#i havent done these kinds of romances in so long lol

[starcrossedspirit]

I’ve had some thoughts about my couples and I bring forth an argument.

Reno loves Sera, he takes her as she is and would never ask her to change. He understands as much as he can about her plight and for what it’s worth, he’s willing to go the extra mile to make sure she is cared for, taken care of, and it has never been a burden to him. Their hearts yearn for one another, and there are long moments of eyes meeting, hands lingering against each other when they shouldn’t, and quiet silences that are filled with want. For all intents and purposes they were meant to yearn- but when they finally kiss, it’s divine.

And then there is Vincent and Lucy who are by definition grumpy and sunshine. She’s vibrant, she’s full of life, and there is so much more to things than staying in the past! Don’t linger, don’t be a phantom, you were given a second chance- all of these beliefs help Vincent to be a little more willing to give life another go. She urges him to keep going and in time he remembers what it’s like to be happy, even if it just means small steps forward in healing. It also means soft moments of keeping her safe under his cloak, eyes meeting and being held just before he looks away, a little too much guilt just yet. No harm would ever come to her, not while he’s alive.

That’s just it, right? Reno x Sera forever and of course Vincent x Lucy, but what if?

But what if Reno knew Lucy from the times Zack had her around, and for a time would consider her a friend? Possibly going to her shows when he had the chance? He knew Zack, he knew his sister, and at the end of the day that was someone he could talk to outside of work? Moments of walking home together, being able to talk about things that don’t matter, a breath of fresh air for one another that leads to hands being grabbed and being held, being close and the feeling of running away.

And what if Vincent and Sera meant redemption? He felt like he could redeem himself for failing to save Lucrecia, failing to end Sephiroth, but instead find a new redemption in helping Sera grow apart from Shinra, to feel less like a monster and to finally understand themselves better? The moments where she cries and he comforts her telling her that she isn’t alone, not like he had to be. For the first time ever for the both of them the silence isn’t so quiet. Nobody understands each other like they would, especially when it comes to Hojo's monstrosities. Together they learn they're not monsters and that they both can be saved.

[kewltie]

Sorry if you’ve been asked this before, but what are your favorite shows/other media with court/harem drama and politics? I love reading your fic snippets with those aus!

;asjdf;j OMFG HI IM SORRY IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO REPLY (i had work and an essay in b/t... cries)

anyway, i had to look through my list but here are some of my fav shows in no order whatsoever:

goodbye my princess: OMFG SO MUCH CRYING. if you like pain and main chars doing dumb shit and thinking it's all for love yeaaaa. also a bad end so fyi. i was so bitter about. refuse to rewatch it again but dont regret watching it.

nirvana in fire 1 & 2: less romance but i love the politics in it esp in nirvana 1!!!! everyone is soooo smart and the mind games is LEGIT in this.

scarlet heart: i--i love this so much. it's achingly poignant and the chars are so complicated and the ending will ripped your heart out.

under the queen's umbrella: the only kdrama on this list and IT'S SOOOO FUN but also just gut-wrenching. the family feels all to this and how chars are so multidimesional even the badies that im so glad to see some of them getting redeem while knowing that some ppl are just fucking evil ya know??? the family vibes in this is just chefs kiss. also super great politic and harem fighting for the crown.

the king's woman: this like just trashy romance but i fucking love it. i love ppl being awful and doing awful things for love. no fucking redemption and it's great. also reba is soooo pretty I LOVE HER.

also thank you<33333333333!!!!! i havent done much worthy writing but i appreciate your kind words anyway lol

[lostconductor]

happy pride month! - 6/4/24

i've had a lot of thoughts on julian's sexuality. it's insane. it's not that deep but it is because the mechanisms of my mind are an enigma. i originally sent pieces of this over discord at like 4 am but it's the most i've been able to explain it in words lol, i ended up adding more to it and expanding upon it slightly more

basically....he is bi yes but hes also a flavor on the ace / aro spectrum in the sense that yes he can feel sexual / romantic attraction but it isnt Often. like it is totally out of sight out of mind until it isnt and he puts the puzzle pieces together. he never noticed eva starting to like him or ever even considered anything romantic w him. they spent lifetimes together but he was going through time loop torture nexus he didn't exactly have time to think about that. there was a timeline where eva confessed to him, and he had no idea he liked him until he confessed. i think i labelled him demi because he just doesnt feel anything until hes spent a long time with u and has forged a lifeling bond of steel with u, but even then he's mostly just given Awareness by the others saying something first

i tried (kind of cringely) to touch on it in the third evacuation ocfic i wrote where he like. he feels an attachment to eva, considers him the person he's closest to, is comfortable with laying in a bed with him and holding hands but literally doesn't really consider it might be love / a romantic relationship until eva tells him he loves him and his brain is like oh yeah. that makes sense......in this timeline too.....yeah ill hold onto this guy forever maybe i love him

he's also extremely physically affectionate already, and was just kind of brought up in a way where he doesn't see a big deal in homies kissing each other goodnight. he doesn't mean to come onto you. which confuses eva so much

overall i think he just doesn't think of romance that much, just kind of does things out of sheer attachment and connection. he expresses and feels love differently in a way thats really hard to describe but i think an aro person would understand/phrase better (i considered it as a label myself before, but i ultimately ended up just deciding my feelings and energy might fluctuate but in the end i feel romantic attraction and develop crushes lol)

put under a readmore for paragraphs about sex i just love intricate rituals . sorry.

read more but he like. he doesnt usually feel sexual attraction, more often than not the others initiate it or he offers it to please them or relieve them rather than being Horny For It, and really is just going with the flow and willing to try anything. he doesnt judge or care he just likes making his partners happy. it isnt even in a “ehh i dont rlly want to have sex but whatever he wants ig” way, its consensual and julian is happy doing it, just doesnt rlly feel the sexual drive to initiate it himself *shrugs*. he's more of a giver than a receiver and just likes pleasing his partners.

a lot of him initiating sex otherwise is “hey you look tense/we havent done this in a while, do u want me to help u with that (trying to sound flirty)” or “hey i found out about this thing do u wanna try it it sounds fun”LOL

he is poly and hes also fine w his partners having sex without him or consentually having sex w someone else, and is fine doing it with a friend or something if they want to and not expecting anything more from it because he just sees it as smtng humans Do. yes it can be display of trust and love and sexual desire, but also separated from that its something people do just because it feels good! so if they wanna, and jules is ok w them seeing him nude, why not ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ he's....very lax about it

idk. its so hard to describe. but he experiences it different than me which is hard to shift my brain into anyways. but he's so special 2 me. my little guy. he KNOWS what sex is he KNOWS what a boyfriend adn girlfriend is he isn't an innocent bean but he just DONT GOT TIME FOR THAT HES GOT A TIME LOOP TO SOLVE /J

(ends up supermarried because he spent acual lifetimes keeping this man alive and attached to him like a little worm. love cares him so much thinks hes handsome and likes driving him up the wall and eva wants him romantically and carnally)

[gesunas]

okay here are my recs and i feel like most lamen fans have read these already, but i've had these in my books app for years and read them every year or so for like a month straight....but my memory is also horrible so i kind of forget like 90% of what happens so whenever i read them again it's like i'm experiencing it for the first time LOL. BUT i am also not sure how some of them are going to be reflected in my 2024 eyes but either way im gonna be kicking my feet in the air and giggling like i havent been obsessed with them for like 8 years straight

wicked game by onekingdomonce i need to do a reread of this one but i remember this one made my chest HURTTT. it was so beautiful. i dont remember the details but this was so exciting and great to experience in so many ways. slow burn is real but i love seeing their romance happen again in a different perspective.

