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i don't wanna tank dancing plagueeeeeeeee
#this is the trial#i have been dreading#i'm so scared LOL#somebody hold my hand#like. i know how it works. theoretically.#THAT DOESN'T MEAN I DON'T PANIC IN THE MIDDLE OF IT#xiv blogging#i don't wanna i don't wanna i don't wanna#not even ex i'm just a coward
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I JUST realized that I can listen to the Trials of Apollo audiobooks instead of reading them
#This is a monumentus occasion#no you dont get it because#i have been dreading#DREADING#having to read ToA#but i need to read them so i can read tSatS when it comes our#pls aaaaaaaa#why i never think of this before#trials of apollo#the sun and the star#audiobooks are my friend
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a god, once (WIP)
#elf ears elf ears elf ears!!!!#i have been wanting to give him jewelry forever. i do not know if I will keep it#solas#dragon age#dragon age inquisition#my art#solasmance#my wips#fenharel#dreadwolf#the dread wolf#dragon age dreadwolf#da4#dragon age veilguard#datv#dai#dragon age trespasser#dragon age 4#solas dragon age#solas art#dragon age art#dread wolf#dragon age the veilguard#this is the prettiest I’ve ever made him you guys#veilguard art#veilguard#veilguard summer#bioware#fen’harel#fan fridays
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me, a responsible being, working on the coding project as I should vs. me, a dysfunctional shithead, getting distracted by reading about brains (once aGAIN damnit (it's my favorite "I need to study my field but bc I should do that it's an impossible unthinkable feat now, so I'm reading about something else to fool my brain I'm still being productive"-topic))
#but after my thesis me & brains have been on a break bc got tired reading abt them during that (bc I had a topic that sorta allowed me to#sidetrack to brain stuff also) but seems I'm over the brain overload now#yay? i guess#also no one who actually studies medicine/brains/etc. yell at me abt wikipedia and like ''why are u studying that like that''#I'm just going through the wikipedia & reading article abstracts path; nothing serious#also my procrastination has reached inhuman levels like it's a full-time job now#bc I have like a chill week's worth of work to do and then I've done the courses for my bachelor's degree#but sending in that ''heyy i'm done with the courses let me graduate''-thing fills me up with sO MUCH anxiety & dread I'm working so slow#now (even tho couldn't send that in for like a month bc gotta first wait the courses to be graded and stuff so in actuality I should#not be slowing down even a bit bc I need to finally be done with this damn degree asap; gotta move on and should've ages ago (it's actually#super bad how late I'm with it (1.5 mf years jesus christ; I'm not even like a little bit proud abt getting a degree anymore like I'm sorta#just embarrassed if I have to tell ppl like ''yea I graduated'' bc dude ?? only now?? u were supposed to be done with that 1.5year#ago what have u been doing (fuck if I know) so I'm keeping it like ''if anyone asks'' basis)))#(the tags and parantheses started a life of their own lol sorry abt that)#studyblr#studyspo#bookblr#booklr#study#november 2024#2024
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etho said actually you _don't_ understand the intricacies of how tango is my boyfriend and bdubs is my ex
(and how tango and bdubs kiss too)
Scar: We went on that little adventure, you know! Etho: Yeah, yeah, we had our adventure, that's true, that's true. Scar: You disparaged your teammates. That's it, all right, no more spoilers. Etho: (laughs) Our team has -- our team has some weird dynamics this -- this season. Cleo: (overlapping) Really, Etho? Is there trouble in paradise? (pause) Who's third-wheeling with you, again? I can't remember. Etho: (laughs) Uhh. The -- Cleo: Genuinely can't remember. I know it's you and Bdubs. And...Tango? Tango. Tango. Etho: (loudly) Why -- Why is Tango the third wheel? Why -- why isn't Bdubs the third wheel? Cleo: Because it's you and Bdubs. I'm sorry. I understand how that relationship goes. Etho: (dissatisfied) Hmm.
#why is this what makes me post again#tangtho#etho#ethoslab#tango#tangotek#tango tek#bdubs#bdoubleo100#bangtho#< saw that in etho's comments. and. yeah#also consider that tango and bdubs were together first this series and etho is the third wheel#to the fucked up love hate thing they have going on#there's never been something more appreciating and adoring BUT biting each other as tangdubs#goodtimeswithscar#hermitcraft s10#wild life smp#wild life smp spoilers#(Sorry but some people have ethubs blinders on but that's so much less interesting to me than the whole.#Yes bdubs is pathetic and will always be at etho's feet. and Yes etho will pity bdubs and want him protected.#but tangtho (!!!) has SO much more to play with...to Me.)#and Why is etho being a tango girl so under-noticed??? lmao. it's there to be noticed All the time#hot mic! hot mic!#but also lowkey dreading ep2 lmao#anyway I'll regret posting this lol#(also I see you asks in my inbox. sorry I haven't replied yet <3 re: s7 oh do I have thoughts! it's where it truly kinda began... I started#forming a reply to you back in May I think but I've been kinda averse to posting/participating in the fandom side for a while. sorry I#stopped being a good place for your tangtho snippets </3 I've still been watching and enjoying the streams and the tango etho joy continues#just haven't really felt like posting)
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Saying Sorry Will Never Be Enough
Feeling a bit angsty so I had this idea.
Danny is dating one of the Bats/Birds, and everything is going great, amazing even! They know each other secrets (from powers to everything etc), they have a wonderful place to live (even if its in Gotham), Danny is in college on the way to becoming a space engineer (and he does side jobs for unrestful ghosts), he's actually getting sleep again since leaving Amity Park, gets along with their friends and family (those who Danny or his partner still talk to, up to the writer), there is even talk about marriage and perhaps adoption/kids in the future between Danny and the Bat/Bird he's dating!
Everything is setting up for a good life in his future, something Danny didn't think could have after his accident. He was happy finally, and currently packing up his old apartment because he's moving in with his partner in a few days.
So he felt like his core was being pulled out of him when he opens his apartment door one day receiving a knock to find his parents, who had hadn't seen since they kicked him out of the house after coming clean about being Phantom (their words of anger and denial that their son was 'dead' and now a monster, still hurt)
Sure they didn't attack him or proclaim he's dead but still their last words and anger HURT.
Danny didn't give them a chance to open their mouths, both looking nervous and guilty, before he slams the door close and turns invisible, grabs his phone, and fly's out of his apartment to his partner's place in a panic attack.
His partner, isn't happy.
#danny phantom#danny fenton#crossover#dp x dc#blue rambles#danny phantom dc#writing ideas#random idea#dpxdc#Who Danny is dating is up to the writer/reader#Danny is happy only to feel dread when he sees his parents at his front door#Jack and Maddie have come to try to make amends#does it work? idk again leaving it open for people to play with#they didn't attack him after finding out he's Phantom or proclaim him dead but they said some nasty stuff#Danny booked it out of Amity after that though not wanting to risk it#Danny's partner isnt happy to find their boyfriend in a panic attack after getting a sos text#its been a few years since he and his parents have seen each other#Danny and his partner relationship with their own families/friends are once again left open for the writer/reader to play with#Is Danny still friends with Sam and Tucker? Or have they grown apart after Danny left? Was Sam upset he 'abandoned' Amity Park/her?#Was Tucker upset too? Idk again leaving it up to anything#Is he still in contact with Jazz? Or has she been pushing him to try to talk with their parents only it keeps rubbing Danny wrong#IDK I felt angsty today and wanna make some people join me in my sad corner. Join me. Join me. Join meeeeeeeeeee -pats seat next to me-
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Outfit swap!
(Shortly before the above:)
#Happy “THE MEETING SOFIE HAS BEEN DREADING FOR WEEKS STRAIGHT HAS BEEN RESCHEDULED AND NOW SHE'S CELEBRATING” Day! Have a bonus post for fun#anyhoo: Time for fun tag lore#once Narinder learns more about the way wool works in Sheep culture he’s gonna have an absolute crisis#the man’s gonna have a breakdown over the significance of how the Lamb made the robes he has as a mortal#(This post de-canonizes the other one where Narinder created the Lamb's signature outfit so now those clothes are from the Crown I guess)#better the wool au#narilamb#cult of the lamb#cotl#cotl lamb#cotl narinder#cotl narilamb#cotl fanart#cotl meme#cotl comic#stuff by sofie#queued
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I won't be able to finish this drawing before the convention, which will take up my next 5 days.. But I want to talk a little about him.. I've been thinking about golems and Frankenstein, and the trans body, projection and misunderstanding, villainization and death.
