat. hes shot up at least three inches since this summer and soon he'll be your height and not so easy to shove onto the street.

"children, please." robin sighs exhaustedly. "i have a four hour shift ahead of me. can we save the arguing for later?"

"she started it!" dustin exclaims, pointing an accusatory finger at you while you point at him and shout, "he started it!"

a car pulls up behind the two of you. "whatever youre arguing about, im on y/n's side."

steve pokes his head out through his rolled down window. hes wearing his stupidly cheesy raybands that youve come to adore. smiling at you, he sends you an air kiss. "miss me?"

dustin thwacks the teens nose, eliciting a very unattractive screech to fall from steves lips. "never do that again."

your brother then gets into the back of the car while you and robin giggle hysterically. she has to clutch onto your arm to avoid toppling over in her laughter. youre no better yourself, snorting with every quick inhale of breath.

"tha' wasn' funny," steve holds his nose while he tilts his head back. hes worried the shithead gave him a bloody nose, but all you and robin can focus on is how nasally his voice is now.

the two of you laugh even harder, and all steve can do is flick you off and pout.

"you guys are assholes." he grumbles, finally starting the car after you and robin collect yourselves.

"im sorry, honey." you press a soft, gentle kiss to the tip of steves nose. "is that better?"

of course your kiss made steve feel infinitely better. but he isnt an idiot. hes aware of the audience in his car. theres no way hes giving dustin and robin even more ammunition against him.

"not answerin' that."

dustin snorts. "oh, so now hes smart not to flirt with you in front of me."

"why are you even in my car?"

"why are you even dating my sister?"

robin raises her hand. "i have an even better question: why am i being driven to my shift that starts in five minutes?"

"thats a great question, robin." your body turns to the one next to you. "steve, care to answer?"

steve waves a sarcastic hand at you, but he pulls out of the school parking lot anyways. you, robin, and dustin cheer. though steves eyebrows are knit in annoyance, you know hes secretly elated as well. its rare to have a day at family video with you and dustin alongside him and robin.

with your shifts at the bookstore and dustins growing fascination with eddie, its nice to just have some time with one another. family video always feels bleaker without the hendersons.

"alright, what has horny heather selected this week?" dustin makes himself at him behind the video counter. long having memorized the systems password, he easily logs into the stores rental catalogue.

horny heather is the name youve given one of family videos most frequent customers. shes an older women with a bizarre fixation for movies with attractive male leads. it wouldnt be so bizarre if it werent for the fact that she regularly rewinds to every single shirtless scene the movies contains.

and every nude scene.

sometimes you hate how much family video knows about its customers.

you plop down next to dustin. "my money is on anything with tom cruise. she seems to have a thing for brunettes."

"and who can blame her?" steve flicks his hair out of his face. "we're obviously the best."

robin throws her jacket at him. "stop drooling over yourself. its unbecoming for a young man."

"dude, you sound like my mom."

"jokes on you. your mom is totally a babe," robin bats her eyelashes at him. "im taking that as a compliment."

steve blanches at this, completely disgusted and offended. he looks at you incredulously. "you hearing this? she just called my mom a babe. thats-thats just so wrong-"

"your mom is pretty hot." you shrug at steve. "sorry, honey. im on robins side."

robin high fives you, snickering in victory. steves jaw drops in pure astonishment. hes speechless. he cant believe youd betray him like this. he cant believe you think his own mother is hot.

dustin looks at the scene before him and shakes his head. you guys are being totally immature. "cmon, guys. thats just wrong."

steve waves his arms out at the kid. "see? thank you, little henderson. god, i cant believe youre the only one here with any sense left-"

"of course, buddy!" dustin smiles wickedly at him. "its silly for y/n and robin to call your mom hot. we all know its really your dad is way hotter."

"what-?" steve gasps for air.

"his broodiness is hot, isnt it?" you grab dustins arm excitedly. "i mean, hes just so stoic. so stern."

robin pretends to faint. "its so... manly."

steve goes to the corner and screams.

which just so happens to be the same corner a poor, old woman is browsing in.

he ends up getting hit with her cane.

its a good day.

[all444miles]

can you please do 42!miles with a baddie like a Megan type vibe? SHE HAS A PINK JEEP

💗💗💗💗

— SHE A BADDIE

— pairing: e42!miles x fem!black!reader — genre: fluff — summary: what its like for 42 miles to date a reader with a "baddie like megan" vibe. — a/n : i felt like i was a lil lazy writing this, sorry ! can yall tell i got excited abt the jeep n the attitude part.. its litch what kept me writing this whole thing 😭 also, a car creeper is those lil things u slide under to fix the underside of ur car — a/n 2: changed the way i start writin a jus a lil, petition for head over heels 42 miles supremacy !! + this was so fun.. like i was writing this n i was like "lemme be this when i grow up" LMAOOO so ty for the request anonnn, mwah and enjoy !!

MILES FALLS IN LOVE with you every second. like, honestly, just do anything, he's wrapped around your finger.

maybe he'll try and hide it, but you make him fold 24/7. you dont even have to do nothing.

it's just something about your energy, the way you dont give a damn about nothing, he just loves it. y'all are like beast boy and raven.

"mama, you killin' me right now." "hm? did i do somethin'?" "i love you so, so much. i swear, you make me weak." "aww, hun, I love you more." "yeah, keep dreamin'. now, lemme love on you."

hype man, hype man, HYPE MANN

when I say if you want to do anything he's here for it, he's here for it.

you wanna get your hair done? he's at your service.

you wanna go to the mall? he's already throwing you the keys to your jeep.

you wanna get your nails done? show him your options (he always likes the french tips, esp this.)

"Y'know Miles, i think this set ain't looking too good no more.." "You wanna get new nails?" "Mhm, wanna help me pick?" "'Course I do, let's see em."

does not care what you wear, he's always gonna say you look gorgeous. plus, he can fight. but, he's always got his hands on your waist. always.

you're your own girl, he knows that. he spoils you, yes, but he'll always let you do your own thing.

he can't explain it, but when you refer to him as "my man", or your anything, really, it does something to his heart.

yk when latto goes "ty to my man"? yeah, that's you.

"My nails? Yeah, my man helped me pick 'em."

you have attitude. Miles doesn't mind, he's a "yes ma'am" kind of guy, but if it's to him, hes gonna shut you down.

a lot of the times, you won't care, and it won't end in an argument, becuase he's still shutting you down regardless.

"Miles, you lost your shit or sum." "Amor, drop that tone f'me, aight?"

you are a party animal, and Miles? He'll just be in the back, watching you do your thing with your friends. If you ask him to dance with you though, he will for sure.

Will he throw money on you? Yes, yes he will. (Not sexual btw !)

Your jeep. He has his own car, but he honestly loves yours the best.

He helped you decorate it, all pretty and pink

He will happily get in your jeep while you blast Megan or Rihanna because c'mon now, who wouldnt?

I'm insistent he's good with mechanics, so he'll tune your car whenever you need him to, bryson tiller or tory lanez playing while he does so. (i'm losing my shit rn.)

"Cariño, ¿puedes pasarme esa llave inglesa? It's to ya left." (Baby, can you pass me that wrench?)

he'd say, sliding out from the car creeper under the hood of your pink jeep, sliding back in after you passed him the tool.

and after about 15 minutes, he'd come back out, putting a dirty cloth over his shoulder, wiping the sweat from his forehead.

its a sight to see: white tank top, slightly stained with grime from fixing your car; his favorite gold chain glistened in the sun, adorned with beaded glints of sweat from his neck.

"Aight, i think she's good, you can start her up if you wanna." "Yay! thank you for fixing my car, baby, I love youu."

you'd squeal, wrapping your arms around his neck to plant a kiss on his cheek, your pink tinted lip gloss staining his face.

"Ain't no problem princesa, I love you too."

© all444miles 2023. do not plagerize, copy, or repost my work in any way shape or form, without my permission.

likes, reblogs, comments and asks are always appreciated !

[mschimdt]

hello, lovely! 💕

can I get nsfw oneshot with mike and f!reader who is the dominant one in their relationship most of the time, but one day she no longer has the strength for staying dominant and Mike now has everything under his control?

sending love and have a good day! (⁠ʘ⁠ᴗ⁠ʘ⁠✿⁠)💕

that one afternoon

KEEP SENDING REQUESTS IN IM GOING TO REPLY TO ALL OF THEM

IK THAT ISNT MIKE ITS PEETA BUT I COULDNT FIND ANY GIFS OF HIM + THEYRE BOTH JOSH SOO 🥱

im actually loving the requests im getting so far,

mike schmidt x f!reader

disclaimer: i have no knowledge about jobs so im writing what i know from tv shows and movies💀 + mike is well off now, hes not struggling with money, english isnt my first language and THIS IS NOT PROOF READ

-----------------18+ MINORS DNI------------------

you were at work, you work a simple office job at a fast fashion conpany, but your manager is a literal bitch and she makes you work overtime, or she has you cover for her 'boyfriend' who works a similar job while they fuck in her office

"y/n, come here" you heard your boss say from behind you in her stupid british accent that just made her sound the more bossier, you rolled your eyes, turning around to face her

"i need you to cover for tom, and i need you to send these files to the board" you stared at her, with a dull expression

"no" you mutteted, staring at her, it took her a few seconds to process what you just said, a unknown expression slips onto her face "no? youre acting asif you make the rules around here, i suggest you shut up and go back to work or im making you work saturdays"

"why cant tom do his job? hes litteraly in great fucking health? oh wait, hes too busy fucking you in your office!!"

she looked at you, everyone in the office had their faces turned towards you

you continued speaking "dont acr all shocked now, we all hear your moans alllll the way from over here, maybe you should quiet down a bit huh? i can report what your doing to me and what youre doing with your boyfriend to the CEO!!!"

