#i just have a lot of thoughts and nobody 2 share them with but thats just how it is when Autism

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man me and dave could be best friends and fuck around with dead shit together it is the worst thing in the world that hes not real and cant be bffs with me

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Got any cool hip creepypasta headcanons?!?😱😱

DEPENDS... its hard without any specific prompts but yk what anon im capable of talking out of my ass no matter what.

this'll be talking about the main 12 i usually talk about, so if i say smth like 'so and so is the ONLY one who does this', they aren't actually the only one

toby rides a bike everywhere. he just steals random ones if he sees one he likes or knows hes hella far from home and doesnt wanna walk. brought home a pink beach cruiser once and natalie laughed her ass off. . .

the proxies (tim, brian, toby) have a cabin that tim and brian treat more like a safehouse rather than a home. tim and brian share an apartment near the city though. toby is the only one who lives there full time. they all have to pitch in for the bills, but toby has to scramble to get the majority bc again.. lives there full time.

the cabin only has 2 bedrooms, 1.5 baths, a connected kitchen/living room, and an attic. the small bedroom is filled to the fucking BRIM with random bullshit that they keep as storage but its just ridicoulous. like boxes filled with random shit toby steals (i kinda hc toby as a kleptomaniac too), tables, dressers, clothes, etc. a lot of it is also stuff that like, jeff or nat dropped off being like 'keep this safe for me' and it eventually just devolved into a storage room. the master bedroom is where tim or brian sleep IF they are at the cabin. toby made the attic his bedroom, but he falls asleep on the couch or in the master bedroom if the other two aren't home. he just likes that the attic is someplace nobody else really wants to go cuz.. why would they need to?

tim owns a busted rusty reddish colored pickup truck. he totally named it something like sheila and calls it a 'she.' brian prob just has a basic little grey honda. does not name it . .

natalie has huge issues w her gender. not in a queer way(well sort of in a queer way bc im projecting) but in a like. 'fuck this shit im fucking tired' because growing up, she was always a daughter, sister, niece, etc before she was her own person. she grew up in a house of men, and her extended family was largely ran by shitty, loud, sexist men that constantly ostracized her for being a girl. toby is legit the only dude she's fully like Ok. I'm ok with u. ur just fucking stupid. and she pokes fun at him being a mamas boy and says thats why shes ok with him. she stopped talking to him for like a month the one time he made a gender roles comment that he got from his dad.

natalie used to play volleyball and basketball growing up cuz again, grew up with boys and she was always really tall (like 5'7 in 6th grade, 6ft by highschool). sports and art were her ONLY outlets, but she was always degraded and shamed by her dad and brother for art. her dad loved that she played sports though, one of the only things he was supportive about . until she got a little older and he decided that being a tomboy wasnt as endearing on a teenage girl.

i cannot explain how close jane and her parents were. she was an only child in a upper middle class house to a lawyer and a real estate agent so she was always spoiled rotten, taken care of, always told how beautiful and smart she was. hence why losing them is the most fucking detrimental shit to ever happen to her. she literally worhsips her parents. she's wore mothers wedding dress to her own wedding. her uncle(dads brother) walked her down the aisle holding a framed photo of her dad. she almost refused to walk during her university graduation because her parents couldn't be there, despite the years worth of hardwork and dedication she put into it.

mary(janes wife) was janes bestfriend in highschool. it was one of those crazy homoerotic female friendships. they were eachothers first kiss even when they thought they were straight ("oh lets practice kiss for our future bfs!").

my idea of ben kinda combines the idea of ben the kid who drowned, and BEN the experiment to put souls into a digital afterlife. ben bought majoras mask from some creepy neighbor at a garage sale, and the neighbor had like. this completely absurd theory that he could put himself into a game or something. so he ended up tricking several kids into buying the same majoras mask cartridge, killing them after they beat the game together, and their souls DID get trapped in the cartridge but it didnt do much for his theory... WHICH MEANS that BEN is a culmination of several people, kids and teens raging from like 7-19, but the ben we know is sort of like.. the only one who escaped the cartridge (he was the last one killed and the reason the man got caught for murder)? but he was stuck in said cartridge for about like 7 years before he was 'reawoken' so traces of others souls are in him. ITS REALLY COMPLICATED it makes sense in my head but idk. he has a lot of identity issues that come packed with having his childhood stolen from him.

he's so close to sally because he relates to her on that level. while their trauma was different, being a kid taken advantage of and fucking murdered is insane. despite coming from completely different time periods (sally died in the 1900s, ben died in the 2000s), ben can only find himself truly relating to sally on an emotional level. sure, him jeff and toby can laugh and play video games and wrestle and stuff, but sally is the only one who can even begin to understand what it's like to be a dead kid.

sally and ben kinda make a lot of comments about humans and stuff LOL. most of it is in the 'you ungrateful pieces of shit you THREW AWAY YOUR LIFE' but sometimes it's something more bittersweet. 'you lived to adulthood, you have so much, you can do so much, please keep going, there's so much left for you, don't let it go' etc etc. they can sometimes be the wisest in their perspectives of life, death, mortality. but theyre both so bitter and traumatized and hurt but it that it's mostly overshadowed by envy. that's why the two of them can be so close, even if they dont really sit and like.. philosophize about life. lmfao

ben has gotten into several like police and governemnt systems and removed so many cctv footage of everyone getting in trouble, or even wiped their shit from systems. he is like the main reason none of them are in jail unironically.

jeff is the only one who truly enjoys murder. he's a sadist at heart and has a fetish for all this blood and guts. toby and natalie did have their own periods in life where they killed for relief/as a power trip(toby only ever did it under orders, natalie took some sleezy guys home from bars). the rest of them either aren't killers, or don't do it by choice (brian and tim).

i was gonna ramble about nina next but im kinda embarrassed that i just spoke so much about them BAHAHAH OK THANKS ANON

[simplepotatofarmer]

ermmmm ggnaws on that anon for you . hi loyalll! wanted to share my 2 cents based on tthat post you just made.

c!dream THINKS he knnows what he wants; or at the very least acts like it. he puts on a shhow and performs based on how otthers perceive him. he doesnt know how to process how he feels about his own actions so he thinks hhis goal is to just be the big villain, plain and simple. nobody else was fufilling the role anyway. but thats not what he actually wants, this guy is just so ddamn emotionally illiterate and stuck in denial. hes torn up inside but he'll be damned if anyone *pities* him of all thinggs. so he just digs himself further, fueled by his dissatisfaction that he either cant recognize or outright ignores.

and reallistically imo; he wont learn, not on his own, not until its too late. maybe things could've gone differenttly, maybe if he had a little mmore time. but to him shoving his issues aside is second nature to him, maybe he's scared of who he might be if hes not tthe big bad.

guh i have more thoughts but dunno hhow to word them, just my thoughts as the resident c!dream fictive teehee - @pandoras_hound

(also hope youre hholding up alright!!)

yeah!

like, what dream's stated goals are don't really align with techno's, though the 'big happy family' bit does and as i've said, his tactics are at odds with techno's (for the most part: people tend to forget techno is vengeful and like, waterboarded a guy).

anyway.

you're right that a lot of the issue is dream's.... inability to really deal with his own feelings. he desperately tries to compartmentalize everything that he does and that happens to him, to find a reason that makes sense for the why of it. there's a lot of almost working backwards when it comes to dream which i know sounds weird but.

i do think it's interesting that, before the finale, some of the moments in the prison with techno show dream, like, coming close to getting it? i'm thinking about the moment with the potatoes and 'does this hurt you' or the entire conversation about church prime which i unironically think is one of the most important conversations had or just techno's consistent pointing out of dream not being okay.

he absolutely needed an outside push because he's never addressed or coped with anything that he's done or was done to him. he's either ignored it or weaponized it.

and i think techno gets that which is why i think, if things were different, he could've given dream space and that push to figure it out.