The concepts of Frankenstein's monster and the golem have been swimming in my head for a while, and their lore intertwining.. The tragedy of existing being seen as a monster no matter how you try,.. And the Golem, a protector of his people and a servant whose only flaw always rang a bit close to home as an an autistic person-- being too literal in execution of his orders. He's tired and struggles with a yearning for death. His havdalah candles will be out.. The first flame of the week, a spark of starting over again-- The flame brings him fear. As much as he's kept himself together he doesn't know how much longer he can keep doing it, he fears failure- but the fear of what may happen if he's gone is even more terrifying. He's lived a long life, and over time the one who formed him has sculpted him to the golem's own wishes.. From nothing to the man he is- but even with that effort, to outsiders he's still a monster. His skin is different shades of clays from varying riverbeds as his people have travelled.. Golems are unformed, imperfect.. but even as outsides can be polished the insides can still be broken
#i have a million thoughts on him but will only put a little ramble i guess#jewish art#trans art#you ever think about how no matter how hard you try as a trans person at the end of the day a large amount of people will still see you#as trans. doesnt matter how acceptable you look#the same thing is with jewishness for me.. it's been like a damage multiplier on top of transness.#it doesnt matter how nice i try to be or how caring. it doesnt matter how many good things i do im still a jew to a large amount of people#even within the queer community haha :') ive felt it so often in queer communities here.#this little guy is gonna be where i store that experience as a trans jew. it goes in the frankengolem#i like the thought of frankenstein's fear of fire being incorporated into him in his fear of both rest and havdalah..#he doesnt feel safe to rest. he dreads the new week. his entire life he spends in dread even if he wants to protect his loved ones#gently pats the top of his head.. this boy's autistic#long text#bare chest#death#cw death#tw death#just in case
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the song of humanity will continue to be sung
#vash the stampede#trigun#trigun stampede#he means so much to me he means sooooo much i love him so much asfuahghdsgnkdsgk#VASHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#i posted it on twit but i was REALLY dreading ep 11 bc i figured that vash might cry#but instead he screamt into agony in which i cant even rewatch the episode#bc the va did such a good fucking job in conveying that terror and grief and guilt and it fucks me up so bad#vash makes me sad in EVERY adaption but stampede is like#we've only seen him be kind. he's just nice. he's serious and he's nice and he's kind. he treats everyone with so much delicateness and care#and the only time he raises his voice is for the protection of others and warning them#and now he's rung the wranger and i now have a hammer to knives' side#not even trying to be dramatic its just been awhile since a character has mattered to me in this kind of way#ruporas art
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i need ghoap frantically making out against a door finally taking the leap on their feelings. need ghost grinding against soap, expecting to find him just as hard as him, only to feel nothing
and in all his wisdom and experience, he concludes soap was tortured and never told him
he’s trying to think of a delicate way to say he understands, that he’s been through it and it doesn’t change anything about how he feels (and who the fuck touched him so he can hunt them down and rend them limb from limb)
meanwhile trans!soap’s just trying to find the best angle to grind his cunt on ghost’s thigh
just it never even entering ghost’s head bc he’s never known a trans person but he has met plenty of people who’ve been tortured - himself included - so of course that’s his logical leap
soap takes off his shirt and he sees his top surgery scars and ghost asks if he wants him to kill the one who did it and soap just hums like, “actually, man did pretty good, they healed real well,” and ghost’s just teary-eyes with awe at how well he’s coping, “looking on the bright side, that’s my johnny.”
imagine he thinks johnny was fully castrated but sees he’s determined to still have a sex life with him so he buys packers and straps to help him bc hell yeah healing and soap’s just like, “holy shit i’ve never had such a thoughtful partner before, such a sweet man, lt.”
#he a little confused but he got the spirit#its so good bc it can be super angsty of ghost really dreading whats been done to his sergeant and trying to make it right#or just go full crack treated seriously and have fun with it#i love just completely oblivious ghost#in any military context hes the smartest guy in the room#he always knows the play and has more experience than anyone#but stick him in the normal world? man is Lost#ghost just thinks hes had some kind of reconstruction surgery after being tortured and accepts thats what johnny looks like#bc hes never seen a pussy before#it takes years for soap to actually come out to him bc he just never thought to#hes seen him naked theyve literally slept together what else is there for him to say#then he shows him like a family album or something and ghosts just like ‘why arent you in any of these i only see girls’#and he just goes ‘hang on a second’#soap gets one of his sporadic periods one night and panics a little thinking it would weird ghost out or remind him that hes not cis#but ghost just thinks its a normal part of such a thorough reconstruction that hed bleed sometimes#and doesnt question it when soap grabs a pad out of his drawer bc ‘thats such a good way of handling the discharge my johnnys so smart’#just really supportive ghost for the wrong reasons#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#we’re a team. ghost team#soapghost#ghostsoap#simon ghost riley#ghost cod#john soap mactavish#soap cod#save post
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They know I'd do anything for them, right?
