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satturn · 6 months ago

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every morning i think this will be the day i get up and try to get better but then i stay in bed anyway well

#writing in my public diary right now #i have cancelled so many plans #i am still a bit ill i guess but i'm not helping myself #having had enough food and water is considered a victory it's so sad #and it's so hard to care about anything that doesn't just take my mind of things #hence it's hard to even care about fixing it #it's hard to consider that rotting isn't the best option right now everything else seems unpleasant too #and i do feel like i'm ruining my life a bit but i can't muster more than a shrug about it #i forgot what it was liiiiike ugh #it's been over two weeks like this

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marusagorjup · 3 days ago

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Hey guys, my cat Greta would like to let you know that since I'm turning 30 in a month, I'm currently running a 30% sale on my planners in both my Etsy store and my shop.

#I have way too many left bc someone cancelled a bulk order so now im just trying to get rid of them lol #help me so they sell!!#2025 planner #planners #organising #planning #shop

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lemongogo · 1 month ago

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college … wasted on the youth (me)

#didnt help that 2/4 yrs was covid telezoom but man.. MANNN #forgetting how impossible it is to pursue rhe degree plan u actually want (advising hell) i feel like . theres just #so many diff things i want to learn now Knowing that im more solidified in my interests and who i am and what i would be interested in doing #and like.😭RGAAAAAQH TEARING MYHAIR OUTTT every other week i have a night where im sititng there like damn i couldve been sm1 completely dif #dgmw i still rly enjoy some of the upper div classes i Did take but what if i took x and liked it more or minored in y and it led me to z #bc i do feel rly set in where i am rn which . i DO ! like it but im never gna be in that environment where u have the flexibility to explore #ykwim . i wish i had taken physics and calc srsly . i always thought i hated that shit but i like it. i like it quite a lot actually😟#or more geology .. urrghh.. sprinkle in sme extra art history . no bc thats what actu pissed me off ab school #i rmbr wanting to dual major and they straight up told me no i cant . but then i was like maybe an arts major bio minor when i wanted to do #science illustration but sry we dont offer bio minor . ok bio major arh or studio art minor . no sry not enough open spots we rly only #reserve it for when we have extra openings post admission❤️#and then even late into sophomore year u would still be last in registration so all the cool classes would be closed #and then bc of covid half that shit was cancelled bc they couldnt transfer labs online (rip comparative vertebrate anatomy)#and then by senior yr an additional collection of classes were unavailable bc u dont have the prereqs bc the prereqs were cancelled during #covid and u dont have enough semesters left to actually take it . like it was gen such an awful experience so ik why i couldnt ever do what #i wanted but .😭 AND LIKE the classes i DID enjoy like genomics or molecular genetics were closed by registration and i had to email and beg #for access . thts crazy .literally crazy .#anyways . i think i want 2 start reading textbooks bc i think thats the closest ill get LMAOO #i remember seeing my coworker read a textbook for fun one time and idk why i just didnt understand why bc it seemed so dry but i Get it now #like yeah .. u knew what was up ..#sad too that like . i could theoretically audit a course but i Work..during the day .. so sad . so sad #guys wht if i just said yes to grad school (<the devil talking.dont agree)

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outlying-hyppocrate · 4 months ago

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well. did you fucking miss me.

#random thoughts #apologies for sounding in such a sour mood. life is fucked as of late.#scheduled post. i made this on 10.08.2024.#everything has just gone to shit. so far i've been eating less than ever. feels like my stomach is eating itself augh (':#(technically the so-called relapse started on 24.12.2023. but we are not unpacking that today or ever.)#and i am filled with this desperate urge to cut myself. really really deep. not sure how to cope with it #i also?? hate how i look??#and yet i spend all my time?? in this dark dark room?? taking pictures of my face?????#i'm not killing myself off just yet don't worry. i considered it but it won't be happening any time soon.#i originally planned on disappearing for twelve days. partly to make my friends feel bad because i'm awful #which. obviously didn't work. as i don't think anyone noticed or cared particularly.#but mostly because i can't fucking handle it. it being everything. my future feels so uncertain #i am barely alive. i love all the people in my life. but they're too far away physically and emotionally.#but yeah. back finally. although ciel disappears for a lot longer than me and if you know hym my absence would be a small stint.#ciel if you're here when i post this i love you please come back. ):#this place is so scary to come back to. i'm not sure why. i'm just. scared.#i'm not even sure if i want to return really. i'm having second thoughts now. i haven't gotten worse enough #and i can't say what that means. because in theory there's nothing wrong with me that's been speculated upon. so.#i don't think anyone would care if i disappeared for longer than this.#but being away is torture. and then again being here also sort of is. it's scary #fuck.#i can't get out of bed without feeling like shit. i don't know if i can come back. i'm so sick of everything.#if you're seeing this i'm so sorry.#I NEED TO CUT MYSELF I NEED TO CUT MYSELF NOW. I NEED TO. I MADE SO MANY PROMISES BUT I NEED TO DO IT NOW #I'VE GOT THE SCISSORS I NEED TO DO IT #I NEED TO DO IT RIGHT THE FUCK NOW #(<- tags canceled for now)

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frouponical · 1 month ago

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Black Out Incorrect Quotes (2/?)

