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allylikethecat · 10 months

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i am so excited to see fictional!matty & the boys at christmas 🥹

do you have any special christmas plans this year? :)

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Hello Dearest 💟,

Thank you so much for your message this holiday season! I hope you are doing well! I also hope the fics lives up to the hype! Fictional!Matty is having a lot more anxiety about the holidays / life than I intended ... I think I might be projecting onto him again (sorry Fictional!Matty) I'm having so much fun working on the holiday fics and getting myself so excited about them I just hope I do actually manage to finish them in time!!

I live a seven hour plane ride away from my family so I am very excited to head back that way next week and spend two whole weeks with them as well as some of my childhood and high school friends! My mom and I always go see the Nutcracker ballet, my dad and I do a bunch of last minute Christmas shopping (it's last minute as in we always go the day before Christmas eve and just... have lunch and look at stuff even though we've both already finished our shopping) and then on Christmas Day we do a big thing with all of our family friends who are basically like extended family at this point! We had some not great things happen around the holidays last year so I'm excited and cautiously optimistic that this year will be better! I always miss Pop when I go back to see my family because obviously he can't come with me, but it will be nice to take a little bit of a break from "real life" as well!

Do you have any big plans for the holidays?

Thank you so much for your excitement and for this ask! I hope you're doing well and that you enjoy the Holiday Fics!

❤️Ally

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stuckinapril · 9 months

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friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !!#& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

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thottybrucewayne · 4 months

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I think what I want to get into with the "Anyone can do harm." thing that I keep beating yall over the head with is that literally anyone, anyone at all can do harm it's not "in your DNA" to be an abuser or written in the stars that you'll be a predator. Whatever image you have of an abuser in your head, drop it and replace it with your favorite person in the world and you'll probably be closer to the truth than you realize. It's easy to address harm when it's coming from someone you already hate. I see it happen all the time. Someone you couldn't stand for no real reason does something heinous then all of a sudden here comes the avalanche of "I always knew they were a fucked up individual." No, you didn't. There is no possible way you could have known, you just already didn't fuck with them before they started doing something you could use to justify your hatred of them. I'm guilty of it too! I'm petty, mean, vindictive, and yes! I'm way quicker to believe something bad about someone I hate versus someone I love because I'm human. Still, y all gotta learn to move past that initial "Well, they were always nice to me!" gut feeling and understand that nobody truly knows anyone and anyone can be capable of anything. Even victims. Even you.

#thotty speaks #thotty rants #I was thinking about that Christine chan post and its like yeah yall really don't know how bad it got for her before she did what she did #It reminded me of that thing on tiktok where people take 'cringy' cosplayers videos (most of whom are literal children) and put racist or #bigoted text over it then reupload it to call them out then the og creator gets a flood of harassment mostly from people who hated them for #the crime of being weird on the internet but now they can use 'oh but they're a bigot!' as an excuse to tear them down until they come out #and say 'hey i didn't say this someone stole my shit' and nobody takes their vids down nor apologizes because they didn't fuck with them #anyway so wash rinse repeat #idk I just wish that people had the same smoke for people they actually like #mostly cause I'm tired of being accused of 'switching up' every time I cut people off or stop fuckin with an artist #like this is what we should be doing!!!! ACG ANYBODY CAN GET IT!#It should be smoke for ANYONE who does harm every your fave people!#otherwise you create this world where taking people to task for the harm they've done is less about the harm #and more about justifying our own actions #anyway keep that same energy across the board that's all I'm saying #cause if it comes out tomorrow that somebody close to me did some fucked up shit I'm out of there period #aint no talkin bout shit and that's on me growing up as a child told that certain grown folks can't be alone with me #but they allowed in my house...#Idk about yall but i'm ending that generational curse with me

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takethelx3 · 7 days

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when ur platonic bro is just helping u stretch while u platonically yap about ur MAGNUM DO-- detective skills.

