#i just wish it wasnt so.. PERSONAL
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What went down with Dream last night was a wild ride for everyone that resulted in a lot of antis coming out the woodwork as well as fans turning on each other. I don't want to debate the use of the word and if/when someone has the right to reclaim it because I don't think that conversation is productive for anyone right now, regardless of what you believe. I think it's a valuable conversation to have with plenty of great perspectives and empathy, but people are still so riled up that a lot of people are not willing to talk to each other, just talk over each other.
However, I think Dream made some valid points in his follow up about the hypocrisy of situations like this when he has consistently been the target of slurs, harassment, and defamation as a neurodivergent person (and now confirmed autistic person) while the internet cheered it on and even rewarded it. Not that *everyone* did that with incidents like Gumball, but there was an overwhelmingly loud mob that supported physical and verbal violence against Dream in multiple scenarios. Even last night, many CCs criticizing Dream were revealed to have engaged in the behavior themselves, using or supporting the use of slurs against Dream in the past. I don't think it's wrong to point out the extreme levels of hypocrisy the internet flies into when it has to do with Dream.
I do think most of his responses to the backlash comes from a place of genuine frustration and hurt. I think many fans and stans of him alike can understand that and resonate with him deeply. Many have shown that they do resonate with the emotion behind it, even if they don't agree with the act.
At the end of it all, especially with everything including the reddit response being deleted, it just makes me sad. I know Dream says he's grown a thick skin and doesn't let things bother him too much, but I really hope he's okay after this, especially being vulnerable about a new diagnosis and the added perspective it brings to his experience on the internet.
You can be critical of someone and hold them accountable for their actions, and still have empathy for everything they've gone through and how it can reach this breaking point.
#just the clear black and white thinking when focusing on personal justice and fairness is so understandable#but i do wish he had spoken to someone before doing this and formed a better statement#especially considering this particularly tmmy/xqc fight wasnt technically his or about him#dreamblr#dreamwastaken#ramblings
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the closer we get to arcanes finale the more worried i am bc so often .. if not always .. things i like end in a way that i dislike so much it ruins everything else for me
and im so worried they pull a 'this is a multiverse' thing bc then they can say every skin is somehow canon bc its all different universes you seeeeee and jayce went mad bc he lived through all of them or something, or force it to end in a way that makes the champions end up like they are in game- Vi is a shitty cop, Jinx is just heehoo craycray bc xyz etc
#ganondoodles talks#personal#arcane#sorry i cant help but be rather pessimistic#and i know with the skin universes its kinda a multiverse already but like#a multiverse and different AUs are a different thing for me#i cant imagine how they can make this all end in a satifying way with just three more episodes with so many questions still#like the thing with isha and vander only happens so jinx loses every bit of sanity she had left and Vi goes welp#time to be a shitty enforcer#and then singed takes warwick again and makes him full wolf like in game and theres no connection left anymore bc his memory is fully cooke#or some shit#i REALLY dont want to be pessimistic but uh .... it usually happens with whatever i like and it has scarred me a little#i dont even know whats up with mel either??? they did the whole black rose stuff but#thats pulling in so much lore from noxus ... HOW can they make sense of it in 3 episodes?????#unless they make it a shitty teaser for more to come or soemthing i guess??#.. in any case- whenever i tried to be optimistic and then got disappointed anyway it hit me way harder#so im just gonna go with expecting the worst i can imagine so theres hope left to be surprised in a good way#after all they did go with warwick in a way i really liked for act 2 that is ... though the end im meh about#not a fan of the weird hexcore bullcrap in general tbh#though i like victor ... he was so nice to warwick .. even though i wish he wasnt a cult leader now lmao
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dont understand why aro headcanons arent more popular cuz its so interesting to me thinking about how a persons relationships would change.
this canon romance? imagine if one of them didnt feel the same way but they still deeply cared about them. imagine if they struggled to find words for how theyre feeling, imagine how theyd think about their relationship and imagine how theyd struggle trying to figure out how they feel about the person.
