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Rest in Peace 🪦 Kermit the Frog
Beloved by the Joker, the Croaker, God
Wrongfully imprisoned in the meat closet, murdered by emos and died in agony. Taken too soon.
Hear the cries? The howls? You are hearing the brotherhood.. sisterhood… nonbinary hood (ally!) of the Muppet Joker.
May you and The Croaker be reunited in the afterlife once the time has come. And may sex in heaven be awesome.
Amen.
(written in my break room at work.. stay on that grind)
#dark kermit#rest in peace#funeral services#the muppet joker#taken too soon#rip#FUCK IM SO SAD#GRRRRR#kermits funeral#muppet hole in heaven#look at me being a little bitch and tagging this so people can see it#i’m a glutton for peoples approval#no ones even going to look through these tags so i can talk about whatever i want in them#am i satisfied? being this complicit in my own life#allowing others to dictate how i feel?#are you satisfied?#i bet you aren’t.#i don’t think any of us are#i’m sorry#i’ll go back to being a silly tumblr man#rest easy kermit. rest easy#if only it were me. if i only i died in a fire#hm#FUCK i meant to stop with the melodrama my bad#i hope you become satisfied#goffick posts
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"I have many fears, most of them about Lucrezia." — Cesare Borgia (The Borgias, 2011-2013) + hints of insecurity
that she adores someone that much / if she will reject his dark nature and act of love and violence as Ursula did / if he truly is not part of her desires / that she easily forgets him
#i have so many thoughts on these two#hes such a clingy brother wth#as much as he soothes her it is only by asking lucrezia verbally or#by looking at her that his fears and insecurities in her life can be soothed#cesare torn between - being relieved she had some joy in the ruthless marriage he had no power to prevent and did not even want to bless#or being envious there is someone else now when his little sister once said she will not love anyone as much as she loves him#but Accepting it anyways because it is impossible loves and maybe he is starting to become aware his love falls in this same category.#“should i envy this narcissus low-born who shall never see you again because of his impossible love for you when i love you just the same?”#the knife more surprise than fear. in a time when he did not love himself...“she accepts me as i am? as i do her”#biting her as if another black panther pet looking for reassurance that their love#that HE is still included in her perfect world even if he himself pulls away#“surely you're in agony as much as i am? are you already satisfied with your child and husband if we cannot share our love openly?”#“your eyes drift to mine when you say 'husband' am i not he? do you see me as so even when it was just 'tonight'?”#and then his sudden gaze as if to look for truth because how can she forget him when he only thinks of her#AND AGAIN pulling away being eaten by shame and guilt of corrupting her (when their relationship is not just his doing)#torn between hope (we have the capacity to forget and move on) and hope (our love has that much devil power over her)#cesare as the god or the devil or whatever it is that overwhelms whether at war or in love#cesare is one confident man and even if his insecurities has layers of righteousness and importance..it is still insecurity nonetheless#and only for lucrezia#lucrezia borgia#cesare borgia#cesare x lucrezia#the borgias#dailyborgia#perioddramaedit#perioddramasource#weloveperioddrama#onlyperioddramas#romancegifs#the borgiasedit
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Tord and Mat shower for pride month ? 🙏🙏
OMG YOURE SO RIGHT
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CW: suggestive content
...what? no i totally didnt lose this sketch and then spend 45 minutes desperately organizing my procreate files. thatd be stupid.
#looooooved drawing theirhair after showering.#matt has got the fluffiest fuckin curls EVER!!!!#TORD LOOKS LIKE A SAD CAT!!#well. a sad cat who is very satisfied with itself.#my art#sketch#eddsworld#ask#ew tord#ew matt#shipsworld#mattord#tordmatt#cmon matt werent you JUST angry at him????#*eyeroll*#hope this was worth the wait lol#lmao how did i become the tordmatt person. i didnt even ship them in the slightest when i started this blog#but. well. it makes sense#matts a bit of a people pleaser and genuinely loves spending time with his friends#and tord is a monsterfucker. lmao
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just fell to my knees in walmart cause i remembered that tigris was willing to lay down her life and sell herself to make sure that coryo had food on his plate and was willing to do anything to ensure his safety while he was so quick to manipulate her love for him and eventually cast her away after she no longer had use to him
#coriolanus when i catch you-#tigris did EVERYTHING for that boy and he repaid her by throwing it all in her face#“you look just like your father coriolanus” i hope that twisted a fucking knife into his soul#i hope he’s satisfied with the fact that his own COUSIN is telling him that he’s become a mirror of his cold-hearted and iron-fisted father#you will pay for your crimes coryo#tigris we love you in this household#tbosas#president snow#coryo snow#coriolanus snow#tigris snow#thg#the hunger games#the ballad of songbirds and snakes
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I've been trying to figure out a dynamic between neve and rye that I find more compelling, because right now there's not much of anything there for me to sink my little teeth into. but I think I've landed on something delicious with the idea that especially after minrathous gets fucked, rye looks at neve and sees myrna -- someone he feels he keeps letting down horribly no matter how hard he tries not to and can't quite achieve the approval of/connection with that he wishes so it's better to just pull away completely and disengage rather than stay in that unshifting shame. neve is (very understandably) measured and distant with him after what happened, and he's flashing back to his student days of myrna gazing at the perpetually hungover heartbroken heap of a person of him on the other side of her desk every time he missed the deadline of a paper or project like '...can we at least both agree that this is. a bit disappointing. especially considering your potential.' (and him all smudged black eyeshadow and numb ruefulness being like 'sure that's a very kind way to put it myrna thank you'.)
