#i havent been in too awful many fandoms

[gomzdrawfr]

Bam bing bong, summary of my doodles in 2024

[niadotcom]

im re reasing all te h pjo books hoo and toa too im in teh middle of the lost hero and i read these books years ago ok i forgot half the things i didnt know quintus was daedulas or that they met haphaestus in teh book or that tyson and grover went on their own little quest together adn its slowly coming back and i just rmemebered. zeus had two kids with teh same woman in his greek and roman forms. i. i also haven't read son of neptune when i was reading the series for teh first time i decided to skip it because tower of nero was supposed to come out pretty soon and i had to coemplere hoo + toa in time to get to read tower of nero as it was released and i ended up finishing 3 hoo books and 4 toa ones before the release date anyway. in like. a month i inhaled those books and i am now i had gforgotten how much i liked them yes i'll admit it isnt the best tsorytelling but it gives me nostaligia the goo dkind and im just so. overwhelmed i lvoe these books if not for the storytelling for being the only thign getting me through being 11-14 i rememnr i used to curl up adn read them all day and then i wen tot pinrteret adn thus wwent on to become a pinterest tumblrina and then acn actual tumblrina wow

[choccy-milky]

I just wanted to say that your art and your fic are divine, and I'm obsessed every time you post. 😭🫶 Huge, adoring fan. Thank you for sharing Clora and all your work with us.

AA TY APPLIN💖💖😭😭i love your posts too and your top quality memes BAHHA also the amount of stuff you write for the fandom?? i am on my knees you have done us all a SERVICE🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️i unfortunately havent read anything yet bc i wanna be done with my fic before i do, but im looking forward to the backlog of stuff ill be able to read from so many ppl in the fandom once i am💕🙏 THANK U AGAIN💖

@limonnitsa LMFAOO THIS IS SO TRUE DAMN, IT WASNT EVEN INTENTIONAL, EVEN MY USERNAME HAS LIGHT/DARK THEMES...OMG

CHOCOLATE MILK THE GOAT💯💯💯ey gurl can i be the choccy to ur milky😏😏😏👉👉👉

is 4 me...?😳👉👈 AND AW TYY🥺 IM GLAD U THINK SO💖💖 i am always happy to serve and keep fuelling the delulu seb train, for as long as my hyperfixation fuels me💪✏️ ngl this entire month of april has honestly been pretty meh and ive been in kinda a rough place mentally BUT im going to my moms at the beginning of may so hopefully bein around family and stuff will help🙏ty for asking tho and i hope ur doin good as well!! IM ALSO GLAD U THINK SO/LIKE CLORA💖😭it makes me die a little inside whenever i see someone say shes my self insert bc we could NOT be any more different in both looks/personality and i rly tried to make her her own person...but damn i wish i was gentle and demure like her but NAH BITCH IM LOUD AND GREEK AND ANNOYING AF bAHAHA🤪 and i also think shes the perfect match for seb and for me SO THANK YOU AGAIN LMAO😇💖 @cloudnessvi

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

WIBTA for asking out my manager?

Hi there. Trust me this is a WIBTA and not just dating advice.

So I (35F) am basically working at my dream workplace. I cant say what exactly, because I know people follow this account there, but suffice to say its in a desirable industry with a lot of passionate folks, and while its a big (~150 people) place, there's an atmosphere of kindness and joy I've never seen anywhere else. I know a lot of you probably hate me for this, but I am truly aware how rare a workplace this is, and I am grateful. I dont take it for granted. Sometimes the work itself truly sucks, and the pay is outright atrocious, but when your coworkers have your back, it makes all the difference. They accept me even tho I'm trans, and when I've been sick or injured they make sure I'm taken care of. I feel like they are a family of sorts, and I've been working there for over a year now.

Anyways, this wonderful place is held up by a lot of wonderful people, but one in particular is my manager (30F). When I first got hired, I noticed she was cute, but more importantly she was welcoming and accepting. I set aside those feelings, of course, because its a workplace, but they havent gone away.

But lately, this all started to change. We now spend a lot of talking! We have lots of common interests, and there have been nights when both of us will stay for HOURS while the other works, just to chat about whatever! We even text a bit, even about not-work things. Sharing fandom stuff, whatever. The more and more we talked, the more I fell for her. I could hear her go on for days, even if its something I dont care about. Hell, she could read the dictionary and I'd be sitting there grinning because I get to hear her talk. I've got it bad! And then, a few weeks ago, she even brings up how she's given up on dating...but before I could ask more or say anything really, a coworker interrupted and the moment passed.

