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egophiliac · 1 month ago

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ANNIVERSARY GROOVY BOYBAND! THEY ALL LOOK SO GOOD, I also love the hades reference with idia! Ik ur probably really swamped with the book 7 brain rot but I wanted to know ur thoughts. I also wanted to mention that I am so card deprived I feel like I need a replacement event to take tsumderlands place

AUGH NO I LOVE THEM. �� UGH now I really have to think about if I want to try pulling for Grim again. dangit. heck. I already got his little pedestal to add my guest room shrine, but...now I kinda need the boss himself...

also, the implications of it not being an OB thing, Idia can just. Do That? apparently? do you think he ever just sometimes does it by accident? what am I saying, he absolutely sometimes does it by accident.

gosh though. this event has been SO cute in general! I was wondering who'd get the focus for year 5; I could not be happier that the answer is apparently EVERYBODY. :D all the dorms get their own special songs! so many cute little scenes!!! the lowest of stakes bringing out the highest of pettiness in everyone!!!!!! it's excellent.

(also, because I will make literally anything about my diaboys...I know these events are typically sorta, let's say chronologically unmoored with regards to story. but the further implications that this takes place pre-episode 7/Malleus' Big Existential Crisis, and yet...some of these lines?)

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twst 5th anniversary #i hope that's the correct tag for filtering purposes #anyway gacha continues to have me in a bind #i have scrambled up enough keys/gems that i could hit the 100 pity mark on ONE pickup #so now i have to choose between grim or silver #with the caveat of course that i might end up not getting either #(or hoping i might magically somehow get another 31 keys to hit 150 on the anniversary medal pickup to trade for masqueralleus)#(this is extremely unlikely but if we don't have hope we have nothing)#uggggh i hate decisions #on the one hand. look at silver's card. just LOOK at it.#and i could absolutely use a void-typed attack card! especially with that duo!#but also my sweet grimbleshanks in his little sparkly blazer...#how can i possibly say no to the boss #i feel like if i had managed either platinum grim or armor sebek that would've decided it for me for collection reasons but NO #the pulls have just been an unmitigated disaster all around #the way this has been going i'm going to go all in on one of them and come out with yet another dorm trey #and then five minutes later they'll announce white rabbit rerun with froufrou fluffy bunnies leona and malleus #truly...f2p mobage is suffering #i had also kinda been thinking if i didn't get anything i might buy that malleus figure once it went up for preorder...#(i do not allow myself to spend money on gacha because. i know myself. but i will buy ALL the overpriced merch)#i forgot just how STUPID overpriced those figures are though #it is a really nice figure though...and it'll only be worse on the secondhand market...#i mustn't. i won't. but also.#hey twst feel free to make this up to me by giving me that fluffy bunny malleus after all okay

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fuckinart · 11 months ago

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(they'll never understand) How could I ever understand? No, I don't have to understand. I don't wanna understand. So I will never understand. (we could have everything)

#Danny Phantom #art #sketches #i do not feel like colouring this. you'll have to use your imagination #also i highly recommend listening to Nick Lutsko's Swords album because it is so Jack & Maddie it's not even funny #i've been listening to Superior on repeat for like 2 days which is why i whipped this comic up #but also Sideshow is how i was introduced to the album & is also very very very much Maddie & Jack coded #i want to write a fic about it. alas i'm already writing like 10 fics about everything right now so it'll have to wait #i just have this idea in my head of it actually being pretty obvious to Maddie & Jack who Phantom is #he's wearing their hazmat. using their inventions. can open their biometric locks. has their son's face. his voice.#Danny Fenton has an extremely high level of ectoplasm. he even has an ectosignature. the same ectosig as Phantom in fact.#but they're so in denial. so obsessed with their work up til then not being a waste of time & resources. that they just keep ignoring it #keep burying their heads in the sand #& things just keep getting worse. & they keep having a harder time committing to attacking Phantom #have a harder time believing in what they're doing. have a harder time explaining away the truth #but they can't face it. they have to keep refusing to see it #because the truth will never set them free. it will only confirm all the terrible things they've done.#they're good people. everything they do is good. there is no other side to this story. of course

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deoidesign · 8 months ago

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Hello! I just discovered your blog and I immediately became captivated by your webcomic, but I'm unsure where to read all of it. I know it's on Webtoons, but I can see it hasn't been updated for a while, and you still post about it.