aside from the 'if I let him get too deeply into this he'll go the way of brom and it'll be all my fault (again)' element, neve thinks rye is dismissing her and her city/being a bit callous in the same way he was after varric's death (listen. how fucking wild must rook's reaction to losing a beloved mentor seem to the rest of the crew who aren't seeing the blood magic paper doll ghost varric the whole time, especially those who got to see them interact. you WOULD think 'there's something wrong with this guy. putting the job first is one thing just not seeming to react at all is another this is fucking freaky', wouldn't you, especially after seeing the warmth in that dynamic in action beforehand.) perfect storm of two people who grit their teeth and turn inwards in pain deciding that not talking about it is their best bet (NEWSFLASH: IT ISN'T) lmao
(rye spent his last year of watcher training on a mostly joyless bender and then got it together enough to finish the eternal orb project last moment in a fevered near-sleepless week instead of the half a year that was intended. emmrich is both astounded and distressed to hear this. "a week? but -- but that is an astounding accomplishment rook!! and also why in the maker's good light would you ever do that to yourself?" ("well you see there was no one to stop me from doing it like that but me. and under those conditions these things tend to happen".) rye was working through/looking up stuff around transitioning and doing every kind of OTHER high level watcher research through that whole time, but ultimately he's an excellent watcher and a terrible student, at least under traditional methods. adhd from here to the fucking moon. touched by something akin to divine inspiration in moments of high tension that pulls all the threads into one coherent unbreakable cord, a bit of a frayed mess in most other settings. in our world he'd be dropping out of a masters program at the very last hurdle in this moment maker bless and protect him)
#myrna is actually really proud of him for pushing through and becoming a very fine member of the mourn watch#(and a good man)#but she is also. well. myrna. so she has never expressed as much to him. (she thought it went without saying. it did not!)#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#oc: Ellaryen Ingellvar#neve gallus#considering how satisfying the Arc with davrin has been I hope this can liven up neve and rye's interactions for me!#also very interesting and fitting b/c davrin will come for you where you live and go 'and hey btw ANOTHER THING --' no bullshit#which rye finds SO annoying but is probably why their relationship has grown so deep so quickly b/c davrin won't let him avoid him#while neve is ironically a lot more like him and it means they have a much harder time reaching each other b/c they're both so watchful#and guarded. they vibed so hard in the beginning it was all neve approves all the times b/c they have similar instincts. and now look at us#we live in the same house and politely pretend the other one doesn't exist. we're making ghosts out of each other!!!#explaining why he's semi-avoiding her. he thinks he's being thoughtful in giving her her space but uh. well.#perhaps more flight behaviour in that than he's willing to gaze at directly haha#rye looks at lucanis claiming he's a mess and goes 'oh buddy you should've seen me the first day in a year I was fully sober#and working on that fucking orb with head pounding and eyeliner running. even like this you're one of the tidiest#and most disciplined people I've ever met. you're literally fine.'#the reason the romance is so slow is not even mostly on lucanis I think rye is the slower to truly open up one in that dynamic lol#hey. I love rook. I love him so much. my trying his best underachieving babyboy who killed god when he got it together#I suspect this is going to be a situation where I've planned multiple other playthroughs#that will inevitably be hampered by '...but where is rye tho. I wish rye was here. does anyone else miss rye' lmao#for reference I've finished DA:O at least 4 times. and all four of them was sophia amell doing exactly the same things. I have a Pattern lo#a pattern I have only really broken in da:i where I have three inquisitors I care about sort of equally (adaar is my fave#but I have fondness for them all)#hawke I basically play as always the same person just AUs of him haha. what if he was a mage instead and it was somehow even sadder#that sort of thing
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that one panel when rayleigh meets teach and he's like it might be childish of me but I really hate you so you better run I'm perfectly normal about that panel what are you talking about
#yes he might say so because of luffy or newgate but the man was also the cause of death of his best friend's kid he didn't even know existed#im so abnormal about that#actually rayleigh makes me so sad i can't think too long about him or i start crying#he lived a good life all in all actually which is great and I'm not saying i think he spent his life in grief#he's probably pretty satisfied with it#and i also understand why roger would entrust his son to garp and not him like#he was trying to keep him safe giving him to the most wanted man alive probably wasn't a good idea i get it#but imagine finding out ace existed two days before his death im SO sad for him he deserved the godchild he DID#ace could have been raised with he and shakky as parents can you imagine........ 😢😢😢😢#i love u ray-san#i hope you'll survive the whole of op and will see luffy become king 😢😢😢
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Jian is an insufferable brat. unfortunately i love him dearly and want desperately for him to find a happy life. even more unfortunately everyone in the world wants him very dead and its not even for the insufferable brat thing!
