#i just threw out the love of my dreams demo

[talesfromawannabejournalist]

@kittenfangirl20

Adam lifted his head from the porcelain throne after puking his guts out for the third time that morning. Adam had an inkling as to what was causing this ailment but just to be sure had one of his girls go out to get a pregnancy test. If the test came back positive, then his dream of motherhood would finally become a reality. If not, then he'd go to the doctor to see what was wrong. He heard sharp reoccurring knocks on the door and Lucifer's voice came from the other side.

Lucifer: Dove? I'm really sorry but I have to run Charlie called me saying she needed my help with something. I'll be back soon I promise, I put some ginger ale on the nightstand for you and I heard Jax went to the store, so I'll text her to get you some Pepto Bismol. I love you Adam

Despite feeling his words Adam smiled at the door and called out,

Adam: I love you too BLEEAGH!!!

He threw his head back in and released what once lay in his stomach. Lucifer winced at the sound and prayed to anyone who was willing to listen to help heal the love of his life soon. For right now, if this wasn't some messed up prank, he had a first woman and demoness to get rid of.

Dragon Adam au

Extermination day was harsh it had been a defeating blow to all exorcists. For even if they managed to kill a handful of the filth in battle they had still lost over half of their sisters, and one leader of the exorcists.

Adam's death had been the main tragedy among all the casualties. Especially for Lute, and Sera and Emily when she told them. They mourned up in Heaven for their lost son, brother, and friend.

What they didn't know then was that Adam and the fallen exorcists' souls had not been completely lost.

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Adam couldn't remember feeling this bad before in his entire afterlife. His life on Earth was full of pain and suffering, but up in Heaven the only pain he had ever known was emotional. This last extermination day really put him through the ringer. He tried recalling what happened, but it was all a blur. It didn't matter however, in spite of the pain coursing through his entire being he attempted at sitting up. He needed to get back home.

However, as he got up, he for some reason felt taller. Opening his eyes, blinking away the blurry vision, he looked down at his feet, and was met with the sharp black claws on giant scaly feet.

He yelped jumping up and down and trying to get away from his own feet. He ended up shaking the ground along with him. Or what he assumed was ground. He looked around and realized very quickly that he was nowhere near the hotel. In fact, from the looks of it, he appeared to be in some kind of cave. He heard a dripping sound and dashed towards it. If it there was enough water, there would be enough of a reflective surface for him to understand what was wrong with his body. He found a small puddle of water that while didn't show his whole body it did show him his face. A monster was staring right back at him.

A world-shattering roar was heard all throughout the land and echoed in all seven rings.

(Remember that ask about Adam respawning as a dragon and his girls as harpies after he died? Well, this is it)

(Yes, I am excited about this one)

*Adam felt tears fall from his eyes, he knew he wasn’t much to look at lately, but now he was a monster, he couldn’t go back to Heaven like this, he covered his body with his wings as he trembled, but he heard something or someone approach him, he looked over and saw a bunch of bird like women approach him to comfort him, his eyes widened when he started to recognize traits from his girls that were cut down in battle, they had become monsters as well*

Adam: What happened?

*at least he still had his voice, but when one of his girls tried to speak only a bird like screech came from her beak, Adam gently caressed her face with his claw*

Adam: This happened because the Sinners fought back, they turned us into monsters. They must suffer.

*the now bird like women let out happy screeches with Adam’s roar joining them, a week later all of Pentagram City was thrown into mass chaos, Cannibal Town burned to the ground, all there were killed except for their leader Rosie, all the citizens saw was an army of harpies lead by a dragon, the harpies started tearing apart anyone who got in their way as the dragon started to set everything on fire, Lucifer looked at the ruins confused*

Lucifer: Do you know why something this would happen?

Rosie: No, they were like a family to me and now they are all dead.

