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dunno why I find it so hard to let myself be loud in bed but I always try to suppress and sound I make. I think I just need someone to fuck me til I'm so past that embarrassment that I'm begging and screaming for more
#i just need to get brutally fucked#i want it to hurt#like i csn feel myself trying to supress any noise i might make#someone needs tp come fuck those inhibitions out of me#op#nsft#ftm nsft
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Hey, if you have speech impediments, you are so amazing.
If you stutter or have a lisp or misspeak easily or you have a flat affect or a limited verbal vocabulary or if your voice is AAC or if you just have a difference in your vocality, you are so incredibly important and amazing.
Just know that your voice is yours. Nobody will ever be able to truly take it away. Your voice is part of you, and you deserve to make it as true to you as you deem fit. I hope you have the space to grow with your voice and whatever about it makes it unique.
#positivity#disability positivity#partially because so much of voical differences arise from disability#i've developed a really annoying lisp-ish issue#and it's hard to be positive about it because it makes me feel like i'll be treated as lesser because it's a 'childish' affect#but i literally can't help it unless i spend 110% of my focus on it. and i don't have that amount of energy#but it makes me think about others and especially those who have it more intensely than i do#and i just want to uplift everybody because vocal differences are neutral at worst#man my dad always tells a story about this coworker he had who had a stutter like you wouldn't believe...#...and he was fucking BRUTALIZED for it... 'c-c-c-c-CAN YOU GET TO THE POINT?!' is how people would talk to him...#...and obviously that made his stutter twice as fucking worse and i can't imagine the shame and humiliation that followed...#...i hope he learned that those assholes were a fucking waste of time and that he doesn't have to deal with that...#...like i'm sorry but there is no fucking need to be that sadistic toward somebody who is obviously already anxious and worried
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martyrdom is a reward [but oh god why does it have to be like this]
commorraghdansen 2 everybody!!!!!
#pasqal rogue trader#pasqal haneumann#warhammer rogue trader#rogue trader#for everyone wondering: yes i was listening to caramelldansen while drawing this#i need to draw him fucked up and suffering more its very theraputic#i found a new filtering thing on csp and i am enjoying it. it gets the grainy effect and my chromatic abhorration tm#anyway. walks into the next room and you just hear clang clang clang clang [robotthing on robotthing brutal violence]
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OUT FOR LOVE ↳ from Hazbin Hotel Season One (2024): 1x07 - "Hello Rosie!"
#hazbin hotel#carmilla carmine#vaggie#hazbin vaggie#hazbin carmilla#song: out for love#music vids: s1#my videos#HER STOMPING TO THE BEAT OF THE SONG DURING ''I KNOW YOU'RE THIRSTING FOR VENGEANCE VAGGIE YOU'RE OUT FOR BLOOD'' AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!#we ARE getting more of her next season right right? like a LOT more?#she's just so fucking COOL#her whole characterization here is just MWAH MWAH chef's kiss!!! her no-nonsense/tough love approach. the way she instantly becomes Mentor#when she's like ''you're out of time.'' THEN INSTANTLY TO ''angels attack quickly viciously and without mercy''#''you're gonna have to do better than that'' AND IT'S TRUE!!! THE ONLY WAY THAT WAS GONNA GET THRU VAGGIE'S SKULL IS IF#SHE ATTACKED HER BRUTALLY LIKE THAT AAAAAAAAAAAAA i love when characters get straight to the point#i'm. i'm so sick of ensemble characters in tv shows all being idiots bc it was written by idiots lmao.#it's always refreshing and welcome to see stuff like this#i need to stop talking abt carmilla rn before i let my mommy issues show.#though. rosie is up next so that's not gonna help my cause.
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what's crazy as fuck to me is that the bad kids literally went through kipperlily's therapy notes and everyone's falling over backwards to justify that but god fucking forbid someone who lost her best and only friend in the world has anger issues. you bitches would not have survived the vriska trenches.
#fhjy#fhjy spoilers#she is SIXTEEN. SHE IS SIXTEEN YEARS OLD!!#imagine being in a group of people where only one person has your back. and then that one person is brutally murdered.#personally i would go fucking apeshit! but okay ik most fandoms are misogynist as fuck so it's time to hate traumatized teenage girls#i still can't get over using her THERAPY NOTES the shit she said in PRIVATE against her. i hope she kills all the PCs and i'm not joking!#anyway to be clear i do still need to watch fhjy (can't afford dropout yet rip)#but like. lol. the cycle continues forever i guess#god fucking forbid teen girls don't have the most mentally mature responses to seeing their best friend die in front of them#doomed tragic yuri 4ever and i'm glad buddy dawn died. i hope somebody resurrects him just so kipperlily can murder him again#my post#mine
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See, I was thinking he could just tap into your bloodstream. If he's hanging out in Rain's pocket we already know where he's getting the cells to convert from, and, well, why overcomplicate the system that's already there?
