#i just don't understand this and i don't want it and i'm so. ugh.
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1st century roman siege of jerusalem dashboard simulator
🐮 barkamtza
why does this shit always happen to me
#oh my goddd the ONE time it seems like people actually wanna hang out with me. #turns out they meant to invite kamtza instead #everyone hates me and i was SO fucking nice i offered to pay for the party #god i'm so pathetic. kms kms kms #they're gonna pay for this i swear #delete later
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📜 zekharya-ben-avkolas
Ok so obv it's not ok to sacrifice a blemished calf but the blemish is just on the eyelid? So maybe it's ok? But also and i don't want people to start going around thinking that it's ok to sacrifice blemished animals. But the thing is that if i don't bar Kamtza will tell the Romans we insulted them and that will be bad probably. And like no one likes bar Kamtza anyway will people really miss him..... but ugh neither of these seem like good things to do i don't feel like it's my place to make a decision about this :/
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🏛 vespasian reblogged
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off to war wish me luck! 🇲🇪🏹
🏺neronero
nvm guys. ✡️✡️
🏛 vespasian
my turn lol
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🧑🏽🦳 not-an-airport reblogged
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Hey everyone! These are difficult times, and some friends and I have put together some mutual aid resources for our community to have access to wheat, barley, wine, salt, oil, and wood! More info below the cut. Take care of yourselves! 🫶
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🧑🏽🦳 not-an-airport
fuck
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⚔️ biryonei-yerushalayim
anonymous asked:
Hey, I'm trying to ask this in good faith, and I hope you can take it that way. how can you possibly defend burning our grain stores. I understand that you want to radicalize more people but you're taking things too far. Jerusalem's blood is on your hands.
anon, what you need to understand is that the blame for the carnage in jerusalem lies primarily in the hands of the roman invaders and secondarily in the hands of the rabbis for refusing to resist. would you have told the hashmonaim not to resist their oppressors by any means necessary? just because this is getting inconvenient for you doesn't mean we shouldn't be doing it. it's frankly offensive that you'd imply that we, the defenders of jerusalem, should incur any blame for her current state.
#biryonim.answer #grain storage discourse
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��� goel-yisrael
did anyone else see the "zealot blocklist" going around lmaooo
#how do these liberals expect anyone to take them seriously #do they not have anything better to do.
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ughh why is my servant so incompetent! i deserve the best flour why doesn't he get it...
stopbeingpoor
ykw i'll go get some myself. i'm desperate at this point i gotta do something
stopbeingpoor
EWWWW update: i stepped in something NASTY. this is why i don't fucking go out oh my god im gonna die
stopbeingpoor
gonna throw my gold & silver away for the good of the peasants or whatever it's not like it's any use to me when im literally dying -_-
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lmao look at this it's exactly what yehezkel was talking about! ur gold won't save you!
#yehezkel #marta b. baitos
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🕎 yalla-hapoel
🌿 amicus-iudaeorum asked:
Hey, love your posts! They're very informative about the Jewish perspective on this war. I'm just wondering whether you condemn the actions of the zealots? I don't really feel comfortable following someone who supports that.
are you fr.
#if youre seriously concerned about this idt this is the blog for you i fear
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📖 ben-zakkai
⚰️⚰️⚰️⚰️ lol
🛡 goel-yisrael
? what does this mean
🗡 abbasikkara
dw about it bestie
🛡 goel-yisrael
ok 💗 yay 💗
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👩🏽🌾 discoursedumpblog
I've compiled a list of some of the most rabid zealots on this website. Remember, don't engage, just block and move on.
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some jew got an audience with me & called me king (im literally not lol thats so disrespectful to the actual king + if i was king then he shouldve met w me much earlier??), i think i should kill him
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AND my shoe is being so annoying. horrible day 👎
📖 ben-zakkai
omg just came across this old post
🏛 vespasian
OMG sorry i don't mean it anymore 🙏
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🫒 a-simple-yid
yirmiyahu tzadak...
#not to pretentiously quote tanakh but literally like. #hashiveinu hashem eilekha venashuva hadeish yameinu kekedem.
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#this doesnt make sense in terms of timeline of course. esp bc i mention the stammaim. but it's ok#long post#jumblr#txt#this is all entirely gemara-based tbc. gittin 55b–56b#you all better appreciate the effort that went into this
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A little drabble I wrote after some inspiration and a little break between drawing some art <3
I just wanted to experiment and see how an interaction like this would go between them. It was supposed to be angst but I couldn't help changing it a bit. >3<
Please let me know if I did the couch potato justice @zu-is-here and if there's anything else I could've done better!
