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thank you for drawing women
if i don't draw women i DIE i DIE REALLY PAINFULLY AND HORRIBLY i need to draw women this is not a women good post jigsaw has me rigged up to an anvil that will drop on my head as we speak oh god
#asks#thankyou i love drawing women#i went through a brief phase as a kid when i watched a lot of youtube art videos#and one time it was like. two artists talking as they drew#and one of them said “im gonna draw a girl cus i like girls” and the other one went “oh so like every artist”#and the comments thought it was so funny there were so many people timestamping that and going TRUEEE and shit#and looking back yeah same. but at the time i was thirteen and for some reason this like. offended me really badly#so i only drew men for like. a year. out of spite#i have no idea why i did that
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whats sometime fuynny that happeened to you today
I've stayed in bed almost all day due to a fatal disease known as 'day off work and I'm tired' so I think the funniest thing today was that I was playing the newest Zelda game (<- I've been super into it) and while trying to not die of fall damage absolutely fucked up the buttons and threw my weapon just fully into a river right before I hit thr ground and just rag dolled into that same river
BUT actual story from yesterday I've been meaning to tell you
I was taking train home from [MAJOR METROPOLITAN AREA] and the STOP before mine the train fully stopped and over the sound system we where all told to get off the train go to FULLY other direction track and get on just another train because reasons??? So we get off (it's dark it's been raining it's windy BAD VIBES) and just as we make it off the train the conductor comes SPRINTING off the train waving his arms yelling 'get back on the train come back they where playing some sick JOKE on us we're fine' so all of of turn around and march BACK onto the train this whole time we have to take the bus back home from the train either we still make the one we where planing on catching
Or it's in another hour
We get off the train we look at the schedule we see the bus leave the stop next to the train station I grab the person with me and just yell 'I'VE GOT THIS' and start full tilt sprinting down the flight of stairs to go under the tracks to the other side to try and catch the bus at it's next stop I keep fully sprinting till I get to the other side of the tracks I have no fucking idea of anyone I'm with is still with me there where three of us i wasnt even with one when I started sprinting down the stairs luckily we get to the other side all together cross the road
And wait SEVEN WHOLE MINUTES IN COMPLETE SILENCE FOR THE BUS
#we did not need to run at ALL#i have no idea why i did that#other than i was running on EXCLUSIVELY instinct#(for context i take the bus home from work FROM the train station stop so i at least once a week do that run to catch it#because on foot is faster than the bus can actually drive out of the train station)#sand#adam fucking around
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Today my friend said 'My name is Indigo Montoya' instead of Iñigo, got really defensive when I corrected him after I noticed that was not part of the joke (but did eventually believe me) and then had the gall to ask me what movie that meme is from.
#usually he knows more than me about movies so that absolutely threw me#just completely honestly asked me what movie that even is#after quoting the meme unprompted for 5 minutes#i have threatened him to make him watch the movie with me let's see if we ever get there#also for some reason I started this post with "#as if I was quoting myself with this?#i have no idea why I did that
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When I was younger, I had this, like, pink kids laptop (the fake laptops with some educational game on them, I think you kinda get what I mean). And the keys, while not meant to be detachable, could be taken out
I took out all the keys and re-arranged them in alphabetical order. QWERTY? Nahhh, you get ABCDEF
#i have no idea why i did that#aesthetics?? kid me was weird#i think i still have that laptop somewhere#nostalgia#childhood
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CROUNCH
sapphic rosekiller 🥀
I have no fucking clue why the quality is like that
#I ate them#i have no idea why I did that#but anyway they’re fucking hot#Like omg I’d do anything for that Barty version
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Do you draw Nina the killer perchance..
Yes and I end up disliking the drawings every time without fail but I thugged it out to give u this
#nina the killer#crp#myart#creepypasta#jeff the killer#eyeless jack#jane the killer#listen… I’m having a huge art block for no reason I’m sorry so if my work looks off that’s why :(#my asks#thank you for the ask anon! drew her for you to take a break from a bigger project#slenderman#jtk#crp fanart#horror#I love Nina though dgmw!#I didn’t make the kawaii jeff btw no idea who did but thank you
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Trapped in a vicious cycle of pining? Try gay sex! (More things to learn over at Tiger Tiger!)
