#i have. many thoughts

[skulandcrossbones]

The new first mate always kills the old first mate. It's always been like that. It's about trust. -> ofmd 2x02: red flags

[sunjestic]

Yeah my day’s going well, thanks for asking.

[yourdeepestfathoms]

Oxenfree Headcanons but they’re just about Alex being freed from the loop by Riley

Being brought back to reality is incredibly jarring after spending five years in the loop.

First of all.

Panic attack.

This is not a part of the script. This has NEVER been a part of the script. She’s given up on getting free a long time ago, but now she suddenly IS FREE, and it doesn’t make sense.

Cue Riley having to quickly calm her down.

Second of all.

MAJOR sensory overload.

She’s so used to the loop, reacting to the exact same stimulus, that so much other sensory input is extremely overwhelming. Her senses have basically heightened, and now everything is too much, too much, too much.

The sun is too bright. It feels like her corneas are being melted off or her eyeballs are being carved out with hot iron tools. Colors are so vivid and vibrant, and it gives her a headache.

Every single sound grates on her ears. The splashing of the water, the chatter of other people, the blare of the ferry’s horn. Even Riley’s voice, soft and gentle, is enough to make her ears bleed.

The smells. Saltwater, gasoline, wet grass, smoke from a burnt out campfire, baked goods from a storefront, even her own unwashed body. It stings her nose and makes her nauseous.

And the sensations.

Oh god, the sensations.

Every single touch is mind-shattering agony.

Her skin is so unused to feeling anything beyond what’s scripted in the loop that everything is foreign, terrifying, and painful.

Riley supporting her weak body is like being stabbed right in the arms.

It’s so bad that even her hair brushing against the nape of her neck is like dragging a serrated saw blade across an exposed bundle of nerves.

She feels so raw.

But that’s not the only thing she feels.

She can feel everything going on inside, too.

Her biological processes completely stopped while in the loop, and after awhile, most of her organs stopped functioning, too. The Sunken would keep her alive, after all, so there was no need to expend energy on things that didn’t need to work.

But now that she’s out of the loop, her entire organ system is rudely awakened like they’ve just been shocked by jumper cables.

And she can feel all of it.

In her stomach, her small intestines writhe like eels.

In her chest, she can feel her lungs expand and deflate.

When she speaks, her vocal cords rub together like the slimy legs of a cricket.

She’s acutely (and uncomfortably) aware of every vein transporting blood through her body, every twitch of her diaphragm, every beat of her heart.

Her fingernails connected to her nail beds, her hair sprouting from her scalp, her teeth growing in her gums—she feels it!

And, for a moment, she considers asking Riley to throw her back into the loop like she’s a fish being returned to a lake.

Sure, the loop was a fate worse than death, but at least she doesn’t feel like this.

But she endures. She has to.

She just wishes her body would make it a little easier.

So, she’s freed, and everything hurts!

But despite this, she still can’t bring herself to pry away from Riley, who she’s been clinging to ever since she got free like the woman is her lifeline.

And, to her, Riley very well may be one.

Alex is so afraid that if she lets go for even a second, her connection to the real world will snap, and she’ll be right back in hell.

But they can’t stay like that forever, and when Riley eventually coaxes her to let go, nothing happens. She’s still solid. She’s still stable.

Walking is kinda hard. I feel like gravity in the loop and gravity in the real world, as well as gravity in the void, which she definitely spent time in, is very different from each other.

It certainly doesn’t help that when she stands, she can feel the aching drag of her tendons in her legs and the discomforting creak of her knees trying to support her.

For lack of better words, she looks like a baby horse trying to walk for the first time.

Maybe if she wasn’t in such a deep daze, she would have cared more about how silly she looks.

Because, oh yeah! She is still heavily in shock. What happened, being set free, hasn’t really caught up to her just yet. She’s only dimly aware of what’s happening to her.

But the pain? The pain she’s fully aware of.

She doesn’t get mercy from that.

Because when is the world ever that kind to her?

Anyway.

The early morning this is hypothetically set in is pretty cool, but Alex is shivering like she’s naked in Antarctica.

Her body isn’t really used to regulating its own temperature.

So she’s just so cold.

Riley gives her her jacket to try and keep her warm. The last thing she or Jacob need is the poor kid keeling over from hypothermia.