“Aim…” Axel mumbled, looking as if he were ready to crumble or disappear from the anxiety in his soul. It formed a painful lump, making his words struggle to come out properly. But under all that was the undying love and trust of the man before him. In all his unconditional love there was still part of him that needed to know, it needed to know that Aim was truly there, and that he was his, no matter how murky the waters they swam in were. Of course it was a silly question though. He knew that answer well enough. Aim was his, but…was Axel himself Aim's?
“...I need you, Aim.” His voice finally managed to say. “...But I don't know if you need me.” He admitted quietly, his voice suddenly breaking.
Aim, sitting on the other side of the bed, turned to look at the distressed skeleton, offering him a look of comfort with some sort of humor attached to it. “What do ya mean? Of course I need you.” He said, sounding slightly surprised by how the shorter skeleton only seemed to look sadder at his reply.
“...No- just- ugh! You don't understand!” Axel cried out as he sat on the opposite side of the bed. “You seemed so fine before I came back to find you. Part of me wonders if I'm being selfish by asking so much of you. You don't owe me your companionship. But…but I want it, I crave it, and I crave you.” He said, looking frustrated.
“...Heh, you have no idea how nice it is having you around.” Aim said, laying back on the mattress, his arms resting above his head. That response made Axel look at him with surprise.
“If anything I probably need you more. I mean, I must've been really stuck in your head to make you come back after so long. Like a rattle in your skull?” He said in a lighthearted tone, watching Axel's face flush as he looked away.
“Hm…something like that.” Axel said quietly.
“This whole thing between us isn't bad. You've already done so much for me and-” Aim paused, noticing the little glitter from a tear that streamed down Axel's cheek. Oh no, had he said something wrong?
“You're right. You have been stuck in my head forever, and you have no idea how great it was to see you again, but…I don't want to push my feelings on you like this.” Axel said quietly, letting out a little laugh through a few sobs.
“Stars…oh stars…how are we going to make this work?” He said meekly, voice full of raw vulnerability and sorrow. His soul fluttered intensely in his chest any time he laid eyes on the man before him, couch-potato and lazy-bones aside.
“Axel, you're crying-” Aim tried, sitting up.
“Of course I am…this is never going to work!” Axel cried out, trying to wipe his tears away. “I can't even kiss you-”
“You can.” Aim replied.
“...what?” Axel said, lifting his head up to look at him, surprised by his answer. Aim looked at him with a more genuine smile. “Is that why you are so upset? Are you afraid to ask me for a hug or a kiss?” The larger skeleton asked with a little grin.
“I might not get it, but we're a team. One member just can't pull all the weight, I'm too heavy for you to be carrying all the weight of us. I can try my best for you if it will make you happy, just ask. There's nothing wrong giving back to my ‘partner’, eh?” Aim grinned, winking under his goggles.
Axel stared, the glitchy skeletons gaze was less upset, and more just shocked and moved by his words. “...you'd…you'd do that for me? Aim please…your boundaries, I don't want you to feel uncomfortable.” He said gently, trying to be careful with his wording.
“Oi! I don't mind as long as you're happy by the end of it, I gotta keep the hand who feeds me happy, don't i?~”
Axel rolled his eyes, sighing. He wiped the tears from his eyes, taking in a steady breath to calm himself. “Well…” he said, moving closer to Aim, their bodies close in contact.
“...I've always wanted to see you without your goggles. The real you. I miss your beautiful eye lights. Please…let me see you.” Axel whispered, shifting his potion, sitting right in front of Aim as he reached out to the ever important goggles that hid Aim's orange eyelights.
Aim seemed to hesitate, looking unsure as Axel grabbed the edges of his goggles with care. “Heh…they really haven't changed much.” He said, struggling to keep the smile on his face. “Are you sure it's worth your time?” The larger skeleton asked.
Axel frowned, lifting his goggles above his head gently. “...I'm sure.” He said firmly, cupping Aim's face with his hands, lifting himself up and settling amongst his partner's lap. He moved his face closer to Aim's, a small smile of appreciation and adoration flashing across his face. He was warm, very warm, and the way his eyelights stared back at him caused Axel's soul to flutter intensely with delight.