[wishuponthatstar]

My contribution to the Tumblr System!! He’s not technically a blanet, but he orbits the same stellar black hole and plays a similar role in the system to a blanet… maybe he’d be considered an unofficial blanet? Idk man... Idea from @finligz and @just-call-mefr1es!!!! Lots of extra yapping under the cut

So we all know planet X right? There's a theory that instead of being caused by a planet, the gravitational anomalies we've detected that led us to believe there may be a 9th planet could also be caused by a very small black hole! This idea was spawned from that. A primordial black hole is essentially a black hole formed at the very beginning of the universe, less than a second after the big bang. They are currently only hypothetical as detecting something so small thats also basically invisible is understandably very difficult. Having formed at the beginning of the universe, he wasn't always a part of the Tumblr system. He spent a good 10 billion years just hurtling though space before he accidentally got a little too close to the Tumblr Black hole and got caught in it's gravity. Whoopsies. He also may or may not have killed 2 blanets (I've dubbed them Lethe and Coeus) when he joined the system. And nobody knows it was him, or that he even exists, because it just looks like those blanets slowly shrunk and disappeared. Whoopsies x2. I put "yesn't" for the moons because while he does have natural satellites, he isn't technically a blanet, and only blanets/planets can have moons. More than 40 asteroid sized objects, along with two larger objects, orbit him. These objects consider themselves moons despite not technically being such. The two larger and colored "moons" are what remains of Lethe and Coeus. If they were to scale, they'd be multiple magnitudes larger than him, probably around the size of a moon like Mimas or Proteus. The symbol he "stole" is just Coeus and Lethe's symbols mashed together.

Nu is the greek god of everything prior to primordial chaos, aka nothingness. Lethe is the greek personification of forgetfulness, and Coeus is a greek figure representing inquisitiveness. All his "moons" hate his ass. Two of them are basically ghosts of blanets he literally killed, and the rest of them were once independent asteroids. So basically, none of his "moons" formed naturally, and all of them are doomed to die a slow death via tiny spaghettification. They are understandably NOT HAPPY.

Despite being roughly watermelon-sized, he has a mass equivalent to like. At least 5 Jupiters. Crazy bro. The aphelion of his orbit is basically as far as you can get from Tumblr without drifting off into space. His perihelion is considerably closer, but is likely still tens of times further out than the last blanet. Eccentric orbit moment. Having been captured rather than formed in the Tumblr system, he orbits in a very different plane than the rest of the gang. Since he was born at the beginning of the universe, he's incredibly wise. Unfortunately, he's also kind of comically evil, and will probably never share that wisdom with you. I could yap even more, I've thought up so much lore + thought a bunch about how this entire stellar black hole system would scientifically work, but I'll save it for another time. (or you can ask about it!!!) If you made it all the way to the bottom of my yapping, thanks for reading!!

[layraket]

okay finally the most waited post (of mine (maybe)) since yesterday!!! me rambling in a weird/deep way!!!!

first of all we start strong

the Wolfie thing was something that i've been wondering when will be adressed, and when i read the word "wolf" i got nuts

I felt weird here cuz Four just mentioned Time and himself??? im crackling at Leg's face "my guy you forgot someone" now thinking better abt it Legend didn't tell anyone abt the bunny thing appart of Twi and Sky, so it makes sense they not knowing he already found out

It makes sense that he didn't wanted to show his wolf form to them at the start, he can't just go "hey guys look i can turn into a wolf *cool shadow transformation* AUUUUUUUUUU-" and not freak them out.

and i find a little amusing Wind wanting a confirmation, he wants to make sure that now there's not fractures between each other's trust. They still got their secrets, yeah, but he still wanted to at least hear that theyre cool about this one

Twi almost died, and the only reason that he's still breathing is because of them, obviously he will trust them now.

my poor guy has been working so hard, being the emotional support dog in the group together with big brother duty is exhausting

still makes me laugh that nobody really made 2+2 and realised that it was a little suspicious that every time Wolfie was there Twi was patrolling. They really share the name Link huh

Wolves are beautiful but dangerous animals, they are strong and usually agressive to invasors, makes sense to hide something that makes people run away from you. You might be able to defend them, but they will only pay back with scared glances

ohhh i would really love to see this! Wild already knew Twilight, well, future Twilight. He saw the giant dog wandering around and thought "hey i know him thats the strange wolf! hey hiii buddyyy" this guy really

love them trying to explain time shenanigans. keep it up buddy. you know basic math you can do this.

the rest of them talking abt the wolf thing while here my man fighting with the gps

Wild you already established your point calm down

Something that i and a lot of people noticed: Wars seems more relaxed, the past updates he was at the verge of screaming at the void. Now here he is, bothering his brother. Happy Warriors is back!

See the only thing he needed was his emotional support scarf back

if i had a coin every time a character hide their true identity in the zelda series i would have 16 coins, which is a lot considering that i thought it would be just 5 or 6 times what the hell

oh i know that look. He has already an idea of what wars menat with that, he has already experienced the same situation

Four doesn't fully approve the use of shadow magic yet. He remembers someone that because of that lost himself in the power. What if this happends too with Twi? How will they handle that situation? His mind is already too noisy just with thinking it a little

He hopes they will not have to confront the consecuences of dark magic's abuse

i remember that someone said Wolfie looks weaker, and honestly i agree

im not sure if this is the case, but if it is i wouldn't be surprised. He looks thinner, his fur more tangled and less flat

Still fluffy boy, tho

AND NOW. the panels that made me laugh for some weird reason/i liked a lot without any comments of why

art at its peak as always

(art credits goes towards @linkeduniverse as always!)

[sluggybunny]

Sluggy i want to know more about Saturn! does she have any special skills or powers? a love interest? what is her personality likeeeee :>

first off.

i will cry. i love u. thank you for being interested in saturn. i shall tell you many things.

Saturn has special powers! She is magically awakened, aka she has magic powers. But she is freaked out by them lowkey and chooses not to develop them and instead suppresses them. Instead she is very skilled with beating the shit out of people & handling shotguns and machine pistols.