*Lucifer didn’t understand why a dragon with a bunch of harpies would want to attack just Cannibal Town and just leave, he looked at the image of the dragon, it was a large black dragon with glowing gold orbs for eyes, he didn’t know why, but there was something familiar about the dragon*

@talesfromawannabejournalist

[getchhoo]

Uh hi pls 🤞🏻 pls answer

[periciles]

weez in my eyes weez in my ears weez in my blood weez in my tears I breathe weez see weez everyday even though my weez is a world’s away

[getosugurusbangs]

undone — the sweater song (kitchen tape demo) by weezer is kinda literally me

[bananasher1337]

reupload of my noco i just threw out of the love of my dreams animation. why not. original audio but there’s one with the demo ver of the song on youtube. i hate weezer

originally finished march 30th 2024

i haven’t been able to animate good since making this i think noco dehydrated me

[sacred-algae]

Falling Away With You by Muse has always been a very Geraskier song to me. And the new demo version just strengthens that association.

It screams Jaskier pining for Geralt. I like to imagine that in the world of The Witcher, he wrote it. It’s full of so much pain, fully encapsulating a love that is so strong it’s killing you and yet you can’t stop for the life of you.

But the new demo is perfect. It’s acoustic, and there are no lyrics besides humming and “ooh”ing here and there. It’s in progress. Listening to it feels like you’re walking in on a private moment you shouldn’t be listening to. It changes and shifts as Matt is recording. As a songwriter, I can practically hear him thinking “Well what about this? No, that’s not right. How about this? Oh, yes, I like this.”

So picture this with me:

Imagine Geralt and Jaskier sitting at their camp. It’s their first day back together after one of their little few month breaks. Imagine Geralt sitting on a rock, cleaning his sword from a day’s work. Imagine the campfire crackling, the crickets chirping. Imagine a 28-year-old Jaskier has his notebook and lute out. Geralt likes to hear him play as they wind down for the night, and Jaskier… well Jaskier has been hyperfixating on a song he’s been working on while he and Geralt were apart. He has the lyrics done, but the tune isn’t quite there yet.

The songwriter’s hands itch to play this new one that’s still in progress. It’s like resisting a pull, but this one isn’t one he wants to write in front of Geralt. No, he can’t. But the hyperfixation is too strong, and he moves to pluck the riff as he tries to play other things. Things he knows Geralt likes—

“Play the new one.”

Well fuck.

“It’s uh… a work in progress.”

“I like it. Keep going.”

He can’t say no to Geralt.

“There aren’t any lyrics yet,” he lies.

“That’s fine.”

So he plays the new one. And it sounds something like this: (lyrics for the og are under the cut)

I can't remember when it was good

Moments of happiness elude

Maybe I just misunderstood

All of the love we left behind

Watching our flash backs intertwine

Memories I will never find

So I’ll love whatever you become

Forget the reckless things we’ve done

I think our lives have just begun

I think our lives have just begun

And I'll feel my world crumbling down

Feel my life crumbling now

Feel my soul crumbling away

Falling away

Falling away with you

Staying awake to chase a dream

Tasting the air you're breathing in

I hope I won't forgot a thing

Promise to hold you close and pray

Watching our fantasies decay

Nothing will ever stay the same

And all of the love we threw away

And all of the hopes we've cherished fade

Making the same mistakes again

Making the same mistakes again

And I'll feel my world crumbling down

Feel my life crumbling now

Feel my soul crumbling away

And falling away

Falling away with you

All of the love we left behind

Watching our flash backs intertwine

Memories I will never find

Memories I will never find

[that-therian-cat04]

Weezer

[putschki1969]

Uta-Net Lyric Essay Part 1

In commemoration of the release of her 3rd original studio album “Sono Saki e”, Wakana has been invited to write three lyric essays for the song column of “Uta-Net”. Part 1 has already been posted. You can read the essay on the website. There’s also an audio recording provided, be sure to check it out!

Hello everyone. Nice to meet you, I'm Wakana. This is the first time I am allowed to write a lyric essay like this. I would be happy if you could learn a little more about myself and the music I make. First of all, let me tell you about the trajectory of my music career. For 10 years until 2018, I was active in a group called Kalafina, and after that, I started my solo activities. Since then it's already been 4 years. At the time of my solo debut, there were so many things I had never experienced, everything felt new and quite exciting but there were also many days when I felt incredibly uneasy and overwhelmed because I had reached a point where I was very unfamiliar with the territory. All my past experiences, everything I had seen and done up until that point, it should have made me stronger and able to deal with those new challenges but for some reason, I was unable to fall back on any of those skills so I couldn't make the most of them. Adding to these worries, life threw yet another curve ball when the 2020 pandemic happened. All of that really made me reflect carefully on myself and my capabilities.