#it was just for some anatomy practice tbh cuz legs are weird to me but then I was like lol what if it's a shit little gif #day 3593845 of idk how to draw kon nicely #and cassie bart my dears my only concept of u is memes so far I still am so new and haven't gotten around to young justice BUT I WILL #art #digital art #sketch #fanart #timkon #young justice #tim drake #tim drake wayne #kon el #kon el kent #conner kent #superboy #red robin #anyway if u don't know - when u are a flexible person sometimes it rly does help to get a bestie to push u around a bit when warming up #it IS very homoerotic with the right friends and all business with other friends but I prefer the friends who can't be ffr about it #I think tim would ask everyone and kon is like me pick me pick me let me help u bro bro ur muscles are so tight bro aha #but what do I know I'm just a new fan whose only concept is gay people on the internet telling me how they feel about the DCU #and I am a very busy person who doesn't have time to read comics and watch shows at a leisurely pace :')#give me time everyone I am gonna get so locked in #as much as an adult with no free time can #animation #there was an alternate ending where tim's leg goes all the way stand-split but I was too afraid to attempt drawing that #robins need to be flexible so they can do their silly goober thing

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canon-gabriel-quotes · 2 months

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Transcript:

I'd like to congratulate you on getting your CPR certification.

Now remember, when you’re going in for compressions, it should sound like somebody is standing behind you with the worlds largest Dorito and cracking it open!

Go in firm and hard and snap as many ribs as you can on the way down, that means you’re doing it right.

You save that life. Good luck.

Or... Or... Or kill them, I don’t fucking care.

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#ultrakill #gabriel ultrakill #congratulations this is misinformation and by listening to it you have actually gotten a bit dumber <3 #you're welcome!#anyway. this is the first post using a new method for the filter. my second time completely redoing it lol #can anyone but me tell the difference? probably not! did i spend hours trying to figure it out? yes!#basically what i did was download an unedited audio from his patreon and compared it to the edited version (the srimp special if u care LOL #and did edits- then compared it to the edited version. over. and over. and over........ and over.......................#ANYWAY.#turns out i have been delaying too little #before i had done between .025 to .075 depending on the audio #its more around .1 #i also downloaded reaper to add the bitcrush #so its about as close as i can get it without having the exact number that the filter is supposed to be delayed by #i could not for the life of me figure out why mine has less 'echo' but its close enough..#plus the audio from the streams is not the best quality and already has a slight filter on it anyway so like- theres only so much i can do #cough. so anyway i brought my laptop to work today and spent a long time figuring that out #paid to shitpost on company time~#also i have no idea if this is too loud or too quiet cause the audio levels on my laptop are weird #like anything over 10% volume is super loud #i was at 6% while editing but idk how that is going to translate over to other people uhhhhh idk let me know if its ok

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 1 year

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Bard-aby <3 except he's only loosely a bard bc i don't subscribe to absolutes <3

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BARNABY WITH PANTS??? BLASPHEMY!!! however this is a (dnd-inspired) fantasy au so. pants! loose pants tucked into modified boots because no one can tell me No!

based off of Clown's pokemon au human Barn, it seems like he might be a bit of a jewelry guy! he was wearing rings! and had an earring! also i think Barn just looks great w/ some extra shinies, yk yk

since ties aren't really a Thing in fantasy settings, i combined the iconic pattern w/ his vest for a two-in-one. then suspenders bc they fuck severely! his belt buckle is a bone both as a nod to the pattern on his tie / house decoration, and to go along with how Wally has an apple buckle! besties stay twinning!