Her personality is very gaslight. girlboss. maybe a bit of gatekeep but shes mostly on that gaslighting shit. She is always lying, even about really innocuous stuff. You can never tell what her real feelings on a subject ever are because she is just dishonest down to her very bones. She's even dishonest to herself. She has a very nihilistic point of view on life and just is drawn to things that are 'exciting' or entertaining because what else is the point? Additionally, she's an elf so she's going to live a long time so that adds to it lol.

a snippet from her profile: "Saturn does not care. Whatever you're thinking about, she doesn't care. She would walk directly into hell with a smile on her face. A lifeless smile but a smile nonetheless. She is interesting in that she never puts on airs around people, she doesn't hide when she dislikes something or someone. She does not care for formalities or being polite. But that does not make her an honest person and when you interact with her, you walk away knowing less about her than you did before."

She has a love interest and he is (looks around the room to make sure nobody who knows who this character really is is here) Lofwyr, who is like. A dragon? CEO? Does the council agree with Dragon CEOs? LOL. He is like the master of all schemes, always pulling strings and makes elaborate plans so it was only natural she is drawn to him. Their relationship is very "you wanna fuck me so bad it makes you look stupid." I actually have drawn some comics and wrote a lot of stuff with them because I am unwell about them both. (Lofwyr is a character from the game/novels of Shadowrun, i get the award of having the most niche & obscure blorbo)

some other stuff about saturn:

she wears gold because of her boyfriend, yes. this is true. i know its more in trend for complementary/contrasting color schemes but you know whats hot? being decorated as a sign of being owned. sorry

she is native american/first nation which is very important to me, i am usually anxious to share my ndn characters

she is quite tall!!! 6'2/190 cm

her birthday is 4/2/24. in the current timeline of the story, she is around 56. i picked that year because thats the year I created her! (techincally, 2023 but i was in the hospital when i first thought of her. when i really started going nuts writing stuff, it was 2024)

[spaciebabie]

HI HI HI I JUST SAW THE FNAF MOVIE FEEL FREE TO USE THIS AS AN EXCUSE TO SHARE YOUR THOTS ABT EVERYTHING

alr well im gonna talk abt a lot of things under the cut :> (extra precaution for people who havent seen it!) im gonna be talking abt some major spoilers so like if you dont wanna know what happens dont look!!!!!!!!

the thing that stood out ta me the most abt this movie is the cinematography i mean- some of those shots were really well fucking done. and the tension at certain parts??? i mean!!! i wasnt really scared during the movie but there were some parts where the build up ta the scare made me feel a lil somethin somethin yk. a little tingle in my booty.

ALSO LIKE?? THE AUNT DIED AND NOBODY FUKCING TALKED ABOUT IT SKDFJSKFHSKJFSJDF???? DID MIKE JUST FUCKING MOVE HER BODY OUT OF HIS HOME??? WHERE THE FUCK DID SHE GO???? THEY REALLY JUST LIKE DID NOT GIVE A SHIT ABT HER AWAHWHAGGWGAGWAHHWGHAHAHA

also. the springlocks. we finally got like some explanation asta how they would work and honestly i really really like how they function. like it makes sense!! the metal ribcage??? fuck thats so peak i might hafta add that ta my springer design i love it

speaking of springtrap. hello hi i love. william afton. i have always been a springtrap lover and a william afton enjoyer but this movie man. mathew lillard is hot as hell and he did an awesome job in this role. i mean hes everything i would want william afton ta be. silly, dangerous, unhinged, sure of himself, ive already made a post talking abt how much i liked the springlock failure scene (well more like screaming abt it) but like. hes. hes not scared of dying hes not scared of death (at least he doesnt show it) b/c he knows hes gonna be reborn and- fuck its just so good. i love everything abt the final scenes. GOSH AND HIS VOICE!!!!!!!! THE DISTORTION ON HIS VOICE DID YOU HEAR HOW GLEEFUL AND CHEERY HE WAS??? HOW DRAMATIC HIS STUPID ASS WAS??? SHITTTTTTT

im also really glad vanessa had some development here! and i wasnt expecting her ta be william aftons daughter??!?!?!?! WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOLYAY MOLAY ACTUAL PLOT TWIST I DIDNT SEE COMING. ive already mentioned this 2 people on discord but like. i hope we see more development of her and her fathers relationship before what we see in fnaf 1. i NEED 2 know what she saw i NEED 2 know why she is so haunted. what happened ta her family???? and like!! what the hell is happening 2 her as shes in that hospital brah i bet you she's having terrible nightmares and i needta see ALL OF THEM-

ALSO LIKE?? JUST REFERENCES TA THE FNAF FANDOM IN GENERAL?? THWE LIVING TOMBSTONE??? MATPAT?? CORYXKENSHIN????? SPARKY????

LET ME ALSO CONTINUE TALKING ABT THE FACE SHREDDER THING CUZ LIKE I WANNA KNOW WHY THAT WAS EVEN IN THERE IN THE FIRST PLACEOMG A THOUGHT JUST HIT ME-

FACE SHREDDER SO YOU CANT IDENTIFY THE BODY???? HELLO???? anyways seeing the animatronics go crazy and kill people was very cool. i loved the animatronics soooo much they were so silly and LIVELY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO FULL OF LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GODDD I LOVE LOVE LOVE THEMMM I LOVE THAT THEY PUT IN THE EFFORT TA ACTUALLY MAKE THE ANIMATRONICS IT MADE IT SO MUCH BETTER

rambling over. i needta go study skfskjfksjdf

[soundbodys]

AMBROSE BASSFORD: autism?

hi!!!! welcome to part 1 of "i've got some thoughts on adamandi" >:) i have some other analysis that i do want to share about other things, not just randomly diagnosing fictional characters! but this post is about ambrose being on the autism spectrum <3

i'm not a medical professional by any means, but this is just coming from both my experience as an autistic person and the research i've been able to do about the disorder. and other people's experiences! please dont come for me if things are just a touch inaccurate. without further ado: lets fucking gooooooooo!

[ID: ambrose bassford with his hands on vincent lin's shoulders. he is looking into the distance with a determined look in his eye. vincent looks towards him with concern. end ID]

(please excuse my terrible quality screenshots. um. yeah.)

i'll also preface this by saying that yes, much of this is also informed by his status as a transgender student in the early-mid 1900s. i still think it's fun to analyze and compare my (and others') experiences to his!

THE MARMORIUS SOCIETY

[ID: preston monterey and adrian farthington (or miscellaneous marmorei) putting a letterman jacket on ambrose. ambrose is smiling. there is a caption at the bottom reading "rooftops that nobody frequents where secret societies meet" in all caps. end ID]

firstly, i will address the marmorius society. i'm fairly certain that the marmorei in "word to the wise" are meant more to represent the then-present-now-past members that welcomed ambrose freshman year rather than preston and adrian, but thats ok. what matters more is the subtext in word to the wise that we can glean from the choreography and interactions between ambrose and vincent. beginning the song, and similarly his freshman year, ambrose struggles to fit in like each of the other students entering ardess. he initially seems more comfortable interacting with vincent, but then gets taken in by the marmorei. this is exactly where his mannerism and attitude shift

here, we see ambrose fitting in (or, making an attempt to) with the other marmorei. from vincent's account, we know that ambrose's actions and behaviors almost completely changed after becoming part of the society. this is a really roundabout way of saying hey, ambrose found a place where he thinks he might belong! rather than learning and adapting to normal and regular social rules, he latches onto and mimics a very specific subset of people. to him, they know what they are doing and they have a way of being social that he can't understand so he mimics instead of just adjusting the way he already was. this mimicking makes a bit of sense in that he's not quite conforming to social cues (he still doesn't exactly fit in), but he's trying to. it feels to me a bit like how it is to feel alienated from your peers, even though you are trying your hardest to mask. of course, his "off"-ness is also contributed to by his transness so take that as you will.

