#i have a binder and im wearing it now and its great but like it does not go with the cut of this womans tank top

[thanatoseyes]

I bought a bra because sometimes I want to actually wear shirts that don't show everything and I hate undershirts and why is my tank top defining my boobs, literally can see everything through the tank top. Who is this for? Certainly not me!

[silverislander]

ok maybe tape binding isnt a great idea for me. sigh

[that-1-gay-writer]

Harvey x Trans!man reader (HEADCANONS)

A/N: BY CONTINUING TO READ YOU ARE ABY CONTINUING TO READ YOU ARE ALLOWING YOURSELF TO READ NSFW CONTENT AND THAT IS ONES ONLY WARNING, THANK YOU, AND REQUESTS ARE OPEN. ALSO I GUESS CALL THIS A COMING OUT POST BECAUSE FOR 3 YEARS I SUCESSFULLY HID THAT IM A TRANS MAN. NOW IM UNVEILING THAT TO YOU ALL. SO YIPPIE I GUESS. ALSO SORRY FOR JOT REALLY GETTING TO REQUESTS OR FINISHING OTHER DRAFTS. HARVEY IS LITERALLY ROTTING MY BRAIN-K🍃💚

Disclaimers: readers genitalia is called "boy cunt," or "boypussy,". Praise kink, size kink, hand kink, roleplay, uhm there might be more but idk. I did not proofread this before posting it. I just wanted to make content

EDIT ♡♡ (5/28/24):

I have proofread and edited it even adding more there you go loves

SFW: AFTERCARE HCS ARS UNDER THE NSFW STRIP

-Harvey was proud of his beautiful husband. No matter what people tried to say about him. Harvey loved his beautiful boy.

-he definetley kisses your hand in public, he will take you on cute dates too.

-if you wear binders (so before top surgery) he will definetley remind you to take it off, and he will help putting it on. He also buys you new ones when the time occurs.

-he always helps with T-shots, but if you use T-Gel then he just helps put it on your shoulders. He dosent touch it because he knows it could mess with his T levels too.

-he bakes for you, and cooks for you. If its been a long day and he was just making model planes and hasn't seen you all day, he makes sure you have dinner ready for you; along with a shower, freshly dried clothes, and bed sheets.

-on days where your dysphoria is very bad, he compliments you, and will provide you large clothing, such as his own.

- "Please my handsome boy, don't say that about yourself. You're a real boy, and I see you as such. You're my husband and nothing will change that." Definetley accompanied by many kisses inbetween his words.

-he helps you shave. Since hes experienced with it. Your first shaving experience on your face was with Harvey, and he provided comfort, support and help the entire way through.

-Harvey is the tallest man in the valley so clearly he was taller than you. He enjoyed how small you where so when you and him cuddle he coddles you in his arm and caressing your face as he kisses your cheeks, forehead, and nose.

NSFW:

-The first time he fucks you was your wedding night, and damn it was a great first time on your end.

-the foreplay was crazy, the way he teased your boy cunt made you tremble and shudder.

-"Oh pretty boy, this pretty boy pussy is taking my fingers so well. Do you think you're ready for my cock?" Oh and you know his voice was so condescending, so teasing but all for you.

-he enjoys giving rather than receiving, and when he eats you out, oh his words are dirty, he laps at you like a starving man. Always claiming about how wonderful you taste, how gorgeous you look.

-"Oh god, my love. You look so gorgeous. I just want all of this beautiful boycunt, its so pretty. It tastes as good as it looks, and my God I can't get enough." He groans out, as his hands on your hips start moving, making you grind against his tongue. He knew it made you see stars.

-he is older, so his stamina is pretty well however when he cums, it takes him a while to recover. He gets so very sensitive. And will start moaning and begging you to make him cum again if you start teasing him.

-when you ride him. God his green eyes are rolling back. You had to check in on him a few times because of how good you were doing.

-"fuck darling I'm gonna cum inside of you're pretty pussy. Oh god the way you roll your hips. I cant take anymore," he wines out and trembles. He tries to look like he's okay, but God he feels like he's in heaven.

-he fucks for you. Like he never had a real sex drive, sure he experminted in college and what not. But you changed that completely

-he kisses all over your neck, shoulders, face, and chest when he fucks you. Anywhere his mouth can latch. Trust it is, he loves kissing all over your body.

AFTERCARE♡:

-he is an absolute king of after care. Like bath ready you don't have to do anything he will do everything for you.

-if you show any sort of hence of pain he will start slowly massaging whatever it is that is in slight pain

-he cuddles you, and spoons you. He loves you with every fiber of his being and he only wants the best for you, and will give the best to you.