I may have just answered my own question by realizing that Rain would probably be turbo-weirded out by the more straightforward proposal.
#body horror cw#ignore Morg#... I'm assuming we're making the same assumption as to where he's getting cells to convert to DG cells without draining his host#Maybe I'm a little too into the consensual possession thing. It's a very self-indulgent thought.#But. I think the ideal partner for Schwarz if he keeps getting himself disintegrated#(as far as not making regenerating a fucking Char-fest goes)#would be a trans man that just lets Schwarz borrow his body for whatever amount of time.#Look G fans if you want to keep insisting that Schwarz is a char clone bring him back using my method; that would bring him over the line#... I'm not personally into the whole mommy kink thing that this setup could easily lean into#but the idea of bizarre symbiosis? where the host is willing but their partner is unhappy with using/needing them? That's the good shit.#Also look I'm a brutal utilitarian when it comes to the wretched organ and would love to find some unintended uses for the thing okay?#I'm keeping this out of the main tags but I'll be reblogging this with the above tags and my category tags for findability
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been drawing a sorta reference thingy for Salesman Barry in the timeloop au i've been rotating around in my brain for a while recently :] it isn't as much a character design reference as it is more of a reference for how Barry's mental state begins to deteriorate as he starts having intense deja vu and nightmares every time his timeline gets reset upon death and he tries to piece together what is going on out of pure desperation and instincts (he is being experimented on and doesn't know it yet). i want to throw him at a wall (affectionate)
it is still a WIP as i haven't drawn all the details yet and i want to change the colours as they look too dull on my pc,,, also here is the original sketch :D
#barry steakfries#jetpack joyride#salesman!barry steakfries#i have been thinking of more ideas for the timeloop au..... still haven't come up with a proper name for it yet though loolll#i like putting barry in horrible traumatising situations it's fun seeing his character traits get pushed to their limits#first i'm putting him through a brutal survivalist zombie landscape that makes barry question if he'll even make it out alive this time#and then i'm shoving him into a horrible reality where his life and timeline are fake and his whole reality literally starts to shatter#its ok he gets better!!!#not so much craig though :( craig gets it rough#he basically goes through a horrific accident involving experimental technology that damns him to an existence that is permanently-#-attached to the timeline itself where he will die if the timeline gets wiped or he tries to enter another one#craig's existence is basically a living purgatory where he can never age or die but he is no longer alive as his former self anymore#he's like a half-ghost and he ends up doomed no matter what action barry would take at the end of the story#if barry erases the timeline craig dies. if craig tries to come with barry to the new timeline he dies.#if barry does nothing and keeps living in this broken timeline loop he's in then craig will never escape and have the chance to help barry#oh yeah i forgot to mention craig is trapped in a basement. and also that this post is about barry. woops#barry has to basically become a detective in this story and string together what the fuck is happening based on pure instincts alone#he's like a conspiracy theorist with his board covered in photos connected by red strings#it's really cool i think..... i should make a whole separate post about this#i love drawing my little man :)#he's so traumatised he needs a big hug and a best friend and tons of therapy and plenty of ice cream#i'm just thinkin of the effects of barry's trauma after he goes through the events of timeloop and enters the new dimension#dude's probably gonna have tones of nightmares and trust issues and dissociative episodes#he's probably going to develop a compulsion where he continuously checks the date and time because he's terrified of it resetting again#he needs a hug seriously#alternate universe#my au
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For a religious man, Fyodor really likes the idea of being responsible for your downfall. There's nothing he loves more than taking his sweet, innocent lover and moulding them into his ideal lover, his personal porn. He doesn't actually care if you're not "pure" or "innocent", to him you can always get worse. The more kinks you have the more he can exploit, the less you have the more he can implant into your pretty head until you don't even remember they weren't your idea.