Are your physical novels just prints of the webcomic? Are they a continuation? Is the story complete? Thanks in advance!

Hi there!

Glad you found me and are enjoying my comic!

It's only on webtoons, and the story is not complete yet! We're 2/3 of the way through right now. It's currently on hiatus, and it's scheduled to come back in about 2 months!

I'll explain why it's been so long if you're curious, but also for my followers who might also be wondering about it under the cut. Sorry, it's pretty much just me complaining haha

I took a month off I took 2 months to get the books printed I took a month to prepare my next comic and I took 2 months to write the rest of the series (I knew the character arcs I wanted, but not the time periods or mysteries!!!) I've been working on actual episodes since then

I had to take some time off because of some pretty extreme burnout due to the sheer amount of work it was to draw over 800 pages and write 6 complete stories in a year and a half... I was getting sick almost weekly due to the overwork, it was really really bad honestly. I was having to work 60+ hours every week just to keep up...

The nature of the comic itself is also difficult... Each of the arcs is a complete, self contained story which can be read (ideally) without context, and my arcs need to be about 10-13 episodes each... And since I have an exact number of episodes to work with, it's even harder.

It takes a ton of planning and a ton of refinement, and working week to week with no breaks I was forced to put out second or even first drafts, so I just wasn't happy with the work I was doing... And to do that for the rest of the series? I wouldn't be proud of the work I did.

Plus... To be entirely honest, webtoon has treated me quite badly IN MY OPINION... They deprioritized me before I launched (I had to beg for more promotion, I'm not exaggerating), they outright denied me the opportunity to even ask for a raise, I don't make any money on fast pass and they pay me less than my partner makes working at trader joes. My first editor left me completely hanging, my second editor (who I loved) was fired... And they told me I wouldn't get a third season before my first season even finished. So it was just repeatedly completely demoralizing.

I'm sorry it has taken so long, it'll have been 10 months by the time I come back. But I realized... I won't get promotion either way. I won't get more episodes either way. I won't get more money either way. So to finish everything, to make it feel good, to make it something I'm proud of, I chose to take longer to make it better.

I am fully aware I will lose a significant amount of my readership for this and it might genuinely affect my career moving forward. But it's what I had to do! So I'm sticking to my guns on it, and I'm confident long term it'll be worth it. It never could have been this good if I didn't take this much time.

#asks #steakandpeanutbuttersandwiches #I'm SO sorry youre new and you asked me such a benign question and I responded with... this... LMAO #I swear to god I tried to make it as short as possible #theres just a lot auauuaghkhgjk #basically. way too much work. not enough money.#so it either is gonna be good and take longer or be worse but come back faster #and I chose to take longer #so.#I'm really sorry and I wish that this decision didn't also come with the... pretty much guarantee that it will negatively impact my career.#I will lose readers. I will lose potential readers for my future work. it looks bad on me as a creator to take such a big break. etc. etc.#but it's good. it's so good. you have to trust me it's like the best stuff Ive ever written #it. ok well to be honest #it'll probably feel extremely simple and extremely natural #but it's been SO much work LMAO #I am not exaggerating I have written over 200 pages of scapped ideas to get to where it is #I'm sure it won't make sense why it took so long while reading but you gotta trust me LMAO #ideally it doesnt even 'feel' different right. cause its gotta be cohesive with the whole thing #but there is SO MUCH TO WRAP UP #THERES SO MUCH #and to make that feel natural in this little space oh my GOD it is so hard #ok omfg I'm doing it again I'm going on way too long again IM SO SORRY #YOURE NEW HERE AND IM DOING THIS IMMEDIATELy #this is like 90% for my followers who I know are curious about this and I'm just using you as a jumping off point to talk about it #cause I don't really like to make standalone posts very often #I likely will make some kind of official announcement about it when the date is extremely set in stone #right now I think it's still only tentatively scheduled so it could still change #and I'll say something more... refined and restrained... then.#but for now this is like. actually everything. I think #I'm sure I forgot something but whatever lmfao

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marshmellowtea · 20 days ago

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i think i'm gonna go into work late and i'm gonna tell everyone i slept through my alarms but really i'm just gonna wait until the nausea from my meds passes before i head over