And here I am, weeks later, smitten like crazy. And I'd say "oh she obviously likes me, she sticks around for you, shares stuff with you" but she's like this with everyone. She's a bit airheaded honestly about it, I mostly find it endearing, but she could absolutely just be doing it because she talks like that to everyone. She's bisexual, and very pro-trans, so I dont think that would be an issue in any way.

But here's where the WIBTA part comes: I have told a couple other coworkers, and they brought up not only that its a dangerous move to date a manager, but also that it could hurt the workplace itself. I mean, this is a place where so many people get to have a joyful opportunity at life, and as I've said this is tremendously rare...what if I take up too much of this manager's time, and she cant be there for other workers? What if this manager gets fired for dating an underling, and gets replaced by someone awful? There's a whole lot of what-if's floating through my mind.

And then I start thinking, if I ask her out, wouldnt that be putting her in an awkward position? I mean if she doesnt like me, and has to turn me down, she still has to work with me, and I her. I can compartmentalize that, but...she might have more trouble. Is it selfish of me to even try, when I could just let well enough be? And on top of that, what did she mean by "giving up on dating"? It didnt sound like she was aromantic, just that she decided it wont happen, but maybe its just going to be a problem if I ask her out. It feels like the stakes of even asking her out are so high. So I keep chatting with her in hopes that I'll catch a lead, but...idk.

Anyways, I am primarily concerned with if it would be a dick move to anyone in my workplace, especially her, but genuinely I am just lost here. I've never dated anyone at a workplace, but like. The dating apps suck, and I dont think I've ever felt this way about anyone before. I've even thought about quitting or finding another workplace to make it an easier decision, but I feel like thats even worse; like it would put pressure on her to date me because I quit for her or something. So how about it? Should I keep my mouth shut, or is love truly worth all risks?

What are these acronyms?

[autisticlancemcclain]

fic rec friday 37

hello and welcome to fic rec friday! where, on friday, i rec five of my favourite fics.

1. Fade to Black by @yokohogawa

Things between Keith and Lance are changing but Keith is restless, especially with Shiro still weak, and ends up taking a bad decision: he leaves Lance alone in the Castle with a Lion he cannot pilot. Unable to form Voltron without the newly appointed Red Paladin, the four Paladins left struggle against the sudden attack of a Galra ship and later on take damage from the explosion of a star in close proximity. Lance, on the other end, is left to defend the Castle by himself and has little time to succeed: without energy, the Lions have only 6 hours of breathable air. Beyond that point, his friends will be dead.

okay yes technically this series is unfinished. HOWEVER the first two works ARE finished, and they are amazing showstopping incredible etc. tbh im not much of a black paladin lance fan, i genuinely think solo leadership is not what he is suited for, but this fic made me way more open to it. the way he handled severe crises was as fear stricken as it was awe inspiring highly recommend

2. once again i am a child by @lilaclavenders

“You’re not a spare tyre,” Adam interjects.  “I know that,” Lance says, too unsure to sound completely defensive.   “That almost sounded like a question.” “No... it didn’t,” Lance says.

Lance and Adam talk.

i have always been a fan of lance and adam even tho its the most evidence lacking fanon thing in this fandom. its truly just so interesting. and to have lance as a young cadet getting slammed so badly just in so many different directions being given at least one grownup in his corner...its a good read.

3. Lance the language man by @irish-vampire-blog

Lance didn't really try to learn a language. He just, kind of, picks up the basics and then works from there. Its usually unintentional. Ish.

He isn't stupid though. He isn't an idiot. He just isn't the same kind of smart as his friends are.

this kind of smart for lance is so REAL bc no he cannot do like quantum physics or whatever probably but the way he seems to have a pretty innate ability to successfully do many things that he tries. he just can u know?? thats the autism with the gay audacity i would imagine but i love seeing fics like this

4. my boyfriend's back (and you're gonna get in trouble) by teacupfulofbrains

hey la, hey la, my boyfriend's back

Keith Kogane has never heard of Vine. Lance McClain takes personal offense to this, and makes it his personal mission to teach his boyfriend to meme. Keith is confused, mostly.