#fyodor.bsd#fyodor smut#fyodor x y/n#fyodor x reader#man he makes me ILL#i love love loooove Fyo gaslighting/manipulating and training his lover it's just so anfsjcjej#he sucks! he's an evil perverted bitch#and i want him#he's pretty low energy overall + I don't think the anaemia is conductive to lots of stamina#so i tend to favour other things over just a brutal fuck like i like for Chuuya or Nikolai#Fyodor has other ways to get to his partner and make them squirm he doesn't even need to say anything#anyway yeah Fyodor corrupting his lover 10/10 delicious
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[ID in alt text] my magnum opus
#the owl house#toh#hunter toh#lilith clawthorne#i have hcs about their dynamic but they're mostly comedic tbh#like yeah it's fucked up that Lilith had beef with a child but it's also pathetic and i think that takes the edge off it tbh#hunter kinda knows this. he doesn't like her and i appreciate it when ppl read it as ''hes walking on eggshells around her''#based on that one dana art#i think it's a fair read#but i personally like to read it as equal parts nervousness and annoyance at having to be placed with Mean Un-Fun Lilith#hunter thinks she's a loser and has no idea why she hates him so much. he's just trying to do his job man#(my personal elaborate hc as to how this dynamic formed is that hunter as a child used to think Lilith was cool! he wanted to be like her!)#(unfortunately his braggadocios persona as the golden guard gave Lilith the impression that he was Out For Her Job and also Life)#(and bc she's Lilith these threats from a child are taken seriously. she will play nice when Belos is around but she DOES NOT TRUST HIM)#(and she's just not going to interrogate her own insecurities regarding yet another bubbly teen prodigy coming in and stealing her thunder)#(she is definitely not getting reminded of her own insecurities related to eda being better than her growing up. no sir)#(she totally doesn't see the emperor as her mom whaaat that's crazy)#(ANYWAY post canon i think they could be good friends. bitchy friends but good friends)#(someone the other comes to when they need a brutally honest opinion! steve hangs out with them too. ex emperor's coven buddies!)
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just watched the moment bbh read forever's letter to him from the brazil trip. the disgusted EAH sound he made is going to echo in my mind forever and always that was SUCH a SOUND. here he was all excited and soft because he got a letter from forever and then forever mentions the fucking kidnapping and bbh turns into a scorned french woman from ratatouille who has just one sound to express her ~snobbish~ disgust at a ktichen full of rats. but it wasn't a kitchen of rats he was mad at it was forever giving him a shit sandwich shit-side up
#the way he THREWW the book back into the mailbox#made the sound as he turned away#like the little richas head flick was given Audio#man was so so sad about forever not leaving him a message#not even a flower#and then so sweetly hopeful at the new book#and then#the sims --friendship image#fucking hysterical i'm obsessed with him and their entire deal#shit sandwich is when you give good news then bad news then good news again btw#to make the bad news easier to take#it works the same with bad ideas or unpleasant concepts#like 'hey don't hurt that one guy you kidnapped'#qsmp#qsmp badboyhalo#i love forever i need to get better at portuguese i want to write a fic for him So Badly#hes just a lil guy#who likes another lil guy#and both of them like to project their protective parental feelings onto a third lil guy#who was kidnapped and briefly brutally tortured before being beloved by one of them#tho tbh im still on the ron lemons luncheon train i just think that's so awesome
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why are you harassing people, little bro? The main proship rule is not to harass other people. You're not a proship, you're a damn fucking anti
Want to feel alive?Enjoy flirting with danger?Love the taste of thrill and risk?Willing to walk on the wild side?Argue with an unhinged BTS fan about how other groups are successful completely independently of BTS today!#myfandomrealitea#sephiroth speaks#fandom#proship#reality#proshipping#discourse#new hobby unlocked#i've held venomous animals and been in less danger
#myfandomrealitea#sephiroth speaks#fandom#proship#proshipping#saw me say i'll defend other groups' success against feral bts fans and got offended#“little bro” my dick is bigger than yours for sure#*to clarify I have nothing against BTS I just find the unhinged side of their fandom ridiculous#from what i know the kpop industry is fucking BRUTAL and groups are successful because they're GOOD#some people just need to get over the fact that BTS isn't the “only” successful kpop group anymore
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I don't know... horrible things happen all around the world and it's not a competition
Atrocities are committed against multiple groups in multiple parts of the world at the exact same moment, and none of them erase each other. They all matter, all the people in this world who are being brutalized matter. There shouldn't be any line you draw where one group doesn't actually matter as much as another
You're welcome to prioritize your energy towards helping one group or another, but what's not ok is invalidating or dismissing people who are actively being harmed
Same goes for trying to figure out which social group has things worst (and lets be honest, always using a US lens)