kings reign by idratherhaveyou this one is literally exactly what you need after the canonical series and summer palace. to me this is like canon in my heart. so well written and HEALINGGGG. my god this is a #1 must read. if you havent read this already i highly encourage u to put down whatever u are doing and just give this your time bc its SO WELL DONE.

the veretian flytrap by just_another_day okay so im currently still rereading this one but im 80% through. i was chilling on white beaches and sipping on long islands with this on my lap. it was such an experience. interesting conditions given that this is an abo fic but it really added more layers to the political sphere. i didn't feel out of the universe at all. great work and i definitely did a wide mouth smile 24/7 reading this LMAO so good!!

one the other by ruby_wednesday i still also have to reread this bc i remember it the least and havent read in a few years. but its been in my books app for even more years so i think its probably really good LOL bc i know i wouldnt keep it if i didnt think it was an absolute work of ART. sorry bc ik thats a poor description but i genuinely only remember how these fics make me feel and this one was a top 10

rereading my fav ever lamen fics while on vacation and its really bringing life into my soul…nothing like relaxing on the beach reading damen and laurent falling in love all over again 😭

[gayfrenchtoast]

Okay fine we're doing this. I havent read the books and I'm probably not going to I've only seen the movies so I'm sorry if anything I say is contradictory or has already been stated.

So! Descendants 3 was kinda shit and I dont like it but especially because of the ending because everybody was like "oh yeah island is open and we're all happy with no worries or implications about free villains or people being spiteful about being imprisoned for years!" In fact if anything they joked about those things.

The island is basically its own culture, I can't say how long it's been around, long enough for some almost adult kids to be about and to develop a kind of community.

The Isle is a place of poverty, people are dirty and on the street, eveyone steals from each other and most people don't put much effort into appearance upkeep (personal or of the sourounding area) not because of laziness or being "evil" but because they clearly don't have time or luxury to do such things or possibly even the clean water. Does the Isle have clean water?? How to they get electricity??? Someone tell me!

Another thing that I've noticed is easy to see but is not much explicitly said is the unique style of those on the Isle. As previously stated they don't have much but those who have the most "power" and such on the Isle are the best example of this As they have the most colourful outfits. However these outfits are often made out of patches and ripped things put together, even salvaged things like nets and chains as we can see on thing like Uma and Harry's outfits in D3 they make the best of what they've got and they do fantastic because their outfits are intricate and detailed and just tell you everything you need to know about them. Which is why it's a damn s h a m e when the original VK's ajust their style to be more like Auradon's. That's not an improvement! Be proud of where you came from!! It's like they forgot what it was like being on the Isle in D3!

Moving on, here's something that was touched on in D2 but not enough. Equality. On the Isle there is basically equal opportunity as in saying everything is shit and nome cares what gender and presumably what sexuality you are as long as you can work. Sexism is shown to be almost casual in aurodon from the looks of it, Chad makes sexist comments and litterally none else says anything or seems to see anything wrong with it except Jay who caves to pressure from peers and expectations. He does redeem himself because he's from the isle and he knows you shouldn't give a shit about anyone's gender or anything. If they can do something and ask to be included you give them that opportunity. The sexism is also implied in the way that the rule book has men written specifically in the first place and that it has taken until then for anyone but boys to be allowed on any kind of sports team. We never see it! It seems to be the hetronormative veiw where the boys do sport and girls do cheerleeding and other genders? What other genders? Never heard of that? BAD AURADON!! I bet there's so many trans folk on the island just living their lives, thinking Aurodon is the better place and not knowing that it's a cis het filled nightmare.

Okay no I'm headcannoning now, if their are now a bunch of Isle kids at auradon prep they find it fucking aweful the way all these preppy royals are treating them and make the first LGBT club in Auradon. There is lots of pushback and they get bullied a fuck ton for making themselves the most prominent queer folk in the school until a fight breaks out and the club demand that they should be treated better, taking all the evidence to fairy godmother who is very hesitant because COME ON she's never been that great she is biased to Auradon kids and if putting away those in the Isle is brought up she is all on it, she is jelly spined about doing anything against the royal kids. So the kids are like "Fine, if you won't help us we'll take this to the King himself!" Well mainly the queer mom's of the group (you know the ones I'm talking about) who lead the others and protect the anxious queers as they storm to Ben at his fucking locker and demand an audience because they are being harassed and bullied and none is doing anything. Ben had no idea there was even a LGBT club (too busy ig) and is gassed there is one for a moment before he's like "wait people are harassing you?" So Bisexual King Ben gets his lovely Bi wife and they start coming to club meetings and investing in the pins and stuff the club makes. Most club members are pleased but the queer mom's are apprehensive that this will help until some assholes come to the club to do their usual bullying only to find King and Queen Beast themselves siting there with rainbow bracelets and bi pins and all trying to have a nice old time eating their fucking cupcakes what the fuck are yall doing? The bullying dies down quick once they realise it ain't gonna fly, the other OG VK's that hear about this become members and very protective over their queer children. Did I mention Dizzy and Ceila are a part of the club? They're girlfriend's. Celia is one of the queer moms. Harry becomes one of the biggest protectors over the group as the pan dad. He's been going around snogging everyone and anyone wholl snog him everyone already knew he was queer they just didn't have the balls to try and bully him over it as much as they bullied the lil club members. But now Harry can often be seen in jackets and shit with pan and general queer patches and pins and running around with his gay children yelling "MOVE WE'RE GAY!!" He totally calls them his queer crew. Anyway as a result lots of queer royals start coming out of the woodwork, obvs Lonnie is one of them, and the club eventually serves to bring members of Auradon and the Isle close together.

Where was I? Yada yada auradon expects girls to be pretty princesses and boys to be brave knights or dashing princes. It's shit and should stop being portrayed as good. Moving on!

Food! One of the things we'll established in all movies is that the food of the Isle is shit compared to food of Auradon. The Isle has no fresh fruit which likely means its almost impossible for things to grow there which is fair because again there doesn't seem to be much fresh water and there are always clouds overhead so no sun. Maybe there is some people trying really hard to grow stuff but the general attitude of the Isle seems to be "there is no time for that" and fruits are forgotten so much that the VK's litterally don't knownwhat they are when they come across them. That and anything containing sugar. Actually it's mention by Dizzy and Celia that they enjoy the fact that the cake dosent have dirt or flies so basically food there is terrible. We don't see much food on the Isle but what we do see seems to be beans, eggs, chips and shellfish. Basically protine and carbs that can be easily stored and produced. To be fair beans are kidna good for you but they're likely a sign that if they get any imports from the mainland it is canned stuff. Prison food. There's probably some chef villain that is trying their best to make good food out of the shit but honestly the Isle dwellers should be angry that they've been deprived of good food for so long not happy they're finally been given decency.

Moving on, music! Auradon dosent have nearly as many musical numbers it seems, the Isle songs have a distinct style, to them, the villains that basically "founded" the place were masters of the dramatic songs (with backup or solo) so banging music is basically ingrained in the music's culture, even for battle as we see with the fight between Mal and Uma in D3. Meanwhile Auradon seems to have mainly romance and "I want" songs. Even Audrey's villain song is basically an I want song.

