#i just ugh i crave it
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the way i fall for the aj lee hype every year really is so silly...
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the duality of seonghwa is absolutely bonkers like??? tf you mean this man
is the same as this man
like UGGHHHHH SEONGHWA THE MAN THAT YOU AAAAREEEEEE 🛐🛐🛐🛐
#pls sir give me some of ur gender its what i crave 🤲🤲#i beg 😣😣#ateez#seonghwa#park seonghwa#hwa#🛐🛐🛐#ive been in love with his insane duality since day one like ugh#i love him sm#just watching him be a crazy beautiful demon on stage to geeking out about animal crossing not even hours after a show#i love himmm
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"It's nice to take a walk like this."
BOYS BE BRAVE (2024). EPISODE SIX.
#boys be brave#asianlgbtqdramas#asiandramasource#kdramasource#kdramadaily#tvedit#*#faiza gifs#GAYS AND 'TAKING A WALK'. I GET IT INHO I COMPLETELY GET IT. BC ME TOO.#me and who me and WHENNNN.#god LOOOOK at their small lil shy faces UGH SEE IT CAN BE THIS GOOD. LET INHO IN BALGEUM :(#inho just wants the SIMPLEST things all he craves for is balgeum's presence next to him#that his MOST valuable thing to him i CANT :(((
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I read a lot of fanfic. Sometimes I read AUs where a character is a sex worker, hoping this time it'll be handled sensitively. Even knowing how unrealistic it is, I've given client/sex worker romances a try; despite real life not working that way I do understand the wish fulfilment aspect.
The problem is there's this phenomena that happens when the "client" acts just as entitled as they do in real life, with the narrative having the sex worker react negatively to it but still fall for them. The longer it goes on, the more I feel like the character deep down is trying to claw their way out. It feels like watching a friend fall into an abusive relationship whilst convincing themselves it's what they want. If the narrative leads to the sex worker quitting sex work to date the wealthy client, whisked out of their life of poverty, I think about the times friends who are sex workers have made themselves believe they're happy in a relationship with an ex-client (or more commonly a sugar daddy) because it's easier than accepting that they've made a trade between an abusive relationship and the harms that come with immense poverty.
I don't know why I keep reading these fanfics.
#just finished one that I felt compelled to complete#and the author makes excuses for the client character in the authors notes whilst acknowledging certain behaviour as not ideal#and the whole thing just makes me feel ill#but I'm so badly craving sex worker fiction !#and sometimes I do even want wish fulfilment#but if you're going for wish fulfilment... why not have the client NOT act like real entitled scumbag clients do#ugh idk I need to find fiction of sex workers falling in love with each other#or maybe this can be the motivation I need to write it
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The Accident - Part XVI
Atsumu x fem reader
Warnings: Stalking, kinda dry humping
Words: ~ 2,5 k
About: Y/n and Atsumu finally TALK. And more.
Part I II -> Next Part
A yawn escapes your lips as you slowly open your eyes to a dimly lit room. It's probably the middle of the day, judging by the way it looks outside. You surprisingly feel fully rested, with Atsumu still peacefully snoozing behind you, his arm loosely draped across your stomach. Your mind races back to the events of the previous night, causing your heart to skip a beat.
That woman.
Atsumu needs to do a lot of explaining to make up for that. If there is even a way to make up for that. You still don't know anything about her, but she for sure gives you the chills.
Maybe it was a mistake. To stay with him- even in the same bed, and to allow your heart to get that foolish hope again. But you're just human, and it seems like your heart isn't so easily convinced that he's not good for you.
You sigh and reach for your phone on the nightstand, noting how late it is—2 pm. Shocked by the time, you check your messages and spot surprisingly many from Osamu Miya and hesitantly tap on them.
Osamu: hope yer alright
Osamu: let me know when you’re home
Osamu: did ya fall asleep?
Osamu: thank you for your help. I owe ya. Call me if ya need anything. Stay safe.
Osamu: good morning. Grab that idiot and come over to Onigiri Miya when yer awake. Or come on your own when he messes up. Drinks are on the house for you.