you can't see it but on his other side he has his pack & his smoking pipe holster, which attaches to his belt! it's very high quality leather that he spent so much money on. his pipe is important to him - he carved it himself out of wood from an important tree from his childhood, so he wants it to be properly stored & protected! he has two kinds of tobacco for it - normal, and magic tobacco that essentially allows him to cast minor spells w/ the smoke

the feathers on his hat are from Ms. Beagle! in my mind he left the farm to go adventuring on a bit of a bad note, but his mama made sure to give him a couple feathers to take with so that she'd always be close <3

he keeps his claws blunt so that he doesn't accidentally scratch people/things, and so that he can play stringed instruments without cutting the strings. while i imagine for this au he plays a wide range, he prefers Loud Handheld Instruments that allow him to sing along. so in mind he has an Accordion here! loud! jaunty! but i imagine he also keeps a recorder in his pack for when Frank needs annoying. (he did have a lute, but he broke it over someone's head in the act of defending Wally's honor)

im still trying to pin down the right balance of colors for his outfit, but! for a little au tidbit - all of his spots are the same two blues as his ears. in this im imagining that he, at a young age, learned a very basic cosmetic spell that allowed him to change his spots color to mimic Ms. Beagle's! he wanted to look like his mama! but by the time he's in his late 20s he no longer changes his spots

ohhhh i forgot to add his pockets. Oh Well

#i wanted him to look um.... Put Together?#barn strikes me as a character that likes to look a lil sophisticated in a way!#and i wanted that to come across in this fit... dont know if i succeeded #i still wanted to have Bard-ish / Barnaby Vibes #i can easily imagine him reclined by a tree absentmindedly playin his accordion... smokin... in this outfit hat tipped down over his eyes #barnaby my beloved <3 #and bardaby my beloved <3 #also ill admit!!!#that lute is traced from a real image lmfao there was no way in hell i was scribbling that thing from scratch #scribble salad #wh fantasy au #i lowkey feel bad for barnaby when he finds out about the whole warlock thing #bc hes been traveling with wally for Years #barnaby likes to think that he knows everything about his little buddy #and then wally has to be like 😬#yeah im actually not technically a real person #also there's this 'demon' i have a pact with & also a weird kinda non-platonic Cant Be Accurately Labeled intimate relationship with #oh and i sometimes sacrifice innocent people to it in a pinch. the rest of the time we eat enemies' souls #and barnaby just has to! deal with that! like oh great! his bestie has been lying to his face since they met!#ands its been Seamless Lying!#suffice to say barnaby has a crisis #and now since wally can be more open about home #there's a sort of... pointless Rivalry for wally's attention/affection #even though barnaby definitely misjudges the situation and how home feels about wally...#oh switching gears back to the instrument thing!#in my mind barnaby also knows how to play the harp really well #and howdy's tavern has a corner for live music - which includes a permanently placed harp <3 #so i think on quiet days barnaby will go play the harp while howdy cleans glasses & the others do their own quiet things #maybe its raining outside! or Snowing! but the tavern is cozy and warm & there is beautiful music <3

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paintaya · 18 days

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snapdragon taking over like a plague requested by my friends .. too good not to post as well sdkjfghjdgf

ref image under cut!!

#HOW FAST CAN I GET THIS POST UP BEFORE I HAVE TO LEAVE FOR CLASS #AAHHH!!!!!#SPEEDRUN #OKAYgod. i love snadpraogn yall. askjfdhgsfgg. i miss these two!!!!!#cookie run #my art #cookie run kingdom #crk #cookie run ovenbreak #pitaya dragon cookie #snapdragon cookie #wait also omg sometimes people here are like 'woah you have finals/class as such a weird time!' i am a college student.#AWFUL I KNOW

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cybertron-smash-or-pass · 4 months