He leaned it, pressing his nose against Aim's, an affection nuzzle. “...Is this okay?” He asked after a few tense moments of silence, staring into Aim's face. The other skeleton seemed quite relaxed, his eye lights faintly illuminating the space between them like a dim light, a small light compared to the blue hue spread across Axel's face.
“Of course.” Aim said calmly, “...you know, you're actually pretty light, heh.” He teased.
“Feeling better?” Aim asked for a few moments, the warmth between them being pleasant, like a warm blanket on a cold day. Axel hesitated, his hands resting on Aim's chest as he let them go from his face.
“...May I kiss you?” Axel asked, before stopping to think for a second. “-and more?” He asked with an added huskiness to his voice, his soul beating heavily against his ribcage in a flurry of emotions.
“Sure.” Aim said simply, leaning back. His simple response caught Axel off guard. Stars, did he really trust him that much? Axel looked starstruck, staring at Aim with sparkling eyes full of a swirl of positive emotions, the tears on his face long dry.
Aim noticed, looking a little concerned, “You alright-?” He questioned, before he was cut off, his words swallowed up as Axel leaned in, pressing their mouths together in a soft, delicate motion. Axel held himself there for several moments, his breath held as he made contact with Aim, a warmth spreading over him, and a warmth he missed once he pulled away.
His voice came out in a soft tone, full of emotion.
“....Everything is fine.”
#undertale au#utmv#sanscest#oc#ari writing#errorink ship child#axel#post dark cream#aim!sans#aimel#back to work! ^3^#what if#just some fun experimentation :3#their relationship is so complicated#but they're there for each other <3#teamwork!!
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Checking the 3D and complaining that you don't have it or that you don't even see any signs is exactly why you're not getting your manifestation.
The law is very simple, if you have it in the 4D (your imagination) it's going to reflect in your 3D (your physical reality). That's all. All you have to do is accept that it's yours in your imagination and it has to appear in your 3D.
If you keep checking the 3D to see if it's actually manifested you're basically admitting that you know you don't have it.
"Damn it's not here yet", " ugh still no change", "nothing's happening" they're all affirmations and you keep repeating them and then you're surprised that you don't get what you want?
Believe me I understand being anxious, I understand that some things are just so important to us that we feel this very strong urge to check the 3D. I really get it because it's something I'm also working on. But in this case you need to know that checking if anything's changed will not get you anywhere, especially if you're worried that it hasn't manifested.
this is what happens
You're doubtful -> you check the 3D -> you don't see it -> you say it's not here, that it didn't work, that it will never manifest -> it doesn't manifest or it takes forever to manifest
this is what should happen
You're doubtful -> you say that it doesn't matter because you already have it -> you remind yourself that the 3D has to reflect the 4D -> you ignore any signs that tell you you don't have your manifestation -> you're focused on having it in your imagination -> it manifests
So many people focus on getting physical results or signs first. You want proof in the physical world so you can believe you have it in your imagination. And that's not how it works. Imagination is first. You have it in your mind first. It's the law of assumption and assumptions are things that you accept as true without any proof.
Have the assumption first and then it will manifest.
#law of assumption#loa#loassumption#manifesting#law of attraction#law of manifestation#loa blog#loa tumblr#loablr#manifest your dreams#manifest your life#manifestation#circumstances don't matter#neville goddard
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You don't understand I need ryusaekai to have slumber parties where they bond over shittalking about people.
Realistically it's kaisae the mean girls coded of the three. ...To be honest, it would just be Kaiser who keeps on ranting for hours. Sae just "hmhm"s every once in a while, half interested, half focused on the excel sheet he is currently messing with.
"You get me? Like how dare he. How fucking dare he! After all I've done for him, and he has the guts to—"
"Sit!" Ryusei is the one interrupting him this time. He is lying on his stomach on the fluffy carpet in Sae's living room. Legs dangling in the air and dressed in his pink pajama, he is currently dragging the stilo on the screen of his old Nintendo DS to pet the ugly 3d model of a chihuahua.
"Could you not?!" Because of course Shidou would be playing Nintendogs in the middle of Michael's beautiful speech.
"Huh? I needed to feed Eyesocket, you go on with your disney villain-like monologue, I'm listening."
"Disney villain-like monolo– wait, did you actually name that ugly ass dog 'Eyesocket'...?"
