#i have a seasonal depression

[ghosted-jazz]

Species Swap AU! Retired couple gets a fairy godchild to help repair their relationship

[miiukkaa]

i wanna hear him give absolutely horrible speeches (everyone would go apeshit nonetheless)

[ode2rin]

i'm taking it fucking back . i finally had the time to listen to taylor swift's "you're losing me" and now all i think of is rin . my precious emo boy .

imagine begging rin, just for once, to choose you and your relationship. you, ever so patient you, giving him all the time he needs, holding him tight when he unclasps your hands (you fucking bet i'm not just talking about your hands), closing your eyes shut when his words are piercing you straight from the heart.

begging rin, for perhaps the last time, to say something. even just one more i love you will suffice. even one more tender glance will be enough of a reason to stay despite the million glares telling you to leave.

and god, he's looking at you like he almost wants to do as you beg. but that was just it. almost. and fuck that, because no one deserves an almost. no one deserves something halfway. especially not you, that loved him amidst the fleeting moments of brilliance and the indelible scars of his darkest hours.

so you leave. with a heart half beating. dragging your feet slowly making your way to the door. just in a slow pace because a part of you holds on to the hope that rin will come to his senses. that he'll think of you and the life you shared. and that he will reach out and embrace you, but it never happens.

and that's the moment you knew what decision he made.

new silk bed sheets, face masks, a kuromi pj set, a tub of ice cream, the lavender candle guys i think i'm mentally stable now so long friends bye ❤️‍🔥

[fusionsprunt]

Hunter, Year 4036

[transmascrage]

"If we removed all social expectations for men and women that give people insecurities and labels and gender roles there would be less trans people in the world!"

And what if there were more? What then?

Listen I know it's usually well-meaning allies saying that, but it's really not as nice as you think it is when you imply we exist because of oppressive gender roles, and you hope for a world where there'd be less of us.

(Also it makes you sound like a TERF)

[softiedingo]

everytime i remember that my future depends on me:

[ladyzayinwonderland]

friends, romans, mutuals, what are some ways you find joy in this time of early nightfall?

[house-of-hamartia]

"Siúil, siúil, siúil a rún Siúil go sochair agus siúil go ciúin Siúil go doras agus éalaigh liom Is go dté tú mo mhúirnín slán."

Siúil A Rúin

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Hiyo everyone.

Just passing by to share a small thing I did today.

If you have been with me for a while, you know that I suffer from very vivid nightmares and night terrors that usually worsen with my anxiety, to the points that I awake more often than not my poor husband, who is the only one that can actually calm me down and anchor me. I hate them, because they are so vivid, so dishorienting, that just leave me terrified.

So, it's to the surprise of no one that Dora suffers from the same exact thing, and hers, pretty much like mine, is connected to PTSD and, pretty much like mine with my husband, even her nightmares revolve around her fear of losing Shay.

She is terrified to the bone that something might happen to him: be it the Assassins or the wrath of the ocean, she is just petrified at the idea that he might never be alive in this world again.

So, more often than not, she wakes up drenched in sweat, calling for Shay. And of course, without fail, Shay's arms are around her the moment she opens her eyes, and tries to soothe her into at least realizing that she is not dreaming anymore but she is awake again.

I like to imagine that he would sing to her "Siúil A Rúin" to help her calm down, giving her his voice as guide to sort of snap her out of it and anchor her to him once more.

It's not easy, and the first few times Shay had witnessed one of her terrors, it left him more shook than he wanted to admit.

But with time and patience (and Theda's help), he eventually managed to learn what to do for his Dora. And I am happy to say that he is the only one that can actually manage to calm her down completely.

Well, I hope you will like this.

Also, here, have a small close up because I actually like how they turned out.

--Nemo

[calamaroo]

KWAZII RACKHAM REDESIGN 🐈

& IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT‼️

(please read, I'd appreciate it)

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I LOVE HIM SO MUCH 🧡

Here lately, as you can tell if you've been around for my blog, I've been struggling to post. Part of the reason is I've just not been happy with my art style and designs. SO, in hopes to remedy this, I wanted to redesign my little meow meow man!!