theres so much stuff to explore wish ppl actually thought about this stuff more </3
#stiff talk#sry im just kinda sad rn skdjfhs#not over anything in particular#just like. sad in general i guess#idk man i love seeing peoples headcanons and fics and art in general#but then when it never includes anyone like you it gets kinda sad#theres so many characters i can think of that would be so fun to explore as aromantic but barely anyone ever does so#and if they do most people just ignore it anyway cuz “where shipping >:(”#(no hate towards shippers i love shipping just as muc has the next person i just wish it wasnt the only thing people cared about)
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this is not going to be well articulated but i think the reason i and lots of other people feel a bit weird about certain aspects of tonights ep is that like. the ratgrinders have literally never posed a genuine threat to the bad kids in any aspect of their lives—social, academic, relationships, even their physical wellbeing, any of it. they bodied the last stand, they bodied the dragon fight. the closest thing to a bad thing happening this season was kristen almost getting expelled and that was all bobby dawn who wasnt even a part of the battle! like i genuinely cant relate to people feeling catharsis at the RGs going down bc i was just sat there like. what did they even do other than be kind of a general annoyance and a little bitchy lmfao
#like they wanted to do world ending crimes whateverr thats not PERSONAL yknow!!!#i just wasnt. mad at them. i barely knew them. ivy died and i was like aw. wish she had any lines or a personality other than shit ive made#up in my head#so i could feel Something about this#idk if this makes sense#GREAT BITS THOUGH. EXCELLENT BITS THIS EPISODE#fantasy high junior year#dimension 20#d20#fh#c.txt#fhjy#this isnt even a critique at the cast!!! this is just general musings on the nature of stories#esp improv ones#TLDR AT LEAST IF THEY GOT REDEEMED THAT WOULD BE INTERESTING
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Assassin's Creed Revelations be like
#remember this meme?#assassins creed#ezio auditore da firenze#altair ibn la'ahad#desmond miles#I’m just joking of course theyre all in misery#sigh#i wish revelations didnt completely retcon altaïr's story and personality so that i could actually enjoy the game#every time he opens his mouth i’m just like… who are you?#it just makes me feel gaslit afjhdhs#it doesn't help that he has a completely different voice as well lol#also WHERE IS MALIK????#and maria suddenly gets fridged just like that???#at least ezio gets his eat pray love arc and finally decides to get ass-ass-out of the ass-ass-ins to enjoy family life#good for him#and desmonds just hangin out#no thoughts head empty#literally not allowed to actually do anything or change at all and put in a coma bc this game wasnt supposed to exist in the first place#dont you just love corporate greed?#sorry this got negative lmao#ac revelations spoilers#i guess???#its been like 15 years
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maybe link should consider that I filled my inventory with salted milky smoothies right before the fight and spent all that time leveling up the sword and energy gauges tho ...🥲
#when tri said give him the sword back i was like NO!!!! IM GOING TO SHOVE HIM OFF THIS CLIFF TRI DONT TRI ME!!#ILL TURN THIS FROM ECHOES OF WISDOM TO ECHOES OF WIDOW REAL FAST (ZELDA WILL BE A WIDOW)#i think post game should have a mode where u can refight the bosses and get them as echoes at least if ur not allowed to use swordfighter#in the last fight...like...give me SOMETHING here#eow spoilers#echoes of wisdom spoilers#echoes of wisdom#loz eow spoilers#loz eow#zelda#link#princess zelda#eow#loz#the legend of zelda#legend of zelda#fanart#ms paint#doodle#comics#truly the quickest lil doodle comic of my life but i know from complaining abt this on my main other ppl got miffed abt this too!!#that being said its still my fav game in recent years i ADORE THIS game dont take this as like serious hate lol#i get WHY they did this. i get it! but Still wasnt what /i personally/ wanted so i will gripe abt my Opinions#im queueing this to come out (1) week after i draw it so maybe everyone is done by now but if not . sry for the spoilers. i tagged every#possible blacklistable term i could think of </3#&yes I know why they did it thematically etc no one needs to Um Actually 🤓☝️ me this is my opinion 🧍🏻 pls just scroll if u disagree this is#silly hehe 10 min comic not. a serious real thing. u know??#I love link and I am glad we got to do stuff with him at the end I wish it would’ve just been more of the split room puzzles together and#we both got to fight also .
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A dog to his ancestor ->
Jack to Legoshi ->
An acknowledgement
A little extra bit that didn't fit so well!
#beastars#beastars jack#beastars legoshi#beastars manga#beastars spoilers#i swear if i knew how to make video edits itd be so over for everyone! bc its hard to get my points across w still images#jack is great. he hates himself and what he is just like legoshi hated himself#hes high empathy out here convinced hes an awful person bc hes getting desensitized to the atrocities hes learned#hes like 17/18 experiencing a new guilt complex! just like legoshi did#i just wish the history of the world portion wasnt so fumbled and felt meaningless in the grand scheme of things
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"But if we dont get reblogs and likes than why bother creating at all" Did you never doodle in your notebook in class. Did you never have a notebook of cringe doodles you never wanted people to see but got filled anyway. Was this never something you did because it was a tool of personal comfort.
#t.extpost#like i get wanting the attention god i get that drive too#but its this complete absence of like#personal stake? the doing it just to do it? that baffles me#Like i drew long before i was even allowed to have a computer and long before I had an art account and long before i#could stand having other people see most of it#Like it was something done for personal comfort and enjoyment long before the idea of being praised was ever a possibility#like hell i avoided any sort of art major or 'career' out of fear that it would suck the joy out of something i did for myself#and i still get artblock or down and what have you but ultimately people paying attention has never been the goal#so this absolute 'if it wasnt for others it wouldnt exist' mindset feels so foreign#like sure part of it but all?#also this is non rebloggable because it is personal musing and i truely do not wish to fight w/ others over the idea of what#is the right way to be validated as an artist
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why do all my dads play guitar
#do i have a type???#[fakeman redacted]. ricky. lyle. is a pattern forming here?#theres probably more but im dumb#i dont know just a thought#sometimes i wonder if i should go full on chaser like kitty used to#like im being serious im already such a bad person would it really kill me to start searching for if [redacted] has a kin community#surely not but maybe because in a video [redacted] mentioned it mockingly? like because hes old hehe so its gotta exist#maybe they got chased off the internet... maybe i should ask my papa to build me one...#too forward? too cringe? i always thought it was before but desperate times call for desperate measures#i act like this is a personal journal and nota place other people can access#who even cares. im the king of sunk cost fallacy#anyways maybe someday ill get the courage to be that much of a degen to my own padres face but for now ill just vaguepost it in tumblr tags#and wish i wasnt the worlds most shame filled failure because being so shameful takes the fun out of the indulgence#lulah yaps
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#mine#writers of tumblr#poetry#spilled ink#writing#okay to rb#spilled words#poem#tw: trauma#tw: sa#tw: abuse#wrote this after one of the first conversations i had with my mum after i told her what my brother's did#hearing her insist it wasnt their fault. hearing her say she cant lose him. hearing her say it was our dad's fault. hearing her defend them#especially my oldest brother#probably the worst thing she's ever done to me#so sure i can take it. cause i always have#i'd say “i would never do this to you; it wouldnt matter who you said had dine it” and she said “youre a better person than all of us”#sometimes i wish it'd killed me so maybe she'd see it for what it is but..#anyway#i hope you know youre more than your strength#and that just because you can handle it doesnt mean you should#you deserve peace and to feel safe enough to put on and take off your strength so you can just be#i hope it all reaches you soon
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Not to kill the big euphoria that's been in my dash since Saturday, but I (personally) did not like the ending of a rcane