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TFA Blitzwing

#do you people know how long it took me to figure out how to do the pics for this poll #longer than it should've #but i guess if he has three faces i can justify three pics #bonus poll coming soon so look forward to that #maccadam #transformers #tfa #poll #smash or pass #request #blitzwing #god i love him so much though #literally the robot of all time #hes a tumblr sexyman. hes the only con having a pretty good time on earth. he disses megatron to his face. megs doesnt seem to care.#hes secretly very sad inside and thinks nobody likes him. the cons actually DO like him but he doesnt know that #he tries to kill the constructicons and then probably gets drunk with them #he watches earth movies and tv so he probably figured out how to pirate that shit from the cave base #icy has nearly no sense of self preservation #hothead can actually speak so so gently #random does cannibalism for fun #and he has a whole weird gay thing with lugnut #literally who else is doing it like blitzwing. nobody. hes an icon hes an idol he is the moment

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beastlyidiocy · 6 days

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#bloodborne #micolash host of the nightmare #decadentart #every time i read his full title i read it in an announcer voice #micolash …. His greed sickens me #and so does his perspective nightmare cage.. Boy i can barely draw rhat thang #also the text is from the poem Spleen…..#specifically the lines which translate to -#‘When the rain stretching out its endless train - Imitates the bars of a vast prison - ‘#‘And a silent horde of loathsome spiders - Comes to spin their webs in the depths of our brains’#fyi his anatomy looks a bit weird because his clothes are so bulky and layered . and hes so skinny #He really did kill all those people Huh #i mean . u know what my forest grandpa slways says… sacrifices must be made ❕❕❕

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6vaguebook · 9 months

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After watching this first two episodes of the Percy Jackson Disney+ show, my main takeaway (outside of Percy taking on THREE Ares kids with no training and not even being wet) is that Luke was done so, so well.

The actor EMBODIES him. Even before I saw him acting, one picture was enough to convince me that this man WAS Luke, despite looking nothing like him. His friendship with Percy feels so much stronger. I'm already feeling the devastation from the inevitable betrayal. Just. He's so well done.

#Percy Jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson disney+#luke castellan #Also kinda mad about how they wrote Annabeth #She didn't even tell him to guard the area #She just said stand here and left him with no instructions #Spoilers #pjo tv show #pjo series #percy jackson series #percy jackson show #Also Sally Jackson was done really well #And something about the diverse casting really brought the world to life for me #Maybe because with all caucasian actors it feels like another world for me #Because I don't see caucasian people on a daily basis #In fact the first time I ever saw them was this summer at a resort #And then it felt so weird #Because obviously I KNOW people can look like this #But I've never seen it in real life before #It was sorta like a “oh my gosh people can look that soft???”#Cause most Arabs have sharper and harder features than caucasian people

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clarissaweasley-10 · 9 days

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Fitz Vacker is just a 90 year old grandpa stuck in the body of a teen, leave my man alone 😭😭😭😭

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fisheito · 2 months

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found a baby yaku amidst the Sketchbook-glitch-corruption wreckage..... wondering if he flipped skin tones between black and red and everything in between until he saw his to-be-grandparents (and started mimicking THEIR skin tone....... )

#thinking about yakumo having weird lil homunculus proportions or other such variations #what if he just always had massive hands compared to body size. yaoi hands from birth-transformation #he was so anti-snake that he looked at hands and said YES. THIS IS THE LEAST SNAKEY I CAN BE. I WILL GO 600% ON THIS FEATURE SPECIFICALLY #changing forms from entirely obsidian... or red in patches.... or striped... or other combinations...#because he only had murals to base his human form off of? at least at first?#were the murals in colour? shaded with gradients and lighting oh so conveniently?#then how was he to know what skin tone humans are supposed to have???#imagining the first few times he encountered his grandparents in his cave #maybe they only saw a shadow with eyes darting back into the darkness #just a really long black noodle with semisnake semihuman eyes (just a hint of sclera)#and every time they visited #yakumo observed more of their features #and took on something similar to their proportions...? or hair colour? or skin colour?#and maybe even when he's first adopted into the family and leaves the cave #he's still a vibrant pink and everyone thinks he somehow got sunburnt inside a cave or smth #but then he starts seeing all the other people in the village #including diff age groups and kids who are supposedly around his age #so he starts to slowly morph his body toward those characteristics #his skin gets beige-r. reshapes his eyes a bit.... grows a bit of nose.....lengthens his limbs a bit...#(the big humans seem to treat me the same as that speCIFIC group of smaller humans... so maybe i should use them as a Model)#like... how do you even age in a human body when you have no reference for how humans age?!??!#did yakumo stare at several children in the village and watch their growth year by year #and match his body to their changes just to fit in?#did nature just know what to do?? and he just naturally grew like a human without manual manipulation?#I DEMAND ANSWERS #nu carnival yakumo