-constantly reassures you about how good you did for him and how wonderful he feels, and about how he lobes you for more than just your body.

-"Even as wonderful as it is, your body is not the only reason I love you. I love you for you, and for every part of you. Head to toe, inside and out, I love you, my pretty husband"

[baileythebean]

Vent below the cut so HUUUUGE trigger warning.

So usually I vent in my dad’s (Anomaly’s) DMs because he’s great at comforting me, but Im too pissed for this right now and I dont want to bother him. I swear I am so fucking close to actually killing myself, it’s scary.

My mom has an aversion to me ever binding. I am transmasc (FtM), and I am out to my parents. My mom claims to be a “good”, “supportive” mom, and I do occasionally have moments where I’m like “oh yeah, she’s making progress, she’s learning! :)” and then it’s always fucking ruined by saying things like “well Bailey is your nickname, your name is [deadname].” - “well you’re still biologically female.” - lots of bullshit little jabs at me whenever I ACTUALLY get brave enough to talk about my identity, which is rarely. Unfortunately, any chances of me getting a binder were ruined when I just asked her flat-out. I said it was for cosplay, just to play it safe, and it was still a hard no because “It destroys your body!” - “You wont develop properly!” - “You’ll regret it!” Along with several long rants about ALL the research she’s done, (probably barely any, and it was most likely on social media) and all the stories she’s heard about people who regretted surgery or just transitioning in general and had lawsuits for them, which is like, very low. The regret rate for transitioning is in the DECIMALS and yet she refuses to acknowledge that. We also have a history with suicide, as that’s how my dad left us, and yet she either hasn’t seen or doesnt care about trans suicide rates BECAUSE of being denied affirming care or harassment?? Anyways, here’s where my shit show of a story starts. I managed to get by fine with layering sports bras for a while and just not wearing anything tight-fitting. I figured she’d warm up to it eventually. But recently, I got a new cosplay (Venti from Genshin Impact) which involves a corset, and even if I layer or adjust the shirt, makes my chest look very weird if I dont bind. I started feeling more dysphoria than ever in my life and made a plan to get a binder before my first time wearing the costume. Said plan succeeded, and I had my friend get me the right sized binder at a birthday party one day through a queer kids program that offered them for free. I was so happy and started wearing it to get used to it and break it in since that day. Unfortunately, today I made the mistake of leaving it on my bed visibly.

My mom also has a terrible habit of going into my room and my spaces to clean, even though I usually do it myself anyway, and I LITERALLY FUCKING TELL HER NOT TO EVERY. SINGLE. TIME. I dont want her touching my stuff EVER, not just when I’m trying to keep something from her. I told her to stop and she kept picking up trash, and she spotted it. She questioned me about it, and I caved, telling her what it is, how its been considered medically safe, and reciting like, ALL the safety instructions from the top of my head, hoping it would give me a chance at keeping it. I failed. I got yelled at for destroying my body, ETC ETC. finally, she says that she needs to keep my binder in her room so she can make sure I ONLY use it for cosplay and I’m pretty sure she’ll check if I’m wearing it every day.

Then this bitch PUTS MY BINDER ON and tells me it’s too tight. First, it’s supposed to be. Second, THATS NOT YOUR SIZE. I’m sobbing my eyes out right now, and the only thing keeping me alive is my boyfriend, and a literal fictional character. I want to tear my flesh from my bones when she tells me that puberty sucks for everyone, and she doesnt get the fact that it’s a million times worse for me because I’M A BOY. I’ll be lucky if I make it to the end of the year. I’m just done. I want it to be over. Someone come and end it for me, please. I cant take any more.

[your-queer-dad]

