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luke just wants the world to know he’s packing schmeat i’m so sorry
LMAOOOOO we been knew but also GIRL LET IT BREATHE!!!! LET YOUR LIL (little? idk about that...) FRIEND GET SOME AIR!!!!!!!! SHE'S SUFFOCATINGGGGGG
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Did I see you?
In the moment where I looked up, as my head sat in your lap and you played with my hair, did I see your face?
Did I feel the warmth of your body as I nuzzled into your abdomen? Was it you that spoonfed me comfort and safety?
I can't remember anymore. It was dark, you were illuminated by just a television, and my eyes felt heavy.
It could've been someone else. It could've been no one.
If it hadn't been 8:59, maybe I'd've gotten a better look instead of being jolted awake. My heart is still racing a bit; you know I don't like being scared.
Funny, that. The more I think about it, the more I consider it, the more I start to feel scared.
I think I did see you, and it scares me.
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It’s 10PM—
I should be sleeping, instead,
I Lie in bed unable to sleep, mindlessly scrolling thru social media apps,
I scroll past the zodiac sign parallels, the clips from movies and tv shows,
I scroll past the fail videos, the make
Up tutorials, the cute videos of animals
And babies.
It’s 11PM—
where did the time go?
The audios on my phone have shifted, the mood has changed;
It’s no longer the girl reading her tarot cards, or that scene from criminals minds,
The videos are no longer funny, or cute, they are not about eyeliner or lipstick,
Somehow the videos are about you.
It’s 11:30PM—
I should be sleeping,
How can I sleep when every thing I scroll reminds me of you?
How can I sleep when every sound, every scene, every text, pulls me back to you.
It’s 11:40PM—
my jaw aches from constantly clenching tight, holding back the screams I wish I could tell my pillow,
when the audio echos memories of the late nights driving, under the city lights, dreaming of futures spun together.
My stomach twists with a feeling of nausea when a scene from a tv show or movie reminds me of when we ended us,
My heart grows still, a stranger’s poem leaving me in tears as if they know the depth of what I felt for you.
It’s 11:50PM—
I should be sleeping, but how could I sleep when the only thing that draws me feel close to you again is posted by stranger’s online,
How could I sleep when I crave the audios that take me back to all those moments we shared?
How could I sleep when that scene from the After movie replays our fights?
How could I sleep when every word i read makes me miss you all over again?
It’s 12AM now—
But still, my alarms are set for the morning, my ringer on and my phone plugged in to charge,
I take a sip of water before closing my eyes, trying to sleep, only to dream of you through the night,
And then wake up just to do it all over again.
#original poem#original#poetry#hurt#in my feels#quotes#up late#I hope you never read this#love#dear diary#did you read this yet?#hate#lovers
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I Saw the TV Glow is such a uniquely, devastatingly queer story. Two queer kids trapped in suburbia. Both of them sensing something isn’t quite right with their lives. Both of them knowing that wrongness could kill them. One of them getting out, trying on new names, new places, new ways of being. Trying to claw her way to fully understanding herself, trying to grasp the true reality of her existence. Succeeding. Going back to help the other, to try so desperately to rescue an old friend, to show the path forward. Being called crazy. Because, to someone who hasn’t gotten out, even trying seems crazy. Feels crazy. Looks, on the surface, like dying.
And to have that other queer kid be so terrified of the internal revolution that is accepting himself that he inadvertently stays buried. Stays in a situation that will suffocate him. Choke the life out of him. Choke the joy out of him. Have him so terrified of possibly being crazy that he, instead, lives with a repression so extreme, it quite literally is killing him. And still, still, he apologizes for it. Apologizes over and over and over, to people who don’t see him. Who never have. Who never will. Because it’s better than being crazy. Because it’s safer than digging his way out. Killing the image everyone sees to rise again as something free and true and authentic. My god. My god, this movie. It shattered me.