#i think i have enough goodwill here to get away with it lol #and it's not like i'm skipping for no good reason being next to the hot oven while you feel sick only makes things worse #ugh i'm so upset by these meds i feel like they're not working and they make me so nauseous #but whatever i'll call the doctor tomorrow it'll be fine.#marshy speaks

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gremzon · 6 months ago

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I might have OCD actually

#idk i can't tell if its ocd or paranoia #but all my life these “share this text to 10 contacts or your mum will die” always made me unreasonably panicked #and more and more because of posts like “donate now or you are a horrible person” make me deeply unwell #i feel so selfish because i know it's not their fault #im not blaming palestinians reaching out for help more like the people who share the posts and then guilt trip everyone #and i really dont wanna block the tags because it'll make me feel even worse and i still want to be informed #i have so many asks pilling up but idk what to do because I'm useless i can't help in anyway i dont have any reach and no money in my name #and i dont wanna close asks because i do enjoy ask games #but also idk what to do #because when i reply its so hard i feel miserable because i can't help but as soon as i reply i get 20 new ones and it's incredibly overwhel #overwhelming #but when i dont answer my brain is screaming at me “if you dont reply your while family will die in a car crash”#and it's a simple mental image to think of the more asks i answer the more i get the more my brain tells me awful things #I'm sorry to any mutual i may have unfollowed because they shared so many guilt tripping posts i genuinely can't do it anymore #and i feel terrible #and I don't wanna leave Tumblr because it's my only social platform left lmao and thevother ones are all awful its the inly one i like #I'm just not in the right mental state to constantly see “donate or you dont deserve to live even if youre poor” kinda posts #it's not even triggering its just making my “ocd” worse than it ever was #all day long my brian been telling me “you will die today because you didnt answer the asks!!”#it's genuinely horrible idk what to do and eother way i feel like a piece of shit i feel like i dont have the right to feel this way

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neverendingford · 7 months ago

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#tag talk #social anxiety is so much worse to deal with when only half of you is anxious because you never know when it'll happen #like. R is not anxious at all. she loves being around people and since we came out she's not scared anymore #but me on the other hand? being around people is a nightmare. agoraphobic for sure.#I wanted to go running again cause we woke up at six again. but the thought of going outside and being perceived? terrifying.#maybe I need to practice getting R to front. we're used to thinking of L as the defensive front but if R's sociability is the best strategy #then she would be the strongest front to present.#the problem is I've tried that and it just results in me feeling even more sullen and anxious because I feel dragged into things then.#because going out on public even with friends still makes me feel anxious and angry and generally annoyed.#ugh I'm so tired of being unpredictably two different people.#if I were just L all the time I could embrace that and find workarounds to these issues. but they hit me so unpredictably #so I don't have the reliability to trust. so my strategy is usually just 'wait until you change into someone without those problems'#because whatever issue I have can usually be fixed by the other half of me.#scared of upsetting people? turn into L. scared of socializing? turn into R. scared of doing tasks? turn into L.#it's also wild because when we're L we shift into a morning person. and R is definitely a night owl #so waking up at five am to go out and read a book on the couch is so great as L but staying up all night reading is R's sweet spot.#idk. I'm so tired of bouncing so much between these two people #and I'm beginning to suspect that we have different food preferences as well. which is.. frustrating #I wish it were as easy as going 'oh duh I'm making this up in my own head' and just stopping #like. yeah it's all in my head unfortunately that's where my sense of identity is too.

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risingsunresistance · 2 years ago

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#i cant remember if it was today or not tbh but i know it was soon and i remember the 30th being rlly bad for me #i cant just. click on the video and check #eh whatever. i made it a year in my eyes #i cant believe i did tbh so much has happened #i talked a bit about some of it here and there but. MY GOD THIS HAS BEEN A HARD YEAR.#and it'll only get worse the grind never stops 💥💥💥#at least i hit 240 in skyblock... yippee......#i got another shiny applin yesterday. redid it to make it have the quirky nature #got it in like 20 eggs. named it HarV AppL of course #chat #grief cw #i wanna keep talking but this doesnt rlly feel like the place to do it lol #i should find a new therapist now that im not on campus maybe 🧍‍♂️

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knifegremliin · 2 years ago

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HEARTBREAKING! man has worst headache known to man but can't take anything for it because he already took meds for a headache earlier and cannot take any more for the day

#🔪.text #aaaand this is exactly why i almost never take meds for headaches anyway #because knowing my luck i will take meds for a more minor headache earlier in the day in hopes to stop it before it hits hard #only to end up with a much worse headache later in the day that i now can no longer take anything for #because i have already taken as many as i can in a 24 hour period #''oh why don't you just not take the max dosage the first time then''#because if i don't most likely they won't do shit #honestly even taking the max dose sometimes doesn't even work #it technically didn't this morning because i have had a headache all day #it just was more tolerable earlier in the day #but now i feel like my head is gonna split open or explode. not sure which.#i get a headache like this at least once a week now it seems #and meds only work like. half of the time.#if even half.#it seems like most of the time they never do anything #hence why most of the time i don't even bother and just suffer #because if i do take anything well there's a high chance they won't even work and so i will just continue to suffer #and it'll just be a waste of meds #so why bother trying.#hm. realizing now that's probably not normal is it

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ronanlynchbf · 1 year ago

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basically there's been a void inside of me since i was 6 and that's what's wrong with me.

#YO BRO DESTINED TO NEVER BELONG 👆🔥🔥🙏💥💯❗❗❗#r.txt #like. ever since i was a little kid i've felt a sense of alienation and lonesomeness whenever wherever & it's only gotten worse over time #<- lonesomeness really THE adam parrish word i can't not think of him whenever i use it. also shakira moment woo that wasn't intended but💪#anyway. urgh. february's such a weird month tbh like one day i'm feeling fine the next i'm contemplating changing my entire life and then #i'm back to feeling fine and waxing poetic abt nature only to feel guilty for simply existing and like i'm never gonna be happy EVER in the #history of my life two days later........fuckass month. count ur days 🔫😐#but we move 👍🙏💪#in other more positive news that i am gonna focus on instead of the stupid february feelings: i've applied for a new ID yday which was long #overdue and i'm over halfway through the 500+ page book i was reading for exams and i'm getting a newspaper job so i'll have a little bit o #income and guaranteed at least an hour outside in the fresh air biking and walking every week and it'll also leave me with enough time to #study without me feeling added pressure bc of the job & come july i'll be two years clean <33 so yay for me 👏

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houseofwolvess · 2 years ago

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i hate the come-down period after doing literally anything fun at all at any point in time. i went to a movie theater on friday and then to a convention on the following weekend, which was incredibly fun! i loved it! but there's always a come-down period, where everything feels awful because i know im going to be stuck in my house again, rotting away like always, unable to do anything outside of these walls for who knows how long. its hard to keep doing things i enjoy if i know that im just going to feel awful afterwards.

#i wanna be able to do things #but my sister is too picky and my mom is too tired and my friend needs to be involved in everything we do so we just. never do anything.#i do so much stuff alone because nobody wants to go or i dont trust anyone to actually follow through #my bike is out of order though and my mom seems to hate the idea of me using the bus system that i literally get to use for free #now. why can't i just do things inside my own home? it doesn't fuckin work out #the only place im really welcome in my own home is my bedroom. the bottom floor is for my friend and the rest of the family.#i dont have space to do much art up here and there isn't enough space for my other hobbies and i can't make too much noise because it'll -#- bother everyone and i cant call friends because everyone will listen in on my conversations and i don't have enough space to bring my -#- laptop and all its additions up to my desk #i have friends but i feel so isolated from them all. i feel like im going to completely fuck things up by trying to talk to any of them.#i always feel better when i can get out and do stuff but im rarely able to get out and do stuff and even then i feel bad once the stuff ends #so im trapped i guess. its a cycle that will never end. ill do something i love to cheer myself up only to feel even worse afterwards than -#- i did before.

