#i just need someone to listen ig

[alaskan-wallflower]

holy shit i’m going through an absolute whirlwind of emotions

[forgottenporkbun]

do i spend the entire day crocheting mushrooms to make a little garland or do i spend it drawing my obsession (by obsession i mean mh)? This is the problem with having multiple hobbies.

[skrunksthatwunk]

hm. i'm not sure how i want to present this but i have an upsetting headcanon/interpretation proposal about yusuke that i wanna make

cw: csa discussion, nothing graphic

i don't think i've ever seen anyone mention this kind of hc for yusuke, but i think there's a lot of elements to his character and backstory that suggest he might have been a victim of csa. i've been thinking about it for a while, and here's what i've got:

neglected kid (only friend was keiko, no father, mother is frequently drunk or hungover, when not absent; almost certainly lonely, and in need of emotional and physical care (i.e. feeding himself) from an adult. shitty school, shitty teachers, possibly already issues with attendance, discipline, etc (skipping, poor/weak relationships with teachers); vulnerable, no reliable adults to notice abuse or report abuse to. in short, he's the perfect victim for grooming)

deep, deep mistrust of power, authority, adults; manifests as quiet resentment, because he doesn't believe anything can truly be done about it (which may seem a bit odd at first from a character as reckless and feisty as yusuke. but in terms of systemic change and justice, he's given up on changing things. he views himself as helpless. also an insistence that adults won't listen even if you tell them what's wrong, that explaining yourself or the situation is useless. which suggests past experience with being shut down, ignored, etc with something so important and/OR so frequently that it's stuck with him)

poor sexual boundaries (you could argue this extends to conversational matters, but i'm mostly talking about his habit of harassing (if not assaulting) keiko, as well as his treatment of miyuki. i usually see this symptom mentioned regarding young children, but i can't imagine it just.. goes away as they get older)

emotionally closed off, as a result of being hurt or dismissed by those he depended on to help him. has a hard time being vulnerable with people

seems to expect authority figures to want to hurt him (even does this with koenma/king yama in ep 2). doesn't even flinch when mr iwamoto punches him in ep 6(?), as though that sort of physical violence is normal at school and/or with adults regarding him (because no one thinks to protect yusuke)

only way of defending himself, of asserting himself, etc, is physical (again, talking doesn't work in yusuke's mind, or within the narrative, in most cases). power is expressed through physical violence within yyh, and it starts before we even meet yusuke. how did he get so good at fighting? at violence? he needed to protect himself (not necessarily from his abuser, but perhaps future malicious actors, real or imagined). those with power use it to hurt others, and yusuke knows this, and since no one was there to protect him, he had to learn to do it himself. i think csa could fit into this presentation of the world, and of yusuke, extremely easily

emotionally volatile, lashes out

disregard for his life, well-being; passively suicidal

none of these factors are That strong on their own, but it's a pattern i can't quite shake. i think it's worth considering, anyway, though i don't know that i have any real ideas regarding further explorations of it. it's one possible explanation for some of his behavior, and it fits into our glimpses of yusuke's world pretty neatly. i think a lot of people might dismiss this initially because 1) he perpetuates sexual violence (and what victim would do that?) 2) he's a guy 3) he's not a meek or helpless character. he doesn't fit into a typical depiction of csa victim, as flawless or delicate. but there are survivors like yusuke out there. it's not so cut and dry. idk

like.. did he seek out attention out of desperation, or did it find him? did he finally find someone who was good to him and watch as, slowly, that relationship twisted into something wrong? or did he accept it, thinking himself more mature than he was, and needing some kind of attention, even if it was unhealthy? and did he try to tell someone? was the response delayed, or nonexistent? or did he not even try, because he was afraid (of his abuser, of being rejected on something so important, of getting in trouble), or simply thought it could not matter to anyone enough to change a thing? would he tell keiko? would he tell anyone?

i look at his hopelessness and see the trauma that caused it. csa does not Have to be a part of forming the yusuke we see. but it's not that much of a stretch, imo.

