#i hope this isn't covid i have

[mickeys-malarkey]

Okay, so, I have 9 I-think-pretty-much-spoiler-free things to say about Bendy: Fade To Black (besides celebrating that I managed to finish a book in under a month even lacking ADHD meds for two-thirds of the story— huzzah! 🥹):

🎉🥳🎊 *Does the Vindicated Analyst/Theorist Dance until feet fall off* 🎶💃🏻🎶 Not even the TV studio's name spared me, eep! 💀🥂

That was so scary, emotional, and trippy, holy frick!! 😱😭😍 So, so, sooo gorgeously surreal— while still having the lore make sense!! Bravissimo~!

*Chews on every single especially repeated theme/imagery- and lore-heavy chapter like it's bubblegum* Simply delectable~! 📝🤩

I AND EVERYONE ELSE KNEW THIS WOULD GO HORRIBLY BUT NOOO! 💔

My list of Bendy characters I wanna hug is once again lengthened and still specifically excludes Nate Sr. *HARD side-eye*

MY BESTIE REALLY NEEDS TO WATCH A BATDR PLAYTHROUGH, THE PARTS I CAN'T FULLY GUSH ABOUT ARE KILLING ME!

Not only does my traumatized AuDHD butt feel once again represented but also. So called out, Jiminy Christmas lol… 😳😅😭

I have so many thoughts I have so many thoughts I have so many thoughts I have so many thoughts I have so many thoughts I have so many thoughts I have so many thoughts I have so many thoughts I have so many thoughts I have so many thoughts I have so many thoughts I have so many thoughts I have so many thoughts I have so many thoughts I have so many thoughts I have so many thoughts I have so many thoughts I have so many thoughts I have so many thoughts I have so many thoughts I hav—

Definitely adding at least one FTB-related fanart to the accidental full-series thought summary comic, rofl. 😝 Such vivid mental images, as always~! 💕

*Still vindication dancing even though sick*

[nevermoorsource]

Silverborn Release Dates

Australia: August 28th, 2024

US: September 10th, 2024

UK: September 12th, 2024

The specifics could change but these dates have been around since May, so it seems that Silverborn is indeed delayed to 2024. There’s been no announcement from Jess as of yet, but she's also been on a social media hiatus since the delay.

[simple-sheep]

I get all the calls for "organizing your community!!" But for those of us in ruby red areas that won't happen.

The one gay bar in my city got shot up several years ago and shut down right after.

It isn't safe for some of us to find community. A lot of us have nobody nearby. We're literally alone.

[yellowocaballero]

DONE DONE DONE with the latest motherfucking behemoth. I still have to write the epilogue and fill in a few gaps, but the newest monstrosity will be published early next week!

It's not the longest work in the Trigun tag but it's certainly up there.

[stillfruit]

i love not knowing if i'll ever be healthy again i love all of the time i've used to move my body become nothing i love spending my adulthood wasting away year after year for various reasons baby!

[ninja-yogurt]

Thinking about how as a kid I was pretty convinced my cat was kind of apathetic to me because I would pick him up and drag him to my room when I wanted to cuddle with him and he didn't approach me on his own very often, especially compared to his brother who would happily demand attention from anyone and everyone. And how my brother and I got little rubber mice one Halloween and I lost mine and was devastated and kind of bratty about it, and went to cry on the floor of my room for reasons I don't really remember. And my cat, who never approached me in his own, comes up to me with the mouse in his little mouth and drops it next to me.

And I don't think he understood why I was upset but the fact that he saw me upset and decided to bring me something to cheer me up, and came up to me of his own volition, I was convinced for the rest of his life that he was one of the most emotionally intelligent cats I'd ever met, and that he loved me more than anyone else in the world. I swear nearly every expression of love he had was something he picked up from me. He loved being picked up like the person petting him was too impatient to wait for him to approach them. For years he'd come running at the sound of my fingers rubbing together in an attempt at a snap, but when I figured out how to actually snap he ignored it. I wasn't very good at petting gently, and his favorite thing was when somebody used all their strength to push against his head while they pet him. I read a book on cat communication when he was still a kitten and spent an evening headbutting him because it said that's how they say hello and communicate affection, and I don't remember him headbutting everything and everyone in sight before that but he sure did enjoy it afterwards.

When I came home from college he would frequently be standoffish towards me until I, allergic to him, would sneeze for the first time, and then he would demand attention like it took that to be sure I was who I said I was. He would get cuddlier when I sneezed, probably because I would frequently turn to him after and say in a sweet, fond voice, "yes! This is all your fault, yes!" Sometimes he'd make eye contact with me before he sneezed. I think he thought the sneezing itself was affection. Once when I came home I cuddled with him until he was half asleep on my lap and at 1 am I started trying to move him without waking him up, or annoy him into moving himself, because I didn't have the heart to just abandon him but I needed to go to bed. He must have been more awake than I thought because when I fully lifted up one leg so it was next to him instead of under him he just readjusted on the other one, and then did the same with the other leg. It was pretty impressive for a cat who once accidentally rolled off a couch because I was standing across the room and he got too excited about trying to convince me to approach him that he forgot where the edge was.