(OR: several instances of Keith not getting the meme™ and two times he did)

I LOVE THIS FIC SO BAD I CANT BELIEVE I HAVENT RECCED IT BEFORE. yes i am a cringe zillenial who still finds vine funny and quotes it on the internet but truly idc idc. this fic is funny. this fic is cute. established klance my love and light. also keith comparing lances eyes to the star of bombay is some of the gayest shit ever and also the only time i will entertain blue eyed lance

5. The Most Dangerous Thing is to Love by running_downn

Last time something like this happened to Lance, Keith wasn’t there. He’d thought he would have been able to do something if he had been there, or at least if he was, the guilt wouldn’t be so heavy on his chest. But this time he was there. He was right fucking there and he decided that it was infinitly worse.

~

Basically there's a new threat after the Galra and it almost kills Lance. Desperate making out ensues, but it's okay to recognize when it's not the right time for it. Keith cries a lot cause he's older and grizzled and therefore not as emotionally stunted.

green sock reality? team still out fighting as adults and lance isn’t a fucking farmer while the rest of the team isn’t? keith’s abandonment issues treated with respect and dignity and also the acknowledgement that he’s older and therefore mature enough to handle those issues in a way that doesn’t risk a relationship that is important to him? lance understanding all this and using the supportive nature he is known for??? yes yes yes. stellar fic that should have way more hits than it does

that’s it for today!! i’ll see y’all back next friday for the next fic rec post!!!

[dirtyvulture]

Hi, this is probably going to be a mess of thoughts lol. I first and foremost want to say that I love the group of writers that write Nat x reader or any Marvel woman x reader fics. There's like a giant group of you guys that are celebrities in the writing world. And I've read your guys content for years. And you all are friends. Its actaully really sweet to see a community come together like that.

My question is how do you make online friends like that. I recently started writing a few stories in this fandom. And some have gained traction which i'm proud of. But i really just wanted to make friends in this fandom. And I've really havent been able to do that in real life. The curse of social anxiety amd having limitations. And i've seen alot of new authors kind of find their groups of people here in this fandom. Or be welcomed with open arms. But i don't know how to do that. Or even if I'm good enough to. And i'm just kind of like I need to do something different. Or my writing is just awful and I should quit. I genuinely feel like an idiot asking thats why I'm on anon. I am a grown adult and I'm worrying about something like this, like what even. Is wrong with me lol

I also don't know if it's because I don't have my anons on but everyone has been getting so much hate lately. And thats honestly scarey as hell.

Thank you for reading my anxiety spiral lol

Hello there! No need to apologize for anything, I am honored you came to me for advice lol

Thank you! I never really think of myself as a celebrity here and there are many writers who are bigger and better than myself but I'm happy that readers include me in that category. :)

I've actually made quite a few fantastic friends from being a Nat writer, and I've even met some of them in person! But this isn't the case with every person I've interacted with on here, and you do need to be careful connecting with people on online platforms.

Online, it'll usually start when I notice a particular user interacting a lot with my content, or maybe I really like their content and I'll comment or reblog frequently. After that, depending on the vibes, I'll move into their messages and some people will just ignore me or some people will respond back, and that's how a friendship starts!

It's the same thing in real life, but a little scarier because you have to react in the moment and can't spend hours crafting the perfect message to respond with. I'm an introvert, but as I got older I forced myself to start conversations with strangers, or say hi to people I've never met before, and yes it was terrifying (and still is), but the reward of meeting amazing people and becoming close friends with some of them is absolutely worth overcoming the fear.

But be kind to yourself! Personal growth and friendships and relationships don't happen overnight. If you love writing, please keep doing it! Maybe someone will reach out to you one day, or you can reach out too when you find the confidence or want to challenge yourself.

(And don't worry about not having anons on. I actually get a bit of hate/trolls myself, and sometimes I get really sad over it, but I've learned to just delete, block, and move on.)

Hang in there, anon! Life is not easy and there's so many challenges to overcome, but I believe in you :)

[beautifulpersonpeach]

this is so weird but i havent been on army twt for a couple days and i honestly would not have known about taehyung wearing a durag if it weren’t for your answer to an ask here

i’ve been scrolling through army twt for half a day now and i havent seen any commotion within armys regarding the matter. idk what to feel about that because i honestly think if it were the rapline, esp namjoon, doing that, there would be tweets with double digit qrts. it would be awful, but at least it’s guaranteed that he’d see it and acknowledge it and applogize.

am i bad for wishing that tae’s case gets more visible? i’d rather he gets called out now for one thing instead of a build up of ignorant acts in the future. which could definitely happen.

***

Between Jessi opening a durag shop in Seoul this year, SWF players sporting rags, and at least 4 idols sporting rags in the last few weeks, this particular scandal was likely not going to get as much noise given k-pop stans had already (recently) shown they don't care all that much.