#da4 spoilers#da4#dread blogs da4#evka ivo#antoine#evka x antoine#I HAVE BEEN THEIR FAN SINCE DAY 1#PLEASE LET THIS INSPIRE SO MANY FANFICS#I NEED EVKA/ANTOINE CONTENT
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What if everything inside the pillar of heaven was sketchy and monochrome like the bg is~ >v<
ref image and still of gif below!~
#lmk#lego monkie kid#lmk mk#lmk spoilers#lmk s5#my art#was in the middle of another piece when I had to urge to draw this#the brush I've been using suits the sketchy rough bristle look ooooo#didnt even have to use ae for this one#nice and simple#'''looks at the next one with dread''' XD#that s5 mood~
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i think the way the book became 3rd person pov when kim dokja got off the train is one of the most fucking genius literary moves ive seen in years
#maybe im being dramatic#but im sooo serious i thought it was fucking AWESOME#orv#omniscient reader's viewpoint#orv spoilers#kim dokja#sorry im just so#i think about it a lot#it was SO SMART#i was like oh???? why is it 3rd person????#is something going on????#and then fucking. then yes!!! something WAS going on!!!!!#screams#that being the last chapter before the epilogue made me scream#if there wasn’t an epilogue it would have been such a fitting end too but then you check the page count#and realize there’s like 500 left and you’re like ‘WHOAH WHAT THE FUCK’#and keep reading and with dread in your heart you turn the page and are like OH SHIT#god i fucking love this book
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perfect killer / easy revenge.
#shuake#persona 5#goro akechi#akira kurusu#ren amamiya#p5r#my art#help finally finished this bc i got coloring inspiration#90% of my wips get abandoned bc of the coloring stage 😭 youd think i'd learn how to simply stop coloring too#but i want them to be colored !! idk they deserve it#this one im actually proud of though#it fuels my need for akechi and burn my dread line from his theme lyric (plus my p3 bias)#while also having a csm reference ive been wanting to do for a while#lets gooo girl dinner (for me)
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Dragon age inquisition: Solas
I wonder how long it took the companions to notice Solas wields magic just a bit... differently?
Surely an apostate knows magic beyond the boundaries of a Circle? But even Dorian doesn't recognize some of his techniques, and the ones that he does are only described in ancient Tevene tomes.
Hmm... strange.
Acrylic ink, fineliner and gouache on paper.
#I mean how long is 'found it in the fade' a believable excuse and not just something that makes everyone extremely suspicious lol#I imagine Dorian trying to corner Solas and trying to pry for information about his magic while Solas is lightly sweating#'these mortals have lost even the basics of spells'#Like how hard must it have been for Solas to shut his mouth and not go off ranting about all the ancient spells that have been lost??#I can only imagine hahaha#By the way I had to crop this drawing because the legs were way too short and I only noticed once it was already too late oops#So please don't look too closely ma'am#solas#my art#dragon age inquisition#my fanart#dai#solavellan#original artwork#Solasmancers#fen'harel#dragon age dreadwolf#the dread wolf rises#dragon age#illutration#Solas illustration#The Dread egg#Suspicious egg#Found it in the fade
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#more ears under the cut#sprigatito#welcome to GENERATION NINE. the generation i've been dreading for the entire existence of this blog#it'll be alright. i'll find ways to get around any problems i might have. i'm pretty confident. i don't think it's gonna be as bad as the#dread tells me it's gonna be. like… look at this face! sprigatito has gotta be one of the best fuckin starters of all time#NOT TO MENTION it stands up!!! in its evolutions!! how great is that??#everyone was so mad but i was rooting for it the whole time. i was BEGGING this cat to stand up. AND IT DID!!!! AND I LOVE IT#IT'S SUCH A WONDERFUL EVOLUTION TOO!!! the fucking magician aesthetic is STELLAR#i love it so much. holy fucking bingle. can't believe game freak popped off so hard with the FIRST pokémon in the paldea dex#they have such pretty eyes. i dunno why they're pogging but it's probably because we finally got to them
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