#tiger tiger#jamis arlesi#remy bonnaire#Arno#through a series of unfortunate events I will be posting this after the update will be out so my timing will be more so:#“Alternate take on how that scene played out” Rather than my funnier “My prediction for how it will go down”#I truly think Remy would rather admit to crimes he didn't commit than confess he has a thing for men.#It would be funny! It would be so funny if this is how Jamis found out. Alas...Not yet...Not yet...#I do love the idea that Jamis completely overlooked the all the elder god horror to get right down to the question of 'HOW DO YOU KNOW HIM'#Remy knows him. Knows him carnally. Wouldn't you like to also know your captain better? In spirit and body and mind?#Jealousy looks good on Jamis. Now he just has to do something about it.#Poor Remy though...He love Jamis so much he'd do anything to prevent losing him.#Which entails never giving Jamis a chance of rejecting or accepting his feelings!#Meanwhile...Jamis is a bisexual disaster man who is at his *limit*.#(For the MDZS fans looking at this Tigers comic who still have no context:#This is like Lan Xichen finding out Jin Guangyao hooked up with Nie Mingjue after LXC spent all that time thinking JGY was straight.#Better yet. This is like WWX just starting to realize his crush on LWJ and then finding out he and JC hooked up in the time skip.#'Nice to know you're into men but why did I have to find out like this' moment.)#((Yes I am trying to bridge the gap between the fandoms I am in. Yes I am still on my propaganda train. Choo Choo!!!))
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I woke up a few hours early today and the first thing I did was bolt upright, go to itch my nose and instantaneously gave myself a nose bleed
So I've been havin a pretty fun morning!
#tw: blood#blood mention#i have no idea why i did that#it was kinda funny but once the adrenaline wore off i was just waiting for my nose to stop bleeding enough for me to go back to sleep
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Chara can stand exactly ONE human. That's it.
#randomly thought of this meme and got this idea and then HAD to drop everything I was doing to draw it#sillies#at the beginning of the pacifist route chara's like: 'WHY did I have to get stuck with a human of all things? ugh'#but eventually they're like#'i've only known frisk for at most a couple hours but if anything happened to them i'd kill everyone in this room and then my- ah. well.'#undertale#safeutdr#chara dreemurr#my art#frisk#frisk dreemurr#meme#chara#chara undertale#undertale chara#undertale frisk#frisk undertale#🌼
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oh my fucking god i don't have any clothesssss
#what moving to another country does to a mf...#it's like. i gotta shop for winter clothes ASAP#because i have like 2 sweaters and 1 sweatshirt like that's it LMAO#and a jacket i bought HERE#why did i not pack winter clothes when coming to fucking sweden you ask. good question#my baggage was already 30 kilos#im only one weak person#i already died that day due to my 30 kilo baggage many times#i had to ask random people to help me lmaoooooo the way i'd rather die than doing that in a normal day 😭#it was THAT bad..#and now i dont have anything proper to wear. fml#and i am so bad when it comes to clothes shopping like u have noooo idea#im terrible at shopping in general. :/#ughhhh i will try to do that this friday :////// hope i don't freeze in the meantime :////#🗒
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Heyy Ego how do u draw Grim so cute? Like I have been trying to draw him for awhile now but everytime I do he ended up looking like a potato sack🫠 Do you have any tips?
aww, but his potato sackiness is one of his most endearing features! though I do tend to draw him a little shorter than his real proportions, 'cause I do think he's kinda cuter that way. get that bigger head-to-body ratio for maximum adorableness. :B
#art#twisted wonderland#prefect is not okay#i have no idea why i decided to draw it this way#at no point as i was struggling to draw a semi-on-model grim did i think that i didn't have to be doing this#it was just important to me personally
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Part two of the reverse verse is here! The reverse boys meet the original boys. They're not really getting along as well as I had hoped...
Again, this was a commission for @i-am-as-normal-as-you-are and they asked for angst/funny vibes... I think it's mostly just angst though. Oh, well...