#Universe Ends Posts#the art of prophecy#the war arts saga#i... truly it is impressive how closely my journey about jian mirrored taishi's#at the end was she was like 'oh he actually grew up a bit'- i was EMOTIONAL#he DID grow up a bit! he learned some lessons! he's gonna become such a great man some day!#and also he is SO annoying and i Love Him Deeply#also shout out to this book for having such a toxic yuri dynamic in it#Sali and Qisama.... there is NO way this works out well for you two but bless your gay lil hearts i hope it does#ALSO ALSO- so absolutely delighted at how many Grizzled Older Legendary Mentor tropes that usually male roles fill#that were instead given whole heartedly to Taishi#including the string of lovers who are varying levels of still-in-love-with/attracted to her#iconic. no one is doing it like her. tough old bitch refuses to die a humiliating death#genuinely there's so many good fuckin characters in this book#and somehow i am invested in Each One i want Xinde and Meehae and Pahm to have satisfying arcs!!!#gonna be Thinking About Them a lot for the next few days
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that line of astarions where hes like "oh dont pout because you're not getting your sweet, cuddly astarion. i can't be the person you want me to be" in act 3 makes me go crazy wtf
#its so tastey ....... how are people mad abt his ascended ending its so narratively yummy ... leaving the cycles of abuse unbroken#is kind of epicc sometimes#like i got that on venlis playthru which was 80 hrs of hope and love and seeing the best in people so it was very thematically appropriate#idk it was kewl and felt like a callout for ppl who think growth is linear and all that. not even like astarion tries to be a good person#usually cus he heel-drags and resents altruism but with patience he can come to care about the player character in exquisite ways#i dont even remember what this was triggered by i think venli was talking to the gur and told him he had to help their kids or whatever LOL#hes just crazy hes like im biting and killing you for trying to see the good in me hows about i become worse#personal#delete#but also what he says to dark urge when you resist for the last time and its like 'you see? you dont have to be what someone made you to be#exquisite ... . ...#but also victory absolutely ascended him and it was fun and yummy and also narratively satisfying to see him go insane LOL#bg3 spoilers#just to be safe
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it took a lot of thinking to settle on knowing if i was a trans guy but what really solidified it to me was being unable to live with the thought of dying as anything but an old man. i can't imagine not having grey facial hair and old faded top surgery scars and maybe grandchildren who call me "grandpa". i just cant live with the thought of my gravestone having "daughter, wife, aunt, niece, grandmother," carved into it along with the name of a stranger. they can't ask me to die as a her. They won't kill me as a her. they wont bury me as a her. Its not fair. They can carve the wrong name into stone and dig up my bones and say "this skeleton makes a woman" but i assure you i'm going to die as a man with the name those close to my heart know me by. and i'm going to live long enough to meet him, the future version of me, because if theyre gonna try to bury me as a woman theyre gonna have to try and kill the man in me to do it. and ill cackle from my casket knowing they had to try to erase me in death because i wouldnt let them do it while i was alive. I wouldnt let them.