Yes, I thought a lot about singing and asked myself all sorts of questions. Why am I so obsessed with the act of singing? Why does it feel like I have hit rock-bottom even though I love singing so much? What type of music can I be satisfied with? What kind of singing voice can I be happy with? Personally speaking, when I listen to someone's music, I am very intrigued by their "voice". How did they develop this singing voice? How is it even possible to express such things with a singing voice? How can such techniques be implemented? Surely, there must have been a lot of trial and error before finding that particular “voice”. The more I think about these things, the more I am fascinated by the voice of an artist. And it makes me want to learn more about my own voice. When the state of emergency was declared, I just kept singing at home, practicing the tracks from my 2nd album "magic moment" which had just been released at that time, and all my thoughts going to the concerts which ultimately never happened. It’s always up to yourself to decide where your limits are. There is no point to life when you just end up being focused on the things you can't do. I want to be someone who always strives to become a better version of myself.

It's been 3 years since I’ve dealt with such thoughts. All of this has led to the completion of my 3rd album "Sono Saki e". "Butterfly Dream", the first track of this album, is a song I would not have been able to sing three years ago. The melody is hopeful and light but at times, it conceals a lonely disquiet. Back then I would have been uncomfortable singing about a mixture of hope and frustration when it so obviously reflected the upheaval in my own heart. People shine brightest when they can turn their fears and anxieties into aspirations. So when I first received the demo tape for this song, I turned the feelings encompassed in the melody into a yearning. And then I wrote the lyrics to reflect said feelings. It’s a cute and fantastical story which actually hides a small fear. I wanted this message to be used for the beginning of the album.

What do you want most right now? I would like to continue pursuing music while staying true to my aspirations and repeatedly asking myself what I want in regard to singing. I will never forget about my past self who was overwhelmed and crying, I believe it is important to carry those memories with me. 

All right, I will end the first part of my lyric essay here. Until next time.

[weezer-blog]

Fun fact! The bassist of That Dog would later play on some Pinkerton demos! (Namely I just threw out the Love of my dreams"

[morganwrites12672]

Steve Harrington x Reader

'Its back'

Tags/TW: Reader has anorexia, anorexic reader, fluff, angst, happy ending, Steve Harrington x reader, ED, anorexia, bad thoughts, vecna (mention very brief)

My DM's are open for Anyone who is currently going through something.

I'm sorry, but this is purely self indulgence

I would love to help you guys by writing little fica or blurbs! Send in a fear food and character! Or any little sitaution!

Its back.

Anorexia, a horrid monster Steve had helped you beat two years ago. You didnt know how you let it happen.

Was it sticking to lighter meals for a while? And then slipping back into that habit. Maybe it was the skipping a meal sometimes because you felt slightly heavy.

You sigh. How did you let it get this bad. You still ate a little, but at this point water terrified you. Water weight had become your new biggest nightmare, along with hiding the monster that had taken residence inside you.

You stare at the glass of water across from you. So innocent, yet menacing. To you, the glass wasn't half empty; it was half full. Somehow that made it seem like more.

You hadn't even filled it up all the way and couldn't bring yourself to drink any of it. You got enough hydration from salad.

You let out a sarcastic laugh as a tear of frustration slips down your cheek. Crying did burn calories, and it would help you get rid of some of the pesky water weight.

You fold your arms on the table before resting your head on top. You could do this. You were going to ruin your body. There was no doubt in your mind.

But it didn't matter. As long as you looked good. You get up and wipe your tears. You grab the glass of water before walking over to the sink and dumping it out. You set the glass on the drying rack before walking out of the kitchen.

It has only been two days, and you had just eaten some celery. It was a good food. You assumed there was hydration, and chewing it burned more calories than eating it earned.

A win win. You ate and burned some calories.

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"It's back," was all you said into the phone before hanging up. You had had to call Steve. After two weeks of barely eating or drinking, you felt like shit.

