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#i just want to be able to handle things normally man.#just once.#at least its solved now. with only my shame remaining.#it sucks that i KNOW. these arent isolated incidents without any cause anymore because i KNOW.#and i KNOW itll get better. and i KNOW im being a fucking bitch-ass for not being able to handle anything. and i KNOW that that isnt true.#i know. i know all of it. the only fucking thing i dont know is how to fix my broken mind.#sillyposting#its better now. ive handled everything as well as i could and because my dad was home earlier i could ask him if he could drive. and he can#its all good now. it is. which also means that all my struggles and horrors were without reason again.#i just. hate that i have to depend on others. i hate that i cant fix myself myself. i hate that despite how far ive come im still here.#i hate how childish and immature it is. and i know that it isnt but i cant help but see how WRONG everything is with me.#and im just being dramatic. i know this is just aftermath of an excruciating 2 hours that got solved just 5 minutes ago.#i know all of it.#i just wish i didnt have to.#im scared itll never get better. and i know thats what i also said three years ago. and i know it will.#its nearly exam season. i cant wait /gen
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my favorite fields of mistria boys 🥰
#fom#fields of mistria#march#balor#art#fanart#not much to tag tbh#i do like march too but balor still takes the cake for me#i know i said that other one was my last fanart but i wanted to doodle march he looks easy to draw#and then balor happened too i cant help it#i just restarted the game im taking it slower this time#i really wish the dragonguard heist plan didnt fall through#cuz i wouldve loved to have isa just go try and grab balors keys#hehe#anyway march is canonically jacked right#not as much as his brother but he has the arms right#appearently balors eyes are brown but i have no idea what color marchs eyes are supposed to be#they just look black#love that the children are always on about balor being so mysterious#so real let me join the dragonguards#the amazing thing to me about balor is that i just did not give a shit about him in the promo art up until i met him in-game#like i saw him in the promos and was like cool whatever ill probably go for march...until i actually met him
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Scott Cawthon’s version of FNAF Burntrap..
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#fnaf fanart#burntrap#the mimic#mimic#mimic fnaf#fnaf gregory#glamrock freddy#security breach#scott cawthon#SO the interview between Dawko and Scott happened a bit ago#I DIDNT expect to have many idea from that#but now I have MOST of my comic idea from it#Scott mentions in it that Burntrap was actually never supposed to move#which gives me the impression they were supposed to be like golden Freddy#SO I JUST HAD to draw out this concept myself#cause I genuinely think it’s very cool and wish we got this ver of burntrap#yes this comic is semi based off that puss in boots last wish scene lmao
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obligatory beach divorce doodling
bonus rough cover redraw of x-men #41 (1995) But Beach Divorce below cut
#mcu#marvel cinematic universe#xmen#xmen movies#xmen first class#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#professor x#magneto#snap sketches#'snap i thought you were drawing old cherik this weekend' so did i but i was inflicted with visions sorry </3#i have my lil 92 comic sketched so ill do that tomorrow. not finish it but ill work on it 💀#i wsa just gonna draw the first thing but then i figureed i might as well draw Most of the beach-divorce-related things i want to#just so i could put it all on one post. however this is a lie and i know ill wanna doodle more beach stuff#the first drawing Unsurprisingly was motivated BY the xmen 41 legion quest cover- at the very least the total blackout of erik's face#i wanna draw more of erik using his powers .. i wanna figure out how i wanna draw the effect etc etc#i was just gonna redraw the cover but i already liked the sketch i did of the first thing so. here we are#plus i figure someones already done a redraw of the cover but if anyone cares ill finish my version ig LOL#as for the comic ermmm it was just an excuse to draw erik with glowing eyes </3 and fading-glowing eyes </3#thats why i didnt draw the whole. Choking Moira bit. but i wouldve if i was redrawing the whole scene#kinda wish i did now that i think of it cause it coulda looked cooler prob but oh well maybe in like. three months when i redraw this#for exactly five cents ill redraw the whole beach divorce erlkjealkaje i can see it so clearly in my mind#what if first class was a comic drawn by a freak thatd be wild#but yeah thats why everything look rough as christ these were just supposed to be silly lil thangs#'silly things' and its beach divorce OK.#ok bye im gonna do my homework
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Just who are you, Councilor Medarda?