Okay let's talk about the Villains. We've established that the VK's are not inherently bad. However not all of them can be totally good and there are legit OG Villains just kinda chillin on the Isle. They've obviously lost quite a bit of their power, motivation and sanity (isolation will do that to ya as they lost everything and the VKs know no different) but deadass? They were bad guys. You can try to rehabilitate them sure but you've basically just let them free roam, they could make a runner and you wouldn't get the chance. They were also shitty patents which is brushed over/joked about in the interaction between Carlos and...man I feel bad I forgot her name deadass their relationship seemed to come out of nowhere in the second film she didn't seem interested in them at all and friendzoned them multiple times I'm pretty sure Disney did that becaue queer kids were relating to Carlos and headcanoning them as queer (which they deffinatly are) but deadass their mom is an attempted animal murderer and has hurt her child as we can see from how they're afraid of her and her rhetoric and yet it's "haha I'm afraid to meet your ma!" "Me too cus im a dog! Lol!" Fuuuuck offfffff

I think I'm running out of thoughts so here's a last one for now; with the magical barrier down a bunch of magical Villains kids should be coming out for the woodwork. We know Mal has magic basically stored in her so it's is possible, she technically doesn't need the spellbook to do magic it is just inherent to her. So with the diverse range of people from the isle there are deffinatly magic folk in there. Actually if we're following Disney movie law I saw something mentioning Jay being half Genie and yeah! He should be half Genie! Jafar got turned into a Genie he's probably only human because of the barrier! Oh also Ben should be able to go beast on command as long as he had a better beast form than he did in the movies. And give him back the beard and fangs like fuck you he looked so much better

Okay I'm done for now

[gutsfics]

thank u @icecoffee90 for tagging me!!! im pretty sure that like all of my choices mutuals have already been tagged so im not gonna tag anyone at the end of the post 🤷‍♂️

i havent actually played enough books for long enough to have a LI for them so this is probably gonna b pretty short(compared to other lists at least lol). also most of the ones ive finished i have used diamonds for at some point so im not gonna specify (also for a lot of these its been long enough that i dont remember)

Endless Summer - Unfinished, romancing both Sean and Jake. Wishing i could romance Raj, my beloved

Red Carpet Diaries - all but a focus on Teja through book one, Hunt as soon as he becomes available in book 2. litrrally criminal that i have to romance him as a woman though. issues w it being genderlocked aside, i dont like the mc that much

Open Heart - Ethan was my final choice, but if we could have done poly I would have. also Elijah should have been an LI

The Freshman - Kaitlyn, but I broke up with her at the end of the series. she and MC wanted different things out of life and were kind of the worst at communication

Veil of Secrets - Flynn, but regretted chosing him when he became a cop

Ride or Die - did not care for this one enough to remember the characters names, but Girl LI. i would give anything for a prequel where we can romance Kaneko, he was literally the only fucker i respected in that book

Sunkist Sunkissed - also did not care for this one, i think i went with the painter guy?

Home For The Holidays - Peralta, but only bc he reminds me of a fruitier, more closeted Hunt. i don't celebrate christmas and did not enjoy this one that much. i hate stories where characters try to force their holiday traditions onto an indifferent/uncaring person. call said character Scrooge all you want, you will never be A Christmas Carol

High School Story - Michael

HSS Prime - Nishan

My First Two Loves - Unfinished, got 80 chapters throught it before trying to restart a chapter and restarting the whole book by accident so now i will never touch it ever again, but Ava

Wishful Thinking - Anna

It Lives In The Woods - unifinished and undecided, but probably Andy

[pebblethief]

regretting my tinder experiment for dumb weird reasons i will vent about in here bc this is too much for one tiny brain to keep inside entirely

tl;dr  i was just like “idk maybe i should try it” and now ive got ALL THESE THOUGHTS and its annoying and id like it to go away lol

triiiied to organise this?

i have caught Feelings. not for anyone in particular but my “random spikes of Lonely��� have now become an unpleasant beast on my shoulder

but also weirdly im like.....can i even be fucking bothered? is this worth it? tinder fucking sucks

its got me questioning what i even want in a “gotta do fucking soul searching now” kind of way. like yes ultimately what i want is the same: basically a very good friend who i occasionally get to fuck? lol. which is basically what most long term relationships *are*. but do i actually care about the romance stuff? idk! maybe i actually just want friends and to get over my hookup issues. maybe i want something more open. maybe the ‘hm what if /dont/ want romance much’ is actually Issues talking? idfk!

so now i gotta soul search i guess. which is fucking lame and annoying

maybe i am just being an anxious dweeb about the whole Getting To Know people sort of stuff lol

maybe im being all ‘gonna be alone forever so lets just throw some different reasons for that into the ring’

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and all of this isnt bc im like.....frustrated at lack of matchs lmao.ive barely swiped on anyone! and i keep being fussy for weird reasons so the number ive done the good swipe on is way smaller!

and i panicked and immediately unmatched 2 of the 4 matches ive got so far lmfao oops (and one of them ive not replied to at all double oops)

so i have literally spoken to one (1) guy on there and true i didnt know him but i did know he was friends with some of my friends so already knew he is at least not awful

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i just hate the *format* of tinder. theres so little info and i need to make a decision from this right now?? i cant go back and change my mind?? let me think about it damn!

i really do hate getting to know people so i am being picky bc sure youre hot but do you seem like youre worth me subjecting myself to smalltalk?

and bc there is so little info i keep thinking random qs like “does this guy seem like he might at least pretend to be interested when i go off on one about the oseberg tablet weaving find?” (if u strip the specifics this is important! i got niche interests id be miserable if i couldnt ramble!)

bumble isnt much better. grindr is a hellhole

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[strange positives?]

WEIRDLY (for me), actually a lot of this is more “i dont want to compromise who i am as a person” and “hm i havent checked in on myself what i actually do want rn” vs like “im too awful i shouldnt even subject myself to this. the dudes swiping on everyone dont deserve to try and coax conversation out of me” if that makes sense?

i was expecting it to tank my self esteem but eh nah not really

even when dude was like ‘not quite sure im feeling a relationship here at the moment’? i was a bit mopey til i realised it didnt actually bug me (guess id just assumed it did and got mopey automatically??) and it hasnt changed our conversation style much other than we’re not trying to impress each other any more lmao (so its actually better now?)

I DONT KNOW

i was just like “idk maybe i should try it” and now ive got ALL THESE THOUGHTS and its annoying and id like it to go away lol

im hoping this bloodletting has released some of the circling in my brain

[phoneybeatlemania-bit-the-dust]

I’d disagree with the anon that Paul was “incapable” of love, but I do agree he was very distanced, and pretty cruel (to women) when he was younger. (It was unfortunate they bought into the love at first sight myth, but he was also a charmer, and dropped affection and got colder after fucking them.)

But I just can’t see romantic interest on Paul’s end. I’m sure he loved John, but a lot of the “sexual/Romantic evidence” really can just be as construed as platonic love. I feel there may be some confirmation bias looking for “clues”. (Not an attack on anyone, but some of the analysises seem to try too hard, really).

He does make references, with the whole “calling him babe during concerts”, and “in bed” but that could just mean he’s not uncomfortable with coming off “gay”. He has a quote about it somewhere I think. He’s supportive of the community at any rate.

This is kind of my own bias, but at times I think he…plays it up a little during the present day? Again, I’m positive he did love John a lot, but with how he is, a charmer, good at manipulating his image, he knows there is a benefit to building up the “magical” Lennon McCartney dynamic. John’s dead, and the old conflicts have faded, so he has no reason not to. I don’t think he’s anti-social, or a psycho or anything, but he certainly does put a lot of thought into his image, especially now, with how he wants to leave his legacy.

