#i have an eating disorder btw

[clodyghost]

my brother just called me the ‘spirit of gluttony’ and i’ve got to hand it to him it’s a very creative way to call me fat!

[antimony-ore]

Great talk, I'm gonna go sleep forever and never talk to anyone or try ever again 👍

According to the script they constantly feed me I'm going to die during the seemingly inevitable 2nd Trump presidency anyways 🤷🏼

[ovaruling]

maybe a hot take but please don’t have or stop having children if you have an active eating disorder/body dysmorphia (including binge eating, not just restrictive disorders). seriously

thinking you’ll be the exception (because you’re So self-aware, unlike those Other disordered women) and won’t give your dysmorphia/eating disorder to your child is pride before a very slow and terrible fall

it never ever works. you’re never ever immune. i mean, such a huge reason of why there are so many of us now is bc our moms thought the same thing lmfao. didn’t matter how well-intentioned they were. no matter how much they tried to separate Their Problems from Ours. here we fucking are

i know it’s not women’s fault to begin with, but the reality is that those of us affected do incubate, nurture, and pass on the virus in the Current Way of Things

the buck needs to stop here. this isn’t a game. think of all the things your mother probably thought she was expertly hiding from you that you still picked up on and were profoundly affected by in a terrible and formative way. it will happen to you, too. don’t think it won’t.

if you know that you’re not solidly and confidently recovered, you have a responsibility to stop that buck and not actively attempt to create a child who will observe, mimic, internalize, adopt, and inherit your lifelong life-ruining behavior. the selfishness is breathtaking honestly

[actualbird]

beware cuz tw disordered eating, tw smoking addiction posting ahead but like.....

the thing about smoking vs eating is that. smoking is SO MUCH EASIER TO DO.

eating has so many steps. make food (AUGH), put food on plate, sit down and focus to eat food, food enters mouth, must chew, must swallow, must ignore constant low-level nausea to keep food down, repeat until food on the plate is gone. currently im so low-energy and fatigued that this whole process of eating is exhausting to me, and at the end of it i get a tummy ache anyway and risk vomiting all of it out, so theres always a risk of all that hard work (it is...objectively not hard work, i know, but right now in my Mental State it feels like climbing a mountain every time i have a meal) being all for naught.

meanwhile the steps for smoking are Marginally Much Less. it's: get cigarette, light cigarette, inhale, exhale, repeat until cigarette is done. and usually once im done, i wont feel hungry for another half hour because nicotine does that to me.

but it's short-term benefits vs long-term benefits because obviously after enough cigarettes-instead-of-eating, the effects of Not Having Eaten And Smoking Instead stack up to hit me with one hell of a whammy of acidity and Even More Nausea and like

i am Well Aware im trapping myself in a cycle of self-destruction every time i reach for a cig instead of sitting down and eating but smoking is just. easier. and it relaxes me instead of stressing me out, and eating sometimes does stress me out because of the amount of work and focus it involves

this is all horrible by the way, im not endorsing this behavior im just airing out my thoughts. in fact, i am a case study in all the things you should Not be doing to your body

but addiction is just a really crazy thing lmao. like what the fuck do you mean i prefer killing myself slowly rather than having a filling meal. thats crazy. no sane person would have those priorities in that order

and yet

[girlivealwaysbean]

sooooooooo i have pcod

[quecksilvereyes]

i love it when people reblog my poetry on their thinspo blogs. that isnt triggering at all. (i cant blame this person, even, its tumblr, shit happens, but you could TAG YOUR POSTS)

[slugass]

using an eraser for its original purpose now makes you a “psychopath” because lol slightly out of the norm.

USING A FUCKING ERASER. that’s a sign of aspd now. /s

are we running out of things to pathologize for haha funny points??

[thatonebabybat]

Hey btw having depression is not a requirement for being goth and if you think it is I don't like you. That's a whole chronic illness, not a part of your "goth mindset"/"aesthetic". Please reflect on that.

[thescreamcorner]

probably a take that a LOT of people are going to be angry about but I'm gonna preface with: I'm speaking on a general trend I've seen in online spaces, and my thoughts on it are not a direct callout to anyone nor an inherent indicator of if someone's DID is "real" or "fake."

but like. the way that some people will use public spaces to "chat intra-system" is so wild and even at times uncomfortable as fuck, if nothing else it's pretty wildly unsafe because like you have NO IDEA who's reading what you're writing out. Having a private discord server or a journal or a notes app or something is a much safer way to facilitate that kind of thing.

that and lowkey..... sometimes ppl doing it in public or actively sharing screenshots of it on tumblr like it's some "the group chat going wild tonight" type content just feels. So much like roleplay. It skeeves me out a bit. I know in my heart that generally using a space to try and communicate with other parts of the system is a healthy coping mechanism that a lot of therapists recommend but so many times that I see that posted it feels like that meaning and healing has been lost and in some cases borders on roleplaying or content farming and it makes me so uncomfortable

[vampiricbisexuality]

in history class my friend grabbed my arm and then tealized her hand wraps around my wrist and got angry saying that i need to eag but ive gained weight :((

[awsydawnarts]

I hate you weight loss ads I hate you packaging that prominently displays calorie content I hate you menus that don’t show how much something costs but instead show the calories I hate you magazines that blast weight loss strategies in your face I hate you influencers promoting detox teas I hate how the world is so unfriendly to people recovering from EDs who are just trying to get through their everyday life without being reminded about it under the guise of a “fitness girlie” lifestyle

[angelnumber27]

Y’all what sleeping meds actually work and can be prescribed to people labeled as addicts and don’t make you disgustingly hungry right before you fall asleep and don’t give you horrible nightmares? Please tell me about your experiences with sleeping meds, I know everyone is different and reacts to medication differently but I want to know what the options look like (if any) becaus I really think I need to switch up completely bc the benefits aren’t outweighing the negative side effects anymore. I wish I could just get ambien or something but that isn’t possible. Not to abuse, I have no interest in that. I just want to be able to sleep with as few side effects as possible and that’s it.

please respond to this or hmu if you know of anything that might help or is used off label for insomnia or sedates you but isn’t a narcotic ugh I don’t know what to do I can’t just not take it because then I will not sleep and bed things happen when I don’t get my sleep

[jeffthekilled]

dude i need 2 get on meds other than just sedatives again

[featherymainffins]

Forgot that it's just my flat that's the exception and that it's hot as all fuck everywhere else and now I won't sleep tonight because I can't sleep when the room is warm. I need to feel like I'm dying of hypothermia in order to fall asleep.

[kateis-cakeis]

people are really so weird and so fatphobic huh

(and oops most of my commentary is in the tags XD)

[caffeinatedopossum]

Dysphoria tips for trans men be like:

1. Be an asshole

2. Dress like shit

3. Don't be disbaled!!

I'm tired of these things being the reasons people give me that I don't pass -_-