#text post#transgender#trans#trans boy#i think about the high lgbtqia death rates and like. my parents having to bury me#if they try to bury me as a woman (which is likely) ill come back to haunt their lives. ill curse them beyond the grave#my friends would fight for me i think. i believe. even if my parents try to bury me as a daughter my friends would know better. i was a son#i like to think my spirit will go down kicking and screaming. dad if you see my pride flags and bury me as your daughter i hope i haunt you#i killed her actually. something something that one trans post about 'actually yeah your misgendered child IS dead. i took them over'#there is no daughter here. not anymore. she died and came back a son#also just something about living long enough to become old. to become wrinkled. to have a family and a lineage.#'yeah grandpa rabble was born a girl but he's always been grandpa'#at least if im buried in a dress or something i lived as i did#they can try and erase the boy in me but i already lived as him. HA. take that#they can try and bury me but they'll never be able to bury me alive. they'll never bury who i was to me.#ill die as i am. a trans gay bi man. and they can wring the satisfied life from my cold dead wrinkled hands#rabble poem
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"You know that Priya didn't treat you correctly. And you know, the kindness that Sofia and Kingston and Ricky and everybody has extended to you. You know that kindness is incredibly real. And the realness of that kindness makes it hurt even more that these people are not going to lie down in bed with you to keep you warm at night for the rest of your life. They're not going to be there by your side at every moment they are going to have their own needs and their own lives. And for as awful as Priya was to you, as much as things were never going to work out with Rowan, you weren't alone."
#dimension 20#the unsleeping city season 2#tuc2#jesus christ#i really hope they give me a satisfying resolution to this arc omg#i haven't related to pete at all so far through the unsleeping city but my GOD did that brennan monologue hit hard#pete conlan#brennan lee mulligan#the unsleeping city#this is honestly the experience of becoming an adult#realising that you can have friends and it can be great but you only ever really have yourself to hold yourself up#and maybe that's not a bad thing#but i stg if dimension 20 gives me a way to be okay with this i might be able to solve my mental health
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I just finished reading all your Aki fics, including the To Be of Use. Small curiosity question about what is or isn't known in your little AU here. Aki figured out she her powers can heal people. Did I miss her informing others that she can do this? I can totally see it being an off-screen conversation, but I wasn't sure if maybe you were holding off on having her talk about it with someone in a later fic.
You did not miss it! It was meant to be an off-screen thing. And actually, it's a good thing that you ask, because the extent of the information the others have has now, in the plotting stage, actually turned out to be relevant to the WIP fic I'm working on right now. So the extent of the others' knowledge is this: Aki mentioned that she has the power variation that allows her to heal people and that she's testing what those powers can actually do now. But because she doesn't want to injure herself or anyone else on purpose for this (duh), she hasn't healed anything bigger than like, small cuts or the occasional burn yet.
#yugioh 5ds#aki izayoi#akiza izinski#in light of this information becoming relevant in the upcoming fic#I should have perhaps included a scene where she talks about this with the others in hindsight#in my defence I had absolutely no idea the WIP I'm now working on would become as big as it did though#but yeah it was meant to be an off-screen thing#after all aki has no reason to hide this information from anyone#ask the orchid#hope that satisfies your curiosity!#also hope you enjoyed the read!
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Warning- this is a very petty post, but I think I'm entitled to at least one petty, pissed-off reaction every time I finish a classic novel that hit harder than I expected so take this as my quota for the year.
Also spoiler warning for a book that came out over a century ago but still, I didn't know the plot going in so don't want to ruin it for anyone else, if you haven't read it shut your eyes. (Also Local Tumblr User Going Wild Over Book Published a Hundred Years Ago That Everybody Else Already Read should probably be categorised as akey part of indigenous tumblr culture at this point).
Anyway I just finished the War of the Worlds and in between studying I've thinking about Themes and Motifs as you do, and idly looking for further analysis. I then accidentally ran into an article called 'A Quiet Place II Succeeds Where the War of the Worlds Failed' and:
Now I haven't seen any of the Quiet Place films, this is not a rant against them and of course everyone is entitled to their own opinions. But re: the ending of The War of the Worlds, I have to ask, did this guy somehow miss, uh, the entire point of the book or am I just utterly insane?