It got plenty traction in my side of ARMY twt. Even made it outside the fandom with Blinks, NCTzens, Shawols, and Stays joining in to drag Tae. Nearly all of them fell back when ARMYs showed up with receipts of their idols doing the same or worse though. I said sometime back that racism charges in k-pop are kinda sticky, because if you point it out for one, it won't be long before everyone gets roped into it.

This time too, ARMYs actually wrote up a statement of sorts and emailed it to BigHit, addressed to Tae, to educate him on what he was doing and why it was wrong.

You're right that if Joon did this the hate would be worse. Because with him it's always worse. Anyone who has even a mild dislike of BTS as a group, hates him. He's the leader of BTS and in a sense the face of the group. Even many within the fandom who like the most popular members like Jimin and Tae, hate him. Joon is generally hated by most k-pop stans, more than any other member, and many people will give you all sorts of reasons for why they dislike him, but at the heart of it is the idea that he represents BTS.

[thirdmagic]

ah, yes... i dont know if it is people we share on our following list and I am not even sure if i was mutuals with them or if they unfollowed at some point before this but there were a few people, from fate fandom, people that i at least have been following for years and years, who put some stuff on my dash on the day of october 7th that. well. i jumped ship pretty much instantly because it sure was something to see after being woken by sirens and spending most of my day running between my apartment door and the bomb shelter and then seeing what was happening on the news. but yeah i havent seen a lot of it, like two-three people but i also know just enough of tumblr fate fandom to know how insular it is that i can pretty much extrapolate what must be going on in other blogs and what you must have seen. so i clearly ran away right on time lol

i don't even know if they've even forgotten some of these parts so much as they never learned about them or never knew. or maybe they haven't forgotten but need their specific easy narrative and to project their own familiar political issues on it so badly that they willingly remain ignorant. i also think there's just such an issue where the only antisemitism that registers as such in many people's minds really is just the shoah and the idea of a jew as a tragic victim of the shoah is the only one they can work with, so they just compartmentalize that from any kind of currently living, breathing, existing jewish person who is not so easily perfect-victim-ized.

but honestly, i think none of us here realized how bad it was too. i had a feeling something like this would happen one day eventually inevitably but it seemed to me like the next moment of devastation had to be way more far off and also that people would obviously do at least the bare minimum of caring and acknowledging that it's bad that it happened and to at least be a little compassionate because that's normal to expect, right. again, not a high bar, surely, right. and well. you know how that worked out.

and to you both: thank you for your kind words and your compassion and understanding. i am pretty much as safe as i can be, there has been rockets and attacks in the areas around where i live and smaller individual instances within it but nowhere near the scale of what's been going on elsewhere. emotionally i've had a few very rough days and very, very low points this past week, i won't lie, especially since i've spent the first week just kinda absorbed in following the news, but i'm doing much better than i used to and figuring out ways to deal with it and to cope, i've had a lot of people willing to listen and talk to, and i managed to find community in several different places to bond around this and work through it together

and you know for all the awfulness and all the ways people have been horrible about it online and elsewhere there's also been a lot of goodness, many, many people reached out to me personally in support, and i treasure and appreciate every single bit and every single effort you can make. and honestly it's especially valuable coming from gentiles and in general everyone who isnt affected or involved, i understand the risk it carries for you all to go against the grain and how much easier it would be to just go long with the narrative that refuses to listen and understand. so again, thank you. this stuff kinda helps me get through the day, even if it's just thoughts, words, or reblogs, it is still valuable to me and others.

[koskela-knights]

The con was okay. I havent been to such a large one since 2018 or 2019 😂 So it was pretty overwhelming sensory wise 😭😔 Got me a bit dizzy even. I briefly met up with someone but mainly went my own way. Once market stands got too packed I left (it’s a 2,5hr journey too so I kept that in mind)

Sadly I saw literally no other Alan Wake cosplayer on Saturday. Or maybe I overlooked them becos of how many folks r present during these events. There was also no fanmerch. Now AW1 is already 14 years ago and apparently aw2 isnt rly in the bigger fandom conscious either.

Also doubt anyone recognized my cosplay 😅 The few people I talked to didnt mention it or I had to clarify haha.

I used to go with friends and it’s definitely way more fun if u go with one or more person. And as said in prev post, wish I had a cosplay buddy to go as Jaakko or even just meet other AW cosplayers but alas 😭 Surprisingly, I didnt see any Silent Hill (2) cosplayers either. Sometimes I see a Pyramid Head or Nurse cosplayers lol.

