#i havent done anything but lie

[nachfo]

I fucked up. I fucked up real this time. I didn't mean it. I didn't mean that to happen. I just wanted everything to go well. I wasn't careful enough, I should have known. It wasn't my fault, it was an accident. Then why do I feel responsible for it? Why do I feel it's my fault? I didn't mean to hurt him it was a mistake. It was my fault.

I can't look at myself in the mirrors. It's hard to look. I see another person, someone I don't want to be. Someone I hate. But that person on the other side of the mirror is who I am, and everything else is a facade. A lie. I have no life, I don't want to leave my room. I just want to lock the door and never leave again. I don't want anyone to knock on it, I don't want anyone to call my name. I want to die, alone, so nobody sees. I'm selfish, for thinking everything is fine, for lying to the people I love, for putting on a facade whenever I talk. I hate it, I hate you, the person looking on the other side. I hate me.

I just stay every day, sitting in front of a computer, waiting for something to happen. waiting for something to change. Pretending I'm someone who I'm not. Pretending to be fine. Pretending to be happy. Pretending to be sad. Pretending to understand. Pretending to have everything under control. Finding a place where I can just escape. And still, I mess everything up.

Sometimes, I wish I had it worse. I wish to feel bad, to feel like nothing. So to not care about anything, to have an excuse. I don't have a reason to feel bad, I don't have a reason to feel sad. I have a happy life, I have everything I could want and still, I'm here crying every night on my bed. It's selfish, and arrogant, to think I have it as bad even worse than other people. That I need the same help, that I need the same attention. I don't deserve that. it's just a lie. A lie I have made myself believe. I lie I have made everyone else believe. I'm nothing but a lie. protected by a screen.

Sometimes, I don't know if I'm protecting myself from others, or if I'm protecting others from myself.

Its a lie

all a lie

I fucked up, and I cant forgive. I cant forgive him. That person that looks at me back. That person is on the other side of the mirror. Me…

[fate-defiant]

🦋~I want you to kiss me, I want you to remake me I want to drown in this moment of captivation~🦋

(I fucking did it dear god that was so many fucking layers)

[almalex24]

as promised..... lea sundress ^_^ @mattzachnar

[unopenablebox]

ive become an adult man who hates having a cold and makes it everyone else's problem, one of the classic hateful traits to make fun of people for online. you can tell because i've asked my girlfriend if it's ok if we order udon for dinner so i can have a nice soup & also asked them to pick up decongestants and a lemon from one of the stores that are directly on their route home from work. also because when they asked how i am over text i said "CONGESTED and SULKING". all this is the action of a monster

[falconearring]

on my life if you kill one of these bitches in the AU you're going to regret it deeply (I will start crying and it will be very unpleasant)

Well that's interesting cause. Look at this funny picture I drew!

[bitternace]

(08/08!)

flurry of dancing flames, with the silly hair (affectionate)

[ID: two digital drawings of axel from kingdom hearts. the background is light blue and the colors are faded.

In the first, he is shown in a wide forward stance, as he takes a long step. Both arms are extended to the sides, and on either hand he holds his characteristic weapon, eternal flames. he grins, one of his eyebrows raised as his hair and the tail of his coat flare behind him.

the second is a close-up of his face. /End ID.]

[antlereed]

hunting for fic prompts like a madman

[jam-packed]

i watched aliens (1986) and tbh where are the adrift in space aus for motogp. trap those guys in some situations

[odysseys-blood]

The blowjob brothers.

typical conversation between them

[silverselfshippingchaos]

sleepy... (totally didn't stay up playing f.f8 because I have a crush)

[todayisafridaynight]

Snap you are the king of sexy funny back when you did Yamtien just goes to show you have a talent for humor and cheesecake.

there's something about the title 'king of sexy funny' that's really tickling me thank you so much anon ill take that crown with honor

[britneyshakespeare]

why does scheduling my work days give me so much stress and anxiety

[red-dyed-sarumane]

concept. 2 interests at the same time

[tempe-brennans]

i wish i was serious about literally anything

[mojaves]

i neeeeeed a guy to latch onto again so bad. So bad

[chiistarri]

i hate change id rather die