#You're right it's not very satisfying for humanity that the invaders are foiled by a bacteria and not human action! Maybe that's the point!#Maybe it's supposed to be FRIGHTENING and make you ask questions about what humans will do under extreme stress#Not be a morally uplifting tale about Humanity Heroically Defeating the Martians in a Glorious Hollywood Ending#Maybe it's MEANT to be unsatisfying because this is not a straightforward fairytale#I mean I've only read it once and don't know much about Wells' work so I might have misunderstood the point of the book too#But at places it is a very pessimistic view of the human condition and that's partly WHY IT'S SO POWERFUL#That doesn't mean there aren't moments of individual acts of heroism (the Thunderchild for example)#But the question is not just 'how will humanity beat the Martians and prove that we're still the masters of the universe'#Rather 'a) why is humanity so confident that it's ultimately in control of its own destiny#And b) here's lots of scenes of societal collapse and of people pushed to the brink and what would YOU do in those circumstances?#Would YOU feel remorse about silencing the curate even if it did lead to his death?#What if it rather than a foolish adult it had been a small child?#And even if they were weak did they DESERVE it? Yes it might have been necessary but should it be policy going forward?#Would you also be attracted briefly by the certainties that the artilleryman's (rather fascist) plan seems to offer so humanity survives?#But what sort of humanity would that be if it DID survive and is it worth it? The narrator feels he needs to justify the curate's death#The artilleryman would have probably never have thought it was anything OTHER than justifiable or indeed laudable#Under strain and stress would you start to turn against even your loved ones and become brutal?#Is that the only hope for human survival beyond complete surrender? And was the destruction of London maybe even 'cleansing'#In the eugenics sense or in the sense of a natural horror of dirt and germs?#And the vast exodus of six million people fleeing headlong in panic - we might not have seen that exact phenomenon#But didn't the twentieth century subsequently go on to show us unprecedented scale of slaughter and refugee movements and communal strife?#At the end of the day what really separates humanity from other animals? And what separates us from the Martians?#It's not an uncontroversial book- it was written over a hundred years ago for goodness sake and there are questions worth asking#about the way imperialism and arguments about eugenics and population control and all sorts of other dodgy areas operated on Wells' mind#But dear God I really don't think the problem with the book is that 'Humanity didn't save the day!'#Unsatisfying ending? Yes. A FAILURE? No not in my opinion- looks like it was exactly what Wells set out to do#Humanity didn't win the war of the worlds they had a narrow escape and though it might not be martians next time#Why wouldn't disaster return in the future? Sure we've studied their flying machines and even preserved a martian in a jar#But for all our science what have we ACTUALLY learned that will enable us to avert future human catastrophes? Ethically or socially?#Alright rant over- as usual my opinion is not universal nor necessarily well-informed this take just really got my goat
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tellin you right now, terfs are THIS close to regendering occupations. if they win their sacred public bathrooms, they're gonna be coming after jobs next, saying women shouldn't have to be in the same workplaces as men. they'll tell us all that the REAL solution to workplace harassment is segregation, only men should be on construction sites (women are too frail for that kind of work anyway, of course) and only women should be teachers (men are dangerous predators and can't be trusted around children anyway, of course) and they'll tell us all that it's anti-woman to say that women should be safe in any career.
#thinking about how transphobic paranoia has set feminism back decades#were back to telling women off for having the wrong bodies#back to saying that you arent a woman if you cant bear children#back to saying that women athletes are nothing compared to their male counterparts#back to saying that all men are inherently dangerous and essentially incapable of not assaulting others#and therefore its women's faults for trusting them#now saying that youre not a woman if your face isnt correct#i hope the biological advantage in pressing buttons thing is fake but honestly#its so hard to tell#paranoia doesnt become satisfied when you feed it#theyll find something new to worry about#some scary new way imposters are infiltrating good christian society#we all know how batshit transvestigation is but honestly.#should have seen it coming#you make friends with people who tell you you should be paranoid#you allow yourself to get fuckin paranoid
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gods, I'm reading my own rabithole that is the tag Geoffrey of Monmouth and at every turn I'm like, this cant get any worse, but than it happens and i keep reading like i should not have been in bed like 10 hours ago
#i came for merlin bbc#it was only a click#how did it end up like this#I wish i was at least lying about that 10 hours part#but I'm not and that makes it worse#Now i get why so many people studdy this shit#what is this#adventure puzzle but you dont know what parts are puzzle pieces and what are just skittles glued together#and it's maybe multiple puzzles mixed in one box#but don't worry!!#Geoffs buddy in oxford has a picture of what this section is ment to look like#But there aint no buddy in oxford#Only sadness and madmess#left for us to consume like the starved pidgeons we have become#filling our bellys with trash jet never left satisfied#waiting for the once cruel passage of time to finaly releace us from the aggony that is the question#Imma take a nap and hope this was a feverdream#Geoffrey of Monmouth#merlin bbc
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sending lots of hugs your way :''3
Thanks, i really needed those. The shock is starting to wear off and i'm getting more and more... emotional :"D How...do they expect us to enjoy this week's Gojo episode when Gege pulled this in the manga. I didn't like to admit it but i did have a soft spot for him, damnit.
