#song is i want you to know im awake/ i hope youre asleep by car seat headrest btw

[yourironlung]

mind if i cough in your ear all night? / mind if i resent you for a year tonight?

[satoluv]

YOU ALWAYS HAD ME — synopsis: what would you do if your hot best friend agreed to fake date you to make your ex-boyfriend jealous? will it ruin your friendship or will it prevail into something more?

⤿ [ 04 ] help, typo; * of ⟶ off! * & timestamps do not matter.

Gojo Satoru is many things but being punctual? Is never on his agenda.

However, that seems to differ when it comes to you.

“Hey," he greeted. Satoru was there with his hands tucked inside his pockets, leaning against the digital door of your home.

Sometimes the fact that he has his digital fingerprint on your door slips off your mind. Sometimes. But he has never crossed any boundaries. That’s what normal bestfriends do right? They give each other their passwords to their home?

Well, that’s what you think. Not to your friends though…

"Hi," you smiled sheepishly.

“You’re all dressed up. Going somewhere YN? Who's your lucky date?”

“Heyyyyy look at you! But yeah, you’re the lucky one.” You grinned, walking up to him and linking your arms together.

“So where are you taking me?” You broke off the silence between the two of you while he led you to his car.

He pinched your cheek with his free hand — a habit of his. “You’ll see, baby. After you m’lady.”

With that, he drove off.

The car ride was insanely long, to say you weren’t sleepy was an understatement. You tried your best to fight your demons and keep your eyes open but to no avail. Satoru, on the other hand, noticed. You were never one to stay awake in car rides.

“Go to sleep baby. I’ll wake you up when we arrive.”

That was your cue. You fell asleep.

After what felt like an eternity, you got woken up by your fake boyfriend’s hand over your eyes.

“Hold on to my arms while I close your eyes. It has to be a surprise!!” You were tired of Satoru’s antics but he brought you out when you were feeling down so who were you to complain?

The sounds of the rowdy streets freaked you a little — you still had your eyes closed. But Satoru’s gentle touch on your skin grounded you. — You felt safe with him.

“OKAY! I’M RELEASING MY HANDS IN 3..2..1!” He finally let go of his hands that were previously resting on your eyes, but his eyes never left yours.

You had to adjust the sight before you. When you realize where he took you, you jump into his arms, thanking and kissing every part of his face.

He never expected that reaction out of you, but did he mind? Not a bit! His bestfriend No, his crush! Was kissing him! He was beyond the moon. Everyone around you could see the love he had for you in his eyes.

If only you knew.

he posted yn to the song @ 0:47 ! listen to it while reading if u want to! + thats yn’s priv ok!

lily ⟶ i’ve been gone for awhile but im here noww hope u enjoy and thank u sm for waiting! 🫶🏼 is yn falling ~ omg (i dont even know myself)

taglist: @hexrts-anatomy @k4romis @soy-garbage @avatar-of-procrastination @lees-chaotic-brain @pastatata

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[scruffpuppy]

im back with a hyperfixation on succession so here’s a roy siblings playlist (currently a work in progress so please be nice)

songs in order of roman, kendall, shiv, connor, and then all four. enjoy

lonely as you by matt maeson [roman]

real love by big thief

cop car by mitski

boys don’t cry by the cure

francis forever by mitski

a pearl by mitski

i wanna be your dog by the stooges

father by the front bottoms

bank on the funeral by matt maeson

first love / late spring by mitski

hostage by nothing but thieves

starring role by marina [kendall]

that joke isn’t funny anymore by the smiths

white noise by badflower

are you satisfied? by marina

ugly ending by best frenz

crush by ethel cain

king’s crossing by elliott smith

trouble by cage the elephant

unperson by nothing but thieves

how soon is now? by the smiths

i want you to know that i’m awake/i hope that you’re asleep by car seat headrest

me and my friends are lonely by matt maeson

hanging by nothing but thieves

seventeen going under by sam fender [shiv]

drunk walk home by mitski

oh no! by marina

me and my husband by mitski

runs in the family by amanda palmer

bite the hand by boygenius

should i by sir chloe

power & control by marina

heaven knows i’m miserable now by the smiths [connor]

the family jewels by marina [all]

karma police by radiohead

policy of truth by depeche mode

hunger for a way out by sweeping promises

off with his head by jack conte

sometimes by nick lutsko

linked as usual, still being updated (NOT music they’d listen to, music that fits them lyrically)

[mclarenyaoi]

list 5 songs you've been enjoying recently — tysm @albontology for the tag!! apologies in advance for the yapping lol i like my tunes ^^'

"andy, you're a star" by the killers — there are two different interpretations of this song and i enjoy both of them but i enjoy the one where its abt gay yearning WAY MORE

"agnes" by glass animals — how to be a human being is one of my fav albums OF ALL TIME.. anyways agnes is an incredibly sad song but its fantastic and a great ultimate song for the album

"死にたがり" (shinitagari) by 梨本うい (nashimoto ui) feat. hatsune miku — first heard in a homestuck pmv when i was in my homestuck kick a couple years ago but its surpassed that (the pmv is still great tho lets not get it twisted)

"i want you to know that i'm awake/i hope that you're asleep" by car seat headrest — 8 minutes and 43 seconds of realizing i relate a little too much to 2014 will toledo. and like the whole album is good, car seat headrest is good, i <3 csh. honorary mention to my boy, the song of all time (true)

"kitty kat" by megan thee stallion — idk how many of yall watch rupauls drag race but. yeah morphine fucking bodied dawn rip i was rooting for her and more importantly that lipsync reminded me i LIVE for megan thee stallion. loveee body ofc but ive been listening to kitty kat more =^u^= meow

very sorry if anyone im tagging has already been tagged!! no pressure @box-box-blorbos @oscah @solitaire-enthusiast @inchidentally and if YOU are seeing this... consider letting people know about your enjoyed tunes

[d-earest]

𝕸𝖔𝖔𝖓𝖑𝖎𝖌𝖍𝖙 𝖘𝖚𝖓𝖗𝖎𝖘𝖊(Rhea x dom x Reader)

A/N This isnt my gif nor did I make it, i'm sorry if the fanfic seems short Im tryinnnn

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Rhea and Dominik were cuddled up to Y/n while they were sleeping, y/n wasn't as sleepy so they just watched them making sure neither of them fell, they couldn't sleep somehow so they started to twist and turn all over feeling a bit hot you didn't know what was wrong but they just stayed there. The more you squirmed Dominik started to wake up saying with a husky voice,"Que ocurre, Baby" he nuzzled into their chest slightly while y/n stayed quiet thinking he would fall back asleep but no he said,"I know you're awake Chiquita.. cmon.. tell me whats going on-" they sighed before whispering,"I'm nervous about my match coming up.. After this its probably summerslam and Rhea wont be able to be there due to her injury with liv and.. I-" they started to tear up which woke Rhea up slowly,"Look... I know My arm might be injured but Paul didn't say I couldn't be there to support you. I'm on hiatus Yes but please.. don't worry You'll do amazing love" y/n teared up more,"Demi.." she turned around to Y/n and seeing dominik latching onto them from behind,"How about this all of us go on a late night drive" Rhea said while crawling back to y/n and wiping their tears very slowly,"Dom you're driving- and y/n grab some snacks and a blanket-" y/n nodded and dom smiled and said,"Okay mami get ready Amor -" he smiled once again soon walking off to get the car ready, y/n on the other hand knew something was up with rhea so they got off the bed and ran to rhea and hugged her,"Whats wrong, mami?" they looked at Rhea and smiled but all Rhea could do is return the smile,"I hate seeing you cry like that- me and dom fucking hates it a shit load.. so we try and make you happy I need you not to worry about my injury. It's my karma I broke her hand so I cant do anything about it-" She chuckled soon planting a small kiss on Y/n's lips and holding her tightly,"I promise. So when this fight does occur I'll be in the audience cheering you on- I'm just worried about the judgment day without me what if things go downhill and I-" Y/n cut her off with a kiss,"Don't stress about it. Work on your skills as soon as that arm gets fixed- now lets go" Y/n grabbed rhea's hand before grabbing the blankets and the snacks and heading to the car while dominik is left there confused,"What took you guys so loooooooonnnggg" he whined like a cat but all y/n and rhea could do is snicker,"Shut up moody cat!" rhea said before dominik took a dramatic gasp like a damsel in distress which lead y/n to a giggle,"not now you two- we can do that when we are at our destination-" he huffed,"Fine" Rhea giggled and got into the passenger seat while y/n was in the back laying down, y/n hummed a familiar tune it was a song that came to mind but they didn't care

𝚃𝙸𝙼𝙴𝙴𝙴𝙴 𝚂𝙺𝙸𝙿 𝙷𝚄𝙽𝙽𝙸𝙴𝚂𝚂𝚂

Y/n ended up falling asleep in the car while they drove up the hill and to their destination. Y/n was stil asleep so dom opened the backseat door and crawled ontop of them hoping a kiss would wake them up, he kissed their cheeks and mouth, soon waking them up he smiled,"Did you sleep well amor?" he kissed them again before y/n could speak they blushed and looked at dom,"Yeah.." they kissed his nose then looking at rhea in the background wanting some kisses,"Rhea needs affection too hold on baby-" they kissed dom on the cheek soon pushing him off very softly and walking over to rhea and kissed her softly, Rhea smirked and tangled her fingers around Y/n's hair and pulled them closer,"Hm.." she huffed before pulling away the kiss smirking at them, Their cheeks flushed a dark red and turned to dominik, he let out a small giggle,"Don't steal them all Rhea" Rhea snapped back,"Oh hush pretty boy you stole damn near 100 kisses" Y/n giggled and signaled dom to come here and get a kiss. Dom instantly walked over to y/n and kissed them deeply. It turned them on to see both of their lovers at each other's neck for your love but you didn't deny the kiss, after the few seconds past y/n pulled away and smiled,"There so now both of your had kisses.. now please lets watch the sunrise.." they said turning to the sun and grabbing rhea's and dom's hands to hold, both of them blushing and leaned their head against your shoulder(Dom on shoulder rhea on the other shoulder) as you three stare at the beautiful sunrise.