Part one
#dead boy detectives#dbda#payneland#edwin x charles#reverse verse#there's a lot i could say about this one#the idea of someone telling edwin he's go to hell is absurd as it is#edwin telling edwin? lmao#the charles... oh they hate each other#reverse charles is angry (he always is) because this other version of himself was spared hell... in exchange for edwin going there?#obviously it doesn't work like that. og charles hadn't even been born when his edwin was sent to hell#but anger is not a rational thing. especially not for this boy#og charles? you don't want to know what he's thinking#i'm telling you anyways#he... kind of agrees. if someone had to go to hell#why edwin? why not him? there is an universe in which that happened#so why not this one? unfair#then again... look at this charles who did go to hell#he's explosive. he's DANGEROUS#he shouldn't be near edwin#if og charles had gone to hell would he be the same? would he be too angry to be trusted? would he be like his father?#and if so would that really count as saving edwin at all?#if this is the kind of best friend poor edwin would end up with?#on a happier note though#physical contact!! reverse charles loves it#i don't have all the details but his hell was on the rage ring so it was different to the dollhouse.#and it was a very violent place so boy loves gentle touches#luckily edwin is more willing to give them to him with each year#i think what the edwins are feeling is a lot more clear#but still would love to hear your thoughts
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day 3: red
alts because im indecisive
#my art#smallishbeans fanart#smallishbeans#joel smallishbeans#trafficblr#RED LIFE JOEL MY BELOVED YYAYYYYYYY#yes i did skip day 2 yes it is a tragedy yes i am very sad#i just couldnt come up with a good idea for it fhfgfh#maybe i’ll go back and do it later#7 holy nights of jeremy#ive been allowing myself to be very messy with these and its super super weird for me because im normally VERY meticulous with my art#like clean lineart and thought out details and blah blah blah. but its been super fun to just let loose lmao#It does also mean that these are very much “trust the process”#like boy…. you have so many ugly stages…. boy why are you ugly…..
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POV you’ve informed the Queen and the Court’s Sorcerer of something and they very clearly know something that they’re not letting on
#hehe just a silly doodle#Gwen’s great at subtlety so would this even happen? debatable#just feel like they’d definitely get up to magical shenanigans post-canon#plus there were enough things in the show that could make a reappearance#Lady Vivian is visiting? Oh no is she still under the curse??? D: *cue mutual looks of alarm*#(it’s okay she’s not. justiceforvivian2024)#but anyway STILL they’d definitely go sneaking around in the vaults or library to find answers to the latest Situation tm#like yeah magic is legal and Guinevere is literally the queen#but that doesn’t stop them from shiftilly snooping!! shiftilly snooping just Happens when ur friends with Merlin#it’s like enrichment for them#ANYWAY yet again I have NO idea what proper anatomy is and I did not use a reference for Merlin and only glanced at one for Gwen so#sorry I cannot do u justice merlin + guinevere </3#my mom once glanced at one of my doodles when I was home and she was like why does Merlin look like a monkey#WHICH WAS KINDA OUT OF POCKET TBH 😭😭#but maybe one of these days I’ll actually learn drawing-related things so I can better spread my beloved post canon Merlin agenda#Merlin#Gwen#merlin fanart#bbc merlin#my art#art#merwen#EDIT: fixed up the colouring bc it was bothering meee rip
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i wrote a big long essay talking about tlt and how it engages with describing the skintones of brown characters its under a read more bc it is so long.