Osamu: not for Tsumu tho. He can pay double
A smile plays on your lips as you respond quickly.
You: hey! Sorry for the late reply, I fell asleep. Atsumu‘s still sleeping. I‘ll talk to him and let you know if we‘re coming. Thank you for the offer! :)
Osamu: sure. see ya
You: see you :)
Your attention is diverted when Atsumu stirs, his arm now wrapping around your waist as he clumsily pulls you closer. He groans and nuzzles against your neck, a sound that sends a shiver down your spine. Is he aware that it's you he's holding? And does he even remember last night? You somehow doubt it.
"Y/n?" he mumbles after a moment, and your eyebrows shoot up, but you respond with a soft hum and nod.
"Yer—how?" he slowly questions, his face still heavy with sleep. You gently take his hand and remove it from your waist, scooting away enough to turn and face him. His eyes are tired, his expression soft while he fights to fully wake up. You just hope that he doesn't feel too horribly after all that drinking. His team will kill him for sure if he has practice today. You really hope that it's his day off.
"I brought you home. Remember that you had a few drinks at Onigiri Miya's?" you say, trying to sound neutral, though bitterness lingers in your tone. He stares at you blankly until embarrassment and guilt crease his features.
"Yeah, right. I'm—y/n, I'm sorry for that. Thank ya for bringin' me home. I'm just kinda... havin' a hard time." He closes his eyes for a short second and takes a deep breath. He suddenly looks so exhausted that it almost breaks your heart.
"Hard time with what? Work?"
He shakes his head, closing his eyes again, and a weariness settles over his face, despite the ample sleep you both received. "Work's fine. Great, actually. Gotta play with some real amazin' players. I even got to see Aran often again; that's fine. Just..." He opens his eyes, sadness evident. "Just?" you prompt, your heart skipping a beat at his gaze. You know that it has to do with you—you just don't know what exactly it is. And the urge to interrogate him is burning strong in your body.
"I never got the chance to talk to ya after that night," he admits. You nod, urging him to continue, to finally give you some answers. "I wanted to apologize. For kissin' ya. I made ya uncomfortable, ruined everything."
Your confusion is palpable—just what is wrong with him? He should tell you about that woman and not that! And that definitely didn't sound like he wanted to do it again, which feels like a stab to your heart and somehow angers you.
"Uhm... Atsumu, that was not quite what I expected. Like, sure, I've been thinking about that kiss and my feelings for you, but I was more taken aback when you blocked me and invited another girl over, literally the same night we had our kind-of-date."
His face drops after listening to you, confusion and worry etched on his features. "What are ya talkin' about? I never blocked ya, and I sure as heck didn't invite any other girl here. Hell, I don't even talk to women outside of work. Who should I bring here?"
"Brunette? Perfect smile and wearing one of your shirts? Could hardly miss her on my way down. Or when we met her yesterday. Do you have her over at your place every night?" you retort, ignoring his repulsed expression at your description of her. You could almost believe that he doesn't like her at the way he scrunches his nose.
"Her? Ya met her? Yesterday?"
You nod, narrowing your eyes as you recall her vicious features after that scene. But wow, you were definitely embarrassing. How you acted possessively towards Atsumu. Will she laugh about it with him as soon as they meet each other again?
His reaction surprises you, though; he suddenly reaches for you, pulling you a bit closer. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry for gettin' ya involved in this. Are ya okay? She didn't do anything to ya, did she?" You stare at him, confused, and shake your head. His worry confuses you. Why bother after not talking to you for so long?
"Can't believe she dared to come here again. If ya ever see her again, you have to call the police. I have a restraining order against her." Your eyes widen surprised at his words and you frown.
"Restraining order? Is she... like a crazy ex?" Dread fills your stomach at the thought, and a suspicion arises within you.