"fuck this stupid job, tom can do my shifts too now! because i QUIT" you said, grabbing your little tag, shoving it in your managers face before walking out of the building

you turned on your car, shoving the keys in the keyhole, whilw you waited for the car to start, your head was against the steering wheel, once the car finally warmed up you drove the car back to your house, a decent sized 2 story house you got with your boyfriend, mike, and his sister

you parked your car outside, you got out of the car opening the houses door with the key nwxt to your car key, you walked in, as you tried to pull the key out of the door, it wouldnt come out and that was it you went fucking nuts

"STUPID FUCKING KEY" you screamed, as you pulled at it as hard as you could, you didnt even notice mike standing a few meters away from you

as you continued to try to pull the key out, you felt mikes hand on your shoulder, soon followed by him saying something

"hey, hey, calm down whats up?" you froze, forgetting that mike was home, afterall it was his day off

he pulled your hand away from the key, "if you were more gentle it would've come out" he said, pulling it out gently.

he put his hands behind your back, closing the door behind the both of you and leafing you towards the living room

"sorry mike-" you said

"dont be sorry, whyre you so worked up though?"he said, you hesitated for a second and told him what happened

"glad you finally quit, that little bitch was getting on my nerves"

"yeah- i guess so but ive gotta find a new job now, it was hard enough finding that one" you said, staring down into your lap

mike looked at you, "look, you dont need to get a job my jobs good enough, were not struggling anymore you dont need to work if you dont feel like it" he said with a soft voice, looking at you with his big brown eyes

you kissed him slowly, a needy kiss, you needed this.

that inoccent kiss slosly escelated into a heated makeout session, you on his lap, hand on his neck, while his hands were under your shirt slightly groping your tits

when he squeezed your nipple, you let out a soft moan into his mouth, you felt him smirk against your lips before he detached his lips from yours, moving onto your neck, attacking it with his mouth

teeth biting into your neck, he seperated his lips from your neck, to take your shirt off, you lifted your hands up, allowing him to remove it, before he went back to assaulting your body with his mouth

his hands reaching behind you, unbuckling your bra and pulling it off your shoulders

he pulled away again, lifting his shirt up above his head, taking it off

he layed you down, trailing kisses and bites all the way from your neck, to your stomache, when he reached your lower abdomen he tugged at your waist band, he was in control this time and he wasnt gonna go easy on you

he slipped your jeans off, leaving you in panties, he then broight his fingers to your covered cunt, rubbing circles against your covered clit "oh god mike- more please!" you screamed, abby wasnt home so you could be as loud as you wanted

mike slipped your panties off, restint his face right infront of your clothed cunt, his hot breaths hitting it "please mike-"

he then got up, staring at you, he wasnt gonna give you what you wanted, no, its too early

"one second" he said, getting up off the couch, heading into your room, "fuck you mike!" you shouted, he replied with a soft chuckle, "youre gonna regret that" he went inside, coming out a few seconds later with something in his hand

you lifted yourself onto your elbows "whats that?" you asked, your eyes widening when you realized what it was, a vibrator

"when did you get that? and why dont i know about this" you asked

"ive been hiding it for a while, looking for a good time to use it on you, and nows the right time" he said walking over to you

"open your legs for me" he said, you obeyed, opening your legs, he slowly put the vibrator between your folds, you gasped at the cold feeling of it, he then switched it on

the moment you felt it start vibrating against yoy, you threw your head back, letting out a semi-loud moan

mike held the vibrator against your clit, you jerked your hips up, you didnt mean to do it but you did it out of reflex a few times causing mike to reach his hand out to your stomache, pinning you down. preventing you from moving

after a few minutes, of moaning and whimpering you tried to make out a word, letting mike know you were about to come, "mike- mikey- im about to come"

you were almosy there, when you felt the vibrator stop, you looked at mike, he had a shit eating grin on his face "w-why'd you stop" you said, disappointed

"youre not cumming on this vibrator baby, the only place youre going to cum is on my cock alright?" he said, as he unbuckled his belt, unzipping his jeans and taking them off along with his boxers

his cock slapping against his stomache as he positioned himself between your legs, he slipped the tip in, his head inbetween your neck, muttering soft nothings and praises

you felt the stretch, it burned, it wasnt your first time taking him but every time, he split you open, hes really big

as he continued sliding his cock inside your cunt, you could feel every vein, and when he finally bottomed out, he didnt give you time to adjust

he started thrusting in and out with no warning, moans leaving your mouth, mike lifted himself off you, holding into your hips

the sounds of skin slapping and moans filled the room as mike fucked you into oblivion, "open your mouth" you didnt hesitate, opening your mouth, hair messy, sweat running down your forehead

mike spit into your mouth, he then used his hand to shut your jaw shut "swallow" he waited for you to swallow, whimpers being let out while you swallowed his spit

you were about to cum "m-mike oh god!" you said, he knew you were close and so was he, he kept thrusting in and out, quickning up the pace a little bit

a loud moan left your mouth as you squirted all over mikes lower abdomen, once he knew you were done, hr slipped out, jerking himself off until he came, thick ropes of cum covering your tits and stomache

mike fell against you, panting

" you were so good" he said against your cheeck, kissing it

you layed there for a few minutes, before mike got up "come on lets washup abbys gonna be home anytime now"

you let out an annoyed groan, before getting up.

[yearningandpatheticaboutit]

CHAPTER 18: BRIDE AND GROOM

wc: 5894

warnings: death, gun violence, blood, ptsd

prev chapter

***

san

my nerves are shot. i keep looking outside of the windows of woo's van as we wait ourside the park, counting every car that passes by and even the amount of street cats that i see lurking in the shadows of this shitty area. hongjoong came right to my apartment. if he held out on the attack on the warehouse, ignored seonghwa and kept changbin alive, he would've came straight to kill me. and i wouldnt have seen it coming at all.

and yaera was the one to see him. face to face.

the horrific images that flashed through my head of what he'd do to her haunts me continuously. i feel sick to my stomach. im even more determined to get rid of him, just so he'd never be this close to anyone i know or love. he's a fucking monster. he could have done anything to her and i wouldnt have been there.

i could have lost everything. and now shes out in that fucking park with the man that ruined her childhood and innocence.

"hey man, im sure shes fine," woo tries to comfort me, his eyes worried as he watches me through the rearview. "i heard her voice, she sounded like she had a plan."

"her plans wont always be there to save her," i mutter. her voice scared the shit out of me to be honest. she sounded calm, like talking about the errands she had to run. after everything that's happened, i know shes a ticking time bomb on the inside. like a branch on its last stretch, ready to completely snap in half.

"she got away from hongjoong," woo says. "honestly, i dont know how she talked him away. we both know if he knows where you live then..."

"hes doing this to fuck with us," i say, my hands clenching around my forearms as i try to still myself. i feel like im shaking even though i know im not. "you know damn well she didnt talk herself out of it. he let her live. he could have chosen not to."

and i wouldnt have been there. last time i wasnt there, my mother and i never saw each other again. at least she didnt die, but with how she took off she might as well be dead.

woo sighs and cracks open a bottle of beer and i cant be bothered to stress over it. my thoughts feel like they're racing. but when i heard the shots, thats when they paused. my head went blank hearing six clean shots rip through the air.

my blood runs cold and woo sets his beer down on the dash, turning his whole body to look at me.

"was that...?" woo starts, his face falling. "do you think thats hongjoong?"

realistically, it couldve been any other lowlife because we were in a sketchy part of town. but hongjoong being the scariest thing around means every fear automatically becomes about him.

"where's yaera now?" woo asks me, taking the beer and pointing at me as he gestures toward my phone. "call her! we need to bounce!"

six shots. i pick up my phone and dial her instantly, but it goes straight to voice mail.

fucks sake. out of all the times she chooses not to answer. i resort to texting her frantically, telling her we're outside of the park's entrance. she reads my messages to my relief, but a dangerous part of me thinks...

what if hongjoong has her phone in his hand, and i just gave our location away?

"w-oo..." i say, feeling my face getting colder. i want to tell him to start the van and get us the fuck away from here, but my mouth cant get out the words.

"there she is!" woo yells, rolling down the window and leaning out of it. "open the door, san!"

i slide open the van's door and yaera's on the other side. i pull her in and slam the door immediately and woo doesnt waste time shoving the key into the ignition and hitting the road.

for a few minutes, nothing feels real. i put the light in the van on, and yaera hasnt said a word. when the light shines on her face, i see blood splattered across her cheek. she doesnt look at me at all, but takes something out of my hoodie and plops it onto my lap.

its my dad's gun.

i look up to her with realisation. i think im drawing the right conclusions but im scared to say the words aloud.

"yaera?" i mutter cautiously.

she doesnt answer me, shes blinkling slowly like a zombie. i take her hand and squeeze it, but she doesnt squeeze mine back. god. please dont tell me this means what i think it means.

"what did you do?" i ask her.

"i killed him."

her voice is empty. thats when she finally turns to me. i cant read her eyes at all.

"sorry for dragging you guys into this shit. i probably made escaping harder for you, right?"

she says it casually. i dont know if it hit her yet. i think it did, but shes not ready to face it. my chest aches of thinking her alone in that park with him. six shots.

i take her face in my hands and pull her into an embrace. "im glad you're okay," i say. i want to say more but i dont know what to say. i wont ever know how it feels to do what she did.

i feel her shiver in my arms and i can tell shes choking back her emotions. probably terrified to face them after what shes done. this was it. i cant believe she had the guts to do it, to actually kill someone.

i threw up the first time i saw someone die. even worse when it was by my hands. ive never seen them die, but whenever i beat someone severely i could just tell they werent going to make it. i didnt want to be there when they croaked, so i ran before i got to witness it. i'd hear about it later on, and i wouldnt be able to sleep.

wooyoung is looking through us in the rearview, his eyes visibly worried. he knows what happened and i know hes thinking what im thinking.

this has gotten immensely more fucked up. yaera isnt just a civilian anymore. she crossed over to the other side. her hands are tainted.

"im fine," she says and then pulls away. she cracks her neck and stretches her fingers. "he tried to choke me out but he didnt know i had your gun."

"why did you do this alone?" i ask her, trying not to upset her.

"because i wanted to. who else should i do it with?" she says with a shrug. "he didnt try to rape you, did he?"

hearing that, wooyoung takes a long gulp from his beer and finishes it. i know he cant handle hearing about stuff like this. wooyoung's all good with violence until its sexual.

"i know what you mean but you couldve let me been there," i tell her.

she waves me off. "its over now. where are we going?"

shes being so casual about it, i know shes going to break as soon as shes alone. "mao's letting us stay at one of his drug houses. its in the suburbs."

"im assuming you guys still have to kill hongjoong, seeing as he came to visit you today and all."

"its his sister's wedding tomorrow," wooyoung says. "AKA D-Day."

yaera hums, then notices wooyoung trying to crack open another beer. "are you drinking and driving?" she says, almost with amusement.

"before you hound me like san does, just know im actually a better driver when im drunk," woo tells her. hes being so civil with her that i know this is his equivalent of walking on eggshells.

"well would you hear that," yaera lightly chuckles and looks at me with a smile. i cant shake the terrible feeling i have inside me when i look at her, knowing whats coming. the blood on her cheeks have dried. her hands are tainted. its going to break her.

her smile drops when i dont return it. "something wrong?" she frowns at me.

i pull her into me again, softly putting her head on my shoulder as the chest ache worsens. "i missed you, thats all." i mutter.

***

mao's house is a decent, middleclass two-storey that looks like every family's white pickett fence dream. its hard to tell that there's a drug lab in the basement just by looking at it. but if anything life has taught me is dont be surprised by anything.

and yet, even despite knowing that, i cant wrap my head around the fact that yaera blew santo's head off.

something in me is broken. i thought she needed me to protect her, to always be there, but now i feel useless. i know she can take care of herself, but i wish i protected her better. not from danger, but from this fate itself.

i couldnt keep her hands clean, even if they were already smudged with something dark. i dont have control over anything anymore.

she sleeps all the way there, and when we go inside the house, i take her up to a bedroom since she mentioned wanting to take a bath. i leave her alone to go talk to wooyoung, and hes sitting on the old furniture in the living room, staring mindlessly through the window.

he looks at me with a scowl when he sees me. "what are you doing here?" he snaps. what was his problem?

"whats with the tone?" i reply, taken aback.

"why are you leaving her alone?" he asks me like im dumb.

i stare at him in confusion. "shes taking a bath, woo."

woo stands up and gives me a bland look. "your little girlfriend just blew off a guy's head with six bullets and you're leaving her to take a bath by herself? go make sure she's not fucking drowning herself, dumbass! she was way too fucking calm about that shit!"

the realization hits me. wooyoung is right, god how am i so oblivious? i dont say anything more and run up the stairs, hearing no sound coming from the bathroom. no movement of the water, nothing. but i smell cigarette smoke.

i lightly knock on the door but no answer comes. i immediately push the door open and find yaera submerged till her collarbone, her arm hanging out of the bathtub with a cigarette dangling between her wet fingers. she puts it between her lips and blows out a puff as she looks at me with an empty gaze.

"i didnt kill myself," she says coolly. "you dont have to worry about me."

"i wasnt worried about that," i say. the bathroom is warm and foggy with steam, and her hair is all curled up, hanging into the water.

"really?" she says with a wry look. "well, you joining me then?"

this is not one of those times we can suppress how terrible we feel by having sex. but i dont tell her that, because im scared she'll reject me or kick me out.

i close the door behind me and start to take off my clothes and yaera doesnt even look at me. its the first time she isnt staring at me like some kind of preying animal, which makes me think she doesnt just want to sleep together either. but i cant tell what shes thinking at all, it terrifies me.

i get into the opposite side of her so i can see her face. her legs are lightly grazing mine underwater and still she doesnt meet my eyes. its bothering me so much. she takes one last puff of the cigarette before crushing it into an ashtray on the windowsill.

"why wont you look at me?" i ask her, meaning to be casual about it but i sound like im pleading. fuck.

her eyes finally drift up toward me and they're glossy and red. her face is frozen but i can tell she wants to cry. god, why did he hurt my girl.

"you think im horrible now, don't you?" she says, her voice just above a whisper.

"what? why would i ever think that?"

"do you think we bring out the worst in each other, san?"

her question throws me off, and i dont want to answer it. in the end we stare at each other until her resolve starts to crumble. tears start running down her face as she stares at her trembling hands like they're covered in blood.

"i...i didnt even stop when the gun was empty. i kept going...i knew he was gone and i kept going."

"come here."

i grab her hands and pull her over to me, sending the water sloshing to the sides of the tub. she sits between my legs, her back to me as i start rubbing her hair. yaera starts breaking down and i pull her close, our warm skin folding against each other.

"i want to fucking die," she chokes out between sobs. "why did he do this to me? why did he turn me into this...i hate this. i hate myself."

"he was a monster, yaera," i say and plant a kiss ontop of her head. "you did what you thought was right. i dont think you're horrible. i'd never think that about you. not after everything he did."

"i didnt want to do this," she holds her face in her hands, coughing her sobs out. "i didnt want to be this person. i just wanted to get away."

i let her cry it out, holding her through it all. nothing i say can fix this. the guilt will wreck her until one day it doesnt. until it passes like a headache that was never there.

"we'll get away," i whisper to her. "we can be entirely new people in cuba. we can be whoever we wanna be."

i rest my head against hers as i try to picture it. i want it to be real.

"we'll wake up every morning to birds and a tropical breeze. you'll wake up next to me with the sun on your face. we'll take walks to the beach, and if we live closer to the mountains, we'll walk out on our porch and just look out at the green slopes. we'll swim in the Salto de Soroa waterfall, and i'll put an orchid in your hair. you'll look like a girl from an island, and your skin is so tan its like you'll be a native. we'll have a small kitchen and drink rum every night, i'll take you to town and we can visit the art galleries. life will be quiet. time wont rush us in cuba. time wont exist."

i realized after saying everything how badly i want it to be real. i want to see yaera on a beach in those bohemian dresses with the salty air flowing through her curls. i want to lay on my stomach and tan after she puts sunscreen on me. i want all of that. i dont want this shitty reality we've been dealt with. i wont accept it. i'll grab cuba with both hands once all this is over.

yaera turns around to look at me, her eyes stunned by my words. i rinse the tears off her face and hold her cheeks gently. she smiles at me.

"i want all of that," she whispers. "i even downloaded duolingo and some youtube videos to learn cuban spanish."

i chuckle against my will. "you're way ahead of me, ive just been looking for jobs."

"theres so much we can do, we'll have the money," she says. "since you told me you were in trouble, i started depositing the money in my account every few days. we'll be fine. its not millions, but we'll manage."

man, i dont know where i got so fucking lucky meeting someone like her. i plant a kiss on her lips, short and sweet as i hold my forehead to hers, tasting the nicotine on her mouth. its not that bad when its on her.

"to answer your question, i dont. i dont think we bring out the worst in each other. i think you saved my life."

yaera's lip starts to tremble. "when i was out there with santo, i didnt feel alone. having your gun with me...it was like having you there."

"ive always wanted him gone. i just didnt know i'd feel this bad."

"it means you're still human, yaera," i tell her. "do you think he felt bad after what he did to you?"

she shakes her head knowingly. "he just wanted to do it again. over and over."

"exactly. feel what you need to, but dont forget your life was in danger."

"i went there knowing i was going to kill him. no matter what happened, i was going to do it."

she sunk against my chest, the water submerging all the way to her neck. tears continue to spill down her cheeks as she gazed hollowly at the bathroom tiles.

"i dont know who i'll be in cuba. i just want it to be nothing like who i am now."

"then that's how it'll be, yaera. just know im here."

"you always are."

her voice, that had been wrecked with sobs the entire time, seemed to say that firmly. she believed it wholeheartedly. i needed her to keep believing that till hongjoong and mingi were dead. its all that can keep me going.

"san, are you religious?"

"not really. why?"

"im not either. but i grew up catholic. i think i want to get baptized again. especially after this."

religion was never a big thing for me. i thought of god often, but in a way that he abandoned me somehow. my life wouldnt be this shit if he didnt.

"do you want to do it with me?"

i cant bring myself to say no to her. especially because i know what baptism symbolizes. a cleanse from sin. renewal. fuck it, its on theme for the fresh start right? might as well.

"alright," i smile down at her when she looks up at me. "we can get baptized together."

***

when we're done in the bathroom, yaera passes out on the bed, her legs tangled between blankets and soft breaths falling from her lips. shes absolutely exhausted, she even fell asleep without eating anything.

when i return to wooyoung, theres a guy drinking in the living room with him. hes tall and a fucking unit of a guy. one of mao's guys whos supposed to help us out.

"this is wong yukhei," woo nods to the guy respectfully. "mao's prized getaway driver apparently."

"im not just a getaway driver," the guy says with a smile. he honestly looks like hes never done anything wrong in his life. i wonder if these gangs just have unlimited supply to innocent people, ready to awaken the worst parts of them.

"im also a milkman," he chuckles. "you can call me lucas."

woo and i look at each other but say nothing.

"so you know the plan right?" i ask him. "get us in...we take them out..."

"i take you to the warehouse...ship arrives next morning. we see woo off, then we get you to the airport."

its a solid plan. but i see a shit ton of things potentially going wrong. all i can think of is...me. honestly. im the only one with so much shit to lose. i involved a civilian whos life i care about. now everything had to be perfect because i was already on edge.

i wanted to explain the plan to yaera, but she decided to pass out. when i go to sleep with her, she curls up in a ball close to me, crying in her sleep the entire night.

she shivers in her sleep because of whatever nightmare shes having...but for some reason it doesnt wake her up. she never wakes up. i pull her onto my chest and she clutches onto me like a last breath, her eyes never opening once. its like shes scared to face whatever she thinks she'll see when she opens her eyes. i cant blame her for that.

i eventually fall asleep, but it doesnt last long. because at 8 in the morning, wooyoung, lucas and i are loading weapons into the car.

two massive CS/LR4s, chinese sniper rifles. the sheer size of it overwhelms me, knowing i have to pull that trigger today, and nothing can save me from it.

if i want to be happy with yaera on the streets of soroa one day, i have to do this.

if i want to stay alive, hongjoong has to die.

"okay...this is starting to feel real," woo says, letting out a constricted breath. "are you ready?"

im never ready. not for shit like this. but nevertheless, i nod and pat wooyoung on the back. lucas appears behind us, gesturing to the house.

"go wake up your girlfriend. we're not coming back here," he tells me.

i didnt know that. "are you taking her to the warehouse while we go to the wedding?" i ask him.

lucas shakes his head. "nope. we're all making one trip to the warehouse. cant risk getting tailed by the police or anyone by returning to locations."