I did see a bunch of Arcane cosplayers and Tf2 people. Tf2 forever

[chucktaylorupset]

now im curious...in the. yknow. now long-ago past, did u ever have any mckirk ideas/plot bunnies that u started or thought u might want to explore?

if no, then got any royjaimiekeeley ot3 thoughts u would like to share w the class 🤔

send asks

star trek is such a long running and storied fandom i didnt really feel i had any fics that were new and mine enough to want to contribute, not to mention ive only seen the new benighted jj abrams movies

gun to my head i would do a reverse sick fic where Bones is ill during their college days. It's common knowledge that doctors are the worst patients. The classic is something contagious so I imagine Bones would self quarantine and. Shit. At this point in his divorce, get drunk. He defines himself by caretaking for other people and collapses when that goes away.

kirks nice in the bar and on the flight and all but I imagine the real glue of their initial friendship is that Kirk is someone who, despite his GPA, you can worry about constantly. Maybe the reason Kirk lets Bones stick around is that, unlike every other person telling him to shape up, Bones doesn't actually want him to get better/less risk prone. This is before their relationship about Kirk being the momentum that has Bones trying new things and enjoying new experiences despite being a curmudgeon.

Kirk shows up and is like hey you havent yelled at me and stuck a space bandaid on me in a while and plummets right into the middle of Bones unresolved feelings about his divorce. Life has not exactly prepared this delinquent college flyboy for this but it's a turning point that like right now, whatever reasons Kirk has for thrill seeking in bars, drinking is a method of self harm for Bones. Kirk's behavior is affecting another human person, Bones is also prone to binge drinking, what does Kirk do.

The other fic idea is they fuck in the bathroom of that bar they meet in and have to navigate Kirk being Bones's big messy divorce rebound that he immediately has too much deep committee feelings about and also unfortunately, Kirk is real good at sex.

wait third idea: they hook up in the bathroom stall of the bar and Kirk is AWFUL at sex. All his hookup have been about the rush instead of, you know, being present in the moment. Bones pulls him into the dorm room for an instructive seminar in bed, and then has to deal with the knowledge that all of the many many women Kirk sleeps with at college are only having a good time because he fucked Kirk first.

i have many royjamiekeeley thoughts but this post has to end somewhere

[lostacelonnie]

Congrats on surviving even more school & good luck on the inevitable more that comes after! Also good luck on those exams. Lumine is so iconic i haven't liked a character so quickly as i did her in ages. We are all better off with more jeht content tbh. She's fun & an interesting character we get to see grow. Hell if that aint my eternal mood. So much to do so little time. Xingqiu is so good i gave him a rest break after getting yelan & kokofish though he deserves it. I will manifest you getting him some day. I played faruzan's hangout & man its so good. I want her now. & once again lumine fits so well in the hangouts with the ladies too. Sdr2 had so many of my favorite characters & really did uh. Not do most of em justice it sucks. Thats what character adoption is for. That domain isnt like. The worst of them but it is annoying. So the usual advice applies. Get workable stuff & roll with it. Not worth farming for perfection. Good to know. I simply am always in awe of nature so i know ill like it regardless. That is very cool its amazin yall have been friends for so long. Me after playing dehya's story quest & also gaining her as a character first 10 pull. Ive gotten into so many series because of friends its like my vetting process. If someone whose tastes i trust says its good ill check it out. Like every honkai post i see from you reminds me i wanna continue that

hi again [once again sorry for the extremely late answer but im afraid this might become a bit of a pattern cos our teachers suddenly decided to give us Every Exam In Existence TvT] and thank you sm!!!! its. a lot. but im surviving. lumine is SO great frfr. tho i havent played the new archon quest yet [my interest in minecraft returned so ive been kinda doing that lol] so i havent seen any potential content from there yet. and i agree, jeht is amazing. im so glad mhy didnt just make her a throwaway character. and yeahhh isnt that life. i have. so many plans. and so little time And motivation. thank you for the manifestation 🙏🙏 im yelanless as her playstyle happens to not really be my thing but i DO have koko and i ❤ her. ouuugh then ill check it out!! one day at least. god im gonna have so much stuff to do when i finally get the energy to play genshin again. yeah sdr2 was. Something. danganronpa would be such a good game if it wasnt so bad. if that makes sense. but it was def a fun fandom, a fundom is you will. yeahh fair i just did that with the pale flame domain [THO I PROBABLY SHOULDNT HAVE COS MY EULA STILL HAS ONLY 4* ARTIFACTS.... but she can his 100k and im trying to not be a metaslave so im not that bothered]. yeah its still a REALLY cool experience so i cant recommend it enough. hehe right!! its all thanks to Tiny Me bc she had ten times the confidence of current me. and im still laylaless rip. yeah me too tbh!! and good luck on continuing honkai when u get to it!!!