I feel like I struggle really badly with same face syndrome, so I want my new style to focus more on different face and body structures/types!

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Design Elements :

The green eyes stuck out too much to me (sensory overload kinda deal), so I made them yellow! I feel it flows better with the oranges everywhere else!

Sharper angles that point inwards!

Actually looks like a human that can turn into a cat! --- I want my "human" designs to have more animal features because that's what I like about them the most! (My human designs are meant to be shifters/can turn back into the original animal species, but I forget to say that a lot)

I haven't liked the way the uniforms look, so that may also change, too. I just haven't gotten to it yet.

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IMPORTANT‼️ (at least to me)

Now, on a more serious note. Since I started tumblr, I got decently popular way quicker than I expected, and the little bit of stardom and fame got to my head. I loved (and still do) seeing people interacting with my art, especially the bigger name people of the Octo-fandom. Not to get too personal, but I've struggled with my self-esteem for as long as I can remember (sucks ass, but it is what it is). On top of that, seasonal depression is kicking my ass, and it started to seriously stress me out seeing the notifications decline. It's silly, and I'm super embarrassed about it, but it's better to let it out than bottle it in, and I've already done damn well enough of that, and I'm sick of pretending.

I love all the support and praise I get about my art. It feels like that's the only thing I'm good at, so it's very personal to me. It's my way of coping with a shitty world. I've thought a lot about it, and I want to start not caring so much about seeing the notes and stuff. I still LOVE and appreciate them. It's nice beyond words to see people actually like my stuff.

IM NOT LEAVING TUMBLR, btw. I love it WAY too much to do that 😅 I just felt like finally saying something. I shouldn't feel the need to explain myself to randoms on the internet, but eh, it is what it is. Can't win them all.

If you read all that, thank you so much!!! Please do not feel responsible for my mental health, it's mine, and I need to fix it my own way.

I hope you liked my Kwazii redesign! I want to redo everyone eventually, but I'm not sure how soon I'll get to it. Tryna focus on mental sanity rn

Byeeee, and thanks for reading my goofy little half silly cat man half vent post !

[batsplat]

random throwback to fabio's response to casey saying he should've been black flagged for the whole open leathers situation

[mikimeiko]

The Expanse | Season 5 (2020-21), Mark Fergus and Hawk Ostby

[utilitycaster]

I firmly believe that pre-taping has been, overall, good, and that anyone who claims the stream is different than when it was live is fucking making that shit up because it's indistinguishable, with the singular exception of Sam posting The Full Chetney on Twitter 2 minutes after the end of the stream with an admission that he couldn't figure out Reddit.

[kori-senpai]

pov you're looking for the love of your life and hear rumors that he is terrorizing the Caribbean while sporting a new flag with a bleeding heart

[heph]

House's tendency to rationalize feelings away and being frustrated at himself for still feeling them. It's hurting me 😢

At the end of 05x04 Birthmarks he did a paternity test... And even after it turned out that John wasnt his father, he was still drinking his whiskey, because it didn't mean anything that John wasn't his biological father, because things are still the same.

He's still sad, he's still depressed. The dipshit of a man passing still made him sad. And the thought that he can't even rationalize it away as hatred upsets him. And so he drinks.

And to that Wilson said no one can choose their parents... Because House rejects John as his paternal figure and yet deep inside, House still called him his dad.

[k8felge]

saw an old p5 post of mine get rb'd and ive been in a goro mood since :p

[midnightcatharsis]

CaitVi fans: Oh no, they really made Cait hit Vi and sleep with Maddie… How can this pairing possibly recover from cheating and domestic abuse? It's doomed…

Meanwhile JayVik fans after Jayce sleeps with another person, breaks every promise he has ever given to Viktor and violently murders him, seemingly with no regret, guilt or inner struggle, without even trying to talk to him one last time: