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Lalibela [Lilith] is known has the seductress energy - red dress is Root Chakra [Sacral] your metaphorical gatekeeper to lust to open your Root Chakra and part the red seas

Kundalini energy

Sensual rather than Sexual - learn the difference

Dark Star [Black Moon] Lalibela [Lilith]

Black or Dark just means the potent side of the energy, called the Lilith energy – its an energy point, rather than a Moon or Star – yes it’s the orbital point of the Moon

Lalibela [Lilith] was Adams first partner before Eve, had Lalibela slept with Adam [Esau] [Satyr] we wouldn’t have been able to tell the difference between all these beings we have down here including the clones, humanoids+ she is an energy not to be played with and Adam could not dominate her or boss her around – she left the garden and she became more powerful because she dwelled in the spirit world rather than the physical world

Lalibela [Lilith] is known has the seductress energy

This ‘Dark Moon Lilith’ aka the 'Blood Moon' [red] energy is going to show the repressed ashamed attributes of yourself especially associated with the Moon – the word Astrology, Astro is Astare – A Star into Ishtar which is also written Ashtaroth [Ashteroth] – when we talk about Lilith and Astrology we are dealing with your sexual nature, desires, lusts and fantasies, your seductive energy, Lilith is mesmerising, captivating and intriguing, she can draw you in, cause you to cheat on your misses – this energy is very desirable for men – you must inner-stand that this energy is in all women, we all have a little bit of Lilith in our natal charts, but all women have her energy, many today are called the Lady of the Night which means sex worker, and interesting enough Lilith names translates of the shadow hour period, many women are good at what they do for a reason, many women have a avatar that is built to attract the men, many have an energy built into their physical look that you can see that she can handle business – men have said, I can she is naughty, what does that mean, that you can tell she is naughty, you have seen women who are defensive or women who are confident when in space and you can tell she knows how to handle the masculine male, she has a power walk and sum glide, she is sensual because she arouses the senses, she activates the MtDNA in men, he cannot do this and will spend a lifetime trying, only she switches on the MtDNA - let go of the word sexual and replace with sensual

Lalibela [Lilith] is part of the divine feminine but she is part of the ‘Dark’ side of the feminine and that ‘Dark’ side is the part that men are intrigued by when its comes to the woman – this energy when a women is deficient in this energy, the nice girls, the Eve girls, when they are lacking the connection and EMbodiment of their ‘Dark Moon Lilith’ energy they lose their magnetic force field that keeps the man intrigued and enticed – that is the sexual [sensual] part, but what also shows up in your repressed energy is the ‘Darker’ aspects of your life that has caused you to go through many catalytic events in your life, it can show up traumas that you may have faced in your life and depending on what house sign that it is in and that will show you where the activity will take place for you in your Astrological charts aka your house sign

Many are a good communicator and even have elements of seduction when they speak, you’ve met energies like that before, its not all sexual like that, the sex energy is called the Kundalini – sum have never used their Kundalini, sum don’t know that they are using the Kundalini and sum damn right know how to use the Kundalini whether in a Soul + Spirit or Mind or Body – they know how to exchange the Kundalini on a soular and spiritual level, on a mind [mental] level and on a body [physical] level – this is also called Sacred Energy Xchange [Sex] – its not all physical - sum one by the way they speak, tone, sing, breathe or write, they wrote you a love letter, poetry+ invokes deep feelings in people and feelings are one of your senses which becomes sensual – you can be sexually attracted to sum one by the way they walk, dress, by the light they hold within them – sexually [sensual] attracted is Kundalini attracted, magnetics, electro magnetics, the soul is magnetic and the spirit is electric – those without a soul and just electric [spirit] cannot hold you, those with a soul [magnetic] + spirit [electric] plus the Kundalini, then your fu9ked, she got you - ether, those with ether hold higher energies and can change others but those without cannot charge those with ether

You could be a good sales person however Lilith does have a Scorpionic nature to the energy, so you could be manipulative or sum times people may feel you are manipulating them, September, October and November or Virgo, Libra and Scorpio – Virgo and Scorpio used to be one house until the female was usurped, so Libra was put in the middle for balance, those three houses are all mine and 9 months back those house are all mine, so you may come across that you are manipulating sum one has you communicate, but you can get through in various communication, 90% of language is body language

Lilith is about asserting your dominance, your fierce independence – you are to command that you are to be heard and felt

Look at Madonna the singer, she a representation of Lilith, yes she is a priestess for the reversed Patriarchal energy out here but she is using Lilith

Medusa [Metu] Sa [priestesses] is associated with Lilith, all ‘Dark’ archetypes – from the Orishas to Sekhmet – its that powerful feminine dominant energy who refuses to submit to lower energy fields, she is willing to walk her own PTAH path

Sum of the lead ‘gangsters’ don’t have many or any brothers, they have sisters and were brought up with their sisters and mother aka all feminine energy and this one male is alpha male when he reaches maturity from the omega – it’s the mother whose energy may at times needs to be Lilith, don’t fu9k with me type, warriors are not just men, women can hold their own, especially when a woman is protecting her offspring, she can have the power of two men if her back is against the wall, she can do this verbally or physically, a woman can demonstrate dark masculine energy, the male is just the aggressive part of the female down here, equally a man can demonstrate dark feminine energy, Lalibela told Eve who she really is, and this brought out the bi9ch in Eve, bi9ch, and witch

LALIBELA [LILLITH] LILLITH [WLILITH] WITCH [BI9CH] ZITCH [VOODOO QUEEN] VODUN [DUN] means ‘black’ or ‘dark’ – go to HINDU KUSH and we have Diti and she is known has the mother of all demons, the text for demon is Daitya and the divine group that Diti is mother also to is the Maruta [Maru] Maur [Muur] means ‘black’ or ‘dark’ aka 'Dark energy' so many of you your mother is a narcissists and their mother is Lilith – do not get mixed up with the word demon and what you were taught when you were younger, especially if you had to go to Church, demon, damon, daimon, diamond, amon, amun, amen – Lalibela is also know has the wife of Lucifer and LuCell-fer is IlLUminate - Cell [amber] which means 'light bearer' Lucifer is feminine

In the Orisha [Ireland] Diti would be Danu [Dana] Diyn [Din] Don [Dun] which means 'Dark'

So, of you will picture in your mind what demon means to you, the realm is called Satanic [Saturn] and one side is Demonic and the other side is Angelic aka good and bad – not all of our ancestors were good energies, or any of the principal energies, nor Lalibela [Lilith] they did what we would called demonic stuff down here, we are supposed to learn from what they done, sum just do exactly what they done, its that realm where you have to decide what is right and what is wrong

Everyone does have that demonic energy about them and equally have angelic energy, one may override the other at times or forever – many dabble into Dark Magic, and for sum they are a protected being, but if they have to they can use demonic forces to deal with what you deem demonic fashion

Sum of these demons are your own poor personality traits that you refuse to look into, people don't want to face themselves meaning people don't want to face their demons, but judge others, that is false light, everybody has good and bad in them and no one is just all good or all bad - can you turn your demons into diamonds, that is the whole point of spiritual alchemy, the part of the great work of the soul and its integration with the physical living divine beings on Earth – you have attributes that may be locked away in your shadow, you may need healing which could show up in your life, it will disrupt your life force energies and is draining you, you are leaking – ‘Dark’ energy can be sent to you and can be in a lustful way, basically it does not just show up in one way, these demonic energies ‘false light’ are going to work in a paradoxical fashion in your life because they are misunderstood, because they are not looked at, they are not healed, its not a properly integrated energy and comes out in you

There is no shame in owning how sh9t you really are, these are your ‘Darker’ energies, we all have them, me included, big time, they do need to be seen and is part of who I am [you are] this is the beast in you, so they do need a bit of a leash, but you do need to feed the beast or its going to eat you alive, your ego is down there as well, below the soul plexus – the root and sacral + ego [red] why is it when you go ape sh9t you see red

You just need to know how to feed these energies without harming yourself [your cells] and harming others, you could be with sum one who brings out the beast [demon] in you and that is who you need to delete out of your life, there are men here who have been traversing the timelines finding you so he can tame the Lilith in you, so he can drain your Lilith – there are women who have demonic partners who have been following you for seven times already – is he causing you to feed your energies beast food [fuel] always bringing out the bad [bi9ch] in you at the wrong time – could be a sibling, parent+

Dark matter is supposed to be mysterious – western scientist study dark matter, spending billions, you cannot work her out, she cannot be tamed unless she says so, you may be able to become one with her but you can never own or control her, you cannot contract her [marriage] – she is a woman of moods [modes] they call her chaotic – she is only chaotic because you are trying to work her out, try working with her from the heart, most relationships do not fail at the end, they failed at the beginning, go check yourself or go figure

Love is electromagnet + 7 senses + Chakra system + MtDNA switched on and mood or mode is emotions, energy in motion, mode, women are not stagnant energy, they are forever moving [energy], they are forever flowering and unfolding, she comes down already circumcised [connected to the spirit world] and he has to be circumcised [physical world] the feminine energy functions well in the spirit realm and the masculine finds it harder to function in the spirit world – however the energy doesn’t care what is working for one and not for another – she doesn’t want it any easier in this realm, she likes living in the shadows like the ‘black’ Panther, she is not hiding, she sees everything from the shadows – think about it, there are parts of us that likes to be unseen, hidden [Gamma] Dark matter, those parts are a mystery, like what Dark matter is to scientists and with Lilith connected to Kundalini [sexual - sensual energy] prowess – she wouldn’t want her Kundalini exposed to the world, many women have energy with sum one but want to know if you can keep a secret or is the whole fu9king office going to know, are you going to protect her energy or tell your best mate, she is going to share herself [her cells] with you, will you protect her – mystery is captivating, so is her Kundalini, also called Shakti and Tantra+ all coming back to the word Kundalini, it cannot be explained, only shown, what she shows you, will you respect her in the morning, men can use the act [action] of sex but without the Kundalini, without any emotions any senses and for them this is just a physical function and not an energy exchange but energy extraction – h3ll have no fury when a women is scorned, when she is scorned the beast side, dark demonic side will show up when she seeks retribution, but do her right and the angelic Lilith, still potent, but intense and mysterious will love you like no other

Lalibela [Lillith] energy is magnetic and draws you in and this energy functions best in the shadow hour period, in the dark, at night, think of her Yoni, you plug into her, the female is inner beings and the man [phallus] is outer being, you plug into her SOULAR system, into her world, not the other way around

You see Kamala Harris, I thought she was going to usher in the feminine principal but its not her, we have Trump laying down the law about gender, men must now play say swimming or basketball with men and he is dismantling the transgender agenda in sum way, its not the feminine energy working through Trump, its Trump working with the feminine energy – he has no choice, from 2011 when LAHAMU [Venus] passed in front of the SUN and that plasma blast hit the satellite [Venus] that was the authorising from Re [Ra] SUN to activate the FEMI9 energy, that was over a decade ago and today we are more conscious about women and children and about the planet and what affects the planet for she is a living feminine entity, he knows the Matriarchal energy must be reinstated in real time

Metu Netu [Mother Nature] is speaking through the Female

Therapy, many are going to therapy and the numbers are increasing, this word Psychology, the ‘Psy’ means BAA [soul] a therapist cannot tell you how you built your BAA and any word that begins with ‘Psy’ is talking about your BAA the-rapist [therapist] paid energy extraction – therapy may help you to start addressing the initial reasons but ultimately rebuilding will come from you – the Crown Chakra is the processing plant, its where you process data, information, it is not for making decisions, but many are in 2025 making decisions from the mind [KHU] Crown Chakra, the Crown Chakra is Purple and is also being affected by UV [Ultraviolet] [Gamma] from at least 2020 they have seen an increase in admissions for therapy – there is an agenda against those who are healing, be careful these ‘therapist’ have an agenda, yes many of you have been taught, conditioned, repetitively over generations – combining astrology with psychology is what is missing from success, [Scholar - is two words School and Solar] many are not connected to the soular energies and so they miss out, the Soular light is missing to which Western teachings leaves out because they are not connected to source – many do not have an activated 3rd eye, which is their main eye, so of course they are going to be dysfunctional, you will always come away empty or drained from a therapist because they cannot give you the soular attributes, so you will be walking around with no power, but feeling drained or even confused – energetic slavery, find people who have experience, sum one I know has been in therapy for 3 decades, maybe that is what she needs, but at sum point you will need to heal yourself, self-hypnosis, with the nosis coming from the word gnosis which means to know, you never had trauma before so where does this come from, what is its source, origin – therapy is a tool, western tool, but is not a cure or remedy, choose carefully who you share information with, they are getting paid to listen to your sh9t life, you don't even have a friend who would do it for free, right, a friend listens, sum do have friends but they are sh9t, cannot give valuable energy and yet you keep them

Therapy does work to get you started but ultimately your healing comes from you, when you are ready, it may not be this lifetime, it may take you sum time to get there, no one can really heal fully but there are ways that allow you to reconnect, allow you to establish your emotional energies – you don’t even understand your own emotions or self so how can you relate to others when you can’t even relate to yourself, how do you build relationships with others when you don’t have a relationship with yourself – the 9ether man and woman have been oppressed for generations after generations, healing whilst in trauma at the same time, 9ethers don’t really go to a therapist, maybe the younger generation nor do they really share with 6ethers who most of the therapist are, so what Lalibela has done is to increase the energies, WAJI [Green] is the heart Chakra and is one of the life force [Chi] energies, individually we are being strengthened and also collectively, the 9ethers are strong enough to heal themselves and must work together for the overall outcome – the 9ether women have been able to use their emotions and connect to others, whereas the 9ether man still needs to connect – the 9ether man will drink, smoke, go gym, do anything but acknowledge his feelings, emotions, whereas today we want him to be in his feelings and emotions and acknowledge them, sum say, he is soft, there isn't nothing wrong with beings soft, children or grandchildren have mellowed him out, his niece or daughter, his woman tamed him, fathers toady are a bit more closer than 100 years

There are things taking place in the 3D world that are affecting the 9ether male, we are seeing more abuse, physically, emotionally to women and children, many men have worked indirectly with their emotions and feelings through their partner and or with their children, especially with the daughter, there are many men who did wrong to a female are seeing what they did play out through their daughter, 2020 is a key year, its 20 20 vision and we are all being made aware, conscious, many of Lilith [Lalibela] daughters and Eves siStars took the female contract which is the oldest contract down here in order of one of the biggest audits on men in this particular batch of humans [humins] to take place, no female was taken in vain, no child was taken in vain, she knows exactly who that person is and who did what to her, payback is going to be a bi9ch on this planet that is why many are suffering, going offline [UV] Lilith does not play

The Moon rules the emotions in Astrology, I don’t deal with the Moon but the Moon affects us all, men don’t cry, that is what they told us, stop acting like a girl, toughen up – the Moon ruling the emotions means you are disconnecting yourself from your feelings and emotions, those [2] sense are missing from many males and females, sum because they have no senses and sum because you have been detached from the connection and this means when it comes to relationship building whether work or with a partner you will fall short, and when you fall short you are conscious of this and so you add a false light to cover up for no light, we all have been given the choice to be real or to steal when it comes to your energy, you will not be able to connect with another person if you haven’t connected with yourself, you will not be able to relate to another if you cannot relate to yourself, many people are compensating for others in their relationship and are drained because of it – aged and dying inside – that was their choice and sum are now requestioning their choice – we are reading everything in energies now, only those attached to the 3D program are still dealing with the physical – we have to be in our feelings and emotions when dealing with one another and we are more advanced than say 10 years, 20 years, 50 years ago, 100 years ago, we can see this over the ages, its an improvement and we will continue to see more and more data in the 3D exposing the length and breath of how deep this goes – the cycle is filtering out the good from the bad, sum will make the grade and sum will not, but the exposure is there – you are using your emotions and feelings to navigate through the Matrix, through life, through simulations, experiences, situations, and you are to say, what AM I learning here, why AM I always in this same position or attracting the same simulations, these are what you should be asking yourself or maybe you already know, you have a dam in your energy flow [river] and all you are doing is going around them, that river [energy flow] will crease to flow and become stagnant which is where you are today, women can move on from relationships but men cannot not, their emotional issues causes their downfall