A/n: I Hope you enjoyed my fanfic and remember I'm always taking requests and I love you alll

[offonesbase]

6-16-23

I went to bed late last night, not because I was out with friends like I was supposed to be... I don't know why I couldn't sleep. Im usually asleep by 9. But last night I was awake and making pasta at 1130, frantically texting my partner, just wanting any form of company. Of course that's not the company I wanted. I wanted yours. As I clicked on a movie all I could think about was texting you. I know you don't like movies and I know I can't text you like that. I've never been able to. That's why I don't understand why I miss you so much in moments like those.

I wanted to text you, I didn't have anything to say. I Just wish I could ask you to come and be alone with me. This afternoon I asked if you were free hoping that maybe we could go and sit together somewhere, our headphones on, occasionally tapping one another on the shoulder to make a comment or suggest a song, reading, writing. Alone. Together. The way we used to. I've tried it with so many people, I try it everyday with my partner, and it never feels right. Always feels like there is someone invading my personal time and space. But not you. Never you. So when I wanted to write in the afternoon sun and you, as usual, weren't free, I cried. I cried while my car played songs about love and longing and belonging, all of em based on your listens- Spotify has that friends discover playlist and it blends all of my friends fave songs. I like listening to it so I can keep up w my pals interests. All those stupid Al Green songs had your picture next to them. And I cried even more because I know that when you listen to them you aren't thinking about me. Crying because I'm so dumb, waiting for you. Thinking of you in every single thing I hear and see. we haven't been friends for a year, but I still remember everything. I remember your skin, the flecks in your eyes, your birthday, your voice, the way your voice sounds- you singing in the car. All of it. I don't think these memories will fade. So much is lost everyday, I forget what I'm doing half the time but you're always there clear as day. I've loved you since the day I met you. Fuck I can't stop. I just wish I hadn't messed up the first time. I don't think I'll ever get a second chance and it hurts more than anything. And that's saying a lot.

I realized I'm a lot like my father. I run away when things get tough. I sabotage my own relationships. I don't really know why we do these things. I think maybe we just don't think we deserve it. Maybe you left me because you didn't think you were good enough to be a father. Maybe I'm leaving because I know I'm never going to be a good investment to you. If I leave then maybe I'll forget you and maybe then I'll feel some kind of peace but for now I'm gonna make like my dad and run away.

Now I don't know if father dearest also did this but I find myself making friends then one day getting a little too comfortable and I can't control the mask. I can't put it back on and I never talk to them again. Embarrassing.

I gotta stop this. Find some kind of positive mind set. One that isn't dreaming of a life I won't have.

It's almost 100pm and I'm still awake.

[beachghoulz]

Favorite car seat headrest song or ablum, I adore your banner

ahhh thanks so much! my favourite csh song is i want you to know that im awake/i hope that youre asleep. i am sooo insane about that song adkgjjawrhgalrhl. other favourites are high to death (2011), strangers, the gun song, ballad of the costa concordia, life worth missing, reuse the cels. my favourite album is how to leave town (ik its technically an ep but lgjkfjhdjk) i also really like monomania, nervous young man, 3, and twin fantasy. i've also been listening to madlo a lotttt recently i love madlo

[nintendoneil]

Top 5 songs of all time EVER

ouhh.. sht,,

in general:

1: i want you to know that im awake/i hope that youre asleep - car seat headrest

2: aneurysm - nirvana

3: november has come - gorillaz

4: every planet we reach is dead - gorillaz

5: o green world - gorillaz

in terms of being relatable

1: townie by mitski

2: townie by mitski

3: townie by mitski

4: townie by mitski

5: townie by mitski

[rose022]

hiiii i love music uh

the song your listening to right now (or last one you listened to) - all i need are things i like by pinochiop

your current favourite song - i want you to know that im asleep/i hope that youre awake by car seat headrest

a song of your choice - ruby by shauna dean cokeland <3

tags! ask to be inlcuded or removed! @micr0machine @lumashoes @gremlinsbooty @d0nut-gh0st @averagemizukikinnie @sentientsoil

MUSIC LOVERS ASSEMBLE!!

i feel like starting a tag chain so i hope this works out :)

reblog this with 3 songs:

the song your listening to right now (or last one you listened to)

your current favourite song

a song of your choice

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mine:

its now or never - elvis presley/love in the dark - adele

trastevere - måneskin

nevermore - queen

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tagggzzzz: (np ofc) @heartstopper-lover123 @s0lit4ir3 @ali-da-demon @vicwritesfic @skeelly @charliethinks @tori-my-love @chronic-skeptic @toulouseradiosilence @stewpid-soup @nine-frogs-in-a-trenchcoat @pessimistic-gh0st @theshyqueergirl @crowleybrekkers @a-bowl-of-soop @frogfairy444 @robinheaney12 @fairyghostgirlgaming @thatsawesomedontyouthink @venusplanetoflove2 @thelovelyvie @abookishshade @spir4nts-lun4r @i-have-no-idea-111 @kit-the-queer @a-wondering-thought @scatteredraysofhope @coco6420 @softlyunbreakable @givennnnnn @far-beyond-saving @darling-im-wonderstruck @heartstoppernerdsstuff @nonbinary-idiot-obviously @rebelrobinrules1984 @daydream-of-a-wallflower @leonine-elizer @angel-devil-star and anyone else who wants to join!!

[lifeintheworldtocome]

14 and 27 for the song askssssss

tgats so hard because i literally do not listen to any music that isnt about being sad and lonely ummm ermmmmmmm how about pineapple upside down by queef jerky + I WANT YOU TO KNOW IM AWAKE/I HOPE THAT YOURE ASLEEP BY CAR SEAT HEADREST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[swampyidealism]

[rose022]

3 Ships - polyniigo, hananene, soukoku

First ever ship - percabeth <33

Last Song- uh i think "i want you to know that im awake/i hope that youre asleep" by car seat headrest

Last Movie - i barely watch movies but probably on the plane a month ago when i watched 5 movies. the last was probably "the lines that define me".

5. Currently Reading - the setting sun by dazai osamu and wotakoi by idk who. actually this is only for physical books im reading more

6. Currently Watching - does Last Life count? if not, uhhh u think Demon Slayer season 2

Currently Consuming - chewy granola bar cus the school lunch sucks

Currently Craving - mmm chocolate lava cake and vanilla ice cream

Tagging: i hope you guys don't mind me tagging you, you don't have to do this i just don't know that many people @citruscitrushope @vivid-badsquad @salsitahabanera @rubybunnies @mrs-ninjago @reverse-hermit @marroon-i-think @omnipresentseer @averagemafuyukinnie

9 people you would like to get to know better

reckless-flight:

apastelsunsetpainting:

lightgriffinsect:

athensoddcollections:

steh-lar-uh-nuhs:

sm-writes-chaos:

anulithots:

fire-but-ashes-too:

pb-dot:

andromeda-grace:

anoelleart:

thecatamaranlad:

emmamushi:

forgissimus:

c-a-r-0-l-i-n-e:

origami-butterfly:

falloutcoys:

redminders:

a-pessimistic-swiftie:

trolliworms:

catastrxblues:

tobistark:

obeythebreadlord:

imcurrentlydying:

saturntheocto:

cerulaenblaze:

anonymisprincess:

whumpydaydreams:

toast-art:

sleepy–girl–101:

niicookie:

mikra-the-kobold:

tysm for the tag @alexmey-does-an-arts!