Speaking of those two!

They have obtained a void child! What now?

Well…neither of them know.

When they went to the island, they were expecting spooky ghost shenanigans. They were expecting weird cult bitches. They were expecting the concept of time being majorly fucked up.

But a tortured child trapped in a time loop? They never could have predicted that.

It’s kind of like unexpectedly picking up a puppy that’s being sold on the side of the road, but no. It’s really not. Because at least caring for a puppy is common knowledge. Something you can get the supplies for with ease.

What the hell do you do for a teenager rescued from the void?

They decide that’s something they can mull over later. Right now, they need to get the hell out of dodge.

So, they decide to take Alex back to Riley’s house and go from there. What else is there to do?

Operation Disguise A Girl Who Went Missing Five Years Ago So She Won’t Be Recognized: COMMENCE!

Alex has Riley’s jacket on, so that’s one thing covered, and Jacob tucks all her hair up into a hat to hide that, too. And then she’s told to keep her head down and don’t talk to anyone.

She’s fine with that. She’s not really in a talking mood, truthfully.

Jacob probably has to carry her to the ferry because, like. Homegirl is having some trouble walking. Also still having a sensory overload. Also still in a lot of pain.

Alex has another panic attack while they’re going across the water on the ferry because she’s never made it to the other side. So she’s just waiting for the illusion to shatter, and for the void to press itself in again.

But that doesn’t happen.

That’s what makes her a little more lucid. Everything starts to feel a little less like a dream and a lot more real.

Riley keeps assuring her again and again that she’s safe, that she’s okay, that she won’t let anything happen to her, and that she definitely won’t let her go back to that horrible rift, and Alex is just so daunted because it’s been so long since anyone has treated her with kindness beyond the scripted lines spoken in the loop.

The moment she gets to the car, she passes out. Somewhat from the pain, mostly from fatigue.

It’s been FIVE YEARS since she’s had a nap. She is EXHAUSTED.

Riley and Jacob are pretty shot, too, but they shake it off for the sake of the girl. They can rest later, once this is all settled.

They go pick up breakfast and then have no idea what to get Alex. And they don’t really want to wake her up because she’s clearly tired.

“A sausage, egg, and cheese sandwich sounds good enough, right?” “What if she’s a vegan? Or a vegetarian?” “Shit, you’re right. Do you think she is?” “I don’t know! Should I wake her up?” “No! No. Let her rest. We’ll think of something.”

“No, Jacob, we’re not giving her coffee. I think coffee will stop her heart.”

They do eventually have to wake Alex up when they get back to Riley’s house.

Riley gives her a little tour.

Alex, although tired and dazed, gets the gist.

Now that she’s awake, they give her the food they bought, but she isn’t up to eating very much. Even though it’s been five years since she’s eaten anything (or drank anything, aside from a little alcohol in a few of the loops), and even though she should be hungry, the mere idea of food makes her even more nauseous than she already is.

But Riley convinces her to at least eat a little bit, just to have something in her stomach, and Alex complies.

She has to stop after just three bites, though, because the tastes are so strong they burn her mouth, and she almost throws up.

But at least she’s eaten something.

Riley then convinces her to take a shower while Jacob runs to the store to get her some clothes that he hopes will fit. After all, they can’t have her lying around in the frankly disgusting clothing she has on.

Even though she’s extremely exhausted, a shower does sound nice, so Alex agrees.

Maybe she can wash away all the trauma sticking to her skin like glue.

(Ha.)

(As if it would ever be that easy.)

Parting with her jacket is a bit difficult, but Riley swears up and down she’ll give it right back after it’s washed, which she does while Alex is in the shower.

In hindsight, perhaps letting the barely awake girl in a ton of pain take a shower unassisted wasn’t the best plan.

The hot water is like an assault on Alex’s sensitive skin.

It’s so excruciating that she literally goes blind for a few seconds.

Long story short, she blacks the fuck out, and Riley has to go do ANOTHER rescue mission to help her.

After that whole ordeal, Alex is dressed in the clothes that Jacob bought (he had to guess on her size, but it was good enough), got her newly washed jacket back, and then promptly conked out again, this time in an actual bed.