He slowly shakes his head. "She's a very obsessed fan, to put it nicely. She's been stalking me for a while. Started innocently; I noticed that she came to Onigiri Miya every time I was there too. Then I noticed her when I went for walks every other day, always waitin' at the same spot for me and trying to talk to me. And then one day, I noticed that stuff from my apartment started to go missing. That was like two years ago. I contacted the police after I caught her breaking into my apartment, and she got arrested. Haven't seen her since then, but she started showing up since that one night with ya." He groans and you can see just how much stress this situation caused him. He looks so tired while talking about it, it almost breaks your heart.
"I don't know how she found me again," he continues. "She broke into my apartment, and I had video proof fortunately, so I could file a case, and I have a restraining order against her now. She can't show up again, or she'll land in jail. I also had to get a new phone and number; she did something with it. Tried calling ya with the new one, but ya never called back."
You listen to the story with watery eyes. That woman is actually a stalker?! And he had been suffering like that all the time? Tears well up, and you try to calm yourself. So he wasn't ignoring you on purpose. He actually tried to reach out, and you probably ignored his messages, and he felt miserable because he put you in that situation. Hell, someone broke into his apartment. This must have been horrible for him. You're just glad that she at least cannot legally come here again. Even though it doesn't seem to stop her. A part of you hopes that she'll show up again. The thought of her in jail does sound kind of appealing to you- and not just because you were kind of jealous before. She is danger, and you pray that she won't show up again. Maybe she'll stop now that she knows that he's taken- even though she does not seem to respect boundaries. Your thoughts are running, you don't even know what to say at this point. How could you be mad with him after this?
A ray of hope suddenly flashes before your eyes, and you feel your heart flutter. You know that it's selfish to think about your foolish feelings, to think about how much you like him and to wonder if he reciprocates these feelings. But this means that you might mean something to him. This means that he might like you just like you like him, if he has tried contacting you and kept his distance to protect you.
"So... uhm... you weren't ghosting me because of the kiss?" You feel so, so foolish for asking, but your heart longs for confirmation. You'll deal with the stalker after finally finding out about his feelings. After waiting for him for so long, you need to know.
"I didn't want to ghost ya at all, y/n. I really like ya." His eyes catch yours, and you feel butterflies in your stomach once again. He doesn't seem to mind that you changed the topic like that and you know that you look at him like a hopeful lost puppy. He still has that magical effect on you. Everything just feels so right with him, like you're just where you belong. He's so close; you could probably count his lashes, and you can see the flecks of different shades of brown in his eyes.
"I was actually... really sad because we parted like that. I didn't mean to give you the impression that something's wrong—I just thought you'd see this as a game, and nothing more. That I'm just an easy way to spend time for you. Nothing more." You feel so vulnerable when you say these words, but he quickly shakes his head, looking at you with hurt in his eyes.
"I'm sorry. Y/n, I'll make it up to ya, 'kay? Please. Let me make it right." You melt at his words, only managing to nod. "O-okay." This feels like a dream come true. You can't believe that you're making up with him like this- after carrying his drunk ass home and sleeping in his bed. But you just feel so good when you're with him, and for once you decide to be selfish and to take what you need.
He looks at you, clearly stunned. "Okay? Just like that? I was ready to get on my knees to beg for forgiveness and to buy some more diamonds for you." A soft laugh escapes your lips, and he seems to lighten up at your reaction too.
"Making up to me could definitely include some groveling. I wouldn't mind seeing you on your knees, actually. I don't remember you getting on your knees for me ever, even though we are married." You smile, feeling the tension leaving your body. Only he can make you feel like this.
"Oh?" He grins, and you suddenly feel giddy. "Let me refresh yer memories then." He jumps off the bed, lively and energetic suddenly, and you look at him stunned. "Come here." He pats the edge of the bed, and you slowly crawl there, probably not very elegant, but Atsumu still gazes at you like you're a princess that graced him with her presence. You sit up hesitantly, looking at Atsumu right in front of you, who smiles fondly and smoothly sinks down to one knee. He looks devilishly handsome with his disheveled hair, and you can't do anything else but stare at him. Is this a dream?
"Y/n Miya, I know I don't deserve it, but would ya give yer husband another chance? I promise to make ya happy and to never keep secrets like that from you ever again. I'll be whatever ya want me to be just to keep you happy." Your jaw drops at his words and you can't stop the butterflies in your stomach.