1. 3 ships; bowuigi, metadede, heavy/medic(I forget the name lol)

2. first ever ship; alphyne

3. last song; Ghost Cowboys by Louie Zong

4. last movie; Midsommar. That was…something

5. currently reading; Dante and Aristotle discover the secrets of the universe. Pretty fire

6. currently watching; JCS criminal psychology

7. currently consuming; nothing

8. currently craving; Iced Cream. About to go get it. I know there’s mind chip in my freezer (:

9 people to tag; @littlegreenwyvy, @garf-official, @d1nosaurpower, @tractor-inside-joke-fucker, @junkydoodlez, @seacrown, @neldu-nak, @darkcanid19, @stormyykat

Omg tag yippee (cutting it this is so long)

3 ships: rinniki, tatsumayo, chiakana

first ever ship: it’s honestly too complicated for me to be honest about it

last song: Double Denim by SKYLAR

last movie: I don’t watch movies.. I think I watched sth 2 when it came out

currently reading: do you think I read

currently watching: not watched it yet but I plan to watch monster

currently consuming: malteasers

currently craving: mcdonald’s

tagging: uhhhh @sleepy–girl–101 @b1rdbra1ned @grotesqueman @ryusei-blue @subarueichi @yurichr and anyone who wants to :))

1: 3 ships: VicDark, Grapetrio, [i proceeded to forgor every ship ever minus one i will never admit to liking okcool-] 2: first ever ship: Charisk like a loser lol 3: last song: Not My Turn To Die by Mcki Robyns-P 4: last movie: uh….does a documentary count? If so than some true crime case about a young child’s murder (listen..me and mom only share true crime as an interest and i barely like it) 5: currently reading: well I WAS reading The Secret Of The Golden Flower but i had 2 bring it back to library </3 6: currently watching: RHG mainly 7: currently nomming: Dunkaroo :3 8: currently craving: to not die /hj (but ngl some chimkn would b good rn) 9: poor souls to tag: @zodapack @vivid-badsquad @anonymisprincess @toast-art @the-birds-and-thebees + whoever has been thrown out of my not-thinking brain

oooh sure

3 ships: YELLUE, Secpurp, Chodark (basically my favs)

First ever ship: Redow 😭

Heaven - Nial Horran

Do avm shorts count? OvO’

Currently reading: Boyfriends - refrainbow

Currently watching - Altar - Hyun’s Dojo (for the 5th time)

Currently digesting: cup jelly

Currently craving: chocolate

tagging: @flairya,@shinymc,@tulipsempai,@whumpydaydreams,@ironbenjaminek and anyone else who wants to do this :)

three ships: Blue/Green, Chosen/Dark, Sheeta/Pazu

first ever ship: Zane/Kawaii~Chan

last song: 3 Wheels and It Still Drives! by glaive (glaive playlist woo!)

last movie: WAKANDA FOREVER

currently reading: Turtles All the Way Down - John Green

currently watching: nothing atm ^-^

currently eating: chicken n broccoli :P

currently craving: a nap T^T

tags: @anonymisprincess @starsandsciss0rs @cherrywolf @frog-man-blog @kattycatcat5 @chablemisspell @lovekingdom-rose

so much fun <333

Hi, thank you for tagging me <3

three ships: Um, Kerdly? Kirbyfluff, Flower Crowns (magalor x taranza)

first ever ship: Zelink

last song: Closing Time by Semisonic

last movie: Mitchells vs Machines

currently reading: History book for school

currently eating: anxiety

currently watching: YouTube/ nothing

currently craving: time to draw

tags: @yennasun @cerulaenblaze @whirld-of-color

- three ships: uhhhh expresso cookie x sleep, pearlina and dark x victim

- first ever ship: gorai (i think)

- last song: Paint the moon red by L Train

- last movie: goosebumps

- currently reading: crk fanfics

- currently eating: caramel machiato

- currentl watching: dead end, paranormal park (again)

- currently craving: that parfedia cookie that i forgot the name of and also maybe the next coroika chapter

tags: uhhhhh @mauriceultrakill @goldenpot8o @bugsinspace @theo-is-anxious @crowcussion @mx-ang3l @saturntheocto @galaxdoesstuff

1. 3 ships; agent 24(agent8 x capn aka former agent 3), pearlina, and uhhh.. lumity

2. first ever ship; soraxx (please dont ask those guys were like the first thing i ever found out about after i started making content)

3. last song; murder in my mind - sped up

4. last movie; Newsies (the one made in 19something)

5. currently reading; hooky 2

6. currently watching; YouTube

7. currently consuming; a peice of steak from the grilled cheese someone in my home ec class is making

8. currently craving; next coroika chapter, final product for “the pupeteers game” trailer, side order dlc, episode 1 lines for “the pupeteers game”.

Uhhhh @mx-ang3l @imcurrentlydying @oddtoken @literasly anyone else bc i cant think of anyone else ;-;

1. 3 ships; bruh idk Lumity? Huntlow?? Edaine??? I was just watching Owl House leave me alone

2. first ever ship; I don’t remember lmao

3. last song; Baby Pink by Moe Shop

4. last movie; A Goofy Movie

5. currently reading; do comics count? Cause’ I’m reading the Bloodbath AU

6. currently watching; my cat trying to attack a stuffed animal. Wait where’d she go-

7. currently consuming; goldfish!

8. currently craving; SPLATOON 3 DLC, TEARS OF THE KINGDOM, VANILLA MILKSHAKE, CUTER FACE

@viviadly-thinking @pommigranite and whoever else wants to join! <3

had the sudden urge to do this when I saw it

1. 3 ships: Lavashipping, Pixane, and Fiddauthor :]

2. First ever ship: Billdip I think 😭.. (Dw I dont ship it at all anymore)

3. Last song: The Cult of Dionysus by TOE !! (The Orion Experience, also PS i know their problematic I just like the song 😭)

4. Last movie: The Lego Movie !! Istg I got so giddy whenever the green ninja was on screen

5. Currently reading: Nothing rn lmao im dumb

6. Currently watching: Masters of Spinjitzu and Dragons Rising !!

7. Currently consuming: my sanity

8. Currently craving: chips im gonna get some after I finish this

TAGGING ANYONE WHO WANTS TO JOIN‼️

yaaayaaaaa

1. 3 ships: lavashipping, rk1k, and frostcup!!

2. first ever ship: OK… it was either marichat OR steven x connie… I THINK STEVEN X CONNIE.

3. last song: august by taylor swift! ^^

4. last movie: the hunger games: catching fire!! i’m like rewatching all the movies since tbosas is coming out in NOVEMBER.

5. currently reading: nick and charlie!! like literally on the last page HEL

6. currently watching: heartstopper! still have a bit of season 2 left!!

7. currently consuming: my time by writing this post

8. currently craving: PASTA 😭😭

taggiessss: @stephanieromanoff @punkflorist @everdares @catastrxblues @nogodsnomorales AND WHOEVER ELSE WANTS TO JOIN IN :o

thank you for the tag!! @tobistark

3 ships : everlark, percabeth, pipravi

first ever ship : i think it was… either justin and juliet or alex and mason from wizards of waverly place? i was obsessed with the show (and i still am)

last song : safe and sound (tv) by taylor swift <3

last movie : *hold on let me check* RIGHT. bridge to terabithia. trauma trauma trauma.

currently reading : the ballad of songbirds and snakes by suzanne collins and i just stared six of crows by leigh bardugo last night!

currently watching : A LOT. but i’ve been watching gilmore girls quite frequently these days and i have two more episodes in lockwood & co.

currently consuming : daily dose of tumblr and spotify

currently craving : yesterday’s lunch

no pressure tags!! : @themidnightarcher-blog @debss09 @bookish-swiftie13 @haventdecidedyet @sunnieshineeeee @trolliworms @everycornerofthishouseishaunted @hearts4maya @purple-pink-skiesss @venjqqys @carebearbitch

Thank you @catastrxblues ! <3

1. 3 ships: kanej, locklyle, caleo (calypso and leo? I don’t really know their ship name)

2. First ship: honestly I do not remember

3. Last song: everywhere by fleetwood mac

4. Last movie: nimona (I literally love that movie)

5. Currently reading: gilded by marrisa meyer (it’s so gooood absvsjsbsgdsjdk)

6. Currently watching: loki (rewatching)

7. Currently consuming: a bit of stolen cookie dough

8. Currently craving: more cookie dough

9. Npt: @purple-pink-skiesss @half-cold-coffee @a-pessimistic-swiftie @sunnieshineeeee @a-portal-to-nowhere @rosees3ray @mysticalthingphantom @clinicallyoffline @swiftieannah

thank you @trolliworms @swiftieannah and @purple-pink-skiesss for the tags :)

3 ships: patrochilles, wesper and tara/darcy(i’m not sure what their ship name is)

First ship: solangelo

Last song: Stacy’s brother by Mad Tsai

Last movie: Enola Holmes 2

Currently reading: the invisible life of Addie LaRue

Currently watching: Arcane(i just watched ep1)

Currently consuming: nothing atm

Currently craving: dark chocolate

no pressure tags: @sixcrowsforkruge @thatonesapphicfilipino @tearsonthepage @redwidow616 @redminders @manicallydepressedpesimist @randomescapingwords @jochronicpessimist @mqstermindswift (i haven’t really interacted with some of you but you seem cool)

thank you so much for the tag !!!