I’m less knowledgeable about John, and the speculation about his mental illnesses, but on his end, I can certainly see it. Maybe he’s just blind, but the looks are very much…yeah. He does seem to rely Paul a lot, and hold him in very high regard (REGARDLESS of what those old male biographers might make of him). You just know he was suffering over Paul, poor bastard.

Not sure if anything happened. I think Paul knew though, and either ignored it, or was kind, knowing John wouldn’t act on it. OR he didn’t notice! With the whole “we shared beds A LOT. you would think he’d make a pass at me, darling~”

I guess that’s how I see it. I don’t really have strong feelings on the nature of their relationship, or want them to be “confirmed”, so I try to be as objective as possible! Not a shipper, but not a male biographer. In fact, I was very put off learning the ship was a thing at first! With every fan base “having to” ship the main male leads, that’s what I thought this was. But after three years, reading actual books, primary stuff, I’ve began to change my mind on its legitimacy, and this was my conclusion. But new information can always change!

(Sorry for the long long analysis, god! I just took my adderall and I should go eat! Feel free to block me for spam/harassment.)

Yeah, this is basically my big mclennon dilemma: did Paul love John?

Of course he loved him, but I mean did he harbour any homosexual feelings towards John - and I just go back and fourth on that a lot.

In my last response to an anon I wasn’t necessarily trying to argue that Paul was romantically/sexually attached to John, because all in all, I don’t believe he did - but it probably came off that way because I didn’t particularly like the way the anon had phrased some stuff (like calling him “a master manipulator” and “incapable of love”) and so I just sort of wanted to show that the relationship was more nuanced then just “john was simping for paul”. My overall point with that response was more so that whilst I think Paul struggles in showing real affection and emotions, I don’t think he was incapable of love prior to Linda. I think he did really love John (in whichever form of love you want to take it: romantically, platonically etc.)

And so my point I guess wasnt so much that Paul was always capable of love (because I think he did at least love his family, his close-friends, probably Jane etc.), but maybe more so that he was always capable of intimacy with another person, though he struggled with it.

But yeah, he was quite cruel to a lot of the girls he slept with in the 60s, but I wouldn’t say that suggests he was incapable of love (i know thats not what you’re saying but other people might interpret it through that lens) I would just say he was young, dumb, ridiculously rich and famous and not emotionally mature enough yet to really empathise with most of those girls. Not trying to completely excuse him, but like, i dunno, i always just try to view people from the most human perspective. Everyones an twat sometimes yknow

I also really struggle to see romance on Pauls behalf towards John - the only times I think “wait but maybe he did fancy john back” is when I read some of his lyrics (like in ‘Coming Up’, ‘Yvonne’s The One’, and to some extent ‘Here Today’ - though I think interpreting Here Today as strictly platonic love is still a valid interpretation). I mentioned this in a different post though, that analysing his lyrics just isnt particularly convincing for me, because it feels more like speculation - and also as someone who does write songs, I know that a lot of lyrics just arent as deep as we wish they were. It is really difficult to be truly introspective and honest in a song, without exaggerating or hyperbolising or fictionalising any autobiographical aspects.

I do see your point with Paul possibly playing up the “Lennon/McCartney m a g i c” - im not entirely sure how much I agree, but I do agree to some extent. I think he’s always been very image conscious, and being in what is probably the all-time most famous pop band definitely wouldve heightened that. Even as a teenager I think he’s always just had this natural charm about him, and that tends to stem I guess from a need to be liked; I think you can see it in every interview he’s ever done to be honest. Its not necessarily a bad thing, (because id take a charmer over a rude knobhead any day) but I guess it sort of just shows that Paul is flawed like everybody else. Also, just read @mothernatures-sons tags and I agree with her - Paul just knows when to be a nice person! Nothing wrong with that! It isnt manipulative like the last anon suggested, its just how most people are: polite :) Ive heard a lot of anecdotes from people who have worked with or met Paul and the majority of them say he was a just a nice guy. Not saying he was never an arsehole (cause yeah he was pretty cruel to those girls in the 60s) but I think overall, hes a pretty good guy 👍

On the other hand though, you could also say that superficial journalists are looking for superficial answers - and Paul knows what the people want to hear. But occasionally ill hear an interview that does seem more intimate then most - I havent listened to it in awhile, but the interview he did with Sean I remember felt more honest to me then most. And when he said he’d like to spend the day “in bed” with John, to me that felt like a genuine and fitting response. Because, whilst it has sexual connotations, it also just feels like he’s saying he’d just like to sit around, chat, dont chat, just whatever with John for a day. Like he would just like another moment of intimacy with him.

I think we are pretty much in agreement on most of this though! At first I was also like “nah, mclennon isnt real, teenage girls just love shipping guys!” (I am a teenaged girl and I can confirm this lol) but then it just sort of became apparent to me through reading more and more about their relationship that there probably was something more on Johns behalf. If John wasnt in love with Paul, then it feels as though a lot of things he said and did just dont add up (the big one for me is him marrying Yoko so soon after Paul married Linda - like I really cannot come up with a heterosexual explanation for that!)

But when it comes to Paul, though ill have moments of doubt, I dont think he was in love with John (homosexually) and I do think a lot of the evidence on Pauls behalf seems like a stretch (but like you, im not having a go at anyone, because I understand that it is easy to carried away, plus its fun - but realistically, most of Pauls evidence just is not convincing to me). He’s comfortable with his sexuality, and I really do try to respect that and not force a gay interpretation of quotes or songs from him, unless it is genuinely making me question his sexuality and mclennon.

PS dont worry, I didn’t take this is spam at all!! And also, I would never block someone just for disagreeing with me! I enjoy discussion and I think its good to engage with people who disagree with you! To be honest, id only block someone if they were purposely being a real arsehole <3

[creacherkeeper]

Sleepover Saturday! Top 5 of your own original blorbos?

THIS IS A V HARD QUESTION [sweats]

book blorbo:

dinara - shes a bitter, mean, middle aged jewish lesbian who was a Former Chosen One who kind of like. spectacularly failed at it and due to the repercussions of that was trapped for like 30 years in magical isolation until the new chosen one (the protag!) came and got tricked into breaking her curse. shes really fun for me to write because she simply has No Filter around the middle grade aged heroes and also has a ~Messy~ relationship with the protag's mentor whos her grandmother

npc blorbos:

hawk shook - okay calling myself out w this one but. simply spend so much time rotating hawk in my head. he is trying so so hard but is just Not Good at things. really wants nothing more than to protect and provide for his family and be a good big brother but he's so DumbTM and MessyTM. he's Smart but is also Stupid but is the kind of stupid that like. isn't from being not smart its from making bad choices due to desperation and self destruction and thats very fun for me <33 also his actual name is jason harris shook which i find very funny for no reason

sheriff lizzie - she <3333 lizzie is so fun for me because while she's very restrained and stoic 95% of the time its only because she can recognize her own Chronic Messy Bitch Disease and is constantly like. reign it in girl. and only succeeds some of the time. last game the players found out shes part shifter and has been hiding it due to Potential Scandal as well as that she's in love with our bard but hasn't done anything about it because the bard is married

pc blorbos:

erley ryzer - realizing how many of my fave blorbos are Messy And Bad At ExistingTM but. erley is simply such a fucked up lil guy cause their dad is a famous war criminal who raised them in a exile military cult and forced them to become a barbarian through abuse, then they got kidnapped by a goddess and put in magical isolation until they BrokeTM and got rehabilitated by her followers and then finally agreed to be her paladin but then we found out (erley did not <3) that the goddess only took them in the first place to fuck with their dad and not actually because she cared about them at all. theyre So Extremely Loyal but are simply not good at deciding who they should be loyal to so theyre kind of following people around like a sad little duckling occasionally pissing off the party by committing small war crimes they think are normal or healing enemies they consider family members. i think theyre FINALLY in a better place with the party but wooooo was this sad sad lil cowboi in the doghouse for such a long time. oh yeah theyre also a cowboy and talk with a southern accent to try and disguise their home country since. the country they live in just finished like a 100 year war with them. also theyre dyslexic! as a treat! so thats why their name is spelled like that lol

bo dawson - SAD BOY HOURS EXCLUSIVELY. bo is not MessyTM but he makes up for that in Extra SadTM because his mom blamed him for a crime she committed so he spent like 8 years in juvie as a kid and he's just big sad doe eyes all the time. he just got to re-meet his dad again for the first time since he was a toddler (who im. obsessed with. bubba dawson rights) and found out he has a foster sister whos the bio child of the middle aged librarian man he was hired to protect who's become a father figure to him, because @beatricexbenedick said its sad bi dad romance time and i simply havent been able to think about anything else since. bo is very fun for me because he does very big damage and literally doesnt use a weapon because he Just Punches That Good. which is hilarious but also Sad because his mom was a boxer and thats why he learned to fight <33 p much with bo its like if i cant make someone wail in anguish was it even a successful bo scene. he must simply be So So Sad

[seoafin]

oo yeah, the stark differences in eng fics on ao3 and those that i’ve read in websites like pixiv/ weibo/ lofter/ typesetters is a high-context asian subtle/implicit intimacy vs low-context western loud/explicit intimacy (1)

tho ,, i think the setting (character + environment + time) and the prompt (au? canon? romance? slice of life? epic?) play into it. i think the differences that exist between portrayals of intimacy by east asian authors and by western authors largely stem from cultural philosophy, which could make some things jarring to those unfamiliar with either

tbh i'm the type of person who, when reading lit abt supposedly asian characters, would appreciate the story more if it was also true to the characters' culture, and so i'd also like to see them experience and understand love the same way asians experience and understand love. but that's just me (i know there are diaspora who like to see other things), and that's also for a concept that's more for peaceful romance/character-centric settings. it’d be a different case if the story is plot-driven, or historical, or apocalyptic

i personally prefer the nuance of intimacy in pieces by east asians bc that's what i like to see and what i'm familiar with. but either way, i don't mind the differences exist. it just means that there's a variety to all of our experiences. as long as it's written into the narrative in an organic manner, it will still feel like a love i can appreciate, whether romantic or platonic or anything in between.

the whiplash was intense when i opened a fic bc i was curious or bored (or both rly) and then boom, untagged daddy kink. SHSHS it makes me giggle sumtimes, since he’s a jpnese character, when it comes to gojou, bc personally i just can't imagine him calling anyone any kind of petname unless it means to fuck with them,,, like, for eg, in stsg fic i just can't vibe with gojou calling suguru anything but his name, but that's just me and largely the way i interpret their characters, and it's just nice to know that all the authors of jp/cn/kr fic i've read before feel the same way more or less ,, but that's it HSJJSJS if someone else decides they want gojou calling suguru this or that, then that's like, alright. that's what they want to write and see, yk, and there's nothing wrong with that, i'll just swerve respectfully lmao

also for pdas,, i think it definitely depends on the age of the couple and the setting

like, if they're a campus couple, pda is pretty common. handholding, picking each other up from class, study dates in the library/courtyard/cafe, going to drinking parties together, that sort of thing.

the most common petname i've heard cn campus couples use is "baobao/baobei" (寶寶/寶貝), which means precious/baby/darling. for jp couples, tbrh i've never heard anything ,, my friends and cousins don't use petnames either

honestly,,, if u're cn/jp and u're dating someone ur age or younger, u'd probs call them by their given name or a nickname with an affectionate prefix/suffix (小，阿，兒 etc or the norm ちゃん, くん, さん, 先輩/ 輩先 suffix) and ig u could call that a petname. if u're dating someone older than u, then u'd call them (insert name)-san or senpai/jie/ge if u and they want, and that would show how close u are. some ppl date and call each other by their full names, too, and even with honourifics. and some ppl use just their partner's given names.

for kr,, idk much but i think it’s usually 이,야,아 etc and noona/oppa/unni/hyung ????

for older couples, like married couples or people who are working, pda tends to lean towards petnames. "sweetheart", "honey", "wife/husband", that sort of thing. if they're parents, they'd probably call each other "dad", "mum" (I NEVER HEARD MY OWN PARENTS NAME LEAVING THEIR LIPS WHEN THEY ADDRESS THE OTHER)

but if its pda like,, making out in public, i don't think it's very common. i've never seen it shhsjsjs (arm holding can be rewarded with a stink eye from the conservatives elderly (mostly), from where i came from)

in fic, it's abt the same, which means it would depend on the age/setting/couple's preference with the addition of the author's preference which just,,, uh shows , ig

but then again,, pls cmiiw if anyone else knows more

altho i’m a “respect is earned” type of person ,, when it comes to (conservative) elders, it will just fly out of the window,,, the repercussions....just no 🥰 some of them are so fucking petty and are hellbent to teach u a lesson, its actually embarassing

back when the yo mama jokes were still popular and 24/7 circulating in the internet,, me and some friends were 😃😃 like yall can say this and get away with it? when daylight arrive after i crack this kind of joke in front of my relatives, my mom is done scheduling for my cremation date

even if i dont intend it to mean disrespect in some convos,, the damage is done and my parents would straight up be like : “wtf did u just say? try repeating it once more and lets see if u can still sleep under a roof today.” either that or they’ll smack me before saying it ,, whichever could come first depending on their mood 🥴

my relatives wont ever missed if i ever forgot to address them when we meet or during a phonecall by a simple “uncle/ aunt/ grandfather/ grandmother” (usually my grandfather is the one so uptight abt it 💀) and it will end up into a short lecture abt “young kids these days..../ u havent forgot to eat yet u forgot what respect is?/ ur parents are fine ppl but what happen to u”

cue my mother glaring at me or giving the stink eye like @/&/&2@22 most of the times i’m distracted by sth and just spaced out while organising it in my head b4 it could get out of hand ,,, that and the titles i’ve used for each relative is different and i’m afraid to mixed it up bc again...stink eye ,,, like my father’s younger/ older brother and younger/ older sister and cousins + its another different handful of titles when it comes to my mother’s family 😔 - 🐱 (2)

yes!!!! there’s a lot of reasons why i enjoy stsg fics and it’s because gojo and geto are always treated like people in stsg fics.....i’ve found that in a lot of reader insert fics you could replace gojo and geto with the male lead of those mafia boss stories on wattpad and it wouldn’t make a difference LMAO gojo and geto are often caricatures of themselves and it’s just something i’m personally not interested in.

also....i feel like there’s so much intimacy in how someone calls/says your name that just using pet names 24/7 gives it this superficial sense that i’m not really a fan of but then again, in fwb stories i totally understand.

another thing, I really feel like culture DOES play into it. obviously as asian people ourselves who come from a collectivist culture, our idea of love is different from the western concept of love. i feel like this especially comes into play when we see reader insert stories where the MC is super op and strong just so they can “match” gojo and gojo doesn’t need to worry about them even though it’s not even needed!! in asian cultures it’s not a burden to take care of people. it’s love. and i feel like western people don’t quite grasp that bc it’s such an individualist culture (this is a not nuanced at all / a generalization but u get the point)

yeah full on pda in fics always gets me because in japan???? lmao no honey!!! although gojo would definitely do it, not every character would LOL

gojo would pet names as a joke aka ironically, but i just don’t see him doing it seriously unless it's dear or smt

my mom is so big on respect. she always gets into fights abt with my brother and it’s a generational difference tbh but i digress, it’s not like it’s bad to be polite to your elders, but I do think koreans can take it too far to the point where it’s detrimental!!

[trans-axian-archive]

so i'd never seen howl's moving castle before.. i ended up watching it just now !! to understand your au !! after putting it off so long too lol, i'm digesting the film and your au so i wanted to ask about your favorite ghibli movies are ,, (i got really excited watching howls moving castle that i started making myself food and drinks and also prepped for the next meal lol,, i was just going to eat a small bowl of spaghetti and call it quits after not eating properly all day ᕕ(･ิω･ิ)ᕗ (๑´`๑)♡)

first of all it is of the Highest honor to have to say you watched a movie to understand my au that's so ouygjggiohioghhoo I'm so outghfhgoohhggo :") second of all!! obviously I love howls moving castle the sense of magic in it is just so lovely and sophie and howl are sweet and heartwarming instead of being like... a tiring het romance ajgsjbz and I just remember always being so in love with the castle??? I named one of my old rats calcifer too!! I really love kiki's delivery service less on the basis that I think it's a super good movie or anything (its obviously not bad by many means!! I just don't think it's the best ghibli movie) but it just means a lot to me nostalgia wise? I remember watching it a lot with my sister growing up :") it's just a very silly happy fun movie and that's just what you need sometimes!!! on the other end of the spectrum holy shit grave of the fireflies. I watched that movie for the first time with my best friend over rabbit (rip), neither of us knowing really what it was about. incredibly moving, well done, stunning movie but it's literally one of the Saddest things I have ever seen and I can never watch it again. holy shit oh my god jesus fucking christ. truly one of the most devastating movies I've ever seen and I say that not remembering like half of it. good lord. anyway.. back to things that give me happy warm nice feelings....... the cat returns. absolutely foolish movie like so truly ridiculous. so incomprehensible I love it so much. it's just so cute and fun?? I also have a cat returns wangxian au... its desperately unthought out but it exists. none of these were in order but I Did save the best for last meaning we have now come to my most favorite ghibli movie.... spirited away!!!!! I feel like that's considered a boring stereotypical answer but I really do love it so much. from the moment the movie starts its just... Rich with magic and it gives me this all consuming wonderful lovely nostalgic feeling that I cant even describe!!! it was the first ghibli movie I ever saw and just such a staple through my childhood?? it definitely like... shaped my sense of magic and wonder and helped form the kinds of stories I write and the way I write them? it just had a very big impact on me as a kid and I hold it very dear to my heart and it's one of those movies that I never get tired of watching

theres a bunch of ghibli movies I havent seen in a really long time (like princess mononoke and totoro) and don't remember a lot of?? so the ones I mentioned are just the ones I rlly like/stood out to me :^)

[bitchesofostwick]

2018 writer review

i was tagged by my dear friend @veridium-bye​ (thank you love!). i really didn’t start writing fic again until about october, so this is really a review of three months out of this year, but i’m still really proud of what i’ve done!

words written in 2018: 73,770

number of short fics/drabbles written in 2018: 39 (thirty-one of these were OC-tober ficlets, four were��art trade/gift fics, and the remaining four were miscellaneous stories for my OCs)

number of fic chapters written in 2018: 11 (three for All of My Walls and eight for A World Alone)

number of chaptered fics completed in 2018: just one! All of My Walls, a three-chapter fic of aurelia hawke and fenris spanning the time between the “a bitter pill” quest through the end of the in-game DA2 events. it was really important to me for two reasons: one, aurelia and fenris are a rivalmance pair, but a lot of rivalmance fics i see are basically...just hate sex? and for fenris, and for aurelia, there are so many more layers and personal history that lends itself to their romance and creates these waves of tension and sadness and anger and heartbreak, but never hatred. i tackle the rivalmance in a bit of an easier (and generally humorous) light in their shorter fics, but All of My Walls is much more serious and i’m so proud of both of them for growing into themselves and each other and slowly allowing themselves love and be loved over the course of that fic. the OTHER reason that fic was so important to be is that it’s the first long(er) fic i wrote in a long, long time, and i consider it my way back into writing. i don’t think it reads as seamlessly as fics i’ve written since then do, but i’m still proud of myself for creating it, and i’m thankfully that it brought me back into the writing world.

fandoms: only dragon age this year! i haven’t touched my skyrim fic since 2017, and i toyed around with the idea of a kotor fic in the spring, but it never amounted to anything.

pairings: mainly ellinor trevelyan x cullen, emilia cousland x alistair, and aurelia hawke x fenris; HOWEVER, i’m eternally grateful to @fourletterepithet (velthei lavellan x cullen), @haloneshiral (letheia lavellan x cullen), @frecklef0x (anon trevelyan x dorian), and @gingerbreton (ysabelle dryden x alistair) for granting me the honor of writing about their OCs and letting me explore the dynamics of other pairings/relationships! writing for others is a really great experience to grow and strengthen your own writing, so i’m really glad i got to do those stories.

proudest achievements: i’m honestly just...proud i wrote anything at all? it’s so intimidating to come into a fandom that’s years and years old and put your content out there for people to see, especially when you haven’t written leisurely in a couple years and you’re really self-conscious of your work, like i am. but i took the leap, and people have been so responsive and supportive, and i’m eternally grateful for the very kind mutuals/readers i have that continue to inspire me to keep going and creating. some more minor achievements include

starting art trades. before doing this, i truly, genuinely did not believe that the brilliantly talented artists i see on tumblr every day would ever value their incredible work as equal to a short fic written by me. to me, it seemed like trading down. it turns out, i was wrong, and i’ve so far traded three one shots for three beautiful pieces of artwork, and as i mentioned earlier, it’s so refreshing and also so beneficial (in terms of writing skill and practice) to write for OCs that are not my own, so i’m so glad to have done these!

forcing myself to write action scenes. if you’ve been following me for a while, you’ve probably seen me complain multiple times about how much i hate writing action (i even made a meme about it that somehow went viral within the writeblr community lol joke’s on them it was made as a result of me rage quitting a dragon battle scene). the only thing i hate more than writing action is writing mage action, because none of my OCs are mages and all of my friends’ OCs are mages and i cannot understand the dynamics of mage combat no matter how hard i try. but, you can’t get better at something unless you practice it, so i wrote plenty of action in an attempt to get better. and i think (hope?) i did.

starting A World Alone!! my pride and joy!! my first longfic!! my favorite OC!! it’s a slow burn it’s an enemies-to-friends-to-lovers there’s tension there’s sadness there’s powerful female friendships there will be love eventually and i could go on about it for forever but instead i’ll just shamelessly plug it here because i love it so much and it makes me so happy.

writing goals for 2019

i would really love to join DWC but so far it looks intimidating to me because i’m worried i won’t be able to sit down for a night and keep up. but i’ll probably do it. i have so many good prompt posts saved in my drafts that i want to do.

more art trades! i have three already planned for the new year, and i’m very excited about them!

maybe finish A World Alone? i’m writing it at a good pace so far, so it’s a realistic goal.