I already left a long comment about this on someone else post but I wish I could study tazmuirs odd little habit of dancing around the fact that Gideon and Harrow are women of color when she describes them, and how this kind of extends to other brown characters
We get a million descriptions for how sickly pale ianthe Silas and cytherea are, what a lovely golden tan corona has, the odd tannish yellow hue of colum, all imagined by her, in her own words, to be white. Then when it comes to Marta and Judith they're called dark like Once in the text. I don't think it's even mentioned for Jeannemary and magnus in the entirety of gtn though I will gladly stand corrected if I missed something. It's such a non factor for them, which normally I would overlook if it wasn't for the aforementioned specificity of how white characters are described on Top of one of the major themes of the book being how John, a Maori man, resurrected a largely Polynesian population and then proceed to rule them using the exact same methods that actively colonized new zealand. Like I just think it's really interesting that in many ways, the story is about two young Maori women completely stripped of cultural heritage, they can't even speak te reo maori they cannot even conceptualize the scale of that kind of loss. Theyve been to earth once and during her brief time there Gideon literally died on it's soil it feels so poignant
Back to them specifically being Not Pale, this is not me saying they would be "less" maori if they were light-skinned that's total bullshit and the entire paradigm exists as a product of European bullshit. My fascination is more with the fact that tamsyn has clearly thought of them as midtoned to dark skinned. I'm going to be really generous and disregard the Tommy Arnold covers- he is a talented artist but he's not the author and Taz stated in an interview that she didn't envision Gideon with an undercut either so he clearly has little liberties he can take and I'm fine with that get your coin dude. For these two I'm going to have to focus on Nona the Ninth, bc for the entirety of gtn, harrow is described as grey, and while I understand that's bc she's constantly under a mountain of white and black facepaint, we basically never get an objective description for either of them. Gideon stand out features are her build, hair and eyes, like a lot of characters, but it could have been pretty easy to throw in a line about how she seems less desaturated than what one might expect from a ninth cavalier, like a rich warm brown, possibly hinting to other characters that she isn't a ninth native
Htn also gives very little to work with, again harrows primary colors are the blacks whites and greys of facepaint and her hair and the reds of constantly sweating blood. The character who's darker skintone is Most remarked upon (also one of the few ever constantly headcanoned) as black, is g1deon. I've actually spoken to a few people about this and there seems to be some actual Mandela effect shit going on where people remember Taz saying he's black despite me never once finding evidence for this. However, this is not a case where I'd be overjoyed to be proven wrong, because g1deon being the one black guy in this entire cast, the one who's dark skintone is commented on the most, being the guy who barely speaks, tries killing harrow with a spear 14 times and then dies offscreen. Not good. Bad, actually
Finally onto ntn, in the beginning chapters Nona remarks her (harrows) skintone is the color of an egg carton. I assume she means the light tan, desaturated brown of the cardboard used in certain cartons, which is fitting for harrow, girls lived in an ice cave for 17 years. This is basically the only word we get on it. I believe a few times the text will say something about pyrrha's (g1deon's) brown Everything; brown skin, russet brown hair, rich brown eyes. that character gets to be viewed and constantly affirmed as a brown character in teh way gideon and harrow arent, it kind of others pyrrha. to contrast camillas hands are called tanned way at the beginning while recording nona's dream, then at the way end it says, "Her face still looked grey beneath its nice normal olive," olive being used to describe her once before in gtn as far as i can see. pyrrha's (g1deon's) skintone is one of her most notable features, its brought up to a noticeable agree the text wants you to keep it in your mind when you think of the saint of duty; "Most of Pyrrha was the colours of the building site: deep dried-out browns, dusty hunks of clay, rusted metal." "Pyrrha wouldn’t burn any colour other than her deep cool brown." "Nona took the water from Pyrrha’s brown, work-chapped hand and even sipped it" "Pyrrha had carried Camilla to bed in her big brown arms like Cam weighed nothing" "Pyrrha said, “Thanks, Nums,” and drained the whole thing. Nona,fascinated, watched the brown column of her throat move as she swallowed." its just notable to me when alternatively with nona you'll get a line like "Camilla didn’t say anything to that either, only rubbed her wrists where the tape had been. Nona’s skin was already back to its nice normal colour." like just the vagueness in nice normal color, we get one line about what shes supposed to look like in the beginning and thats it
towards the end during the broadcast, nona gets her first clear look at kiriona, described as: "warm-coloured skin that should have been a similar brown hue to Nona’s, except that there was something wrong with it." break out the champagne its official
Obviously, dying takes some color from you. If anything, gideons desaturation should make them More comparable given the egg carton comment and harrows general state of constant anemia. Has Nona gotten darker during her time on new rho? Was Gideon lighter than the cover led us to believe? We don't know. We well never know, which is odd, bc these books fucking love purple prose about people's appearances. We have like seven different synonyms for the shade of ianthes hair. New words for black have to be invented in order to convey harrows eyes which are Black, not the dark muddy brown of someone like ortus. It's less that I'm bothered by the text not hyperfocusing on their skin and more it picking and choosing when it will laser focus on a detail like that, and how often it's skipped over to the point that I like, constantly see people draw harrow as incredibly pale, which is very different from being light-skinned
Finally, I know people can dismiss this as like an audience interpretation thing. I know I actively draw harrow darker than Gideon which I know isn't canon. But this is less about Fandom response to the text and more the text itself and how it's like. Afraid to say brown. near the end of ntn i found One instance of it referring to gideons "slim brown hand" on nonas cheek and that is direct as it gets. even her other like, strongly non european traits are sort of danced around. her nose is "a nose that was the complete opposite of Nona’s nose, one that put her in mind of those big poison desert cats Born in the Morning was crazy about." a very fanciful description, you have to infer that nona means that its probably flat and wide, also giving us the information that harrows is most likely narrow and straight, possibly downturned. im not opposed to this, especially given the character talking about her is nona, but then you get the following paragraph:
"Her skin was very much dead-person skin, ashen and tinted the wrong colour around the nostrils and the mouth. But even if she hadn’t been dead, Nona was critical. Her eyelashes were very dark, but short and curly, whereas Nona thought all eyelashes should be long and straight (her own eyelashes were long and straight). The corpse had too much mouth and a dimple (nobody in her home had a dimple). You could not, at least, see the veins in her eyelids, which were heavy and cold and deep-set. But Nona thought it was going to be a shame to go from being so lovely as she was to being so—redheaded."
its a very frank description. dimple, curly lashes, red head, dead skin, probably a wide mouth. her nose is contrasted against nonas nose, which is also never directly described, and then compared to a fantasy animal we have never heard of until right now
kicks rocks. there isnt a point to this. the series is almost over, there is zero reason to like, knock on taz's door and ask why she did this or that. it doesnt stop me from loving the series, and the insinuation that noticing this means i must dislike the series is frankly insane (real thing that happened). if someone got the impression that harrow was white given how shes described i wouldnt blame them honestly, its most apparent she isnt in the third book (with the cover art being incredibly ambiguous) and a single blog post from taz mentioning shes maori, immediately followed by an "oh i dont care how you see the characters" addendum, which i think is like. an odd thing to tack on bc them descended from kiwis is like, very integral to the story, and gideon being the daughter of the maori man who took everything from her she didnt even know she could have and the (presumably, given her name and a very brief description) maori woman fighting to get that world back its like. damn. it feels a little important. that the audience knows theyre maori. like a little. it feels intertwined with the whole thing about john using european standards of imperialism and general aesthetics to hurt his own kid. actually.
#tlt meta#hi im black but not maori or kiwi so thats where im coming from with all this#i am fully aware some fans of color will disagree with me thats chill this is just where im at#i have never been a fan of being cagey with how a character looks#it feels like. idk kind of leaning into the fact that the audience wants a blank slate to project onto#and with her being So specific about it like this guy is nz chinese these two are tongan these two are mixed maori this guy is pasifika#it just kind of intrigues me like do you have reasons why as to each one specifically or did they jsut kind of. happen upon you#spring up fully formed#this isnt like a 'tlt is bad' 'you should feel bad if you thought this character was white or black' thing#its strictly about how the text communicates certain ideas and how the audience reacts to them#were kind of primed for . a waifish snobby pale aristocrat. ianthe is Right There harrow being white or pale feels like a natural assumptio#but it is. directly contradicted by the text. and done in a way that can be easily ignored
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Hermitswap idea: the new guys Joel and Skizz swap species
it's weird to say but skizz looks wrong without wings....
#gooooodddd i hate doing line why did i decide itd be a good idea 😭 poor skizz what have a done to him...#my art#sketch#sketchbook stuff#smallishbeans#skizzleman#also WOW there's so many requests... i had to scroll for so long to find this ask hgdhdg
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