#i hate being disabled

[catwouthats]

I know even after I spell it out, yall won’t understand. But whatever. This is what it’s like for me to be disabled:

Not socializing to save energy

Not letting yourself fall in love to save energy

Not crying to save energy

Not having a social life

Not having a love life

Not having the ability to cry

Saving up energy for times when you have to face doctors

Saving up energy for times when you have to speak up for yourself

Saving up energy for emotional conversations

Never getting a diagnosis

Never getting listened to

Never getting to put your plans to actions

And when I get emotional about it, it’s on me.

I could have saved the energy I used for yelling for five minutes to go on a 5 day trip apparently.

Sure. That makes sense.

I have to keep repressing my emotions if they are draining me that much, even though I literally am getting more emotional and mentally unstable as my brain literally changes and even though I’m literally human and shouldn’t have to in the first place

But sure! That makes sense!

There is a difference between helping a disabled person get better and pushing them past their limits constantly to the point where you are abusing them.

Learn the difference.

Grow up.

Stop.

[klutzykelzy]

“i long to be loved, i long to be in their arms.”

you & i couldn’t be more different… i long to be able to function, to be able to leave my house or even my bed. i long to have relief from my daily pain. i don’t give a fuck about being loved; i want to be able to live… all i do is suffer & survive.

[xbratouttahellx]

Fuck fuck fuck I just had a bill come out of my account and I have a payment coming out tomorrow that I no longer have enough money to pay 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

I only need like $20 to cover it!

Any sales, tips, or mutual aid would be so so appreciated! If you can’t help monetarily any reblogs or boosts of my posts would be helpful!

C$sh@pp is $xbratouttahellxx or click my links!

[himbofur]

Don’t feel that everyone in life is ahead of you! Thinking you’re behind in living is the mind killer because everyone has different circumstances and different experiences so it’s impossible to have a set “this is where I should be at age x” Anyway why is everyone around me successful and I’m wayyyyy behind I’m so late it’s EMBARRASSING

[chronicpain-itsastruggle]

love sitting in front of Costco for 30 minutes waiting for a motor cart bc im disabled and cant shop at all without one. Love how much they care abt their disabled customers with their SIX CARTS FOR THE ENTIRE WAREHOUSE /negative

[cherry-pop-elf]

Typical Friday Night

So yeah. I’ve been prescribed Zepbound to help me lose weight. Due to being on multiple medications, my fibro, and binge eating disorder, it made it extremely difficult to lose weight.

It’s a good send, but my fibro makes its so painful to take. I will scream and cry every time. But I have no choice.

Being alive is hard. So how I cope is pretending that George Weasley would give me my shots and help me with my meds. Because sometimes you gotta be a little insane to be alive

[ruger35mm]

if you think that “every other disabled person gets a job and worth [sic] through their diseases” you are incredibly stupid and a terrible feminist. many, many disabled people are homeless or kill themselves because they cannot support themselves. many disabled women are financially tethered to abusive men because they cannot support themselves. your politics are nothing but an expression of cruelty and will never result in anything beneficial for anyone

Person I made fun of has ME/CFS- most of the time sufferers do not eat a clean diet, workout daily, and have high screen times. But rather than work to rewind the problems, they’ll self diagnose an actual disability. But these people don’t WANT to be better- they enjoy e begging online and ordering Skip the Dishes twice a day.

I actually have severe ME/CFS and I work everyday. Don’t drink coffee, don’t eat endless junk, take ADHD stimulants to stimulate synthetic energy. Why are all the people in the comments claiming ME/CFS - you find that out from being tired from everyday activities - not laying around in bed all day and being surprised and distraught your body isn’t as strong.

Are you actively fighting against your government systems or are you just complaining online & using these people as fodder for your online fights?

Again, you won’t catch me taking free handouts from the government to buy my complacency!! :P

[258punkweight]

i rly want a puppy but ik i wouldn't be able to take care of one :<

[science-my-ass-ed-its-magic]

I WANT TO WORK!!!! I WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL FULL TIME!!!! I WANT HOBBIES!!!! I WANT TO CONTRIBUTE TO SOCIETY!!!!!

[wheelchairtetris]

ok so i was able to schedule an appointment with a different provider for friday. keeping my appointment with my pcp for January for follow up/yearly physical. i am nervous about a different provider because there are so many things wrong and my pcp is the only one at the clinic who has seen me consistently. and i had to really move my work schedule around. i feel like there is Too Much Wrong and that i won't get anything i need :-(

[the-raindeer-king]

GUESS WHO HAD TO CHANGE THEIR CGM SENSOR TWICE TODAY BECAUSE THE FIRST ONE LITERALLY POPPED OUT OF MY ARM??

IT WAS ME!! I'M SO FUCKING MAD. 😤

ON TOP OF THAT, I'M FUCKING ALLERGIC TO THE SENSOR ADHESIVE. SO THERE'S THAT TOO

[winterswordsx]

being poor really wears down ur mental health after a while lol

[dragonmistressivy]

I wish i could open the gun safe in the garage so i could shoot my brains out. I am fucking finished with this miserable life that will only get worse. And anyone who twlls me it will get better is a fucking liar. I have seen what my parents are like or my bio mom is like. How most people turn out especially disabled or trans people let alone trans disabled people. I am not living to see the day i have to suffer even more. But i can’t fucking kill myself out of fear, guilt, and nothing effective to end myself with. I wish euthanasia was legal. We pur dogs down if they are suffering without their consent but we won’t allow yt doen a human who wants to be put down so they don’t suffer anymore. What is with that hypocrisy? I hatw humanity. Why did i have to be born? I almost died so many time in the womb or not long after why didn’t i just fucking die. I hate you doctors for “saving” my life. All you did was doom me to a life of suffering. I hate it. Why can’t i just fucking die. Maybe if i drink the whole bottle of cold meds and all the orher meds in the medicine cabinet i will die. I sm done with this reality and have been for years but it just gets worse and worse but i can’t leave it. All i want is to be an able bodied cis girl but neither are possible in this life. One is very much because of my fucking bio mom doing drugs amd getting sepsis from self harm when she had me. I am so fucking pissed. I am so fucking sad about the life I could have had if only. If only. I could have been happy or at least less empty and less depressed and less self hateful. I hope i am like a fairy princess in my next life or something similar because of this fucking hellish existence. I know it could be so much fucking worse as i am reminded a lot by my dad. Thanks dad for reminding me that my bio mom dos drugs and is homeless and has fucked yp so many people by having kids well on drugs /s i want the next life now. Tho i do know the exact kind of person i would be. I would become one of those super self centered rich girls who don’t care about others. I know that is who i would become but i need out of this one so fucking bad i would take it. Someone please put me down. Pretty please

[pallas-cat]

finally found a cleaning service specialized in lower income/more vulnerable ppl im going to cry

[render-bomb]

Does anyone else with a chronic illness get frustrated with their to do list? Like old me could do all of it within an hour or so, no problem, and still be able to do more. But new me needs to take breaks in between each small task, sometimes having to break those small tasks into even smaller tasks. Cleaning the bedroom is now, strip the bed, break, put new sheets on, break (sometimes with a break between putting sheet on and duvet cover on), dust, break, vacuum. So instead of the task being one item, it's now 3-4 items. Plus I still have the other items on my list to do

[chronicpain-itsastruggle]

You know what’s humiliating? Waiting for 20 minutes in the freezing cold in front of Costco on a monday night at 7pm because there are no motor carts

I quite literally cannot walk and shop in this giant store. WHY ARE THERE ABT 4 MOTOR CARTS FOR THE BIGGEST STORE IN MILES