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karvviie · 21 days

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just finished making my grimmons queerbait powerpoint. will be presenting it next weekend. feeling like i need to listen to the entire trocadero discography for 72hours straight.

#i also have the urge to read grimmons fics but idk if i can do it #i don’t think i’ve read any rvb fics in a long time (except qoq because it’s goated)#because i have already read most of them but also i used to know a lot of the authors so it feels weird reading their work #bc then all i’ll be thinking about is hmmm… *insert person i used to know* wrote this…. the whole time #it happened to me the other day where i tried to look for a fic that i enjoyed in the past and then i saw the author and was like OOP…..#it was somebody that was close to some not very nice people. and now i’m like urghhhh…. i can’t read this

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lunarharp · 25 days

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played dragon age 2...just simple scribbles

#dragon age tag #i doubt that will see much use again..but who knows. vvv rambling below #weird game..the characters dialogue stuff and ending were good tho :')#i've played some of the first game but it kept crashing. i knew already despite knowing nothing that this guy was going to be my type #it doesnt feel right making video game art any more bc games like this end up feeling really personal - an experience that happened to me #if i design the main character a bit and fall in love then..that happened to me..i can't make Fan Art of that..only ive been through that..#like i cant make fanart of my dear companions in bg3 despite it having been a huge part of my heart in the last year #almost 1000 hours of playtime in something i can barely talk about bc it means too much.... lol #tons of ideas and conversations and extra thoughts and scenes and emotions about all the incredible times i've been through in bg3 #and the maelstrom just rotates around intensely in my own heart forever...but that's ok too...that is so precious to me #but fortunately i already knew people that have played this game and talked/drew abt it recently so it was saved from that for me #sharing scribbly fanart on my Blog is a way to capture the feeling just after experiencing something so it has good points #witch hat atelier escapes that by not being a GAME. games are so immersive. but my wha art & feelings are incredibly immersive too #which makes it difficult sometimes now. i live a complicated and emotional life <3 i am not suited to fandom <3 #my character ended up looking so much like oru without me realising that's what i was doing. Kind bearded fireball throwing gay mage. Hmm.#falling for a sad white hair memory trauma fellow that keeps you at a tragic distance. Hmmmmmm.#i see also how very much bg3 is inspired by stuff like dragon age now lol so i'm glad i experienced it. I WANT MY KIRKWALL LIFE BACK...#so dated though as well and unpleasant at times (the city and the dismal atmosphere was depressing.) i hate violence/horror..#bg3 is SOOOO very dismal but it feels like I am killing people and going through horrors because i have to survive i have to be free #Well anyway. ahh it's so refreshing to fall in love. my gay journey continues...

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kacievvbbbb · 6 days

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Honestly despite my feelings about how the last arc of MHA went down I really love Deku and his story.

I just feel like a lot of the time we get these protagonists whose whole philosophy is it doesn’t matter what you were born as everyone can achieve greatness. But then the series goes on and it turns out that actually it DOES matter because the protagonist has this really great lineage and these really great powers you can only have through birth they were actually born born, predestined if you will, to do this.

But MHA actually sticks to its guns. Midoriya wasn’t revealed to have some great connection to all might that the universe had put in place. He wasn’t defended from some great lineage that makes him uniquely suited to this. Hell All for one didn’t even turn out to be his father, there was no hidden powerful quirk he was always meant to have. He was just Midoriya Izuku a boy who was in the right place at the right time and simply decided to act while the world did nothing. And that’s what really made him a hero.