Like... maybe the important thing is to prop each other up and help everyone get on their own feet rather than trying to... pick fights about if physical disabilities or mental illness are less respected (I'm trying to pick a more absurd example but sadly I've seen exactly that argument happen before). Maybe it doesn't really matter and what matters is helping who we can when we can
I'm tired of it, I'm just fucking tired of it. Support people, champion them when the world is just brutalizing them, but you don't need to throw a single other person under the bus to do that
Which seems to be an absolutely impossible lesson for people to learn
#I won't say anything else on this; but I will say that to me one of the groups that it feels like is most forgotten is Syrians#including by me if I'm honest#I don't know what's currently happening in Syria... but... my understanding is it still hasn't really gotten better#assad is still brutalizing people last I had heard#so rather than saying anything else I'd prefer to simply focus on some people it feels like were forgotten back during Obama#and... and have remained forgotten#and I'm sorry I can't do more to help with the suffering in the world#but... you notice what I'm not having to do here?#I'm not having to throw a single other person under the bus#I'm able to just focus on how much I wish for Syrians to be ok (which is a hollow gesture on my part in many ways I think)#and I can keep all the focus on Syrians rather than throwing anyone else under the bus or doing any whataboutism#and that's literally all I'm asking of you fucking people#don't downplay human misery to try and make your thing seem more important#they're both fucking important... they're all important#there's so much suffering I can't even keep up with it#there's so much of it that I can only name without knowing the details; Congo; I believe Sudan is still suffering; Haiti#I don't know how things are in Ethiopia right now... I can't keep track#and none of these situations and the horrible things they're dealing with; things I haven't even been able to follow#none of it detracts from and of the issues I am following more closely#I don't need to compare them and say 'well it's not as bad'; because... bad is bad and any is too much#and nothing I say here will do a damn thing; no one'll hear and even if they did they'd ignore it or get pissed#that's what my evidence shows me about how people behave#but suffering isn't a competition; the correct amount is zero#and... perhaps I'd have more tolerance if I hadn't watched how you behave with stuff#...the worst part is the person I adore who... man... I wish I could just get them to really think through their words#they mean well; they're coming from a place of love; but I just haven't been able to paint the picture for them of the harm#and I'm flawed; I don't have all the answers; I could be wrong here#but... can you at least see why I feel that maybe we shouldn't pit misery against each other#that the people suffering have more in common with each other than opposed and... maybe westerners aren't fucking helping#eh... too fucking drained thinking about this; end of tags
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Tom wanted election night to be perfect because he knew it would be the last time he’d have any power.
He wanted Greg ‘Gregging’ for him because he knew it would be the last time they could be together before he was useless to him.
He pushed Shiv away because he knew, even if she was telling the truth, their relationship and child are doomed.
He couldn’t go to the funeral because he’d have to face that all he’s ever wanted was power, and Shiv bearing his child, and for Greg to be independent, and how he’s getting exactly what he asked for in the most devastating way possible.
‘Normie’ Succession fans have said from the beginning that “Tom is fucked,” and they were right.
#that post about tom ‘dying’ this ep but not actually dying— you get it#and with tom gone shiv and greg can’t ever escape their cycles#‘With this character's death the thread of prophecy is severed.’#Restore a saved game to restore the weave of fate or persist in the doomed world you have created’#i really thought the cycle would be tomshiv and tomgreg staying ‘together’ in a fcked up way#but it’s actually all of them breaking apart and leaving each other alone and more broken in a prison of all their making#gay art date is just gonna be tom committed sepuku in front of greg and everyone else thinking it’s a performance art piece#(i still need to watch the ep i’m just behind lol)#also roman suffering is so fucking brutal GODDAMN i want to hate these people (& i do)#good for jess getting out tho <3#i know nb (fck him lol) said ‘believe in greg’ but i think it’s more his ability to survive than any irrational loyalty to tom#succ#succession#tomshiv#tomgreg#tom wambsgams#shiv roy#greg hirsch#succession season four
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i DESPERATELY need ezreal in arcane s2 like. please. imagine the vision with me for a moment. jayce is walking around absolutely DISTRAUGHT because mel has been hospitalized (or dead) for weeks due to jinx’s attack and they just can’t find her anywhere. hes wandering piltover trying to think about something to do and then he hears a fucking like. mid-puberty teenager voice going “hey. hey can you pass me that wrench” and jayce goes “what the fuck” and he turns around and there’s this 5’3” kid absolutely covered in soot and working away at a hextech machine and jayce says “shouldn’t you be in school right now” and ez says “no” and jayce goes “ok.” ez is talking about how hes going to impress a girl with his machine or some shit (jayce: oh this kids a major douchebag) > they eventually start talking about their problems > ez brings up his missing parents (jayce: oh this kids fucked up in the head) > jayce saying that hes frustrated about not being able