#i just dont know how
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I was casually thinking about who would Matt be closest to amongst the group (after Toey and Mick obviously), and now there is a seed planted in my head that It Has To Be Chain, while i have no clue where this comes from.
#it makes sense to me#i just dont know how#chain we are#matt we are#we are series#we are the series#gmmtv#we are#thai bl#thai series#mickmatt#mattmick#chainpun#we are gang#friendship on we are
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day 1: denial
#shizaya#shizuo heiwajima#orihara izaya#shizayaweek2023#helllouuu#so my tablet doesnt work#lets pretend we all know how *this* depicts denial#like#i know it does okay trust me Its there BUT#i just dont know how
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been on my grind i am becoming an academic weapon my brain gets 10 times bigger every day
#i am sooo enjoying this year thus far#also i wrote like 90 percent of a lil katsuki drabble so many months ago#aged up au ariana grande inspired singer au pro hero bf katsuki#type shit#i have yet to post it 🫡 never finished it bc i can never finish a story like ever its so bad for me#i just dont know how#in other news#i am in longing for a man aka i want a bf#but thats not news so maybe its just#olds?? good grief lmao
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holy d[f]ang that dream was weird :0
OK OK so um I’m a guy-broken…sad..?not sad??? Idk tired guy?? And I was preparing to preform Uptown Girl for a…country…show yea I don’t know why either-oh yea I was preforming with bff for some reason
But the “very cool” band that tried DIDNT PLAY THE LIL VOCAL RIFF SO I GOT REALLY MAD ?? AND I YELLED AT THEM?? Cough so I looked for another band XP
But I also had this romance…wiht some cafe lady because idk I had some deal with the devil or something…anyway it ended off like “yay my life’s sm better” <- how does that even CONNECT to the uptown girl thing XD and my love interest didn’t really have a human form atm so she has that now because deal with the devil was broken or something idk AND THEN MY LOVE INTEREST WAS SECRETLY A BRATZ DOLL OR SOMETHING IDK WHY *sob emoji*
Cough anyway
#Just thoughts#knizuu is well…knizuu#IDK HOW I GOT THAT DREAM#TBH#I JUST DONT KNOW HOW#/silly but REAL
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Professor Hix of the Necromancy department is a morbidly funny guy. The discussion on how best to prepare an (ethically sourced) human head for use as a football is... fascinating. Not nice. But fascinating.
#no idea what kind of cw I should put on this one#let me know if you do#ill happily tag it#i just dont know how#unseen academicals#discworld#gnu terry pratchett#wizards novels#rose rambles#rose reads
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comic
#badtober#badtober2024#my art#digital art#batman#bruce wayne#mlp#mlp fim#mlp g4#pinkie pie#mlp pinkie#joker#dc joker#crossover#I really dont know how Ive managed to get this much mileage out of batman X mlp crossover art. Why is my brain stuck on this.#also i cheated a bit for this prompt bc I had that first panel drawn back in August and just made another drawing to turn it into a comic
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Local PHD student at wizard school HARRASSED!! FOR SHAME!!
#laios touden#falin touden#marcille donato#farcille#arts#dungeon meshi#hello Im back again! to tumblr#also Im pretty shamlessly using beebfreeb 's falin outfit. I like it a lot I think thats how she is#delicious in dungeon#obviously influenced by some other peoples designs of modern designs figured Id put that disclaimer i do love those#i have no idea what the canonicity of laios going to the library is. like. he knows a lot#but i dont know if thats from books necessarily? jsut thought it was funny just pretend its this particualr libraary if that bothers u I gu
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ngl im not even a superman fan. i just REALLY like clark kent,,, (thank you, Smallville, for that.)