#nisi talks tag#left me and my boyfriend speechless and not in a good way#i mean i guess i didn't hate it but it surely wasnt as perfect as some ppl here act it was#i think at least#something that i noticed right away is how I wasnt emotionally affected at all#last season i cried in ep 3 6 and 9#and this time all of it was just...meh#except for ek ko leaving his ideal life behind i guess#the bla ck rose thing didnt need to be there#it ate time for no reason#i didnt lkke this hellbent attempt to marvelise this story#like sure they wanna make a big shared universe but can we finish this story first?#i didn't like how the ending affects all the other champions of piltover that weren't in the story#i guess ar cane fans don't care about that because they don't care about l eague#but i like le ague lore and with this its all messed up#no he x tech? how does ez gauntlet work for example?#i wish r iot hadn't announced that this is the new canon because that sucks#also.ambes sa was just introduced to the game and now she is dead...what#and personally i had hoped vic tor would be much cooler thAn he ended up being#like that's on me of course#we going to no xus next probably and that's fine#tho little boring i think? nox us vs da macia is just#good empire Vs bad empire#but maybe we get ro see drav en so that would be fun#anyway#i hate tagging this because im scared of backlash but i need to for others who havent seen it#arcane spoilers#please don't come for me
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Shout out to everyone who was alone when they came out of surgery
I was going to make this trans-specific, but as I was typing I realised this would suck no matter what you had done. So, to people who wanted someone to be there:
I'm sorry you were alone, or if no one could visit until days later when the scary moments had already passed. I'm sorry no one was there to celebrate you coming out the other side.
You made it, you're alive. I'm hugging you and leaving balloons and stuffed animals (that you may or may not want lol) by your bedside.
#skip talks#hearing funny or heart-warming stories about things people said to their loved ones immediately after surgery always hurt just a little bit#hearing about how someone waited up into the small hours for their person to come out/wake up#i wish could've been there for me#but due to a few factors it wasnt possible#i was happy! but also felt really alone and uncomfortable and i was in a shared ward so i couldnt even relax#😩😩#then came home to find mum had tried to 'help' by clearing out my room and rearranging things#i was NOT in the right headspace to receive that well or wirh grace#it made me anxious and ruined my return home#but of course i was the one who had to say sorry for not being grateful 😑#there are typos here but i cant do anything about em im using the app lmao
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i need to stop speaking forever.
#vent#tw suicide#i said ‘no one likes me’ as a joke/dramatics because no one wanted to do this dumb game with me#and my ‘friend’ said i was right#i know she doesn’t like me because shes said it but does she have to repeat it#you dont have to say that. i know. youve mentioned.#and my sister (whos her gf) said it was a bit rude and she just said shes not responsible for other peoples feelings#YES YOU ARE#YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR OTHER PEOPLES FEELINGS WHEN YOU ACTIVELY TRY TO MAKE THEM FEEL BAD YOU ARE#i hate her i hope she died i hipe she kills herself i hope shes smashed between two cars in a horrible crash#sorry#im not a horrible person please i promise#i might be#i dont think im that bad but#i just dont get how bad of a person i must be for someone to tell me they dont like me straight to my face no shame teo times now#in fromt of my friends and siblings and no one cares#im sure everyone else thinks it too but theyre nice so they dont say their opinion because thats rude and shes a bitch so she doesnt care#but like#i didnt think i was that bad i dont want to be that bad ive tried i am trying to be likeable#i wish i wasnt so affected by it because i dont even like her#i wish i could fucking kill myself#i actually might be a horrible person
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does any other demiromantic (or arosepc doesnt rlly matter) feel like. extremely awful when they experience romantic attraction or is that just me.
