#i hope you're okay

[saiwormoon]

but not kiss, faye webster

[ranboolivesaysstuff]

my girlfriend and i broke up and one of the reasons was because i talked abt ur streams too much. So.

Good you don't wanna date someone that's WEAK

[dumblr]

We don't talk much, but I just gotta say, I miss you and I hope that you're okay.

[gigglesoup]

i miss you, baby <3

[rotting-hazelnut]

i love u guys have a good day

[advant]

I don't think you're doing very well right now..

I think you're pretending..

I think you're putting on a brave face and telling all your friends and family that your fine..

But deep down, you know that you're not..

I think every time your head hits the pillow, you think about everything you said that day and everything you didn't say that day and everything you should have said that day..

And I think you hate yourself..

I think you hate yourself for who you are and who you're not..

I think you wish you were everyone else and no one..

I wish..

I wish I could make it easier for you but I can't..

I think you're pretending that you're happy and I know you're not..

And I know that's hard to admit, but you have to, cause that's the first step in getting better..

You have to tell yourself that you know you're not happy..

You have to stop pretending..

You do..

You have to stop it..

You have to be honest with yourself and everyone around you..

You have to tell them you're struggling..

Because you are, aren't you?..

You're struggling..

[grumpycakes]

Stayed up late looking through old art because an archive is down. Then stayed up waaay to late trying to find old friends and mutuals and have failed (as usual, many of them the type to nuke their online presence without warning and start up again with a new name)

And I'm sitting here thinking through why I want to find them (close friends I miss deeply, someone who i'd been close with but we had a misunderstanding and I've never fully been able to apologize or explain now that I am in much better mental health, some who I was only a little aware of but am curious about)

And I think, for most if not all, I don't even want to have a connection if they don't. That's fine. I understand. We are adults with lives and other problems. I just want to be able to check in. To see you are around. To see what you're creating, if you are.

I don't have to be part of that. But they were all such large pieces in my journey of growing up. And to never be able to check in makes me sad.

Anyway, expect nostalgia art from my highschool OCs. Cause in trying to find something I re-read a bunch of shit. (And with the lense of NOT SEVERELY DEPRESSED AND BEEN THROUGH MANY YEARS OF THERAPY I'm now like SHITFUCKDAMMIT I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND and tears lol)

[writeforfandoms]

Sneaky gets bit by a stray cat while on leave and has to get rabies shots.

Afterwards, she secretly decides to get “rabies free” tattooed on a buttcheek.

The boys catch a glimpse after she shifts back to human form and absolutely LOSE IT

(I am definitely not debating on that tattoo myself because I just got bit by a stray cat and had to get shots)

🦝🦝🦝

Okay first off: OUCH. FUCKING OUCH. I'm so sorry, I've heard the rabies shots are like the actual worst. I hope you're okay!!

Second: that is such a Sneaky thing to do. Both getting bit and getting tattooed about it. She doesn't even tell the guys, just gets it done.

Now... who would notice it first? 👀

[m-ilkiee]

Man it’s been awhile I was busy with work and it drain me

I’ve seen a lot of terrible anons and it makes me sad how you are treated, you put so much effort and hard work on your writings, it’s like people don’t care about other health and only care about the stories itself. You have a lot of going on ever since your previous account and your starting anew, then later on same people are back and still bothering you. I’m so sorry you had to go through this and hope your health is okay and take care 🙏🏻♥️💕

Real about work being stressful. I hope you take breaks and take care of yourself.

It's alright. Things like this comes with the job I guess. I am taking more time off and taking care of my health more. Thank you so much.

[ten-of-imps]

I did something and I can't forgive myself for. I was asked for a tissue outside while walking by a very sketchy looking person at first glance. I instantly judged them and thought no way I want to have anything to do with you, you look like a dangerous old alcoholic who just got into a fight while drunk. Even if I had a tissue, which I usually do not have, I looked like I did. So both assumed things about the other person. I said no and didn't even check. After a second after the thing I came to my senses that this might have no danger for me and they just had a mild accident. I checked and surprise surprise somehow my mini bag had tissues. I could have given it to them, if only I took a moment to stop an check, maybe my first impressions would have given space to other evaluations.