You had a headache And trouble sleeping. Every dream was plagued with thoughts of gaining weight. Or the jeans not fitting, and crop tops were a whole other nightmare.

Steve got to your house in record time. He assumed the worst. A demo-dog, or something. He didn't expect to find you crying on the kitchen floor.

"Yn, what's wrong baby?" Steve coos as he sets his nail bat down and runs over to you. You look over at him with a tear stained face.

"It's back," you say, your voice almost a whisper. Steve couldn't figure out what was going on until he noticed how you looked thinner. And then he saw the issue.

A few pretzels and a glass of water.

Steve threw his arms around you, completely engulfing you in a hug. just what you needed.

All of the thoughts were swimming in your head.

Fat. Ugly. Steve's going to leave you. You won't fit the jeans. How are you going to wear a crop top? You could lose a few pounds. Water weight is your worst enemy. Beauty is pain. Do you think CoverGirl's eat?

All of these horrible thoughts, and so many more, swam about in your head. Steve could do better. He deserved better.

"No, stay with me," Steve says as he gently runs his thumb over your cheek. He saw the look in your eyes. You were getting lost in your head. He knew the way your thoughts could transform in seconds. From being happy and feeling good about yourself, to not eating and crying about how you look in the jeans.

"I'm sorry," you whisper as Steve carries you to your bedroom. He hated how he couldn't do anything. He couldn't fight off this monster plaguing you. There was nothing he could do. And it killed him.

"No, I'm sorry," Steve said and laid you down before laying next to you. He tightly gripped your hand as you spoke.

You told him about everything. Not eating. The headaches. No longer being able to sleep. Not drinking. The real reason you canceled your date with him. Why you looked thinner. The frequent walks or crying. Anything to burn a few extra calories.

"God, I fucking hate this. I have to watch you suffer and i- I can't do anything," Steve says slightly raising his voice. You stayed silent as he cursed.

"I can protect you from vecna, but this- I can't do anything. I can't protect you," Steve says dejected. How could he fight your demons if he couldn't see them?

"Can you stay with me?" You ask and Steve smiles before cuddling into your side. He wanted to do more. He wanted to face anorexia head on.

"You do more then your realize. Who helped me beat it the first time?" You ask and Steve kisses your cheek.

"I love you so much," Steve says and hugs you even tighter. He did. He couldn't stand seeing you in this much pain. He was forced to be perfectly fine while you suffered over the thought of drinking.

Steve slept peacefully while you stayed awake crying over the thought of having to go out to eat the next day. Steve didn't think it was fair.

"I love you to," you whisper in reply before slowly falling into the best slumber you have had in weeks.

It's back, but Steve is going to help you beat it. Once and for all.

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[gersploosh]

I can't stop listening to the rivers cuomo vocal demo of I just threw out the love of my dreams, I wish he sang the final version

[ladycharles]

I really love releasing an album because it feels so concrete and the future starts to feel so full of artistic possibilities. I was thinking maybe I would post track by track about the songs and get a bit personal.

This song is really meaningful to me because it feels like the moment I really became Lady Charles even though I had a whole first EP. I had the title in my head and became so obsessed with the idea of it being a personal theme song that I basically spent two weeks straight trying to actually come up with a 'worthy' song for it. I even wrote and demoed an entirely different and way worse Manic Pixie Dream Boy first and threw it in the trash.

I struggled with mental health issues that weren't validated when I was young and only really lately have I learned that the things I struggled with were disabilities and not just me being particularly bad at life. I think that plus having a very fluid identity pushed me to internalise the mystery I felt. Not sure if that makes sense but the song is partly romanticising mental illness in order to avoid succumbing to it, and while that sounds dark I actually think of it as very positive and defiant. Like yes, I am different, who wouldn't want to be different when society's idea of 'normal' is so goddamn toxic and inhibited, you know?

That's where it ties in with Manic Pixie Dream Girls - I really think there's a degree of patriarchal disrespect at the core of that archetype because of the fetishistic way the characters are denied the humanity of having an actual psychological reason for their behaviour. They're just 'quirky' nevermind that those quirks line up with adhd or bpd or what have you - those aren't important to the male writers. Yet I really ended up relating to them because I too was kind of encouraged to see myself as quirky and different without separating out the things that were actually pathological.