#I'm sorry but yeah i'm lowkey tearing up over him now too#re-reading his flashback sequence and getting to the point where he waves Goodbye..#I just can't#i can't hold back the tears when i get to that part..#It's stupid to cry over fictional characters i know but something about stories and becoming so well-immersed in them is beautiful#These characters act as a sort of friend and emotional support for many people around the world#and although Gojo may have not been mine i still adored him to a very big extent#I was willing to see Sukuna get smacked around for 10-11 chapters for the ending of the fight to be satisfying and to NOT have it end on#Gojo's death ; especially the brutal way he had to go; Gege really did not pull back any punches ; This was the most unexpected thing.#i'm still lowkey hoping gojo makes a binding vow ;sacrificing his limitless+6 eyes in return for getting his body healed up and to- SURVIV#That would be a great way to keep him around please Gege just..don't let him die like this..His kids need him.#Nerf him Sure ; Make him second to Sukuna in terms of being the strongest but don't actually kill him off like that ah :')#I guess this means that Gojo is my no.2 Favourite character in JJK i can't really deny it anymore#ooc#answered ask#thanks for asking!#<3 hugs for you too incase you're suffering too
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the gas station attendant social link alternate universe is about the past and the future. it is about accepting you who you were and who you are and who you'll be. accepting every aspect of yourself, intangible and tangible. that maybe you are fractured, broken, fragmented, empty, torn apart, or one thousand different things. but you are there for yourself, whoever that may be. whoever they may be. it is about love and betreyal and kindness and malice and caring and hate. deliberate or accidental. it is about learning and realizing and doing something about it and doing nothing about it. it is about the constant pursuit of knowledge no matter how fun it is no matter how terrifying it is. no matter if it's a genuine drive or something forced unto the self as one is pushed to the ledge. it is about life and death and what is real and what is not. it is about accepting what is there and making the effort to make it different. it is about stagnancy and improvement. it is about being the same and about change. it is about friendships about family about relationships about the inherent love present in all of it. it is about finding yourself in someone and the choice to help the other to help the self. to fill each other's half empty cups and overflow with gratitude or spill out and become an emptiness so unbearable that the irony of a rush of tears come flooding out somehow. it is about potential and the need to pursue it and find it and accomplish it and grow and grow and grow and learn and learn and learn and live and live and live no matter what anyone says. no matter what you say. it is about god. it is about human. it is about the bond with the one god once called its puppet but lives in the role itself no longer can be called an actor. because of love. because of love.
#kommento#sulululat#gsa sl au#// it was my love btw#// thinking that this silly thing is too 'far gone' but it's a fruit tree of so many personal spiels that maybe deep down I brought this#// to the table because I wanted to have people learn about myself? through something we can both love#// but that's just the thing it's become too personal that no one can relate to it and if anyone does it wrong I bite their face off#// I don't know. regressing back into my little bubble and thinking of other problems. being here is a journey and it's still going#// that there's still so much I can do but I'm reaching a tipping point and I can do everything now or drop it all#// like game dev crunch time. spend four years on it and a 1 and a half year chunk to prep for the live demo at the press conference#// and if you flop or show up with nothing the whole project would just be dropped. and there is nothing left#// all that passion and love and effort is washed away#// I don't even know what I'm aiming for. I just wanted a community. and I do have one but am I not satisfied?#// is there a certain sense of community itself that I want? now I'm selfish and picky? I am not sure#// I should make a relationship chart actually. with bubbles and lines and captions and labels or something. peek into my brain diagrams#// three year anniversary coming up soon... but who knows if I'll still be kicking in six more months. it's a surprise 🎉#// gsaslau is about god who is not human and a human who does not believe he is human. and somehow they make each other more human#// it is about a child meant to be the avatar of hope falling to his knees having to accept the truth about the people he trusts#// it is about a girl desperately wanting to save everyone and would offer her life to do so. but she wants to live with everyone else#// without another giving up their own life instead#// it is about a man who rises from despair and becomes the beacon of hope he never thought he could be#// it is about a man who wouldnt believe the emptiness in his heart stings. that he could never lose somethng because he never had anything#// it is about someone who relearns who they were and creates who they're going to be. fighting all the urges to destroy such a creation
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