more one shots. i love my longfic (obviously, as i blabbed about it relentlessly above), but i think shorter fics are such great opportunities to really focus in on a singular emotion and delve deep into little moments that are so brief in terms of plot but so big in terms of characterization. there are a few in particular i’m really proud of from this year (x, x, x, x, x, x), but i’m looking forward to more.

tagging friends (keeping it to friends who write, even a little!! any amount of writing is good writing!) @inquisitorsmabari @fourletterepithet @dickeybbqpit @trvelyans @a-shakespearean-in-paris @star--nymph @cullenvhenan @daydreamingdragonage @gingerbreton

[littlebitluckywc]

hello <3!!! i found this around and i just wanted to try some of it out … i didnt answer some questions that i didnt get much of a drive for but maybe eventually ill come back to it :D

meme for roleplay muns by @/roleplaymemeworld

what is your favorite trope to roleplay?

one of my wildest little roleplays ive done was with a good friend of mine on a discord server - between badgerstar and luckystar, leaders of two different clans throughout the wacky world of warrior cats. a pair that's known each other throughout their entire lives, and never wouldve suspected either they themselves or that the other would rise to the title that they have now. luckystar is the kind of cat who'd always make sure to stop by whenever the gatherings would happen - she'd always come up to him and pull badgerstar aside, she'd always pop by and check in whenever she saw him on the borders and out in the territory … she'd always try to make sure things were going alright for him. she'd always try to make sure he didn't have anything to be upset about, or to be sad about … and eventually, its probably one of my favorite kind of ideas whenever it comes to a forbidden romance. luckystar had plenty of cats around her - she had a family, she had kits, she had her friends and parents in the stars … but he had none of it. he messed up plenty of times in his life, and when their forbidden relationship one day led to fights and wars between their two mighty clans - in the end of it all, when their tales both came to an end, luckystar had a little bit of a choice to make. she had her family, her loves and her friends she could be with. cats who had oh so much ruined by this feline that only she seems to understand and she decided to step away from them to be with him. to be with badgerstar. after all, she got to live her whole life with these cats - but she never got to be with her true love, and now in the unlife, she'll have her time to finally be with him. she'll always be there whenever the rest of the stars avoid him for what he did in his life, for how he acts and his crimes that he regrets… she's always been there whenever he's alone, and now she follows him on to every end of the stars. we havent got to finish it, but… god its something i really want to try some more. its one of the things i love the most, and it got onto an aspect of luckystar that's truly amazing to me - because, for how selfless and loving she was towards him… she had the option to try and redeem badgerstar in the stars. but she finally decided, after all of this time, after all of her lives - to have someone to herself. that's absolutely the sort of thing i love the most and smthn i wanna do again someday … badluck <3

who are your longest roleplay friends?

we don't meet as often as we used to, but a little group chat im in with 4 other people has some of the closest friends ive made through roleplay! two of them i met about 4 years ago through pokemon roleplay, and the other 2 i found through the very same warrior cats server and got to bond with before we started gaming together … we dont rlly roleplay too much anymore, but its been a blast and we still vibe quite often with each other!! i wouldnt say i have really many stories that have gone on for that long though,, i havent had many roleplays that have lasted all too long and its so hard to find people that do warrior cats stuff PFF, although i hope eventually that i can say smthn fits this part of things!

do your friends outside the internet know your roleplay?

ohh absolutely not lol … i feel like they would be accepting, but im terrified to say absolutely anything about it to anyone irl. i dont have the confidence to mention it to anyone, the closest thing ive gotten to it was my sister being in a roleplay server for a few days a couple years back - im 99% sure she does roleplay, but most defo not like me lol

why do you write?

writing has gotten me where i am if im being honest. i dont think i would be anywhere near as good as i am at ideas like game design or just making stories in general or programming if it wasnt for roleplay, and i feel like id be a lot less interesting of a person without it wfhuegih?? ive learned so much through this community and its changed my life over the past 6 years or so, i dont know where id be without it! it prepared me for where id end up going, writing funky lil mew mews…

do you welcome duplicates of your character or stay away from them?

YES!!! I ABSOLUTELY ADORE IT SM…. i really like seeing peoples interpretations of my mysteries and lil ideas, yet ive only ever found once or twice an idea that actually had someone else using one of my ocs - i absolutely love the thought of it … a lot of my ocs are the sorts of ocs that i not only rlly love to play around with, but are also what id ADORE to roleplay with!

is there one trope you can’t stand?

i really … don't like things with romance and other sort of points where one person is supposed to be superior to the other, like love triangles n whatnot. its something i have a lot of past trouble with and probably would only do with a group i REALLY trust not to take it ooc like??? lord

what is your opinion on writing smut?

have your boundaries, dont force it on people - but i don't see why it would be much of a problem, especially with someone you trust and whatnot! it's a good way to explore!

do you need music/noise to write or do you prefer silence?

i almost never write with music or whatnot ,,, i am SO BAD at writing with it LMAO i am very easily distracted and while i might be able to vibe with some lil things without lyrics like rain and little tunes, anything more and i wont rlly be able to do it very well i absolutely do play music before writing some stuff though, i get inspiration from it but definitely not while actively writing

what is your opinion on tagging triggers?

always if youre asked, its not that hard to do! otherwise i try my best for the more obvious stuff, but in general there isnt much i write about without intentionally nulling it down a little with things like more gorey writing or whatnot

do you prefer long or short replies and why?

in between really! i am absolutely capable of both but long replies i feel like depend so much on motivation that makes my writing a lot more infrequent, while short replies is a lot harder to make a story out of …. but something in between would absolutely be amazing, a nice compromise between smthn that takes more work and something that can be done in a short amount of time <3 the main time im fine with short replies is things like one shots … ive never found someone to do things like just little romance or adventure one shots at night with to pass the time but i feel like thatd be the time for it! i adore the idea a ton though <3

thats the main stuff ive got the time for rn at least!!! maybe ill post more, but also was inspired by @kittimuses to write this :D thought this would be a nice little thing to fill out and try!!!

[sanshine]

omg I'm so sorry this took me so long to get back I just lost track of time </3 I hate college life....I hope you are still doing alright though and life is treating you well~ <3<3 sending all the hugs and love~

you just must be amazing at challenge runs then because istg I suck lol </3 but true ff 15 is probably not the hardest game to challenge run in I just never tried....hmmm maybe it's worth a shot now....

which is why I'm never going for the platinum sigh.....that's just not even fair though.....I don't know who has that kind of patience to dodge 200 of those damn things....IN A ROW like >:(

Yeah you totally have a point....I think it's because they were so rushed in development (and not to mention switching directors from Tetsuya Nomura to Hajime Tabata did not help....hence why in Kingdom Hearts 3 Tetsuya Nomura created his own version of ff 15 and basically said eff u to square lmao) OMG the friendship alone between all 4 is so well written and done :( </3 Aranea I kinda liked too she had a tiny bit of depth but otherwise yeah everyone else was kinda plah....especially Lunafreya and she's like the romance interest so wtf happened there????

