#i hate being disabled

[supermaliciousmoi]

does anyone else feel like their entire family secretly looks down on them or are you not disabled

[fuk0una-g1rl]

I'm so fucking tired of being disabled this is so fucking exhausting! I can't even handle three days of college!!!!! I can't stand for too long! I can't fucking do shit anymore!!! I keep falling on the bus! I keep not being able to get on the bus to get home because there's no seating available! I don't want to be in pain anymore!!!! I hate my walking stick it's annoying and damaged and ugly and ugh but it helps! Being disabled is the worst thing to ever happen to anyone! I used to do gymnastics and dancing and I can't do those anymore!!!!! I'm a fucking artist and it's painful for me!!! I wish I was never born! I wish I never got worse! I wish I was never sick but no I'm chronically ill!

[catwouthats]

I know even after I spell it out, yall won’t understand. But whatever. This is what it’s like for me to be disabled:

Not socializing to save energy

Not letting yourself fall in love to save energy

Not crying to save energy

Not having a social life

Not having a love life

Not having the ability to cry

Saving up energy for times when you have to face doctors

Saving up energy for times when you have to speak up for yourself

Saving up energy for emotional conversations

Never getting a diagnosis

Never getting listened to

Never getting to put your plans to actions

And when I get emotional about it, it’s on me.

I could have saved the energy I used for yelling for five minutes to go on a 5 day trip apparently.

Sure. That makes sense.

I have to keep repressing my emotions if they are draining me that much, even though I literally am getting more emotional and mentally unstable as my brain literally changes and even though I’m literally human and shouldn’t have to in the first place

But sure! That makes sense!

There is a difference between helping a disabled person get better and pushing them past their limits constantly to the point where you are abusing them.

Learn the difference.

Grow up.

Stop.

[klutzykelzy]

“i long to be loved, i long to be in their arms.”

you & i couldn’t be more different… i long to be able to function, to be able to leave my house or even my bed. i long to have relief from my daily pain. i don’t give a fuck about being loved; i want to be able to live… all i do is suffer & survive.

[jelly-ellie-bean404]

I wish I had a body I could love

[interskyned]

merry christmas from the ER, they have no idea what’s wrong as of right now but this is my sixth (yes, SIXTH) time here since stomach surgery and my tests are indicating either some kidney problem or a fucking blood clot!!!!!!

[kigu]

Don’t feel that everyone in life is ahead of you! Thinking you’re behind in living is the mind killer because everyone has different circumstances and different experiences so it’s impossible to have a set “this is where I should be at age x” Anyway why is everyone around me successful and I’m wayyyyy behind I’m so late it’s EMBARRASSING

[myk-talks-disability-life]

love sitting in front of Costco for 30 minutes waiting for a motor cart bc im disabled and cant shop at all without one. Love how much they care abt their disabled customers with their SIX CARTS FOR THE ENTIRE WAREHOUSE /negative

[cherry-pop-elf]

Typical Friday Night

So yeah. I’ve been prescribed Zepbound to help me lose weight. Due to being on multiple medications, my fibro, and binge eating disorder, it made it extremely difficult to lose weight.

It’s a good send, but my fibro makes its so painful to take. I will scream and cry every time. But I have no choice.

Being alive is hard. So how I cope is pretending that George Weasley would give me my shots and help me with my meds. Because sometimes you gotta be a little insane to be alive

[ruger35mm]

if you think that “every other disabled person gets a job and worth [sic] through their diseases” you are incredibly stupid and a terrible feminist. many, many disabled people are homeless or kill themselves because they cannot support themselves. many disabled women are financially tethered to abusive men because they cannot support themselves. your politics are nothing but an expression of cruelty and will never result in anything beneficial for anyone

Person I made fun of has ME/CFS- most of the time sufferers do not eat a clean diet, workout daily, and have high screen times. But rather than work to rewind the problems, they’ll self diagnose an actual disability. But these people don’t WANT to be better- they enjoy e begging online and ordering Skip the Dishes twice a day.

I actually have severe ME/CFS and I work everyday. Don’t drink coffee, don’t eat endless junk, take ADHD stimulants to stimulate synthetic energy. Why are all the people in the comments claiming ME/CFS - you find that out from being tired from everyday activities - not laying around in bed all day and being surprised and distraught your body isn’t as strong.

Are you actively fighting against your government systems or are you just complaining online & using these people as fodder for your online fights?

Again, you won’t catch me taking free handouts from the government to buy my complacency!! :P

[258punkweight]

i rly want a puppy but ik i wouldn't be able to take care of one :<

[science-my-ass-ed-its-magic]

I WANT TO WORK!!!! I WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL FULL TIME!!!! I WANT HOBBIES!!!! I WANT TO CONTRIBUTE TO SOCIETY!!!!!

[vijaxx]

i hate having fucking adhd, like why can’t i be normal? i take my meds but i feel fucking stupid. i get so angry at like nothing. i can’t take care of myself, i can’t stop the noise in my head, i can’t clean my room without taking literally 6 hours, and my adhd works hand in hand with doubling my anxiety. what the actual fuck? i hate being disabled and neurodivergent, i wish i was normal. i wish i could be on my feet all day and running and walking like a normal person without collapsing. i wish i was more visibly disabled because then people would actually respect my disability and not disrespect my boundaries until i am physically in pain and hurt. WHY THE FUCK ARE MY SCHOOLS DISABILITY AIDS CALLING MY DISABILITY FAKE AND AN EXCUSE? god i hate my school and i hate how weird i am.

[catwouthats]

Doing art therapy because I had a traumatic medical experience and don’t have a therapist to talk about it with 👍

[pupptstarboy]

I don't like feeling icky :(

[wheelchairtetris]

ok so i was able to schedule an appointment with a different provider for friday. keeping my appointment with my pcp for January for follow up/yearly physical. i am nervous about a different provider because there are so many things wrong and my pcp is the only one at the clinic who has seen me consistently. and i had to really move my work schedule around. i feel like there is Too Much Wrong and that i won't get anything i need :-(