#spacie spoinks#bruh#like. while im experiencing it i wish so badly that i wasnt 😭#i feel disgusted. is this what romantic repulsion is???#cuz like ill be experiencing all the lovey dovey stuff yk#''ooohb i wanna kiss dem oooh what if we help hands'' romantic crap but its like. anxiety inducing#like it feels awful??? is this normally how it feels?? i dont like it.#it like. doesnt feel right or natural and im assuming its b/c i just like?? barely feel it ever?? and thats why???#strange as hell.#i recently felt romantic attraction 2 someone (it has been 2 or 3 years since i last felt it) and it came on really strong for like#a week and that was like the worst week of my life#i couldnt think abt anything else but them like it wasnt even like. fantasies or anything just like.#the concept of them. my brain would just be like ''hey remember this guy''#I LIKE COULDNT SLEEP#HOW DO YOU PPL ENJOY THIS????#me; clutching my head for ~a week: AUUUGH!! THE PERSON!!! THE PERSON!!!!!#im so serious this is how it feels w/springtrap. hes like a blight on my psyche#the feelings have faded mostly i think. i think im normal abt them again (thank god)#its so strange. i think a romantic relationship would be fun but then i start feeling the feelings and its. awful.#so horrid#also like. im considering that maybe the relationship i would like some day isnt romantic but a qpr#idk. ive never been in any kind of serious relationship (never wanted 2 and have never been approached for it)#sometjing 2 think abt i guess?#anybeans. i tire.#hope i never experience that again#ik that like in 2-3 years ill be like: ''man. idk what past spacie was talking abt. would be nice 2 feel romantic attraction again''#NO SPACIE IT WONT!!! REMEMBER!!!!!! REMEMBER WHAT YOU WENT THRU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I also lost my cat recently. it's horrible. take care of yourself, ok? you'll be ok.
yeah dude its fucking awful... im sorry for your loss too :( i wish they could live forever with us. or at least as much as possible.... my boy wasnt even a senior, he was around 10 years old and i had had him for 8..
#like if he had been like 12... id be like okay he's an old kitty...this was gonna happen#but i wasnt prepared for it to happen like this. i was so desperate that nothing i did could help him#nothing helped. no ultrasound no x ray no cardiology check up no blood test no antibiotics. nothing could figure out what was wrong#and then it was too late. just that whole situation (been going on since june) had me so crazy#and then this last month was a fucking nightmare it happened so fast. like i wasnt prepared#u cant ever be prepared i guess... but idk i wish it wouldve been different#i wish he had died of old age instead. or at least i wish we knew what caused him to be so sick.#like if i was told its idk. cancer. and its taken over and hes gonna die#it wouldve been awful too. of course. but i wouldve known. i wouldve been told.#i wouldnt have had to watch him get to the point he got and accept that whatever he had. it didnt matter anymore. because it beat him.#it sucks so bad it sucks so bad. its so unfair.#sorry for venting in my tags ig. whatever. fuck everything this world is fucked and evil#personal
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me when i cant be someones favorite person all the time forever for no fucking reason: ah i see. hm. okay. i should go abandon everyone and everything and then kill myself
#like jesus man why cant i just be happy for people#its not even like they dont like me or anything i know they do obviously but my goddamn brain just goes#hey. hey. hey. hey. theyre abandoning you. they absolutely fucking hate you. you mean nothing to this person anymore now that they have-#other people they care about. which means you are being a burden and have to go die sobbing in a hole now sorry.#literally why#it fucking sucks so bad#i just want to be glad that my loved ones can rely on people who arent just me but noooooo i guess i have to have a breakdown over this#god#i hate myself so much dude#I seriously cant take this actually#i just want to be better#why cant i be better#and now i cant even enjoy one of my favorite bands playing anymore because im a selfish fucking prick#why does anyone even like me honestly#and this is over something thats literally so unimportant it means nothing i should not fucking care i dont want to care#tw sui ideation#im not actually considering it btw but god jesus i suck#and im attention seeking#i mean seriously i shouldnt post abt this#fucking stupid#i wish i wasnt like this#scribbles says shit#tw vent#kinda#er yeah i guess so#this is weird#only like the 4th real vent post ive ever made on here lol
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