"You are ugly! She is beautiful, don't listen to him babygirl, he has shit taste in dogs..."
"Ugh, whatever... loser."
Shidou suddenly turns to Kaiser, showing him an all fangs grin: "Oh?"
Sae sighs, looking at the beautiful histograms he was making and ultimately deciding to focus on his partners instead:
"I want to know how Mihya's story ends" he says, shifting the focus onto him. Ryusei bats his eyelashes: "I actually want to hear the end of Micchan's story as well! Ah, and I got some gossip too! On Yocchan though~" to which both Michael's and Sae's ears perk up, although for different reasons
Kaiser then scrunches up his nose and relaxes back onto the sofa: "Ok, so, as I was saying, this fucking asshole–..."
...and back to monologuing he goes.
#silly little scenario here i go#miche writes#miche headcanons#blue lock headcanons#blue lock#bllk#michael kaiser#bllk kaiser#shidou ryusei#ryusei shidou#bllk shidou#sae itoshi#itoshi sae#bllk sae#ryusaekai#kairyusae#ryukaisae#ryukai#kaisae#ryusae
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somethings that i needed to get out regarding today's episode:
9-1-1 live airs in the US around 7 am Friday in my country and i get to watch it at 10:30 am on disney hotstar.
I couldn't wait so i was awake all night and was literally on twt since 6:30 am to get some clips.
that's where i find out that bucktommy break up.
i have been devastated all day. i have cried multiple times and i have literally lost count atp. it hurts like an actual breakup and i have absolutely no one irl to share this grief with.
the Abby being the ex-fiance wasn't even a major issue. i have been seen it done so well in so many fics.
Josh's speech was so beautiful and important but then to pull a breakup like that makes no fucking sense.
after what we saw in 8x5 breaking them made absolutely zero sense.
i was too overwhelmed so i tried to sleep and actually watched the entire episode around 11 am. I wanted to keep and open mind and analyse the episode.
twt is literally so toxic rn. I'm not even opening it.
after watching the entire episode i was even more confused as the breakup made zero sense.
we have had 8 seasons of character growth for buck, if they end up making him go back to casual relationships it just feels a complete wastage of 8 seasons of growth.
and from what we've seen in the past episodes the breakup was completely uncharacteristic to both buck and tommy.
it made no sense. why would tommy put so much effort if he knew it wouldn't last.
him constantly showing up for evan and talking about family just made zero sense for him to break up like that.
also it kinda felt weird to bring moving in together before saying i love yous.
and the way he said "the parking spot was too good to be true". this breakup doesn't feel good at all. he was obviously in pain and so was buck. this isn't doing any of them any good.
utter bullshit.
plus the "I'll see you around buck" broke me. like why the fuck would you do that to me and to buck.
it felt like someone put fucking alcohol all over a stab wound and then rubbed salt all over it.
LOW BLOW.
now coming to the post ep interviews which btw made it worse.
i was still under the impression that the way the breakup happened there was still hope for reconciliation because remember even tarlos went through breakups.
but then lou confirmed he might not be back and that this is it. specially that buck line. UGH.
and that #letbuckfuck interview with oliver really triggered me. I'm a bisexual woman and the reason i really loved buck's discovery of his sexuality was bcs Oliver was very determined in Givin a good bi rep.
but this doesn't feel that way. he could have said that he wants to see buck explore his sexuality more with both men and woman but the whole "girl, girl, guy. guy, girl, guy" montage was a very disturbing image.
it feels very stereotypical and biphobic.
it just hurts me so much. idk why i expected so much from a network tv show who has been queerbating for years.
i am gonna be watching this season just to see how they salvage buck's relationship and sexuality. it feels incomplete.
but if it goes in the buck 1.0 direction that's it for me.
i watch 911 as an escape from reality and if it goes so bad i am not continuing with the show.
it has already tested my limits and mental health enough.
also i need to point out that there are a lot of people who enjoy watching sports a lot more than they enjoy playing it. buck is a watcher. he would have loved seeing the Lakers match. just bcs he doesn't like to play doesn't mean he hates basketball.
a little extra side notes-
really excited for another buckley han kid. hope they don't ruin it. want to see how they deal with ppd this time.
also happy for eddie and really hoping he gets chris back soon.
ya'll need to understand how platonic friendship buddie is also so important rn then them getting together bcs eddie is def not ready to date.
if he starts dating he'll feel super guilty for putting his desire above chris all over again.