"Wow, uhm, that sounds pretty serious." You breathlessly laugh and he smiles with a sincere expression that makes you blush.
"I am. I kinda..." he sighs, running a hand through his hair, making it even messier and he looks even more attractive like this. "I kinda wanna go on dates with ya. Like real dating. Not just getting along because of the marriage thing."
You stare at him, not having expected this kind of answer. He's actually serious about this? And wants to go on dates with you?
"So uhm... what do ya say? Is that alright with you?" He looks bashful, and you finally manage to come up with a response, the one that your heart is longing for.
"I'd love to." The words come out softly, and you smile fondly at his reaction and the way he seems to light up. You don't even have time to realize what's happening- and then he suddenly raises just enough to be at eye level with you and then simply connects his lips with yours in a sweet kiss. You gasp, surprised, your hands coming up to his shirt to ground yourself, but melt into the feeling, allowing him to cup your cheeks and angle your face towards him to deepen the kiss.
This is not what you had expected at all, but feeling his lips against yours, his body pressing against yours—it's enough to make you feel hazy and giddy. You need more; you need to be closer to him. So you wrap your arms around him and pull him closer while leaning back until he's laying on top of you, urging him to stay close to you. He rests most of his weight on his arms, yet you still feel him on top of you, his body pressing gently against yours .
You open your lips, and he instantly uses the chance, softly licking against your lower lip before he slightly moves his tongue to meet yours. His hips press against yours, harder suddenly, and you can't help but wrap your legs around his waist and pull him down to you.
The position is intimate. Your most sensitive part pressing against his middle, and you suck in a sharp breath when you feel something growing in his pants the longer you keep kissing him. Your hands claw into his shirt when he carefully grinds against you—and you whimper against his lips needily, feeling heat rush through your body.
You both know this is where you should stop; you both have only solved your issues like five minutes ago, and some more things definitely need more clarification, but that's the least thing on your mind now. You- you want him.
And you breathe heavily when he pulls back, his lips wet from your combined saliva, looking unfairly hot with his dark widened pupils while he looks at you intensely.
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TO BE CONTINUED
#haikyuu#haikyuu fanfiction#haikyuu x reader#atsumu#atsumu x reader#atsumu fluff#HERE YOU GO#a bit belated#but exams are coming ugh#I hope you enjoyed this#and that it doesn't feel too rushed#I kinda felt like we were moving a bit slow and I was just craving intimacy#and after finally getting to know the truth they can make up at least a bit <3#I hope you like the pacing until now#not many parts are left#probably 2 or 3 T.T#but expect smut pls!#it's skippable if you don't want to read it but I will definitely include smut in this fic! <3#soft smut thoooo#you know me#I always write softer stuff <3#LOVE YA! <3
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happy birthday, adrien <3
and this shot of adrien digging his nails into rua's back..... good for him good for him
#ts4#ts4 gameplay#sims 4 gameplay#postcard legacy challenge#sim: adrien herrera#sim: rua kamealoha#postcard: gen3#ama's been dropped off at rua's brother's for the weekend :3#rua said oh you want another kid... i'll give you another kid#rua was SLANGING THAT THING. i know the scratches on his back are gonna sting in the morning <3#ugh and just like the wedding ring in the back shot is just so ... MMM lovely to me#theyre husbands <3333 twin flames <333 fated for life <3333#there's also this kind of possession w that shot too. adrien tearing into what's his#and rua loves the attention. he craves touch#adrien likes to be marked too but he prefers it in intimate places that only rua can see <3#yall know that jeremih song BIRTHDAY SECX BIRTHDAY SEX#it's your birthday so i know you want to RIIIIDE OUT#queue#I DIDNT REALIZE HIS NAILS WERE A DIFFERENT COLOR OMG!! ignore that or DIE
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can someone tell me how to keep going if your hardwork does pay off but you don't feel anything when you achieve your goal just relief and numb again