#i personally think clark should get to be just a brick wall of a guy. as a treat.#i hope my adoration for clark is visible in how i draw him. i love him so much and i dont even know any of his lore#outside of what was in Smallville ofc#clark kent#superman#kal el#lois lane#bruce wayne#fanart#art#clark kent fanart#i will forever love clark and just be meh about superman#supe's just not as cool
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you know when yiure like jot even upset but you are so youre hapy but you want to cry
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i have neither a good imagination nor aphantasia, but a secret third thing
#adhd#doodles#show this to your therapist instead of failing to explain it like i did#me: its like i cant control my thoughts like i was trying to think of something earlier today but#all i could think of was this giraffe eating leaves and no matter how hard i tried to focus the thought would just. replay#my therapist: what happens if you try to let the thought just play out#me: ........ i dont know but i dont want it to be there at all when im trying to do simple addition in a maths exam#10k#100k
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skeletons have zero right to be that hard to draw
#farcille#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#marcille donato#falin touden#marcille#falin#dunmeshi#dunmeshi fanart#please dont look too closely i dont know how many ribs i drew but i know its wrong#just look at the pretty fabric oouuuug..#jangles keys#you dont see any skeleton... what skeleton...... i didnt draw any skeeleton......#fynori art tag :)#anyways enjoy the yuri
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#stfu atticus#i know no on wants to hear this so im shouting it in the tags#i just want to be loved. and i want to be angry. and i want to feel right for once#i didnt eat today#barely ate yesterday#maybe 5 hours of sleep a night max#im breaking down#i cant do anything anymore#i just dont know how#i dont have the energy. for anything
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because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.
you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.
you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.
don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.
if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.
you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:
how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!
aren't you happy yet?
#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail''#ah tumblr...#writeblr#warm up#idk . having trouble writing rn#ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum#i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for#i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" .....#no.... not really.....#idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography#like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days#furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing...#this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey.#idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me.#i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will#actually ever happen#ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum
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reflection
#anyways so i think samus has major survivors guilt and is a super perfectionist. The type of girl who reimagines scenarios in her mind#And thinks about how she could have done better. like ‘if i had woken up sooner maybe i could have saved everyone in prime 3’#so i think she says she doesnt know anything about herself because shes so hypercritical of her actions she doesnt see herself as a person#while also her hyper critical-ness shows how she says she wants to ignore herself but she literally cant because she has so many criticisms#oh i wanted to include the ppl from the prime 2 manga in that one shot but was like ‘i dont think ppl will recognize them’.#also lol the existence of dark samus would fuck her up SOOOO bad like it only exists bc she exists & its responsible for the gang’s deaths#okay im done rambling tldr MENTAL ILLNESS.#metroid#samus aran#loneart#metroid dread#metroid prime#super metroid#metroid series#i dont wanna tag all the games. There just those games is enough#hall of fame
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feel free to put location/area in the tags
#camera talks#genuinely wondering cuz i've heard a few versions and i want to know how other people learned :)#for the record im from new england and learned never eat soggy waffles#sorry if i missed popular sayings or if people just dont say these#i looked things up <3
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BTW... PSA.... even if we arent mutuals if youre in my notes regularly theres a Very high chance i am still fond of you. yes im vaguing someones tags on the compliment the person u rbed this from post. but like. positive vaguing? THE POINT IS im weird abt following ppl but IM STILL SENDING U FOND VIBES...
#i have to acclimate myself into following people. first i have to spend a few days to weeks checking someones blog manually#and i cant follow too many new people in the same burst or else theres TOO MUCH new unfamiliarity on my dash#and i become a small and easily frightened beast alarmed by change#also im just....................... incredibly picky kjhsdkjjkdsj sometimes ppl i generally am :)! towards do occasionally rb#from someone who i want to throw bricks at. and then i cant follow them but im still :)! when i see them in notifs#and sometimes its just that im going AAAA!!! AAAA!!! and cant put more new things on my dash#or in some cases its someone im fond of seeing/chatting w whenever we have talked BUT they simply are also into stuff im not rly into#and i dont want it on my dash despite liking them as a person. etc. you know how it is#ALL OF WHICH TO SAY................... :)!#rimi talks
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