ALSO FOR PEOPLE IN THE BACK- EDMUNDO DIAZ IS CANON STRAIGHT.
#911#911 abc#bucktommy#evan buckley#tommy kinard#911 season 8#i'm literally sobbing#i'm just gonna cry myself to sleep now#thinking about tevan#eddie diaz#madney#maddie buckley#maddie han#chimney han#911 08x06#fuck you universe#i hate today#i hate twt fans#and i really despise myself for getting so emotionally involved to a fictional character again#they can never make me hate you tommy kinard#lou ferrigno jr#oliver stark#tevan
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...did disney just announce a moana 2 on twitter?? to come out this year??? when we're already supposed to be getting a tv show this year and a way-too-early live action remake next year?? 😐 i really enjoyed moana and have been excited for the show, and yet i'm honestly not the least bit excited at all and a little frustrated and confused because just... what. i literally had to check if this was a parody account when i saw it:
because it is SO WEIRD to announce something like this so suddenly like this and i don't understand where it came from when, again, we were supposed to be getting a disney+ show in the works this year?! is that canceled in favor of this or what (edit because i added this in a reblog but i wanna make sure people who only come across the original post see it: the answer is yes. yes, this is a disney+ series that got canceled and turned into a movie)? 😭 also the only real sequel films, not counting stuff like package films, that walt disney animation studios has actually ever made are the rescuers down under, winnie the pooh 2011, ralph breaks the internet, and frozen 2, and the latter of those just gave me an inherent lack of faith in any future sequel WDAS would create because i don't like either of them. i'm half-expecting moana and maui to be really OOC and then go their separate ways because they're just too different for some reason at the end of this movie.
#UGHHHH i feel like i'm being so negative today i'm sorry#i just don't understand this and i don't want it and i'm so. ugh.#moana#disney#moana 2
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Sometimes at work it's not my place to tell people the things I want to say, and I find I often go home at the end of the rougher days to stand blankly in my shower and tell myself over and over what I wish I could pass on.
This accomplishes very little, and mostly just gives me a tension headache, but through it all I think I've narrowed myself down to a few solid things I'd like to tell people the most.
You can't change people. Not permanently, not for anythig. You can support them, encourage them, love them, give them tools and opportunities and resources, but you can't make them change. They can change themselves if they want to, but they have to want to, and they have to want it for themselves, because they're the only one that's certain to be with them forever.
For better or worse, you make your own choices, and blaming bad choices on others doesn't only work to absolve you of responsibility- it also robs you of control. Because if you say you only did something because I did something, then you arent only shifting blame- you're admitting that you cannot control yourself, that you cannot truly make choices for yourself, that other people can control you- and as long as you truly beleive that, you'll keep facing the same problems over and over. You'll keep letting others dictate your choices, because you'll beleive that they can, and you'll never be free.
White knights on horseback are from fairytales. Nobody can help you if ou're not willing to help yourself. To try, to put the dirty work in, to belive you're worth that effort- Act as though nobody is coming to save you. From a struggle, from pain, from bad relationships, from yourself. And when you do save yourself, because you will, because failure here isn't an option if you want to survive, you'll never find another dragon that can keep you prisoner.
Don't say anything to anyone that you wouldn't want them remembering forever.
Doing the right thing in bad circumstances is hard. It's the hardest thing. But if you make the choice to do that hard thing anyways, despite your fear, you'll go on the rest of your like knowing that you're the sort of person who did something.
The present only seems the hardest because the past I over and the future hasn't happened.
There's so much joy ahead of you, the kind you can't possibly understand until you see it yourself.
The responsibility of consequences is often disguised as the power of permission. "I won't do this if you help me", "I'll work on my anger if you do this for me", "I promised you I'd quit, but can I have just one?". The unspoken question is, "Can it be your fault if this goes badly?"
You cant make someone love you the way you need to be loved. Someone can love you very much and still be bad for you, even if you love them very much in return. Two people can love each other very, very much, and try their very best, and still be wrong for each other.
Sometimes being near to someone changes you, even in good ways, and the people you become don't fit together as well as the people you were.
Caring takes work. Even if it's real. Especially if it's real. And the most important gestures aren't the grand, poetic, songs-and-flowers-and-tears moments; they're getting out of bed even though you don't want to. Paying attention to things you don't enjoy. Scrubbing pans, or opening a window, saying "thank-you", or helping carry groceries into the house. The small things fill the big things- without the small, boring, mediocre things, big things feel hollow.