3 ships - harlanc (from find us alive pod), ineffable divorcees (aziracrow lmao) and bubbline !!!

first ship - alex hamilton/aaron burr. yeah.

last song - social climb by idk how but they found me

last movie - hmmm. zom 100: bucket list of the dead i believe.

currently reading - still working through parallel lives: alexander and caesar by plutarch, but looking into reading persuasion by jane austen

currently watching - right now actually? a nickisnotgreen vid. i dont even like him that much but this is what i get with the current state of commentary youtube. if we’re talking shows however, i’m still digging through both seasons of good omens to find ✨ clues ✨

and i’m watching prime’s shelter.

currently consuming - i’m eating salami and prosciutto, washed down with estathé lmao

currently craving - more sleep :P

people i’d like to know more !! but no pressure !! @falloutcoys @felixcosm @rabbitsinwonderland @harristhefinch @horrorwoood @ty-bayonet-betteridge @mister-finally-found-himself @aa-400 @calmodata

thank you for the tag! :)

3 ships - uhhh so hard to just pick 3. private eyes, mikety, griddlehark

first ship - johnkat. don’t @ me ok

last song - Ramblings of a Lunatic by Bears In Trees

last movie - I think it was when I forced my friends to watch Repo! with me

currently reading - She Who Became the Sun by Shelley Parker-Chan

currently watching - jjk and futurama and sweet tooth, have a long list of other things to watch though.

currently consuming - nothing currently but most recently ate a cosmic brownie

currently craving - chicken tikka masala

people i’d like to know more !! but no pressure !! @origami-butterfly @weirdlittlegays @seththetinydemon @thecatspasta and anyone else who wants to do it :3

Thanks for the tag Sam!!

3 ships - Private Eyes, Ineffable Husbands and whatever the name for Percy/Diggory is from HFTH

First ship - Not entirely sure, but the first fandom I ever interacted with was Gravity falls, so either dipcifica or mabcifica

Last song - When Somebody Needs You, Will Wood

Last movie - I think it was when I was forced to watch Repo! with you (dw I loved it!)

Currently reading - Thirteen Storeys by Jonathan Sims, and The Left Hand of Darkness by Ursula K Le Guin

Currently watching - I’m going to cheat because I’ve not watched anything new since Heartstopper s2 came out, but I’m in the process of listening to TPP

Currently consuming - nothing, but the last thing I ate was chocolate ice cream

Currently craving - Ready salted crisps, but the really salty kind

Tagging @witchy-stars @bones-edition @reddstardust @arsenicflame @yog-sothoth-official @pidgefudge @c-a-r-0-l-i-n-e @trans-arthur-lester @larwisko and anyone else who wants to!

Thanks for the tag Briar!! <3

3 ships - jarthur, warren/gordon (what is their ship name ??), and ineffable husbands

First ship - probably Susan and Prince Caspian from Narnia, but maybe Peeta/Katniss or Percabeth

Last song - well i was listening to Tiger Mountain Peasant Song by Fleet Foxes but then i had to go listen to Glass TIger by Disparition because i realized they have the same intro so that’s something

Last movie - uhh honestly idk i never watch movies, the last movie i remember enjoying was Whiplash (very good) many months ago

Currently reading - rereading Villette by Charlotte Brontë (it’s an audiobook but i’m counting it)

Currently watching - still need to finish wwdits whenever my sister visits

Currently consuming - iced coffee even though i’m cold

Currently craving - granola bars

Tagging: @lemonsrlit @m-y–p-a-s-s-i-o-n-s @anodiousthing @vespersbelladonnakiss @seeroftime10 @smallsies @forgissimus and anyone else who wants to :)

(sorry if anyone got tagged twice i didn’t look very hard at who’d already been tagged)

ooo thanks for the tag! 3 ships: uhh hmm bubbline, voxman, and um pearl and bismuth i just think theyre neat

first ship: probably garnet last song: hurricane drunk f+tm last movie: i do not watch movies often uhh probably nimona currently reading: Beholder’s Eye by Julie E. Czerneda currently watching: uhh tma and a little bit red valley i guess currently consuming: creamsicle :)

currently craving: red bean ice cream i havent had it in like. 7 years

tagging: uhh shoot @re-alku, @rosadoranger, @emmamushi, @silverywillowtree, and anyone else who wants to

3 ships: Strawbarrow, Spirk, Ineffable husbands

First ship: oh gosh I don’t even remember but it was probably cringe

Last song: Physical - Brandon, Indiana

Last movie: Barbie

Currently reading: I am terrible at reading but I really need to get back into the Expanse series

Currently watching: Hour long media analysis video essays on youtube.

Currently consuming: Chai tea

Currently craving: Sleep

Tagging: @thecatamaranlad, @justeliiijah, @tigergender, @carovert, @peachtealeaves

3 ships: strawbarrow, korrasami, tyzula (fight me ya theyre fucked up but that’s the POINT)

First ship: lmao I don’t even remember do u kno how old I am. Heck it might have even been tyzula. Lol

Last song: “your fake name is good enough for me” by iron and wine

Last movie: my big fat Greek wedding (the first one)

Currently watching: warehouse 13, just extremely slowly. (Myka/HG is my other ride or die ship)

Currently consuming: unholy amounts of energy drinks

Currently craving: a goddamn nap or a time turner or both

Tagging: @carovert @anoelleart @nihilisticspacequeer @lesbianrustcohle @rebloggedsunsox

3 ships: Rose and the Doctor, House and Cuddy, Nandor and Guillermo

First ship: Rose and the Doctor

Last song: Glamour Child by Moonrise Kingdom

Last movie: Bottoms!

Currently watching: Fringe (Peter is babygirl)

Currently consuming: My 2nd homemade iced americano

Currently craving: Academic validation

Tagging: @vacantgodling, @amaiguri, @mysticstarlightduck, @andromeda-grace, @lavender-laney

Thanks for the tag @anoelleart

3 Ships: Kaitlyn & Vi- Arcane, Geralt & Yennefer- The Witcher, Katara & Entrapta- She Ra

1st Ship: Caitlyn & Vi- Arcane

Last song: Rumble- Fred Again

Last Movie: also Bottoms

Currently reading: Myths to Live By- Joseph Campbell

Currently watching: One Piece- Live action

Currently consuming: Ramen 🍜

Currently craving: sweater weather

Tagging: @starknstarwars @hyuccubus @hillnerd-art @pb-dot @floweryprosegarden @aziz-reads

As I was tagged by @andromeda-grace, I will participate. I’m not much of a shipper, but well, the mind does make connections on occasion.

3 ships: Thanzag - Hades, Eiji/Ankh - Kamen Rider OOOs, Takamori - Hololive EN.

1st ship: Light/L - Death Note, probably

Last Song: boot - The Algorithm

Last Movie: Last Voyage of the Demeter

Currently Reading: The Shape of Darkness - Laura Purcell

Currently Consuming: Lasagne

Currently Craving: Progress in my attempts at getting mental health help, or barring that, a hug.

Tags: @an-elegant-void @fire-but-ashes-too @meerawrites @floweryprosegarden @surroundedbypearls

thank uuuuu!

3 ships: ineffable husbands, percabeth and solangelo

1st ship: uhhhh i think one of the love square ships from miracuolous? OH WAIT NO! it was one from maggie and bianca, i think quinca (quinn and bianca lmao)

last song: the moon will sing by the crane wives (so good)

last movie: the notebook

currently reading: solitaire

currently watching: nothing ig? recs are welcome haha

currently eating: anxiety✨

currently craving: a few spare hours✨

tagging with no pressure cuz i have it all atm @mychemicalwhatever @aspiringfictionwriter @steh-lar-uh-nuhs @da-na-hae @alhyastarain @anulithots @sm-writes-chaos @livinlavidaloca26 @always-info-dumping

Thank youz!! (hoping you get a get out of stress free card.)

3 ships: Timothy x Donatello (rottmnt ship from @pinetreevillain) and Nuzi from Murder Drones. Ehrrmmm… I’ll have ship hyperfixations but mostly I like the idea of people having fluffy fun together + found family, so I’ll say platonically friendshipp-y for Badyah and Norma (what I would do for a canonically queer platonic relationship.)

1st ship? Before I even knew queer/lgbtq was a thing, Rarity and Applejack from MLP for sure for sure.

last song: “I have the most disgusting eyes” from Neytirix. (There’s also Mermaids from Florence in the Machine that I’ve been playing non-stop. Thanks @holdmyteaplease for the recommendation, and I promise Anuli will like it too. )

Last moive: Jawan - Shah Ruhk Khan movie that my mom really wanted to see and… LISTEN TUMBLR WOULD GO FERAL OVER THIS MOVIE ABOUT A bUNCH OF WOMEN WITH WEAPONS CAUSING ANARCHY TO COMBAT THE SYSTEMIC PROBLEMS IN THE GOVERNMENT. EVERYONE GETS TO UGLY CRY. EVERYONE GETS TO BEAT PEOPLE UP. (After the second half it got a bit too backstory focused, which is weird for me because I love backstory but I was more interested in each of the six people’s backstories and arcs they got revenge and fixed the government.)