A woman once said to me, at least you have a pulse, and years later what she said would resonate with me, this pulse comes from my Electromagnetics and for a long time this batch of humans [humins] were despondent – there are a Few Good Men out there that also work with their fellow man and guide them or inspire others by the way they are, many were sent, this timeline is not a joke, we are in reSet and that means we are returning to factory settings, work on yourself because no one is going when you go, this is called individual and has a group this is called collective, we have to do both – our thoughts create our reality and for many of us we want change, we want unity, peace and love, we don’t wars of any kind and this is what we are aiming for and, you heart must be lighter than a feather, you cannot be carrying extra or you will have to pay extra at customs and excise

So your emotions guides you and they also magnetically pull things in and if you are disconnected to your emotions then you are vulnerable, you are open to magnetize any type of nonsense into your life – has a man, one of the hardest things to do was to feel my feelings, was to be in my emotions, one day I stopped pretending with myself, I moved away from those who seem to block me or those I didn’t resonate with but once I started to be one with my feelings and emotions I began to sense those people who I started to attract because I was now one with these two senses, making me an empath, EM + PTAH – I had this girlfriend and she was so resilient and that word is key, women are so resilient, go check the lioness and see how resilient she is

In this 3D world that was created the female [women] were pushed to the side, she was made redundant, her place was in the kitchen, he can have many wives, she can’t drive or men can drive, woman drivers, she has to do sum thing sexual to get promoted or for a pay rise, why do men not prostitute, why do men sell their daughters, this world was created by man to serve man – they already knew that prosperity will come from the female, she is an oracle, wife comes from the word life, to take her life force energies and make it work for me [him] marriage certificate is her contract and the wedding ring [husband] band is the ban, she is not for sale for she has been purchased

Many women display masculine energies, sum have only been around the male, only daughter, she may only have boys and no girls, they are aggressive sum of these females, defensive and argumentative – made to feel ugly, they don’t own their power or beauty, the 6ether women lead the 3D world but they are insecure making all the other females insecure whether in their emotions and feelings or their physical looks including body type, boobs, ass, legs, faces+ all this holds them back, added pressure making her Lillth energy weak or out of reach

Childhood is where most of your emotions and feelings were being installed or not installed, many empaths have been through trauma when they were younger – the trauma means more to you because you were innocence aka in-no-sense because you were developing your senses, you were tuning in your senses to whatever your environment was at that time, so when you get older you realise what you truly were sensing at that time, how you felt and what emotions were going on for you, the delayed reaction shows up, you could have attended a funeral but didn’t really take it in until later, delayed trauma that is now being accessed to – spiritual and soular people are the ones who have had sh9t done to them, that trauma allows them to tap into others – sum will be spiritual and sum will be crazy – there will be a thin line between spiritual [soular] and crazy, talking to the wrong person will have you looking crazy, but to the right person you will be a breath of fresh air, you will be inspirational – sum don’t make it out of their craziness, which can lead to schizophrenia which is cognitive, feelings and emotions – when they say, can lead you to see and here things, if that person has opened a portal [using drugs] then other beings here and in the spirit realms will sit with them, same with alcohol and so yes they will see other beings or told things by other beings, Cocaine users often become paranoid, always thinking the worst or being good and then dropping into paranoia, this leaves them open and vulnerable – you can recover - second thoughts come from you not trusting yourself, if you are being called to sum one or attracted [magnetic] you should question why you are being called there but if you are being given warning signs, then slow down the process, slow down the connection and look at the pros and cons - to heal that inner child, go through your childhood but walk backwards and look at your childhood with a different scope and lens, without disregarding your authentic feelings from those times - sum of the most hurt people are the ones vibrating the most high, you can tell those who were hurt for they hide it so well - the heart never lies and is where you make your decisions from, the heart Chakra is WAJI [Green] do not override your heart

There is no way to eliminate your ‘Dark’ side, supressing it is dangerous, we all have a ‘Dark’ side – what is good for you may be bad for others, they have to accept that about you, you have to accept that about yourself – but if you own your ‘Dark’ side, you can use it for your own benefit, by now you know what your triggers are, you know what not to eat and what to eat [diet] you know where most of your trauma comes from, if you are over 40, then this is you today, with all the trimmings – don’t supress yourself because you will ruin your life – don’t be ashamed about your ‘Dark’ side, don’t hide it, its part of who you are, own it but don’t let it ruin you, all your jealousy and envy, your desires + lust, your manipulative tendencies – don’t be triggered to act out in these negative ways based upon those feelings – not everything we think about is always positive – once you are aware [conscious] and you feel a trigger coming on, move away, take yourself out of that environment, situation+ get back to what grounds you, the ‘Dark’ Moon Lilith which rules our ‘Dark’ supressed emotions and the Moon are ruled by Cancer – do not act on your emotions, they are for navigating only, you are to reflect upon your emotions, what is this teaching me, what AM I learning here, what is this bringing into my life+ and then you are supposed to extract the wisdom, message, learning outcome before you take action – you learn, heal and grow + take the wisdom before you make the right move

Any PTAH [PATH] that you take is still going to lead you to the right PTAH, sum times you have to go the long way round because of sum thing that needs doing, even if you deviate from your PTAH you will eventually find the PTAH for you for there are many equations to get to the number 9

We all have different emotional triggers and this plays a huge role in your life, knowing what they are, is an advancement, you know things that come from the pass, you are able to distinguish triggers from the pass and separate them from now, in this moment, these triggers from the pass are warnings

The Ego, Shadow and the higher [Cell] self [SAKHU] is the Trinity that you need to balance - your heart never lies, many women follow their heart and end up breaking it, it is not because she followed her heart why its broken, its the man whose heart was never open in the first place - you cannot hold energy forever, it was never about breaking your heart because it was over, the energy between you expired, everything has an expiration date, its the process of who you become through that relationship, I'm not Roman and don't have Romanic ideas or ideology, there are those out here who have made decisions from the mind and not heart and they have to look at themselves not you, yes lead by your heart but know that its an initial process, the Roman is physical whereas we know that love is Electromagnetic [EM] which are emotions and senses, its development and evolution - isn't that what life is about

Keep in mind that your 'Dark' energy is your protective energy

Be authentic, authenticity is the key to enlightenment, you cannot be enlightened without being authentic, so if your faking it, you will get exposed

Remember you are on planet earth [KI] to evolve, you develop and then you evolve, you've done that, now move on, this planet is a learning simulation and you are here to advance your skills, you want to see all challenges as evolution and growth, once you realise that none of this is real, that none of this defines you, this gives you a sense of comfort, it does not mean, fu9k it, it isn't real, emotions and feelings are real, for those with a BAA, your soul can bend out of shape but can be bent back into shape, you've seen this happen to many, you can repair, many have and continue to honour their soul contract, many continue to meet their personal commitments, you have light that was given to you because you could do what is required, many grew envious and tried to slow you down but you are still here, if you are still here then you have purpose

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gh0stboy · 7 years ago

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💣 Adam • If you could get one Peaky character as Confirmed Gay (or bi, queer, lesbian, trans) who would it be?

p o l l y

i will never let go of my need for lesbian pol i will take it to my fuckin grave man

#asks #i know she slept with men in the show. but repression #i just. i dont even have an excuse #i just want pol to be gay #hethrewmyheartinthecut

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maidenvault · 3 years ago

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please talk more about the weird psychosexual vibes in The Batman because I felt troubled by some of it but it also felt hot?

Oh my God, so. I’d say what makes it work despite having an uncomfortable dynamic at parts is that Selina’s the one who is so transparently into him and always initiating it when they kiss. The way her eyes roam up and down him when they first look at each other and again later when she says “I have a thing about strays”...LOL he doesn’t know what to do with this!! And that line says so much about how she instinctively recognizes another damaged person who has been deprived of so much and hides it, who has reasons for all of his giant flaws, which has to be largely what draws them to each other. I love that it’s never commented on by either of them that they’re both dressed up like weirdos. They’ve both been hurt badly enough to leave any sense of normalcy behind in some single-minded pursuit that skirts the law, and it doesn’t need comment or explanation because they both get it.