"so shes coming with us?" i ask in disbelief.  "shes gonna be with us when we..."

lucas has a sympathetic frown on his face. "i know it sucks, but trust. this is the least dangerous option."

i at least wanted some time to reconcile with myself before seeing her again. i didnt want her to see me right after i kill someone. but fuck it. i cant have everything i want these days anyway.

i swallow hard and make my way back to the house to get yaera. shes completely disorientated when i wake her. "hey...come on. we need to leave this place, you'll stay with lucas while i take care of things. alright?" i say, hoping she grasps my words.

yaera frowns, looking so soft and vulnerable from her nap. it makes my stomach twist. "whos lucas?" she mumbles.

"one of mao's guys. come on."

i place a kiss on the top of her head before getting up. i want to give her some space before all this gets too real. i havent explained anything yet, and im wondering if i should leave it that way.

"wait san. where are we going now?"

i pause at the door. "the courthouse. mingi's getting married there to hongjoong's sister. and then...we're following them to the reception."

"oh."

saying that out loud even feels so fucking evil. but i guess we're past feeling guilt.

"its almost over, yaera. dont worry."

i dont know who i was trying to convince more. her, or myself.

"san?" her voice softens, forcing me to turn around. "please dont die."

***

yaera

the fact that san and wooyoung's lives are on the line gives me something big to focus on so i wont have to deal with what i did.

santo haunted my dreams all night. constantly there, constantly polluting the background. its like he was torturing me still from beyond the grave. somehow i thought that if i got rid of him, all the memories of what he did would go too. i guess i was too hopeful and simplified it all.

hes like a fucking parasite in my brain. i dont want to give him the time of day. but hes all i can think about.

san is dressed in all black, wearing his infamous mask and hat combo. this is san, the gangster. and yet, i still care about him the same. his darkness never scared me.

although, i wonder if hes disgusted by mine.

we get into the car, and i dont get to sit next to san. instead im next to one of mao's guys, who keeps smoking in the car. he sees me hungrily looking at it and i cave when he hands me the cigarette.

on the drive there, lucas puts on the john wick soundtrack of all things. i give him a weird look and he has a smile on his face thats so joyous its inappropriate for the shit going down today.

i turn around to look at san and wooyoung, and i can see how stressed they are and the fear in their eyes. wooyoung cant hold eye contact, looking around like a nervous dog. san just looks despondent. like hes way too deep in his head.

when we make it out of this alive, im going to give him the best head of his life.

hes been so good to me. when i crumbled he held me. when i wanted to die its like he was there to remind me that i so desperately wanted to live. choi san has to live. he made me come back to life.

we pull up to the courthouse, and right there we see a fancy limo pulling away from the courthouse with the back windows saying 'just married'. lucas points eagerly. "we got them just in time!"

"this is kinda funny," wooyoung says out of the blue. "this is like sleeping dogs."

"what?" san looks at him. "how are you making this about a videogame right now?"

"winston's the red pole of the sun on yee, the triad in the game. he gets gunned down at his wedding by the rival gang."

i turn around and give him a concerned. "is that where you got the idea?"

wooyoung shakes his head. "nah. i just found out that after mingi gets married, he plans to take a break from the gang and make hongjoong take his rank in the gang. with that fucker in charge, he'll try to wipe out the whole 108ths. and mingi still has to pay for what happened with yunho. so i thought, fuck it. two birds one stone."

a strange smile crept on wooyoung's face. "we wont get the rival gang's ending though. dogeyes gets what he has coming. we'll make it out alive, because we only gave others what they had coming."

"and what about us?" san asks, looking out the window. "what do we have coming?"

wooyoung and i look at each other awkwardly before i turn back in my seat. "can i have another cigarette?" i ask lucas.

"sorry, sweetheart. gave you my last," he says then turns down the music completely as we continue to follow the limo. my nerves are shot as we take every turn it takes, and i wonder how the fuck they cant see us.

"how are you doing this?" i ask. "how dont they know?"

"most people dont watch the world around them. plus, i think even gangsters want to relax on their wedding day, dont you think?" lucas says with a confident smile. "dont worry, if i have nothing to worry about, you have nothing to worry about. only thing that matters is getting in."

i dont know the plan, i feel like the less i know the better. i look out the window as we pass by the buildings and as i see my reflection, i see santo's face riddled with bullet holes. i jump in my skin trying, blinking hard to make it go away. everyone in the car looks at me in confusion.

"are you okay?" san asks me, touching my shoulder. i swallow hard.

"yeah. just thought i saw a bug."

***

san

the limo stops infront of a big hall and we see mingi get out, holding his hand out for his bride. her dress is big and puffy, dragging on the floor as she gets out. hongjoong gets out right after her, taking her on his arm. mingi runs inside the hall as hongjoong holds his sister's face, her smile big and full of excitement.

im nauseous.

"you guys are entering around back, right?" lucas says, swerving the wheel hard, making the car jerk into a turn. "alright. lets do this."

he parks around the side of the building, right under a tree. we see a bunch of people walking in suits and dresses to go to the hall. wooyoung gets out of the car, pulling up his mask as he unloads the duffelbag with our guns in it.

theres a wall, but its jumpable. i get out of the car after and go first, hoisting myself over so woo can toss me the bag. he vaults over right after, and before we know it, we're in the garden.

we see a few guys with suits loitering around the back entrance. they dont look like security, judging by the lack of guns. so woo and i take the risk of walking right past them.

"hey!" a guy calls us when we're inside. hes big and buff. "who are you?"

"security." i tell the guy. "just assessing the perimeter one last time."

the guy narrows his eyes on me. "did you check with the boss?"

"yeah, dude. he gave us the order," woo says. "do you really wanna go ask him while hes busy waiting on his bride? its gonna look like we dont listen."

"alright..." the fucker still isnt convinced. i nudge wooyoung and we walk away from him. but his eyes never leave us. we had to make this quick. this place is crawling with black dragons.

we rush to the second floor of the hall and we find four guys lounging on rows of seats, hidden behind tapestry and curtains. they straighten as they watch us approach, standing up as someone starts playing "hear comes the bride" on the organ.

wooyoung charges at the first guy, pulling out a knife and stabbing him in the stomach. the violence is a blur. i unload the guns and start putting them into position, when suddenly my collar is grabbed from behind and im yanked onto the floor.

i jump up and launch myself at the black dragon, throwing my fist at him. he quickly dodges, driving a big one into my stomach. im winded for a moment, but i block his knee from hitting me there again. he tosses me to the wall, trying to kick me in the head.

i roll away and start running up the rows of seats, and wooyoung throws a guy down, having me jump over his body as he tumbles. i pull my knife from my jeans, swinging out at the black dragon, who dodges my attacks and pulls out a blade of his own. fuck!

"little help here!" i shout at wooyoung. im not even sure if he can hear me over the music. but woo's thrill of violence is always a plus. he comes running, knocking the guy from behind with his entire body. he falls towards me and i drive my blade into him repeatedly, his eyes going wide as he spits blood in my face. he plunges his knife into my arm in the process and i bite on my teeth, throwing him off me. when he drops, i look around and see all of them bleeding out on the floor.

i groan and hold my arm, the both of us heading for the guns. i honestly dont know how good of a shot i am. ive been nothing but a runner and the muscle. the last time i was behind a gun, i dont fucking remember but its too late for that now.

this thing has a scope. and a trigger. it cant be that hard. and even if it is, wooyoung's here. he'll get it right.

we're in separate corners, the gun subtly peeking through the tapestry. wooyoung agreed, he would take out hongjoong, and i would do mingi. at this very moment, mingi's waiting at the front of the hall in his suit, with his groomsmen standing behind him. hongjoong is halfway down the aisle with his sister, the flower girls dropping pink petals behind her as he walks her.

i put my eye to the scope, aiming for his chest. i didnt trust myself with a headshot. so the heart would have to do.

my arm is hurting like a bitch. mingi's standing still. i want to do it while the music's still going, but i guess it doesnt matter right? its not like the music will hide this motherfucker falling and dying.

my finger rests on the trigger. i turn to look at wooyoung and he gives me a thumbs up, telling me its ok to go.

1...

2...

3...

i pull the trigger. and so does he.

mingi doubles over as his shirt starts to bloom with red, falling head first down the steps of the platform. the music stops. hongjoong goes down. and so does his sister.

thats when i realized. the bullet went right through her head and hongjoong's ear. he looks up as everyone starts screaming and running out of the hall. wooyoung tries to shoot again. he misses. hongjoong runs and ducks behind a table. everyones fucking screaming. he looks up right at us.

at me.

his eyes are wide and half his face is stained with blood. his sisters blood.

we fucked up.

"woo lets fucking go!" i yell to him and abandon the gun. wooyoung stares in horror as he stands up. i run to him and grab his arm. "come on!"

we run down the stairs and into the crowd of people, and we see hongjoong right there. his eyes are murderous as he pulls out a gun and starts chasing after us, shooting blindly. we duck inbetween bystanders, running out of the front gate. hes fucking bolting after us. woo and i dart down the street, making a turn into the street lucas is parked. we hop into the car just as hongjoong appears at the end of the street and aims his gun at the car.

"drive!" i scream. lucas pulls out of the parking as a bullet hits the back windshield, caving the entire thing in. "put your heads down!" lucas yells.

the car speeds off as more shots explode behind us and hongjoong stands in the middle of the street, watching until we disappear out of his sight.

"i fucked up!" wooyoung screams, beating the back of lucas's seat. "how did i fuck up so bad!"

"what happened?" yaera asks, her face crestfallen. "what did you..."

"he accidentally shot his sister," i answer. "its fine. its fine. mingi's dead."

"but we needed HIM dead!" woo's voice completely breaks. "i fucking shot a girl on her wedding day."

"its too late now okay!" i snap. "its fucking done. we're leaving. tomorrow youre going to hongkong and im going to cuba. they dont know that. let them be the 108ths problem. fuck miss A."

woo holds his head in his hands and starts sobbing. lucas starts going at a lightning speed, and i just wish i could disappear.

even if we fucked up. its over. it has to be.