2. WHAT DID HE JUST SAY?

[ID: ambrose is standing facing vincent. vincent is facing him with his hands to his back uncomfortably. the caption reads. "i've been looking to include more variations in body type." end ID]

this one is shorter than the marmorius society bulletpoint. actually, most of them are. that one is long winded. ANYWAY, ambrose is kind of... interesting when it comes to his interactions. specifically, he encourages vincent to join the marmorei by saying he's been "looking to include more variations in body type." to him, he's being completely honest and genuinely wants vincent to take interest in his phaethon project. unfortunately, to both vincent and much of the audience, this comes off as comically insensitive at best or offensive at worst. this comes from a lack of awareness of social cues, similar to the lack of knowledge of social norms from the previous bulletpoint. while he knows how to conform to the marmorei, there is still a lot of social cues he needs to work on. often, autistic people will speak bluntly and honestly in their communication. this is really not that far off, even if it was just a little gag!

3. OMG, SENSORY ISSUES!

[ID: caption reading, "he didn't eat the apple because he said he didn't like how its flesh felt on the skin of his thumbs." end ID]

kind of self explanatory. all metaphors aside, ambrose doesn't like the flesh of a peeled apple on his thumbs. i understand (<- i loooove peeled apples though)

4. BLACK AND WHITE THINKING: IF NOT ME, WHO?

[ID: lyrics reading, "if i was stronger i could fix this; / cut the bad and leave the good / be the marble and the sculptor / like my father says i should." end ID]

[ID: lyrics reading, "so my parents and my girlfriend / my closest friends and you / will know i deserve their love / once there's no more work to do / there are only three people who'll be perfect in their eyes / me, myself, and i" end ID]

two screenshots! often, autism causes what can be called "black and white" or polarized thinking. it's like, there's only one solution or there are only the extremes (although, this isn't to be confused with the black and white thinking associated with BPD. i don't have experience on that but ive heard quincy and vincent can fit the bill). for ambrose, there's only one solution to both his dysphoria and distorted self worth: becoming the perfect man by... becoming marble or whatever. as if there is only ONE way to do this, without alternative methods. i sometimes find myself in the same spiral, and have meltdowns either when it doesn't work out or if i'm offered an alternative solution that goes against what i thought might work. even in the second screenshot here, we see that he thinks the only way to earn love is through this specific task. he cannot be unconvinced, even if vincent tries to offer him an alternative solution.

5. WHY APOLLO, BOYS?

[ID: ambrose is hanging off a ladder, his hand out and mouth open singing. the caption reads, "apollo's look is yours: sound body, sound mind" in all caps. end ID]

this is where i dip more into the headcanon territory than i already have. i couldn't really include every screenshot where he talks about a) apollo, b) sculpture, or c) fitness. this is kind of part of his character in general but i like to think of it as his special interests. it's remarkable how many autistic people i know who have majored in something related to their spinterests (including myself! in a way)

6. DON'T FLATTER YOURSELF, LIN!

[ID: vincent awkwardly puts a hand on ambrose's arm, ambrose looks at him longingly. end ID]

ambrose... did not interpret the social cues correctly in the scene directly after "sound body, sound mind." it's really just written in the text, but just in case, i will remind you that vincent pretty much says "hey, i kind of strived to be like you because i had this incorrect assumption of who you were, sorry about that lol" and ambrose took it all wrong and thought this was a romantic advance. he just... didn't interpret it right. honest mistake, but a very common mistake among autistic people. and, unrelated to the autism thing, his comeback isn't smooth at all lmao

THERE YOU HAVE IT! i'm sure there could be more to be said, but my hands hurt (disability) and i can't think of any more off the top of my head. feel free to add on with anything you want to say!!!! thank you for reading!!!! here's the sillies for you, as a reward for getting this far :)

[ID: preston, ambrose, and adrian with their arms on each others' shoulders, stepping in sync. end ID]

[the-un-slash-emotionals]

hola amigo kaise ho thik ho? i need to stop starting everything like this :sob: hi. its been a long time. so many things that happened. but i trust him, im proud of him, i know he'll pull through. but that's a discussion for his diary, not here. today, we talk about some theory i've been budding for a while now, its a little bit of a sensitive topic, that i have no right to talk about but such are my alien ways :) (moments is such a good song) heart beats harderr ; time escapes me trembling hands, touch skinn ; it makes thisss harderrrr and the tears stream ; down my faceee the Aromantics. " Aromantic people have little or no romantic attraction to others. They may or may not feel sexual attraction. An aromantic person can fall into one of two groups: aromantic sexual people or aromantic asexual people. " thats the textbook def of it, and that's not the topic of discussion here. andd also not talking about asexuality, that's a whole other thing that i havent really thought about. some leads, but none too decisive, so nvm. what im interested in is what could be the reasons behind aromanticism? i really damn wish and hope i do something neuroscience related in the future coz otherwise my human will BURN ok, so what made me interested? some people around me, 2 in particular, both im close to, both i want to understand like nobody else. both have their fare share of troubles, both i hope, i can have a conversation with about this very topic some day. both, have had many many proposals in the past, both, i've fallen for at some point or another, both, i've fallen out of (for the most part), both, i've never confessed to. both, ridiculously fascinating people. both, ive had the privilege to know from my pov rather than just his, and hence, both, i can evaluate devoid of humane feelings. common points in both - bad past, sub par family dynamic, at least from one side. and i think therein lies the jackpot. also, both very physical beings. in touch with their skin. idk how to describe it without feeling like a fucking creep, but both value physical touch a lot. its intimate. their skin is sacred, it has meaning. almost as if they're stuck in this world in between, on one hand they have extremely complicated minds and thoughts and emotions and on the other, their body revolts if they don't pay heed to it. maybe its a girl thing, im not sure. but idts. i think the answer lies in the past. they've suffered such negative experiences there, regarding the same thing. love. somewhat of a mix between family relations, and other kids, heck, maybe even some horrors from the past resurfacing in their present, which makes them repel all this even more so. its like their mind has created this bubble, or a safety shield, which makes it invalidate romantic feelings or approaches. maybe in the past, they felt too much, then were faced with nothing but bad results, over and over and over over again. it solidified. their minds stopped believing. as maturity rose, it brought with it an almost completely concrete blockage towards feelings. and that was that. im lucky, since both my POIs are very different people, fundamentally. one deals with feelings like a cold machete. dangerous. but its a defense mechanism, ...and ok he knows that but hes kinda tired of it. anyway, the other deals with it via a bit more maturity. she knows what feelings are. how to cater to others' feelings too. shes almost been doing this for too long, but shes getting better, and he has faith in her. most importantly, she DOES NOT SHUT DOWN when something bad happens in this realm. and thats VERY IMPORTANT. the only way is THROUGH. she FIGHTS. unlike the other. im not gonna conclude this, because tbh it was a bit of a personal rant as well, instead of just a devoid barren thought portrayal. also have to say, that im kinda just speculating. idk anything for sure unless i have some brain scans. until next time, humans thats x8c signing off （︶^︶）