OMG what I wouldn't give to play ff6 I don't know much about it either but it sounds amazing....and everyone I met whose played it says I need too so......

you are the sweetest person alive though!!!! <3<3<3 I'm so sorry again ahhhh I'll try to be a better anon lmao <3 I hope you have a good day/night whenever you are reading this <3<3<3<3 ~ Final Fantasy Anon

nooooooo dont worry it's okay <333 i've been good, pretty busy myself tho!! there's always so much stuff to do i barely spend time scrolling my dash anymore 😭

FDVJDFBVHSDF i don't think i am but thank you dhfvhdsfv i think it really depends on what kinda challege run you wanna do!! i think a no item run could be a fun idea as well fhbvhsdfvb we kinda got a taste of that in ff15 in one of those post-game dungeons that disabled using any items in and out of combat and yeah that was somethign hhfdvbshdf i think i cheesed it with the magitek suit because i didnt wanna lose progress or anything lol but i definitely encourage you to do some of those challenge runs <33333

you'd be surprised how many peolpe do vfjhsdfvhdf but then again so would i......

yeah that is true :( but also i didnt know nomura created his own version of ff15?? what's that about hdhvbhsfdvb bc i know so many peolpe were hyped about the game becoming a versus 13 which i also have no clue what it would be about lol but in the end im very happy with the way the game ended up being but it'd be definitely interesting to see a different version so i think i'll have to look that up dfvhsdfv and yeah luna was such a pointless character JHDVHSDBFVBDF with all respect!!! but she realy has no significance at all in the game, i mean you were supposed to bond with her and be close with her so you can feel bad about the death scene (which was also basically just copy pasted aerith scenario lol) but we see so little of her by the time she dies that its just not emotional at all dhfbsdh which is a shame of course :(

i mean you should if you havent yet!!!! and so should i dhbvshdf it's pretty cheap on steam especially when it goes on sale bc those usually give like 50% discount sooo keep an eye out and definitely do get it <3 maybe we could even experience it together 😳

again, no need to be sorry at all!!! you're a perfect anon and it's okay if you take your time!! <3 im thankful for every message you send me <3 i hope you have a lovely week yourself!!! uwu <3

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Characterization meme: Amy, Jodhaa, and Avantika!

i tamy’s done! 

avantika: 1. that whole child soldier thing lol. there is only one goal and it is devasena’s liberation etc etc 2. this means that really everything about her personality has been honed towards her goal so any personal likes or dislikes or traits must be really strong to survive the indoctrination. i do think that, more than her fellow soldiers, she actually believes in the Cause and wants to save devasena for herself. if avantika wasn’t forced into it i think she would have chosen it anyway, and thats important to me especially when she is allowed to step away from her duties and ask herself why shes doing this3. i see her native personality as a combination of devasena and kattapa, or what i can extrapolate from kattapa outside of his status as a slave. i dont think she would be as hot headed as devasena, i think she’d be more calculating. i see her as a kind of glacier, where she takes her time to think of all angles but once shes decided shes unstoppable. kattapa always seems to be very level headed to me as an actual person. i think she and baahu and kattapa are all a little more grounded (probably because for better or worse theyve got some stable sense of self... or lack thereof with kattapa yuck) while devasena and shivu are all over the place bc they’re struggling for self definition and terrified someone else will force them into this role they arent meant for.4. i see her as someone who values non transactional kindness, which is why she globs on to shivu in my au so quickly. theres no reason for him to help her but he does and he seems to like her without expecting anything in return. this also somehow fits in with her liking pretty things. the sense of her valuing all these things that she sees as fragile and beautiful and so liable to being broken or exploited, and her wanting to protect them. 5. she could pull of a buzzcut6. she sees herself as expendable, and also hates mahishmati until she figures out that the people arent so bad. self value and mahishmati related nuance (sparked by their own internal revolutionary movement bc she shouldnt sympathize with the people who want to exterminte her) are all arc moments for her. 

Jodhaa:1. the husband thing, where she cant think of him by his actual name. i also see her switching between how she perceives the man her husband, the man Emperor of Hindustan and her husband the Emperor. 2. dissatisfaction with the way she was raised. its important for the compromise to be a two way street for me, and one where together they have an equitable relationship based on love trust and mutual admiration for one another’s skills. i feel like she has to see the flaws inherent in the way she was raised. (the bartering, the poison before loss of honor)3. shes kind, intelligent, proud. both of them are looking for unconditional love, which they havent really experienced. all of their prior relationships were v transactional and based on what they did for the other party imo. depending on what point the fic is set in i think the Romance aspect is important in terms of how she interacts with everyone bc once shes got the assurance of love she can be so much more confident. 4. she actually wants to be a productive ruler who does things rather than frivolous. she could have spent all her time in the harem, but she wants love and respect, she wants to have a proper place in her new home, and eventually she wants to be Empress because she thinks she can do a good job at it. 5. she probably learns how to sing qawwalis and jalal just cries like a baby. they figure out some syncretic balance and talk for far too long into the night about religion and culture and history and how the rajputs were high on opium every battle. jalal probably has a favorite mirabai song, and picks up rajasthani. 6. oh! at some point she ends up reading his correspondence for him. (akbar is theorized to have been dyslexic so this isnt really a thing where she can teach him to read in her spare time.) the og akbar is said to have a fantastic memory so maybe he recites a bunch of stories for her amusement.  

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JHSGFS SAME. v3 is a really good ending for the series. if there's another one (which i highly doubt at this rate) I'd be okay with that I'd just be upset at kodaka for giving me more children to cry over lahfuds. HALUFH AND SEEM although maki was the only backstory i kind of predicted correctly. i remember predicting how Keebo was some sort of person made into a robot but i was wrong (and Im not upset about that. i still love that robo boy)

LSHF I RELATE TO NOT BEING UNABLE TO PICK A FAV SO HARD LIKE!! THEYRE ALL SO GOOD I CANT CHOOSE. but asdhfuidhs if you,,,,, want to,,,, go ahead but like,,,, most of my fics are dumb aus. one fic i made was literally me just going "lol what if i do THIS" and it was originally supposed to be a oneshot but now it's muliple chapters and 50000 words long and im Dying (it's still fun to write though lmao). AND SAME 99% OF MY FIC IDEAS ARE BASED OFF ANGST

whoa wait there's nine chapters? :o I'll have to find it tonight then since I finally have some a decent amount of free time tonight and I'm too tired to work on any of my fics rn. But hhhh I wish you luck anyway!!! Writing fics with romance in them is always fun and I should try doing it more often because it's just,,,, so nice,,, to see these characters happy and in a good relationship.

and it's np!!! I know the exact same feeling and I love talking about aus with other people! it's so much fun to see what other people can think of and eventually seeing it written down

i keep hearing rumors of them making another one and idk that actually makes me kinda ?? angry?? because they ended it so well with v3 that I was okay with it ending there lol AND YOUR PREDICTION FOR KIIBS WOULD HAVE BEEN SO GOOD THAT WOULD HURT but Kiibo is a wonderful boy aaa he’s actually the first person I went for FTEs  cuz he was the one I was excited most for, along with Kirumi~

HEY IM SURE THEY ARENT DUMB AND THEY ARE ACTUALLY WONDERFUL!! I will try my best to get to them as soon as I can !! I promise :’)

aaaaa I havent actually posted it !! I wanted to finish writing the entire au first before posting it because I hate being inconsistent with posting chapters lolol But as soon as I reach ch 12 or 13 (which are the final two planned chapters) I will begin posting each chapter per week :’] I’m hoping to finish during the summer (hopefully) 

YEAH I FEEL THAT!! AUs are really wonderful!! But actually, I tend to not write AUs, and this is probably one of the first few I’ve ever done ; o ; i feel like for the most part, my writing tends to lean towards canon stuff and diverges from what’s provided in canon lolol but it really is fun seeing other people’s ideas and seeing them unfold with their writing :) and that being said, again, I’m sure all your AU fics are wonderful <3