Ko Jung-Woo: So I heard you might have a crush on me? No Sang-Cheol: What have I ever done to make you think I didn't? ------ Ha Seol: Did you steal my thesaurus? Ko Jung-Woo: That is a remarkably abnormal notion for you to postulate without due vindication. ------ Ha Seol: -invites to an outing- Hyun Su-O: Due to unforeseen circumstances well within my control, I will be late today. Hyun Su-O: -Doesn't go- ------ Yang Byeong-Moo: On a scale from 1-10, how annoyed are you? Ko Jung-Woo: 7 Yang Byeong-Moo: hm. I can do better than that. ------ (1)

#백설공주에게 죽음을 #black out #incorrect quotes #more funny scenarios #I see them in my every waking moment #my brain consists of either absolute tragedy #or slap-stick comedy #you can't tell me at this point BM is just out there to make JW's life worse in any possible way #SO definitely has cancelled more plans than HS can count but that isn't going to stop here because she can't read #HS and JW in uni would have many funny little moments like this i would like to believe #SC we know. We aLL know. JW's just really dense.

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ceiling-karasu · 2 months ago

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New Chapter of The Rod that Blocks the Lightning!

First of all, I'm sorry for the length of this chapter, but I could not break it up without ruining a certain joke. I'll keep the other chapters of a more manageable length.

We WILL get back to Guemsaegi in the next chapter.

Summary: With the commanders of both sides busy, and Geumsaegi temporarily out of the picture, their soldiers gathered to discuss how they felt about the war and their leaders. But within Flower Hill, the surviving remnants of Tokgasi finally gather together. Unable to return to the Weasel Unit after their loss, they make their plans to strike at the very heart of Cherry Valley to get their revenge.

Fun spoiler and link to profile under the read more

Korean Turtle Boat vs Japanese flagship, 1592. Not sure about my own time period, but this did happen a bit.

#plans were cancelled this weekend so I could upload this month after all #squirrel and hedgehog #sah #SaH #tokgasi #tokgasi my beloved #I have made a post about the backstory a few weeks ago #imperial regalia #ceremonial regalia #was accidentally reminded of the regalia when reading usagi yojimbo because they feature there #especially the sword #forgot about The Tale of the Heike and its many variants #makes for a good backstory for the AU #stays in canon as well since it doesn't mean too much to anyone anymore in universe #yes the photo of the three treasures IS from yu yu hakusho #you know I had to do it #chapter long! chapter long indeed!

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jaybybyby · 10 months ago

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I don't think Sera is a villain. She's just doing her job.

i think sera and emily are actually decent examples of good female characters, but it sucks that sera is still an antagonist. especially with that scene during that one shot in "you didn't know" when she was smiling and had the fire in her eyes, they 1 painted her decision as a sort of "doing bad for good" one and 2 played it up for her to be a villain anyway with her shot in the trailer

#asks #hazbin hotel critical #hazbin hotel neg #thing is i would've almost preferred her to be the villain #mosr female characters in these shows aren't villains cus they have some dastardly plan they're villains because they're petty and bitchy #having her be an ACTUAL threat who truly believes that what she's doing is right (and maybe sprinkling in some fear of god along the way)#would've been much more interesting. plus how much more interesting would a sera vs charlie fight have been than what we got?#these shows are so odd to me because i'm an avid vivzie hater but i see SO much potential in these shows and try to give credit where credit #is due. yet so many decisions make it so hard to do that. one thing could be good but then it gets canceled out by another thing. sigh

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thefrogdalorian · 7 months ago

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My therapist just cancelled ANOTHER appointment with me on very short notice.... feeling an overwhelming urge to go as feral as Din Djarin in The Prisoner rn.... complete with red lights......