[rishlurh]

HI HI IRISH MY LOVE <3 i hope you are doing so well

i am here to share some quality moments of the past few months to catch you up

I am in too many fandoms to count at this point, and like omg like i cant choose one so i choose them all

2. my mom found my pinterest and was concerned but also loved my chris evans pins

3. my dog ellie is literally cray cray but i love her and she is like my bestie. she loves watching Lego Batman <3

4. HUGE win for me with the TLOU tv show coming out, because the first episode was done so well i was screaming and crying and like cmon ellie was named after TLOU cmon screaming crying

HI KYNA MY LOVE THANK U I AM I THINK

IM SO GLAD TO HAVE YOU HERE i love the visual aids here

so relatable ive also been jumping back and forth we are in every era!

chris evans pins ftw!! as she should 😍😍

aw!! im so happy she's settled in, we love ellie! lego batman that's right she has taste <3

YES it looks so good already i havent gotten to it but im so excited to do so i saw tlou and thought of u

[momomomma2]

I finally got to play Far Cry 5 and since I'm a big gay I started looking up male deputy/john seed fics and was so excited when I saw some of them had been written by you.

Ah did you like it? Have you beaten it yet? I’m assuming John is your favorite brother? 

(I got fics for so many things now, I’m bound to run into people across fandoms. I hope you liked them!

[orcelito]

Genuinely wondering how many Twitter users r actually coming to tumblr. Like is tumblr the de facto alternative to twitter?? I know there's been a lot of overlap in fandom communities, + a large number of former tumblr users that migrated over to Twitter back when the porn ban started (which notably marked the decrease in average insufferableness here & increase over there, but I digress).

Do Twitter users propose going to other places, or do they default to bringing up tumblr? I can't tell if I'm seeing that just bc ppl on tumblr naturally will talk about people talking about tumblr, or if it's genuinely that widespread.

[elliethesuperfruitlover]

end of the year sap post

so another year has come and gone, and it has been....quite a lot, to say the least. and im not going to get into a god-awful amount of detail, but lets just say that it was very stressful when it was stressful, and sometimes enjoying really fun things was hard to do. i wrote a lot this year, now that i think about it. i started writing for different fandoms, i picked up several hyperfixations (and some havent dropped off yet) i created two wonderful brand new characters, who i love very much. and im really proud of myself for it. 

 im usually really bad at keeping up with stuff, and being consistent, but i really think that i did really well this year in writing, and creating new things and such. i go through hobbies like candy, but writing has stuck like glue lol. i went through a lot of really Not Good stuff this year, both in and out of fandom, and i just think that me being able to say “im still me” and stick to my values is really good. im really happy with what i created though. i dont compliment myself a lot, but im giving myself a pat on the back, and a big fat hug for everything that i’ve been through, and that i still have the courage to be here. and still loving my friends and family, and loving my hobbies. im really proud of myself, truly.

i couldnt have done a lot of that with my mutuals, both ones i talk to, and the ones that i dont anymore. theyre exceptionally kind, and funny, and keep me going. i couldnt be more thankful for their presence in my life.

(yes i will be complimenting my closer mutuals, they all deserve it)

@super-unpredictable98  she’s literally amazing. writes so much good stuff for so many medias!! flor has super good anime recommendations, and she never fails to make me fall in love with a character. i love screaming about all might with her lol. i love her OC’s. (JJ would love to be friends with Alma). i can be found rereading her fics close to daily bc theyre literally so good, and when i have brainrot for a character that she’s written, i go straight to her masterlist.

@bisexualnathanyoung ry is super sweet :). i love talking to them (even if it’s just me screaming in the tags most of the time) i like hearing about their thoughts on stuff, and even tho i wanna punch him, their love for nathan young is incredible and unmatched. me 🤝 ry *tired of people in our respective states being rude about COVID stuff*

@badsext i love her so much :). somehow a lot of our conversations end up being about food (and make each other hungry). i love hearing about different stuff thats been going on in her life, and she also has really good show and movie recommendations. her short stories are phenomenal btw. very funny and nice :)

@magic-multicolored-miracle we dont talk much, BUT i really appreciate shye’s presence. she has really good taste in music, and works very hard. she made me fall in love with derek sandoval, and every chapter “idiot affectionate” has a deathgrip on me, as well as any updates about olive and jess’ livelihood. i love her posts about mass effect too (even tho im lost half the time lol) extremely talented.