[bredforloyalty]

the last few years have been a nice detour* but i think it's time to get back to being cringe

*: not that i wasn't cringe recently just that i need to crank it up and lose followers also

[todayisafridaynight]

So considering the Persona 5 X Yakuza Collab with the outfits, I kept wondering in who Akechi and Sumire would be cosplaying as, I decided that Akechi should be thrown into Daigo’s suit and Sumire, maybe have her cosplay as Akame from Yakuza Gaiden.

sumire can be akame this is acceptable but i dont know how you could overlook the suit of the dead brunette orphan that starts off disliking the protagonist only to sacrifice himself to protect the protagonist and his ally/allies akechi could steal

[ame-to-ame]

Oh on last rb's note my friend actually read love bullet per my recommendation hehe and she likes it and it makes me so so happy hehe

[yridk]

Ive been looking through some old photos and damn I miss wearing skirts more often, like the last 2 summers most of the time when i wasnt working i would wear them bc they are comfy and pretty yk and it was almost warm enough to actually wear them, but I cant now bc its the height of winter and also dysphoria has been worse lately idk it sucks but I also want to go back to being that carefree like I just didn't care but then things happen and I start being scared of actually being myself again

[widevibratobitch]

hooohoooohoooooo i think i need to go back to therapy im starting to have Thoughts that im too stupid for again

[pissmoon]

I cant stand when someone describes in detail how awful capitalism is just to PROUDLY say something like 'this is why as a working class person my job is my entire life and i made being a good worker my entire personality and i dont even have hobbies aside from job my job is my entire personality only pretentious rich people would have a luxury to have a different mindset than i do!'

[itsalwaysdark]

loveee when a character is crushed under the weight of someone elses expectations for them love when a character dedicates their entire life to something they never even wanted for themself love when the only reason a character keeps going is because theyre Supposed to and bc theyre supposed to make another person happy/proud. YES !!! CLAPPING !!! YES !!!!!!!!

[pekodayz]

I think the worst worst worst part abt having a following is that i can’t vent a lot even tho i really want to. at least i have like a priv disc server so it’s literally just me myself and the bot

[semi-automaticlonelyboy]

man i need more green day friends/mutuals to talk to regularly 😭😭😭

of the 2 i have, one hyperfixates on them when the moon is in the right place and the stars align, and the other……….. the other i had to explain who henry pissenger was and why i was happy that old fuck bit the dust snnfjdjjfjdj (plus other things said friend has done/said that are. not okay)

pls. pretty pls someone

[korovamlecznybar]

wishing i never tried to get an autism diagnosis

[t4tdanvis]

My personal gene is like a ten times less of an ass than canon gene except I don’t use him for anything because uneviling him in your headcanon is illegal, apparently

off topic but why did "my personal gene" instantly remind me of that one mtv dating show kurtis talked aboit that i cant remember the name of NCSNJCSBJCS

anyways. my hc for gene is that he was a stupid ass kid that grew into a stupid ass adult bc nobody ever told him no as a child and he ended up perceiving any form of rejection as a Wrongful Personal Attack (hence why he fucked over dantes entire life after dante rightfully got him in trouble/caused him to be executed). and then everything came crashing down and he was like. hm. maybe i was Wrong. and he eventually gets better woohoo yippee happy ending

[akkivee]

part of the 8th live dual division look backs abema has been posting has been a segment where the seiyuu guess the top nine most memorable things viewers thought about from their lives (and had guessed with varying degrees of success lol) so here’s what we got so far!!!!

🔵mtc🔵

embodies the characters very well

cool outfits

the vibe differences between their free talk parts and music

they never smile during their songs

strong pyrotechnics

dangerous appeal

shooting up the crowd

cigarette kiss

overwhelming sex appeal

🟠dh🟠

sweaty leader

cute choreography that’s easy to imitate

live rap quality is as good as the studio version

bright and energising

smiles all around

a comedy trio

could tell they’re good friends

performing at 100% from beginning to end

acting drunk performance

⚪️mtr⚪️

hayami-san’s dancing

could tell there’s mutual respect between them

live talk part was adorable

insane vibe differences between the songs

cool adults appeal

hifumi’s solos are really hype

camera and lighting effects matched the songs well

stable singing throughout

the props were fun

🟣bat🟣

a lot of eye contact

explosive force

performers growth with each live

the mic stand during moonlight shadow

complete character possession

the vibe differences between their free talk parts and music

it’s a lot but it’s fun

takeuchi-san’s dancing

familial trinity

[dykeyuu]

i spent 7 hours studying for one subject today no problem and even had fun doing it + im trying to imagine what middle/high school would’ve been like if i’d been properly medicated