[wally-franks]

hiii hi im here with my liddol hcs for u... looks up at u with my big sad wet eyes. this is my silly little au ,,, i love urs tho n would love to hear the angst bcos. theres so much angst i left out too fjrjfhie

ok so WALLY- little guy but absolutely not stupid. like he knows whats going on BUT hes just. a little silly sometimes. low braincells but can piece stuff together and is careful. carries a knife with him. does not want to get into trouble (excluding pranks ofc. loves them) uh. 147cm, transmasc, and pan. his hat is very important. i actually just finished making his hat but thats a different thing fhjrjf

talks a LOT and has a gossip group with norman n susie. but its all in good fun. n u know thomas is him boyfriend. they pretend to be Mortal Enemies but at home they r so so soft... they must put up a front at work because they are scared of how they'll look in front of other ppl. if only they knew that probably like 2 ppl total in jds were cishet fbjrj,, he has that audhd and his silly little catchphrase is everything ok.

thomas- too tall bites him. i mean. ahem. 183cm and bisexual. very closed off from people but will not hesitate to confront people. very touchy about the machine cos its his "best creation" or whatever. ok stupid college boy but go off ig. (i love him sm)

basically just there to get work done. he acts smart, looks smart, but hes "stupid"... not in the way of logically stupid, he is just very silly sometimes. also he smokes. i mean have u HEARD his voice (affectionate) he has 5 older brothers n his family is very sweet i think. gnaws on the thomas plush part twenty million

and finally SAMMY- very very stressed so he yells a lot BUT he does a softer side in private. he just needs to front as mean and irritating with everyone to keep his image up :(( grr squishes him very hard. transmasc and gay bc. he just is. does not like joey but then again in my au nobody really does but thats ok<3 back to sammy the babygirl. he is 168cm and his "partner" is jack... but we all know... the silly... also probably helped johnny learn the organ/piano. because it needs to happen

if u want 2 know more or have any questions my dms are open >:3c sorry for th ramble!!! fjrjeh

Hii!!  I'm so sorry this took so long to get toooooo. I had to inhale this text for a bit and let it sog into my brain xD I always need a bit to take in muchhhhooss information (nothing bad btw just me being me hehe)

AND YEAHHH.. I should maybe talk more about angst. But at the same time I'm like. Naurrrr... Naurrrr... I really live by "there's always so much negativity and sadness in this world, no need to add more to it" SO I ALWAYS HESITATE SHARING ANGST AND SAD THINGS!! CUZ I'M LIKE!!  WHY BE SAD IF I CAN HAVE FUN STUFF WITH STUFF THAT MAKES ME HAPPY </3 + most of it is just killing and torture anyway and euhm. Those tend to trigger ehm negative stuffs in me anyway :') Mostly just hallucinations and shit thoughts but!! You know, when there's a good time to share some of that stuff, I will!! :3 or maybe I share more about my toon Alice. She's a bit more tame about with that stuff. Anyhow. This is about YOU and not me. Soooo I'll go now through your stuff >:)

Wally being like that is true, that really fits to him!! He's just a silly that takes his his time to piece stuff together and that is okay :3

And OMG, mine also carries a knife around :D I just think it makes so much sense for hi to do so.... He's encountered moving ink puddles before, might just aswell carry a knife til. I feel like it also makes more sense after we saw his hat and a knife at artists rests (+ the April fools video hehe). Also, him being transmasc and pan is so funny because my old version of wally used to be exactly that aswell!!  :D I changed that though, but again something very fitting for him. I loev your wally. He's so silly. AND SMALL!!!???  like damn OMG I didn't expect him to be that tiny. I could just launch him /lh

(Wally being a little gossip girly pop is so funny and real HAHAHA )

Thomas's and Wally,s relationship being like that is exactly how I envisioned it xD I love that for them so much.

And.. DAMN!! IM ALMOST AS TALL AS THOMAS BOY!! I thought yours would have been MUCH taller. Guess I was wrong. That's so interesting.

Also yeah... He definitely smokes. He smokes so damn much, probably several packs a day LMFOA. It's not to miss with a voice like that xD. You'd have to be insane to not think that.

Besides, BIG FAM FOR THOMAS ALSO MAKES A LOT OF SENSE!!

SAMMY BOY!!! SAMMY BOY!! I've been so keen on hearing about him!!!!! Wa'hh!!  We love publicly intimidating and soft at home Sammy I love that so so so so so much waghahahhhh!! And he's also way smaller than I thought,!! Another suprise here :D but nothing bad. Just me being like woah??  In taller than him. ALSO, HIM AND JACK BEING A THING?? YAY!! I LOVE SAMMY AND JACK TOGEZHER WJAJAJAJ AND OHOHOHH JOHNNY MOMENT. JOHNNY MENTIONED *POINTSSS*

AND YEAH I'LL LET YOU KNOW IF I WANNA KNOW MORE. AND DON'T BE SORRY I LOVED THIS SO MUCH.. ERMMMM. IF YOU EVER WANNA TALK MORE ABOUT YOUR JOHNNY *twirls hair* I'd love to know what he's up to in your AU. Where he's mostly at!! Mine is first at the music department but then gets moved down to lacie and Bertrum, so I'd love to know where yours at!! And his personality too. That's the thing that interests me the most!!! Giving a character who has no info at all jngame a personality is always so cool and interesting to see :D everyone has like their own way of seeing and imagining characters.. I'd die to know how yours is!!!!