#i did not like her s2 arc so i am copium and living in s1 painter mel#mel medarda#arcane#my art#i have a LOT of thoughts on her and i wish she remained like. a normal person and not...whatever the magical stuff happened#it didnt develop smoothly enough for me to feel invested and left me just kind of. confused.#& i think that forgetting about Mels painting is leaving a huge interesting level to her character because art as a whole#can be used as a metaphor for the image for others to perceive vs how we perceive it ourselves...so for mel it would be herself#with the others perception being all of piltover. her mother. jayce. vik. lest. they all see her differently and mel herself i think#presents a different woman than what she is inside in favour of being 'diplomatic' and 'moving forward'#anyway thats just me rambling i jsut think there was a lot of melon left to thump in terms of her character#i loathe her trading in her signature colours for her mothers in the end
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Davrin best mate
#dragon age the veilguard#dragon age#dav#datv#da4#davrin#grey warden#i like davrin hes cool#i just wish he didnt have a fade 😩#but welp#my art#too tired to do more than doodles these days
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Fop redesigns for funsies but also bcs I saw some star heel boots and had to put Dale in them immediately.
#No Dev in this lineup simply bcs I cannot imagine him wearing anything but his cannon outfit#he has no sense of fashion or personal identity to pull an outfit from LOL#fop#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish#hazel wells#dale dimmadome#fop peri#fop cosmo#fop wanda#redesigns#outfit redesign#art#digital art#fanart#Im not gonna be using Dale or Peris redesigns bcs those arent things I see them wearing regularly they were more just fun explorations#Hazel Cosmo and Wanda im def using tho#I know I didnt change Wanda much but#I have a small but insane pet peeve where I cannot stand a characters pants and shirt being the same color.#So I made Hazels sweater more purple and changed her pants to a different and darker blue#Gave cosmo a more relaxed dad vibe while keeping it a button up#Wandas mostly the same I just mostly used her human outfit and changed her sneakers to boots#Peri has less visible fairy features than his parents because hes more insistent about hiding them#Also if Peri looks uncomfortable in his outfit it is because he is ♥#I wrote like an entire paragraph about Peris relationship with gender identity and how fairy society biology/gender binary comes in conflic#and then I pussied out of posting it so now all you get is peri looking kinda uncomfy in a skirt#The long story short of it tho is that Peri identifies as the human version of male#while the closest he can get to that in fairy society is kind of transfem#So dressing like that around other fairies is closer to making him feel himself but still not entirely right
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how do transmascs not want to kill themselves all the time honestly
#i experience transphobia and hardship in my daily life#and then i go home and go on my computer and learn that i dont experience any of that actually#im just pretending. and i shouldnt talk about it because im just a fake trans#who wishes his experiences could even measure up to a crumb of what real trans people (women) have to go through#ok cool.#testosterone is a controlled substance did you know that. my state is actively making it harder for people my age to access hrt#but i guess since im transmasc i dont actually have to worry about any of that! im fine!#i didnt have a 3 month time limit before it would be illegal for me to access hrt! im transmasc im too privileged to worry about that!#transphobia#transandrophobia
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So does anybody else ever think about how Loop felt the need to demonstrate that the party's deaths wouldn't have any effect on the loops. I know I do but that's besides the point. Anyway I don't think Loop actually needs to bathe, they just like to feel included.
#'but lucabyte didnt you already do a comic with this exact same message? that loop has potentially killed their party intentionally before?'#yes i did absolutely do that thank you for noticing. that is what the cannibalism comic is about. no that was not a metaphor. lol#isat#in stars and time#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#sifloop#isat siffrin#isat loop#in stars and time fanart#isat fanart#lucabyteart#ill ramble elsewhere some other time. maybe in a text post. but. long and short of it: even if you assume the answer to 'how do they know'#is that in sasasap isa got frozen once. theres still the fact that the loops are from sif being too distressed. how far gone does a siffrin#have to be before they can witness a party member die and notice it has no effect. how does loop feel to have planned to kill the party#during act 3. why did they NEED to show sif that. are they trying to preemtively stop them from getting the idea in their head#that maybe that might work? when they're out of all other options? when they just get so frustrated and at wits end?#loop helps in subtle ways through the whole game. and in less subtle ways like begging sif not to use the dagger. and while yes the#overarching reason you need to learn that the loops are tied to sif is because you need to figure out wish craft.... loop doesn't know the#actual mechanics of the loops themselves. just what didn't work. the power of friendship. getting the final hit in. being perfect. etc...#and besides all that.. how did loop feel during that hangout. being so deceitful. especially since before the other shoe drops#sif is enjoying themselves. but they know what's coming the whole time.#as for: why bathing? its the obvious imagery for blood on their hands/washing/never being clean. and is a bit of an inversion of the other#piece i just drew with the other casual closeness and nudity being kind. this one is cruel instead.#anyway tag ramble over ill do a masterpost of all my fanwork with some directors commentary sometime i promise. since i know im often vague
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the plot on earth: happening. everyone crowing around the lore: okay but tell us more about pixie office shenanigans please
Once, a new Pixie intern accidentally ordered Blue-White paper with 97 Brightness instead of Cream-White paper with 98 Brightness. It sent the entire Pixies Corporation into an uproar, and they tried to take over Fairyworld as a result. Y'know. To ban Blue-White paper from existence.