And it’s such a testament to Pattinson’s performance that you buy her attraction to him even though she never sees his face. It’s unbelievable how expressive he manages to be with the cowl on. His eyes soften so much when he looks at her closely. This is such a unique and strange portrayal of Batman, the more he acts hard and impassive the more this weird vulnerability seems to come through. He’s so repressed and locked inside himself. How can she resist?

It also definitely helps, at least for me, that I think the relationship is supposed to be troubling and there is a purpose to that. There are a lot of parallels between Batman and the Riddler in this movie, and this Riddler is clearly a representation of the gross, radicalized 8chan incel type. When he describes how Bruce grew up safely removed from the common people’s problems and just watching them from his tower, it’s more apt than he could know because Batman has made a whole damn thing out of studying people from a distance and uses his own technology to survey and record them. His detachment from the world around him and resulting bad social skills definitely includes not relating to women very well. He pressures Selina into situations she’s not fully comfortable with, and so stupidly can’t see her discomfort when Falcone talks to her. He watches her changing through her window, obviously not for pervy reasons and really not seeing much compared to what she was wearing before but DUDE NO. (I think it’s interesting, though, that once he’s made himself known to her and wants her to cooperate with him he lets her know right off the bat how long he’s been following her and that he was watching her at her place, by saying something regarding Annika like “She did seem upset.”)

I feel like I have to talk about an interpretation I’ve only recently come across, that what Bruce is really freaking out about re: her knowing Falcone is the possibility that she is OMG a sex worker!! And that the twist about him being her father disappointingly lets him off the hook for his non-empathetic attitude about that. If that is actually what’s intended without the film more clearly saying it (ridiculously, it's trying to not be completely inappropriate for children), then indeed that is exceedingly gross and ugly and can’t really be excused, just adamantly ignored as subtext.

I really don’t think that’s what’s going on, though? He knows Selina didn’t work in the 44 Below like Annika, she isn’t recognized there. When Bruce starts obsessing over whether she might have slept with Falcone, to me it’s clear he’s imagining something more personal than the transactional and coercive situation of being an escort for dangerous men like this, hence the judgment. The fact that the latter, much darker possibility doesn’t even seem to occur to him probably further shows his privilege and cluelessness about women’s experience, and maybe that should have been addressed somehow. But it just seems absurd to think when he’s obsessively replaying the footage of her talking about Falcone, he’s disgustedly imagining that she’s *gasp* been paid for sex. That’s so uninteresting and cartoonishly puritanical it’s hard for me to give this otherwise really good screenplay that little credit. It’s more than that, Bruce is trying to figure out what her deal is and if she’s even a trustworthy person. She doesn’t seem like someone who’d be messing with a place like the Iceberg Lounge out of desperation; she’s a skilled cat burglar and there’s clearly more to her than she’s told him. Bruce is unforgiving of weakness in himself and he is very attracted to Selina despite not being sure he can trust her, so he’s really unfair in judging her based on what information he has as if this can guard him from being femme-fataled. Yeah, it’s sexism. But hopefully not that level of sexism.

After she gets the cash, his ultimate conclusion before she tells him the truth is that she got close to the mob to steal from them. It’s money earned by destroying lives which as far as he can see she took for purely self-serving reasons, and he hoped there was more to her than this. That this was apparently her motivation for associating with such terrible people, selling drugs in the club and who knows what else, is disappointing. It’s definitely a bunch of bullshit how judgmentally he confronts her about it (she just found her girlfriend dead in a trunk, you could at least just ghost her if you don’t like her anymore like a normal person but nooo).

So yeah, Bruce treats her in a fucked up way through some of this movie. But she calls him out on his privileged way of thinking and shows him that other people’s lives and choices can be much more complicated than his have ever been. And honestly, I’m not sure that their connection evolves to much more than sexual attraction until the moment he stops her from killing Falcone. Earlier when he gives her the “Then you’re no better than him” line he is as usual applying to everyone else the rigid moral standard he holds himself to as if he’s just like everyone else (and projecting like hell since he’s just learned how one mistake of his father would have tainted all the good he ever could have done from that point on if he was able to continue a political career). But later he’s empathizing with her, actually meaningfully reaching out to her as someone who is also traumatized, because he cares and killing her own father isn’t something he wants her to carry.

(Then of course not long after she was just strangled by her own dad, she gets attacked by redpilled guy #7 and Bruce very nearly crosses that line himself by fucking murdering the guy and it's maybe the most fucked up and sexy thing in the movie. Put me in jail.)

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utilitycaster · 3 years ago

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I have my own personal reasons for why I think the fandom at large doesn't hc Fjord and Jester as bi. So, for a lot of the middle of campaign 2, a lot of people thought that Fjord and Jesters stories might end up involving explorations of heteronormativity in some way. Their backstories did nicely set them up for that kind of thing - Jester, after reading romance novels her whole life, developed a crush on literally the first guy she ever met, which she started to grow out of when it didn't meet her expectations, and Fjord, who showed active disinterest in women and romance, said he hadn't had much experience with women, and seemingly slept with Avantika mostly out of obligation. I don't think people who read the story that way were pulling it out of thin air. But, because of this, the types of people who were likely to hc them as bi got really excited about Fjorclay and BeauJester, and then completely lost interest when those ships didn't happen. Thus leaving all the shipping to be done by people who, for whatever reason, maybe aren't as likely to hc them as bi.

I think I said this in some earlier responses to this topic but I don't agree that that's the cause:

1. It is true that Matt and Laura are real-world people with real world ideas of what romance novels that are influenced by the heteronormative society they and we all live in, but at least in-universe the assumption that "reads romance novels"="only experiences heteronormative narratives" is utterly false given what we know of Marion (ie, openly takes clients across the gender spectrum) and the Menagerie Coast. Like, do people think Artagan is telling Jester no queer narratives? Heteronormativity doesn't actually exist in-universe.

2. I fail to see how Fjord didn't show interest in women and romance. He was uncomfortable with being hit on aggressively by Jester early on, but he himself hit on Yasha in like, the first episode, and no one made him sleep with Avantika the first time. "Discomfort with a topic" doesn't mean "not interested"; it can easily mean "is awkward/insecure/repressed and doesn't know how to show interest in a healthy manner".

Like, I don't think the people were pulling that story out of thin air entirely but it was certainly rather flimsy in my opinion. (Also, worth noting that while this wasn't something we knew during the campaign, Jester developed at least a general interest in a different boy in her backstory comic).

3. Obviously different people have different experiences but actually the people who I've found tend to headcanon Jester and/or Fjord as bi are more likely to be people who shipped them together. A fairly significant argument that was made in favor of Beau/Jester was that Jester was a lesbian and didn't know it (despite, again, Exandria not having the concept of compulsory heterosexuality). You yourself are saying that people thought Fjord had no interest in women - which bi men do, in fact, have, otherwise they would be gay men.

And finally:

I very specifically chose Keyleth and Percy as my comparison for a reason and that's because neither of them were ever shown having any romantic entanglements with women (in Keyleth's case) or men (in Percy's). At most, they tended to attract same-gender interest, and in Keyleth's case indicated that she thought Vex was very cool. Both were only ever depicted in M/F relationships. The same is true for Fjord and Jester, and yet, Keyleth and Percy are both largely interpreted as bisexual to the point that some people thought it was outright confirmed in canon, and Fjord and Jester, while headcanoned as bi by a decent number of people, don't receive that same assumption.

Bisexuality literally refers to being attracted to multiple genders. Like, it's kind of the entire concept. I do not have the time, patience, or willingness to tolerate fools to have any thoughts for people who think that bisexuality only counts if you're in a same-gender relationship other than "go play in traffic".

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I wonder if they were trying to plant the idea in our heads of two men and a woman sleeping together. Like Avery and Max and Tristan don’t realllllyyyyyy even consider other options. Tristan says it’s the most obvious option. Avery agrees. Then Max. Reluctantly agrees. Kind of like the threesome. It was Tristan who brought it up. Then Avery went along. Then Max somewhat reluctantly but with very little convincing admitted he’d like it. So it does make sense that they just immediately went into “Clearly the groom and best man are sleeping together along with the bride sleeping with the groom” Just immediately “Eric is bi and sleeping with the best man” a threesome was probably in all of their heads already at this point Avery had kissed both of them and slept with Max. Could they have been trying to show us how they all immediately identified with Eric being bisexual? Or being sexually repressed? OR. Is it none of that and instead they made it that the bride was sleeping with the groom and the best man to keep it heterosexual? Because clearly that storyline was supposed to show us that these characters basically had their entire lives ruined by having to perform heterosexuality and monogamy. The expectations of that and the refusal to consider other options were so incredibly suffocating to these people that they just ignored it and ignored it until it literally caused a death. Because the repression was so severe by everyone. And Ody3 watched it all. And that’s part of why Ody3 basically threw caution to the wind and decided to stop performing heteronormative monogamy themselves. Because we do know that they’re all repressed in some way. Avery is repressing her feelings towards Tristan that she CLEARLY has and just letting it pop out in bits of jealousy. And refusing to say she actually DOES want a relationship because she’s terrified of relationships after what her ex husband so she’s just saying “Let’s have some fun” basically to these two men she knows are obsessed with commitment. Tristan is repressing his feelings towards Max because he’s so laser focused on Avery and terrified that goung outside of his heteronormative monogamous ideals will cause him to be abandoned. And Max is repressing his feelings for Tristan because they’re untraditional and that scares him because he likes being in his little box. In a way. The groom,the bride and the best man are the same as Ody3. Two men and a woman both men who love the same woman and two men who clearly care for each other (not sure if they have feelings for each other like Tristan and Max but point still stands) but because they refuse to acknowledge this fact and continue to follow the heteronormative monogamous path that none of them are clearly ACTUALLY happy with it leads them to cheat and lie and hurt each other. When I doubt any of them actually want that. Maybe if they had all had a conversation like Ody3 then none of this would have happened

I’ll never get over the weirdo bride-groom-best man storyline. Why did you deceive even the audience about this being a torrid gay affair. Is this subtext play? Like, is there dramatic irony where we the audience are privy to information the characters dont have confirmed, but we only know this information from subjective cues like the shot style?? Or are we supposed to take the show at face value? I know there’s no real “supposed”, you can do anything. I mean comprehension of intent in order to make assumptions & predictions. It’s just a really weird storyline for being so built on audience expectation and subverting them, and for how the trio in the very show are voicing these concerns and are having THEIR expectations subverted! And for this being the threesome episode. All the failures of monogamy and perhaps sexuality so suppressed that even the show cant be clear on it, leading to that happening directly to our main characters. Very interesting indeed. Months later still thinking

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gaelic-symphony · 3 years ago

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🔥 - your opinion on Jemily (and gay/bi JJ in general)

Hi, nonnie, thanks for stopping by!

My opinion on Jemily may ruffle some feathers, but I only like them/ship them under very specific circumstances. I like the pairing and think they have great chemistry and a wonderful bond, but I don't like them as an actual couple. I actively dislike married Jemily and soft, domestic Jemily and Jemily as moms and all those other OTP situations that wlw shippers in this fandom like to put them in. Jemily must be angsty, messy, and at least a little bit one-sided and/or uneven and/or painful for Emily (and possibly also JJ), or it must be all smut no plot. Otherwise, I want nothing to do with it. I see Jemily as this really beautiful years-long saga of complicated sapphic yearning and wondering what could have been. (If you want to read 6000 words about it, read this fic lol.) I do think they've slept together at least once and blurred the lines between "just friends" and "more than friends" multiple times over the years. They care about each other, they're attracted to each other, and at times, they've both wanted something more than what they had. Maybe they could have been great together if things had been different, but there's always been something standing in their way, keeping them from getting it together and being anything more. My girl Emily Prentiss deserves her great love and her happily ever after, but she's not going to find it with JJ. For that, I 100% believe in Temily. (If you want to know why, send me another ask--or read Caution to the Wind lmao!) I can also see it working with Penemily, but I really prefer Temily because I'm the biggest Tara Lewis simp you will ever meet in your life and also a pretty big Garvez shipper.

As for my opinion on JJ, I'll let you in on a little secret, nonnie: She's really not my favorite. In seasons 1-5, when she's the unit liaison, I love her and appreciate her and think she brings a lot to the team and to the show, but I'm not emotionally attached to her the way I am with Emily or Tara, and seasons 7-15 profiler JJ just kinda rubs me the wrong way. Like I don't hate her, but I don't particularly like her either. That said, I know she's something of a comfort character for a lot of people, and I can see how at various points over the course of the show, she kind of gives off a bit of a queer vibe, maybe, so I think if you like JJ and want to interpret her as gay or bi, that's totally valid! It's maybe a little weird to me that you'd zero in on JJ for your queer headcanons when Emily is right there. Tara is right there. Alex is right there. Penelope is right there. Spencer is right there. Luke is right there. Still, I am generally completely in support of queer people seeing one of their favorite characters do something that gives off a queer vibe and deciding to interpret them as queer because it makes them happy and helps them better engage with and relate to the media they consume (although I do have some legitimate beef with bi Emily truthers--send me another ask if you'd like to know why!). Personally, I see JJ as being not entirely straight, but predominantly into men, and a little too repressed and closeted to fully figure out and come to terms with her feelings for women and actually call herself bisexual. I don't agree with the characterization of her being like, some homophobic small-town soccer mom, but I also can't really see her being out and proud and openly in love with a woman.

Anyway, that got really long and rambly, but those are my thoughts. I hope I answered the question to your satisfaction. Thanks for the ask! I love getting nice anons (and non-anons!) in my ask box, so feel free to come back any time!

#asked and answered #anon #criminal minds #jemily #jennifer jareau #emily prentiss #literally any wlw ship is better than every non-wlw ship except garvez and ralvez #lesbian emily rights

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gaygoetia · 3 years ago

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Umbrella Academy Characters ranked by how likely I think they are to be bisexual

Klaus - 10/10 - canonically does not give a fuck about the gender of his partners

Viktor - 9.5/10 - has canonically had romantic relationships with both men and women (that said, the thing with Lester could have been based in heteronormativity/cissexism/a desire to be loved rather than genuine attraction which is why this isn't a 10)

Lila - 9/10 - Tells Diego she has slept with many people since him (doesn't specify men) + says Sloane's science talk turns her on + has the "bisexual bob" + has super bi energy in general

Diego - 8/10 - OK this one is almost entirely vibes but like... Look at him. Anyway if Diego hasn't hooked up with guys it's purely because of toxic masculinity.

Ben - 7/10 - OK this is kinda based on the assumption that sexual orientation is genetic (or at least has a genetic component) but we know Umbrella!Ben had a crush on a girl in season 2 and it's kind of maybe implied that Sparrow!Ben hooked up with Klaus at the wedding? (He also just has big repressed queer energy imo.) Idk man I think he's bi OK.

Luther 4/10 - This one is tenuous lol but I'm choosing to take Klaus's "like you wouldn't climb Luther mountain" comment as evidence that Klaus has at least some reason to believe Luther is into dudes. Is Klaus remotely reliable? No. But it's a step up from nothing.

Five - 1/10 - Speaking of nothing... I'm not even convinced Five is attracted to women. I know Dolores is a female mannequin but she's also... A mannequin. I don't remember him ever showing any attraction to any actual humans. Getting big aroace vibes tbh.

Allison - 1/10 - Happy to be corrected but currently I just don't see any evidence for bi Allison. All her interactions with women (of which there aren't many tbh) are very platonic.

And I think that's all the major characters I care about?

Feel free to comment or reply with your own opinions! (or to let me know if I missed someone important)

That said, please don't take any of this too seriously lol. Obviously you can't actually tell someone's sexuality from vibes alone. Also I don't think most of these characters were intended by the writers to be seen as bi (but that won't stop me) This is just for fun.

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j-amespotter · 4 years ago

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★ august [pt. 2] - s. b.

“i never needed anything more.”

Pairing: Sirius Black x Slytherin!Reader, Regulus Black x Slytherin!Reader

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Summary: As one of the Order of the Phoenix’s freshest recruits, love certainly was not on Sirius Black’s mind the summer after he finished school – especially not with a Slytherin, who just happened to be his brother’s girlfriend.

Genre/Warnings: angst/fluff, infidelity, mentions of torture, war, & sex.

Word Count: 2.2k

A/N: by popular demand... part 2 of august! let me know what you think & if you’d like to be added to my taglist! posts will be slower because i’m back at uni

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PART 1

It was a cold, snowy day in the village. The streets bustled with young passersby. They huddled together with flushed cheeks and dopey grins, reveling in their distance from stingy professors and half-written essays. The line for butterbeer at the Three Broomsticks wrapped around the street. The scene was all-too-familiar for the raven-haired troublemaker and his bespectacled companion hidden in a dark alleyway behind the Hog’s Head.

“Think we can sneak to Rosmerta’s for a butterbeer?” asked James, nudging his best friend with his elbow. “She’d let us jump the line.”

Sirius rolled his eyes and snorted. “Yes, that would help the whole ‘lying low’ thing, wouldn’t it?”

James raised a concerned eyebrow at Sirius. “I thought you’d be up for it,” he said with an edge in his voice.

“We’re on a mission,” snapped Sirius. “Let’s just hope nothing is waiting for us so we can get out of here.”

“You’re jumpy,” grumbled James in response. “Mate, you didn’t have to come if it was going to bother you.”

“I’m not bothered,” said Sirius defensively. “Focus, Prongs. Suspected Death Eater activity in Hogsmeade Village. We need to wait it out and hope for the best.”

James shrugged, though he looked like he wanted to say more. The two men turned the corner and peered through the window of Dervish and Banges on the lookout for hellish masked figures that were quickly becoming the bane of Sirius’s existence.

It had been four months since the summer Sirius’s life changed. His world lost the little color it had, and unfortunately, his friends were bearing the brunt of his moodiness. Sirius knew it was unfair. It was not James’s fault he was scorned by a cold, conniving snake of a woman, who showed him more love than he knew what to do with and then snatched it away without a second thought.

It was bad enough they were there on a Hogsmeade weekend. He knew you were most likely somewhere in the village, probably in Regulus’s arms, shielding yourself from the cold. The thought left a bitter taste in his mouth, one he decidedly ignored as he turned to his partner-in-crime. “We should split up,” said Sirius. “Get under the Cloak and keep an eye on the station. I’ll do a walk-through. I’ll call you from the mirror if I see anything.” He gestured to his jacket pocket.

After bidding James goodbye and good luck, Sirius made sure to lay low as he sifted through the snow-covered streets. Though he recognized some of his former classmates, he did not stop to greet them. He was not the type to let his personal life tear his eyes away from the prize. What frightened him was how difficult it was proving to be.

Out of the corner of his eye, Sirius spotted movement across the hill through the shattered glass window of the Shrieking Shack. Frowning, he pulled up his hood and jogged towards the disturbance.

When he was safely away from the crowd, Sirius crouched behind a bush next to the house, close enough to hear vaguely-familiar voices – at least two. He inhaled a gust of cold air warily, feeling his heartbeat pick up at rapid speed. No one except the four Marauders ever dared to enter the Shrieking Shack. Who could these intruders be if not Death Eaters? Sirius’s fingers grazed the mirror shard tucked away in his pocket. Should he call James for help?

Suddenly, he heard faint, quiet sobs from inside. On instinct, he jerked his body slightly upward and transformed into Padfoot. Taking soft steps forward on four legs, Sirius expertly stepped over a creaky floorboard. He remained hidden in the shadows, facing the back of a tall, skinny figure, whose scent overwhelmed his canine senses with the soiled flavor of repressed memories.

When the stranger spoke, Padfoot winced at the tauntingly grim echo in his eardrums. “Stop crying, darling. It’s pathetic,” said Regulus.

“H-How could you just…” you said nasally, unable to finish. Sirius felt his heart sink as he heard your broken, empty words. It was your voice that haunted his dreams, and there you were, looking cold and miserable, merely ten feet away from him.

“You’re wasting your tears, (Y/N). She’s filth. She deserved it.”

You looked indignant, raising an accusatory finger at your boyfriend. “N-No one deserves torture for who they are,” you said shakily.

Regulus sighed. “Honestly, you’re acting as if we killed her. She’ll be fine. Besides, I didn’t do anything to her. If I knew it would have bothered you, I wouldn’t have stayed.”

“You just watched, Reg! You watched your dreadful friends torture that poor girl! Why? Because she’s Muggleborn? Why didn’t you let me stop them?”

“They did stop,” answered Regulus heatedly. “They stopped for you. You should be more careful. If it weren’t for me, they would be spreading some nasty rumors about you. If I didn’t know any better, I would call you a blood traitor.”

You scoffed. Sirius, still in dog form, shuffled to the side and hid under a scratched table. Emotions were high, so his swift movement remained unnoticed.

Regulus strode toward you and placed his gloved hands on your shoulders. “Forgive me, (Y/N). I know how sensitive you can get.”

You sniffled. “It’s not about being sensitive, Regulus. It’s about right and wrong! You know they would have killed her, you know it! The worst part is that you would have let them, and it doesn’t even surprise me anymore.”

“What has gotten into you? I know you prefer to stay away from conflict, but you’ve been skittish for quite a while now,” said Regulus, dropping his hands off of you.

You were quiet. With one glance at your glossy eyes, Sirius knew what was going to happen before it did. “I have to tell you something. I did something bad.”

The selfish part of Sirius wanted this. He wanted exactly this. But there was a sinking feeling in his chest, seeing it happen right before his eyes. He attempted to telepathically will you to stop talking, but it was too late. Regulus stared at you expectantly.

“Last summer I… I was with someone else. I cheated on you, Reg,” you cried.

Sirius’s normally-reserved brother could not contain the shock dripping from his voice. “What?”

“Regulus, I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to, I swear!”

“How could you?” snapped Regulus. “I let you stand here and scold me over my activities as if you have the moral high ground between us! You had an affair? With whom?”

You looked pained. “Don’t make me say it, Reg. Just know how sorry–”

“With whom?”

“W-With your brother, Regulus. With Sirius.” His name sounded like a melody on your tongue. Sirius held his breath, swallowing the emotion pooling inside of him.

“What? My brother? You had an affair with my brother?” Regulus looked as though he was about to strike. Sirius bent his front legs, ready to pounce. “Did you sleep with him?”

You turned away, tears streaming down your cheeks.

“Did you sleep with him?”

You nodded slowly. It was as if you were carrying the weight of a thousand bricks.

Regulus ran his hand through his hair. He paced the length of the room, unable to form a coherent sentence. “Okay,” he said after a tense silence, “we can fix this. I don’t blame you; I know how my brother is. You can be so gullible. He tricked you into sleeping with him. I was away for so long. You were upset. I can forgive you. We can move past this.”

You stared up at him, wild-eyed. “W-We can?”

“Yes, we can,” said Regulus. “I know it wasn’t your fault. I forgive you.”

“I don’t think I can,” you said slowly, lifting your eyes to gaze directly into his.

“What do you mean?”

You wiped away your tears hastily. “I tried so hard, Reg. I tried so hard to forget him, but I can’t. I’m in love with him.”

Sirius nearly yelped in giddy shock. She’s in love with me. (Y/N) loves me, not him. She loves me, not him, and he knows.

Regulus had an unreadable expression on his face. “You’re in love with him? So all those years between us, they mean nothing to you?”

“Not at all,” you argued. “I love you so much, Reg. But you aren’t the same anymore. You’re hurting me.”

“Don’t you dare blame this on me,” said Regulus angrily. “You did this! You’re the one that slept with my brother!”

“I’m telling you, it’s not like that! It wasn’t just sex. I went to him for help. I went to him for you,” you said. “It wasn’t on purpose. I never meant to hurt you. But I can’t pretend anymore. I’m in love with him.”

Regulus was seething in a characteristically quiet way. “My brother,” he spat, “cares for no one but himself. I am sure you two will be perfect for each other. We are done.” With that, he spun around and walked out of the Shrieking Shack, slamming the door behind him.

You fell on your knees, sobbing into your hands. Your soft whimpers broke Sirius’s heart into pieces. He poked his head out from under the table and pawed his way toward you. You looked up and gasped in fright. Sirius had forgotten about Padfoot’s unnaturally large size. Gently, he nudged your leg with his snout. “Sorry, you had to see all of that.” You buried your face into your knees. “Are you the big, bad wolf in this joint?”

Before he could combust at your innocence, Sirius jerked upward again and balanced himself on two feet. “Nope, but he’s a friend of mine,” he joked softly.

Your head snapped up. You jumped in complete surprise. “Sirius! What are you doing here?” You stared at a spot on the ground. “Are you an Animagus?”

“To answer your second question, yes,” said Sirius hurriedly, wanting more than anything to skip the small talk, “and to answer your first, this is almost like a second home to me. How did you know about the wolf?”

You looked at him in awe, then shriveled backward in shame. “Severus Snape spread some awful rumors when you all were at school.” You couldn’t meet his eyes. “Sirius…”

Sirius took tentative steps toward you. “No more lies,” he whispered. “Are you really in love with me?”

You stared into his grey eyes. “Yes,” you said in a hushed whisper. “I’m in love with you, Sirius. And I’m so sorry about what I said that day. I was scared. I know it’s no excuse, but it’s the truth.”

In an instant, Sirius felt warmth rush up his body. He cupped your face in his hands and kissed you without a second thought. To his utter delight, you kissed him back hungrily. Your arms wrapped around his waist, inhaling his musky scent. “I never stopped thinking about you,” he whispered against your lips.

You smiled sadly. “Me neither. But how can we possibly be together?”

“Well, you’ll be home for Christmas soon,” said Sirius.

“That’s only for a few weeks,” you argued.

Sirius kissed your cheek. “It’s plenty of time. Plus, I can get into the castle whenever I want.”

You looked skeptical. “How?”

“I have my ways,” said Sirius. “I’m never letting you go again.”

You felt tears prick at your eyes. “How am I supposed to go back? To face all of them again?”

“They wouldn’t dare lay a finger on you, not under the teachers’ noses,” said Sirius, mostly to assure himself. “Stay away from Regulus, too.”

“Easier said than done,” you said. “They dragged some poor Muggleborn third-year here just to torture her. You don’t even know what they get up to at school.”

Sirius pulled you into a tight embrace. He felt a tingle in his jacket. Pulling out the shard, he met a very familiar pair of hazel eyes. “Is everything okay? Did you find anything?” asked James.

Sirius pulled away from you. “Yes, everything’s fine. I've searched the whole village. It was just a few Slytherin sixth-years, but they’re gone now. I’ll meet you there.”

With a nod, James vanished.

You tugged on his sleeve. “What was that? You have to go?”

Sirius made a motion to pocket the mirror, glancing at it thoughtfully before doing so. After a quick moment, he shoved it in your direction. “Here, keep this. It’s a way for you to call me at school. Whenever you need me, don’t hesitate.”

You paused. “Are you sure? What about James?”

“He won’t mind,” assured Sirius. “Promise me you’ll use it. Even if you only want to talk.”

Smiling, you pulled him into another kiss. “Definitely.”

Sirius feared letting go, though he wasn’t afraid you would walk away again. He wasn’t sure what his brother and his friends would do. “I’ll see you soon, love. Don’t worry too much. You’re Sirius Black’s girl.”

“That I am, darling. For as long as I can help it.”

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mollrat101 · 4 years ago

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Who do you think would make the first move (i.e. a kiss): Ava or Deborah?

I think it will be Deborah.

I think Ava would see it as too big of a risk. She doesn’t even know if Deb likes women, Deb is her boss and just overall Ava doesn’t want to make Deb uncomfortable.

But also, after the email incident, Ava will feel even more hesitant. Deb will eventually forgive her, but Ava will likely feel she doesn’t deserve Deb’s romantic affection and doesn’t want to do another thing to put her relationship with Deb in jeopardy.

But also, in a weird way, it represents a certain amount of growth for her to not act.

When Ava wants something, she normally doesn’t hesitate to go after it, especially if it involves pleasure. She tried to seduce Ruby even though she knew she was dating someone else and Ruby didn’t want to cheat (unlike Marty). When it comes to romance and sex, Ava will act first and not stop and think about whether it’s a good idea or not. When it comes to sex and romantic relationships, it’s all about what Ava wants.

But part of her character arc is learning how to consider other people’s needs and feelings before her own. Ava could fall madly in love with Deb and want to have sex with her, but for once, she’s not thinking about herself. It should be Deb’s choice and Ava will respect whatever decision she makes.

Now that being said, I don’t think it means that Ava won’t drop hints. They’ve already been flirting, but she might make it more overt and see if Deb is receptive, let her know she’s interested. Maybe even tell her about the sex dream? I would die if that happened. We shall see.

But also, Deborah making the first move progresses her character arc forward.

I’ve been theorizing for a while that Deborah is gay but she’s repressing much of her desires, particularly when it comes to her desire for Ava.

All of this is part of a larger trend for Deb where she doesn’t get honest with herself on what she really wants and goes after it. Deb will deny herself pleasure because she has shame or fear of what would happen if she gave in. She’s terrified of being hurt and that’s for good reason.

Ava will hurt her terribly in season 2, but this situation isn’t just like what happened with Frank. Ava will feel remorse, she will apologize, she’ll try her best to make it up to Deb and gain her trust back. Deb can’t go into a romantic relationship without confronting the fact that opening ourselves to being hurt is part of the deal. The challenge is to choose a person who is worthy of working through that with. Someone who is fundamentally good, who can admit when they’ve done wrong, attempt to make it right and who ultimately wants to make this relationship work. Deb will never find a perfect person, she just needs to find the perfect person for her. And she’s found her.

And of the two of them, it is Deborah who most wants a romantic relationship. Ava’s goals were mainly focused on her career in the beginning, but I think she’s open to the possibilities of where her life will take her. After all, she’s young. But Deborah feels strapped for time. She doesn’t want to spend the rest of her life alone. She’s already been alone for 40 years (she’s had relationships but none of them seem to have been very serious).

Let’s also be real that it’s just much more entertaining to watch a normally in control character suddenly do something impulsive and give into something they’ve wanted to do for a while. Ava doing something impulsive isn’t surprising, but it’s more surprising if Deb does it.

I personally believe Deb has never slept with a woman because she’s scared. She knows she doesn’t like sleeping with men and I think (in her subconscious) Deb knows she’s gay but she’s in denial. She fears sleeping with women in fear of proving herself right that she’s a lesbian. Cause then it will be no turning back. She can’t be in denial in the same way before. She’s now knows what she’s been missing and won’t want to give it up. But that means showing the world something different about herself and Deb struggles to be open and honest about who she is.

Deb will have to overcome a lot of fear to make a move on Ava, but that’s why it would mean so much if she did. Deb would be taking a leap of faith. That Ava is trustworthy, that Ava has her best interests at heart, and that she’ll be okay finding out something new about her sexuality.

Plus, would be a great callback to the slap, if instead of a slap during a tense moment, Deborah plants a kiss on Ava.

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bobutterlovebot · 4 years ago

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@beck-in-the-90s @captainlilyuniverseworld

SO GLAD YOU ASKED

putting this in the form of bullet points because of my inability to construct a coherent rant

𖦹 bojack was raised without love in his parent's marriage, so he got his idea of what true love is from television. in the time he was a kid gay representation in modern television was basically non-existent, so i think if he had ever had attraction to men it was pushed down by 1. his dads homophobia and 2. that heteronormativity that was his only view of love.

𖦹 just to clarify before i say this this isn't meant to imply a straight man can't accept and be friends with someone who is gay. but when herb kissed him bj didn't react as drastically as a man in the 80's most likely would, especially after growing up in a house with such homophobic teachings. honestly? it could be possible bojack had feelings for herb and projected it onto charlotte. i mean he barely knew charlotte and yet he thought he was in deep love with her. even though bj did tell herb he was straight after he kissed him i doubt a repressed gay man would come out so easily especially with the fact herb denied being gay as well.

𖦹 bojack was never in love with diane. i will die on this hill. even the characters of the show itself say it. "you're not in love with her, you just think you are because you pay her to listen to you talk about your problems" that's a pc line. on the topic of the 1st bullet point bojack would've thought two people caring about eachother = in love since that's a very popular trope in television or atleast was a very popular trope. this is further proven by the scene where diane goes to bojacks house after divorcing mr peanutbutter and when she points out that they could kiss right now and it'd be morally okay he gets really weirded out and uncomfortable all of a sudden

𖦹 i honestly do not think he loved wanda romantically either. this could be seen as a reach but i feel he fell in love with her way too quickly. i think he was just interested in her because since she was in a coma for 30 years it means he'd have a fresh start with someone who didn't know how shitty of a person he is or could be at times. i think that's why the relationship was moving so fast, because bojack wanted to be close with her before she could realize how bad of a person he is.

𖦹 he was so confused about whether or not he loved princess carolyn. he thought he did but he wasn't sure of it at all. i think this is just the pattern of trying to force or convince himself he's in love with women who he might just enjoy spending time with.

𖦹 i think he just slept with women to try and further push down that feeling. or he just hadn't realized the possibility yet. i mean we know that most if not all the sex he's had is completely meaningless and just to attempt to fill the void, the women he has had sex with and has gotten into a relationship with he's treated awfully and don't get me wrong this isn't me trying to excuse his actions but i do think it had some part in it.

𖦹 in conclusion!! i think he's gay. i also think he'd be way happier if he got into a relationship with a man he truly loved ᵐʳ ᵖᵉᵃⁿᵘᵗᵇᵘᵗᵗᵉʳ omg who said that did you guys hear that wtffff

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myhumanweakness · 5 years ago

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Destiel/Cockles analysis s/p 15x18

Okay, so... This is gonna be a mishmash of thoughts, but if you stick with me maybe you’ll get what I’m saying.

I’ve been seeing a lot of shit condemning Jensen as a homophobe because of his previous actions/statements about Destiel and also (for some ungodly reason) because of his performance during the confession in 15x18. And I have this theory that I needed to get out because it’s been there for a while, and now is the perfect time to explain it.

This show started out in 2005 as a show about two manly, Midwestern men that got pulled into a life of hunting the Earth’s worst creatures, tapping ass, and drinking beers (while also giving you a play-by-play on how to repress emotions), and there was also A LOT of love buried in the plot. A lot.

The world was a completely different place in 2005. The own creator of the show didn’t expect the show to go past 5 seasons, so when the longevity came they were forced to grow. We watched this show go through a very human process/experience of growth and acceptance and evolution, and we got to grow along side it. Was it always a neat, beautiful process? Hell no. There were a lot of potholes along the way. But, growth isn’t linear. The point is that they (the writers, producers, actors, etc.) kept pushing themselves to grow year after year.

So now, back to Jensen. Jensen has shown this fandom time and time again not only how grateful he is that we adore him and helped him to cultivate a life beyond what he has dreamed of but also that he is attentive and considerate to our feelings/thoughts. Has he disagreed with us at times? Hell yes he has. Has be bluntly stated that “Destiel doesn’t exist.” Hell yes he has. And it’s been hurtful and frustrating and invalidating. But, take a step back for a moment.

Jensen is so connected to Dean. His friends and even his own wife has stated that he sometimes forgets that “he’s not Dean.” Dean has informed so much of who Jensen is for the last 15 years. And Jensen has admittedly seen a lot of himself in Dean. So who was Dean at the beginning of this show? Dean was the guy who made gay jokes, slept with plethoras of woman to fill a void (and also for pleasure), was so out of touch with his feelings because he was too busy being the person his father wanted/needed him to be, and had a very clear idea of what it meant to be a man. That’s the brain Jensen lived in for years while playing Dean. And honestly, it’s been speculated and discussed here, that Jensen’s brain might not have been too far off from that mindset outside of Dean.

But just as we watched the show grow, I truly believe we watched Jensen grow. And we all know Danneel is a big part of that because she is wildly herself and big and fierce, especially about the things she believes in and loves, and she is open-minded and just pushes people to grow. And he has said those things about her. But I also think that a lot of Jensen’s growth came from Misha because as much as Danneel has influenced him over the years, I firmly believe Jensen needed to see/meet/form a relationship with someone like Misha in order to truly/permanently break down those walls about what a man should/could be.

Cockles fans have long dissected and held up microscopes to Jensen and Misha’s relationship, so much so that there are pages and pages of theories about how their love bloomed, their break ups, their tender moments, and the growth of their relationship in general. But one thing that I think Jensen frequently struggled with is this idea that he needed to keep Dean true to who he is as a person, and that any growth and evolution in Jensen’s life (ie his relationship with Misha) couldn’t influence that. All of those moments he was denouncing Destiel seemed to be out of a struggle to keep those two people separate- Jensen vs Dean. Because in Jensen’s head, Dean was still this super straight, rough and tough, Midwestern monster hunter.

But over the years, the Destiel fandom was comforted by Misha’s outspoken love, admiration, and agreement. Misha truly championed this fandom with reckless abandon. But while Misha was comfortable (to a degree) with himself and his relationship with Jensen, we really watched Jensen struggle. We watched Jensen grow.

So, fast forward to the last couple of years. Destiel is subtextually canon- the writers have confirmed this at this point. Jensen is less negative about Destiel at panels insofar as to talk about their “break ups” and “domestic disputes” and “relationship” with a validating tone. Is he fervently talking about Destiel safe words and bondage and having sex/making out? No. But that’s not who Jensen is. He’s much more conservative with his emotions than Misha... at least publicly.

This fandom has watched Jensen grow, not only in his dealings with/approach to Cockles but also with Destiel. So, while Jensen has long been adamant that Dean is not bisexual and couldn’t end up with Cas, I think there was potentially a moment where Misha (and potentially Danneel) were like, “Well, why can’t Dean be bi? Why can’t he finally realize that about himself after years of breaking down barriers and fears and conditioned notions? You did.”

What came first, Cockles or Destiel? That’s been the debate right? The chicken or the egg? I truly think without Cockles coming first, we would have never been able to have Destiel. In fact, in my head, I can make the argument that without Jensen growing and going through the process of falling in love with Misha, Destiel would have never become canon. Jensen needed to first separate himself from Dean (which we are all privy to), grow and fall in love [again] as Jensen, and then give Dean the permission to grow and fall in love too.

As we have seen from this week’s episode, Destiel has been there for years. YEARS. But Dean has always had to deal with two struggles: accepting himself and Jensen accepting him. We heard Jensen say at a panel that when he read the script for the final episode, he had a hard time coming to terms with what happened. People have long speculated that was referring to Destiel. Now, maybe it is and maybe it isn’t (I guess we’ll find out in two weeks), but it would make a lot of sense if it was.

As everyone (the writers, actors, fans, etc.) has validated and acknowledged Destiel and particularly Dean’s love for Cas, Jensen has continued to struggle with it. But I don’t think it’s because Jensen is homophobic or anything like some people are saying. I think it’s because Jensen has worked tirelessly to separate the romantic lives of himself and Dean. Jensen convinced himself that Dean loving Cas and them having a relationship would be out of character, when in reality it followed this pattern of growth that both the show and bi (& LGTQ+) men/individuals around the world followed. Because Jensen is so connected to Dean, he can’t have 2020 vision until it’s hindsight because as Dean was coming out to himself and accepting himself, Jensen was accepting Dean simultaneously. It’s actually a beautiful thing. And it doesn’t make Jensen homophobic... it makes Jensen human.

As many LGBTQ+ people will tell you, the path to realization and acceptance is fraught with struggle (internal and external) and doubt and denial and even self-hatred. There are no two characters that embody that more than Cas and Dean. So, I think that once Jensen realized that he went through a similar process as Dean it wasn’t that crazy anymore that Dean was in love with Cas. And Jensen loving Misha didn’t force Dean to love Cas- Jensen didn’t make Dean bi- Jensen loving Misha gave Dean the permission to love Cas and become one of the most human characters (especially male characters) to ever exist because we got to watch Dean find love and accept love through repression, struggle, self realization, and self acceptance.

And for that, Jensen Ackles will go down in history as one of the best actors of this generation. Because he truly brought life to Dean Winchester.

Thank you for attending my TedTalk. I wanted to be much more thorough with this and include gifs and video evidence, but this is already lengthy and I doubt anyone even made it to the end.

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