[girlfromplut0]

a short letter

hi friends ! wanted 2 share a couple thoughts nd ideas with u if thats alright . ive been finding it really hard to connect with people lately , everyone seems so far away . idk if its dissociation from ptsd or just growing apart but it feels like there is a lot of distance between me n a lot of ppl in my life . n idk thats a bit strange . i feel like a stranger in a lot of places where i used 2 feel like an important piece . i suppose thats what happens when u grow , some things make less sense but eventually things will make sense again . most things dont make sense anymore honestly . even typing this i dont really feel real . dissociation has been really hard for me . after getting out of an abusive relationship its been hard to feel how i think things used to feel (and even on tumblr im kind of scared of saying those words out loud, im really afraid of that person even though i dont want to let that fear control me). idk ptsd is really scary . its not like anything ive faced before in my life . people tell me it gets easier and i believe them but a part of me is scared that things just keep making less and less sense . but in another way , every problem you face u have the wisdom and growth of every problem u have faced before at ur back . i used to have an eating disorder but cooking has become a super important part of my life , and i think im really good at it and its been rewarding to share that with my mom and people i love . im the highest weight ive ever been in my entire life and ive for the most part overcome my disorder and eating related trauma . so even if im sad and disconnected from people , at least i am giving my body the fuel it needs to continue living . i haven't spoken about really any of this in public and i guess this kind of secret tumblr acc feels safe for me to be a bit more candid and long form for once . i can't really use twitter in that way anymore , mainly for boundaries and mental health reasons . but yeah i guess a lot of things have been strange lately . idc if nobody rly gets my music anymore . even if it doesnt appear to be , if u see it as jus being like flexing or some shit whatever , it is like a deep expression of a lot of emotions im feeling . n i dont feel the need to explain it 2 anyone i prefer 2 let my art speak for itself . my art is the only place i feel like i can be free and honest and genuine nd create something that is a true expression of myself and that matters more 2 me than anything else . a lot of ppl i kno wld be lost w/o seeing a bunch of numbers . but when u making music for someone else u have already lost , u have chosen to surrender your space to what u are guessing someone else wants . no truly meaningful art can come from a place like that . sharing a little song i made , was produced by maiden who is an incredibly talented and kind soul nd i will link their sc under this u should listen 2 their songs ! im not sure if this song will ever be a part of something larger but since u read my long rambling thing i wanted 2 share one of my favorite songs ive made , in case its never on anything else . thank u for caring about my art and supporting me. often the love i feel from all of you overpowers the discord in my mind. and even if my art is made for myself, seeing that this expression of myself connects with so many people is deeply deeply meaningful to me. im excited and incredibly grateful for the opportunity to connect with as many of you as i can during tour next month. if you see me around before or after the show feel free to say hi, your support means so so much. i love you - meadow (pluto)

[babymorte]

Haha well what else is there to do at night other than game and scroll on here?🤷‍♂️🥲 and i have noticed a few of your posts about bo6 tbh, I haven't played it much yet myself, I don't even think I've prestieged yet tbh🤷‍♂️😅 and yeah, sleep problems are always super fun🙃😂

That's actually a very good point to be fair, nobody can use anything against you if everybody already knows everything haha, that's shit that you can't just keep stuff to yourself and not have to worry about people using stuff against you though!

It's good to build up walls for your own protection so that you can't get hurt emotionally or in other ways, but building walls is no good if you don't build a door too, you've got to allow yourself to be open and let your walls down with those that you trust enough to share with, being stuck behind the walls you've built with no way out won't help things get better (I'm pretty baked, so I hope that makes sense🤷‍♂️😂).

Yeah im the exact same way tbh, plus I find a lot of people hard to talk to and make conversation with, but some people are just so much easier to talk to than others, like some people just dont put any effort into convos and it ends up boring and one sided, you know?😅 I hooe im not bothering you with the anons btw, I get that you most likely have a lot of them.

I can get that, it takes a lot for me to open up too, it does help though when you find people that you can open up to and trust.

That actually sounds pretty cool tbh! There's bags where I live too, but i only every see a couple at night flying around, I do love the bat cave in the zoo just outside of the town where I live though👀😅

Ah okay, thats fair enough, in that case I can understand why you dont really dm with people! I just thought I'd send an anon when you turned them on because you're one of my favourite blogs and i nkticed you in my notes just as much as im probably in yours, I don't expect us to dm, but i am always open to talking if you ever want to😊 also, you shouldn't have to put up with bullies and dickheads messaging you! Nobody should have to deal with that kinda thing!

-🦇

honestly as of quite recently not much 😅 whaaaaa?? that’s such a shame im having so much fun 🤩 it’s the first cod i actually got really into outside of zombies cuz im really not all that good at fps like i played through the first few halos for the first time before i started getting better at fps and if you’ve ever seen the memes of like a couple playing cod together where the guy is real good and the girl is just happy to be there running around like a lost puppy yea that was me the entire time like the entirety of halo i think 2 there’s like that mission you’re on a giant ferry and enemies are jumping on it i was doing zero of the work and just admiring the scenery 😂😂😂 i need to go back finish those honestly 🤔 but i ended up playing the bo6 beta and had a blast and ever since its literally been my life like i even started watching the cdl 🤩 BUT i went from getting maybe 10 kills a game and like 60 deaths to 40-60 kills and 10-20 deaths in a few months n im nearly max prestige 🥳 im actually gonna hit 10p my next game and im hoping to hit max by the weekend im actually really excited. I might even try ranked when they make it so you can turn crossplay off 😅 you should totally give it a go though 😌 especially zombies it’s so much fun i like just going into directed and getting to level 15 and just chillen, mindlessly murdering shit 😂 i really think you should give it another go~ oh absolutely it also probably doesn’t help that i have a tendency to blast music and hype myself up while i play games so my adrenaline just keeps me awake 😭

ah nah it’s cool ive just told people i thought i was friends with super personal stuff and they posted it online to bully me or just told mass amounts of people as like a ha-ha moment so like i guess it’s a defence mechanism but im so jaded i don’t give a shit who knows what about me anymore but i still am a very private person despite it all like i overshare sure but it’s always calculated like im not dumb you know 😅

yeaaa about that door 😂 im extremely selective with who i let in, who i let get close. it’s just literally every time i do im lied to manipulated used and played for a fool so im just about ready to weld that door shut and everyone can try and rapunzel their way into my little silo ive made for myself 😅 n you’re totally good im very well versed in stoner 🤣

no yea totally. i mean the people who reach out to me on here are always so chill and are super engaging but i think it’s cuz i only respond to asks that seem like they’re gonna be engaging if that makes sense? like im honoured when people hype me up but i dont know as someone who has a hard time upholding convos and not wanting to disappoint people i try to keep convos about things i know i can ramble on about if that makes sense 😅 that kinda makes me sound cunty though but that’s not my intent i just know how awful i am in 99% of my interactions so it’s better if i just keep to myself. i mean hell this last literal year nearly to the day was the most/longest i talked to a single person n legit couldn’t tell you the last time i was that happy cuz 100% once you find someone easy to talk to and you just click the convo just flows so easily 🤩 oh my gosh not a bother at all~! im enjoying the convo honestly 🤍 i hope im not annoying you with my rambling and long as fuck responses i just don’t know how to be concise 😂🙏🏻

yes!! that’s seriously so true~ unfortunately for me i have gullible tattooed on my forehead and i have a tendency to be manipulated into trusting people i shouldn’t 😅 but im also very quick to realise when im being manipulated because im real good at pattern recognition 😂. but i just have a general rule of dont trust anyone even if they seem trustworthy until they start SHOWING that they can be trustworthy you know? especially online like ive never told anyone anything in private i wouldnt post myself. i just always try and keep it 100 😅

wait you have bats too that’s so dope 🤩 im so jealous you have a bat cave too 😭 that has to be so cool to go and see 🤩 theres an amusement part that has a zoo like 2hrs from me and every halloween they let you in the zoo after dark when all the nocturnals are out and its so frickin cool i went as a kid and got to hold a bat and a tarantula (which is how i started to love both)

ah yes i mean i do have one or two people i dm but they also know how shit i am at replies and they’re special circumstances 😂 but hey im not totally opposed to dmming~ i just always forget to check them here since it’s permanently at 99 and the only notifications i have properly turned on my phone are for snapchat 😅 n that’s definitely true but im just a fuckhead magnet of all sorts n i try to stay away from them as much as humanly possible 😂