***

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[roseworth]

hey <3 heres what i think of every scene that rosenberg has written with rose

disclaimer: most of this is me being very nitpicky. rose was a side character for all of these appearances so obv i understand that its not gonna be perfect characterization. but i rly like talking about rose characterization so this is just me pulling apart her appearances for fun <3

ok lets go

overall

i LOVE the jason & rose dynamic. im not much of a jayrose fan but since its happening im glad that its like this. i love that its so much "rose is excessively horny and jason is giving her nothing" bc its so in character for both of them. shes fucking with him and he does not know how to reciprocate. they r so sillies

HOWEVER. rose would not just hang around him like shes doing. as much as i like that dynamic i feel like he also has to at least sometimes show that hes. you know. interested in having her around. shes just kinda tagging along and i wish there was a reason why she would put up with him never giving her anything, especially since she has a tendency to leave at the first sign of not being wanted

on a completely different note, im a little disappointed that shes wearing her old costume instead of the new one she has in btbatb/kt ravager. i appreciate that shes still drawn like an adult but i rly like her new costume so im sad that she doesnt have it

man who stopped laughing #9

STRONG start. beats up a bunch of cops, then right after she appears she does her stupid flirting thing then immediately says that she doesnt want to associate with the batfamily. queen.

not to mention right before this is my fav failgirl moment where she goes through her whole plan to crash the car and break jason out of prison. then just goes up and knocks on the door

flips the car over then walks up and says "hey its the fire department. open up" and not a single person believes her. i love her

lesbian rose crumbs <3 i still choose to believe shes talking about cass here idc. shes so silly and this was a cute lil panel

so yeah. she was on one page of this issue but that one page was great and i love her

mwsl #10

shes so lame <3 i talked about this moment a lot when this issue first released but i love it. "somebody had all the fun without us" upon finding a body, then realizing someone else was there and just. starts shooting. she doesnt hit anything. she doesnt even know where the other person is.

my big problem here is that she does not carry a gun and pretty much never uses guns. honestly now that im thinking about it this is one of the only times shes ever used a gun on panel (the other times i can think of being: shooting wade off a cliff after her mom died, shooting starfire in n52 outlaws (but new 52 rose barely even counts as rose), and using deathstroke's gun when she was pretending to be him in deathstroke 2016)

shes not anti-gun or anything but it still bothers me just a little that suddenly she has a gun (hence why i fully believe she stole jasons gun <3)

if i want to nitpick, kate should not have been able to hit her. rose should've seen she was coming wayyy before (bc precog) and she wouldnt be knocked down from one hit. i fear we are headed down a path of her becoming jasons incompetent girlfriend but i wont be too dramatic about her getting hit one (1) time

but other than that i thought this was a fun moment of rose getting hit then jason immediately fighting the person that hit her. toxic girlbesties fr

then also her needing to be held back after she gets up so she doesnt start attacking the person thats helping them <3 i love her

mwsl #11

this is a nice issue for her just because in true rose tradition she LOVES to have homoerotic fights with every other female character she interacts with. the kate & rose dynamic was soooo fun i love it when shes mean to people for no reason <3

i did not like this part though. i feel like there are a lot of implications about rose here that are unfair to her character & her place in the dcu. i'll meet the book on its own terms and say that we're only talking about post-52 rose (blah blah everything's canon rn but this book is very clearly not using pre-52 rose lore) but even then? theres no real reason for her to be ducking superheroes or for superheroes to keep an eye on her. shes not a villain or even much of a killer, the fact that shes "staying off the radars" of good guys doesnt make much sense. and the fact that kate knows her and "studies" her (fellas is it gay to study another woman despite never meeting her) implies that rose is like. a threat. shes just kind of around there is no reason kate should know her like that

cute moment! but also it bothers me. i think its fun that she refused to go since its not her fight and she doesnt want to get into a joker mess. HOWEVER. when has she ever in her life passed up an opportunity to get involved in someone elses problem. to me she wouldnt have even delivered the list of addresses without a fight if she wasnt gonna go along

other than her using a gun again (where the hell did she even get that) i like this <3 her showing up and saving manhunter after she said she didnt care what happened is so her. also i just like the fact that she shot joker

gay gay homosexual gay

the rest of this issue is fun <3 just kate & rose fighting together then getting blown up together <3 this was a nice issue for her despite the problems i had with it

gotham war red hood #2

gotham war break!!!

okay first of all i LOVE that he took her along. there was no reason for rose to be here but jason was told to meet someone and said "ok ill go but my weird friend comes with me" its so funny

ive seen a lot of people complain about the "you're my only friend" line but i LOVE it. not necessarily because she doesnt have any friends but because she would not in a million years ADMIT that she has friends. she would rather be shot in the head than say that she actually likes the people that she hangs out with.

but to be fair.... she also doesnt have friends. "what about the lazarus island gang?" the only person she actually liked there and showed any friendship toward was damian, and they ARE friends but she considers him more of a little brother than a friend. "what about the teen titans??" a) she would NEVER admit that she is friends with any of them b) its technically.... not really canon that she was ever on the same team as them. like i said before, im meeting this book on its terms, and rose being a teen titan hasnt been mentioned since flashpoint :( i wont go on a whole tangent about her friends but given that she hasnt really made a friend in years and never talks to anyone else, i think its fair for her to say that she has no friends

so yeah all this to say: she has friends, but it is 100% in character for her to say that she has no friends. i stand by this line

i dont have much to say here i just think shes so cute <3 i also love the fact that jason jumped straight to "rose is robbing a dead person" instead of "rose is inspecting the body"

but im OBSESSED with the fact that she DOES rob him. i feel like we're not talking about this enough. she saw a dead body and took his money. im not even mad about it because its so fucking funny to me

im sorry jay/rose fans this makes me want to vomit. this feels too "earnest emotions" for both of them. the rest of this scene was fine but this panel specifically feels so :/

"i just need help" "always" and "please take care of yourself" and "meet at our spot" "promise?" "i promise" does not feel like them at all. its a very sweet and genuine moment but they would NOT have sweet and genuine moments! neither of them would ever express their feelings and they would not have this conversation

this does not feel like rose at all idk who this is. where is the rage!!!!!! where is the anger!!!!!!! why did she stand there for hours just. worried about him. why isnt she lashing out

comparing this to the scene in tt03 where she's worried about eddie:

she gets angry! shes worried about him and starts yelling at everyone around her because hes hurt and she doesnt know whats happening. i would have LOVED this energy in this book and its sooooo disappointing that she just. stands there like 🥺 when she doesnt know what happened to jason

mwsl #12

i rly liked this part fhdkjfhakjdfd i thought her pretending to be him just to get batman out of the way was so good and so real. shes helping out AND fucking with batman

very minor complaint here but this isnt even true . she DOES try to run into him in ds16 when slade kidnaps damian and rose gives bruce the ransom terms. also i feel like this line is vaguely implying that she HAS found him (/he found her) on accident before which is also not true given that their only interactions are in ds16 and being in the same general area in shadow war. and also reiterating that shes not a villain so batman has no reason to track her down or cause problems for her but. whatever. this is entirely just me jumping to conclusions about what this one throwaway line means and then getting mad about it

LOVE this. she inserted herself into the situation then complains about it. this isnt her business and shes making sure that jason knows it. but also she completely volunteered for most of this

BOOOOOOOO she would not fucking say that. "sorry about that whole chase" no she would not apologize. "please dont kick my ass" she would NOT say that!!!!! first of all given that this is after gotham war she would probably kick his ass just for what he did to jason. even besides that she would not be afraid of him even a little. comparing their convo in ds16 #5 to this is so sad bc </3 why is she afraid of him instead of being a huge bitch and yelling at him

this ending is really good for her though. she absolutely would dive into the water with joker gas, trash, and dead bodies just to save her friend <3

this is more like it!!!!!!!! shes worried for him and takes initiative to save him by jumping in the water despite it being a very dangerous decision and then insults him while she saves his life <3333 its a tiny bit more of her being mean to express worry which is nice <3 its not perfect but its closer

in conclusion: there are many good moments. there are many parts i like about it. but there are just so many things that dont feel like rose </3 most of the broad strokes are there but it just doesnt feel like her when shes not full of rage and going out of her way to piss people off

[theprinceandthewitch]

Okay but, even though I dislike TTT for making the characters sit on their asses for months for no reason [like seriously, Im not sure why they're wasting time building a door without titan blood. Luz and Hunter both know a door will not work without titan blood.] It's the most entertaining episode of the season for me. When I first watched this episode I wasn't bored like i was with the other two episodes.

It's not just because of the Lunter bonding and Lunter hints - it's that they wrote the episode in such a way where it looks like Hunter is homewrecking Luz's and Amity's relationship. If you were to insert yourself into Amity's POV it looks like Hunter has a thing for Luz. And that is soooo funny to me.

like seriously,

Luz and Amity have been clinging to each other since they came to the human realm. The only time she isnt with Luz is when Luz is at school and this specific day TTT takes place on. This is one of the rare moments Amity isn't with Luz and she's going to be busy for many hours trying to figure out the mystery behind the rebus.

Amity inspires the others to venture into the human realm with her so they can figure out the mystery behind the rebus. Everyone is ready to go into town but Hunter needs to change his outfit because Amity thinks its cringe. So Hunter is like, okay, ill change and catch the next bus into town.

And then he never shows up

So it's like, hmmm, I wonder where Hunter could be on a day Amity isn't clinging to Luz and is going to be in town for many hours...

AND THEN - the next time anyone else sees him, he comes through the door with Luz lying about where they've been and what they've been doing. It's an obvious lie but no one questions it.

At the faire Amity tells everyone - including Hunter - that she wants to surprise Luz with the rebus after the carriage ride. However, after the "Wittebane Backstory" carriage ride is over Hunter and Luz completely disappear. Amity literally takes her eyes off of them for a moment and they vanish.

Then Gus says THIS as a response to Amity's worry: "Calm down. They probably just went to buy some more cars."

His dialogue here never fails to make me laugh because it sounds like Gus is covering for his bro 😭 and it's even funnier when you realize Gus just retold Hunters lie lksjdsldf

Anyways, right after Gus tells her to calm down, Amity notices the rebus is missing... She knows Luz wouldnt take it because she literally does not know it exists. HUNTER knows about the rebus though - AND he knows Amity wanted to surprise Luz with it. So its like... Why would he take it when he knows she wanted to surprise her girlfriend with it? He must have put two and two together during the carriage ride and knew the rebus was actually going to lead to titan blood [they were unsure if it was going to lead to titan blood initially].