I'm always so afraid of these quick and uncontrollable judgements myself, and yet that's exactly my pattern. It's not fair, it's not right, they might have been already scared and hurt after their accident. Sure I have to keep myself safe, but if only I've taken a second to consider if my judgement is true in this situation.

I hate how dumb I am sometimes, how quick I am to jump to something for the need to be right in the first time. Will I learn? I doubt so, but I'd like to. How can I expect other people to help me and not make assumptions that I'm just a beggar when I need help if that's what I do? I know that's unrelated but damn, I'm disappointed in myself. Nect time please at least take action to correct yourself, go find them and give it to them.

This will weight on me for some time. It doesn't matter if he got hurt doing something stupid or what he hadn't had experience in. Dammit. Fuck. I hope their okay, I hope they found some help, I hope they didn't get much damage from that and they didn't need much medical care. Please be okay. I'm sorry. I know it wasn't my fault but I was unfair to you.

[like-wuatafauq]

Friendly reminder, if you are able to switch therapists because you feel you're not getting help, please do. They are therapists they will be fine. What's more important is that you're fine.

I've been talking to my new therapist for a few sessions now and I got to bring up how my last therapist didn't bat an eye at what were manic symptoms except when I told my new therapist I didn't call them manic symptoms, I just listed them out and told her I was worried to experience something like that again and since my main social interaction would be my therapist and since I live alone I'd have a hard time catching it.

And she herself said "Those are actually manic symptoms and my response would not have been to ask you if you were still able to manage financially then you'd be fine, my response would be to ask you more questions and go in depth"

She also said that although those are manic symptoms it doesn't necessarily mean I'm bipolar but that my file says I'm diagnosed PTSD when she believes it should actually be CPTSD. As shitty and fucking overwhelming it is to open up about things that happened growing I'm just glad I can finally get some help. She offered CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) so maybe this will help me work through things better. So if yall see me go in and out or act fucking out of it or just shutdown just know I'm literally digging up repressed childhood shit I thought I would never open up about. Like seriously. I thought I was gonna take it to the grave. But I want to be better and get help.

Hope yall take care and also don't be afraid to switch meds if you have to, I'm currently working on that too! So just make sure you're okay! Take your meds, drink and eat something okay!

[eoindroopy]

12-15-2

your neon pink hair glistens in the sunshine,

in the playground we spend all of our time,

Your room is messy and so is mine,

Our entire lives are intertwined,

The smell of monster and vapes linger for hours,

I can see you in all your favorite flowers,

you're the only one who knows when my laughs are fake,

my trust in you could never break,

Over the years I have seen your violets turn to roses,

And the smiles that he makes you pose with,

I wish you could see as clearly as I do,

That he has turned you from pink to blue,

Your hair is brown now and you argued for that nose ring,

and you're proud to be wearing it bravely as it's shining,

I love the person you are more than anything else in the world,

But I'd give anything to see your true smile unfurl,

You do not get to do this to yourself it's unfair,

To lead a life filled with despair,

When I have seen sunshine leave your fingertips,

And the laugh of an angel escape from your lips,

You used to let pigeons climb all over you,

Just so that you could give them food,

There hasn't been a day you haven't made me surprised,

Such childlike wonder shines from your eyes,

I don't know how to end this poem,

I just wish you didn't know him,

I hope to read this back one day,

And laugh at the time the world made you gray.

[joshym]

I love Josh with my entire being and this wasn’t his fault, but this is the PERFECT example of why I wish they’d just do regular interviews again. Like actual sit down, video interviews. This makes me sad. I bet he’s so embarrassed. ☹️

(also can we talk about how incredibly sexy his voice sounds like hell yes amen)

[a-hearts-a-heavy-burden]

- Obligatory Sad Girl Post -

Catching up on Criminal Minds and sobbing but I can't talk to YOU about it

It fucking sucks and I miss you and JFC this fucking sucks

You got me into it again but now I have nobody who cares. I miss our passionate talks and theories and yet I know that's not enough to try

[mapofthemazeinthemirror]

Lia 🥺

[softshuji]

Hey sweetheart

-Hanma

Hi baby, my love, I missed you so so much. Did you miss me? Don't worry, I didn't get into any trouble, I was on my best behaviour.

(hey precious, I hope you're holding up okay, thinking about u Kay?🥺💞)