#just a bit of light destruction to get my rage out you know #she's cancelled as many appointments with me as appointments we've actually had hsvdhdjdjdhhdndndn #my autism cannot cope with last minute change of plans so i'm taking this well #luckily i have a very amazing friend who is coming to pick me up so we can go for coffee and vent a bit but please universe give me a break #i know life happens and it sucks but let me see someone else theN?????#i need to give some aliens a good kicking like din pls #spud rants #just autism things

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trash-bin-ary · 2 months ago

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Mmmm :( canceled the plans, why does homework and time need to exist cant i just go to an apple orchard with my family gahhhhh

#this is a post i made #huh the exact same song i was listening to earlier sounds angrier now #and I canceled morning plans while my brother was asleep and that just seems so rude but I really cannot get up at like 8 to not have breakf #ast just get to my brothers to get to the orchard and id just not be feeling good the whole time #- oh! he’s awake okay good. anyway I just need to get through this week and then I’ll have more time cause my halfsemester class will be don #oh i also have overthegardenwall watchparty after this week too #Man how many i just need to get through this weeks will i have

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lordsardine · 10 days ago

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#one of those days where i feel like screaming at nothing in particular 😩#me yesterday: omg i have too many plans #me after one (1™) is canceled: im going to explode #miscellaneous #i need to get some critique group edits done tonight + maybe some writing so there's that #im just in a weird headspace of my own design that i am trying to ignore that doesnt really have a magic cure so here we are #anyway work is fucking slow can you tell

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moe-broey · 1 month ago

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Would I be proving my therapist (who has been voicing some concerns about my depression maybe getting worse but like I feel like it's fine) right by cancelling my appointment tomorrow cause I just don't wanna. Like all I have to report is that I'm tired and I wanna rest and I just don't really feel like it y'know

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bugisbonkerz · 4 months ago

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something has to be seriously wrong with me if i can’t cry at funerals but cried because commander peepers was gonna get an arc in season 3 but it was canceled

#I HATE DISNEY I AHTE YOU RAGHHH RAA EVIL EVILLKL #this was before they pretended to like the gays so they probably canceled it because they actually watched the show and realized -#it was too lgbt #and peepers is most certainly lgbt and they were like oh heavens !!!! we can’t have that #SERIOUSLY DID THEY NOT CHECK THE BIG DAY EPISODE??? my jaw was dropped half the time #i kid you not their excuse was “80 episodes is enough”. what. what the fuck does that mean. they had so many plans. this doesn’t even apply #don’t your other shows have more then 80 episodes what the hell does that mean #funny thing THERE WASNT EVEN 80 EPS!#disney fucking sucks #remember to watch woy for free on youtube by the channel Cartoons By Clips #rant #☎️#woy

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bunnyboy-juice · 2 months ago

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;~; (tags vent)

#i feel so lonely and i dont know how to fix it #im trying to engage with people. im trying ot take space. im trying but nothing is helping #and like im hormonal so i wanna cry about it today #and like this loneliness isnt for one reason only #there's no One Thing #but so so many things making me feel like i cant connect #and even wiht making progress and even with coping and even with reminidng myself its okay to just feel bad sometimes like #i want company. i dont want online company i want irl company. i want friends. and im so miserable about the fact that i struggle to #make irl friends - not bc im not a good friend!! honestly tehre's been plenty of opportunities for me to make friends is the worst part #between work; disabilities; energy; and like interests/things to talk about its really hard to make friends (and tbh the first three-#really are the biggest drains). and i love my online friends i do i jsut. miss them all so much when i talk too much and then it hurts more #and i lost a friend group recently so im feelng really out of place #nearly everyday for the last idk. 5 months i had a group of people going “hey. love you” (even if they didnt say it verbatim daily) and lik #im so sad! and the feelings are coming out today ig cause i havenothing to do at work so im just. here #but yeah - ik part of this grief im experiencing is YET AGAIN experiencing change and loss re:friendships bc of things largely out of my #control /: and every time this happens it just brings up every single wound #im talking with my therapist about it too i just. wish friends were more permanent in my life yk?#or at least that i had friends irl still /: but all my deepest connections are all So far away #and it hurts so much to miss ppl rn im just. isolating myself #but i dont awnt to TALK. i dont want to TEXT. i dont want to hang out on a vc. i awnt to be held and loved and just talked to about anythin #other than the stresses in peoples lives. i want people to infodump to me w/o me having to Beg or Engage Correctly #i want people to tell me about themselves. jsut fucking lore dump in my inbox. its not dumping. i dont care about trauma dumping. if you do #cw i guess i jsut. im so tired. im tired of the “haiiiiii love you!!!!!” i have to do over the keyboard to have social connections #im tired of being so disabled i cant make friends bc no one wants to be friends w/ me irl and all the reasons (“ur a flake” “u cancel plans #“u never want to go out” “u never have energy” “why do you disappear when you need to recharge it makes me feel bad?” etc etc etc) all #relate to me being disabled and like.i feel like the problem. my existence is a problem. and the worst part is all iwant to do is just.#go run errands with someone. do important tasks &get a little treat to celebrate after. go to the doctor. the hospital. wherever im allowed #i want ot be a PERSON #): i jsut miss my friends #and liek im going to a thing later this month to try and make friends irl even if its just exercise friends

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castielfucks · 1 year ago

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i love that we are discovering our boundaries and saying No, but there comes a point where you can't cancel on your friends anymore. you have to say yes eventually and actually be there. if you like being invited you have to show up at least once. like listen to your body and energy, obviously. but there will come a time where your friends will start hurting and think you're avoiding them or don't like them or don't want to hang out, because every single time you had the opportunity you said no or you canceled last minute.