#ive been having a bad week again since the exam ugh😭#im really really REALLY trying to study but a little head in my voice keeps saying what is even the point of working so hard#which is soooo ridiculous because it's bc i worked so hard that i got great marks#but like. i didn't feel happy like i thought would. i just felt like 'oh. okay. cool'#and then i just. didn't even have anyone around me to celebrate with#which is idk kinda dumb i guess it's just an online exam#but like see. there are technically total 8 exams to become. um to get my degree#and i just cleared 1 of them#like that was a full 100 marks paper i studied for of that level and i did it#ive just never done this before not since this course ive always scored JUST above passing (not counting the times#i literally failed twice lol)#so yeah anyway it is big for me. but why doesn't it feel like anything 😭😭😭#and why hasn't this motivated me to work harder😭😭😭#idk i thought i had gotten over the 'just do it. just do it!!! just. do. it.' phase i was getting so many things done#but it feels back to square one now#man that book about habits was so right don't have goals have habits because when you do achieve your goal#you'll be like well now what? and slip right back into bad habits again#that's exactly what happened#i used to think lol achieve my goal that's never gonna happen im a shit person and a failure#but like what the hell!!! i did!!! so now what😭😭😭#i think i need a hug#but ive never really hugged anyone except one person and she's 4 years away now#i think i need. my dad to tell me he's proud of me. but he's already forgotten about it so that's not gonna happen#man the day i stop craving external validation. it's over for yall#ugh yuck i used to hate the word validation it always sounded so desperate and needy and pathetic. guess it was just#another form of self loathing lol#im not even sad im like genuinely asking. im trying to solve it like a math problem. like does anyone have the answer
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today was a good day and i am feeling love in my heart for the important people around me. i will be ordering sushi about this
#desire mona#also just been craving the sush#i got paid today also which isnt why it was a good day#i had a very nice lunch with coworker ben + one of my kids is doing rly good in math#literally walked into my room jumping for joy to my boss like GUESS WHO GOT IT GUESS WHO UNDERSTOOD GUESS WHO GETS IT#ugh i wish you guys understood the feeling its indescribable#and knowing you had a part in it#its a sense of accomplishment thats SO hard to replicate#do any oomfs work in education? specifically in education#sound off pls#goddamned saint - nickel creek#thoughtsing
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I’m so sad I can’t partake in art fight stuff due to the really bad timing on my end bc it’s the busiest season at work, as well as I haven’t been able to finish any art for myself for ages now and I’m trying to catch up on it bc it keeps getting pushed back (basically I wish I had more time to draw 😔 I’m also slow af so I’m triple cursed, ugh)
(Granted I’ve never done any kind of art fight before, but even then… maybe next year…? Lol. Tho I so wish it wasn’t in July bc it’s such a cursed time for me /sobs. I’ve always watched it happen as a spectator but I’ve only ever been a lurker).
#blabbering#it just looks like so much fun and I keep missing fun things and events and stuff and it bums me out#but I really do wanna get lore art done bc it’s driving me insane bc I wanna do it so badly#but I wanna do stuff like this too#ugh there is no winning for me lmao#idk maybe I’m just not cut out for it either. that’s always a possibility (depressing as it may be)#idk I think I’m just depressed about the amount of events and fun activities I keep missing due to timing and life stuff#also just for the social aspect as well#after dealing with customer service shit and capitalism bs all the time it gets lonely in my world bc i'm on my own#and I crave whatever socializing i can get bc it's ALL I can get and I have to constantly fight my social anxieties despite that#the struggle of being hella introverted and under socialized while craving connections
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Kaveh left. Kaveh left Alhaitham, Kaveh forfeited the ownership rights to his half of their home, and he ran. Ran away from a friend who'd hurt him, ran towards brighter prospects.
Kaveh only talks about the woman his mother was; a renowned architect like himself, author of textbooks, leaver of families. She's back in Fontaine now. He's never mentioned going on or receiving visits.
So. My question is ... what hurt his mother so badly that she ran all the way home? Was it betrayal, as in Kaveh's case; a broken heart? Did losing her husband to the Sumeru desert make her unable to stand this place for one more second?