Meanwhile, Riley and Jacob slump into the couch and reflect on what the fuck they’ve gotten themselves into.

Here’s some fun appearance things as a bonus!!

A majority of Alex’s hair is chopped off because it kept bothering her (see the part where her skin is so sensitive that even her ponytail brushing her neck hurts). And they need to try to make her look not like herself.

They don’t go to a hair salon, as they’re afraid she may get recognized, so Jacob very confidently takes scissors to Alex’s hair while Riley supervises anxiously.

The result is…very messy. Even when Jacob was looking at a WikiHow article on how to cut hair (with pictures!). There are uneven parts and it kinda sticks out weirdly, but Alex doesn’t really seem to mind.

They also have to re-dye her hair. Alex doesn’t care what color, so Riley and Jacob argue over what’ll look the best. Alex gets a little kick out of it.

They settle on green.

Okay, so y’all know the whole glowing red eyes thing? Well, consider: Alex’s eyes are permanently red. Like, the irises. It’s like they’ve been branded by the possession she once went through.

Also consider: Alex, covered in scars from injuries in past loops.

[thedeafprophet]

The thing is I think January doesn't believe in g-d but in a very specifically bitter and cynical jewish way. The customs and the cultures still hold a very important place, evidently, and fundamentally shapes her world view.

But i can't imagine a concept such as belief would come easy to her

[esteemed-excellency]

I have to try to get some sleep because it's super late rn, but I will elaborate on hiram's soul tomorrow

[ludinusdaleth]

theres something funny to me about a lot of fandom demanding this cr campaign be fully pro-exandrian gods, and using full blooded paladins as examples of how to enact it, ignoring deanna's humble take on faith. meanwhile. matt is smacking yall with how issylra’s rich religious institution they want to see take a righteous lawful good spotlight is a deeply fucked genuinely imperialist system

[nyxronomicon]

(kinda hsr spoilers so process with caution if you're not caught up... but it's a hc so also not really)

um is anyone interested in my thoughts about Gallagher transforming into the death meme werewolf style or is this doomed to live in my head forever....

[pokerized]

lloyd and whitney… lloyd and whitney.

[cboffshore]

I HAVE SEEN ALL OF DRS2 !!! I CAN UNBLOCK THE SPOILER TAGS!!!

[foopdeloop]

djrock my ocs

[yourdeepestfathoms]

idk if anyone else has said it yet, but i’m feeling bitter right now, so i will (also it’s just always bothered me)

has anyone else ever noticed the difference in fan opinions between Michael and Vanessa?

in many ways, they are VERY similar characters.

they’re both night guards, have been fucked over by William, killed kids, and barely actually show up in the games.

however, Michael is treated like a goddamn king by the fandom, while Vanessa barely gets scraps. she’s regarded as a bitch so often, is hated on constantly, and/or is sometimes flat out ignored or erased from stories entirely.

oh no! a woman is grumpy! she MUST be a bitch!

Vanessa isn’t a bitch. she’s an underpaid security guard that has her entire career on the line throughout the whole game. there’s a loose child in the Pizzaplex. she’s literally trying to do her damn job so she won’t get fired.

more than that, Vanessa is clearly under a severe amount of psychological stress. she’s being mind controlled by a serial child killer to murder people. you’re telling me you also wouldn’t be in a constant bad mood if that was your life?? and even if you don’t think Vanessa is Vanny, Vanessa STILL has mental health issues. that much is proven by the therapy tapes (i think it’s canon that she has depression and anxiety? and maybe PTSD? i can’t remember; it’s been awhile since i was hyperfixated on this game). god forbid a person, a woman no less, shows the negative aspects of their mental illness!

like, depression, anxiety, AND PTSD all cause irritability and anger issues. anxiety literally triggers your fight or flight, and not everyone automatically cowers into their flight instinct. PTSD has a little something called “hyperarousal,” which is a constant state of anger.

but okay, mental health issues can’t be used as an excuse for things, alright. it’s still late at night. people get irritable and cranky the more they stay up. lack of sleep causes aggression.

but really, none of that matters because Vanessa is justified in her grouchiness through the entire game since, again, she’s doing her job.