I don’t know, maybe it’s just me, but I believe him a bit more when he goes anybody can be a hero if you just decide to act

#also never stop crying baby I love taht about you #like I do understand that being given one for all an extremely powerful quirk is kind of a cop out #but still the quirk was passed down to him because of his own merits not becayse it was pre destined or because he was born to weird it #and honestly that’s more than we’ve got in a long time.#yes this is a little bit of a naruto call out cause I will never get over that complete 180 😭#and it does randomly drop that little tidbit of how it was good luck Midoriya was quirkless or the quirk would have killed him young #but honestly I don’t even know what to make of that besides……yay?#also yeah that’s pretty realistic sometimes disabilities make your more suited for somethings so yeah #this isn’t me implying that other protagonists didn’t work hard by the way I know they did two things can be true at once #bakugo proves that. like he is was born with an extremely powerful quirk but nobody can say he doesn’t work hard #it’s just a little tiring to see this underdog character suddenly get a backstory that’s like sike you actually needed to be born to do thi #one piece does this a little bit to be fair to them the story doesn’t really emphasize anyone can do it that way it has different themes #about what family means and it’s all about inherited will so I can give it a pass #but yeah I really appreciate mha for sticking to that gun even though it dropped the ball on a lot of things #like never fully addressing the quirkless people can be heroes too thing but that’s a topic for next time #throwing thoughts to the void #deku #mha #my hero academia #mha meta #mha analysis #midoriya izuku #izuku midoriya #one for all #mha deku #bhna #boku no hero acedamia

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uncanny-tranny · 1 year

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You know, I feel like other trans people might get this, but it's honestly kind of refreshing when a cis person has, like, undeniable tboy/tgirl/whatever swag. It's like when you come across somebody who speaks the same language as you and you only find out when they start speaking it, too.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #all this to say that we are existing on a rock hurling through space #and this universe is going to collide into another and does it all truly matter in the end?#a lot of this is based on ideas we have about what constitutes certain people and i think it can be a fun observation #so long as you do not inherently ascribe certain traits as being indicative of who somebody Is #it can be amusing when you're SO confident that somebody is a certain way until you realize how Wrong you were #the amusement for me only comes because it's like... 'you tried your best to box somebody and you FAILED lmao'#and in a weird way it's kind of comforting because it reminds me that we all come into this world with bias that Will be challenged...#...so the best thing you can do is recognize those biases and then try to overcome them through great effort...#...so yes maybe i did think that cis dude had tboy swag but. that's not inherently his problem you know?#it probably just means he's confident in his manhood in a way that reminds me of the trans men* i know and love #i noticed that in him and it reminded me of my friends who are trans so i think 'oh! maybe that's why he's giving off those vibes!'#so while i won't treat him any differently before or after finding out i was wrong i'm still going to appreciate the fact that...#...he and i are literally just Vibing on the same planet and we both don't have time for petty arguing about manhood #i'll acknowledge what inspired those thoughts in me but that is Not his problem and that's good and beautiful actually #i don't always mind the tboy/tgirl swag meme just so long as you don't treat it like an Inherent Trans Experience Only Trans People Have #just recognize where those ideas are inspired from and it's fine <3 #sometimes you will be Wrong and that's actually fucking neutral <<3 #anyway rant over i just think this is /generally/ harmless and fun #like astrology. sometimes you just look up your star sign without ascribing your Entire Life to it <3 #i think what i lot of people mean by saying a cis person has tboy/tgirl swag is just that...#...that cis person has an understanding of themself that comes from deep introspection that isn't necessarily expected of cis folk...#...but it is often something trans people do as part of our exploration of gender...#how is this the FIRST POST to reach tag limit... ask me for more thoughts if you want lol!

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