#i saw the tv glow#I saw the tv glow spoilers#it is SUCH a queer story#the disassociation. the hiding in fiction to feel alive.#the horror of watching time tick by and knowing you’re not who you’re meant to be#the unique paralysis of staying put in hell because it’s safer than what might be over the horizon#the tragedy of trying to help someone who isn’t ready to be helped#god it’s so much. god. rarely do I walk out of a film and just stare soundlessly into space#anyway. please see this movie. although I sort of hope if you’re reading this post it’s cuz you already have#eta: I used he because the main character never quite vocalizes another pronoun#but this is SUCH a trans story. suuuuch a trans story. it is not even a little subtle#it’s so good and so so painful
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My favourite song used to be golden hour, but then it became about you, and then you left. Nothing but blue texts in your wake. The song haunted me, reminded me, of how you used to look at me, how we used to bicker, how we used to be.
Did you know it's almost been a year now? I love golden hour again. I walked past someone who smelt of your cologne yesterday though. You and my memories of you are finally starting to fade, and despite the fact that the smell of your cologne makes my head turn, I can't remember how you used to look at me or the sound of your laughter.
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here it is, our final night alive
and as the earth burns to the ground
#🔍#i wanna start off by saying i’m sorry.#i hope you never read this#and i hope you know i’m sorry anyway.#it’s not because of anything i’ve done and i know that.#it’s just who i am.#it’s in my nature.#i’m sorry that things had to turn out the way they did if you are reading this.#my plan is for you to not see this unless it all goes wrong.#don’t wanna worry you.#i’m a sick man.#i’m a sick sick man with sick sick desires.#sometimes those desires are for things humans can’t really understand. i know i don’t understand it.#i hope you find solace in that.#i know you won’t understand either.#i loved the time we had together.#i loved you. i do love you. and i always will.#please don’t forget that. even if you hate me please don’t forget that i love you.#i’ll try to have a new me rolled out within the week. a better me.#i hope you like him. i’ll make him just for you okay?#i love you
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two people will go through similar things & learn to cope in different ways
print ♥︎ song
#I just love these two the more I read & get to know them#I could write a novel on my izutade thoughts. it's so beyond Shipping okay. secret fifth thing#you know how it is with teen girls who are weird about each other (and how they never figure out why until later)#[clenches fist] it's about... what they REPRESENT to each other...#anyway I hope they meet again someday and I hope they're both in a better place about it. I hope they can become real friends about it then#what if ogre girls and cat girls were real huh. what then.#dungeon meshi#izutade#inutade#izutsumi#llamahearted Big Anime Girl extended universe
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warmth.
a comic about not being alone.
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#to all the trans men and women and anyone who feels like they have to stifle themselves for their own safety#may you never feel like youre alone in this#this comic is one of my more grounded ones#it just felt right to not try to decorate this one in a lot of symbolic fanfare#sometimes i have to go above and beyond to fit the vision. this felt right being pretty understated.#i really did my best with this one and i hope it shows#you all deserve so much joy and so much love from your partners in life#and i hope you like this and if you dont thats okay too#thats all#thank you for your support#and as always#thank you for reading#comic art#lgbtqia+#queer comics#hearteaters#stillindigo art#stillindigo comics
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prime and protector fanart for @astolat's story, fool's hope on ao3
#megop#maccadam#transformers#optimus prime#megatron#this is fanart from a year ago that i decided to finally post#with tf one coming out soon i hope everyone will fall in love with megop anew#it's the ship that got me into tf fandom and will forever be dear to my heart#if you have never read astolat's megop fics please do!!!#they are all fantastic#my art#illustration
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(The Washington Post)
For those who don't know, the US Supreme Court just ruled that states are allowed to enforce trans healthcare for minors. Undoubtedly, this will trigger a wave of other states that either hope to pass or have already passed policies to do the same. This is going to kill children, and harm more in long-lasting ways.
So, how can you help?
FUCKING VOTE. I don't care if you don't like Biden, he's not the only one on the ballot. Vote representatives into your city council who will turn our city into a sanctuary city. Vote for governors and state reps who will, even if they don't pass new protections, oppose bans being pushed through. Chsllenge and kick out conservative incumbents who are banking on their races being obscure enough for people to not vote in.
Anyone telling you voting is useless is either lying to you or grossly uninformed and think saying this is the edgy new take that will make them look hip and informed. Yes, the system is broken. But short of burning the whole thing to the ground (which personally I'm not a fan of as I quite enjoy having like. Roads and the FDA) what we can do is to change it for the better, by starting with the local races and working our way up.