Currently reading: I. WISH. I. HAD. TIME. TO. READ. MORE. I lovvvee rottmnt fanfiction and Like Father, Like Son broke me. Also also, I really really want to read: They both die at the end, and the Search for WandLa series.

Currently watching: I really really really really (that’s four reallys) want to watch all of rottmnt, but I find it hard to focus on my hyperfixation show without crafting and I haven’t crafted in ages.

Currently eating: falafel and hummus. Drinking Chai. Chai is wonderful.

Currently craving: A satisfying hyperfixation that lasts a little while, preferably biology and story-fying it.

Gently tagging- @mylee-sketches @holdmyteaplease @yesireadbooks @batzyx @sm-writes-chaos @da-na-hae @the-stray-storyteller @awleeofficial @briarborealisocs @rainisawriter

thanks for the tag the both of you!

Three Ships: uhh I’ll just do some I’ve thought about recently: Reki x Langa, Tsukasa x Rui, Rarity x Applejack ( @anulithots that is a perfect first ship btw)

First Ship: Probably some warrior cats

Last Song: Hyperdontia by Creep-P and Ghost

Last Movie: Barbie Princess in the Pauper, just as perfect as I remember it

Currently Reading: The Crucible but not willingly, otherwise Chainsaw Man because I haven’t got any motivation recently to read any not picture books

Currently Watching: Danganronpa the animation

Currently Eating: Was just eating homemade bread with jam yum

Currently Craving: Chocolate (not surprising)

tagging gently as always @mjparkerwriting @writeblr-of-my-own @stanrendipity @steh-lar-uh-nuhs @stesierra

Thx for the tag

Malec, Jalice, and Bedward

Firestar x Sandstorm (STILL MY FAV. OTP!)

Ahsoka’s ending credits song

Guardians of the Galaxy 3

Life and Death, Stephanie Meyers

Glow Up’s new season

Nothing atm

Water

@athensoddcollections @mysticstarlightduck @geohoneylovers @desastreus @archoniluthradanar @fire-but-ashes-too @engenelxver

Three Ships: I don’t do a lot of fandom shipping nowadays but if I had to pick, Aziraphale x Crowley would be up there

First Ship: I don’t remember exactly but it was fnaf

Last Song: Bubblegum Bitch by marina and the diamonds

Last Movie: Strange World

Currently Reading: 1984 by George Orwell (still)

Currently Watching: Man In The High Castle with my bf

Currently Eating: Not eating but i just finished my last rum and coke for the night

Currently Craving: Popcorn…. I think I am going to go make some.

Tags: Anyone who wants to participate! IDK who wants to and I don’t want to bother anyone

I haven’t done one of these in a while so I’m gonna hop on ^-^

Three Ships: Dipcifica, Monipai, and whatever the ship name is for Kitty/Puss

First Ship: Llorumi 💀 I don’t like it anymore

Last Song: Monody - TheFatRat ft. Laura Brehm

Last Movie: I think it was Puss in Boots: The Last Wish

Currently Reading: nothing except my own fanfic jdfsdkj I don’t have time for a new novel

Currently Watching: Murder Drones and Underverse

Currently Eating: nothing but the last thing I ate was a McD’s vanilla cone

Currently Craving: dinner. maybe some saalan

Tagging with no pressure: @apastelsunsetpainting, @ilikeglitterandsparklydresses, and anyone else who wants to join!

Hmm… okay. I’ll try. 🤷🏿‍♀️

3 Ships: The ones most on my mind currently: Solaristerian (Solaria x Asterian), Ayana x Tabi, Toukoha (Toya x Kohane) (Nobody come after me please.)

First ever ship: Very hard to remember, assuming I had one that early on.. Hmmmm… 🤔 Weeeeelll, if it counts, when I watched Rescue Bots growing up, I used to think that Frankie and Cody would make a nice cute couple when they get older.

Last song: A Hatsune Miku cover of this.

Last movie: Don’t remember. (There’s actually still a handful I should get around to watching.)

Currently reading: Nothing.

Currently watching: a reaction video of two youtubers watching season 1 of Spongebob for the first time.

Currently consuming: Nothing

Currently craving: Burgers and/or pizza

Tagging: @taterswithranch @reckless-flight @shyninjacat @skeezpyuff @gremlinsbooty @roadsidebrambles @vocalovely @princessanieloid @cl-babydew @only-lonely-www and anyone else. Only if you want to!

1. 3 Ships: The ones I always think about - Nami & Luffy …. Bulma & Goku …. and Porcoline w/ any character from RF4S (Rune Factory)

2. First ever ship: Difficult to remember, but I always thought Tuxedo Mask & Sailor Moon were adorable.

3. Last Song: Amish Paradise by Weird Al

4. Last Movie: My Big Fat Greek Wedding 2

5. Currently Reading: Lore Olympus on WebToons

6. Currently watching: Doctor Who (The Revived Era)

7. Currently Craving: Nice warm CINNABON!

8. Currently consuming: Meatball Parm Grinder from a new restaurant called Jack’s Pizza #MeatballsAreLife

9. Tagging: @taterswithranch @shyninjacat @skeezpyuff @gremlinsbooty @roadsidebrambles @vocalovely @princessanieloid @cl-babydew @only-lonely-www @apastelsunsetpainting and obviously anyone willing to add on to this wonderful post.

@apastelsunsetpainting and @reckless-flight I’m sorry if it’s late, I’m very busy and I don’t feel like making tags regularly…anyways:

1. 3 Ships: GakuLuka, VY2/Yuuma/RoroGumi and KaiMiku (You know My other OTPs)

2. First Ever Ship: Disney princess couples?

3. Last Song: You Belong With Me - Lydia the Bard Cover.

4. Last Movie: Cinderella 1950 (I saw it the moment I was nominated)

5. Currently Reading: I don’t read…

6. Currently Watching: I look forward to the next chapter of Nintendo High…

7. Currently Consuming: nothing

8. Currently Craving: Popcorn

9. Tagging: @gremlinsbooty @a-gang-of-silly-bananas @socks-wizard-money-gang @ur-local-lilia-vanrouge-simp @tomboyjessie13 @drama-glob @thinkanamelater @cherryblue64 @mollyjimbly @mrs-ninjago @everythingnicespiceandsugar @itz-darktrax

[naturallytom]

Mending a Broken Heart (Tom Holland x reader, alternative part)

a/n: me? writing? unheard of. jk im tryin to get back into the groove!! this is an alternate version to Mending a Broken Heart, so some parts are the same and some I’ve edited or added some things! hope u enjoy!! 

warnings: language, angst, mentions of cheating

please reblog/leave feedback!!

picture not mine!

You had noticed it for months. Tom has been pulling away, spending more time out with the boys than at home with you. His kisses became forced and the words ‘love you’ slowly stopped falling from his lips. 

Most days he would leave for work before you woke up and on the rare occasion you were up when he left, he would mumble a ‘goodbye’ before walking out the door. Sometimes, if you were lucky, he would press a gentle kiss to your forehead. Most times, though, he would just leave. 

You did your best to keep the love alive, you were still madly in love with him. The wedding band that sat tightly on your ring finger mocked you. A symbol of what was love has turned into one sided love. Hell, you weren’t sure if Tom wore his wedding ring anymore. 

A quick glance to his left hand would reveal that he didn’t. 

You spent your nights wondering if it was something you did. Were you too clingy when he left to film? Was he just tired of you after four years of marriage? Did he find someone else?

No. You shook your head to yourself one night as you laid in the bed by yourself, the space usually occupied by Tom cold. If he found someone else and if he cheated, that’s on him. Not on you. 

Still, the thought plagued your mind. Did he meet someone else? Was she prettier than you? Is that where he was when he said he was out with the boys? Was she able to give him something you couldn’t give him?

The door opening and shutting alerted you that Tom was home. You sighed, knowing it’d be another night of sleeping on opposite sides of the bed. 

The door to the bedroom opened and in came Tom, Tessa jumping up to greet him. 

“Hey girl, hey love, how are you, hm?” He whispered, petting Tessa as his eyes flickering over to you, who was visibly awake. “Thought you’d be asleep by now. ‘S late.” 

“Couldn’t sleep.” You replied simply. “Hey so I was thinking, we haven’t had a date night in a while, maybe you wanted to go out to see the Halloween decorations around town and get dinner tomorrow night?” 

“Can’t,” He shook his head as he got ready for bed. “Harrison wants to watch the game. Told him I’d go.” 

“Didn’t you just see Harrison tonight?” 

“Yeah, and?” 

“Nothing.” You sighed, obviously upset. “Nothing, Tom. Goodnight.” 

“Night.” He responded, turning out the light and climbing into bed, falling asleep with his back toward you. 

-

The next day, you were surprised to see Tom already awake and waiting in the kitchen, sipping on a cup of tea when you got downstairs. 

“Good morning.” You smiled softly. 

“We need to talk.” He told you. You felt your heart drop and your palms get sweaty, but you wiped them on your pajama pants in an effort to seem totally calm and not panicked. 

“A-About what?” You asked, your voice coming out shaky. 

“I think,” Tom started. “I think we should get divorced.” 

It was then, at 8:30 am that your world came crashing down. 

“W-What?” You whimpered out, your voice weaker than before. “Why?”

“I’m not happy with you anymore.” He said simply. Your eyes flickered to his left hand, noticing the absence of the golden wedding band, making your heart ache. 

“We can try couples’ therapy. We can go on dates like we used to, Tom, please! We can fight for this, Tom. Fight for us.” You cried, your heart shattering into a million tiny pieces, each one puncturing your lungs as you struggled to keep your breath under control. 

“No,” He shook his head. “My mind is made up. I’m sorry, y/n. Um, I found a lawyer at a firm, they have a lot of other lawyers there you can contact. I’ll just, uh, leave their card here.” 

“So that’s it? Three years of dating and four years of marriage down the drain?” You sobbed, holding your knees to your chest as you sat on the kitchen floor. 

“I’m sorry, y/n. Truly, I am.”

He placed the small business card on the counter, grabbing the bags you didn’t even notice, mumbling an ‘I’ll be staying with Haz,’ before walking out the front door, like he did every other day. This time, though, you had the sinking feeling he was leaving for good. 

-

It was only three weeks that your lawyer came over to meet with you, joined by Tom and his lawyer. You kept your eyes focused on the table as you signed the paperwork, wanting to get this done as soon as possible. 

As soon as everyone left, you shut the door, slid down the back of it, and cried. 

-

Nearly two months after the worst day of your life and it was time for a self care night. The ring that once sat on your left hand was buried away in your jewelry box somewhere and you were finally starting to feel free and somewhat happy again after crying yourself to sleep and wondering where it all went wrong for months. 

After the divorce you buried yourself in work, using it as a distraction from going home to an empty house. You also moved out of the house you once called home. Not only was it too painful to go home to an empty house, but it was too painful to go home to a house that held so many happy and loving memories. You took the necessities along with some things you wanted with you and set yourself up in a hotel room for the time being. You treated it as a vacation. Except only a few people knew where you were. Your family knew, along with your friends, including Harrison, on the condition he didn’t tell Tom where you were. You started making time for yourself in your little hotel room and you became happier. 

Tonight, after a long day of work, you ordered your favorite Chinese food, played your favorite songs, and ran yourself a bath with a vanilla scented bath bomb. You were enjoying a glass of wine, the hot water of the bath soothing you when the music playing from your phone was interrupted by a call coming in. 

To your surprise, it was Tom. You contemplated answering it, but instead, let it go to voicemail. However, you were curious as to why he called, though you were also 99% positive it was a pocket dial. So you played the voicemail, the familiar voice ringing throughout the bathroom. 

“Hey y/n, um, I hope you’re doing well. I just called because I wanted to tell you something. I um, I miss you. A lot. And I know I don’t get to feel that way but I do and I just wanted to tell you that and I guess ask if there was any possibility of meeting to talk? Uh, call me back if...if you want. I don’t blame you if you hate me. Bye. Love y-” 

You turned off the voicemail before the phrase could be finished. Millions of thoughts filled your mind, ranging from happy ones to ones that made your heart ache and tears fill your eyes. 

You decided to ignore it, pretend it never happened, and enjoy your self care night. 

-

When Tom pulled up to his former house with flowers in his car and a pit of nerves in his stomach, he expected to see your car in the driveway and at least one light to be on. He was greeted with an empty driveway and a dark house, which confused him. It was the weekend, so you weren’t work. Maybe you had to run an errand? 

But after 20 minutes, he gave up hope that you were home and tried to call you, which to no surprise, you didn’t pick up again. He instead called Harrison in an effort to try and find out if he knew where you were. 

“What do you want?” Harrison answered, half concentrating on what Tom was about to say and half concentrating on the game in front of him. 

“Do, uh, do you know where y/n is?” Tom asked, taking Harrison by surprise. 

“y/n?” Harrison paused the game, suddenly not able to concentrate on it. “Why d’you want to know where y/n is?”

“I just want to talk to her.” He mumbled. 

“If I knew that’s where you were going I wouldn’t have let you go.” Harrison sighed. “Listen she made me swear that I wouldn’t tell you-” 

“Please Harrison? You’ve seen how much of a mess I’ve been. I just want to see if I have a shot.” Tom begged, making his friend cave. 

“Fine but if she moves again I won’t be telling you shit.”  

-

The next day you were enjoying a cup of tea and reading your book, getting some relaxation in before your week began when a knock on the door interrupted you. Confusion filled your body, you weren’t expecting anyone to pop by. 

Looking out the peephole, you froze at the sight that greeted you. Tom was standing outside your door, a bouquet of your favorite flowers in his hands. 

“Hi.” He breathed out, his nose and the tips of his ears red from the harsh winter air. 

“How the hell did you find me?” You asked, keeping your eyes focused on the ground. 

“Harrison. I begged him to tell me.” He answered. 

“I’m gonna kill him.” You muttered. “What do you want?”

“Can..Can I come in?” He asked. 

You wanted to say no, that he could say what he wanted to say outside or just not let him speak at all. But you wanted to be courteous to the other people on your floor and part of you was curious as to what he was going to say. So you wordlessly opened the door slightly, letting him in and closing the door behind him. 

“Now what do you want?”

“Did you get my voicemail?” He responded, hope filling his eyes when you nodded. “Um, I brought these for you. I was hoping we could talk.” 

“I don’t want your flowers. Why should I talk to you? We’re divorced, just like you wanted.” Tom winced at the words. “Nothing to change.” 

“Actually, we’re not.” He corrected. “I called the office the other day. Um, it’s not official yet.” 

“Well then they should make it official. Maybe I can call them and make it happen as my very last Christmas present to you. Just what you wanted.” You snapped. 

“No, this isn’t what I want, can I speak, please?” He pleaded, his eyes resembling those of a puppy. 

“You’re speaking already.” You answered, gesturing for him to continue nonetheless. 

“I- How have you been? I stopped by the house-”

“Tom I’m not gonna listen to your small talk. Say what you have to say and leave.” You told him. His heart broke but he couldn’t blame you. 

“Um, so I thought I wasn’t happy with you but um, as time went on, I realized how much I miss having you in my life.” He began, visibly nervous. “I was just looking through our pictures and how happy you looked and I just, I guess I realized I wanted to be the one to make you that happy again.”

“You haven’t made me happy in months, Tom.” 

“I know.” His heart clenched. “I know and I’m so sorry, y/n. I really am.” 

“Was there someone else? Did you cheat on me?” You asked. 

“No, no absolutely not, y/n.” He answered before adding; “I went on a date with someone after we split up but it didn’t work out. I realized she wasn’t what I want.” 

“Of course she wasn’t.” You scoffed. 

“I want you, y/n. I want to spend the rest of my life making you happy again.” He told you, tears filling your eyes. “Is there..is there any possibility you could love me again?” 

“Again?” You seethed. “Tom I never fell out of love with you! I never stopped loving you! That was all you! You stopped loving me and you wanted this stupid fucking divorce!”

“I..I don’t think I ever stopped loving you either.” He whispered, tears falling down his rosy cheeks. “Please, y/n, if there’s even the tiniest chance..” 

“Of what, Tom? Of going right back to being married? Of you making me happy? I don’t know, Tom! I don’t know anything except that I hate you right now.” You sobbed, crying into your knees while Tom let out quiet sobs of his own, his heart clenching at the lack of wedding band on your left hand and the lack of love in your voice, but especially your eyes. Your eyes, which once held so much love and adoration for him were now full of anger and resentment. 

“Of..anything, y/n. Please, I just want a second chance to show you how much you mean to me, to make you happy again. I will do anything to save us, anything you want. And...and if it’s not working or you just really hate me, I wouldn’t blame you. Not at all.” He begged, his eyes puffy and red. 

“I tried to save us, Tom. Don’t you remember? I begged and pleaded with you to do couples therapy to go on dates when you were breaking my heart into a million tiny pieces. I begged you to try and fight for us, for our marriage, but you just walked out the god damn door!” You spit through gritted teeth. 

“I fucked up, I know. I fucked up so badly.” He cried, wiping his tears away. 

“And if leaving me wasn’t enough, you took Tessa too! I was left completely alone in that big fucking house that was haunted by you. I couldn’t stand it.” You sobbed. 

“I’m..I’m sorry, y/n. So so fucking sorry. What do you want me to do?” 

“I want...I want you to hurt. I want you to hurt the way you hurt me. I want you to know how this fucking feels.” You said, your voice getting louder with each word that fell from your lips.

Tom could only cry. This was ripping him apart, he couldn’t even imagine what the whole thing felt like to you. 

“I’m gonna need time to think, Tom.” You finally mumbled, Tom nodding in response. 

“I’ll give you all the time you need. I promise you-” 

“Don’t. Don’t promise me anything.” You spoke, your voice low. “You won’t be able to keep it. You promised you’d love me forever four years ago and look what happened.” 