Thrre is honour and dignity in humble work.
If you are a cruel and spiteful person, then you will find every place you visit to be full of the same cruel, spiteful people. This is not because the world is as cruel as you, but because everywhere you are, you will be disliked. This is the curse that comes with being persistently cruel and spiteful.
If you are a kind and ppsitive person, you will repeatedly encounter kind and positive people, because as they grow familiar with you, they will be happier to have you near. This is the reward of being a kind and positive person.
When splitting paths with loved ones, briefly or forever, aim for your last words to always be "I love you".
#I'm still so young and ignorant#but I wish someone had told ME these things before I had to learn them#And now when shit goes south and everything is over and calm again the same things just roll though my head#Over and over and over#It's like everyone I meet has the same 3 problems and its ruining their lives#I just want to take everyone I meet by the shoulders and shake them#I KNOW why this is happening to you#Do you realize you can be better?#Do you realize you can do it?#Aren't you terrified of wasting your life like this?#*I* want to be happier#*I* used to be so much worse than I am#And I don't have it all figured out#But if we all decide to help ourselves then it'll be that much easier to help each other#Right?#It's so hard to lift dead weight#You need to kick against the waves with me#You need to WANT to float#Do you understand#Ugh it's 6am#This has been your overdramatic midnight ramble#Imma grill me a cheese and go back to bed#Blaurfhgh
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kinda wild to me that one of the most compelling aspects of both Chuuya and Kunikida's characters to me, that I never really see talked about, is how they're heavily set on a doomed crash course towards complete and utter destruction, and how I am so, so worried for them both.....
#bungou stray dogs#been thinking a lot about chuuya lately (shocking for me i know (said with no sarcasm truly lmao it is rare for me))#cause of the 15 manga and also playing the fucking jeht quest in genshin impact ugh (where's the one dual genshin bsd fan who Understands)#but like this pressure has been building up for chuuya for so long due to being used and manipulated by all these people#first the sheep then mori then verlaine then still mori now#he was groomed since childhood just like dazai#but unlike dazai he didn't have an oda to help him get out of the mafia........ he's still stuck there#and his personality is different from dazai's. dazai was more self-aware imo (but still a groomed emotionally abused kid don't get me wrong#but chuuya's whole thing is needing to belong and wanting a leader to be loyal to but ending up in positions of leadership himself#which makes him feel pressured but he accepts and stifles any negative feelings just because he wants to belong#and all this crushed him with the events in the light novels and yeah he went through character growth but he's...... Still In The Mafia...#and that fucking scene asagiri added to the cannibalism stage play i don't think hardly anyone even knows about bc IT'S NOT DISCUSSED ANYMO#where mori emotionally manipulates him with the flags!!! and it deeply hurts him!!! and he presumably deals with that shit all the time!!!#it is WORRISOME. it WORRIES ME okay.#chuuya doesn't have anyone who can save him from the mafia (dazai is in no position to okay; it's all he can do just to try to save himself#and it's so so scary. it spells awful things for him.#didn't asagiri say he'd have a rough path or something??? and he added that fucking scene in the play!!! it haunts me!!#i fully expected this shit to hit a turning point in the meursault arc but we can't have nice things i guess#and as for kunikida a;lskdfl (took me this long to get to him oop) literally the ending of Entrance Exam (the novel) is just#One Big Foreshadowing for Kunikida's downfall#he's compared to the azure king for a reason. Sasaki saw the azure king in him for a reason. it's fucking worrying!!!!!#there hasn't really been anything like that since in the manga (just like for chuuya lol ugh) but he's TERRIBLE at coping with his trauma#and it only gets more apparent once shit hit the fan in the doa/hunting dogs/meursault arc#it's not good!!! i'm worried for kunikida too!!!!#even if the manga isn't focusing on this these worries are always in the back of my mind man#both kunikida and chuuya are doomed to hit some kind of breaking point eventually and i await those moments with dread yet anticipation#i want dazai to be able to save kunikida from the despair being too good a person brings the way he couldn't save oda#and chuuya.... if we get a scene with him & mori mirroring the one in dark era where dazai finds out that mori orchestrated the kids' death#oh man i think i'll fucking die (give it to me i need to cry)