It took weeks for Jorgen to resolve it all and bring the Pixies back in line. After that event, interns had to take a 2-course seminar on the differences of printer paper quality before being tasked to order more printer paper.
Bitties Series: [Start] > [Previous] > [Next]
#fairly oddparents#fop#fop a new wish#fop timmy turner#fop timmy#timmy turner#fop sanderson#sanderson#asks#itty bitties fop au#its one of the few takeovers that didnt involve Head Pixie#the incident was SUCH a shock that it just. sent all the pixies into a FRENZY#Timmy was also shocked by the news but more in the 'Oh for fucks sake i JUST printed that 60 page report. now i have to do it ALL OVER AGAI#the office was a mess afterwords and timmy got a horribly long lecture by HP for submitting his report in the wrong printer paper#sanderson avoided the lectures because he's a smart pixie and knows better than rely on the office printer paper#he has his own secret stash of personal printer paper that he uses#so he was the only pixie who turned in his reports in the proper format haha
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spin this wheel for a random ultrakill character and vote in the poll below
#ultrakill#fuck marry kill#polls#spin the aroace wheel. boy#i've seen a few of these polls around but have yet to find an ultrakill one so here u go#i put as many characters as i could think of in here#i probably missed someone but whatever#i also shuffled them all like 3 times just to make sure i didnt accidentally put all the popular characters in one corner#im gonna wash my hair now bye#mine#i got council member btw and i kinda wish i could say fuck and then kill
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another batch of MCs as thanks for drawing clora🥹💖💖 once i start working on something i cant rest until i get it done so ive legit been working on these nonstop for the past 2 days from when i wake up till i go to bed.......i can finally rest 🧎♀️........THANK YALL AGAIN💖💖💖🙏🙏🙏 MC's in order: @moonstruckmoony @syaolaurant @dwightschrute11 @boxdstars @versailles-black @ccelicaa @ethniee @wrongcog @ashiori-chan @tamayula-hl @celestinawarlock @serpensortiamaxima @silvyadrakkon @jadepalaceyaya @zorro-d-t
#and this still isnt even everyone thats drawn clora but even if i never get around to drawing something for u KNOW THAT I APPRECIATE IT🙏🙏#I wish i could draw something in return for everyone who draws something for me but i also dont want ppl to think its a guaranteed thing#i used yalls mc's as paint practice too and omg idk why i did this to myself i bit off way more than i could chew#next time defs just sticking to flat colours and simple shading LMAO#at least ive gotten faster tho i think so it WAS good practice🥰 and its my fault anyway i didnt HAVE to rush and finish these#but it felt so long overdue that i just rly wanted them done#SO HOPE YALL LIKE I TRIED TO MAKE THEM ALL EQUAL WITH THE AMOUNT OF EFFORT#choccyart
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"You okay?"
Another one from "Managerial Liberties" by the talented @miribalis (in which Adam is accidentally the best wingman ever - what a pun!).