“y/n pl-”

“You don’t get to do this. You-you don’t get to just waltz right back in here and ask for a second chance to fight for us when I didn’t even get a first chance. How do I know this won’t end like it did before?” 

“y/n, I swear to you, if this isn’t working out, you can leave me. I...I just want a chance to prove myself to you.” He begged. 

“God, Tom. You don’t get it! I’m not going through this again. Do you realize how much you broke me the first time? Fuck, you had a chance, Tom. And you threw it away.” You muttered quietly. 

“I regret that every day. Every god damn day.” He told you honestly.

“I don’t know, Tom.” You sighed. 

“Talk to me?” He tried, knowing you were hiding something deeper than an ‘I don’t know.’

“Don’t know what else there is to say.” You mumbled. “I don’t trust you, I-I can’t trust you. I hate you.” 

“Why’d you get a hotel room?” Tom sniffled, changing the subject. 

“I told you. I hated being in that house. Hated being surrounded by the happy pictures and memories of us.” You told him honestly. “I want to start over.” 

“What?”

“I want to start over. I can’t go back to being emotionally married to you even if we’ll still be married legally. I’m talking starting from scratch, as if we were meeting for the first time, the whole deal.” You told him. 

“That sounds perfect, y/n. Thank y-”

“Get out, Tom. Please. I just want to be alone and not with you right now. I’m still not happy with you.” 

“Okay.” He breathed out, hope filling him once again. “You won’t regret this, I promise.” 

“What did I just say about promises?” You asked tearily. 

“I know, I know. I’m determined to keep this promise, though.” He told you. 

“Fine. Whatever. Just please leave for now.” You whimpered, watching as he walked out the door, just like he did when he broke your heart. 

You decided you needed another self care night. Another bath was run, another vanilla scented bath bomb was used, more wine was consumed. 

Tom texted you right as you got out of the bath. 

Tom: hey y/n, it’s tom, just incase you don’t have my number saved anymore. I just wanted to say thank you for the second chance. I really am grateful. I hope you have a relaxing night, you deserve it. 

You rolled your eyes and tossed your phone gently on your bed, though you could feel your heart rate pick up and butterflies fill your stomach. 

-

Tom began texting you sweet little things each morning, whether it was to let you know that he’s been thinking of you or to tell you that he hopes you have a great day. At first you ignored them, but then you began responding in short answers of one or two words until the two of you were texting every day, like when you met for the first time seven years ago. 

-

Over a month after you started texting again, Tom took you on a first date. Pulling up to your hotel, Tom felt the nerves fill his body as he walked up to your door and knocked, another bouquet of your favorite flowers in his hand. 

He felt all the air leave his lungs as you opened the door. You looked absolute stunning. You were wearing a navy blue dress that reached down to just above your knees, one Tom bought you one year. 

“Wow, hi.” He breathed. “You look stunning.” 

“Thank you.” You smiled, accepting the flowers he handed you. “I’ll be right back.” 

Tom took you to your favorite restaurant that night, one that the two of you frequented when you (formerly) went on dates. 

When he took you back to your hotel, he walked you up to the door, where he nervously asked if he could kiss you. 

You said yes, and that was all Tom needed to press a soft kiss to your lips. The kiss was magical, both of you felt the sparks between the two of you. 

“God I missed doing that.” Tom mumbled as he pulled away to breathe. 

“Then do it again.” 

-

A couple months after that, Tom moved back in with you. You had gone back to the house every now and then, to slowly acclimate yourself to being back in the once happy house, only fully moving back when Tom moved back as well. The pictures of the two of you were dusted off, making your heart race instead of hurt at the sight of the happy memories. 

-

Finally, after a year, Tom proposed to you (again). You hesitated a little bit, still scared it would end in heartbreak again, which broke Tom’s heart, but said you yes in the end. 

The two of you renewed your vows, putting on the golden bands that were once again a symbol of the love the two of you shared. 

You had a small party back at your house after the ceremony, your families joining to celebrate. You found Tom alone in the kitchen, grabbing a beer for him and Harry. 

“Hey.” You greeted, fiddling with your fingers as tears of happiness filled your eyes. 

“Hey, what’s wrong, my love?” Tom asked, concerned as soon he saw the tears filling your eyes. 

“Nothing, nothing. I, um,” You started, wiping your tears away and wrapping your arms around Tom’s neck. “I’m really glad we made it back to this.” 

“Me too, lovey. I love you so much.” He whispered, pressing a soft kiss to your forehead.

“Hey, Tommy?” 

“Yeah?” 

“You kept your promise.” You smiled softly, making Tom’s heart ache at the memory of you not being able to trust him. 

“I told you I would.” 

Your moment was interrupted by Harrison, who entered the kitchen, smiling at his two best friends happily in love once again. 

“Aren’t you so glad I told him where you were staying?” He joked, making you roll your eyes. 

“Shut up, Harrison.” You smiled. As your eyes flickered between Tom and Harrison, though, you knew you wouldn’t have been in this position if Harrison didn’t spill the beans to Tom. 

“Hey Haz?” You called, as Harrison went to leave the kitchen in fake offense. He turned at the sound of his name, knowing what was coming. 

“Thank you.” Tom nodded in agreement, his arm slipping around your waist. 

Harrison just smiled even bigger, all three of you knowing everything would be okay from now on.

[sistersyzygy]

it doesn't matter what I say if you don't say anything in response the final phrase of my last sentence hangs in the air, sounding stupider and stupider why can't you at least laugh I tried so hard to find the right words it's a matter of timing, you only have so long to capture the feeling before it's gone

[barsformars]

reaction: to their s/o being afraid of thunderstorms; ateez

req: hi! i absolutely love your writing, could i request an ateez reaction to s/o being scared of thunderstorms? thank you so much <3

a/n: thank you so much for requesting! this was kinda cute to write. also,, trying a different format here- not using gifs- lmk if y'all like it with gifs better? + first work im posting in this new year hehe hope y'all enjoy it <3

genre - fluff | pairing - ateez x reader | warnings - none

⭒❃.✮:▹ seonghwa

seonghwa had came home to you hidden under your covers as you watched the television on almost max volume, the curtains fully closed.

"love, isn't it a little too loud?" he had covered his own ears from how deafening it was and he had to pretty much yell for you to hear him. you paused the show when you took notice of him, quickly apologising as you tried to explain yourself when you saw another flash of lightning through the curtains. you slapped your two hands over your ears and squeezed your eyes shut, bracing yourself for the loud ripping sound from the sky.

seonghwa sat himself next to you and pulled you into his embrace, cupping your cheeks so that you would look at him. "love, do you trust me?" you nodded as you slowly opened your eyes.

seonghwa turned the television off and gently pried your hands away from your ears, letting your hands rest on the sides of his thighs. "let's be a little kinder to your ears, alright?" he leaned in closer and whispered into your ears. "do you want to tell me about your day or shall i go first?"

basically mars asmr but live, and when you do get surprised by the thunder, he would shush you affectionately and comfort you, continuing on about his day.

⭒❃.✮:▹ hongjoong

"can i hide in here for a little while?" you had peeked into his studio to see that he was just monitoring his past performances through fancams, surely you wouldn't be a distraction.

"from what?" he paused his video and whipped his head back to ask, confused. you were supposed to be at the dance studio, helping wooyoung and yunho check their choreography even if you weren't that experienced in dance.

"the thunderstorm, your studio is the only place where i can neither see nor hear anything so..." ah, he had no idea there was a thunderstorm outside. if he was he would have rushed over to you immediately, knowing just how afraid you can get.

"sure babe, make yourself comfortable." hongjoong would then turn on the ambience lighting to a dark blue and play some really soothing classical music, hoping that it would calm you down and take your mind away from the ongoing thunderstorm. when he sees that you were still a little frightened from earlier on, he drapes his warm jacket over you, "don't worry, you're safe here." he would also go to the kitchen to make a cup of warm tea for you to calm you down.

⭒❃.✮:▹ yunho

yunho loves thunderstorms, and he loves sitting by the window and staring out as the flashes of electricity branch out like veins in the sky, so full of life. that's what scares you the most, you know the extent of damage lightning can cause having lived in houses without good lightning protection systems.

"don't sit too near to the windows, you might get hurt!" you warned for the umpteenth time but your boyfriend refused to listen, saying that it would never happen.

"this apartment is safe, i promise," yunho reassured you, even gesturing for you to come join him over there. he wasn't going to force you if you still refused after the third time he asked but you decided to go. you've been trying to get over your fear of thunderstorms anyways.

he would wrap his arms around your waist and let you rest your head on his chest so that you could hear his calm steady heartbeats. the both of you sat at the windows watching the lightning and thunder with you burying your face into the crook of his neck often and him giving you long pats on your back to calm you down. you definitely did get less afraid of thunderstorms, though not much, but it's something.

"if the thunderstorm is ever mean to you, let me know. i'll personally throw hands at zeus."