hey dad i did an ask once before though idk if it was answered i cant tell but i came out to my parents and siblings almost six months ago now my dad is very ignorant doesnt care but still supports when he does remember. my mom is a bit complicated. i am pretty young for an enby, and she feels like i may not know for certain whilst i may be agender or nonbinary i am definitely not a girl or boy and definitely prefer my preferred name and they/them pronouns my mom isn't straight idk what she is my parents dont have a good relationship but i think they try to support me she says she will continue to deadname me cause shes worried she'll use it in front of my grandparents who are super bigoted i am not out to ym grandparents on either side and she has said she'll try to be better with pronouns but we'll see on that my siblings are all super supportive and i plan on asking them to start using my preferred name i also fogured out one of my siblings are gay and one is bi which im glad im not the only one though im the only non cis person which does make me feel a little odd or abnormal recently my dysphoria has been getting horrid used to just have chest dysphoria but not i feel like im getting bottom dysphoria I've talked to my mom about it originally she said i couldn't get a binder till om 18!? after a bit of an argument with mom me and my sister it was eventually moved to not allowed till 15 i have to wait 2 whole years i also am not allowed to change my preffered name on stuff like library cards until ive been out for 12 months so only around 6-7 months but still pretty annoying like she thinks its a phase or something she grew up with extremely bigoted parents so i cant completely be mad i recently told my cousin though shes got a bad influence from school and tends to spill secrets shes also pretty close with my nana who is in fact queerphobic i really regretted it right after idk if shes told anyone yet but im really worried she will im worried by the time im 18 i wont be able to get top surgery or bottom surgery due to the current political stance i also am intrigued by furry like things such as wearing cat ears and a tail but feel super self conscious i dont have ny own room to wear such things i also dont have my own credit card to buy these things without anyone knowing and im super nervous i want to explore things like cat ears and tail but i dont have a private space to wear them my family is unemployed my dad has stopped trying to get a job i dont have anyway to get money for what i want my family isnt well off im super sorry for such a long vent i just really am confused right now and my situation is very complicated

-a little enby buddy (they/them ei/eim it/its)

Hey kiddo! It's okay, please don't apologise for the long rant. That sounds like a really complicated situation and I'm so sorry you're having to deal with all of that. I'm glad your siblings and mom are supportive, even if they aren't great and I'm always here to listen no matter what 🫂🫂

- dad x

[planetcruspy]

VIDCON AFTER THOUGHTS: a review of my first and sadly final day of vidcon anaheim

SO I'm just making this because I have a lot of thoughts AND for anyone who didn't get to go this year who wants to know what the experience is like! This is going to be really long post so apologies for that :3

Registration was pretty easy for me, but I also could just ask literally anyone for help if I was confused.

FIRST MEET AND GREET: MR. TELEVISION aka AIMSEY TV

The queue had 5 lines, the first ones being those with disabilities, so that they could go first. I was in the fourth (or fifth depending) line. The wait wasn't very long, plus we could sit on the floor. They sadly couldn't sign anything due to time, BUT gifts were allowed and there was a little box to put them in. OKAY SO the actually meeting and greeting was VERY quick, infact I think aimsey made a tweet about how they had 20 minutes to spare when they thought the time was up. This being my first ever meet and greet I was SO NERVOUS, as was probably everyone in the line. This being said ITS OKAY TO BE NERVOUS. The best thing to do is plan out everything you want to do and say in the line or even before you arrive! I would make sure you can get everything done, including poses, in under 15 seconds. NOW don't be like me a rush so much you regret it. Here's how my turn went:

ME: Haiii

armsey: hiii you look amazing :000

mE: thankss! :3

oh yeah i gave them a hug

and then we went 👍👍 and ☜(ﾟヮﾟ☜)(☞ﾟヮﾟ)☞ and i gave them another hug and then i ran away as fast as i could/j

I really wish I did more, like chatted some and I also thought of some killer poses the day after, but it was my first time like I said and i was nervous so i dont blame me! BUT they were super nice and gave great hugs too!! By far the best M&G

Next I jumped right into another line for ranboos meet and greet!

The wait was the second longest wait out of the three, but I talked to some awesome people in the line so it wasnt that bad. Plus by that time I was a little tired and dehydrated so that didnt help the wait feel any shorter lmao. I planed literally two poses I think and those were just thumbs up and me sucker punching them in the face :3 Other that I honestly couldnt think that good with the nervousness paired with the dehydration and shortness of breath from my binder. AND QUICK DISCLAIMER: DO NOT I REPEAT DO NOT WEAR A BINDER THAT IT TOO SMALL FOR YOU, I had a new one waiting at home for me and the smaller one was sadly the only one I had. I also didnt bind at all that week except for that day because I knew how small it was. ALSO DRINK WATER, BRING WATER BOTTLES. I wasn't that badly dehydrated but I still made the mistake of not bringing a water bottle. SO please please bring some water with you, Especially at conventions. Disclaimer over :) SO heres how it went

The photographer was having trouble with the camera (or maybe not just something held him up) so he didnt get to scan my wristband right away, so I just stood there awkwardly for a minute lol. And then he scanned it and then I didn't hear the thing go off immediately so I stopped AGAIN.

Me: Hiii

Ran: Hello! :D

mE: so erm can we do thumbs up?

RRAN: yuh!

Me: and then can I like punch you..

Ran: sure! lets do it

and then i said my goodbye and ran

ran: Nice to meet you!!

THOUGHTS:

I DIDNT ASK FOR A HUG AND IM SO PISSED ACTUALL SOBBING ABOUT IT

I really wanted to talk more but I got in my head about time and stuff and ended up not saying much of anything 😭 And of course I thought of better poses the day after. But again all on my part and it was lovely to get to meet them ^ ^

NOW my third and last M&G was Jack manifold!