#vio.txt#politics#us politics#lemme tell you when i read this story and my heart sank#the supreme court has set the tone on ruling on trans healthcare#the best thing we can do is ensure those decisions never reach them#this is your reminder that state court justices are an elected position#but god. im deeply worried for the upcoming election#transgender#lgbtq#lgbt#also on another note please vote for biden????? like trump is currently in several trials we cannot give him the power to pardon??????#also im hoping he'll keep erasing student loans
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day 2: ryomen sukuna [breeding kink]
࿓ synopsis • sukuna just wants a womb to put his babies in but it changes when he fucks you.
―❦ nsfw, explicit language, f!reader, heian era!sukuna who has fours arms, concubine!reader, contains of a bit dark themes, licking, marks, pet names, humiliation, sukuna is being sukuna, a bit of fluff, sex addiction, fingering, cum, overstimulation [‘is all I guess?] • 1.8k • the first time I am writing for my favorite villain from jjk. Excited but there can be mistakes. enjoy! [kinktober m.]
“fuck brat!” a dark chuckling, mocking you as his crimson four eyes look at below - at the mess you are making because of his thick cocks inside your walls, deep enough to make it ache like hell yet magnificent enough to give you the pleasure no one can. “look at how my seed is coming out of your pathetic pussy.”
he doesn’t wait for you to respond- to even comprehend what he’s saying, holding your smaller face by the chin as his palm stays on your cheek.
he lowers your head down, making you look at his cocks disappearing inside your pussy, and a bit of his hot semen dripping from it to his abdomen.
“it’s-“ you try to say, sounding husky since you have only moaned, and screamed in the last few hours. closing your eyes, a jolt of electricity mixed with pain and pleasure runs through your body, even in veins, when he moves his hips, thrusting into you one more time before making you sit on his cocks once again - oh, his two damn big cocks should’ve ripped you apart if he wasn’t this gentle, surprisingly calm and gentle because he wants you to stay alive - you will have his legacy inside your womb after all, the reason why he fucks you for the past few hours.
“is it too much?” mocking again, his tongue on the abdomen takes a lick from your abdomen, traveling to your breasts from there, sending another mix of tears and moans.
“suku – aghh!“ a slap on the ass, “my king! oh, it’s - it’s too much! I can’t - I can’t -!”
he only laughs at your poor attempts, “you can’t?” he asks, not a question though, only a treat as he sounds like pure poison. one of his hands holds you from your neck harshly enough to make you shake in fear for a moment while the other free one caress your hair - the opposite actions of his two arms gives you a dizzying sensation that takes your logical side from you, giving you pure insanity in return.
“be grateful that I fuck you whore,” his other two hands hold your waist as he makes you move forward and backward, riding you slowly. you only hear your own breaths as if there is nothing left inside your lungs, eyes already blurred that look at his bastard but attractive face, hands standing beside you because you have no brain to use them, not anymore, not after he fucked you in 5 different positions already. “there are thousands of women and men who beg for my cocks, you know that, right brat?”
his hands move from your waist to your ass, grasping the flesh tightly – too tightly to leave red marks as you believe after feeling a sudden heat rushing to the skin he is holding, however, he doesn’t care at all – why he should anyway? you’re just one of his concubines – maybe his favorite one for the moment, and him showing you mercy and a bit of affection – unlike he does for others – doesn’t mean anything; you’re just there to take his hot semen every now and then, whenever he wants to fuck that pussy and brain of yours so that you can have his legacy inside you, heir to him – lots of heirs.
“puff –“ he says, scoffing after that, picking you up – a pathetic and cuckdumbed woman in his arms, he thinks, gazing at your half-closed eyes, agape mouth – salvia running out of it, “disgusting,” he says in a low tone but contrary to his words, his actions are proof that he likes what he sees because he keeps going and going until his eyes travel from that open mouth of yours he wants to put one of his cocks in, to your breasts full of biting marks that turned to red, moving to your pussy from there.
his cocks’ tips standing beneath your pussy that is pouring his semen ‘cause it is too fucking much.
shaking his head in arrogance, he puts your body on his lap with a bridal style, left hands staying on your back while a free one stays on your pussy, caressing it and he watches how your body begins to shake again, a hand is put on his chest, holding his wide open sleeve’s side tightly as if you have right to do that, and even your head fall into his shoulder, breathing rapidly yet lowly as he holds your body close to him.
why he does that – why he allows you to do that; remains unanswered.
he doesn’t think much, not now, he has a desire to put that damn semen into your wide-open pussy.
holding your thighs apart, his fingers – two long and thick fingers enter into your messy slit, white wetness joins into hot walls one by one, and it continues until sukuna is satisfied with it. “do not fucking dare to move now, woman.” he treats you. he sounds he is one step away from breaking your neck if you do move. you should fear him, you know, oppositely, you do otherwise, giving astonishing state to sukuna, making him freeze for a moment when he feels you getting closer to him, a hand travels on his neck, and a head sits on his shoulder, you even open your legs wider.
you don’t say anything, the mouth is too dry to speak aloud; he gets it though – and that gives satisfaction to him, and his responses end with a new position.
being the definition of menace for desires live within him, and you witness it when he puts you on the carpet, hovering below you as he cages you between his four arms, then, one of them appears on your abdomen, pushing it into the floor – gently yet it feels terrifying.
you look into his crimson eyes, hoping to see sanity inside them – what a fool you’re to try searching.
no, no – you think to yourself, conscious coming back even though you're high – he will not fuck you as a concubine now, he will fuck you as if you’re his queen, you’re so sure of it and the words slipping out of his smirking mouth prove you right.
“I will fuck so many babies inside this womb that you won’t be able to even walk, pretty slut,” a compliment, huh, sounds different than you thought, still, gives a jolt of happiness throughout your entire body that lying beneath his massive body, ready to take him one more – or maybe even more – time. “I will make a fucking queen out of you with my children. don’t you worry whore,”
the only thing you can remember is seeing his big smile – entertaining before the only thing you can comprehend is his presence below you, behind you, under you – hands conquers every part of your body because you’re his – the one who will give him heir, stay beside him, being a fucking queen of kings of curses. “you’re entirely mine now. mine to have – fuccck! – mine to fuck! and mine to breed.”
❦ tagging: @lilvampirina !
#💦 kinktober 2023 first week#kinktober 2023#day 2#ryomen sukuna#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#sukuna x f!reader#sukuna x reader#sukuna x you#sukuna x y/n#jjk x reader#sukuna smut#jjk smut#💌 by me#red#THANKS FOR READING#I have never wrote for this man so it was a bit hard to stay in tone and cannon but I hope you like the final work! it was entertaining!#maybe a bit dilemma but I tried my best#thank u!
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a few tweets from the past few days from doctor in Gaza, Ghassan Abu Sitta. link to his twitter account. hear the words of citizens of Palestine
#gaza#palestine#read the words from the citizens of gaza#they should never go unread unheard or forgotten#words are hard but i hope you understand my meaning#posting here because i dont really have followers on twitter
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In case anyone who’s not on Twitter is wondering what it’s like now, I just got punched in the throat by four random consecutive discourse posts on my timeline as follows:
>bojack horseman is pathetic and anyone who likes “cartoons for adults” should have their harddrives checked for cp.
>anime is/isn’t carried by black culture, citing dandadan referencing a rihanna dance in its intro (it was a qrt exchange so both sides were present).
>angel dust is good sa victim representation and the person who made that video essay about them needs to be cyberbullied (or the inverse).
>this random stranger online made a post about how they’re bisexual and a trans ally but aren’t interested in trans people romantically or sexually, let’s make assumptions about their failure as a queer person and also dox them.
So that’s what you’re missing out on.
#personal#rant#if anyone tries to start any of the above discourses on this post I formally invite you to take it to Twitter instead where it belongs#I also hope people reading this are recognizing how inane and pointless these posts are and won’t go looking for them#to engage in the discourse. that’s what they want. they want you to be mad and keep the ragebait going#don’t fall for it. sit back and recognize what it is. you will never meet these people in real life
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2024 Brazilian GP | x
#franco colapinto#autumn posts#I'm so conflicted about all the rumors!!#I want him to have a spot for 2025!! but rbr is kinda falling apart!! and we've seen how especially callous they can be 😢#I miss Daniel so much 🥺 I've been on my usual insta dives and everytime I see vcarb I still pause out of habit#still I agree with so many folks that its good he got away from rbr who never were going to give him the respect and opportunities!!#so I worry for Franco!!!#and poor Max gosh this FiA balogna and the car just not performing 🥲#tbh I've been hiding in like 2017 posts just soaking up content I missed from bygone days!#I spam my sideblog verstappen100 if anyone wants like mostly Daniel throwback yearning hehe 🙂↕️#idk the vibes feel off this GP especially so like...idk how to explain it!!#but anyways I think I'm just new and I'm sick irl so just kinda stewing in the feels#nothing some gifs can't fix 🙂↕️#and I have to work tomorrow 🥲 but then!!! freedom!!!#anyways just rambling...#I like to hide in the tags and the side blog but I know that#hiding how I feel is blocking me from making true connections in fandom!!#I worry I'll say something silly or something#but maybe I should be more brave instead of hiding#oh anyways!!!#if you're reading all this!! thank you! hehe nothing huge just feeling dumping before slumber 😴#I hope all is well!!#sending good energy out to Franco on such a hard weekend#and to Daniel hopefully chilling and dreaming up something excellent 💞#and to y'all!! have a good night morning and afternoon!! 🌙☀️☁️#going to add a few more photos before I go!!
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House M.D. but it's when Wilson says House's name
#house md#james wilson#prince's talk tag#finally!!! it's done! this and the house version took almost two weeks to do#first off thank you to the clinic-duty team on livejournal for making the transcripts for these episodes#because this video would be near impossible to make without their clear transcripts. I hope y'all are doing well#ive been reading a lot of fics with these two and i see how the authors have the characters refer to each other in their fics#and that got me wondering how much do they say each other's name in the show and how do they refer to each other#since this is the wilson video ill put his stats here#s1 was 11 times s2 was 18 s3 was 45 s4 was 32 s5 was 41 s6 was 60 s7 was 47 and s8 was 48#in total he says his name 302 times. Mostly refers to him just by House#the only time I've heard him say his first name its when he's being professional or when he's really angry (and that one time he proposed)#and even then it's always the full name not just the first name#the only instance I've seen him use just his first name was on that note he put on House's xmas gift that we see in season 5#and as much as I wanted to put that moment in here he never actually says the contents of the note out loud so i had to leave it out#but what surprised me was he says House's name more than House says his name#especially when the earlier seasons didn't have him say his name as much
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Gideon always liked the way Kremy looked when he smoked, but like in an ironic way, of course. Noticed how the burning embers perfectly reflecting in his golden eyes, Gideon Nathaniel Coal, was never a man of flowery poetry… but for Kremy, his buddy ol’ pal, he can’t help but think he’s as beautiful as a sunset in autumn.
Kremy and Gideon make me miserable and sad and I cry at nights for them— I don’t need them to have sex, I need them to be like… okay 😭, like damn, bitches can never win, I hate them, I hate them (I love them but they make me suffer)
Also this drawing started because I was inspired by this one author on AO3: Never_Eat_Sour_Wheat, @pedal-mail , I love their writing sm! They inspired me to draw this lil Drabble lol 🚶🚶🚶
#bbirby says haiiiii x333#my art#coalecroux#Gideon Coal#Kremy Lecroux#kremy x gideon#Gideon x Kremy#Krembrulè#Kremy Lecroux x Gideon Coal#Gideon Coal x Kremy Lecroux#once upon a witchlight#ouaw#loa#legends of avantris#I fucking hate them#I want them to never kiss ever#I want them to suffer#I hope one day they realize it was mutual but they moved on#I hate them I hate them#I hate them how I see the sun rise In the morning#it’s always there always shining but you can’t truly appreciate until it’s gone- who said that#me when they both have commitment issues based on abandonment issues 😍😍😍😍#Star by Mitski#that’s them#my friend Bbirby said so and I agree#also also this is based on a fic I read#I’ll link it meow#it’s so cunty slay#Kremy ouaw#gideon ouaw
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