[alienglowgarden]

not gonna finish that fic, so instead I'll just ramble abt it to myself

First thing I'll say is, damn longform stories are hard to write. I've really only roleplayed and written nanofiction, drabbles n the like( n one short story but its full of experimental prose so its pretty nonsequential stuff too) so the very basic act of stringing a bunch of events together and giving each enough attention was kind of a struggle. Plus I wanna start a philosophical tangent based on like every other paragraph y_y It went better than my first attempt at fic, but even this in retrospect is probably pretty bad, esp with the lack of response from anyone beyond a "well this convoluted sentence was kind of funny". Tho I'll say I still feel fairly confident in the first chapter v_v It was GOOD, OK??? Could ofc be flippant and blame it on the fact that its not shipping or smut n that thats all fandom cares about, but-

Next up, excerpts from the fic that I, PERSONALLY thought were super funny and great bits in general.

I thought I was SO clever for the customer service voice comparison. A real phenomena that affects millions of sufferers every day.

n honestly this whole paragraph right after I thought sounded like a delightful little montage. And its a sweet thought that Sol's wasting their rations on Sym just to include him in the ritual and to prolong the whole "playing house" bit. Similarly later on when Sol prattles on abt cooking up something special next time, again, even tho Sym doesn't really need to eat. He's noted by Dys to like sweets, but even when you give him a cake he just tastes the icing a bit n is like "well that was nice :-)"

I WAS BOILING IN MY SKIN I THOUGHT I WAS BEING SOOOOO FUNNY UGH AND NOBODY EVEN MENTIONED IT!!!! COME ONNN!!! Similarly Sol having trouble focusing on the english, needing subtitles cus they grew up on esperanto I thought was nice attention to detail from me.

Also I compared Seeq to Blackadder, where is my comedy emmy

this wouldve had a nice callback in the last chapter, of Sol similarly finding themself experiencing something totally new and unique, totally outside of the timeloops scope.

I also liked my little Sol & the Embrace Eternity ending during Syms death hiatus bit, that was something I had written as just a teensy drabble idea before the fic. Also liked injecting a slight divergence from known canon with Geranium believing Sols future vision. Wouldve later been called up again with both of them fussing over Flulu a lot n Ger kinda feeling like shit when/if Sol gets involuntarily operated upon.

Onto chapter 2:

Ok the sugarbug thing was really all I had going for it, I was gonna wax poetic abt Vace n Sols relationship more, but depended far too much on getting any positive feedback n motivation to keep going lol v_v Theres a lot you could weave together about their mutual self-inflicted need to be a hero, even at the cost of their own suffering, their own dreams. Of feeling alienated from others for seemingly knowing more, seeing the big picture. N similarly (my) Sol has a bit of that same bravado that masks the unseemly parts of them, the reasons that would make others worry if they knew Sol wasn't just messing around, that their achievements weren't just happy accidents, but things they'd meticulously planned for, sacrificed for.

But anyway the surgabug thread was meant to be a sign of the Gardeners still holding onto their feelings of both resentment and love for their creators. Just a single facet, there would be more, but the most obvious thread once Sol learns to spot it.

Noctilucent is just fun to write for :3 "Little weed" would also with time become a more affectionate nickname for Sol.

Once again, I THOUGHT I WAS SO FUNNY FOR THIS. Why is my genous so underappreciated.

...and again, the care all Gardeners share for their planet, for the garden their creators left them, largely explored through Noctilucent, for whom that would seem most unlikely, who would surprise the reader most. In future chapters, there would have been more scenes.

Most notably, Noct finds Sol after a devastating accident that leaves them with a concussion(possibly self inflicted in an attempt to reconnect those wormhole synapses in their brain again). Sol tries to blubber something about a deal the gardeners wont be able to resist. They realize Noct has taken measures to care for their wounds. Eventually, the agreement is struck. More lenience is extended. Noct hidden relationship meter goes a little bit up again.

The end would mark a secret place Noctilucent takes Sol, the New Experience they share in confidence, a new facet of understanding the puzzle and Sol's own place in it.

ok yea its referencing that rio romero song lmao. Sol feeling a spooky ooky similarity of their own fates within the timeloop to that of the sugarbug, as utilised by their own colony. A replenishable resource; no regard for its wellbeing. Or probably more likely seeing the danger of becoming that, by their own hand, permitting their life to be consumed by the colony's survival.

[youredreamingofroo]

I am getting to know u >:(

What is your nickname?

What is a fact about you that nobody would believe?

What were your highs and lows for this last month?

Where is somewhere you'd like to visit?

How do you de-stress?

A time that you told a lie.

Who knows you the best?

HOLY WOW LMFAOOO I love all these questions THANK YOU <33333

1, Soooo I can't share my actual irl nickname LMFAO mainly bc its, well, my actual name, but also bc i only let family use it :) But I guess Roo/Achar?

2, OOF thats hard... I guess the fact that I can whistle as high as a dog whistle? Like so high it's unhearable but irritates peoples ears LMAO

3, Highest high would be spending the entire day of my friend's graduation with them... We'd never hung out that long before and it was SOOO fun. Lowest low would be last week after my Zoo trip with my friends... I was MAD depressed for the proceeding 6 days.. 😭

4, SWEDEN. I WANT TO VISIT SWEDEN SOOOOO BADLY UGHGHFHDHFHDHHHH

5, I uhhhhhhhhhh dont really de-stress, I kinda just suppress my stress or wait for it to go away/stop making me feel bad LMAO 😭

6, so I lie a lot erhrmem... I guess one of my worst/punished lies is when I was in middle school, I lied about my temp being 101 degrees when I took my temp with a thermometer, and my grandpa checked the thermometer cuz he wanted to check his temp andd... the thermometer, contrary to what I thought, would show the last recorded temp, which was 98 degrees... not 101 like I said, and my grandpa got SOOO fucking pissed...