Alhaitham stayed. He stayed in the house where his friend hurt him. He opened the door for Kaveh when Kaveh had nowhere to go.
There is something here about the bravery of remaining. Of reclaiming scorched earth. Growing something soft and fragile and new. Like scar tissue.
#I LOVE THESE GUYS. MAN.#Genshin Impact#Kaveh#Faranak#Alhaitham#it still kills me that Kaveh's dad's name hasn't been mentioned but we know his mom's. what does it mean.#i just think. kaveh and Alhaitham are exactly what the other needs right now. as people.#like as a couple or as platonic friends#Kaveh runs when he's scared. he doesn't ask for support. he craves it quietly. and Alhaitham is just. no fuss no frills. come back then.#like it's that simple. bc maybe it can be#I LOVE THEM. UGH#snowgames#also. if i ever make a haitham kaveh playlist. the frost by mitski and scar tissue by redhot have to go on it.#and after midnight by blink 128
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unfair that I don't have anyone to spoil and venerate
#these weeks I'm just craving love more than usual#planets must have shifted or whatever#I would be so good to them :c#okay I guess I'll just wait#no way I'm putting myself on those wretched apps#never again#ugh#the worst thing is that it's so rare for me to find someone that I can have a crush on that it just means this will take years probably#meanwhile I've got all of these ideas and no one to put them in practice with#:c
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Okay, lesson learned, DONT watch a documentary for one of your favorite games on your period because it WILL make you cry, oh my God
I need a minute.... son of a bitch man...
#Hhhhnnngghhhh ohhhhh#Oooh the yearning#The YEARNING#Idk what this feeling I get whenever I watch this is but it fills me with so much emotions I just-#Start bawling my eyes out 😭#“Look guys we managed to get the Raz model working”#*me through violent tears*#“Hell yes you guys did!! Good job!! Good fucking job...”#Ughgjhhhhsgaahagah#I want to be part of something like that....#Ffffuck mannnnn#Oooooohhhh I crave the cyclenuts#I need the goobers...#Come back...#GHK- COME BAAAAAACKKKKKKK#PLEAAAASEEEE#Oh same goes for the trailers too btw#Ugh I need something to look forward to in my life-#I want to feel hype for somethinggggg#doodles rants#psychonauts#psychonauts 2
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If you like my work (or my general shenanigans), consider buying me a Ko-Fi. :V
Full disclosure that there isn't an especially important reason for this post, I just really want to order takeout and I'm totally broke.
#¯\_(ツ)_/¯#Look your boy does not have a free $25 to spend on a single takeout item right now okay? Don't judge me xV#I am just a dog controlled by my cravings (I crave bang bang chicken) (the cold makes me fckin hungry)#(I am being responsible with my money since we're still digging ourselves outta the hole from November but ugh)
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i so desperately want to write a modern day curseless!sukuna piece—aka an AU where he’s just a very sexy, very sadistic human—but i’m worried i’ll just end up writing touya-nii 2.0 with a sukuna skin slapped on him :((
#touya-nii but triple the abuse#he’d be sooooo fun to throw in modern day situations ugh#i don’t even have a plot i just#these episodes have left me CRAVING HIMMMMMM and i wanna create something for him so bad!!!!#i know everyone wants toji and like i get it because he’s so sexy but i literally have no inspiration to write for him :(((#like not even pure smut idk it’s weird#i think he’s super attractive and he’s obv my type but#i dunno!!!!!!!!!#ugh!!!!!!!!!!#inky.jjk#clari chatters#omg it’s midnight i have to go to BED
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yum mushroom pizza
#craving mushrooms rn#also ims o bored thought i could check this acc for a second#ugh i feel bad for leaving this acc !!! but i wasnt doing well last year so i thought it was for the best until i felt better#now i feel better but i think its too late to come back ??? i mean its just a tumblr acc but :( it used to be very fun around heree
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So why is it that s lot of us just want to crazily chase people around. I need to do this a lot
#Am i crazy#what does this say about me#just in general#the people crave a game of tag#Im an adult but still#i want it#ugh
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