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pupkou · 2 years ago

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i want to get my bellybutton pierced just for the bit

#literally everyone ik that has one had a horrible experience with the healing process but im really good about taking care of piercings so #i think it'll be fine? literally nothing could be worse than my conch which was pierced 14 months ago and still is not 100% and still gets #mad at me sometimes and crusty and weird whenever it feels like throwing a tantrum #but anyway #not only would it be funny for my hairy tummy to have a little gem on it but . dare i say it might be hot #knight rambles

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lexicals · 2 months ago

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I just don't know what to do at this point honestly. I really truly do not know what to do

#wastepaper basket #The only option I have available to me is just Being There and it doesn't feel like enough. It's not enough #I've been trying to have faith for months and things just keep getting worse I don't know how much longer I can keep this up #I don't know how much longer I'm going to have to keep this up and it's terrifying #I'm scared it'll be a long time I'm even more scared it'll be short #I don't want to be an orphan before I'm 30 #I don't know what to tag this as I'm sorry if it's upsetting

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just-your-average-tangerine · 2 months ago

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Doing real bad folks

#i miss my dog #i feel profoundly lonely and isolated #i feel like ive failed #just in general #at life #im tired of being told it'll get better when it never does #whenever i get to the point when things are supposed to get better the goalpost moves #like as a teen it was 'itll get better once your an adult'#then i became an adult and it only got worse #and then it was 'after 21 it gets better'#well i turned 21 and it got worse still #then it was 25 #i turned 25 #it got even worse #or it was milestones #after high school #then after college #then once you move out #one you live on your own #well ive graduated high school #dropped out of college #moved out of my parents house #and now i live on my own #and each step has only been worse than the last #allegedly now itll gets better after 30 #im not counting on it #i dont know how much worse it can get #i have nothing left

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saymio · 3 months ago

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In Ho headcanons | (NSFW)

Pairing: Hwang In-ho (player 001/the front man) x Fem!reader

Genre: headcanons, smut

Warning: dead dove do not eat, manipulation, dub/noncon, age gap, might be more but im too lazy to write it down

A/N: not proof read. thanos story in the works rn!! I have writers block so to help a little I'm making some hcs 4 this baddie (prob ooc)

hwang inho, the man that protected you from Thanos and his stupid friend during the first day of the games. he shoo'ed them away. stopping their harassment and took you with him with the rest of the group

hwang inho, the man that gives you his milk. reassuring you every time that its okay for you to have it, and it'll help you get stronger.

hwang inho, the man that checks up on you throughout the night. standing over you to make sure you're getting your nights rests. making sure no creeps try touching your delicate skin.

hwang inho, the man that lets touches linger a little longer than they should, whether its on your hands, thighs, waist..his touches feel more than platonic

hwang inho, the man that tells the guards to make sure you stay safe, to kill a player that hasn't broken the rules if they had to. anything to make sure you stay safe.

hwang inho, the man that would excuse himself to the bathroom just to touch himself to the thought of you. whether its your calm voice or plush hands that feel so soft and delicate...he just couldn't help it.

hwang inho, the man that squeezes your thighs when no ones looking...and when you express discomfort he used his past generosity as an excuse for it.

hwang inho, the man that will kiss you in the middle of the night with no warning. telling you to be quiet and take the kiss because if it were any other man it would've been worse.

hwang inho, the man that will find the perfect timing to sneak away from everyone else with you. he'll make you strip for him in the bathroom. savoring every inch of your body before he sends you away, leaving him in there alone to masturbate.

hwang inho, the man that wont let you sleep. he'll grope and squeeze your thighs, tits and ass. feeling you up while you hold in tears.

hwang inho, the man that reminds you this is your fault when you cry to him during a bathroom strip session. expressing how uncomfortable this makes you and how you don't want it anymore.

hwang inho, the man that will tell you nothing in the world is free. and your body will be the payment he receives for being so generous with you.

hwang inho, the man that gets hard thinking about your age gap. how youre only 19 and he's in his 40's..he loves it.

hwang inho, the man that slips his fingers inside of you when the lights are off, fingering you aggressively. reminding you once again that it'd be so much worse if he wasn't such a nice man.

hwang inho, the man that captures you during the raid against the guards. forcing you to stare into the eyes of your past friends as he kills them.

hwang inho, the man that keeps you as his pet after the games end. reminding you you're lucky because he spoils you with money.

hwang inho, the man that doesn't let you socialize with anyone after he's gotten his grip on you.

Another not: this one is pretty short compared to my last fic, this was to just try n get me out of writers block. expect a Thanos fic to pop up tmr. sorry if this sucked/was ooc, I tried my best T T~~

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