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#i know i am in a teeny tiny minorityy of da fans but#i am. so tired of v4rric#i'm tired of him being in everything#(tired FOR him too. let the man rest)#tired of him being used to market every-damn-thing#i know I KNOW since almost everybody loves him he's a pretty surefire way to get ppl's attenion#but my interest in the game literally DROPPED seeing him involved#ugh you again#i used to like him!!!!#a lot!!!!#but when i say don't leave a seb-mancing hawke in the fade if you wanna keep liking v4rric I MEAN IT#his dismissive tone and insulting word choice#about telling sebastian his WIFE is (probably) dead sent my opinion plummeting to the depths of the deep roads#(i have to tell sebastian or he'll throw a fit. he'll THROW A FIT)#i try to keep it to myself bc i know ppl like/love him and i don't want to ruin that#bc i understand why you'd like him. i do#but for all the talk of him being hawke's best friend he does NOT act like it if you romance sebastian#not to mention the ''ignoring letters from starkhaven when he's viscount bc he doesn't like the man in charge'' things from trespasser :\#i just want to meet and play with new characters rather than have the same guy shoved in my face every time around#varric critical#(if this shows in the tag and you like him i'm v sorry. i tired to censor)
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I just listened to a couple songs from current female artists who... all sound the same. Like they've all got that one particular kind of breathy pretty flawless voice. The way 90% of female singers seem to sound nowadays. It drives me bonkers. The only good thing about it is that it makes me feel like, "well, I may not have a very professionally-trained-sounding voice, but thank god I don't sound like THEM at least".
#there are a lot of specific things about my singing voice that i would like to work on#but i definitely don't ever want to lose my scratchy twangy messy scrappy sound#i fucking love that i don't sound like every other female singer out there and i don't ever want that 'trained out of me'#don't mind my bitching#i'm just resentful that the potential variety of female voices is so limited in popular music#meanwhile the men are out there with all these unique fantastic sounds and doing very well for themselves#tom waits; neil young; bob dylan; willie nelson; herbert grönemeyer; udo lindenberg; axl rose; joe strummer; etc.#you could argue that any of these guys don't sound 'pretty' (i would personally disagree. but i could understand the argument)#but each of them has a fucking fantastic voice AND they sound like THEMSELVES! you can't mistake those voices for anyone else!#ugh ugh ugh ugh i want there to be more expressive weird-sounding variation in women's voices#why are we all supposed to sound 'pretty' - and not just pretty but pretty in the EXACT SAME WAY?!?#drives me up the fckn wall. i swear to god sexism is SO ubiquitous#cosmo gyres#tag rant#about music#my music
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the fuzzy steering wheel and seatbelt covers... 🥺
#the office australia#also 🕷️.#ugh he's just so cute smiling like that too ❤️🥺#I don't understand everyone shitting on this show because it's really not bad at all 🤨 especially Lloyd. I love him already 😭#also I'm sorry I've been absent for a while! 🥲 I really want to get back into writing soon 👀😩
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something about getting to the end of something you're making and just like. reconciling yourself to the fact that it's kind of garbage. and then looking at it again a few days later and being like. actually. this is pretty good. and then you get so used to this cycle that when you're at the point of actively thinking something you're making is garbage...you're smart enough to know rationally that you're just In The Thick Of It and it will probably look pretty a-okay in a few days. you're a smart person! you understand this! but somehow. it still just looks like garbage. even though you KNOW what your brain is doing. you know it!! you understand!!!
anyway what's that called.
#i want to be very clear i am not looking for reassurance because i do genuinely logically understand what's happening right here#i am fully positive that i'll be perfectly fine with what i'm making in a few days. i understand!!! so this isn't about reassurance!#this is me pointing at this phenomenon and saying HEY HUMAN BRAINS SURE ARE A LITTLE FUCKED UP HUH#that's what's happening here.#what the hell was evolution cooking with when it spat US out lmao#the way one can break down exactly what's happening in one's brain but still can't turn the switch that's doing it OFF?#amazing#who designed these things. i have some FEEDBACK.#humans#writing#creating#me: ugh this sucks | also me: but eh that's just my brain doing the thing | me: it still feels like it sucks | also me: just don't feel!!!