But... that doesn't explain why he would take it... everyone was going to go get the titan blood together right after the ride. Perhaps... Hunter wanted to impress Luz by taking all the credit for uncovering the mystery behind the rebus even though he never showed up when they were looking for information about the rebus in town... That's so strange... why would he do that?

...You dont think he has a thing for Luz do you?

Let me remind you that no one else besides Luz and Hunter think Belos is still alive. Hunter didnt want anyone else to know because he doesnt want to scare them. So Hunter and Luz just VANISHING into thin air is very sus. And then the missing rebus makes their sudden disappearance even more sus because Hunter knows Amity wanted to surprise Luz with it. Also, nobody knows why Hunter stole the rebus from Amity - they NEVER get the answer to this mystery. Hunter - nor Luz - never tell them why he stole it. He never tells them he stole it because he thought Belos was alive. So, it is perfectly logical for them to assume Luz and Hunter DIDNT know Belos was alive UNTIL he intercepted them at the graveyard. Edit: So they can assume Hunter took it so that he could impress Luz with the discovery of the titan blood.

It's so fucking funny to me. It makes it extra funny because they wrote such juicy drama UNINTENTIONALLY. This is the perfect storm for Amity to know about Hunter knowing Luzs secret before she did. It also the perfect set-up for confrontation between Hunter and Amity.

[tgirltango]

For the MCYT summer of yuri event.

Tags: Bagi/Tina (QSMP), AU - normal life, mechanic Tinakitten, teacher OiBagi, mentioned/brief appearance of side character Cellbit, Bagi and Cellbit are siblings, mechanic cellbit, first date, meetcutes

Bagi gets ready to have lunch with Tina...

She’s not sure if it’s a date officially, but she really likes this woman.

She first met the mechanic at the auto shop her brother worked at by chance only. It just so happened she kept meeting her over the course of a few weeks of repeated random car trouble. Could Bagi have asked her brother to fix it at home, instead of going out of her way to the shop so much?

... well, yes, but somehow it always seemed more convenient to bring it directly to Tina, it just so happening to be while the auto shop was busy enough that Cellbit would be in the back. When he found out where Tina's stellar reviews had come from recently, Bagi's brother chewed her out about being so irresponsible over a crush.

“You think I raised you to hurt your poor car? It’s your responsibility to look after it, just tell me when something is broken and I've always always fixed it - for free! Everyone is fine, your wallet is fine, your car is healthy. And now what do I do? I go to work and everyone says, oh, there goes Cellbit, with the car-murdering sister, hope he doesn’t treat my cars so roughly. Bagi, you’re setting a bad example!” Bagi “yeah, yeah”ed and agreed that she should probably stop racking up so much in mechanic bills. She needs to face her subconscious motivations and ask Tina if she might like to meet outside of work.

Well, the day came, and Bagi was glad of it. She would have been happy anyway because it was the weekend, after a long week of corralling children who should really be old enough to know better but are instead only old enough to know they can cause chaos. But she spent the morning hours of light wondering what she was going to say to Tina. She didn’t often go on dates, and she really liked Tina. The mechanic was always so fun to talk to, and seemed totally engaged with her even when sticking her head shoulders-deep into the guts of her poor mistreated car. She was drawn to Tina’s personality, and felt all kinds of romantic stuff for her that she hoped could one day bloom into a relationship.

First, though, she needs to make a good impression.

Bagi wears her favorite baseball hat, because she’s going out, not going to school, so she doesn’t have to follow dress code and lead her kids by example (not that it works - the students are always wearing hats and goofing off. It's one of their endearing quirks that no matter how many hats are confiscated in class, they will always show up with another.). She picks out a “casual weekend get-together” outfit that looks nice and waits for Tina to pick her up at the scheduled time.

Tina, being holed up at the auto shop all day and tired of her greasy canvas uniform, had dressed up with style that belied the way she usually appeared to Bagi - when she has car trouble and needs it fixed in the middle of the day, Bagi comes to Tina’s work where she’s synonymous with sturdy and khaki work gloves, taupe coveralls and boots that wouldnt be harmed stepping on a lost screw. By contrast now, when she hears a beep outside her house she sees that Tina is sporting a cute, elegant dress and a makeup look that she learns during the car ride is called “mob wife makeup”, which Tina saw online as it had risen as a current trend to try. Somehow, she doesn’t feel underdressed in comparison to the high glamour influences, though she regrets her shorts a little when the summer heat leaves her peeling her legs slowly off the passenger seat upon arrival. Tina helps her out of the car and they turn to the restaurant’s menu to decide if what they discussed being hungry for in the car was really what they wanted to order.

As they take their seats, Bagi adjusts her collared shirt and finds herself looking at Tina instead of the names of the food items.

She was honestly stunning, slaying the house down, and Bagi hardly tasted the first few bites of her pasta when their food arrived until…

“Here,” says Tina, “try mine.” She put a few different pieces on her fork and held it out to Bagi.

Bagi felt like she was in a painting as she leaned forward and accepted the bite of food from Tina’s fork. Either that or on a prank channel. Something was playing in slow motion, and all she could do was hope she didn't look stupid.

The food was delicious. Bagi chewed and watched Tina take some from her plate to try.

“It’s good shrimp, right?” Tina says before taking a bite of pasta. “Hey, that’s pretty good too!”

Bagi smiles. “Yeah, tastes great.” She privately debates whether she’s brave enough to say “You look great, too," without it sounding stupid and cliche.

The decision is left unmade as Tina responds in the pause. Bagi likes hearing Tina talk. Her voice is nice, even when it’s not explaining her car to her for the third time in a week. She might be a little nervous about this possibly-date still, but at least they’re in it together. Their sides arrive, and they clear a bit of space on the table.

“I want you.”

“Huh?” she says stupidly.

Tina clears her throat and looks up at the menu on the wall again. “I said do you want anything for dessert?”

Bagi might be losing her hearing, then. “I usually go for a chocolate cheesecake for a dessert, but that’s usually for a dinner, so it’s a little early in the day.” She looks to the menu too. “Maybe a fruit soda float?”

“Yeah? Awesome. I wasn’t trying to have a date hinging on dinner right now either,” Tina says, and Bagi’s heart skips. So it is a date! Has been, even. “- because I heard from my cousin that he got food poisoning at the last dinner he ate out for. Man, that sucks cuz he’s a yapper too so he was real in-depth about it. This lunch is great though. I guess there wasn’t really a risk of it relating, cuz he was at a Chili’s in a different state, which really doesn’t say anything about the possible, like, quality of the food here. I dunno, it was on my mind though. Whatever.” Tina’s face is so pretty, but the makeup doesn’t hide her ears going pink.

“I think food should never poison you.” Bagi facepalmed mentally, and kept going to make it make sense. “I mean, it’s - food. We’ve had it for all of history, or we wouldn’t be alive, no? We should have figured out a way to make it not poison you. Food poisoning should never exist. Just take out the poison!”

Tina cackles, agreeing. “You’re so smart, Bagi. They need to make you President!”

The date goes well. Lunch at the restaurant turned out to be less expensive than two mechanic jobs, but not by that much, so they resolve to try a different restaurant next time to try to save their wallets from this becoming just as regular an expense. Tina drives with a steady hand, humming along to the song on the radio, and Bagi notices that the tiny stuffed animal hanging from the windshield is not just decoration, but also scented. It smells like sweet tea and candy fruits. Tina tells her she started buying scented plushies for the car after the time she rescued a stray kitten on the street and it immediately peed inside, laughing. Bagi might be in love.

Tina stops in front of her door and walks her up to the house, chivalrous. Bagi unlocks the door with the key around her neck and then pauses in the doorway, unsure but not wanting to see Tina leave yet.

“Do you wanna come in?” Bagi asks, scuffing her sneakers on the welcome mat. The afternoon sun brings out the teal highlight contrasts in Tina’s shining dress. She looks good standing in front of Bagi's house. She thinks she'd like to see her in this place every day, wherever her home is.

Tina takes the invitation and Bagi brings her in to sit on the couch and keep talking. She tells her about the board games in the living room closet and Tina tells her which ones she knows how to play and which ones she never got the hang of, or just haven't tried yet. “Maybe we could have a game night one of these days.”

That makes Bagi smile. “I always hear about themed times, like some kid’s family will have a dedicated Thursday night is Spaghetti Night or something. It seems cute, and I don't do enough activities. We should do that someday.”

She doesn’t feel brave enough for a first-date cuddle or kiss, but when the hour gets late she microwaves a bowl of Cellbit’s boyfriend’s soup that he brought over in a big container the other day, and they clink spoons and make airplane noises and look at the neighbor’s dog playing in their yard with fallen leaves and golden hour daylight.

“I hope that just because we have another date to plan doesn't stop you from coming to my shop after school in the meantime,” Tina tells Bagi at the door. “You’re allowed to come and talk to me, keep me company. You don't need to break your car every time, or it’ll be too long in between. I’ll miss youuuu.”

“No, don’t come,” Cellbit says, having come home from work while they were having dinner. "Let my mechanics focus on their work!”

“-youuuuur food, I’ll miss her coffee and bringing snacks, Cellbit, jeez.” Tina spins the words. “Aren't we allowed food breaks?”

“No, starve!” Cellbit says, laughing from the kitchen. “Fine, keep distracting Tina.”

Bagi laughs and laughs. In a flurry of bravery, she holds Tina's arm and kisses her face under the early moonlight. All blush now, she stands back and waves as Tina winks at her before driving off. She stands by the door for a few minutes, daydreaming about their next date, before Cell yells at her to come inside and stop staring at the road like a crazy person.

And maybe she is crazy. A little bit crazy in love.

[okthatsgreat]

Just as a silly thought, what minigames do you think your OCs would have if they were the main characters for a Danganronpa game?

OOOOHOOOOOOOOOOHUOU

HMMMMMM okay well i know that the in-trial minigames aren't really catered towards their talents or anything HBGFDHJ but this is a beautiful universe where i can do anything i want....

because in my heart naomi definitely has one of those 2D side scroller parkour minigames sorta like the death road of despair minigame in v3 but it's always moving and you need to select the correct answers and stuff !! like an old flash game HBGFD. i can see it in the v3 style and everything. shes got like three voice lines she says every once and a while one of which is just her going "EUHGUGE :(" every time she takes damage

because yoshito is already a protagonist i imagine his minigames are pretty similar to the others ... he probably has some version of logic dive that isnt a car but is a step up from hajimes longboard so uh. idk. a motorcycle. yoshito would never drive one but the visuals are very funny

giving sae a fishing minigame is ALSO really funny to me.. its like hangmans gambit except really annoying now. super slow too. like oh you thought danganronpa wouldnt have a fishing minigame? DEAD wrong stop the trial and starting fishing for my letters boy

ALSO ALSO i think a lot of them would have rebuttal showdowns/argument armaments !!!!!!! i know for sure that erin has an argument armament just bc she was a blacked in dr:50-- she'd probably be in full costume and everything lmaoaoa. rie would also have an argument armament for chapter 5 even though she isnt the blackened >:))))) she'd have a whole gownnnnnnnnn

[webslingingslasher]

Hey J it’s 🛍️,

So it’s been a crazy few months. The last time I was here was early September when I told you about the cute guy that came up to me at work and asked me my name & about school. I’ll try to keep it brief;

After that, we waved and said hello to eachother in the halls at school for a few weeks. Eventually that turned into full conversations. And after that we were sitting together one day, and he asked me if I had a phone number. He handed me his phone and I typed it in. He texted me. And I had to go to geology, so I did.

When we were talking earlier I mentioned that I worked that night, so he asked me what time I got off of work. I said 7:30 (kinda late for a Wednesday when I have at 9 am the next day - or not, maybe I just need a shit ton of sleep) and I asked why and he said that he might be bored and want to hangout. He suggested a movie - Deadpool and Wolverine (which I had mentioned I’d seen 5 times before…so he KNEW I loved it and even though he’d seen it offered that) and after work he picked me up and took me to the movie.

At the movie he gave me his jacket, was super sweet, and I held his hand. After the movie he took me home and we parked in my driveway to yap. Eventually, he asked if I wanted to make out in the back seat. I HAVE NEVER DONE THAT. So I told him that and he said that was fine and that we didn’t have to but I wanted to so…we did. Sort of. He kissed me but I had literally no idea what I was doing and so eventually it got awkward and we stopped. We yapped some more and he walked me to my door.

We texted and talked in the hallways at school after that and eventually he asked me out again. He waited for my nearly 3 hr geology class to end for our coffee date. After class I went to meet up with him and I was wearing some high strappy heels, so he OFFERED TO GO GET HIS CAR AND DRIVE TO THE FRONT SO I WOULDNT HAVE TO WALK. The date went well and we planned to do another.

So we were planning to do it one day but he got sick (or “sick” - I still don’t know), so I said we should reschedule. Flash forward to the next week and I’ve pretty much given up all hope of him snapping me, texting me, or anything really. But by chance I was walking through the halls and ran into his best friend. He asked me if his friend had asked me (confusing oml) about a double date for that weekend. And I said no. And he made a big deal about having ruined the surprise and I was like “ha ha no it’s okay”. AND THEN he proceeded to rant to me about how obsessed his friend was with me.

He said he talked about me all. The. Time. Wouldn’t shut up about me. He said “yeah no we’ll see something sparkly and he’ll say ‘oh you know who that reminds me of’ and I’ll say you and he says ‘yes’.” He told me he referred to me as ‘his girl’ (weird considering we’d gone on 2 dates). And most importantly that I made him nervous but he was 100% into me.

He never asked me on that date and I’ll never know why. After that he remained unchanged in his not texting me (I’d like to make it very clear that I did reach out to him but not like too much yk? Still, I tried).

2 weeks later and my best friend is back from uni for the weekend. And obv I’ve told her about the weird mixed signals from him and the weirdness from his friend not reflecting his actions and she says I need a clear answer out of him as to whether or not he’d like to date me or not. So we drafted a text and sent it. And he said, “hey {my name} sorry i have been distant. i don’t think we can date because im a pretty solitude person; don’t take it to personal i’m just not very consistent with people”.

So I cried. And I didn’t see him at my job ever again, but I did see him in the halls at school one morning and that day he was WATCHING me. Stared at me. Just like he did when we were talking and before. But after that I didn’t see him for like a month.

Anyways so that’s how that ended. I just thought I’d update you. I’m great now lol. Over it (not that there was much to get over but all my friends beg to differ). And tbh it’s probably for the best - I’m going to an out of state school next year (community college rn) so I don’t think I’d want to start anything anyways. DAMN THIS IS LONG. SORRY! 😭 I’m glad to be back and apart of this community! School has been so fucking rough but I feel like war is over and I can now return to this lovely place. Thank J!

-🛍️

I HATE MEN BECAUSE WHAT THE FUCK.

LITERALLY I HATE MEN.

[stevie-petey]

I have blurb idea for the kids in season one when you have time for it. In season one after bug left with Nancy and Jonathan the kids debriefing on what they just saw. Which is basically just the kids gossiping about what they think is going on between the three. Like Mike asked Nancy if she liked Jonathan now so clearly he saw something going on ya know?

anon i LOVE this one its always so fun writing the kids gossiping about the teens <333

enjoy !

"whats going on with your sister and jonathan, man?" lucas asks your brother as they watch you run out of the schools gym after jonathan and nancy.

dustin sighs and rests his head against the bleachers. "i dont know. theyve been weird all week."

"i think it has something to do with my sister?" mike joins in on the conversation now. "i asked nancy if she liked jonathan and then she got all weird."

"why would she like him if shes with harrington and y/n is with jonathan?" lucas frowns now, feeling suddenly defensive over you. "do we need to do something?"

mike hits his friend with the back of his head. "no, doofus. y/n doesnt need you to fight for her weird honor."

"well, i mean, maybe she does-"

dustin slaps a hand over lucas' mouth with a disgusted look on his face. "dude. your crush on my sister is showing and its gross."

lucas yanks dustins hand away and shrieks. "i do not have a crush on y/n!"

mike and dustin share a look with one another as el, who has been quiet this entire conversation as she rests, lets out a weak giggle. during her few days observing you with the party, its obvious even to her that lucas has a slight crush on you.

seeing everyones disbelief, lucas throws his hands up in the air and groans. "look, this isnt about me! clearly theres something wrong between jonathan and y/n, and if theyre fighting then that means we wont be able to get free rides out of them anymore."

"why wouldnt we get free rides if theyre fighting?" dustin asks, furrowing his brows in confusion.

"because jonathan has his own car and we'd be taking y/n's side," mike says as if it's the most obvious thing in the world with an eye roll. "duh."

your brother feels a certain happiness at the knowledge that his friends would take your side against jonathans. and, even though will isnt here right now, they all know that he would also ditch his brother in a heartbeat for you.

all the kids would.

youre a part of the party.

the boys eat the cookies that you made for them in silence for a while as they think about the strangeness between you and jonathan tonight. while theyre more than willing to defend you and take your side, they cant help but be worried about it.

theyve never seen you and jonathan so off kilter before, and it frightens them to even consider the idea that the connection between you two could be severed.

"theyll be okay, right?" lucas finally voices the worries that they all have quietly sat with.

dustin sighs, also unsure himself. hes grown up watching the two of you become intertwined with one another. now, he watches as you slowly unravel, and hes not sure how it will end. "its y/n and jonathan we're talking about. of course theyll be okay... they-they have to be okay."

"well thats depressing." mike says with yet another eye roll. "why cant we just keep y/n and replace jonathan with someone else?"

"careful, mike." lucas leans in close to the boy now and puckers his lips and makes kissing noises. "nancy could replace harrington with jonathan."

"yuck!" mike shoves his friend away and looks towards dustin for help. "that wont happen, right?"

dustin frowns. for once, he really isnt sure. he saw nancy and jonathan earlier, how they almost left you behind tonight, and he saw the hurt in your eyes when you watched them together. theres feelings there between the three of you, and dustin is afraid for you. its obvious to everyone how much you adore jonathan; your entire world revolves around the guy.

with a sigh, dustin shakes his head. "no idea, man. i dont understand teenagers."

"no one does." lucas rests his head in his hand and chews sadly on his cookie. then, with poorly hidden curiosity, he asks, "my crush on y/n isnt that obvious, right? like, she has no idea?"

mike and dustin again share a look and shake their heads at their friend while el lifts her head up. with all the energy she has left in her, she responds to lucas. "friends dont lie."

lucas covers his face in embarrassment and groans as mike, el, and dustin all break into laughter.

[dogboyklug]

all of the questions for sloth and envy?

TY FOR THE ASK i LOVE YOu

if you wanna ask any of these for a specific oc feel free 2 send another ask in smiles...

7: if your muse could get away with wearing pajamas all day every day, would they?

ll of them yes without question so im gonna use this secrion to talk about what everyone wiuld use as pjs, and what they would Want as pjs

masa has just like a completely normal black bra and sweats but since she was tiny shes desired just a huge pajama shirt n pajama pants. in pink and orange. with stars on em. so badly.

penthe wears a variety of hand-me-downs from sam, mostly from the 70's and all in the most horrible patterns ever. 90% of their morning headaches are derived from looking down and seeing the awful saturated greens and reds of their somehow oversized pajama shirt.theh wouldnt have it any other way heart emoji

lumpy has a totally plain grey tanktop and dark grey sweats and while he doesn't mind he does kinda wish he had something a little fluffier... and he deserves that smt. as a treat.

sunrise usually just goes to bed in his bomber jacket which is GROSS.... if he could have pjs's theyd just be like vintage furred once that not so coincidentally look exactly like if he made his bomber jacket into pj's.

1: on what day(s) does your muse feel most lazy? at a specific time of day, or all day?

hmmmmmmm

lumpy feels "lazy" (as in, lets himself rest) any day he doesnt have work or many chores. even though he does let himself take enough breaks, admittedly its mostly just so he doesnt collapse at any of his many works, and he still feels pretty guilty about it. he treats plentiful rest as a guilty pleasure he doesn't deserve.

2: is your muse prone to procrastination?

masa absolutely is. she busied herself w "chores" (sorting she has fun w) so she had an excuse to avoid her schoolwork as a kid and she now uses that same tactic to rightfully half-ass and avoid doing work for her shitty it job. sadly she still sometimes does the work shes asked to do... for just pennies a day we can save her

3: what chores/responsibilities does your muse avoid doing at all costs?

freya HATES stuff like doing the dishes, mowing the lawn.. anything that might mean getting her hands literally dirty. she has a huge issue when stuff gets under her fingernails. thankfully berro likes doing chores like that so she doesnt have to (until the day he moves out of course...)

4: how many hours of sleep does your muse get? do they feel rested after, or are they still tired?

lumpy gets a perfect 10 hours of sleep every day!

sunrise barely ever gets any sleep, even with all the booze he drinks. he's always exhausted (blames it on all the driving he does, to avoid thinking about how fucking depressed he is)

penthe gets anywhere from 2 to 17 hours of sleep and usually wakes up feeling at least Not Terrible. they go to their job at p much random times and get up and go to bed at also random times so it's honestly insane they aren't constantly sleep deprived...

5: once your muse gets started doing something important, do they drag their feet, take many breaks, and ultimately prolong the task? or do they work as quickly as possible, at the sacrifice of a quality job? or do they work efficiently without sacrificing quality?

sunrise, despite all his issues, has an amazing worth ethic and knows exactly how t pace himself while still getting work done. he'll march through it at his own pace but still get the job done around the same time (if not a lil faster) than most. he's like a puter/car whisperer...

yps doesn't let himself get personal projects that much lmao he just wants to be a househusband....

6: does your muse put on real clothes every day, or only if they have to go out?

penthe, masa *and* lumpy all have work outfits, and so do wynter and sunrise (to an extent). wynter loves making outfits, but on days off he prefers just wearing pj's all day.

freya likes getting dressed up in the mornings so she usually takes like 20 minutes to make the cutest outfit ever before even leaving her bedroom lmao

goldy fucking HATES clothes so she usually wears a bare minimum unless she absolutely has to

8: does your muse complain about responsibilities a lot?

masa used to as a kid. Literal embodiment of "stop naggin' me". was her favorite song as a kid by FAAAAAR

9: is your muse the type to get up on time on their own or with an alarm? are they the type to hit snooze over and over?

penthe used to use alarms. now she just uses max, who wakes her up every morning from 6-15. which is probably part of where her bizzare sleep schedule comes from..

envy - - -

1: does your muse get jealous easily, or does it take a lot for them to feel it?

oooooh... good quastion

i think. tbh most of my ocs get extremely jealous. about Everythint. but i will elaborate

2: what kinds of things does your muse get jealous about?

penthe's deeply jealous of lumpy, as well as sam & max. they're jealous of how kind lumpy is, how many friends he has, how well he did in university, how well his jobs are going... they desire comfort and connection in the way sam & max do but they're terrified of revealing any part of themself to others so they just. dont

myrmex hates herself for it but whenever she sees other trans people she feels an intense jealousy

3: does your muse compare themselves to others often? if so, how does it affect them?

[kusundei]

this dumb fucking bitch . no bcuz what the fuck? whats the fucking point then??? i knew when i got back but holy fucking shit is it so annoying when i am constantly treated like im dumb and have no plans and cant do anything with my fucking life. over and over again its always im fucking useless im an idiot i dont plan ahead i dont think. i dont ever fucking think before i do things because i “think too highly of myself and my skills” no??? you just act like im a fucking idiot???? im sorry i odnt reach your high standards of what you want from me but its not like i cant do wnything at all??? youre more stubborn than me if it truly is such a fucking problem then drop it and stop arguing with me. hell i fucking argued with her and i never do that but im so fucking sick and tired of this shit. alwyas always always and then its “just leave then” okay bitch??? then ill fucking go??????????? but no i cant fucking go anywhere at all. she wouldnt let me. its just bullshit and she walks away because shes “going to get too upset” and then acts like its all my fucking fault and im the one still arguing with her no the fuck im not???? id let it go if you leave me alone and YOU let it the fuck go. if i dont go to edmonds then fine. its fine. doesnt fucking change shit it just solidifies the fact im likely to not go to college and if i do then why the fuck is that up to you?? if i go to college im not asking you to pay for shit. id rather go into thousands of dollars into student debt then ask you for a penny. irs easier this way anyway because then i spend all my time at cascade and i can do everything possible to spend all my time w him. i dont need to be ahead. i just feel bad for sav cuz she’ll be there alone but she’ll live. i’ll live.

its hust so fucking frustrating. and the going back and forth over and over again i literally already caved? said i cant change that and i cant just apply at everett now because its closed. if you dont want me driving all the way to edmonds because im “not ready” then so fucking be it. its always “you dont have enlugh practice” is anyone fucking practicing with me??? is anyone LETTING ME practice??? and its always the small things. “yoy didnt check left” why did i need to i was turning right??? im not going into tje fucking left lane???? its a PARKING LOT I CAN FUCKING SEE????? THE YMCA HAS GOOD VISIBILITY? “You keep driving with one hand on the wheel” okay. im going straight. my car is extremely easy to maneuver i dont need both hands. i will use both hands if im locking in but im going 25mph . but no its fucking fine whatever??? fucking whatever. she’ll provably come back in here and yell at me again because i know her she doesnt let thagxshit go and she’ll keep bringing it up even though i literally fucking said no i wont go to edmonds then. i guess its my fuxking fault i listened to my counselor . “you didnt tell me” yes i did????? this dumb fuck i cant do this shit its so fucking annpying. i dont lkke being likr oh i fucking hate my mom but sometimes i truly do. because you r so immature and so stubborn and i dont caretjat yoyre pregnant and whatever . bipolar disorder who cares i never even acknowledge it ever because im not condemning you to that but god youre so annoying. make up your fucking mind ??? its not eben your problem its mine literally fuck off.

im just so annoyed because i literally said no i wont go. but now shes upset im losing college credits and time . okay??? and??? and jonathan is sooo upset. complaining about me to him like i can hear you guys and jts so fuckign annoying. i jdut wont go i cant change that??? icant change? that??? okay??? imsorry??? holy shit im so upset why cant i flee. icant even go anywhere. this dumb fuck holy shit im fucking condemned i hate all of you. i hate. you all. if they do the shit theyre fucking threatening right now im being so serious ill fucking leave. i will ill go im sick of this its been 2 days and ive tried to be soooo kind and not do anythint but fuck this im tired of it already

[pbandjesse]

Today did not go as planned. I actually ended up going to urgent care. I just felt so wrong. I did not feel like myself. I felt very very foggy. I am feeling a little more normal now. But also still so tired.

I was trying to be positive this morning. Waking up was hard. I have been having a lot of intense dreams. Whole worlds and lifetimes. It is a little exhausting to wake up from. But I got up and got washed and dressed. And I was trying to be positive! James gave me hugs and told me I smelled good. And that made me feel nice. But my face felt puffy and my hair wasn't right. I would try brushing it but it didn't make me feel any better. I would gather myself and did leave later then planned but it was okay. I didn't have to deal with any traffic and got to camp before anyone else.

It was beautiful at camp today. The trees looked so full and gorgeous. I would go up to the art building first. I would move all the tables and most of the chairs outside. I thought they would be useful for the music festival this weekend. But also it would let me clean the art building a bit. So once I got all of the tables out I would sweep a lot of the nonsense. It's not done but it was a great first step.

I would walk to the office. I was already pretty foggy but I was trying to not focus on it. Not that I could focus on much of anything. Chloe was coming in at the same time and I got to pet her very cute dog.

And then got right to work. I wanted to finish the map for this weekend. I couldn't 100% do that without Heather but I could at least start.

Once Heather got in though I very quickly realized I was not going to be able to make it through the day. I felt so unwell. Like I wasn't in as much pain but I felt very very wrong. Heather agreed it would be a good idea. But I wanted to finish the computer work. I would tell Sarah and Dachelle where the art stuff was. Helped talk logistics but I was also very scattered inside. But I did my best.

I would walk up to the feild to talk through the vendor locations with Heather. And I had a much better handle on where she was picturing everyone. I would go back to the office and completed the map and the accompanying email.

Dad called me and we talked for a bit. He sounded really happy. That made me feel good. It was nice to listen to him. Even if I was very much struggling to focus.

After I got off the phone I collected my stuff and myself and walked up to the art building to get my car. Of course I would get trapped by the field trip first graders coming up the hill. But that as fine, I didn't care, I felt a little bad that my timing was bad. I wished them all a good field trip and headed out.

Gabe called me and asked if I was joining them and I explained that I wasn't feeling good but let him know where the staffs and the art materials were. And he wished me well.

I did not go to the patient first I was picturing. But it was fine. There was only one person waiting and they took me back right away.

They took my blood and some swabs. I tried to explain the fogginess. I did make the doctor laugh when I said that this started on Tuesday and he goes yesterday? And I'm like no last week, I'm very good at ignoring problems. So I got a good grade in urgent care.

He gave me some medicine. Told me to keep an eye on it and go to the ER if the pain is bad. But like. The pain has been terrible. How much worse could it be? I wouldn't know when to go. I'm terrible at judging that.

I desperately wanted to go home though. I wanted to lay down.

Driving back home was a struggle. Very very hard. But I got back here and things were okay. I made a little food. Changed into a big t shirt. Put the AC on and laid down.

I wouldnt fall asleep for a long time. I was weirdly anxious about noises downstairs. Sweetp would keep me company. And I would fall asleep for hours.

When I woke up at 430 James was letting me know they were leaving work late because of a late group who insisted on going to the gift shop and then only spending $30. Annoying but whatever.

James would come home and I just wanted to hold them. It made me feel a little bit better. James said I sounded better. I did feel more normal, less foggy, my stomach doesn't hurt as bad.

I would join James downstairs. They made me a tofu, rice, and avocado bowl for dinner. I would mostly just want to drink my little soda and play my little video game. I did finish it. I got the good ending. We moved away and my Karin seemed happy. I don't know if I could handle the bad ending.

I would sit outside with sweetp. And thought about getting a new fence. And putting in more fake grass. And building a little water feature and just enjoying our little outside space. It's small. But I want to make to special.

I came upstairs to take a shower. And that made me feel pretty good. Now I am back in bed. And very much ready to go back to sleep. And hopefully tomorrow I will feel more like myself.

I hope you all are doing well. I love you all. Goodnight!