@joz-stankovich got me hooked on bakugou and he has a fucking chokehold on me. (if u dont call him off, im gonna log him off of the earth permanently/j). they’re super talented. i was very excited (and still am) when they started having brainrot for BNHA stuff bc i was like “ah, another pal to share class 1-a thoughts with”. theyre also super duper talented and their writing is g r e a t. i love talking about country! kirishima with them, and art student! bakugou. brainrot hours? brainrot hours. also really good at art like keep some talent for the rest of us/lh.

@the-freckled-luba  we dont talk very much, but from june to mid september, the loki series was our braincell (as well as mobius), and our braincell ONLY. i love seeing the stuff you tag me in, and i really appreciate your good vibes! very sweet individual :)

@hucklebunny very talented human being right here! their art is super impressive!! also i love their text posts about their dogs and cool things. it’s very neat! we mostly talk through tags, and through the server, but i love said interactions lol. i love hearing them talk about sean falco, and as of late, the red riding trilogy :). its super cool.

@maerenee930 such a sweetheart! mae is really sweet! she always has nice stuff to say about people! also their earrings are super cool (i want the kool-aid burst ones pls). gives very good advice!! i would give them a hug given the opportunity. has the voice of a literal angel, audition for the voice right now bestie.

@firstpersonnarrator we do not talk much, but i quite literally love her writing so much. simon x billy is a great series, and ive loved reading it so far! i like the comedic and honest feel her writing has to it! its very unique, and is super SUPER good. i enjoy her love for simon lewis as well! very funny individual!

@catsnathan anna is so sweet! we don’t talk very often, it’s mostly in the server, but you always have something nice to say! i admire your love for cats btw, and i hope that you can get one soon! you deserve all the kitties!

@santacarlahorrorshow​ i love seeing ur gifs! they’re always really nice and crisp! and i know that if i ever need something, you’re there :). also i love your stranger things fics and the sirius fic! so much delitches plot, and just mm yes.

@candyclaw literally super cool! we dont talk super often, but i always enjoy it when we do :). they have super cool cosplays, and are a very talented painter! her “shinji in the frog chair” painting is fucking iconic, i laughed, i cried, Y E S. i enjoy seeing them post about evangelion stuff (bc that show genuinely fucked me up, same with the movies, i cant look thru the evangelion tag) it means i get free evangelion related stuff to think and talk about. also deltarune chapter 2 came out this year, and seeing them reblog stuff about it made my brain go brrrr bc i am shaking hands with them in solidarity for that game series.

@salvador-daley we dont talk very often, however its always fun when we do! very talented writer. salv is also very very funny! i remember seeing a new chapter of a fic, then i realized i hadnt read the previous ones in depth and went ham over on ao3. 

@frogs--are--bitches we also dont talk very often, but mickey is a very cool individual! they have a really good sense of not only style, but also humor! no but for real, hand over entire closet.

@forenschik loki brainrot pals. we dont talk very often, but its always really pleasant! very talented painter as well (i think about the shoes you did and im baffled at how good they are) also being a chemist is such a good job! its super cool to me!

@seancekitsch we also dont talk alot, but her fashion sense is also super duper cool! i still have not watched the lost boys, but i do enjoy seeing you post about the witcher. (i also have not watched that show). very talented writer!!! glad to chat with her whenever i get the chance :)

@neuroticpuppy we dont speak very often. its just me leaving tags on stuff lol. very cool person tho!! i enjoy seeing her reblog stuff whenever it pops up, and it’s very nice vibes.

dont feel bad if i left u out, i promise it wasnt on purpose (unless it was in which, i hope you’re doing well and drinking water. also i never stopped caring, contrary to what you may think.). but i did some good things. and also some really bad things that i’ll never forgive myself for. i cant say im a better person or anything bc i dont know if i experienced much mental growth, really. i learned more things, sure. but idk if too terribly much has changed. 

im forever grateful for my mutuals’ presence. and im extremely thankful for the time ive spent with all of yall so far. you make everything a lot better for me. and im sure you do the same for other individuals in your lives. im very proud of each and every one of you. for what you all have done this year, and every other year you’ve spent alive and breathing. i love yall. and you all matter to me more than you can ever imagine. So here’s to next year, and whatever it may bring!