7, Definitely my Brother or Husband... Both of them are actually just my friends LMAO not my actual brother or husband. The three of us have known each other for like.. 5 years now? I dont know who would know me better tho, i'd have to do a friend quiz LMDAOSJHDAJK

[the-kipsabian]

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💫what is your favorite kind of comment/feedback? i honestly love everything i get be it just 'good' or a keyboard smash or anything, but ive always been extra fond of feedback that states the commenters favorite part of the fic or picks apart their favorite sentences etc. cause to me that feels like they took the time not only to read, but also to try to invest themselves in the story and understand it and what the words i was putting down were fully trying to convey. they are the very special kinds to me personally <3

🎀give yourself a compliment about your own writing its the one i can keep repeating to the very end, but i love the way i can convey emotions in scenes. i think im pretty hecking good at that honestly

🎉how often do you celebrate completing & posting a work? how often do you give yourself the credit/validation that you seek from others when you post? (if you don't, you should!) oh wow i havent. actually rewarded myself for finishing and posting since i started doing it again lol. i do give myself credit when its due cause i think my work is pretty good at the moment so i dont feel like im posting subpar stuff, but i also dont know what to reward myself with. i cant afford anything and little things dont bring me much joy rn honestly lol. stay tuned maybe i figure this out

💞what's the most important part of a story for you? the plot, the characters, the worldbuilding, the technical stuff (grammar etc), the figurative language characters (and their relationships) and the overall mood. i usually want to convey a certain feeling through a scene so thats my top priority, and i take pride in my character work a lot so thats also up there, trying to make them feel as real as possible. reading-wise im a plot person tho, or again the mood is really important to me

💥find your least kudos'd fic - say something wonderful about it. (unspirisingly) insomnia. i just thought it was really cute. it also helped my anxiety while working on it and reading it afterwards a few times so like. yeah. its also the piece that got me into writing kip so thats very special

🍭why did you start writing? i have always liked stories. i was a lonely child with no friends and talents, writing was the one thing i was maybe good at and ppl complimented me on when i dared to share something with them. currently im doing it as an outlet and cause it just makes me happy and my god nobody else is writing these fics and ships (except you <3) and someone fucking has to LOL

💎why is writing important to you? i mean its pretty much the same answer as above lol. im sad, im lonely, trying to make something that makes me happy since i have almost completely fallen off from the drawing bandwagon and i need a creative outlet. its the one way im most comfortable expressing myself and it keeps me sane rn. its like the One Thing i feel im actually good at i guess

🪄what is your post-writing/sharing aftercare? How do you take care of yourself or celebrate yourself when you've finished a fic? recently i think all ive done after finishing something is either eat or go to bed lol. i also more often than not let the written stuff simmer for a while, depending how im feeling about it if its an hour or a few days before editing and posting so im not constantly overworking myself, but yeah. food and/or sleep is the most common thing rn. as stated above, i cant afford any big things to celebrate with and small things barely give me any sort of happiness rn

💌share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited! i love how this question immediately drew my brain into a blank lol. i dont really have a lot of things actually in works right now, i just have a very long list of ideas and requests, theres only like. actually three things im trying to work on that i have started (and i might have to scrap at least one of them hmm). but immortal fears is always good!! chapter 3 WILL happen eventually, its maybe 2/3 written right now and i just really. REALLY enjoy writing chuck. so im excited to share that and hope that people like him as much as i do!!

fic writer asks ~

[sirpseudonymphoapish]

"ugh, everything is autistic nowadays!"

yes. no, you're right. not EVERYTHING is autistic, but there are a LOT more things that fall under the spectrum than people originally thought.

And its not because its "trendy." its because of science. As science digs deeper and society becomes more accepting, we find more and more aspects of people that fit under that Neurodivergent umbrella. So yeah, "everything is autistic" is, although exaggerated, correct. and thats a good thing. the more we discover the more we can understand and help shape the world to fit those needs.

There are so many people in the world who fall under that spectrum that never realize it because they haven't been exposed to the science yet. And the second you point it out they deny it because "thats normal"

No,,, that's normal to YOU. because if you have it then youve had it your whole life and thus is YOUR normal.

And if you still think its normal because everyone around you acted the same then guess what? They're ND too. 1, its a lot more common than people wanna admit, and 2, ND people gravitate towards other ND people. so if you think its normal because everyone you hung out around acted the same, its because you sensed that as an ND individual. Additionally, being on the spectrum is often genetic, so if you think its normal because your family thinks its normal, i got some news for ya.

Basically as things become more accepted we start seeing it a lot more often in the world. And ive seen a lot of people (older generations mostly) complain that we are making "everything autistic" when in reality thats just how it is. Not every little thing is neurodivergent, but its more common than they'd like to think it is.

Additionally, same thing with the queer community.

"Everyone is gay nowadays, its a trend!"

Its not a trend and lemme explain to ya why.

1: acceptance. We dont live in a perfect world and Queer communities still aren't safe. However, they are a lot safer than they were, say, 50 years ago. And as communities become more accepting, more people that fall under those categories feel safe enough to show themselves. There are just as many gay people as there were 50 years ago, you're just seeing more because they actually are safe enough to show it publicly. And thats coming from our current society which still isnt THAT safe. In another 30 or so years, HOPEFULLY, the world will be even MORE accepting and we'll see even MORE queer people.

2: information. With acceptance comes new knowledge. New science on the subjects and more access to that information learned. There are many people, today and in the past, who are Queer and just never realized it because they didnt have the information accessible to learn about it. (Same with people being Neurodivergent. so many people who are who just dont know because they never got taught.) I've heard so many stories of moms and grandmas expressing "every girl wants to kiss girls!" when in reality they are sapphic and just dont know. Ive heard so many stories of parents expressing "my spouse is the only one ive ever wanted to have sex with. nobody else sparked it, and even now i dont ever really think about it" and they are in fact on the asexual spectrum. So many people who feel slightly out of place and try to convince themselves its normal, when in reality its NOT normal. But guess what? that's okay. its okay to not be normal. because the more we accept the not normal, the more normal it becomes.

and 3: everything is a trend. Being gay or ND isnt a stand-alone trend because EVERYTHING becomes a trend at some point. yes, i myself have witnessed many people who are not queer pretend to be queer, and many people who are not ND pretend to be ND. but that happens with EVERYTHING! new clothing trends come out, last a year, and die. New songs get popular, trend on every tiktok video for a while, and then never again. And new ideas get thrown into society's shared brain, and people hook onto them for a while. Yes there are a lot of people who ARENT queer or ND and just claim to be as a trend. The same as how there are many people who go through a gothic phase in their teens. Im not saying that them claiming to be queer or ND as a trend is OKAY, but i AM saying that you shouldn't look down upon these "trending" communities because every single community has that happen to them. No, being gay is not a trend. Yes, some people make it a trend, but just because a few people do it on purpose, it doesnt erase the thousands of people who had to be that way.

Additionally, there are many people who aren't Gay or ND that think they may be, go through a phase saying they are, and then later discover they were wrong. and thats okay too! because they are expirimenting. we are living social beings, we expiriment as a part of life. If someone thinks they may be one way, tries it out, and then later realizes they were wrong, thats perfectly fine. because how else would they find out? Ever turned your nose to some weird food your parents gave you that you've never had before and they say "How do you know you hate it if you've never tried it?" Exact same gimmick. You may be able to use context clues to figure out if it works for you, but you may never truly be sure until you get in there and TRY IT. And if you're wrong that is okay, it doesn't change your identity it all. In fact, it confirms it even more.

All in all i just wanted to ramble a bit. i keep seeing old kooks complain about how all these new things are trendy, when in reality, they're just finally becoming socially accepted as normal after all this time.

Love you all. Big hugs and kisses to all my fellow NDs and/or queers!