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nothing makes you want to chew your fingernails more than when you proudly mention a hobby project to a friend and they say "oh cool :)" without asking any follow-up questions
#i completely understand that people just aren't interested don't get me wrong#but i want to talk about it so baddddd ugh#my brushstrokes#I'm telling you bc i want to tell you about it man :( okay nvm :(#to be fair i have also done this and in retrospect it makes me want to die every time bc I don't always recognize the bid in the moment#(i am so sorry frens i promise i love hearing abt what ur up to)
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Me, working on an actual "serious" artpiece: ahah I'll just mess around, sketch and leave it unclean and messy
Also me, working on a meme artpiece: well, I shall do a fully rendered colored piece, or else
#no you don't understand#adding color is harsh always for me#i am improvising at best#so when I went and did my solangelo napping sketches I just left them like that#messy lineart basically#and then i started working on a piece based on the “meme” terrifingly blue eyes-bottomless black eyes because it's obviously them#and you know#of course it's gotta have color or the very meaning of the meme is lost#problem is I don't know how to color in a simple way#so I'm doing the full serious thing#it's going well so far but I am Afraid#my art?#solangelo#got me doing crazy stuff#also send help i can't for my life draw william andrew solace in a way that satisfies me and especially in a consistent way#like nico is not much consistent either but he is *there*#will however? nah#crying sobbing#i need to decide in better detail what I want him to look like#i think it's the eyes that are giving me issues#like shape etc#also omg#in this meme thing#it was so hard sketching him decently and at one point I think he looked kinda like fiona from shrek#like-#i have nothing against Fiona but#(ugh i feel so pretentious calling it 'artpiece' but uh what else should I call it)#arting
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Totally unaffected by this gesture of affection, definitely (Patreon)
#Doodles#SCII#Damned#The Captain#ZEX#Forgive the quality lol I wanted to make them pretty but then- Well you know lol#Dandelions <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3#You know it's bad when you start getting excited about the most mundane little signifiers <3#Dandelions deserve way more love than they get anyway it all balances out#I just hghh it's such a simple setup but there's a lot of feelings that can be expanded upon!#Like would Zelnick know about dandelions cultural ties?? He grew up on Unzervalt - unless someone brought some with them!#Or explained it I guess - but also Unzervaltians seem like scrappy underdogs sprouting up in the sidewalk cracks to defy the Ur-Quan too#Feels like it would actually mean a lot to him if he knew their symbolism!#But even if he didn't - they're Earth Flora! A piece of his home that /should/ just be mundane and everyday and not a big deal but it is!!#I legit teared up at Zelnick appreciating a blue atmosphere ah <3#He loves Earth so much wah <3 The naturalistic storytelling in his internal monologue are genuinely So Good#And then y'already know I love ZEX gifting him flowers lol I really do need to finish that one comic I posted the preview of it's cute!#Any little way that he engages with human courtship is The Cutest to me <3 Trying so hard to impress his love!#Trying so hard to cross that cultural gap agh it gets me bad! Seeing humans as more than just pretty somethings to be enjoyed at a distance#ZEX's pride also gets me bad hehe but I really love when he uses his intelligence to try to relate and understand#See humans as complex individuals both personally and in different cultures! He gets so distracted so easily hehe silly ♪#Also I don't know if I have anywhere else that it'd come up but agh gods his and Zelnick's conversation about the eventual fallout of ZEX's#kidnap attempt - Literally The Best like ugh!! ♥ I /tried/ to write something half that exact and eloquent and it's just right there! Gah!!#S'beautiful s'so good fjdslafd I'm love I'm love
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i've been seeing people say "not everyone can be lewis" in response to what the drivers have been saying in the press conference and media, and what i don't understand is: why not? what's stopping them from speaking about different issues? why is it that lewis is expected and able to be well spoken about various issues in the paddock yet suddenly when it comes to other drivers it's 'oh well he's not lewis so that's the best they can do 🤷🏻♀️'
#i mean i know the answer it's just ugh frustrating i guess. and i'm a little frustrated so i'm just venting#like i get that there's pr involved and people don't want to get into controversy and trouble and whatever#and i understand that it's hard to talk off the cuff. i'm also someone who can't talk off the cuff or in general#but the drivers are prepped in advance for questions like these. lewis doesn't do interviews unprepared and neither do the other drivers#idk it's just annoying to me that people are just holding the drivers to different standards#like idk if it's intentional but it just gives off the impression that people are making excuses. like lewis is some kind of unreachable#pinnacle of morality that the other drivers can't come close to when that isn't the case lol#lewis hamilton#roscoehamiltons.txt
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