                                                                                                                                                                                                                            ~Ellie

[dykeyote]

characters for the ask game you say 👀- soren, gerry, kevin and marisol if you wish?

YESSSSSS

SOREN BALTIMORE

how i feel about him: I LOVE HIM SOOOO MUCH HES LIKE . hes my second fav chara but hes THIS close to being tied with jedidiah and if u cant tell from like . everything about my acc thats HIGH praise

all the people i ship w him: sydney and marie-ann altho i usually see the latter as being sort of unlabeled and fluctuating between platonic and romantic (: i can be enticed into romantic sonnel from time to time but i usually prefer them to be queerplatonic which leads us to .....

fav platonic dynamic: QUEERPLATONIC SONNEL SOLOS UR FAV

my unpopular opinion: idk if i haaave one . this isnt like DISCOURSEY but its that i think sydsoren is good and cute and more people should like it

one thing i wish had happened: MAKE HIM INTERACT MORE WITH MARIE-ANN NOW. NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! also rowan too bc i think that would be an interesting parallel

GERRY KEAY

how i feel about him: surprisingly for a transmasc in the tma fandom ..... ive never been a huge gerry girlie . hes cool and all but he confused me at the start bc i kept mixing Gerard up with Jared bc my audio processing issues and americanness combined to destroy me so i think that made it tricky for me to get into him . hes cool tho

all the people i ship w him: nobody strongly . if i see cute ship fanart im like aw! thats nice and then i move on

fav platonic dynamic: queerplatonic jongerry solos ur fav

unpopular opinion: honestly just that i dont care about him that much ..... sorry gerry fans . hes cool and i like his design but im just like . hes there

one thing i wish had happened: YO I JUST HAD A REALIZATION . GERRY KEAY AND OLIVER BANKS WOULD BE A COOL DYNAMIC . idk if theyve ever interacted in the show but if they havent they should

KEVIN DESERT BLUFFS

how i feel about him: OH YOU ALREADY FUCKING KNOW IM INSANE CRAZY ABOUT HIM OH MY GOD . hes one of my favorite characters of all time honestly ive been obsessed with him since 2019 wtnvs been my special interest for years and hes a HUGE focal point of it . i love him so much <3333 evil little skrunkly

all the people i ship him with: carlos mainly but charlevin is cute too . im a kevlos girlie at heart but if charlevin is written well i can get into it too especially if its radioscientology . i made this silly little oc that dated him in 2019 and im sure he was very badly written but i have a soft spot for them so ill include them . maybe ill rewrite them with the gf someday

fav platonic dynamic; i LOOOOOOVE his dynamic with vanessa and i love his dynamic with lauren too . gay/lesbian solidarity vs gay/lesbian antagonism

unpopular opinion: OH I HAVE SO MANY . a: kevlos is good actually and i like it more than charlevin i dont Dislike charlevin but im just more interested in kevlos as a dynamic. b: i have literally no interest in arcs that make kevin all sweet and non-bloody and shy its so boring let him be fucked up AND heal from his trauma. c: he didnt abuse or gaslight carlos in taking off he was a shitty friend but theres far FAR more evidence to suggest that it was simply the fault of him not being very good at social interaction and having severely unhealthy behaviors due to his trauma that he needs to work on before him and carlos can be in a healthy relationship than there is for him actually trying to manipulate carlos in some way

one thing i wish happened: i wish we saw more of kevin and carlos's relationship before they left . the shit in uhhhhh the buying of lot 37 drove me INSANE . in the goddamn MEMBRANE . and i wouldve loved to see some in the show ): ..... but i doubt it

MARISOL YUCHENGCO

how i feel about her: I LOVE HER SO MUCH .... shes so cute <3 underrated honestly make more marisol content now!!! NOW!!!!!!!!!! she gives me nice fuzzy feelings

all the people i ship with her: OMG IVE GOTTA CHECK MY FUCKING . i made a ship chart for chnt which is embarrassing but useful bc i have so many goddamn ships in htat fucking camp. i like her with salem OBVI but im also fond of her with yvonne and rowan and fennel on occasion (: 

fav platonic dynamic: again probably sydney (: i also think her and joshua would be an interesting dynamic oddly ?? idk what that interaction would Be but i think itd be interesting to play out

unpopular opinion: she would be liked way better by the fanbase at large if her and salem were both guys and nobody really seems to want to admit that

one thing that i wish happened: just more of her honestly (: and more of her relationship with salem . theyre CUTE i want more of my girlies .....