I took so many pictures of him and asked my family to take and send so many pictures and videos and video chats with him that he also got excited by smartphones, because a camera pointed at him meant he got extra attention. It was so hard to get good pictures of him; if he noticed the camera he got very wiggly.

He had a fang taken out when he was starting to get older, because it was infected, and he figured out how to eat without it but he never quite figured out how to close his mouth consistently. He's always had a remarkably expressive face; i swear he used to smile when he was happy and I never needed to see the rest of his body to tell when he'd been startled. But for a cat who frequently looked confused before, sometimes having one lip snagged inside his mouth really improved the look. My mom started saying he had an Elvis face now.

Losing the tooth did not stop him from stealing a piece of toasted turkey ham from a plate on the table once. I was walking back from the kitchen, trying to help my dad prepare breakfast, and as I approached he decided the best thing to do when caught red handed with a piece of meat about a full quarter of your size is to sprint off with it, which might have worked better if it wasn't a quarter of his size and he didn't have a missing tooth. He made it most of the way across the room with it hanging from his mouth, somehow swinging slightly and dragging on the floor at the same time, before he gave it up. I wish I'd gotten it on camera, because I was the only one who saw the whole thing.

He stopped meowing as much and couldn't really purr by the end. What he'd do instead of meowing was squeak like a rusty wheel if he wanted food and wail like he was dying if he wanted attention and nobody was in the room with him. Occasionally he'd go into my parents' room when there were people around and wail because nobody was in his extra special cuddle spot. For about fourteen years of his life the only time I heard that meow was when he had bladder crystals and had to be rushed to the vet, and when he got stuck once hanging from one of those scratching posts that could hang from a doorknob, flipped his head back so it was upside down in relation to the ground and he was staring at me, and gave one of the saddest meows I've ever heard in my life. (Unfortunately for him it took me a few seconds to stop laughing my head off to actually come help, but he was fine). I came home when he was older and suddenly he'd realized that that wail meant immediate attention, and why not abuse it in exchange for more cuddles.

I miss him a lot. It was my first birthday without him this past week. Last year my favorite present was handmade by my brother, and when it arrived I got extra pictures of it before it was shipped out lying on top of him (cat, not brother). I dreamt about him a lot, for a while, but I haven't since a dream where I spent a bunch of time cuddling with him and he purred like a motorboat. I like to think it was him telling me he'll be ok, even if I don't dream about him again for a while.

[may-shepard]

Hey I completed nanowrimo! according to the site, this was my 10th win which I think is a big deal? Giving myself a gold star on this one!

[wearetheunholyfamily]

just took another covid test

[chickenparm]

What's your opinion on farming sims?

love em, story of seasons and any harvest moon up to and including animal parade are some of my comfort games. the original "a wonderful life" is one of my favorite games of all time. love love love rune factory.

stardew valley is also a good one, and i'm also looking to play coral island soon when i have the $ to grab it.

[fagandordyke]

thought i'd bruised my throat sucking cock but nooooo i'm sick :(

[pa-pa-plasma]

i'm going to fucking kill someone. i got screamed at & called selfish & stupid for telling my mom to wear a mask. she gave me covid

[yangjeongin]

why am i going to cry over hyunjin's bday live

[nightmaretour]

Of COURSE my grandma and her husband KNOWINGLY brought an infectious disease (which has made her husband very ill for over a week) to dinner with NO prior warning for me to choose to cancel. And of COURSE I now have said disease on top of pre-existing disabilities AND a serious "acute" (technically chronic as of last week but it should heal eventually. Should.) disc injury that I was barely surviving by myself with anyway.

And now I have to call the lady who cleans for me and tell her not to come tomorrow even though I don't even have the energy to load the dishwasher, because I can't have her passing this to the other vulnerable people she works with. Especially since I've been struggling to breathe and I can't guarantee it's not Covid.

None of this would have happened if Covid denier mind rot hadn't convinced them that passing diseases to disabled and vulnerable people is actually okay and good and never harms anyone

[nivq87]

related thoughts:

my butterfly chasing has me tinkering with my tumblr blog page, and it's a wip atm (the html needs a LOT of adjusting atm) and my about and tags pagers are pretty out of date. so, I'll try and work on that over the week I suppose

my complaining tag hasn't been used in a few years. at first I thought I was just trying harder to keep the negativity off my blog (which I also do) but then I was actually reading some of the posts and. oh gosh. those were some Big emotions I was dealing with. Glad to not be That guy anymore. Your 20's really just kinda suck, but since you're out of your teens it feels unfair because you should be Beyond such angst. but. nope. apparently it'll keep going a bit longer. Fascinating collection of posts over the years as a retrospective.

[thesaltyace]

"I hope you feel better soon"

Yeah me too but I'm way more worried about long covid and permanent damage to my organs.

[writingatthedisco]

i am back from my trip! however i'm not back here fully since i have some mysterious "flu" like a lot of people in my class, which is very similar to a mysterious "covid" that a lot of people from the other class on our trip have tested positive to. i'll take it easy for a while 🫶