#my best friend practically bullied me into colouring this and i have to say it is so way way out of my comfort zone because i SUCK AT IT#still think a bw version of this would look waaaaay better#please have mercy on me#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel fanart#radioapple#appleradio#alastor x lucifer#hazbin hotel alastor#hazbin hotel lucifer#alastor the radio demon#lucifer morningstar#managerial liberties#omg i REALLY added alastors antlers AND his monocle AND i didnt forget to tag the fanfiction properly??#IM ON A ROLL!#if i forgot anything else please dont tell me#i wish i had time to draw every scene from chapter 6#its just MY GOD#i think chapter 7 will end me#in the best way possible#oh my goddddd i just saw that i forgot to colour a whole ass section fUCK ME#my art
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+Bonus ✨️
#conclave#conclave 2024#vincent benitez#conclaveeditsrf#thomas lawrence#aldo bellini#goffredo tedesco#sister agnes#ray o'malley#joseph tremblay#joshua adeyemi#cardinal benitez#cardinal lawrence#I ENJOYEDDD MAKING THIS SOOO MUCH 😭😭😭#ive had this vision since weeks and FINALLY got some time!!!#literally playing with them like paper dolls 😭😭😭#i really didnt know what to do with bellini AND THENNN i saw my ss of him clapping...#i was like what if i remove the other hand hmmmm#AND THEN I ALMOST HANDED HIM A WINE GLASS UNTIL IT STRUCK ME...#IT HAD TO BE A BELLINI OFC 😭😭😭😭#ngl it was Ray's idea that started it all!!!#and then the late pope 😭😭😭#i was giggling so much while making theirs#ofc Vincent and Lawrence are just smitten with each otherrr#and tedesco is bothering bellini while he is trying to just chill!!!!!#Tremblay is legit about to cry ofc and ademeyi is mad but having thots hmm🤨...#sister agnes know all frr i didnt even have to think much about itt!!!#i wish i could include more characters!!!!!😭😭😭 they're all sooo beloved#be sure to click for more details because ofc tunglr is eating up the quality 😭😭😭
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class divide & struggle in haikyuu
haikyuu twitter has brought up the theme of class struggle in hq and it really got me thinking just how subtle and effective furudate is in portraying class divide throughout the story.
hinata is introduced riding a bike, seeing volleyball through a store TV (not his own like Hoshiumi, Ushijima, Kageyama), and years later he's still riding a bike up and down a mountain every day for an hour to get to school and practice. how the gyms in the public schools like nekoma and karasuno have stages because they're multipurpose, as opposed to the specific volleyball facilities that shiratorizawa and other private schools have. the bond that nekoma and karasuno have as being the public schools in their prefectures, being known as "scavengers", taking what they can get and fighting tooth and nail for it. THE DUMPSTER BATTLE.
Shiratorizawa Academy vs. Karasuno High. almost every other school (aoba johsai, shiratorizawa, kamomedai) having non-volleyball team-specific tracksuits and merch, while karasuno wears the generic "ics" athletic wear. star players like ushijima and hirugami having family that played pro-volleyball and got them started from a young age in professional spaces.
daichi's nightmare about the basketball team overtaking their gym and not letting them practice. kageyama noticing right away that the floors in the all-japan youth camp weren't wooden. takeda working overtime to try to get gyms reserved, practice matches organized, buses rented out. ukai still working at his grocery store his entire first year coaching karasuno (suggesting that karasuno couldn't afford to pay him enough).
karasuno having to adjust to the lights and the height of the ceiling at nationals, when all the other teams were used to it. karasuno renting out that little old inn for nationals, right next to the giant, 25-floor hotel that other teams were staying in. inarizaki intimidating their opponents with their huge student section, affording to literally transfer an entire student BAND from hyogo to tokyo.
it's the reason that there's something specifically annoying about ushijima when we first meet him, something off-putting as we see hinata and kageyama watching shiratorizawa practicing for the first time in their fancy gym at their huge school. something infuriating about hearing ushijima talk down to hinata and basically dismiss karasuno as a threat entirely. when ushijima says aoba johsai is "infertile soil", hinata thinks, if they are infertile soil, then I Am Hinata Shoyo from the Concrete. and our concrete school, despite all odds, despite lack of resources and funding and reputation, will still beat you. i don't have what you have and yet i will still make it to the top!!!!!!!
#haikyuu#haikyuu!!#hinata shoyo#karasuno#shiratorizawa#nekoma#ushijima wakatoshi#and i didnt even mention the timeskip. hinata having to work and have a roommate while in brazil#even though kenma is sponsoring him#kenma telling him “why not? I've got the money” and hinata thinking “i wish i could say that”#also this is not ushijima slander he acknowledges that he was born with tremendous economic (and biological) privilege for vb#im just talking about how his initial introduction illustrated the class divide between him and hinata really well#furudate your brain is too big#you're scaring them (viewers without critical thinking skills)
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mind if i cough in your ear all night? / mind if i resent you for a year tonight?
#have you guys ever thought about how wrought iron fence bars kinda look like cav swords#tlt#gtn#gtn spoilers#harrowhark nonagesimus#harrow nonagesimus#gideon nav#gideon the ninth#the locked tomb#song is i want you to know im awake/ i hope youre asleep by car seat headrest btw#csh#didnt know what to do w lighting so i just didnt do it#wish i did this in b&w#described#screen reader friendly
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