to find jinx > ez saying some shit like “well have you tried to find out where shes based?” > jayce going “what” > ezreal pushing up his metaphorical glasses and going Well yeah see [pulls out a gigantic map of all of piltover and zaun] if u plot out all of the places she’s been within a certain time frame and make circles connecting them to each other [generates a protractor from seemingly nowhere and does this] using logic she will be situated in the center of these circles and u Should be able to find where she lives that way. and see this heres a factory so she probably doesnt stay there and this here is a gambling place so she probably couldnt even go inside But this heres an abandoned warehouse so i would say that thats ur best bet if u wanna check that place out for clues. and jayce looks at him like What the shit and ezreal goes Well im a pretty smart kid…hyuk hyuk! and then jayce slaps him or something and then ez joins the gang for like two episodes
#bonus points if he 1. tries to flirt with caitlyn and/or vi (significantly older than him) and gets brutally shot down and cries#and 2. he meets ekko who fucking HATES him and they have a Weird Gay Thing going on. i need ezko real so bad u dont get it#anyways. him and renata who steps up to be silcos replacement….i think renata would make sense lorewise but i literally just want ez there#bc i think it would be funny .#and arcane does a good job of balancing silliness and seriousness so i do not think his being there would be a big problem#anyways. i just lovehate ezreal and i think if he was there it would be the funniest shit ever#ezreal#jayce#league of legends#arcane#myne
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i so sad
#thoughts#i think im having like a panic attack or something#like#something attack#i dont want to talk to anyone anymore i keep messing things up#i called a mentally ill person disgusting because i didnt see their other anon confessions in the server about their mental illnesd#they menyioned how they shower once a month#and i saw that i didnt see the other messages#i asked them how they didnt get uncomfortable “being that disgusting”#i meant it like. The feeling of#Not having taken a shower in a month. I didnt want to imply they were inherently disgudsting for their mental illness and everyone was like#wow rayman what the fuck is wrong with you why would you say that about someone. and they vented about me in the vent channel#it was a horrible thing for me to say and like yesterday i also fucked up i said mean shit to someone. I dont know whats wrong with me why i#cant stop doing bad things. i need to kill myself or something i need to lock myself away so other people dont get hurt by me#i was clawing at my head crying hitting myself with my knuckles because i just fucking loathed myself i pretend im so happy and like yeah im#happy but like really i fucking hate myself so so much more than anything in the world the only reason im not dead is because i love this#world enough to stay on it. i hate myself so much. i get so so sad when i look in the mirror because im not who i am im no one im always#trying to be a person or something when im nothing im so worthless coping off the “smart” compliments i got in 2nd grade when in reality im#just some stupid fucking rancid asshole with rage anxiety lonlieness stewing in my soul for 5 years i cant be normal around anyone im not#supposed to be friends with anyone i shouldnt have a partner he needs to kill me i need him to beat me over the head with a shovel and keep#beating me and stabbbing me with it until im alll brutally mauled unrecognizable and he should call me worthless the whole time and i#deserve it
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Super heavy vent ahead in the tags
#bird chirps#vent#Talking about political stuff and suicidal ideation#But genuinely I cant anymore with this election. Im fucking terrified#Granted my dad’s a major pessimist and I think he lowkey enjoys others suffering#So his passionate rants about how we have no future and life isnt worth it if Trump wins definitely isnt helping#But holy shit Im actually terrified#Im trying to not crawl into the pit of despair but I really don’t know how life can go on worst case scenario#I cant delay my life four more years minimum for another recession/depression#I cant stay in this house and watch my rights get taken away#Theres just so much shit to be afraid of#And granted I live in a swing state. I think its still a swing state anyway since we tend to vote republican#So the campaigning here gets brutal#But it’s hard to stay positive when it seems like EVERYONE irl is so fucking pro trump#Im just praying theres a silent majority and that isnt the case#But God I cant fucking do this man#Situations where you have little to no control over the outcome are a fucking nightmare#I can vote so at least that’s something. But thats not enough to ease the anxiety#I need the outcome to be GUARENTEED and thats just not gonna happen#So I just sit here as shit gets worse and it’s harder to keep calm#And I dont have a good track record of having Safe Mental Health while in election times#So this just. Really fucking sucks#I hate when I get like this because it feels like such a major step back#And with an event THIS big its hard to push it all away as irrational and a mental health issue#Because my brain goes ‘Well LOGICALLY you WONT be able to go on so this is a correct way to think’#I hate it so fucking much#If Trump wins Ill pick up smoking or something. Fuck it#Deciding on an action like THAT is still less destructive than full on suicide plan#But I just. I cant fucking do this#Can I teleport to 2028 and just pray everythings okay
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