⭒❃.✮:▹ yeosang

yeosang had fallen asleep on the couch when it started raining heavily along with non-stop thunder and lightning. you were extremely afraid but you had to close the windows yourself, you didn't want to wake yeosang up from his nap.

you were just about to close the one in the living room where yeosang was when the deafening sound of a thunder took you by surprise, causing you to shriek out loud in fear. being a light sleeper, yeosang jolted awake, surprised and worried. it absolutely broke his heart to see you crouched on the floor with your hands covering your ears, your shoulders shaking as you sobbed.

you felt so weak crying over a thunderstorm but yeosang made sure to let you know that there was nothing wrong with it. he gently guided you onto the couch where he would let you continue crying on his shoulder, his fingers intertwining with yours to let you know that he's there for you as he tries to help you control your breathing. "you're okay, you're okay. follow my breathing, love."

⭒❃.✮:▹ san

if you weren't afraid of thunderstorms, you probably wouldn't be sitting on yunho's gaming seat right now with san yelling at you over the headset to support him in the game. you weren't one to play games but as san says, "you won't be scared if you distract yourself"

it usually works, though the games do leave you feeling kind of nauseous from all the motion and lights, but today, the thunderstorm was simply on another level. the lightning had lit up the whole room with a bright white flash for a good three seconds before leaving you in a room that seemed much brighter a few moments ago.

san is not stupid, he knows playing games would not distract you this time round so he would quit the game and drag you onto the bed , letting you bury your face in his chest as he hums the tune of your favourite song.

when you told him that you were ashamed to be afraid of something many people aren't, he would shush you and say, "it's normal, everyone has their irrational fears. besides, that lightning really scared the life out of me too."

⭒❃.✮:▹ mingi

he knew about your fear of thunderstorms, and he always makes an effort to check the weather forecast on your behalf since he had googled it before and they said people who fear thunderstorms should try to refrain from doing so in case it makes them even more anxious. anyways, so he does it for you and prepares everything that you might need when it happens.

the both of you were in the car when the thunderstorm started, and being well prepared, he quickly handed you the small thin blanket and the bottle of water he kept at the backseats. there was no better place than under the sheets at home but this was better than nothing at all.

once the both of you got home, he would make sure to run a warm bath for you and might even accompany you in it. the fear had caused all your muscles to tense up and he made it a point to relieve all of them. in the meanwhile, he would comfort you by saying things like "im so proud of you." and "the next time a thunderstorm happens, remember how you are totally fine today, okay? think, thunderstorms are relatively harmless, you'll be fine this time too."

⭒❃.✮:▹ wooyoung

it was in the middle of the night when the thunderstorm started, the loud booming of the thunder startling you awake. you tried to go back to sleep, hoping that this moment would just pass and that you would wake up to a nice weather. but even with wooyoung by your side, you couldn't seem to be at ease enough to sleep.

"wooyoung, please wake up." that was your tenth attempt, unsurprisingly considering the fact that he sleeps like a dead log. thankfully he does, and very much apologetically when he notices the shitshow that was going on outside. even he was surprised he slept through the noise.

he would immediately drag himself out of bed to turn on the lights so that the lightning wouldn't seem as bad, also going out to the kitchen to pour you a glass of warm water. it always helped.

when the both of you were back in bed, wooyoung would rest against the headboard as you laid your head on his abdomen, him patting your shoulder affectionately until you fell asleep again.

"there's another thunderstorm going on inside your stomach," you joked with a faint smile as you snuggled closer into him.

"hey! if you're going to say that, go away."

⭒❃.✮:▹ jongho

the both of you were stranded outdoors as the thunderstorm has started unexpectedly while the two of you were taking a stroll in the park. the weather forecast did not foresee this. it was dangerous and very annoying to get soaked in rain, but everything was made worse because you were afraid of thunderstorms. you had no idea why, it was just the case.

"there's a shelter nearby, shall we make a dash for it?" jongho asked as the both of you sought temporary shelter from a tall tree.

"the lightning is a little crazy now though....." it was, but being under a huge tree on such a day wasn't the smartest idea at all, and it would be much better if you could go to a real shelter.

"you know i'm quite a lucky guy, right?" jongho would give you a piggyback as he ran, allowing you to close your eyes so that you wouldn't see the flashes of lightning. he would also tell you to put on earphones and play some soothing music. "it'll be over quick, just hang on in there for a little while."

[babbling-idiot]

Colin gray x reader

Prompts

Request: On the prompt list: 9 angst, 8 fluff and 22 on random with Mr. Colin Gray pwease!! I love you btw!

9. “Why are you awake?”

8. “Sleep over? Please?”

22.  “Good thing I didn’t ask for your opinion.”

Warnings: non

(Hey there anon thanks for requesting this. I had fun writing it. Luckily I felt like writing so thank you again, kinda set me in the right mood. Hope you enjoy!)

Tonight was not your night to say the least. It was confusing and all in all kinda ridiculous. You had tried to fall asleep countless of times, even trying desperately to get a hold of any one so you can talk. Obviously everyone was asleep at this time of night and they would probably be too tired anyway to talk, so your options were down to none. But there was one person that came to mind, that was probably asleep but would maybe stay up with you. Colin Gray. You and him had became friends after bumping into each other in the hall one day at school. You both somehow ended up knocking each other onto the ground and later became partners in a group project, so yall decided to become friends.

As you sit up in bed you squint down at your phone rifling through your recent messages until you come across a certain name "Emo Boi". You press the call button and wait. A few rings later and your hope is dying out, until you heard a groggy "I dont know who the hell this is but you better have a good reason as to waking me up this late." He says, clearly he was dead asleep before he answered. "I do actually. I am fully awake and bored. I have no one to talk to so I resorted to calling you, so what up?" You heard what sounded like moving around on the other side of the phone, you could imagine him sitting up in his bed. "Why are you awake?" " I'm bored colin. I need to do something to help me fall asleep. Like talking, talking makes me tired and your the one person that might help me." "Why, 'cause you think I'm boring?" "What! No, you know that's not it. Your an amazing writer and you have stories. That the only reason." He rolls his eyes at this "Well my phone is at 25% and I left my charger at your house so I'm not gonna be able to talk for long.." "Sleepover." Theres silence on the other end, maybe you broke him "huh?" "Sleepover? Please?" "B-but...i.....ugh....fine." "What you say?" "I said fine!" You smile to yourself "Keep me on the phone please!" "First, you wake me up for god only knows what then you want me to run down my phones charge. You are very lucky I like you.." you chuckle at this "Yes I know. Now hurry up." Just as you thought the night couldn't get any better all of a sudden you hear his music slightly playing. Bullet with butterfly wings? Smashing Pumpkins! Since when did he listen to there music. "You listen to Smashing Pumpkins? You like there music? How old are you colin!" "Good thing I didnt ask for your opinion." You scoff "oh come on, it's a good song. There is way worse shit you could listen to." "Oh yeah like what?" "PPAP. You know that pineapple song." "Oh jesus, that guy still haunts my dreams. Dont remind me please." At this point your laughing, almost falling off your own bed. You sit up fast in your bed when you hear what sounds like a car door outside. You walk over to your window and see colin making his way to the side of you house. Luckily your parents hadn't moved that ladder there, if they did then you and colin would be in a pickle. He climbs up and walks over to your window. You open it for him and he crawls in but ultimately fails and falls onto the floor. He then gets up and goes to sit down at your desk "Alright two things. One is your face okay and two what the hell are you wearing." He was wearing a black and red striped tank-top with what looked like his boxer-briefs but you didnt think he'd be that careless. He looks down at his clothes and realizes his mistake.  "Im fine. Last time I was here I accidentally left both my charger and some clothes so can I see them please." You nod and go over to your closet. You bend down and pick up the small pile of clothes and hand them over. He slips on the pair of pajama pants and then settles back down onto your bed. "So I'm here, I'm present! What do you wanna do?" "Well mom and dad have to leave early this morning so maybe we could put a movie on and talk about shit?!" "I like the sound of that. I'm picking the movie tho." You scoff "You picked last time!" "Yeah that was last time and this time you woke me up dead at night, so you got two options either i leave and your bored or I pick a movie. Careful this is a very critical situation." He says raising an eyebrow. You chuckle and roll your eyes "Just hurry and come sit down." He smile and slides a dvd in before jumping onto the bed.

Not even far into the movie your already fast asleep against his shoulder and hes running his fingers through your hair. You shift and he freezes, afraid he woke you but you ultimately snuggle into his side and he smiles even wider. He wraps his arm around you and lays his head back against the head board. "I love you y/n. I wish I was brave enough to tell you. You deserve so much, i hope I'll be the one to give you everything your heart desires, goodnight." He says as he kisses the top of your head. You smile slightly, hearing every word he had just said, little did he know.

(Hey there again. So to everyone, the prompts are very enjoyable to me so please do request for anyone in my masterlist. I am really trying to write stuff in my own time and hopefully will have a few fics out soon, so fingers crossed🤞😬. Hope you enjoyed this, have an amazing day/night and stay safe in the world plzzzzzz!!)