and it’s not even like she says or does anything that bad! i’ve seen people treat her like she’s some kind of monster, and for what? because she made a hollow threat about scrapping Freddy?? it was, like, two in the morning, people! people say things they don’t mean when they’re 1) tired and 2) emotional. and we all know she doesn’t have the authority to do that, so she wouldn’t actually go through with it.

also need i remind everyone that Vanessa is treated poorly by her OWN CREATOR?? she’s grossly sexualized. we all know what the Vanny suit looks like. it’s skintight. it’s very obviously designed in a way to highlight ALL her curves. Scott did that on purpose. and like,,, why?? she’s a murder bunny. why does she have to be “attractive”?

don’t get me wrong, i like the design for Vanny, i just hate the suit. i love the idea of her looking all patchwork, like Vanessa tore apart different articles of clothing to make the costume because she couldn’t get enough fur, so she could have been this big mess of thick white fur with splashes of a bunch of random materials in between the pelt. that could have easily shown how, like, “unpracticed” she is. it’s a shoddy suit made by someone who doesn’t know what they’re doing.

but NOOOO, Scott had to go, “how can i show that she’s a woman who has boobs?!?!??!? how can i bring her boobs into this?!?!?! what about her boobs?!?!?! we can’t forget about her boobs!!!!”

like, dude, we know she has boobs. she’s a killer bunny, not a playboy bunny. let’s not blur the lines, Scott.

you know, it’s really saying something when the plush of a character is less sexualized than the design itself. i own a Vanny plush (it look, like, three months for her to ship), and she looks great! she’s super cute! but, GOD, the DUALITY between her and the actual Vanny is GLARING.

but also, this isn’t anything new. most of Scott’s female characters get the treatment of being sexualized.

it’s just so goddamn frustrating to see male characters get held up on a higher pedestal than female characters. this is an issue in most fandoms. the women are treated like shit. and it’s infuriating.

just— if Vanessa were a guy, people would NOT treat her the way they do. and if she were a man, Vanny’s suit would have been less sexualized and more like an actual animal suit.

[thedeafprophet]

would love to hear any other impressions you have of that story!

I enjoyed it! I still think Reunion was more fun, but thats probably down to particular tastes in the matter.

I actually really enjoyed the further insight into the servantry at The Palace which i was not expecting to get a look into. Similar to one of my fave aspects of The Bloody Wallpaper, I really just like learning about the day to day operation inside of these places. Also the like... casuality of the cage gardens and people working there made the horror of the place all the more strong. wow

Another thing I found interesting was the theme it, while maybe not introduced here, was the generational aspect when it comes to the themes of trauma with the red honey? The idea of children and a parents affect on them i'd say is just as much the theme of this ES as the trauma/horrors of war aspect are imo - perhaps you could argue they tie in together,

We see it with the in the old nursemaid laundry room,

"Children need love.....' "....They're all still searching for love, you know. One of them calls it romance, another calls it glory, but every one of them is looking in the wrong place. "

This is further brought up when we learn about the contaiminent from years ago (perhaps the bad batch referenced in the gift?) with the hive still troubled from it.

"Bee societies are complex. Trauma echoes through the generations."

Which i think ties in to the theme pretty directly....

And this all culiminates together with The Princes' memories - his mothers neglect as a child being what leads to his aims as a teen, which leads to the horrorible action in the war, and other gettings hurt, which leads to his own corruption and self pain. Its generational. The hive remembers.

The red honey ties into all of this, and serves as a representation for the way this will consume people. The honey that was given to children to keep them quiet.

While of course adults must be held accountable for the actions they make, we see through this that the palace's children had very, very little say into who they would become....

Which I suppose to say this all ties back around well into my underlying belief of a major them in the whole of the FL - the cycles of abuse and neglect.

All that is to say i have been given some good lore content and further things to think on, and will likely be incorporating the palaces staff and the cage gardens into my fics at some point.

and also fuck vicky. worst mom award goes to her.

[bad-traffic-smp-ideas]

IT'S HAPPENING EVERYONE IT'S HAPPENING!!!!

OKOKOK SO-

Based on the clues we have thus far, what are the final guesses for the gimmick this season? 👀

[longing4yesterday]

this is a mcharrison song to me

[dilfslayer1080p]

"he died for our wins" - 2024, LIDL Oil paint on LIDL canvas