This was probably the longest wait out of the three, since there was also someone finishing up their meet and greet when we got there. As well as he was signing things too, which I am so happy about! so I didn't mind the wait.

By now I had loosened up, got something to eat, so I was feeling a lot better. Heres how it went!

Me: HIII

J munee: Helloo :)

me: Thank you sm for being here! (and then something about all the people)

Jack: Its alright!

Then we did thumbs up, mewed like gods and um

WHICH TOOK HIM LIKE 4 TRIES TO GET IT RIGHT BTW

ANYWAYS Then he signed my House of Leaves book! So awesome, big thanks to jack for staying to sign things and chat with everyone!

SO that was my big post talking about vidcon and my thoughts. A big reason why I did this was to also process everything myself lmao. Um thanks for reading lol, sorry this was long tbh I was debating on posting this for a minute cuz of cringe but i am free

[noeysnowy]

Binding for newbies

(This is not a comprehensive list and your welcome to add if i missed anything)

SO! You want to bind your chest, well your in luck i have some info and tips so you have somewhere to start off!

The 2 ways im familiar with binding is by using transtape and a chest binder.

Ill be talking about:

- What they are

- The pros and cons

- Application/usage (and removal)

- And the potential dangers

transtape:

is a tape made from cotton and spandex that you apply to you chest, you cut two strips that you apply on your boobs and then pull your boobs out to each side. Youll find it in rolls like this

Chest binders:

are a vest that compresses your chest. Theyre a very popular method of binding. They’ll typically look like this (you can also get a swim binder)

Pros!

Transtape:

- is great for shaping the chest into a masculine shape! It’s incredibly customisable because you cut the peices yourself and decide how flat you want it.

- It can be worn for up to 5 days! You can work out, shower, swim and do practically anything with it on and itll stick! Itll get a little icky after those days but you can enjoy your flattened chest for a whole week!

It usually comes in a range of skin-colours to match or you can get fun patterns and colours!

Binder:

- its much quicker to put on and its an easy everyday solution

- many say their chest feels flatter with a binder

-feels very secure because of the pressure

- its just one purchase that last years!

Cons

Transtape

- When you take it off your skin is sensitive and in my experience my nipples are very sensitive

-if applied wrong it can seriously irritate the skin, so the proper application method is a little slow

-its all about practice so you might not get the flatness you want on your very first try

- you have to continuously buy some instead of it just being one purchase (make sure to cross reference so you dont have to way wayyyy to much)

Binder:

- you cant do any sports because you arent able to breathe like you should. I mean it, do not do sports with a binder. (You can get a specific swim binder though)

- it can get dangerous if you where it for more than 8 hours a day

- its a bit tricky to put on and take off

- get sweaty so you have to wash them

Application/usage (and removal):

So the most important part about binding is doing it correctly, but its often hard to find info on what not to do and what to do, so I’ve compiled everything you need to know.

Transtape:

Application is tricky and i find writtten instruction is basically useless so i found some great video tutorials on how to apply it!

Small chest:

Medium chest:

Big chest:

And a very important part is taking transtape off again, now i have personally commited the cardinal sin of just ripping it off, dont do that you will fuck up your skin. Instead you have to lather the peice of tape in oil (any oil is good, i use coconut) and lather the whole thing so its very saturated, then wait a 1-3 minutes for the adhesive to let go and then peal it off. If you feel its sticking to your skin still, put some more on and pull softly.

And heres a video for good measure:

In general the TransTape youtube channel is great for info about transtape, so definetly check them out if you buy some. Their website also offers transtape, nipple covers and oil.

Binder:

Binders are a lot quicker to put on as its just a vest, but its tight and its a bit tricky so if you can get someone to help you on your first try id recommend that.

Now there are a few important things to know about wearing binders, so you can wear them properly and not fuck up your ribs

1. Make sure to get the right size, this is very important for your chest health (your website should have a measurement chart)

2. Never wear it longer than 8 hours

3. Take a minimum of 2 break days a week (as in dont wear it) I usually do that in the weekend.

4. Never double bind, as in wear two at once, and never wear a tight sportsbra over or under it to make it flatter, again you will fuck up your ribs and you cant fix that.

5. If it hurts take it off, I know dysphoria is an incredibly tough battle but your health is more important. I believe in you <3

6. Never and i mean never do sports with a binder on

7. Wash it! it gets sweaty and stinky over time so definetly wash it. I wash by hand with some warm water and delicate laundry detergent but your specific binder should have instructions on how to wash it on the tag.

Dangers:

Both of these methods sadly have some downsides, but they are avoidable if you use them correctly

Transtape:

can irritate your skin if you put it on wrong, it gets itchy and if you scratch, you can cause sores, which then means you cant wear your tape till its healed. Ive tried this and it is a HELL so put it on properly!

Binders:

Are dangerous because they compress your entire chest and that means your ribs and all the important organs inside em, so when buying i binder make sure to buy yours size and if youre in between, buy the bigger one, under no sircumstance should you but a binder that is to small, it can seriously harm you.

When your ribs are bent, you cant unbend them and they will hurt when you sleep and breathe so please wear it correctly

All in all thats it! I sadly dont know every website for binders and transtape out there but these are the ones ive used (theyre DK specific)

Transting (for binders)

Peech (For transtape)

if you know of any other websites you trust your welcome to add them!

I hope this was a help on your journey with gender expression and euphoria, i love you, I believe in you and happy fucking with gender out there <333

[faerishv]

hii!! i rlly like ur blog :D! uhm i wanted to request hcs of kou, hanako, tsukasa, nene, and mitsuba with a transmasc y/n that wears their binder too often so it effects them. or just transmasc y/n overall! feel free to ignore if ur uncomfy w the request! - 🐝

hii im glad you enjoy my blog <33 i never wrote for a trans reader in general not being too familiar with the topic so i'll do just general headcanons :) IM SORRY IF THIS ISN'T WHAT YOU EXPECTED 😿

transmasc reader

( hanako , nene , kou , mitsuba , tsukasa )

; hanako :

ok so

if you didn't tell him , he will probably figure it out in a couple of days

when he does , he doesn't say anything

he just ,, doesn't care but in a good way

he doesn't mind that you're trans and he will not do any remarks about it

maybe after you get close to him enough he will ask you questions like "how did you figure out you are trans" or something like that

just out of curiosity

now onto the relationship headcanons

after being by your side for some time

he realizes how much of a great person you are

he wants to be with you every time

he doesn't care if you're a girl or a boy , trans or not

he just loves you for who you are ( cheesy )

( he calls you pretty boy canon !! )

( at first he had some problems remembering the right pronouns .. )

; yashiro :

tbh

she just saw you and thought

" that new boy is kinda cute .. "

when you told her you're trans she was like

" OH "

she still thinks you're cute

she doesn't have problems remembering your pronouns

expect her to bomb you with questions

she doesn't want to sound rude or anything she just wants to know more about you 😾

she's a blushing mess around you tbh

when she confessed she thought you were gonna reject her because of her ankles ..

but when you accepted her she was literally the happiest girl in the world <3

( she helps you choosing some clothes when yall are shopping togheter )

; kou :

when you told him you're trans he was like " ok ! :D "

but he's relivied that you told him

IM SORRY BUT HES STRUGGLING TO REMEBER THE RIGHT PRONOUNS

MY BB IS TRYING I SWEAR

when he get them right give him headpats /hj

anyways

best friends to lovers real

teru supports your relationship

he realize that he has feeling for you when he notice his heartbeat going faster around you

but being dense as he is it takes a lot of time before he notice

he struggle to confess , he never experienced this situation

so you do that for him

he's flustred and tries to hide it

; mitsuba :

i feel like

he made a joke about it

but you took it wrong

he felt bad

and apologized for the first time in his life

like fr he's mean towards anyone but he didn't want you to feel bad pls forgive him :(

from then he tried to think about what he wanted to say before actually saying it

you're lucky fr

you're his only exception

like hanako tho he doesn't ask questions about it

he actually gets the pronouns right

he felt comfortable enough to share his past with you

that's when he realized he took a liking towards you

he tried to talk about it to natsuhiko

bad idea

then he tried to talk to sakura about it

she suggested to confess to you but his ego is to big

so he decided to hint his interest towards you praying you would understeand them

when you confessed he acted so big but he was flustered in the inside 😸

; tsukasa :

let's be honest he doesn't even know what being trans means

you have to explain it to him

but he's still confused

he's a mess with the pronouns 😓

like hanako he doesn't see anything wrong with it

he spends a lot of time attached to you sm that you can't understand if it's because he likes you or its just normal for him

you could be start dating to a day from another

like ,, he will just state that you're his and that's it

good luck 😻

i hate how this turned out but i rll hope you like it 😓 i swear i will improve

[butchpositivity]

(HRT discussion cw) Are there other butch trans women who experience butch dysphoria? Like. I've been on E and my chest is bigger now, and that's mostly great, but not that they've had some time to grow...a little more than intended, sometimes I get dysphoric? Like, i love having them there but they're too big? So I actually wear a binder sometimes when how big they've gotten gets to me? But its never an "oh no i shouldn't have transitioned" its more like my tits just overshot the "butch" mark?

(same transfem butch) Or like. Just in general it feels like my dysphoria now has gone from mostly wanting womanhood at all in any form to specifically transitioning to *butch* womanhood, which means dancing around how to "look like a woman" while also trying to be butch and embrace masculinity in yourself? And it's just a weird back and forth of dysphoria?

i’m gonna put this out there for my butch trans women followers bc i feel like im probs not the best person to answer! but imo like that sounds totally understandable and normal for a trans butch, it reminds me of the article “M2B: Male to Butch” by,, Kelly something. i’ll find it and update with a link here later bc i feel like you’d feel very seen in her words !

edit: ok so i was thinking of Kylie Paintain! Here’s the article i mentioned :o)

[mordeiswrld]

“Im drained...im unmotivated...im tired...im done. So many hurtful things have been said to me by the ones who were supposed to care for me...i still rememeber it, and some of it still goes on. Why do I remember the things that hurt me...?”

“Wear some makeup maybe that’ll make it better” -because i wouldnt smile for a picture i didnt wanna be in

“She’s a grown woman she knows what she’s doing”- my great grabdmother & mom when i got mad about my siblings (1-2 and 6-7 years old) being out without me and with my grandma who hasnt had a baby in over a decade

“You need to stop dressing that way”- my great grandma when i showed up to my her house in an oversized sweater

“Your too young”- my mom when i told her i wanted a binder and that i was a boy at 11-12 years old

“ive always wanted a boy”- my mom. Then she got what she wanted and started being ‘better’ as if she couldn’t do that with her 1st 2 kids

“Yeah mhm, or girl what?😒”-my mom, dismissing me whenever i try to tell her something im happy about

“You need to start talking to your grandparents”- my mom everytime i ask her for something, now im scared to ask since everything i ask for is “too much” even though she buys herself stuff everyday

“Ill talk to him”- my mom whenever me and my dad get into our fights...it never gets better and she never talks to him and always takes his side

“Shut the fuck up”- my dad whenever i try to explain something to him even if it’s not that serious(its never that serious)

“Stop being selfish”- my dad whenever i say no to my siblings using my stuff that is strictly MINE and that i dont have to share if i dont want to

“Watch your brother” my dad almost all the time everyday and they’ll just be lying around doing nothing with the excuse of ‘i work i need a break’ you dont need a break all damn week while i have to go to school and handle your wild 3 year old while your in your mid 30s

“Sounds like a personal problem” my mom whenever i tell her that I genuinely can't handle my siblings and am on the verge of snapping (violently)

“Maybe if you had a bedtime then yknow...i dont wanna have to say it”- my mom around her friend talking about my low grade in a class and thinking its bc of electronics when in reality my mental health is in hell and ive been crying more than usual and i dont have the motivation to keep pushing on anymore, but she thinks im up at 12:30 bc of a phone...

“Congratulations”- my mom when i show her my all As. But won’t be as nice and be a bit irritated that i got a low C in something she knows I struggle in

“I'm so proud of you”- my dad hugging me for the straight As. He doesnt hug me ever and he never says those words to me. Not even when its a minor accomplishment

“Has your father ever told you he loves you?” my mom years ago in a random parking lot that got me realizing last week that he never says he loves me willingly, he has to be forced

“I'm obligated to be there” my grandfather after getting married and never calling us to see how we are

“Your ___ eye is bigger than your ___” my friend. I always liked my eyes growing up...not anymore

“She ugly as hell” my 9th grade classmate he just says it whenever he can. I dont even have to be talking to him

It’s getting worse day by day...nothing i do is enough...im tired..

admin zjay

[sucktacular]

okay so while taking it off is kinda a huge pain in the ass I LOVE TRANS TAPE??? gonna ramble about it for a sec

It's been an absolute game changer. I get really dysphoric about bra bands on my ribs and binders have been very uncomfortable and bulky and hot and yucky and I just can't comfortably wear them very often. THe best binder Ive had is my velcro closure tritop but anyway

trans tape... wow... on days I dont need to be completely flat I can just slap one piece on and get myself back down to like a small A cup and wowowow so comfy AND AND AND I CAN WALK AROUND THE HOUSE WITHOUT WORRYING MY NIPS AND BOOBS ARE FLOPPING ABOUT IN FRONT OF POTENTIAL ROOMMATES!!! its really great as an alternative to a bra honestly???

idk ive been using it for a few months now and I really love it. wear it for 5 days and then it comes off easily with some medical goo gone (i know you can use oil but idk i didnt have much luck with it so i just went straight to the medical adhesive remover that is body safe) the only hang up is the adhesive likes to stick around so it takes a couple passes and washes to come off before I can put a shirt on... so im in the bathroom for like an hour trying to get it all off otherwise my arms stick to my ribs and its painful to peel yourself apart skjdhfkjsdh or your shirts will stick to you. BUT the goo gone stuff helps a lot to wipe it off

anyway yeah uhhhh if you cant wear binders or dont like binders it might be worth trying trans tape or similar tapes??? esp if you have a smaller chest cuz youll probably get easily flat with it + the freedom of your bare chest im very excited for hot boy summer and not being SWEATY binder boy summer

for ref i gained a bit in my chest the past couple years and i think im maybe like a solid B cup? maybe? idk i wear a large calvin kline bra anyway definitely like an A cup on my chill just vibing days layer up a bunch of clothes and you cant even tell you got a chest

[zaenight]

Chapter 4

Continues from chapter 3.....

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"Here put this on." José said passing some gear to the boys.

"You gonna pitch to us?" Pete questioned.

"You could say that." Ethal said as the four laughed.

"Im getting a bad feeling." Brad said as they heard a knock.

"Yoohoo!" a woman exclaimed as another batboy entered.

"Well now! who's this?" Luca said , oh this poor woman had no Idea what her child will go through.

"That's francis! he works with us." Lucy said walking over.

"Didn't want to miss the sleepover." The blonde told them.

"Oh no way , can't miss out on all the fun , Hey! glad to have you francis my man." José said as Lucy had his hands on his shoulders.

"Don't forget to brush your teeth and take your benadrill(?)." The blonde said

blowing a kiss as Lucy waved,wacking the boy once the mother was out of sight.

José then threw his bag,and locked the door as Luca turned off the lights.

"What's going on?" francis questioned as they started laughing.

"It's hell night , what isn't going on?" Luca said with a smirk.

first they pitched to them in the batting cage , machine full speed,they yelled out ows and ouches, oh the brusies these boys would have,no matter how much padding they were wearing.

secondly they made them sing the star spangled banner as they squirted them with Ketchup and mustard, oh and Pickles, oh and Luca may or may not have dumped mayonoise on them.

thirdly they pushed them in a laundry bin full speed , making them human bowling balls.

And right now the three boys were scrubbing the floors with toothbrushes , and Luca wanted a shower , and Luca gets what Luca wants.

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Hey scrubs look like your working up a sweat." José told them.

"Maybe you need somthing to cool ya down?" Luca said as the four drank from their beer cans.

They then made them get into ice baths,the boys were screaming and shivering as the four hollered and laughed.

The phone then rang as Luca told them to hush up , answering the phone.

"Clubhouse!,Just a minute." Luca said waving an arm to cutoff the music.

"Yo Petey its for you , Mommy wants to speak with you." Luca snickered , voice going normal , to the guys it sounded like Luca was mocking Pete in a high pitched voice , but in reality Gabriella gets tired of using a deep voice and its cracks.

"Damn you really sounded like a chick for a minute." Ethal said.

"I have many talants." Luca whispered as Her and José leaned down listening to Pete

speaking to his mother.

"Ha-hello?,G-great ra-really great!,I w-won't goodnight." Pete said shivering as José hung up the phone,They laughed at the boys .

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"Ready Go!" José yelled as the three boys spinned with their forheads on bats.

"Five times around." He said.

"Thats one!" Luca yelled.

"C'mon fatboy." One of the boys said to brad.

Francis dropped the bat prompting José to say he better pick it up.

They then gave them eggs on a spoon , the three racing to the field.

"Yo Im gonna take a shower!" Luca said to them , the three were taunting the boys , José nodded .

She could hear them chanting , she really hoped they weren't doing anything

stupid,Taking off her clothes , her chest binder , and her hair out of her really tight bun.

She started the shower,steam covered Everything.

Speaking of the boy's they put poor Francis in the dryer , the boy crying for help , the other two saying to stop,they almost got a heart attack when they thought Francis stopped breathing,he didn't,but he was freaked , when José took things to far Luca usually wacks him over the head and may or may not have broke his nose once.

But Luca wasn't their to keep him in line now , was she?

The boy had puked on José causing the three to gag .

"It's not on my saint sebastion medal." José said taking it off , placing it on the washing machine.

"hey lets go look at Lou's porn stash!" The other two exclaimed going out of the room still gagging.

"Im gonna go take a shower to get this puke off me." José said walking to the showers , Luca not having any Idea as She dried her hair off , Her Chest binders already on along with her underwear.

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"Yo Luca you in He- Woah!" José exclaimed seeing Luca?,who started cursing him in spanish.

"I- Can explain- Yes Im a chick , and - STOP LOOKING!" 

Gabriella Yelled covering herself .

"I-you , Eres una niña, tú- ¡por qué no me lo dijiste! , jesus , mi mejor amiga es una chica!? , ¿Alguna vez me ibas a decir?" José said , he wasn't mad , he just felt lied too.

(Your a girl , you- why didn't you tell me! , jesus , my bestfriend is a chick!? , Were you ever gonna tell me?)

"Okay , I - My dad and the others have a bet going on , I wanted to tell you I did , but then I knew if I told you you wouldn't look at me the same , your not even looking at me right now." Luc- No Gabriella said to him.

"Your in a towell Im giving you privacy , guess I know why you don't look at me when I have my shirt off, Two years Luca , two years we've known eachother,you thought you couldn't trust me or somthing !?" José exclaimed.

"I wanted to tell you , I was going to tell you  a year ago , on that trip we took , but then the guys came in , sent you to do somthing." Gabriella said.

"I remember , they looked like they were plotting somthing , and I guess that's why your dad always slips up, Híjole! is that why your always so moody once a mon-OW!" José says thinking back,Exclaiming as he got wacked.

"I-Shut up!,Assuming you went to far because of the puke." Gabriella said wacking him again.

"No-Maybe,Look Im not mad , Okay I am - Wait Mom knew didn't she! That's why she likes you!" José exclaimed.

"My time of the month came a bit early once , the extra matress was stained ,that's how she found out,Are you mad,your mad , I'll leave and never com- Actually I can't do that Dad forces me to come here for extra credit." Gabriella said puting on a Black long sleeve and basket ball shorts.

"Lu- Is that even your name!" José exclaimed , he was going through it , damn She owes him for life.

"Guess I should re-introduced myself , Hi im

Gabriella "Luca" Tavares I'm the second best bat boy or in my case girl, and I really hope nothing is going to change between us." She stated.

José realized why he felt the way he felt , because in the back of his mind he knew

somthing was up , he knew why H-She never did things like come into the clubhouse without her eyes covered , never wore clothing that wasn't baggy , and never took of her hat , and he never see's her Play baseball alot , She would pitch but never was seen practicing , and Carlos would always make excuses for her to why She couldn't do this or that.

"I always knew somthing was off , but it was worth it , Cause I know no matter what

I'll always have you by my side,as my bestfriend , and as my - Girl?, which sounds really weird to say, Damn I've been hitting a chick!" He said.

"Yeah you have - But you better not treat me any different!" Gabriella sais pointing at him.

"Yea-yeah , I think I always knew , and I think I always Liked- no loved you , Boy or girl , and I didn't act on it , cause I didn't want our relationship to be ruined." José said as He took of his puke covered shirt.

"I - so we should- I should - Don't tell my dad you saw me half nsked , Imma go!" Gabriella exclaimed.

"Lu- Gabriela! , I meant it." José said.

"You did?" She questioned.

" I did , and I would totally kiss you right now if I didn't smell like puke , and we should probably take it slow- if you want our relationship to go there , do you want go there?" José asked , giving those puppy eyes he does.

honestly if you were to see the two of them you could say they were an alternate version of Eric and Jack or sean and Corey from boy meets world , you know with the plot twist were Bestfriend finds out the other is a girl , and they fall for eachother , Blah blah blah.

Anyways.....

"Don't give me those eyes - but yeah I would like that - I would like that alot actually, Also don't tell those four morons , I still wanna screw with them." She said as he let out a laugh.

"You meant it right? , nothings gonna change?" She said as she heard the shower start.

"I meant it ! , Luca , or Gabriella , now go see what they're doing." He exclaimed back.

She than left the restroom and José could have sworn a loud yes , Did he fall in love , yes he did , was it a plot twist , yeah it was.

Speaking of those morons they were up to no good.

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Im not even don with this episode yet lmao stay tuned for part three 🤣🤣

[slutdge]

........really considering a name change tbh

[theygender]

We impulse buy in this house and that's that

[virmillion]

I understand the desire to be out in the middle of the night. But the precieved girl-ness of me (genderfluid/non-binary/???) Means it's not safe and that sucks. ❄️

oh yeehaw it’s absolute Trash my dude like i’m transmasc but i don’t present that way in the Slightest bc word gets around and uhhhhhhhh the fam Does Not Know This Yet so. we just sit at a chair and bounce out our leg jitters to make up for the fact that we can’t banshee sprint across the country at midnight

[pinemothhs]

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