#this post is brought to you by My Friend Invited Out 6 People Including Me and I was Literally the ONLY Person that Didnt Cancel #his heart was broken #like 3 of then straight up waited until the very last minute to cancel #youre not fooling your friends when you do that. it does hurt their feelings. and they can only take it so many times before giving up #and when they do it wont be their fault because they reached out already multiple times #when does Haha Canceling on My Friend go from protecting your energy to isolation #for both of you #it just hurt to see my friend hurt #because they all initially said yes too #5 people pulling out we had a whole gamenight planned that turned into a 2 person dinner #smdh wake up out of main character syndrome babe we're learning how to be A Good Friend again #being a friend comes with responsibilities btw like there are things you have to do to maintain your friendship #im not talking out of my ass on this one either #do you have any idea the dbt and workbooking ive done to relearn how to connect with people #and notice the damage my isolation and agoraphobia was having on my deteriorating friendships

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girlivealwaysbean · 5 months ago

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my best friend's MOTHER called me to scold me about being depressed and self isolating lol what has life even come to

#she was like. kya hua why won't you meet her she's saying you're busy do you have exams or something #and she knows too much about me so she's like beta exam toh agli saal hai na #it was more like pyaar se scolding ki mil liya karo usse acche lagega she's very sad she misses you #i was like. hmph. what??? she certainly hasn't said that to me #im kinda sick and tired of begging people to make me a priority pay attention to me tbh. i did ask to meet but she was like you come to my #house only i won't come to your house. even tho last few months ive been to her house soooo many times because of her parental drama #i don't want to go anymore im trying to study consistently and we don't sleep at all during nighout and i don't even want to waste a single #day. plus dad is being so weird and involved these days i can't even just sneak out. i mean if she came to my home atleast i wouldn't be so #tired that id waste the whole next day. but she doesn't wanna and she doesn't even have a reason so i just let it be i gave up #but aunty made me feel so guilty so whatever i texted like hey u wanna meet #tbh i don't want to sit and listen to her boyfriend drama all night. she never wants to do stuff together anymore we used to watch movies #we used to dance to songs we used to have so much fun. we were even planning on drinking but she keeps cancelling. now it's just endless #talk about how she feels so lonely and how she misses the guys so fuckinh much and howshe can't stop talking to them and how she needs them #to fill the gap the empty space #well fuck you!!! i feel the same and you don't give a fuck. you blow me off constantly don't hangout for a month even when we're in the #same city !! so we fuck you go to your boys and go your cousin ill be on my fucking own then always on my own desperately #trying everything to fix myself enough to move forward so my life doesn't fall apart and comes to a crashing halt #okay im definitely pmsing but whatever

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twistedappletree · 7 months ago

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lmao so i think the other girl working for my client is about to get fired for trauma dumping and making out of pocket passive aggressive comments constantly akdnakjds why can’t anyone just be fucking N O R M A L

**also pls excuse the typos in my tags omfg i’m so annoyed that i can’t type ahahahHAHAHA

#IM NOT EVEN JIRNAL BUT LIKE #AT PEAST JORNAL ENOUGH TO WORK THIS JOB #THATS LITERALLY THE EASIEST FUCKING JOB IN EXISTENCE #i don’t get it???? would you rather work in fucking retail making $7-12/hr #or make $50/hr walking dogs and running light errands that don’t even take up the whole day #so you have the entire afternoon and evening to do whatever tf you want #also #DONT TRAUMA DUMP ON PPL EAPECIALLY WHEN THEYRE PERMANENTLY DISABLED #JFC #people are so fucking selfish and weird and incapable of doing literally anything ever i’m so FLABBERGASTED #by the goddamn attitudes of the people coming thru working for my client #she’s literally the nicest person ever and they’re all so fucking????? miserable and jealous and have SO much hate and anger in them #it’s always the good people who attract these pieces of shit is2g 😑#apple babble 🍎#non fandom #jfc never in my LIFE have i ever encountered so many people who are just #totally incompetent #this isn’t even a ‘nobody wants to work’ thing bc i’m an anarchist & of course i get that #but this isn’t a corporate job #it’s just a pure cash hustle where you play with puppies & get to listen to music all day while shopping #lmFAO #PLS EXPLAIN TO ME WHATS SO TERRIBLE ABOUT THAT #HOW IS THIS JOB HARD PLS FILL ME IN #BC I DONT FUCKING UNDERSTAND #FFFFFF #and i hope my client at least doesn’t fire her before this next weekend #bc i have plans with a new friend and i rlly do t wanna cancel 😭#NORMAL NOT JIRLMAL #OR WHATEVER #i don’t have autocorrect on and i can’t type for shit sorry

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