So while it's not really on me to reclaim it I do really think of it as a bit of turning that archetype around.

The song was released as a single in 2019 but I rerecorded the vocals and added live drums (courtesy of Francy Karema) along with it being remixed by Erin Tonkon and mastered by Sarah Register. I also brought back a low Orville Peck impression under the line about him that legitimately

[vanweezer]

pinkerton deluxe for the album thing <3

hiii tysm for the ask! for the sake of this post not being fuckoff long im scooping out all the live performances and remixes except for pink triangle acoustic because <3 i owe it to her

tragic girl

getchoo

you gave your love to me softly

i just threw out the love of my dreams

butterfly

the good life

falling for you

pink triangle

pink triangle live & acoustic

no other one

you won't get with me tonight

devotion

waiting on you

el scorcho

across the sea

i swear it's true

why bother

tired of sex

getting up and leaving

long time sunshine

as one of my favorite albums of all time ever ranking them based on favorite-least favorite FEELS like a crime so simply pretend that the first 10 songs are the ones i love all equally and could never get tired of playing and all the ones after that are songs i dont listen to as much/could skip in a playlist if given the chance. also the ywgwmt demo with brian >> above all else

send me an album and i'll organize the tracklist from favorite-least favorite

[thesmithslover2]

the demo of i just threw out the love of my dreams is so much better (in my little opinion). i love the poor quality and it’s GAY. homosexual pinkerton. pinkerton if it was good, if you will

[edenaffinity]

Keith’s Playlist (as told by me)

I see a lot of character playlists for VLD characters on Spotify, but they all seem to be the same kind songs and type of music, so I took it upon myself to compile a list of songs that I think Keith would actually listen to.

Firstly, I wanna say that I never really bought into the “emo Keith” hc. He always hit me as more of an alternative, indie rock kind of guy. But I do believe he listens to plenty of MCR and FOB nonetheless.

Secondly, I don’t believe that Keith listens to a lot of music on his own. I think he grew up listening to music with his dad and maybe even Shiro, and that HEAVILY influences what he regularly listens too on his own.

And everything else is songs that Lance, Hunk, and Pidge recommend to him.

Disclaimer: I know next to nothing about music, this is based off purely vibes and that edible I took an hour ago

So with that said:

1. Iris by The Goo Goo Dolls

I get that Iris is kind of basic but you can't tell me that this isn't Keith's song.

2. Over My Head by The Fray

For some reason, I feel like Shiro would be listened to a lot of The Fray in the 2000s.

3. When I Come Around by Green Day

Pidge and Keith bond of their love of Green Day, I know this to be fact.

4. Better Than Me by The Brobecks

Lance somehow stumbled across this song and sent it to Keith.

5. Give It Away by Red Hot Chili Peppers

Totally something he once heard his dad play and Keith just never forgot it.

6. Grand Theft Autumn / Where Is Your Boy by Fall Out Boy

Okay, so I am a firm believer that Pidge is a diehard Fall Out Boy fan and they're slowly converting Keith.

7. I Just Threw Out The Love Of My Dreams by Weezer

Sorry to put Weezer here, I just feel like this is another rec from Lance. Why is Lance listening to Weezer? Idk, he just is.

8. Tell Me Its Okay by Paramore

Yet another Lance rec but I feel like Keith is really into the song and then discovers the rest of Paramore's discography because of it.

9. Everlong by Foo Fighters

Another kind of basic one, but for sure something he reminds from his childhood.

10. Smile Like You Mean It by The Killers

Pidge, once again, big The Killers fan and is slowly converting Keith. But he let's this song best.

And honorable mentions go to:

Come As You Are by Nirvana

The Kids From Yesterday by My Chemical Romance

My Hero by Foo Fighters

Hunting For Sport by Remo Drive

I Hate Myself for Loving You by Joan Jett

Keith and Lance as Taylor Swift Songs 👸🏼

Klance as Taylor Swift Songs 👸🏼

Lance's playlist 💙